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Testing. Why is it not working?

Testing. Is it working?

For some reason, when I tried to stream

using Streamlabs, it kept disconnecting.

So now I'm streaming directly from the

Twitch app. Seems like it's working now.

I don't

understand why it won't work when I use

Streamlabs. Maybe because it's the iPhone.

Streamlabs has always been kind of buggy

on the iPhone. Maybe I should stream on my

Android. Maybe I should get a new phone.

Maybe I should get a new Android phone for

my new Twitch career. Yeah, I'll get that

flip-screen one. Imagine having 2 screens.

I wonder if that would be better. No, I

won't. I guess I'll use

Twitch. The Twitch app. It's just a shame

because I like Streamlabs. You can have

like the donation goal on

the screen. Maybe I can just write my own

donation goal here.

Donation. I don't want donations actually.

I'd rather have subs. How do I get rid of

Oh, where's the delete button? Oh no, no,

not that.

No. Okay,

my sub goal.

See, who needs Streamlabs widgets?

Sub goal 8 out

of 15. I would like

15 subs. I've got 8.

Okay,

there you go.

Don't need widgets, got an iPad.

You lost weight?

I think I got a bit, bit of chub. On my

Do you like my hair? I cut

it today.

Welcome to my stream.

What are we doing? I don't know.

Maybe I'll make tea.

Why did I buy an iPad? I bought an iPad

like 2 years ago to do drawing.

Maybe I'll make a community post on

YouTube.

Wait, um, how do I link it?

twitch.com/ Daniel.

Why don't I stream gameplay? I don't know,

I don't really feel like playing.

I already played all day, and it's hard

to talk and play at the same time.

Streaming now on Twitch.

Paste. Why can't I paste? Paste public

post.

Dragon's Den,

brand new series tomorrow. But I can't

watch it because people are coming. I have

to hide in my room.

Would I like to go to Japan right now? I

don't know. If they opened up tomorrow

and I could go tomorrow, would I go?

I don't know.

I'm kind of planning to meet someone, but

it's a secret. But I don't know if we're

100% gonna meet.

She said she wants to meet, but you know,

you can't always believe women. They

change their mind all the time.

If Chihiro asks if you want to marry

again, would you take her up? Is that even

possible? Can you do that? Won't they be

like, you can't get married again, it's

suspicious?

What happened? Are you scared to talk

about Pia? I don't know.

I don't even know if that many people know

about the whole Pia situation. There's

like 5 people.

It's been a week and in total I've had

like 4 people ask about it. So I feel like

people don't even— number one, they don't

even know about what happened.

Trust me, it's a lot more than 5. Really?

Then how come no one is saying anything

that I know of?

I only had about 4 comments saying what

happened with Pia. Discord? Yeah, I don't

use Discord, so I don't know what's going

on.

Don't really want to talk about it, to be

It's kind of annoying, really.

The whole situation was just really

annoying.

I don't know if I want to get into it.

Where's my pipe?

Your Discord self-regenerated. Yeah, I

know, a bunch of people making like

spin-off Hiding in My Room servers.

And I got fed up with Discord because it's

always the same annoying people trying to

stir up drama.

They're so childish. It's always like, oh

my God, look what Chihiro said! Oh my God,

look at what Daniel's mum said! Oh look,

I sent Daniel a dildo! Hehehehe! Jeez,

are you 10 years old? Grow up, for fuck's

sake.

Just got fed up with it. Trying to have a

serious conversation and then just got a

bunch of weirdos talking about Chihiro's

panties or something. That's why I got rid

Nearly out of my banana vape. Not sure

where I put all my e-liquids. I just

shoved them into the drawer.

Are you watching the trial of George

Floyd? Oh, so that's why they keep going

on about Black Lives Matter again on TV.

I thought the whole thing was over and

done with, and then 2 days in a row the

news was just all about Black Lives

Matter racist stuff. How come whenever

they talk about racism, it's always about

black people? What about Asian people?

We suffer racism too, and we're even more

of a minority than black people. Where's

the Asian Lives Matter? No one gives a

crap about us little Asian guys getting

beaten up on the streets of Rotterdam.

Barely anything in the news about Asian

discrimination.

Just feels like we're completely un—

What's the word? Unrepresented.

There's not— I can't think of a single

East Asian male or female personality

on the TV in England. You've got loads of

Black personalities and Indian

personalities. There's not a single male

Asian guy. Well, there's Gok Wan, I guess.

He was on TV for a bit, but he's not

exactly a role model of masculinity, is

he? Where are all the bloody Asian guys

on English TV? At least American TV has

some Asian guys. In England,

there's not a single Asian guy.

I mean, like Chinese or East Asian, not

India. It's just weird.

Asian people don't get murdered by a

police officer, but they get beaten up on

the streets just for looking Asian.

I think I got beaten up on the street in

Rotterdam just because I look Asian. I

think that's one of the reasons.

There was this other Asian British guy who

was on TV for a very, very short time. He

was like this scientist guy. I forgot his

name. He was like one of those Brian Cox

kind of scientist people, but he was

barely on TV for very long.

Do you know, I'm kind of bored listening

about this stuff. You turn on the news

wondering what's going on in the world and

they're just always going on and on about

the same nonsense. Oh, I've already heard

Why can't they talk about something

interesting?

Like that big boat that got stuck in the

river, the Suez Canal. They didn't even

say how it got unstuck.

Okay, so who wants to know what happened

with Pia? I guess If you're

really twisting my arm, I guess I could

give a quick explanation about what

And I'm not making drama content anymore.

So yeah, I could have made a big video

about it and it would have been content,

but I already said I'm not doing this kind

of girl drama stuff anymore because I'm

sick and tired of it.

Okay, so I can't

even remember now. Maybe a few weeks ago,

me and Pia— if you don't know who Pia is,

she is a girl who I met in London after my

dad died 2 years ago. And then I got in

lots of trouble with my wife because she

found out about it, and then she found out

again that we were chatting when I was in

Japan. She's in the video I made called

Why I Slept with My Fan.

So a couple weeks ago we started messaging

again. She asked me if I liked her, and I

just said that when we met you had short

hair, but now you have longer hair, so I

think you look nicer. I said if,

if you break up If you and

Cesium are no longer together, then we

could meet up later in London.

So I didn't say I'm gonna be your new

boyfriend. I didn't say I'm interested in

dating you. I just tried to keep it casual

because I know she's with Cesium, so I

didn't want to interfere or get involved.

That's all I said. And then all of a

sudden, Cesium drives all

the way from Somerset, which is like 2

hours away from me, in the middle of the

night and just drops Pia off at my house.

And I told her not to come because my mum

won't be happy, but they came anyway. And

I woke up 4 AM in the morning and she's

just sitting on the doorstep asking to be

let into the house. So what else can I do?

I let her in the house and she stayed the

night, and then the

next day we took her to a hotel,

and that's it really.

Not really much else to say, to be honest.

And then stupid Cesium started messaging

Chihiro all of a sudden, telling Chihiro

that I broke them up and I stole his

girlfriend and I promised to be Pia's new

boyfriend and I ruined their relationship.

It is so stupid, but I don't think Cesium

is dumb. I think he's either trolling or

he's mentally ill. I'm leaning towards

trolling. But he just suddenly started

spamming Chihiro messages. I don't know

why. It has nothing to do with Chihiro.

We're not even together anymore. So then

Chihiro starts messaging me saying,

what's going on?

It's all so stupid.

So then I had to explain what was going on

to Chihiro.

Well, now I just explain it like that, it

doesn't seem like it was much of a big

deal. It seemed like a big deal at the

But yeah, if they come again, my mum said

she's gonna phone the police. This is the

second time Bloody Cesium comes to my

house, and it's

out of order. I don't want people coming

to my house. I made that pretty clear,

and he obviously doesn't care.

So I don't know, I am thinking about

reporting it to the police as harassment,

although he hasn't really done anything

threatening, but I'm looking into options.

I don't understand what he expected would

happen. Do you think Pia was just gonna

live here forever? This isn't

my house. This is my mum's house.

Messing with me is one thing, but then now

you're starting to drag my family into it.

It's not cool.

And next time someone just comes to my

house, I'm not gonna open the door. I'm

just gonna phone the police. It's not

funny. It's disturbing.

Fucking annoying, to be honest.

Did I open the door for him? No, he wasn't

here when I went downstairs. He already

He only comes at night. The first time he

came was in Christmas, and he came in the

evening. And I swear I didn't hear a car

pull up. I didn't see any car lights. So

I'm thinking the first time he came, he

also parked by the road. He didn't come

near the house. And then this time as well

was the middle of the night.

So that's what happened.

It's kind of annoying because I'm getting

fed up with this Cesium guy. He keeps

causing me problems. Like, the last 4, 4

big problems I had over the last 2 years

were caused by him.

Like the Swedish girl who I met up with in

Osaka. Apparently it

was all set up by him.

The Hong Kong guy stuff was also started

because of him. Just fed up with him, to

I already told— I made like 5 different

videos recently talking about how I'm fed

up with meeting viewers and how I regret

leaving my wife. But obviously right now

I'm not interested in meeting girls or

having a girlfriend. I thought I made that

Am I friends with Elvis? I don't think so.

I messaged him a couple months ago when I

got that strike from Tim Schofield, and he

just like gave me a very short answer. He

didn't even say, how are you, Daniel?

What's up? How are things going? Like he

didn't give a shit.

He just gave me a one-sentence reply.

That's it. Sad, isn't it?

People just use you for content and then

afterwards they don't care.

Did I ask him how he was doing?

No. As if I would ask a guy how he was

doing.

Imagine, imagine thinking I would care.

That's funny.

Why are my livestream replays locked?

Well, I made it sub only because I don't

make any money off Twitch apart from if

people sub, so I need to give people some

kind of reason to sub. I don't get ads on

Twitch. This stupid Twitch won't make me a

partner. I applied again for partnership.

They still haven't replied.

They rejected me twice before.

Can I update the Discord? No, I'm not

doing Discord anymore. Every time I make a

Discord, always the same idiots keep

rejoining it. I wouldn't— I would like to

make a new Discord with new people, not

these weirdos who keep joining it. But

every time it's always the same weirdos.

I don't want them. They're just trouble.

Enable Streamlabs. I tried on the iPhone,

but the stream kept stopping for

some reason. Maybe I'll try Samsung

next time.

But in April 22nd,

I can stream again on YouTube, so I'm not

sure if I'll stick with Twitch. I always

end up going back to YouTube anyway.

I don't know, I just feel like YouTube is

better. All of my audience are on YouTube,

not Twitch. It's very hard getting people

over here on Twitch. And then I don't even

make any ad revenue,

so I just find very little incentive to

stay on Twitch. I don't know why YouTubers

stream on Twitch, to be honest.

There's a lot, like even RiceGum streams

on Twitch now. Some people say, oh,

RiceGum fell off, he, he's irrelevant

now. You know, RiceGum gets like 20K

viewers on Twitch now, just sitting around

smoking and chatting. I don't think that's

falling off. He's got like 15,000 subs on

Twitch.

But why doesn't he just stream on YouTube?

He's got like 10 million subs on his

channel. Why— he just let his channel die

and he went over to Twitch. I don't know

why he thinks Twitch— maybe Twitch does

pay more. I just feel like he would get

way more on YouTube where his audience

but it seems like all the popular

YouTubers apart from PewDiePie they all

stream over on Twitch. Maybe it's to like

diversify in case, you know, to branch

out from YouTube a bit. Some people also

say there's this algorithm thing where if

you keep streaming on YouTube on your

channel, the algorithm messes your channel

up or something.

And then people say Twitch has better

features. I think they're the same. Don't

really see what's the difference.

I've been looking— I've been watching a

lot of videos about the whole CX Network

and all those IRL streamers who were big

when Ice Poseidon was big. They all kind

of just faded away Loads of them got their

channels deleted and just kind of

vanished. It's kind of depressing, isn't

it? I was watching this guy on YouTube

called Internet AJ. He's got all these

videos about all the CX Network streamers

and how they fell from

fame. All those people, weren't there?

Like Hampton Brandon.

Mexican Andy, Only Use Me

Blade. They were so toxic that

all the content just was, was all based

around being a toxic idiot in public and

annoying people with the text-to-speech

donations. Sam Pepper as well.

But they were really popular back then for

doing all that stuff. But they were so

toxic and problematic. Seems like only Ice

is still doing streams and stuff, but he's

not doing the same stuff he used to.

And now with COVID and the lockdown, it's

just like the final nail in the coffin for

IRL. Look at Andy Milonakis. Milonakis. I

can never say his name. He fell off big as

well.

They all kind of crashed and burned with

the collapse of the CX Network, with Ice

at the top. When Ice fell, they all kind

of fell with him. Asian Andy, I guess he,

he still does pretty well, but he's still

doing the whole cringe text-to-speech

stuff in public. He hasn't really been

very active recently.

But it's like that whole scene sort of

died, didn't it?

It was some pretty good drama. A lot of

just stupid dumb fighting outside in

public and doing cringe stuff.

I think it kind of went— it went too far,

especially with all the swatting and the

bomb threats. There's this one guy called

Arab Andy, and he was called ISIS

Poseidon because he looked just like Ice

Poseidon, but he was Arabian. And he would

go around with a loudspeaker with these

bomb countdown announcements, and he got

arrested. And then he quit streaming

because he realized that his viewers just

kind of wanted him to do this crazy stuff

in public and get in trouble for their

entertainment. They didn't really care

about him as a person. I think most of the

IRL streamers realized this and then got

fed up. I kind of realized it too,

and I got fed up. That's why I stopped

doing all the drama. Train wreck stuff.

They're not really the kind of viewers you

want to have. They're just—

they're horrible. Makes you feel sad and

lonely.

But it's interesting.

2017, it was like the peak of

IRL streaming. Does anyone even do that

anymore? I don't think they do.

You know who I miss? There's this Korean

girl called Iamchoe,

and she used to do IRL streaming. She was

really cute, and I tried to find out what

happened to her because all of her clips

just kind of vanished, and her Twitch

channel is still there, but now it says I

am leaving and everything's been removed.

Apparently she had some kind of stalker.

And he would just stream snipe her every

time, and then she got angry and she

attacked him, and then her Twitch got

banned or something. And now there's

this ASMR channel called ASMR Chowa,

and people are speculating that it's her.

It could be. You can't really see her

face, but if that is her, she's done

pretty well. That channel got quite big.

It's the problem with these IRL streams.

It's all fun and games until you get these

obsessive stalkers who just ruin it.

If it wasn't for them, then I could have

carried on doing fun stuff outside,

but they just ruin it for everyone. They

ruin it for the streamer, they ruin it for

the fans. They're just selfish.

We're just trying to stream, you know,

have a good time, entertain people, do fun

stuff, and then you get these weirdos who

try and mess it up.

So now people just— they

do like gaming streams or they stream at

home.

I can't believe I used to do it as well.

I used to go outside and walk about

streaming. I don't think I'd do it now.

I'd be too worried that someone would show

up and try something. It's kind of funny,

back in 2017 I wasn't worried at all.

Kind of stupid, I guess. I guess I was

lucky that I was in Japan.

Do I still have an OnlyFans? Yes. I do.

It's funny, people still sub

to my OnlyFans. I haven't put anything

onto it in ages. I don't know what to put

onto it. I just try and find

old videos that I haven't uploaded yet and

I just upload that. But eventually I'm

gonna run out and I'm gonna have to make

something new.

It's kind of tricky. I don't

really feel like doing it at home because

my family's here. It's kind of weird,

isn't it, to make porn when your family's

in the next room?

Your streams would be better if you read

the chat and answer comments. Well, if

people ask questions, then I'll answer it,

but I'm not going to read out every single

I got this mouse. Do you want to see my

It's for pro gamers. Look at

that. But I'm a bit disappointed.

These buttons are rubbish. For some

reason, they're not very responsive. I can

press it and then nothing happens

sometimes, and sometimes it works.

I don't know why.

It's got this adjustable hand rest here.

And, um, it's got a

number 6 on the back.

I thought these side buttons would be

good, but they don't feel good to press

and they're not responsive. And when you

press them, the whole thing moves. Look,

it feels a bit flimsy,

so I am a bit disappointed with it. I wish

I got one of those Razer wireless,

and it's not wireless. I thought it would

be. I was sure one of those Razer wireless

or Logitech Pro wireless ones that

have like a simple design, but I thought

this looks interesting, so I got it. I

don't think it was a great purchase.

It's also really uncomfortable to click

down the wheel button. Maybe I'll get

used to it.

Do I still use more than one phone? Yeah,

I use— I don't really use it much, but I

still have my Samsung S10. I use my iPhone

X. I mean, I mean my iPhone 11. I mean my

iPhone 12 is what I use now.

When you use an iPhone, it's really

difficult to go back to Android. It just

It just feels nicer. I don't know why,

especially with the swipe gestures. You

can just swipe up and swipe left and

right. You can get around the phone a lot

quicker than you can on Android.

I've been working on artwork for my new

video. Let me show you.

So this is the thumbnail. I think it looks

pretty cool. I think I quite like

the design. I think it's very bold and

stands out.

And I made some new merch. Where's my new

merch? I made a cup and

I made a pencil case and

a t-shirt.

And that's an old cup.

Yeah, I think it looks quite nice.

I got this funny clip.

This guy, his body glitched, got stuck in

the staircase. So funny when that happens.

It happens usually when you have the

shotgun and then you shoot them

really close and they get stuck.

My sub goal. Oh, I did get a new

sub. Let me check. I should update it.

Dashboard.

It's annoying. Twitch dash.

Bit sad today. I lost my,

my biggest Patreon contributor. Deleted

his pledge this week, I think. That guy

who was giving me $100 every month for 4

years. He finally deleted it today.

Bit sad. Ah,

I can't find it on my

phone.

Oh, it says 9. Where's my pencil?

9. Yeah, he said, um, he decided to

finally delete the pledge because it— he

thinks it looks like I've given up on my

YouTube channel and I haven't posted

anything on Patreon. I don't

really know what to post on Patreon. I

don't have like special behind-the-scenes

footage. I don't have special content that

I could put on Patreon. If I had any

content, I'd put it onto my channels.

I can never get people to join it.

I just don't really have anything special

to offer, I guess.

I'm trying to get back into kind of like

storytime videos with a drawing,

an illustration, and then make merch with

the illustration. I think that's a good

idea.

It's just kind of tricky finding

stuff to talk about.

I think I have to start digging deep into

my memory banks to try and fish out some

stories or experiences, or maybe just

retell some stories but this time

illustrate it instead. I've,

I've got some videos that didn't get many

views from 4 years ago. I could redo

those. I'm pretty sure the people who saw

those videos aren't even around anymore.

I just don't really have many stories I

really want to talk about. Just feels like

I've talked so much in the past few years

that I've talked myself out. I'm all

talked out.

Why do I ignore chat? Because no one's

saying anything to respond to.

What have I been up to?

Mainly trying to

make money on stocks and doing some

drawing and playing Rainbow Six. I finally

broke even on 2 of my portfolios,

but my main portfolio is still down by

about £4,000.

Hopefully April would be a better month.

Do I plan on abandoning Twitch after I get

unbanned on YouTube? Not sure.

That's a tricky one.

Maybe I could carry on doing Twitch as

like a casual thing, you know, not really

caring about the content.

And then the main channel can be for

my highest quality content, if you can

call it that. And then the second channel

can be for whatever.

I don't know,

I just feel like I'd make more money if I

streamed on my main channel.

But then I feel like there's less pressure

on Twitch, and there's a lot less

pressure on my second channel. There's

more pressure on my main channel.

I want to do some cooking. I found a

barbecue in the garage. It's like one of

those mini barbecues. And we've got some

charcoal. I was thinking of barbecuing

some steak. There's also a bacon

curing kit on the— on Amazon. I thought I

could make my own bacon.

What are my plans in the summer?

Not sure.

I was thinking about going to London

for a bit, but I don't know if I can be

bothered anymore.

I just don't really see the point.

I think I want to focus on trying to make

some videos. Really getting

my channels back on track. I don't

think going to London is gonna get views

because it would just be me in an

apartment again, bored, and then whining

about noisy neighbors,

and then it would just cost me loads of

money. It doesn't

seem worth it.

That's why I never thought about getting

my own place. Everyone's always like, why

don't you move out? Because moving

out would cost me so much money,

and I'll be downgrading from living here

with a massive garden, living in a massive

house. I'd be downgrading from that to go

and live in a tiny horrible place in

London that would cost me all

this money. So I'm paying loads of money

to live in a worse place than I'm living

in here. That doesn't make any sense.

As cool as it sounds to say, yeah, I'm

living all on my own in London like an

adult,

It just seems stupid. It's like a waste of

resources, a waste of energy. The only

reason I'd move out is to move into a

place that's better than here.

Why would I— why would I— why

would I use 100% more energy and

money to live in a place that is not even

2% better than my current place?

It just doesn't make sense.

To feel independent. Yeah, that's the only

reason. But then you have to ask yourself,

how valuable is The feeling of feeling

independent. It's not really that

valuable to me.

I'd probably have to spend £1,500 a month

to get a fairly okay place

in a fairly okay area of London. I'm not

going to live in a horrible place and get

beaten up on the street again. And I have

to pay for all my food.

And then I won't be making more money

because I don't think people are going to

really care that much.

So I'm just going to be losing loads of

money, living in a worse place,

being scared to go outside because London

can be a bit scary. And then I won't have

places to play football unless I go to the

park, which I don't want to go to the

park. It just— it doesn't— there's too

many negatives. The negatives outweigh the

positives by too much.

The event in Rotterdam really scared you?

Yeah, it really affected me. I was always

quite confident. I'd never believed that I

would get attacked. For no good reason.

So maybe if I was being a dickhead in

public, like annoying people, it's

understandable. But I wasn't doing

anything wrong. I just walked down a

staircase and I got accused of throwing

stones at his car, which I didn't.

It was just completely unfair.

Completely undeserving. I didn't do

anything wrong. I just, I was just walking

along minding my own business and I got

attacked by this stupid man.

But that's what happens, isn't it,

in all of these situations? In most cases,

people are just going to the shops and

minding their own business, trying to get

on with their lives, and then all of a

sudden They get kidnapped, or they get

attacked, or they get murdered, or they

get run over, and it was completely not

their fault. But stuff

happens. The world is unfair and cruel,

and if you're in the wrong place at the

wrong time, people die,

and it just sucks. You don't

have any control over what happens.

It just happens.

Best stay in your room. Don't go outside.

It's not safe.

It also kind of happened in Paris. I got

grabbed by this black man in Paris. That

was scary.

I just— I don't feel good about people.

They either betray you or they

screw you over or they attack you,

or they look down on you and they,

they think they're better than you.

People are just no good in general.

It's very hard finding good people.

I got, I got burned a lot.

Recently.

Don't you want to be around people? Yeah,

I do, if they're good people, but it's

hard to tell. You think they're good

people and then they screw you over.

The problem is you risk— you're at great

risk when you let people in. Because when

you let them in, they can damage you.

Why did Cesium drive to your house when

you told him not to? Because he's a

psycho. Why else?

He's obviously psychotic. I mean,

who does that? Drive here and back for—

probably took 5 hours in the middle of the

night to dump his girlfriend at my

doorstep. It's just It's not normal. I

think he's mentally ill. I think he needs

to be reported to the police, to be

honest. That's not what normal people do.

I don't even know why he's doing it, to be

honest. He's not doing it for money

because he's, he's not making money out of

it. He's not making content because he's

not a content creator.

Actually, he's losing money by driving all

the way here and wasting all his petrol.

He's not gaining anything.

If it was a YouTuber, you could understand

he was doing it for content. It just makes

no sense, and that's the scary thing about

it. When people do things for no reason,

it's just— it— I don't get it at all.

Who does that?

I suppose I can understand a little bit,

like when Ice Poseidon was in Japan,

because I'm a fan of his content.

I really wanted to go and see Ice Poseidon

and kind of like be a part of his world.

But some of these people just take it too

far. They don't know when to stop.

Oh, my vape ran out of battery.

I don't really know what he's trying to

do. It just seems like he's been trying to

screw me over ever since 2019.

Like the first time I slept with Pia,

Chihiro found out straight away. I wonder

why. And then July, when me and Pia were

chatting, the screenshots got leaked like

the next day. I wonder why.

So I don't understand why he's trying to

screw me over so much,

like he's got some kind of vendetta

against me. I don't know what I did to

offend him so much.

When I was flirting with Pia back in

summer 2019, I didn't even know Cesium was

her boyfriend. She just said she had a

boyfriend. I didn't ask who it was. I

thought it was just some random person. I

had no idea she was dating one of my

viewers. I didn't find out it was Cesium

until I'm not sure, maybe 2020.

You can see the screenshots. I clearly ask

things like, um, won't your boyfriend

be suspicious if you came to Japan? I

didn't know it was him. If I knew it was

him, I wouldn't have gotten involved.

And then after I found out it was him

who's the boyfriend, I made sure not to be

flirty with Pia. You can check our

messages. I did not once ever flirt with

her since then. I've just kept it on like

a friendly, friendly basis.

Because I don't really want to get

involved with his nonsense, to be honest.

So yeah, not my fault.

I didn't do anything wrong.

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Hmm, I wonder if I should make tea. I feel

a bit thirsty.

How did your mum react? She was really

upset.

It's very disrespectful in Asian culture

to just show up uninvited.

Well, it should be disrespectful in any

culture, but maybe more in Asian culture.

So obviously she's not happy about it.

I mean, who would be happy about it?

You need to not get involved in other

people's relationships. I try to.

I wasn't even getting involved. I never

said anything like, I think

you should break up, or you should come

here. I didn't say anything like that.

They probably planned it. Yeah, I feel

suspicious that it's just like a big prank

that they're both in on. I— to be honest,

I don't trust either of them. Well, I

would never trust anything Cesium says.

He just lies so much. You should have seen

the stuff he was saying to Chihiro. It's

just complete nonsense.

Yeah, really weird situation.

To be honest, I don't know why Chihiro

is still in contact with these people.

Why does she want to be involved with my

drama? Why doesn't she delete her social

media and stuff like that? All the people

following her social media, all the

weirdos from my channel, none of them are

going to be normal unless—

I guess she likes it. Like, if she

didn't like it, then she wouldn't do it.

I find it a bit confusing.

I'm starting to delete my stuff because I

don't— I feel like I, I got

too close to my viewers. Like, I let them

chat to me and I let them message me and I

had a Discord. I feel like most YouTubers

have more more of a separation between the

viewers for a good reason.

I'm starting to feel like just letting

anyone message me is not really a good

idea because they might not have good

Will I be streaming full-time on Twitch?

Yeah, I might do it every few days,

just have a chat. It's nice to have a

chat. I don't have Discord anymore, so I

don't really know where to chat.

Did my mum fix the heating? Kind of,

but they're coming again later in April to

fix it. I don't know why it's so difficult

just to install a new heating system.

They've been coming and going ever since

early March. Things keep going wrong.

Some of the radiators were leaking, so

they had to replace them, and then stuff

like water pressure was leaking out,

so they had to come and fix it again.

I just got this plug-in heater, does the

job fine, it's only £80. Now I've got

to pay ¥10,000 for this new heating stuff,

and it's not even cold anymore.

I'd say make a joke video for April

Fools'. Yeah, someone else said that to

me. I can't be bothered anymore doing this

fake stuff. Yeah, I could do something

like, my ex-girlfriend is pregnant, or

I've got HIV. Just kidding,

April Fools'. I can't be bothered.

Back in the day, I would have made up any

anything for clickbait drama. I don't

know what happened, but I just kind of got

really lazy.

April Fools, I'm still married.

That'd be funny. Imagine if I was still

married. Envis blew up today.

Yeah, I know, it went up like 50% all at

once, and I only had £500 in it.

Really annoying. I sold it,

took my profits.

Oh wow, thank you, Coco Love. I can change

my sub count.

I got 10 subs.

Can I make art content? Yeah, that's what

I've been doing these last few days, just

been designing a thumbnail.

I don't really know what else to do for

the video. I got kind of lazy as well. I

just make one picture for the whole video.

I think it's good enough.

The problem is some of my drawings are

kind of grim and dark, and my last one

got 30K views but it didn't make much

money. I think it's because illustration

is really dark, a little bit grotesque.

It looks like his chest is exploding.

I think that might have affected the CPM,

which sucks cuz I like doing dark-themed

illustrations. Can't even do that.

Can't do anything on YouTube.

It's like that time I was in Berlin and I

just— I made a video outside and I walked

past graffiti and it was like a line art

of a naked woman. It was just really basic

lines and she had boobs and nipples and a

vagina. It was just like a couple of lines

and the YouTube algorithm is so advanced

it can make out that it's a naked

woman and it demonetized the video. And I

had no idea why until I tried removing the

graffiti art bit. I took it out of the

video and reuploaded it, and then

everything was fine and it stayed

monetized. So even that is

so sensitive.

Like, you could have a stick figure with

boobs and you'd get demonetized.

You know, the good thing— the thing I like

about Twitch is there's no comment section

and there's no likes and dislikes. Do you

know how stressful it is getting disliked

bombed? So annoying when you've made a

video and you think it's good and you

didn't even say anything wrong, you've got

like 400 dislikes for no reason just

because they've got loads of hate

watchers. Twitch has no dislikes or

likes, which is great. I don't even know

why YouTube has it. Just get rid of it.

The stupid likes and dislikes and stupid

comment sections. Twitch doesn't have it

and it's fine.

Did you see YouTube is trying out turning

off dislikes? Yeah, I think it's a good

idea. I always said it's stupid. You know,

Netflix doesn't have likes and dislikes.

It's just demoralizing and it encourages

hate mob mentality because

they're like, yeah, let's go and dislike

bomb his video just because the internet

decided we don't like him.

Just get rid of all that rubbish. It just—

it promotes and encourages toxic behavior

and witch hunting. I'm not a fan of it.

Yeah, I'm biased because I'm a victim of

being disliked bombed. All my videos

always get hundreds and hundreds of

dislikes even when I didn't say or do

anything wrong, just because people still

hate me based off of actions from 2 years

ago, more than 2 years ago, and they still

hate me because Daniel did this 2 years

ago, Daniel did that 4 years ago.

Daniel said this 5 years ago.

Grow the fuck up, idiots.

They're still going on about things I said

10 years ago. Daniel said he cummed on his

panties 10 years ago.

Oh my God, do people not move on?

People still going on about Tomoko.

Daniel cummed in Tomoko and then called

her ugly. It's like 4 years ago. Jesus,

move on.

Some people just don't forget because they

don't have lives.

The worst thing I probably did was

cheating, and even that was like 2 years

ago now.

So yeah, I'm not a fan of the dislike

function. I don't see the point of it.

It's just stupid. I watch videos on

YouTube all day long. I don't sit there

going, oh, this was— this video was not up

to my standards, dislike, or Oh, I really

like this video. I'm gonna press the like

button. I just watch stuff I like, and

then when it's finished, I go on to the

next video. I don't care about likes or

dislikes. Who gives

a shit? So I'll watch

some stock video, and I'll take the

information, and I'll finish watching. I

won't bother with the stupid likes or

dislikes. I couldn't care less.

I think YouTube should also tell us which

words demonetize a video so we don't have

to guess. I figured out myself words like

bullying, bullied,

Retarded. Um, what else? Died, dying.

Words like that are not good for ads.

They should just tell us the words that we

should avoid. Yeah, weed as well. That's

why I had to say W-E-E-D. You just

spell the word out and then it's fine. So

stupid trying to control which words we

use. I had to make up words like cereal or

cheesecake because of it. Some people

message me saying, why do British people

say cereal instead of sex? I said, we

don't, it's just the word I use so I can

avoid demonetization. So you can't

say drugs either.

And you know these stock YouTubers, every

time they talk about a weed stock,

they'll say like MJ or Jack Jackson

because they know if they say weed, the

video is going to get demonetized. Let's

just make the list of words public. I

don't know why they're keeping it a

secret. I think that big YouTuber Nerd

City came up with a list of words that

gets you demonetized.

Using the word cereal has worked for me.

Problem is, some people don't understand

what it means. They think I'm actually

talking about cereal.

I tricked the algorithm.

I felt kind of bad for Pia, but you know,

on one hand I feel sorry for her because

it seems like she doesn't have anywhere to

go and she doesn't have much money. But

then on the other hand, I can't help but

feel suspicious if it's all like something

that's planned between them. And then I

just feel stupid for worrying.

I just— I don't trust them because they

keep screwing me over.

If it was a different girl who was

completely not connected to Cesium, then

it would have been different. Like Mila,

I knew she was completely unrelated to all

these drama Discord people, so I felt

comfortable with her.

Did she

leave? What did she think was going to

happen? Yeah, I don't know. If it was all

real, then I don't know what she was

expecting. It's not like she could live

here. At most, maybe she could stay a week

if I wanted her to, but then after a week

she would have had to leave anyway. And

also I'd feel like a hypocrite because

I've been complaining about my mum and my

sister having people come over, so I can't

just turn around and start having people

over myself. So then I'd be a massive

hypocrite. And to be honest, I don't

really want people over. I just want to be

by myself. I'm not really in the mood to

have to be in to have company.

Cesium said you and her had been chatting

for a while.

Yeah, she messages me now and then.

She'll just say like, how are you?

And then I'll just say I'm fine. It's not

like we're messaging every day saying

stuff like, oh, I love you so much.

I feel like we only messaged a couple

times since I came back home. And then

even then it wasn't a very long

conversation. Why doesn't he just check

the messages?

Did I pay to— did I pay her to leave?

Yeah, I had to pay for the hotel,

so now I had to pay as well.

My sister said I should have just kicked

her out and let her get on with it, but I

guess I'm too kind. I felt bad just

kicking her out, so we took her to

a hotel and left her there.

Because I kept asking her, where are you

gonna go? Do you have somewhere to go?

She kept saying, I don't know, I don't

know. So I thought, oh, for God's sake,

I'll just book you a bloody hotel, get it

over and done with. It was

just a cheap hotel.

Which is ridiculous.

If my dad was alive and here, he would

have been So angry. He would have called

the police, I think. I think next time I

should just call the police.

Why would I call the police? Because if

you tell someone not to come and they come

anyway and they don't want to leave, it's

like trespassing. They're on my property.

If you don't leave my property when I ask

you to, then I

can call the police to

remove them.

It's not your property. Well, whose

property is it then?

Yeah, it's our property.

I live here, so it counts as my property

since I'm a resident.

Did I see Shinnon's leaked OnlyFans?

I had a free sub to her OnlyFans.

I don't know if it's new stuff. I quite

like Shinnon's OnlyFans stuff. It was

quite hot,

better than the Swedish girl. Swedish

girl's OnlyFans didn't really turn me on.

This other girl messaged me to promote

OnlyFans as well, but I decided not to.

They just don't get many views. I thought

I'd get more views doing OnlyFans videos

of viewers. They didn't even get 20k

views. What the hell? I thought

my viewers wanted like girl stuff,

but they seem to be more interested in gay

stuff. I could make a video about gay

stuff and it will get 60k views, and then

I make one about a girl's OnlyFans and

they don't care. Maybe I've got a lot of

gay people in my audience.

Hi Dan, haven't watched much YouTube since