why i nearly quit youtube

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You look different. I think it's because

my hair is getting pretty long. Should

probably cut it soon.

How my girlfriend nearly ruined my life.

How was work? Uh, it was pretty easy. I

had about, I think, 70 parcels.

Yeah, I really like Saturday because

there's not much traffic, so it's very

easy to drive around.

Day 2 of back to YouTube.

Tomorrow's my day off. No delivering. I

think I'm gonna go to the dump and get rid

of all the cardboard and some rubbish and

then play Monster Hunter Wilds. I bought

that today.

Oh God, Sunny's coming on Monday to pick

up her stuff. She said

I could leave it outside so she can just

pick it up. Do you think she's gonna knock

on the door? Hope not.

Maybe I'll

take her stuff to the dump too.

It's just, it's kind of annoying because

I'm gonna be here because she's

coming after work, which would be like 6

o'clock. So it's not like I'll be at work

or anything. Why couldn't she come on the

weekend? I guess she's probably

got such great plans with her family on

the weekend with the nice weather.

Yeah, it's such nice weather this weekend.

Very sunny. Now, I hate the word sunny.

You see it everywhere and it's hard not to

use it though. Yeah, the weather's really

sunny. It would have been a nice day to go

out somewhere. She probably went out with

her family and probably walking the dogs

on the moor. No,

we didn't get back together, but she's

coming to pick up her stuff because she

left a bunch of makeup and cosmetics and

the hair straighteners.

Yeah, we never go— she never goes out with

me to places, but then she always goes out

with her family to places. Not fair. And

then she complains that I didn't plan to

go anywhere. Well, neither did she.

Switch 2, isn't that coming out in June?

Still a while away. Oh,

thanks, Bold Lesbian.

Good morning.

Bin her stuff? No, I'm not childish like

that. I don't— I'm not like Chihiro where—

or these other women where they like

chucking people's stuff away. It's just so

immature.

Why is my laptop so loud?

No, there's no way I'm gonna stop doing

YouTube. To be in a relationship. That's

so stupid.

What's my plan to get out of debt? Well,

I did some calculations and I think

my driving job can probably net me £900 to

£1,000 a month. YouTube could make £800

to £1,000 a month. So I'm looking at about

£2,000 And then my expenses,

I think I can get it down to about £1,300

if I just control my food spending. So

I've created the budget, food budget of

£120 a month. So far I've spent

£63 already, so I've

used half my budget. But we still have

another 10 days until we're halfway into

April. So hopefully the food I've

bought a week ago, the rest of it's gonna

last another 10 days. I just gotta ration

the food out, I guess.

And I'll go do another food shop in about

10 days, not spending more than 60.

30% sure they're getting back together.

Well, the only way we'd get back together

is if she's okay with me doing YouTube,

which she made it clear that she's not

okay with it. I don't really know why

though, because it's not like YouTube was

the reason why we had fights.

You said yesterday your job pays you £750.

Uh, I don't know if the £150 was the

beginner bonus, so maybe I'll get— if I—

imagine I only get £750 for the next

month without the bonus.

That would suck. I mean, I'd still do it

because it's still money, isn't it? And

it's still pretty low effort.

Apart from I kind of— I didn't get told

off, but the guy came up to me and talked

to me and he was like, I'm not having a go

at you, but, but, but, but, but, but could

you put the parcels around the back of the

house, not the side of the house, because

it's a bit exposed? As if anyone's gonna

steal your parcels. Why is the

view count like frozen at 81?

Is that real?

Why not just put like a little sign that

says put the parcels around the back? I

don't know, you want them around the back.

Parcels do get stolen.

I doubt they get stolen around here. It's

not Maidstone. God, I'm so hungry, but

it's only 5 o'clock. I ran out of pot

noodle and crisps, so I've got nothing to

snack on.

I'm thinking, what if I start eating

offal? I stop buying steak and meat and I

get liver. Liver is really cheap. Liver

and onions, that could taste pretty good.

It's 6 PM. I thought it's 5 PM. No,

it's 5 PM. Yeah,

maybe people are out enjoying the good

weather on the weekend.

My stomach's rumbling now.

Liver's healthy. Yeah, offal is cheap and

it's healthy. It's got vitamins and iron

and stuff. It's just that it tastes kind

of weird if you're not used to it. But I

like pâté, so maybe I'll like liver. I

might try get some liver. I'll go to Lidl.

No more Tesco's. What happened to your

hair? It's growing.

Insane you would even consider getting

back together with her. Well, only if she

meets my demands,

which I don't even see why it's a problem

because she was happy to meet me and be

with me when I was doing YouTube. So why

all of a sudden it's like, oh, YouTube is

a deal breaker? Just don't get it.

Such a random demand to make because

she was like, oh, you quitting YouTube was

like the thing you were supposed to do to

make up for the serial video incident.

It's like, what, my, my punishment is that

I can't do YouTube anymore because you

went through my laptop and accidentally

saw my serial tapes? That's so dumb.

It's like a weird punishment to make up

for it. I mean, who told you to go through

my folders?

Oh wow, $50. See,

you and Sunny wanted me to give up

YouTube. That's more money than I made

doing delivery work today, probably.

I probably make like $40 every day doing

my delivery work.

You see, Sunny's crazy to want to give up

streaming money. All she would have to do

is sit next to me and we answer the

questions like we used to, and the donos

would come in. But no.

Danny, I missed you so much. Where have

you been? Well,

I got told that I'm not allowed to do

YouTube if I want to keep my relationship,

so I agreed to it for a bit and I couldn't

stick to it. Imagine the Turkey Tom money.

Yeah, all the Turkey Tom attention is gone

now.

I swear it was partly because of the

Tokiton video that made her want me to

stop YouTube.

Maybe it was the girls or something. I

don't know. There was like some new girls

that came to the channel.

Yeah. So she didn't want me to talk on

Discord. She didn't want me to make any

videos or any content.

Probably not even allowed to post on

Instagram since that's where all my toxic

viewers are. Your most viewed

video is disappeared. No, I think I put

them all back. I accidentally released my

Japanese car crash video which I was

saving for some reason.

Yeah, I think, you know, I'm settling into

my new routine quite nicely. So basically

we wake up in the morning, go deliver,

come back, lunch, do some stock trading.

Make some videos and then livestream in

the afternoon into the night and then

dinner. I think, you know, it's quite a

nice little routine. And tomorrow, since

I'm off, I'm gonna grind Monster Hunter

Wilds because I think I could pump out

Monster Hunter Wilds videos. So I made an

investment of £60 to buy Monster Hunter

Wilds. I'm gonna need 40,000

views What's that tomato hot pot

you like from England that's better than

anything in Asia?

So generous. Tomato hot

pot you like from England. What? What's

What is tomato hot pot?

I don't understand the question. Do you

mean pot noodle? Instant hot pot?

I don't know what that is. Soup?

This is what you're missing when you

decided on Sunny over the channel. Yeah,

I know. It's so annoying.

What, you mean the pot noodle?

Yeah, pot noodle, beef and tomato. My

favorite instant noodles. My second

favorite instant noodles are those

Japanese demae ramen. They come in

the packet and you put them in the pot and

then you can basically add anything you

want. I like to add pork belly to it.

God, I'm getting hungry.

Yeah, I also got a new— well, not a new

one, but a refurbished Samsung S10+ coming

Monday, and I'm going to send this phone

back. I'm sending the Nothing phone back

because if I wanted to livestream

with it, there's no wide angle. So I need

a Samsung. So that's coming.

Got 1% cashback too with my Amazon credit

You quit because some YouTuber made a

video about you? No, I mean, I guess so

indirectly, but I was,

I was happy that the channel was getting

some growth, and instead of

congratulations and like support, I end up

getting told to quit YouTube or else it's

over. Not really the reaction I was

hoping. She'd be like, oh wow,

look at all this new stuff happening. But

no, she shuts me down.

You said you trade, so you're not as broke

as you're making out. Um, the market

crashed like 10% a couple days

ago. The only thing that didn't crash were

bonds. Bonds went up, but I've only got

£20 in bonds. I was supposed to have more

in bonds, but I kind of ran out of money

to buy stuff. Was your mum upset

about the Toki Tom video? No, she was

upset because I argued with that girl

called Holly who grew up behind my house

when I was a kid. And then I was arguing

with her and I ended up insulting my mum

in order to defend myself against Holly's

insults and accusations.

And I blocked my mum because she was

annoying. My mum's getting trolled on her

YouTube channel and she's getting all

angry at me. I literally have done nothing

wrong, though. She's getting angry because

I, I told a story about something that

happened years ago. I didn't tell it

recently. It's not like I recently exposed

this secret. It was ages ago. And now

she's getting angry at me now because the

comment and the— I mean, the trolls are

trolling her in the comments.

Do I still speak to the weird kid in Japan

that stalked you? I don't know who stalks

me. Do you mean the Canadian guy? There

have been theories that he was the one

that stalks me, but I don't think so. He

was nice. He didn't seem weird or creepy

Am I back with Sunny? No.

No way. Even— I don't know,

like, even if she let me do YouTube, we

keep fighting every week.

Every 2 weeks we fight. It's so draining.

I'm just tired of it. I hate

it when she gets mad at me and then she

starts swearing and stuff. I just

don't want it anymore.

It's such a stressful thing to have to

keep worrying if your girlfriend's gonna

get mad at you again over this stuff that

we've already discussed before.

There's no way to fix it.

The British guy that had the awkward

conversation. What meaningless

rubbish. I wouldn't say he was a

Am I not talking to a new girl? Nah, I'm

kind of burnt out on girls at the moment.

I think I need some alone time. I've been

in relationships since— I haven't not been

in a relationship since 2022.

2021, I was also not in a relationship,

but I just came out of the middle of a

relationship, so I needed a break.

I just want to focus on myself and doing

things I enjoy without

toxicity in my life.

Did I talk to my sister about Sunny?

Yeah. Yeah,

but my sister said it's a good idea that I

stop YouTube. No, it's not.

People think YouTube ruins my life. It's

not. It's idiots getting

trolled by my viewers and then getting

upset at me. That's ruining my life. It's

not like the YouTube channel is not

ruining my life.

It's like indirectly affecting me because

people in my life are getting butthurt

over stuff like trolls.

Mate, I just— it's like impossible to

explain, especially to my mum. Trying to

explain to my mum trolls and trolling is

impossible with the language barrier and

the generation gap, and also her IQ

level makes it pretty much impossible to

explain to her what's going on. She just

doesn't get it. There's no way you can

teach her something so complex.

I can't even teach her how to use her

email account.

And then trying to explain to Sunny about

how to not let the hate comments affect

you is impossible.

So I can't really win, can I?

And, um,

yeah, I mean, I shouldn't expect them to

understand because this isn't their world,

but they— I didn't invite them to come

into my world. They just seem to invite

themselves, didn't they? I don't— I didn't

ask my mum to make a channel, and I didn't

ask my mum to keep watching my

YouTube stuff. Why can't you just, like,

not watch it? Let me do my thing and

ignore it. It's just so weird.

It's like, imagine you got a kid and then

you keep poking your nose into his work

business. But then they say, oh, it's

public on YouTube, so it's not private.

Well, yes, someone's locked house isn't

private either. If I smash the windows

open and jump inside.

I always did YouTube as like a little

hobby in my room. Thinking no

one's gonna know about it,

and then people just— I don't know,

people just found out.

Women in your life are quite demanding but

aren't willing to compromise for your

life. Yeah, I know. There are all these

women so damn bossy, but then they, they

don't want to listen or compromise or try

and understand my perspective. They just

make threats and ultimatums, and it's

always like their way or no way.

How can you keep a girlfriend when you

have videos proving you cheated 90% of the

time? I wouldn't say 90%, more like 40%.

I've only had 6 girlfriends. Got the

Korean one. Um,

I guess I did cheat on her over the course

of 6 years, but I kind of just saw her as

like friends with benefits. But I don't

think she thought the same way. So she was

shocked when she found out I was actually

meeting other girls in between seeing her.

And so, yeah, that was— and then French

girlfriend, I never cheated on her. And

then Chlamydia girlfriend, I didn't

cheat on her. We were only together for 3

months anyway. And then single mother

girlfriend, I only saw her for 2 weeks.

That's not even a girlfriend. And then

Chihiro, yeah, obviously. And then Mila,

I didn't cheat on Mila, but I cheated on

Faster, and I didn't cheat on Sunny. So

half the time I didn't cheat on them.

So I don't always cheat.

I think I don't cheat if the relationship

is really short because then there's not

enough time to cheat.

Or, you know, maybe I just don't want to

ruin the relationship, so I don't cheat,

or I don't have The opportunity to.

Not that I would if I did have the

opportunity to.

I don't think I've ever been cheated on.

Not that I know of. I guess Chihiro

did cheat on me because she slept and went

with other— she went on dates with other

guys and slept with someone. So

technically she cheated on me, but I can't

really complain, can I?

Yeah, this month's big challenge is gonna

be trying not to go over my food budget

and not starving.

When my Samsung, my new S10 Plus comes, I

might make a video. I just don't really

know what videos to make.

Why I moved

to a cheaper area of the UK.

I just don't really want to. If you go to

a cheaper area, it's not going to be very

nice. Devon's already pretty cheap though,

although my place is a bit on the

expensive side, but that's because the

area is really nice.

Get an S24, S23.

The problem with the new phones is the

cameras are too good. All these

50-megapixel cameras are too good. I like

my S10+'s 10-megapixel camera with beauty

filter. So yeah, I don't really want

to get a phone newer than 2019.

I think after 2020 they started making the

selfie cameras higher resolution. I think

the S20 Plus still has a 10-megapixel

selfie camera. Actually, I should have

gotten that because it's actually the same

price as an S10 Plus refurbished, but

there's not much difference. Slightly

better CPU. I think they— I think the S20

Plus came out after the S10 Plus. They

just jumped from 10 to 20 because there's

no S11, S12,

S13. Ask her to live with me. Well, we did

discuss that briefly, but I just knew that

it wouldn't work. I mean, the good thing

about if she lived with me, we wouldn't

have to text, so the whole dry texting

thing wouldn't be a problem because she

would either be at work or she would be

here or at her family's house. The problem

is she would be at home and then she'd

want to chat to me, and then it would be

quite late and I go to bed very early. I

go to bed at like 9:00 and I wake up about

6:00 a.m. in the morning,

mainly because I just really like going to

bed. My favorite thing to look forward to

is eat dinner and then go to bed. I love

it. You get into the bed, it's nice and

warm, have nice dreams sometimes.

So I go to bed really early and I'm kind

of tired around 8 or 9. So I'm not really

very talkative. You went to bed past

midnight yesterday. Yeah, because I was

streaming. But when I was quitting

YouTube, I wasn't allowed to stream, so I

had nothing to do. So I would just go to

bed. I was so bored without the streaming

because I just don't know what to do.

Endlessly watch— been watching Ice

Poseidon streams.

Only 8 days left and then he's going home,

so no more streams for Ice. Don't know

what I'm gonna watch. Might watch the

whole thing from day 1, maybe.

What if I do an exciting vlog going to

the dump tomorrow? It's so amazingly

interesting.

River came to Thailand while homeless.

Why is he called River? Such a random

name. Riv.

Yeah, those people on Kick must be making

pretty good money. It's like they can just

endlessly travel, stay in hotels, eat out.

Maybe I missed out not trying to leech off

KCIP.

I just can't believe they're paying $50 an

hour. For what, 200 viewers?

Why are they doing that?

Do they just have infinite money to give

to random streamers?

It's not a very sustainable business

model. They must have— yeah, is it money

laundering? Because they're owned by this

gambling website. Maybe they just need to

flush out loads of money.

Yeah, but I don't want to stream in

public. I like talking and it's hard to

talk when you're outside because there's

so many distractions. And also it's a bit

dangerous. People might attack you.

I nearly got attacked twice in Japan just

walking around. People seem to get—

especially in Japan, people get very

agitated seeing a guy walking around

filming. Like, they think you're doing

something up to no good. I panned my

camera around and I pointed at this group

of teenagers in Japan last year for about

half a second, and they saw me do it, and

then they came running after me with

clenched fists, calling me omae,

slurring and everything. But as soon as I

told them I'm a YouTuber and I showed them

my channel, they backed off. I think they

thought I was like a perv or something.

They had their fists like clenched and

everything. The guy took his watch off.

Bunch of weirdos. What, were they going to

gang attack me? God, I was so scared

and then so angry. They were like, oi,

duke, crap,

stupid little Yakuza wannabes.

They thought you were filming the girls.

I just— I pointed the camera at them

because they look kind of weird. One of

the guys had makeup on and looked like one

of those visual kei guys. I thought, oh,

they look interesting. I pointed the

camera at them for like 2 seconds. Kore!

I hate that Japanese slang sound.

I think maybe I got too confident holding

the selfie stick and walking around

streaming. Maybe I was right to be scared.

You ranted for 2 hours. Yeah. And then the

previous year, that old man told me to get

out of the way. I was just standing there

with my bicycle and he came up to me. He

ドケて!ドケて! Like that. Because there

was a door. I was blocking his door. I

didn't realize he had like a metal cage

door that he wanted to get into.

Japanese people are not polite. I don't

know why the whole internet thinks

Japanese people are so respectful and

polite. They're really not.

And then I was walking around the slum

area and this other guy just came up to me

and told me to move. You move! You're the

one who came up to me. Just walk around

me, idiot. But I didn't

get that on stream.

God, these little midget Japanese homeless

old men, very ballsy, aren't they? I could

deck him. He was like this tall.

They're like, どけ、どけお前.

The stupid nasally voice. Never go to the

slum area in Osaka. Not a nice place.

Not nice at all.

They're only polite when you're a customer

and you go to 7-Eleven and they bow at you

and say irasshaimase. When you encounter

people on the street, they're rude to you.

They like give you the stink eye and they

tut at you and they call you omae.

Can't even stand at the side of the road

on your bike without someone coming up to

you and getting you— telling you to move.

Have I ever been in a fight? As an adult,

the only fight I had was when I got beaten

up by this guy in Rotterdam. He didn't

beat me up. He just grabbed me by the

collar, shoved me about, and then pushed

me down to the ground because he thought I

threw a stone at his car. I did not throw

a stone at his car. I walked over the

overpass bridge over the road, and as I

was coming down the other side, he started

coming towards me, said something,

and he walked back to his car, and then he

walked back to me, and then he grabbed me.

And I was like, help. And this white Dutch

guy was nearby. And the white Dutch guy

translated what he was saying. He said,

he thinks you threw a stone at his car. I

didn't. And then I walked, and then he

left. And then I was walking back home.

He was driving alongside me, filming me on

his phone. And the only word I understood

was police. He actually thought I threw a

stone at his car from the bridge.

So I gave him €20 and then he tutted at me

and drove off. He was like, stupid idiot.

And his son was in the passenger seat,

little son laughing the whole time. The

stupid kid probably told him that I threw

the stone and he thought he was— he

thought it was such a funny joke.

Rotterdam. Never going to go there again.

When are you going back to treating your

life like an isekai?

Well, doing very drastically risky

things. Decision making. Making very

risky decisions.

Yeah, I don't know. If I leave

my rental property, I'm giving up a lot

that would be hard to come back to.

I think if I can get the money, I could

still go to Asia and then come back to my

rental property. Otherwise it's going to

be go to Asia and then go back to my mum's

Live in my car?

Yeah, I have thought about it.

Where would I park the car to sleep

It's just right now it's really difficult

to want to give up what I have now to

go back to the whole traveling around Asia

because I can have a very peaceful, comfy

life here, but I know that's not what you

guys want to see.

Um, but it's okay if I complement it with

a bit of part-time work.

Or should I go move in with some random

Japanese woman again and then marry her

and then dump her all on YouTube?

Get back on OnlyFans? I have thought about

it actually. Got that big

mirror, which would be pretty good for

shooting. Maybe I'll get like a big butt

torso love doll, make a

couple hundred on OnlyFans. That would

really help, to be honest.

Should I do gay stuff or, uh,

love doll stuff?

I wonder if there's any people on my

OnlyFans still, still paying the

subscription, because I would only need—

if I charge $10 a month, I would only need

20 people to sign up to make a couple

hundred dollars.

Yeah, I have been thinking about it.

Now I've got no girlfriend, don't need to

worry about my mum, got my own place. Why

not?

It's just, um, it's gotten me in trouble

in the past, and I'm a bit, bit scared

I really wish I didn't buy that lamp.

That lamp cost me, I think, £40. I only

got it because I thought I was gonna move

into the conservatory and I needed a light

because there's no light in there.

Oh yeah, if you want to join my Discord,

we're looking for new members.

If you want success on YouTube,

you need to go back to being weird.

Yeah, I know. I gotta make

the weird topics.

I just haven't been doing that for years

now.

I did try last year in Thailand. I did try

to do like a love doll video, but it

didn't work. And I also did like a

becoming Why I want to be trans or

something like that. I just don't really

know what, what to do.

Maybe I'll look back to the Manchester

period for inspiration.

Could do something wild, like, I don't

know, dress up as a girl, wear a wig,

something really humiliating.

Basically. Live a cozy

life in Japan. I would need a visa,

so I'd either have to get a job or get

married, and I won't be able to get a job

in Japan because I don't have a degree,

and I don't want to get a job.

And, um, the only people who would marry

me would be like 45-year-old Washed-up

Japanese woman who might even have kids.

Just got here, there's a $50 dono. I got 2

$50 donos already and

it's only been 40 minutes. We've got

an 8-hour shift to clock in. I've got some

cooking ideas. I've got flour and eggs.

We can make like a battered thing with the

pork belly. Although I need to kind of

ration the pork belly, otherwise it's

gonna run out.

Also, it would be hard to get a new

Japanese wife because I'm banned on Tinder

and all the dating apps. I could maybe

sneak back on for a couple weeks before

they find me again and ban me again.

I don't know how I get found so quickly

and banned again. Either someone's

reporting me, but that's unlikely, or

they've got facial recognition software.

Because I've got a new phone, I've got a

new number, a new IP address, and as soon

as I put a photo of my face, I get banned

pretty quickly. How'd you get banned?

Well, I thought I was shadowbanned because

I wasn't getting any more matches, so I

thought my account's shadowbanned, I'm

just gonna troll now and then make a new

account. So I started trolling and then I

put my Willy on my profile picture and

then got banned, which I expected.

Obviously I wanted to get banned. I didn't

care about getting banned. I thought, oh,

if I get banned, I'll just make a new

account. But I didn't realize they're so

strict. If you get banned, you're not

allowed back on, and there's

not really much you can do about it.

They'll just ban you again if you try and

And all the other apps ban me too. Like,

uh, Hinge and Bumble were pretty good in

Japan, but they banned me too. I don't

even know why Bumble banned me because

Bumble's not owned by Match Group. I think

someone reported me on the Bumble

subreddit. When I was trolling people.

Yeah, it's annoying that Match Group has

this massive monopoly on all of the good

dating apps apart from Bumble. But I got

banned on that too. I tried all the other

ones like Plenty of Fish.

OkCupid banned me as well.

I think trolls are reporting me.

Using clips of me saying weird stuff.

Yeah, I kind of gave up on dating apps

because I'm just banned on all of them. I

haven't used dating apps since 20—

actually, I used it in 2023. That's how I

met that Korean woman. I met her on Bumble

and then I got banned within 2 weeks, but

I got her line. What you got to do is you

got— because you get a lot of matches when

you sign up to dating apps. In the

beginning, because you get boosted as a

new member. And then you just chat to a

lot of women and then you try and get

their Line ID to get them off the app

before you get banned. Because you'll

probably get banned with— you probably got

2 weeks before you get banned again. Have

I tried IRL dating? I don't know how to

meet women outside of dating apps. I went

to bars in Japan. I tried to talk to

women. They just weren't interested. I

don't have the rizz. Welcome back,

Daniel. Colon closing parenthesis.

Thanks. Colon closing parenthesis.

Yeah, I tried going to bars in Japan.

Talking to Japanese women is so hard.

Although I did talk to a French girl and

she started putting— she started putting

her hands up my armpit.

I think your best shot is not with

Japanese women but with foreign women if

you go to the bars. They're way more

Yeah, I kind of like that French girl.

It's a shame. I was sad when she just

suddenly left. With her friends. I thought

she was going to stay a bit longer. We

sang a duet together at the karaoke bar.

We sang Mr.

Brightside or something by The Killers,

and she had her arms around me, like over

my shoulder. And then she was like putting

her fingers up my armpit and I gave her

hand a little squeeze. Naughty little

squeeze. I think

we definitely would have banged if we had

more time.

I think French girls aren't shy.

No, I don't know what skibidi toilet— is

it that head spinning around in the

toilet? All these weird new memes are

strange. Like the cat. What was that

spinning cat thing? The a i u i

a i cat. That is such a weird meme.

Yeah, you try and talk to Japanese girls

at bars, they will pretend to be

interested and then they'll just make an

excuse like, oh, I'm going to get more

drinks, even though their drink is already

full, or I'm going to go to the toilet.

And then you watch them, they'll go off to

the toilet and they won't go into the

toilet and they'll just walk back. It's so

annoying. They're so fake about it.

But you talk to foreign girls and they're

way more outgoing and chatty.

God, I was surrounded by women at the bar.

And I was paralyzed. I was at the bar. I

went to the bar alone in Umeda in

Osaka. And then I stood at the bar and I

just waited for it to get busy. And at one

point I was literally surrounded by women

and I couldn't— I was too scared to even

look up at any of them. I just stared at

the ground. I was like— and then

eventually some guys came and talked to me

and I just talked to the guys the whole

evening. I spent like 4 hours talking to

these New Zealand guys and didn't talk to

any women. And then we got wasted and then

we walked back home together halfway.

Yeah. Every time I go to bars, I just end

up talking to drunk guys for hours and

It was fun. If you're lonely, it's fun to

go there and meet random people, but very

difficult to try and get girls like that.

You need so much confidence. You need to

be smooth and not creep them out as well,

which is not really what I'm good at.

You know what's funny? In the new

Assassin's Creed game, that area where

I used to live is in the game, Amagasaki.

And even Muko is in there. North of

Amagasaki Castle, there's a little area

called Muko in the game, and that's in

real life. It's there too. I used to get

the train from there. And west of Osaka

Castle in the game is an area called

Fukushima, which is where Chihiro used to

work. That's where I met Chihiro on the

second date. We met at Fukushima Station

outside of Osaka. It's crazy they put this

in the game.

Why don't you make real videos anymore?

I don't know, because they just don't make

as much money as streaming. Yeah, I mean,

old Daniel would have made a video called

My Girlfriend Tried to Make Me Quit

YouTube, and back then it would have

gotten like 40k views. Now it would

probably get like 7k views and make $15.

So it's like I make a video and it'll get

7 or 8K views and make $15 to $20, or I

stream and it will get about 3

or 4K views and it will make $30 from ad

rev alone plus donos.

You need to cut your hair. Yeah, I thought

I'd just let it grow long for fun for

my cross-dressing arc.

I was gonna make a video leaving here and

going back to my mum's house. I would have

done like a time-lapse packing my stuff,

dismantling my gaming chair.

I would have made it dramatic with sad

music and then driving back home to my

mum's house, but then my mum was not very

nice, so I decided to stay here instead.

No, every time I play games— if I play

games or play music or play other people's

videos and react to them, I lose a lot of

viewers, so I can't do anything.

All I can do is cook. As long as I keep

I mean, my mum didn't say I can't come

back. It's just that she was demanding

that I bow down

to her greatness,

and I don't feel like I've done anything

wrong. I feel like she was the one who did

the wrong thing. Why do I have to

apologize?

So I think I'd rather just stay here,

actually. Live my own life.

Carve my path.

Daniel's scared of America. It does

look kind of scary.

Also, it's really expensive,

and also I have no interest. So those 3

reasons are why I would never go there.

Scary, dangerous, expensive. And I,

I'm not really interested in American

culture.

I bet Faster was working illegally in

America. There's no way someone from

Thailand can just go to America and then

get a job as a waitress. You would need a

work visa, wouldn't you?

She was definitely working without a visa

because the restaurant was owned by her

uncle. She said she made like $4,000

in a month and she got tips as well.

Sunny went to America a lot as well

because she had a relationship that

didn't work out.

You have zero shame, could be streaming on

XXX sites.

I mean, I got no shame, but I'm scared.

I'm very paranoid about getting into

Yeah, well, we'll see. Um, I calculated

that I could be making £300 or £400

a month after expenses,

so if I just stay for like a year, I'd be

able to save up some money.

But I think for now I'm kind of stuck here

with my financial situation being very

bad.

When I get my new S10 Plus, I might make

some videos if

I can think of a topic.

It's just, you know, it's really hard to

be creative and think of a topic when

when, I don't know, you've got money

problems and housing problems.

It was easy when I lived with my mum

because I didn't have to worry about that

stuff,

and it was easy when I was married in

Japan because I didn't have to worry about

money or housing.

Yeah, I think I'm going to stay in the

house. I don't— I really don't want to go

back to my mum's house. It would,

it would just end up in another fight and

then I'd storm off and I'd probably try

and sell the car and then buy a plane

ticket somewhere. That would probably be

what would happen.

And it would not go very well because it

would happen all so suddenly. I need to

If I was gonna do the abandon the house

and go traveling thing, I gotta sell the

Why did you nearly quit? Uh, Sunny made

me. She said she doesn't want to be with

me if I do YouTube.

It's just that, how do I sell the car and

then get home? I would have to book a taxi

from the car dealership.

You really get screwed without a car here.

God, I can't imagine not having a car

anymore. I remember my younger days,

having to get the train, walking 20

minutes to the train station. Missing the

train, having to wait a whole hour for the

next train. I remember going to the job

center and I would have to walk all the

way to the train station, get on the

train. It will take 15 minutes by train,

walk from the train station to the job

center, sign the documents for that week,

and then come all the way home. One time I

wanted to save money, so I walked all the

way home. It took about 2 hours. To walk 8

miles. And then I started riding my

bicycle to the job center. It took about

45 minutes to ride there, 8 miles,

and then I'd ride home.

The job center stuff was so annoying. You

had to go there, you sign the paper, you

tell them what you've been doing to look

for a job. They'll nag you a bit. And then

you're free to go. You go home, make a pot

noodle, play some video games. It was a

good life. And then my mum and dad

started getting a bit— I could tell they

were getting a bit annoyed that I wasn't

trying to get a job, and I would just

spend all my job center money to go to

Japan and meet some Japanese woman, and

then I'd come back and do the whole thing

again. My dad was definitely not happy

with it, but he didn't say anything.

I would just do the same. I'd go to Japan,

blow all my money, come home, sign back on

to the job center for about 6 to 10

months.

That was my life for about 6 years,

5 years maybe.

It is really nice having a car.

Like, if I didn't have a car, I wouldn't

be able to live here. How would I go to

the dump? What am I supposed to do,

carry all my rubbish to the dump and walk

an hour? There's just no way you could

survive here without a car.

You would have to live in a town or a

city. You wouldn't be able to live in a

nice countryside house.

Lock your door so mum can't talk to you in

your room. The problem is when I go

downstairs to the kitchen,

because I need to make food and make

coffee and stuff. I tried bringing a

fridge into my room and staying in my

room, but it didn't really work.

My mum gets mad at stuff. Like, if

something goes wrong in the house, she,

uh, she gets all stressed out and then

she'll get mad at me because I don't know

how to fix it or I don't make any effort

to try and fix it. And my dad's not around

anymore. Now my uncle's gone.

But I don't like— I don't like doing

things for people if they start having an

attitude to me. Like when Sunny got mad at

me because I didn't pick her up, I would

have happily gone and picked her up until

she started getting all angry at me. And

then I was like, I don't want to see you

if you're going to have this attitude.

Then I don't want to do it.

Have I spoken to Chihiro lately? She

messaged me on Christmas, but now I can't

log into my LINE account anymore, so I

guess I'll never talk to Chihiro ever

again, or faster.

If they message me, I won't even know

because I can't log in. I don't

know how to log in. It won't let me reset

the password. Really annoying.

Well, I really doubt Chihiro wants to talk

I deleted the Line app because I was

scared Sunny was going to message me, so I

deleted all the apps, um, but then I

changed my mind and downloaded again, but

then I had to log in again and I forgot my

login details,

so that's a bit annoying.

I'm not really bothered. It's fine, I

guess.

Would I ever meet up with a fan? Yeah.

Sunny was a fan. Sunny was a viewer.

Sunny was watching me since 2021. She

actually said she messaged— she wrote in

the live chat. Back in 2021 when I was in

Manchester, but I didn't notice. She said,

she said something like, let's go to the

big Tesco. But she didn't reach out to me

until 2023.

And then now look what happened. It's

crazy how— because she obviously likes my

channel and she likes my content to want

to meet me. And now she hates it and made

me— tried to make me shut it all down.

It's actually insane what happened.

Would I meet up with a fan after all

that's going on with Sunny?

I would be very rare— wary now.

I don't know how I let it get to the point

where I let her control me so much.

That was bad.

I gave her too much control.

I don't know why I got all kind of

desperate. To please her.

I don't know why I got so desperate.

It was really bad. After the Mida thing

happened, I said to myself I would never

let that happen where I got so miserable

because of a girl. And then it happened

again. It really is

the worst when it's

like you get, you get that feeling your

whole world is collapsing because a girl

broke up with you. It's so stupid.

And then you just get really depressed and

you make all these terrible decisions.

But then once you've snapped out of it,

you realize how dumb it was and

that life doesn't all just revolve around

one girl. And it's not the end

of the world. But for some reason, during

the moment, it feels like it is the end of

the world. I was losing my mind.

I would not really want to go back into

that state of vulnerability,

especially with someone who just blocks

you like that and gets mad over tiny

things all the time. If you want to be— I

mean, it's not a bad thing to be

vulnerable with someone and being like a

loving relationship, but you

want to be like that with the right

No, I'm never, never deleting my channel

again. Thank God. I don't think there was

any way she could have got me to delete

it. I think even if she threatened to walk

out, if I didn't delete it, I would have

just accepted that. There's no way I would

have deleted it. I understand the value of

a monetized YouTube channel too much.

It is so valuable. I have

a third channel that has over 1,000 subs,

so I guess I could get it monetized if I

grind out the watch time hours. It was

called Abroad in Thailand,

I think. Yeah, then I changed it into

a gaming channel.

God, I feel scared now because, um,

there were a few times when I went to work

when I was at my mum's house doing Amazon

Flex and I let Sunny use my computer

whilst I was out. God, she could have

easily just gone onto my YouTube page and

like pressed delete on everything. I don't

think she would do that. But I bet you

anything, if she could,

she would want my channel deleted,

or she would be happy if my channel got

deleted because

then there would be nothing to argue

So I felt a bit nervous when I left her

here alone when I went to work last— it

was last Saturday actually. I can't

believe it was only one Saturday ago. I

had to go to work in the morning on

Saturday and she was here, so I said, you

just stay in bed, I'll be back around 11.

Yeah, we went to— I forgot

where we went to. Oh, we went to this farm

shop called Strawberry Fields, and then

we went to Tesco, and then we got beef at

the Strawberry Fields butcher, and we

tried to ask him to— if he could cut

yakiniku meat, and then he didn't know

what he was doing.

Gave us some slices of beef skirt,

which doesn't taste anything like

yakiniku. It's also too thick. It's way

too thick. He cut it as thin as he could,

I guess, but yakiniku meat is supposed to

be really thin.

The slices were still too thick.

Yeah, then we went to the big Tesco and I

did my shopping.

Yeah, I like going shopping. I won't be

able to go shopping again for another 10

days. I'll go to Lidl. I'm gonna get beef

liver. I wanna make liver and onions.

Now I'm broke. No more steaks.

I'll get chicken hearts and liver.

Yeah, imagine my channel actually got

banned. I'll hit Sunny up saying, so my

channel's banned, um, can we get back

together now the channel's not around

I heard you gotta soak liver in milk to

get rid of the bitterness and draw out the

Beans and rice. What, baked beans

or kidney beans? I guess you could always

just fry an egg and have rice and miso