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How's that?

I'm back from dinner.

I had a beer. I'm kind of sleepy now.

Uh, 22.

I had

I actually don't remember.

Actually hurts my brain trying to remember what I had for dinner.

Oh, chicken stir-fry with rice. It was a bit boring. I had beer too.

Oh God, having the beer definitely didn't help my energy level.

I'm only gonna make $65 today.

Hopefully YouTube makes up the rest to $100. It was not worth streaming on 2 websites. Multi-streaming wasn't worth it.

I don't like this lamp. It's too bright.

I might turn it off.

It's too bright in my face.

Oh, sleepy.

Hard work streaming all day.

Why don't you like the vaping? I thought it makes me look cool.

Mm-hmm.

Oh God, the beer wasn't a good idea.

Maybe if I have a coffee, it reverses the effects of the beer.

Oh God,

might make a coffee.

Uh-huh.

Beer is really not a good idea for my energy level.

This lamp keeps shaking.

Oh,

more

coffee for my acid.

Only had half the bottle of the Corona.

Might

have to stream until 1 AM. To make back the money I lost from multi-streaming.

Hope no one ever says, why don't you multi-stream ever again? All your fault.

Now instead of making $100, only made $65.

Where's my apology?

Oh.

Uh, coffee is my favorite drink, I think. Just can't beat coffee, can you?

So soothing.

No, I hate those Japanese iced coffee cans. They're so disgusting.

Maybe it's because they're in a metal can, but they taste kind of metallic. Oh, shut up, Bobby Brown. Yeah, I know the views have tanked. It's all your fucking fault. Stupid useless viewers.

Yeah, those vending machine coffees are terrible.

Even Mummy hasn't been here much today, if at all. I don't even remember seeing Mummy in the chat today.

Remember, I used to get 140 viewers. Good times.

Uh, it gave me the opportunity to

impress people, gave me the money to be able to do some cool stuff. And what did I do? Did nothing.

Took the money and sat here doing nothing.

And I'd do it all over again.

Because I'm gonna live a nice normal life

without doing silly things,

and if that bores you, then tough.

Fuck. I am now a normie. If you can't beat them, join them.

Interesting, I didn't get copyright claim on the stream.

Maybe all my music is just remixes, so there's no copyright.

Although I did play Nightwish and Killswitch, and that's not a remix.

What's public domain? What, Nightwish and Killswitch?

I'm pretty sure their music record company would

Do a copyright claim

unless my singing over it ruined it or something, or the humming of the car.

Might make $5.

Um, yeah, remember PewDiePie got copyright claimed for Despacito?

No, but it's out of tune. It doesn't recognize it. Oh, I can't tell if I'm hot or cold.

Move my bison.

Wow, look

how thick my wrists are now.

2x4ists could destroy Devin the Rat arm wrestling. No, I'm not dual streaming ever again. Rubbish idea. Do you know how much money I made on Kick because of dual streaming?

$2 an hour.

I mean, $2.50 an hour.

So bad.

Looks like there's no way to get the viewers back. Even coming back to my mom's house

didn't do it.

Maybe if I go back to my own house, the viewers go back up.

Oh, hey, Santa. What's going on? What's— how's it going on?

Would you like my vape?

It looks like a recorder.

No, my mom doesn't know. Don't tell her, I'll be in big trouble.

I vape and I drink alcohol and I drive. Car very fast and I have sex. I'm a real man.

Rizzmaster.

Why am I doing what

I vape? I drink alcohol, drive fast car, and I make love at the speed of light.

Teenage Daniel would be proud.

And I smoke the weed.

No, I don't finish at the speed of light. My thrusts break through the sound barrier.

Each thrust creates a sonic boom. That's so lame. Uh, that's so lame. I cracked myself up.

That

was a good one.

If, if that happened, the girl would get pulverized into dust.

Just imagine if it's like a warp drive going into hyperspace and it creates like a nuclear explosion.

Oh man,

Riz skills 2,000 out of 2,000.

I like how the theorists say if there's actually hyperspace And when they go into hyperspace, it will just pulverize them into goo into the back of their seats because they're like— but they're supposed to be going how many miles per hour? This hyperspace. And they do it instantly. It doesn't even like build up gradually. It just goes

like that. They just get squished.

Yeah, that was cool. Was it Rogue One? The Star Destroyer comes out of hyperspace and smashes right into that ship.

That's gonna be me against your backside, the Star Destroyer.

How fast is faster than light speed in miles per hour?

300— what? 670 million miles per hour?

I thought it'd be like 1,000 miles per hour.

Okay, if you can travel at 670 million, uh, miles per hour How long it takes to get to Mars?

Oh damn, the coffee's woke me up.

Now I need to pee. Oh, come on, it's so slow.

Stupid copilot. Oh, spasm.

It's weird, all these things like nicotine, alcohol,

uh, make me kind of down and sleepy. It says it takes 3 minutes.

It'll take a few minutes to reach Mars if you go 670 million miles per hour.

Yeah, saying alcohol and nicotine makes me feel kind of down, but caffeine— I think caffeine's my favorite.

Caffeine and sugar,

the best.

I don't know why I'm unhappy.

I'm unhappy because my views went down, or did my views go down because I'm unhappy? It's like a cycle. I mean, it's like a spiral.

I've always been unhappy because my views really

Ever since the views started to drop, I was unhappy. Back in 2019,

I saw it happening.

I knew it was gonna happen.

I've always known it was gonna happen.

I don't think I ever once thought, oh wow, my views are going back up again, I am saved.

So ever since I lost the main audience,

I could see it.

It's like you get cancer, you know you only got 5 years left,

you know it's coming and there's nothing you can do.

No, I don't want to do van life. I've got to buy a van, costs thousands. Oh, shut up.

Neighbors came home.

Fresh mint plus coffee

tastes quite nice.

Any interesting stuff at home since leaving?

No, I saw the neighbor with my lawnmower yesterday.

What to do tomorrow? I don't have many days left now. Thursday, Friday. Oh my God, I've got 3 days.

I feel sad to leave, but also nothing's happening. So

since I came home, literally nothing happened apart from

Literally nothing has happened since I came apart from I got iPhone. That's it. And I saw the baby and I saw Pushkin.

I don't know what I was expecting, but I thought, I know something might happen.

I mean, the loft thing was pretty fun. Going up in the loft was like the only memorable thing that happened

where— I mean, it was the first time I ever went in the loft. I always saw my dad go up there. But he never, he never said, oh, Daniel, can you help me up in the loft? And I thought the loft was really small. I couldn't believe how big it is up there.

It's massive. It's bigger than my bedroom, actually, in the loft.

Yeah, seeing the loft has been the only memorable thing.

Well, you should have seen how my dad used to get in the loft. That ladder that you saw, that's new. My uncle put that there. My dad used to get a really long ladder and put it on the staircase, and the loft entrance was a hatch above the staircase, and it was really high up, so I was

always scared to go up that ladder.

But I never went up and poked my head up there.

Yeah, it was cool. I saw the loft finally.

I could see the brickwork that my granddad laid, the chimney and stuff. Saw that massive wasp nest. It was the only interesting thing that happened. Since I came home.

And, um, then I'm hanging out with Pushkin. I want to give him more treats, but he's not here.

I don't know where else to explore. I went in the garage.

Well, they're all focused on the baby, so what can you expect?

I'll go out with my mum on Friday,

have a look at cars.

Maybe I'll get a new car.

Maybe I can part exchange my car, get a hybrid.

Toyota hybrid. Yeah, Toyota C-HR maybe.

I wonder who bought my mum's old car because they put her old car on sale at the dealership. Looks funny seeing it there with the price tag.

It must also feel weird for them to buy it off you and then you see it in the forecourt for sale at a higher price than what they bought it off you for. It must make you feel like you got scammed, but they gotta make a profit, don't they?

I

might go and get fish and chips tomorrow.

I want something crispy and moist with my beer.

I wonder if the guy who sold me my car will be there. It'd be funny seeing him again. Show him my car all banged up a year later.

Yeah, I might get a savaloy. Fish and chips.

Today I had stir-fried rice. Didn't go with the beer that well.

Oh, Silent Hill F comes out tomorrow. I might try that.

It looks interesting. I don't usually like Silent Hill because it's always in that really boring town,

but Silent Hill F has like a Japanese theme with Japanese girls.

Silent Hill F, £70. Oh God.

This game is set in Japan in the 1960s, contains depictions based on the customs and culture of that time. These depictions do not reflect the opinions or values of the developers. It's funny they have to write that.

What kind of depictions of values do they have in the 1960s in a video game?

Hinako's hometown is engulfed in fire. Why is it always engulfed in fog? Driving her to fight grotesque monsters and solve eerie puzzles.

I don't like psychological horror. She looks like an old woman. Look, I don't know, she's supposed to be about a schoolgirl.

Doesn't she kind of look like a MILF?

She looks weirdly realistic, not like anime'd up.

She kind of looks like a 35-year-old woman in a school uniform.

You know how to like psychological horrors where it's all just mess— silly stuff messing with your mind. I like it when it's actual scientific. That's why I like Resident Evil, because it was supposed to be based in science, like the bioweapon lab creating weird stuff using actual science. It wasn't like magic, and then it became really stupid.

I don't like psychological stuff, you know, like phantoms appearing and disappearing in front of you.

But, but,

but.

Not confirmed for Switch 2.

I played that game where you're in Tokyo. It's first person and then you fight these phantom things. That was kind of rubbish. I thought it was cool the way it's in Japan and you can go into the convenience store and stuff, but the combat and the way there's no people apart from the phantoms was kind of lame.

Combat is really stupid, like you just spam all these different,

I don't know, like energy blasts. With his finger signs.

I thought the setting was cool, but the gameplay was rubbish.

I played a bunch of these Japanese horror games.

One was like a convenience store horror game, and then you go to work at the convenience store, and then you check the CCTV cameras, and it was a night shift, and So it was all creepy.

That was weird.

I just don't really find ghosts scary because they can't do anything to you. They just randomly appear, jump scare you, and then disappear again.

Well, although it does give me the shivers, but Like, can you imagine if, you know, in the corner of the reflection, you see someone's face and then it disappears and then it's like ghostly looking? Kind of looks like my dad. Oh, oh, giving me tingles.

The way it just subtly appears is a bit creepy, but I hate it when they suddenly just jump scare you, like right in your face. And it makes that loud sound with music.

That's lame. Lame-o. Lamey.

Vape very strange. Why? It's, uh, fresh mint, sour berries.

Start doing weed, and maybe I have. I still don't really like weed. It makes my face do this.

I keep making this face. Like I'm really sad. I'm like,

I do like George Bush frown, and then it gets all heavy and I get pink eye, and then my eyelids go all fat and like, and I can barely talk. I'm really boring. I talk even less,

and then I get really horny.

The best thing to do when you're high is just like be naked with a woman and like dive into her collarbone.

That's the nicest thing.

It's like when you're high

Everything feels— you feel very insecure, like you can't stand properly, you can't walk properly. But then you're naked with a girl, and then it's like you're floating in this warm,

human-smelling— I don't know how to describe it. Like being back in

the womb.

Makes you feel comfortable again.

But I don't enjoy it. I don't enjoy the feeling of being high. It just feels bad, and I feel like, oh, come on, I wish it's over already.

Yeah, Prism. The problem was Prism Studio sucks. It kept losing connection and then it wouldn't get the connection back.

I need to pee again.

The iPhone doesn't have any good streaming apps. There's no IRL Pro. Moblin was quite good, but then it crashed my laptop, so I stopped using it.

Can't beat Android. I need to pee again.

I had, had half a beer, a cup of jasmine tea. I had a glass of water and then I had a cup of coffee. I'm going to be pissing all night.

I don't know when my sister's leaving. She might leave next week, I don't know. I feel a bit sad I won't see them for a while.

I don't think she's coming back for Christmas. I think she's spending it with in-laws,

so maybe I'll see them New Year's. I don't know if they're coming for New Year's.

Mum might feel sad. Everyone's gone, baby gone.

Dave Gibson didn't come.

He used to come around a lot. And my mum said he hasn't come round as much, as often as before.

Yeah, so I don't know, he might come back around Christmas.

Back to the Devon house.

Yeah, stuff happens in life and then

No one cares. It's not like how it used to be.

Everyone used to be so obsessed with what, what's Daniel doing next? What's he doing now?

Now it's like all this stuff happens and I think it's pretty cool and interesting,

but no one cares anymore. I could meet Elon Musk and no one would care.

It's like one of the haters said in the comments ages ago that really stuck with me. They said something like,

Enjoy fading into obscurity.

And you deserve everything. You,

you deserve everything that's coming to you. Enjoy fading into obscurity.

And I thought,

yeah, I can't really

stop that from happening.

I wonder if I can still find the comment if I type in obscurity into the comments.

Haters. Not— I'm not even talking about like the subreddit haters. I'm just talking about the casual viewer haters.

Their words can be quite hurtful.

I might have deleted the comment out of rage.

It's like Onision, isn't it? One minute getting millions of views. And then next minute no one cares.

I'm shouting into the void.

People are still making videos about Ren Yi Xiong. Internet anarchist 5 months ago got a million views.

They're still going on about the same things, like how he groomed girls.

It's like people make videos about me still going on about the same stuff.

Still Shiloh blah blah blah

rating viewers' looks. It was a 5-month-ago video.

It's going over and over the same points.

I mean, in 5 years' time, probably be more videos about me by some other commentary channel. And then guess what they're gonna say? Oh my God, he cheated. Oh my, he had chlamydia.

I get more views than Onision now. He gets like 2K views.

What's Elvis the Alien doing?

He gets about 100K views now. 200K

Minecraft movie. I watched all of Love Island.

He's just doing movie stuff.

He was kind of short.

He's at 1.8 million subs now. I remember he kept checking his sub count when we hung out because he was just about to hit 1 million.

Sub count doesn't even matter anymore. I don't even sub to the people I watch. I just watch them and then the feed shows me more of them because I watch them.

I don't need to sub to anyone anymore.

I want views because it was the only way I could escape a life of poverty without getting a job.

It was like a superhuman ability.

To just conjure money out of thin air by talking.

Made me feel elevated above everyone else, like I didn't have to be part of that rat race of grinding a job.

The Abroad in Thailand channel.

I got a couple thousand views here and there after a while.

I tried to make Thailand content.

I've got 9K on I Left England and Moved to Thailand.

I've got 6K My Experiences Living in Thailand.

Okay, I guess, considering it was a fresh channel.

And I just ran out of things to talk about Thailand. Like, yeah, okay, I moved to Thailand. Yeah, I'm in Thailand.

What can you keep talking on and on about Thailand?

Kick partner payments, getting like $8 or $9 an hour now.

Yeah, I tried really hard to copy Chris Broad. The editing was probably my best editing ever. I put the music in the beginning.

What was it? The trip to Phuket. Yeah, I put the intro with all the fun stuff happening. The funniest bits in the intro with the music. I copied his color scheming and his text font,

but I don't have the same delivery and I can't come up with the jokes. Like, he'd probably choose some weird mascot, then make a joke about it.

Like, the way he took the Ronald McDonald Japan thing and made a joke out of it. I would never be able to do that. It just wouldn't come to my mind like that.

Yeah, they kept saying I'll lose my KCIP. I've been below 75 for weeks.

They were saying all kinds of stupid stuff like If you don't show your face, you're going to lose it. If you don't talk for all these long silences where you don't talk, you're going to lose KSI.

I literally streamed driving for like 2 hours where I didn't even say a word and just music playing.

I remember when I first started driving on the stream,

I, I just started randomly saying stuff because I was a bit nervous if I didn't say anything.

And then I just gave up. I just didn't talk anymore. I used to be like, oh no, I missed the turn.

Well, I just randomly do road rage.

I don't like talking when I drive.

It's hard. I like to just focus on the drive and listen to music.

I don't want to do IRL. IRL sucks.

Walking around with a selfie stick, look like an idiot. Everyone hates you. No one looks at a streamer and thinks, oh wow, cool. They just think, uh, another idiot filming me.

Plus, I look kind of like a creep when I'm walking around filming because I look very suspicious. I don't have that outgoing extrovert energy like Bold and Bankrupt.

I saw myself in Pete's stream when I walked past and I got my hand in my pocket, so I'm walking around like that. I just look really shady.

First day, what am I gonna do?

I thought maybe I'll try and make a video.

I might try and make a proper video. And then Friday,

I don't know, I've got to take my mum to do this. I probably won't stream it,

then come back at lunch to stream.

And then Saturday

I got to start packing my car,

find stuff I'm going to bring back, and then I'm not streaming on Sunday.

Probably stream on Monday when I'm back at my house.

Just a few days left

now. How do you not know that my house is already doxxed? Back, back in 2016 it got doxxed.

Going back to nothing. Why leave? Why stay?

My sister won't be here either. They're not gonna stay here forever. It'll just be me and my mum again.

Although my mum was showing me jobs.

She showed me a job where it's like chopping wood.

Like, she wants me to get a job here and stay.

I mean, there's no financial reason to stay.

There's no financial reason to leave.

I don't know why. Why go back to the house?

I'm in cancer now.

I don't know what should I do.

I actually don't know what to do here.

Saving 1,200 a month is very tempting.

Hmm,

no, I'm not looking forward to going back to the Devon house. It's cold and it's lonely.

I

would just come back here. I don't know, go to the hotel, come back here.

Just imagine I'd be £15,000 richer if I didn't move there.

Oh, another 15K blown.

15K blown on stocks. 15k blown on taxes, 15k blown in Rotterdam,

blown like 60k. There wasn't even anything good that came out of living in Devon.

I can't even think of a single thing.

Well, what am I supposed to do? I mean, my goal is I want to have a girlfriend and live with the girlfriend. Or am I supposed to live here with my girlfriend and my mum? It's just weird. We need our own space.

My ultimate goal is I want to live with a girlfriend,

so I need my own place to live.

We'd get on meeting her on Sunday,

but she lives so— she lives like 3 hours away from Devon.

It takes like 3 hours to get to where she lives from Devon.

Yeah, and that's the other problem. If I do live with a girlfriend,

I'd only be able to stream from the morning until the afternoon

unless they say, oh, my job is I work 10 hours at the factory from 9 AM until 8 PM.

I'd only be able to stream 5 days a week, and then I'd only be able to stream like 6, 5 or 6 hours a day.

At this rate, I would make—

oh God, if I could only stream 5 hours a day, I'd only make $40.

I'd only make— ah, I

only make $200 a week.

I'd only make $800 a month. Oh Jesus,

if I do end up living with a girlfriend, I'd be broke. I mean, even if she was okay with me streaming

I'm not going to stream all day, am I? It'll be like when I was with Faster. She'd go to work and then I'd go live, and then I'd end the stream when she comes back. So I'd only stream as long as she's out, cuz if she's here, I'm not going to stream.

I'll just sit in a little room streaming. Whilst I could be spending time with her.

Like, let's say even if I could stream 6 hours a day,

I'd only make about $1,000 a month.

I need to stream like 10, 12 hours a day every single day.

I wouldn't make enough money.

In that case, getting a job would be better because I would work less hours and make double the money. Getting a job

would be the only way to work normal hours, like 6-hour shifts,

and I'd make more than what I make from streaming.

I need, I need 150 viewers to make what I would make from a normal job, and I can't get my fucking viewers up

no matter what I do.

There's like, I don't know,

I mean, also I don't want to stream all day long if I had a girlfriend because, you know, I want to watch movies and stuff. And spend time in the evening.

Sorry, if I get a girlfriend, I'm gonna be broke.

The 2 things I want in life just don't go together.

It's easy to stream all day long when I'm alone.

Why are the red numbers going up?

Uh, tomorrow I'll pay off the credit cards when I get my cake money.

I didn't make much this week. I only made about $350.

No, I didn't add an iPhone. I'm not keeping the iPhone. I don't know, I want to keep the iPhone, but then I will add £1,000 to the Amazon payments.

Hey, I should probably send it back.

It is nice though. Look at it. I'll hold it like in the advert. Oh, we can hold it with 2 fingers.

I need to add more money to my day trading account and make bigger trades so I can make £50 per trade instead of £10.

Today I made no money. I lost £15 and then I made £15.

Day trading's my only way out.

Either I make good YouTube videos again or I learn to day trade.

Which one's more impossible? Tomorrow I will make a video. Classic camera angle in my room. Like it's 2018 again.

I will talk about—

I mean, this is a pretty good topic— why my future is bleak and empty. Yeah, I mean, I could actually turn this into a video rant

about how if I want to make decent money, I've got to stream all day. But I also want a girlfriend. If I have a girlfriend, I can't stream all day.

So either be making decent money but alone, or have a girlfriend and live in poverty.

I did copy a video. I copied that fat greasy hair nerd guy. Snoop or something. Only got 5K views. This one's probably got a million views by now.

I don't know what to talk about. The only thing that's on my mind is like

worrying about the future.

I like Jeremy Clarkson because

I don't know, he's always doing stuff and starting new projects,

and then he makes a mess of it and breaks stuff, and it's funny.

But I can't just go and buy a pub, buy a farm, buy a tractor. Tractors are really annoying, there's so many buttons.

People don't find me because my channel is called Hiding My Room, and if you type in Hiding My Room, my channel does come up.

Yeah, I don't know, Jeremy Clarkson's energy amazes me. How he's so old but still has all the energy to start these new projects when he doesn't have to. He could just retire and he's got plenty of money, but he wants to do these things because he'll be bored.

I'm missing that. I need to have this mindset of, oh, I'm gonna do this, I want to do that. But I have a mindset of, I don't want to do that, I don't want to do that, because it's Waste of time. It's too hard.

It's risky.

Get a van

and then park it in my mom's garden and then rent it out.

Dog inside in the garden.

Can't bother.

Doing YouTube is really hard.

I used to think it was easy because I enjoyed doing it,

but when you don't have any ideas

And you don't enjoy it.

It's impossible to do.

The people who do YouTube best are the ones who specialize in a field. Like tech or anime,

anything that you can be passionate about and make a thousand videos about.

Why is trading so crazy? Because you lose money doing it.

I lose money doing everything.

Everything I do loses money.

Buying the car and becoming a delivery driver ultimately made me lose money more than I made.

Everything I've done loses money. Why are people so critical about the trading thing in particular?

Technically, I only own a third of my car. I've, I've only paid like 5K towards my car. I paid 10K.

I don't even own more than 50% of my car.

Yeah, technically I paid it all off, but only because she gave me some money.

So instead of owing the car company money, I owe her money.

So it's not really paid off apart from technically.

I didn't want to go to Thailand or Japan because I didn't want to blow thousands, and then the kick numbers still went down anyway.

And I didn't really want to go anywhere as well.

I'd only really— if it was in the past, I only would really want to go if there was some woman I was talking to.

Drawing. Okay, I'll go buy an iPad. I should have bought an iPad instead of the iPhone.

Yeah, but the drawing needs a story to go with it. I can't just do videos of just a drawing. I need a story to tell. I already told all my stories.

That's the problem, I run out of stories.

I can't make fictional stories. I'm not creative enough.

I'm not a story writer. I'm a storyteller.

I just go into random Reddits and then tell other people's stories. No, I only care about my own stories.

And I only like drawing from the heart. I don't like being— I don't like feeling like I'm forced. To draw some random drawing to go along with the story.

I like to

draw something from emotions

and then maybe have a story go around the drawing.

I've only ever been good at making videos around my own experiences of things.

Which used to mainly be about Japan and dating in Japan.

Hmm, the loft video got good CPM. $12. $6 per 1,000 views. Might make $12.

What work did my mum do? We didn't even find where the leak was from. It stopped leaking anyway, so whatever.

It don't even matter anymore.

Damn, Aspen Gold, so goofy.

In the thumbnail.

He looks—

it looks like, like the Grinch if he was human.

It's weird because his dad looks kind of handsome and cool.

He must Look like his mum.

Oh, what we gonna do?

Zach Hoyt, that's a funny name.

Wow, he's one year— his birthday's a month after mine. One year and a month after mine.

Well, I've got to try and make a video tomorrow.

Uh, what am I going to talk about? How about why I regret moving to Devon?

Or maybe a random topic video about marriage in Japan.

Oh, I need toilet.

But we'll try and make some clickbait video about Japan, why Japanese women hate foreigners.

You know, having a stream is kind of like having a baby. I've got to give it all my attention all day long, and I can't do anything else.

And it's constantly whining and crying.

About stuff that's out of my control.

I do fun things, it's just you don't find it fun.

I had really fun time driving today.

I really enjoyed the drive.

I enjoy playing with my new iPhone.

It's just we're mismatched. I don't know why.

We got nothing in common.

You don't like any of the things I like. I like stocks and iPhone and I like driving. No one cares about any of those. All you guys care about is stuff I don't care about.

There couldn't be a bigger mismatch of audience and creator.

It's because I've changed. I didn't used to like driving.

You guys just care about one singular stupid thing,

which is relationship drama, and you don't care about anything else.

But I don't make car content. I don't make stock content.

My bum's itchy.

I mean, the last time the viewers got all excited was at the idea of me licking shit off a dildo. You got the maturity level of like a 12-year-old.

That was like the most active the chat's been, was when I talked about the shit licking thing.

Yeah, well, you said I don't do anything fun, and I said I do things that I find fun. It's just that you don't care about those things. I'm not saying I'm an expert at them. I just said I find those things fun.

That's what I find fun. That's what I like to talk about.

I don't want to make content about it. And what, what content can I make about driving my car? Just enjoy the feeling of it. It's like I enjoy the feeling of eating a pot noodle. I'm gonna make videos about pot noodles.

I don't really have the masterfulness about stocks to be able to talk about it confidently.

I tried talking about the iPhone. I've got 7K views,

which is more views than my normal videos get.

Maybe I'll make another video about the iPhone.

One week later.

Yeah, I just don't really want to make a video about it though.

I'm not passionate about pot noodle, I just like eating it.

I don't want to talk about it. It's like, okay, yeah, it tastes nice, so what?

They don't always bomb. They actually do better than the videos where I'm actually authentic. Silksong, 41K views. Switch 2, 27K views. iPhone Air, 7.8K views.

They're all fake. I don't care about those things.

But not enough of these trending things come out, and I don't get enough views for them

to make a big dent in my earnings. I make a couple hundred here and there every few months.

I mean, even if it's not viable, what am I gonna do instead?

Oh, I'm back cursing like this. This— the back of the chair doesn't lean back far enough. It's too upright.

Pushkin doesn't come to my room. I don't think he's even inside the house. Where's he gone?

The thing I like talking about

Are my plans for the future, what I'm gonna do next.

The problem is I don't know what I'm gonna do next.

I can't even decide if I'm gonna go back to the Devon house or come back here after the hotel.

I'm still undecided.

I've only got 25 fans on OnlyFans now. I haven't uploaded anything in ages.

I made $500 in August, $200 in September, $550 in July, $600 June, $650 May.

Well, the problem isn't really saving money or cutting down expenses.

It's how can I make more money?

Because even if I didn't have to pay rent, I still need to figure out how you're going to make money.

You know what I wish? I wish you can like download an AI personality and take over your body. I download some really upbeat No, somebody's like, hey guys, welcome back to another video,

and then he's like all bubbly and friendly and nice, and then I just activate it for 10 minutes to make a video and then turn it off.

Maybe Elon Musk's Neuralink can do that, to like change your personality. I'll be like, activating AI personality.

Hey guys, welcome back to a new video. Like Mr. Who's the Boss.

He's like, so I've been playing around with a new iPhone Air. Fucking smastic.

And it's got me thinking Who is this really for?

Fucking idiot. Why is he always bouncing around in his stupid fucking videos?

Made me vomit in my mouth.

Stupid fucking popular YouTubers. Bunch of fucking retards.

I've got so much hatred for YouTubers, it's crazy. Seething with jealousy.

I just need to— I need to like either become a different person or learn how to act like a different person.

I mean, I had the right persona for a bit, like 2016, '17, and '18. I had the right kind of energy, and then I lost it from 2019 onwards.

Maybe if I just speak faster or move sporadically and make stupid hand gestures.

Basically, just be fake.

It's too hard. If it was easy, everyone would be doing it. I did have a niche. It was making videos about how much of a douchebag I am. That's what got views, wasn't it?

I cheated on all my wives.

Yeah, then I get all these channels like Turkey Tom telling everyone I'm a psychopath,

and then people think that's who I actually am, but I'm just doing it to get views.

Basically, I have to become a psychopath to get any views and then drive away everyone, and then I become depressed, sad, and lonely. Really worth it.

Remember Elvis Alien was saying

to make the videos I'm passionate about, and then I said I'm not— no one's interested in anything I like. And then I said I like Star Wars, and he was like, Daniel, millions of people like Star Wars. Yeah, as if I'm going to make video— I don't even like Star Wars.

I grew up watching the movies and I used to like them when I was a kid. I don't give a shit about Star Wars. I said, what am I gonna do, make a video about Star Wars?

I'm not that autistically nerdy about stupid Star Wars.

I don't even like it anymore. I haven't even watched the new series like Andor. Or Ahsoka.

Last time I watched Star Wars was

The Mandalorian when I met that girl, the fat one,

and it was rubbish. This stupid Baby Yoda. It wasn't even Yoda. I thought it was actually Yoda when he was a baby. It was just some random alien that's the same species as Yoda.

Yeah, I saw some clips about it. It looks pretty cool. I saw the scene with the ship that has lightsabers coming out of it. I thought, that's so stupid, but it's actually really cool. They had lightsabers come out the side and it did like a spin and sliced up some TIE fighters.

And I thought, why even have guns? Just have a big lightsaber. Why can't the lightsaber just shoot out really far?

I mean, that's basically a gun then.

I just don't care about anything.

Even with stocks,

I'm very base, like shallow surface level knowledge.

I don't do all this stuff like call walls and put walls.

I'm looking at the data. I just watch some YouTubers and I listen to what they say. They say gold's going up. Clay Value Tax says he likes gold, so I bought gold.

And some of these trader people, they like nerd out on the stats and the data.

I just want to see the green number go up.

I'm gonna have a bath as well before I leave.

When should I have it? Maybe I'll have it tonight. No, I got stream.

Ah, could miss out 30 minutes of streaming to have bath.

I really love having a bath. I'm not going to make a video about having a bath.

Yeah, I love doing things, but I'm not Like, more passionate about the science of the bath water temperature.

I made a relaxing ASMR bathtub video.

Miss making those Helldiver 2 videos. It was so easy.

And it got good views for a bit. I just got some new gun and I was like, insane damage.

I haven't played Helldivers 2 in ages. I think it's got loads of new content, but I can't be bothered anymore.

Why I ate my own shit. Next video.

Oh, so I don't know every 7 hours. Guess I'll pre-purchase it,

get the ball rolled. £70. Oh my God.

I

bought Silent Hill F, £70.

My review's coming out tomorrow in 7 hours. It'll be out when I wake up.

It's only 40 gigabytes. I need to get my review out straight away.

Come on, 40K views.

What do you mean, bit late? It hasn't even come out yet. It comes out in 7 hours.

What happened to that guy?

Fat English guy who became a woman who used to be on the Total Biscuit podcast. Tim Jim Jimquisition. Is he still a woman? I can't believe it's so random he just became a woman.

It gets like 50K views now.

2 months ago, did he give up?

James Stephanie Sterling.

Probably need a content warning for this one. We're not going into details on any dark subject matter specifically, but we will be using very exact terminology for mental—

They educate half my shit anyway these days. To me, they could kill my channel today and I'd laugh because I'll get the content out some way and I'll continue to be supported by people who believe in it and I'll be grateful for that. Um, so yeah, I'm just not—

that was so random. He always used to dress up. In that black suit with the red tie.

I can wait for 15 minutes. Them sales due to my criticism, I'd be hurting the industry.

The streamer's already playing it. Ready?

Well, when the game officially releases, it might trend. It's worth a shot.

Maybe I'll play it on stream.

But it's $100. I make $100 not playing it.

Mm-hmm.

Feeling very negative recently.

Is it 11 o'clock? Damn, it is. 1 hour to go.

Make another $30, maybe.

God, I wish that was Markass Brownlee or Dave2D.

Marquez.

Beauty is pain. How poetic.

The oldest living cat. How old is it? 30 years old.

Where's Pushkin? Why is he not in my room tonight?

I bet he's still outside. Maybe he's in a better mood today.

What car she got?

Why is the door flipping?

I'll call it that.

Underwear, I

guess. See, I care. Oh, high underwear for me.

Kiss me.

I'm gonna miss my bedroom.

I quite like my Devon bedroom. I do like my bed in Devon. I like, I like the big green cushion thing I've got. Now I can touch my willy

and you can't see. Haha.

I don't know why it's so comforting in my bedroom.

It reminds me of those days where my parents went out to work and I didn't have to worry about money. I just sat in here playing video games. Without a care in the world,

just being addicted to World of Warcraft.

Ah, those sort of days. I can't even enjoy games anymore because your whole mind just becomes about making money, and then gaming just feels like a waste of time.

Who can't enjoy things when it doesn't feel productive anymore.

But actually, if I nerded out on World of Warcraft, at least then I'd have content.

But I sucked at World of Warcraft as well.

I wasn't even good at it.

Even dedicating my life to that.

I had dreams of becoming this powerful, known person on the server. People would see me roll up and be like, wow, that's Daniel. He one-shots everyone. But nope,

I had a couple purple items, rest were blue. Didn't have the— didn't have the— what's it called— Molten Core armor.

I wasn't good enough at PvP to be able to get the good PvP set.

PvP in WoW was hard. You had to like win a lot of battlegrounds to get your, your thing up, but it could go back down. I forgot how it worked. Well, you get ranks and then you unlock the armor when your rank goes up,

but then it could also go down again. You lose a rank and then you had to have like a pre-made battleground team to actually steamroll everyone. And there was this guild on the server alliance called Premade.

Just give up. Everyone just go AFK and be like, there's no point. You can't have a random team go up against a pre-made guild who are decked out in tier 1 and 2 epic gear. Everyone just stood at the graveyard, not even rezzing. They just stayed as ghosts and just let them win because everyone knew it'd be

a waste of time even trying. There's no point. They kept saying you shouldn't let premade teams go up against random teams.

It was a bit unfair because they're all on TeamSpeak, organized, good gear,

and they'll just farm us over and over.

Yeah, I remember the pre-B Battleground days. The Horde would line up at—

I forgot what the town was called. The Alliance would come from Southshore, and then you'd meet in the middle on that field. Hillsbrad Foothills. And they all meet up, and then Alliance would push into the Horde town, and Horde would push them back. It was really fun. People just played it for fun, not to grind or anything.

And then people questing got caught up in the middle of it.

Tavern Hill, wasn't it called something like that?

Good times.

The

minute we get to level 13, you can start going to Hillsbran or Stranglethorn Valley. Everyone was scared of Stranglethorn Valley,

STV. You get ganked so much.

All those people probably have families and kids now. They're like all 40 years old.

Not sitting there reminiscing about World of Warcraft.

I don't need a TV. I've got a laptop. I don't really watch anything anyway.

I don't have time to watch anything.

It just feels like I'm losing money. I could be streaming. Why would I sit there for hours watching TV?

There's TV downstairs, so watch that for a bit after dinner. We watched Clarkson's Farm episode 4.

I forgot what happened.

Uh, his tractor wheel went flat and he was trying to unscrew it. And then something about picnic area at the pub he was buying being used as a dogging spot.

I was kind of drunk, so I don't remember.

Caleb was telling some gross story about testicles and sucking them or something like that. I didn't really understand it.

And then they were at the pub drinking a pint of beer with all the lads. And then I wondered, they're all drinking a pint of beer, and then I guess they're gonna drive home. Are you allowed to do that? It seems like a lot of beer. I'd be wasted.

Everyone just goes to pubs and drinks beer. And they drove there, so they obviously have to drive home.

Is that legal? I thought you're not allowed to do that. Or are you allowed to drink a pint of beer and still drive?

It's another one of those weird things that's illegal but people do it anyway.

Otherwise these pubs go out of business, wouldn't they?

Because you need to drive there to get there, and then you're gonna have a beer. That's the main thing they sell.

I can't believe my biggest call to fame was just going to Japan and getting married to a woman.

Seems obvious if you want the fame back again, or just go to Japan again, get another Japanese woman.

And I'm like, oh, I don't want to go to Japan again and have sex with Japanese women endlessly.

People think I'm crazy. You get views and you can have sex with Japanese women. Why do you not want to do that?

I don't know, I've already done that.

There's so much effort. I'm gonna go all the way to Heathrow and get a ticket for a plane. I'm gonna go all the way to stupid Japan and meet some random woman.

And then try and move in with her, and then, I don't know, try and marry her before the 3 months is up. A lot of work.

I don't even really care about Japanese women anymore.

It was good for views though, I have to admit. But that was my passion back then. I was passionate about Japanese women and living in Japan and speaking Japanese. It was my pride

that I could speak Japanese. I felt like an expert on Japan.

I felt like I knew all there was to know about Japan, like getting a Suica card and saying dojoubu desu

and getting a SIM card and guest houses. I felt like an expert.

Seeing

those people at the guest house kind of made me feel depressed.

You see these middle-aged Japanese men living alone in the guest house.

Living there because they're broke and lonely, and they probably think, oh, I can learn English for free and it's cheap and I can hang out with people because I'm like 50 years old and don't have my own family. It's so miserable.

I feel sorry for them. I'm scared of becoming like that.

I mean, seeing them makes me depressed because I imagine if that happened to me— maybe it will.

50 years old, still single, still broke.

And then you got the young people there who are studying Japanese and dreaming about life in Japan, becoming a teacher or whatever. And then you just think, oh my God,

you're just gonna end up back in your home country anyway. You're just wasting your time. You're gonna get homesick and then you're gonna go home. So what happens to most of them?

I'm going to get sick of teaching English. Novelty of Japan is going to wear off, and then you're going to go back home.

You're not going to become the next Chris Broad.

I didn't like the vibes at guest houses anymore.

Too old. To hang around with the young people, and I'm too young to hang around with the old people,

and it just feels kind of miserable.

It was interesting, like,

it was kind of like a college dorm, dormitory, the guest house. You go there when you're young, 20 years old, meet all these people, have sex, new experiences.

Learn about a new culture and language and food.

It was definitely an interesting experience 16 years ago.

Whole world changed.

When I was 20, there were babies

who are now 17, 18, about to get to their 20s,

about to do all of that stuff I already did.

Do you think if you commit a crime in Devon or Cornwall, you'd get in trouble with the Devon and Cornwall Police, wouldn't you?

But what if you're in Kent?

Would they come all the way here? Or would the Kent police come after you?

It's basically a different country.

I mean, county.

Well, she's thinking they'd be like, oh, he's in Kent now, no point bothering.

Exiled from Devon.

I wish my dad was here.

I keep, like, trying to picture how it would be if my dad was here and he could see the baby.

Like, would he carry the baby, or— Not really interacts with it much.

My mum loves the baby. She's always carrying it.

She keeps saying he looks like me when I was a baby.

Yes, my nephew.

Yeah, it's a shame he's not around. Could have shown him my car.

He would have been—

he would have been 70 years old this year, I think.

This would have been cool if he was around. To see all this.

That's why I felt like I, I should come home

and not miss it.

I

might doom scroll for 20 minutes

because there are 2 big problems with it. Now there's some good— I mean, It does happen as each extreme is a little bit more powerful than the last. Truth, democracy, citizen land. Politics needs an update. We demand the people's help. Truth, democracy, citizen land. Politics needs an update. We demand the people's help. Truth, democracy, citizen land.

Baby's very quiet.

He was crying a lot a couple of days ago.

My sister asked me if I heard him crying last night. I said no. It's crazy, I can't hear the baby crying at all when I sleep.

I bought those earbuds, £14, didn't even use it.

I haven't heard— I wasn't woken up a single time from the crying.

I was woken up because I had this wet dream and I was really horny.

Realized I was humping the bed.

That was a weird dream. I had a woman's body. But I had a penis. I was wearing like a bikini, like a thong. Not a bikini, it was a thong. And then I was like flopping my dick out of the thong, and I had thick thighs and woman hips, long hair, and I was filming myself,

and I was hot.

I thought, how hot would it be if I had the body of a woman but a penis

and I was getting fucked by a man?

I woke up, I was like humping the bed.

I was doing it in my sleep.

Must be weird being a ladyboy, cuz it's like you started off as a man and then your body became like a woman, but you still got a dick, but you're being fucked by another man,

so you enjoy the role of being the woman. Even though you're not really a woman.

Interesting.

I don't know how these ladyboys, they get their bodies really look like a woman's body.

How do they do that? They got the wide hips and the small waist and the big bum that's just like a woman's bum.

It can't be surgery. It would look weird if it was surgery.

Well, that's what happens when you don't W-A-N-K for 5 days. You get some weird dreams.

I think there's red folder news tomorrow. Was it

PME, PCE?

I forgot. Might have something tradable.

Thursday.

Oh, unemployment claims.

Forecast is 233K. That

could tank the market.

And then Friday, core PCE price index, red folder.

Oh God, this phone feels so nice. I don't know what it is, it's like the rounded edges.

Like the way it rounds off into the back and the corners are nice,

and the way it feels smooth on the side.

Oh, it feels so nice.

The way you just like balance it on 2 fingers like that and it feels like nothing.

But it feels so nice.

777. The view is tanking.

This feels good. Android doesn't feel like this. I don't know why.

QR codes, my Tesco Club card.

I should start paying off some of this Amazon credit card.

864. You gotta let it scan your face,

look to the left and look to the right, and then read out a stupid number.

Might go to bed soon. It's another 3 hours on the clock.

It is kind of nice having a 1 or 2 hour dinner break.

Maybe I start doing that back in Devon.

It does break it up a little bit, the monotony. Say 1-hour dinner break and then come back later. I quite like doing that.

I don't think it's even affected my income that much. I mean, it's only an hour and a half. It's like losing $8.

I'm still making $100 a day. Because I start around 9 or 10 until 7 PM, which is 9 hours, and then I do another 3 hours after dinner. It's like 12 hours.

Doesn't really affect viewership either when I come back.

Might do it in Devon as well. Break for dinner.

Yeah, I thought it was a good idea too.

Glad we agree.

Okay, goals for tomorrow. I want to make a YouTube video and I want to get fish and chips.

And I want to do a day trade and might grab a B livery if one pops up,

although I want to prioritize making the YouTube video over the B livery.

Just gotta think what to make one about.

Welcome back.

Need idea for making a YouTube video centered around the theme of coming back to my mom's house after living in Devon for 9 months, not knowing if moving to Devon was the right idea whether I should move back home and leave Devon or go back to Devon, even though there's no reason to go back there.

I hear you. Coming back home after a long time away can stir up a whirlwind of emotions, especially if you're unsure about your next steps. Here's a thought: why not use your YouTube video as a way to explore this inner conflict? You could create a narrative that captures your journey, emotions, and the pros and cons of both

places. Here are a few ideas. Storytelling: Share your journey to Devon and back, highlighting key moments that made you question where you belong. Break down the pros and cons of living in Devon versus being back at your mum's house. 3. Interviews: Include interviews with family or friends to get their perspectives. 4. B-roll: Use visuals of both places

to highlight the emotional connection you have with each. Would you like more ideas or tips on how to structure the video?

Can you give me more phrases, like keywords, like inner conflict and place where I belong? I think those are powerful lines.

Absolutely. Let's build on that theme. Consider using phrases like searching for home, torn between 2 worlds, or navigating the crossroads of my heart. You could also explore themes like rediscovering roots, embracing uncertainty, or the pull of the familiar versus the call of the new. These keywords can help frame your narrative in a way that's compelling and relatable.

Want to dive deeper into any of these themes? So basically, moving to Devon was me trying to become independent, become responsible, have my own place, paying rent. But now I'm there and I don't really see the point of being there anymore. I feel like I've proved my point that I can do it. Now I'm wondering why I

should continue doing it when it's costing me £1,200 a month in expenses that I could be saving if I was back at my mum's place.

Your story is relatable and layered, full of real-life considerations. Starting fresh in Devon showed you could stand on your own, and now you're weighing financial freedom against independence. It's a pivotal moment. Your YouTube video could delve into these themes, illustrating how financial pressure can clash with personal growth. You could emphasize the co—

You've touched on a really compelling theme. Moving to Devon was your way of asserting independence, but now you're questioning the cost of that independence, both financially and emotionally. Phrases like the price of independence or finding purpose beyond the struggle could be powerful. It's a nuanced tale of growth, sacrifice, and reevaluation. Want more phrase ideas or guidance on

framing your video? Give me some video titles.

Absolutely. Here are some title ideas that might resonate with your story. 1. Back to Roots: A Journey of Independence and Reflection. 2. Devon Diaries: The Cost of Independence. 3. Homecoming: Questioning the Price of Freedom. 4. From Devon to Mums: A Tale of Self-Discovery. My Devon Dilemma. Make it sound less professional, more emotional and heartfelt, and make the

title sound more casual sounding.

Got it. How about these more personal suggestions? 1. Finding my way, Devon or home. 2. Back to mum's, a heartfelt return. 3. Devon diaries, do I stay or go? Home versus independence, my £1,200 question. 4. Lost in Devon. Make it more clickbaity and dramatic.

All right, let's amp up the drama. 1. Devon vs Home, my £1,200 dilemma. 2. I left Devon, here's why I'm torn. 3. Shocking truth, is independence worth the cost? My £1,200 girlfriend.

Sure thing, how about these? My £1,200 a month gamble, Devon vs Home. Devon Diaries, the real

Hmm. How about these? My £1,200 a Month Gamble: Devon vs Home. Devon Diaries: The Real Cost of Independence. Or Why I'm Rethinking Devon: The £1,200 Question. Catchy enough? What about Why I Hate Living in Devon?

That title has a strong emotional punch. It's direct and instantly grabs attention. Are you leaning towards using it? Yeah, maybe.

It's definitely bold and intriguing. It could draw in viewers looking for a personal and dramatic

Well, I'm going to bed.

Goodbye.