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Try without Nighthawk.

Okay, what if I get HDMI cable and I just plug that into the Nighthawk— I mean, the other box?

嗯。

I gotta stop talking about this ballot box. Everyone's getting bored and leaving. It's costing me money.

I think I'll just leave it.

Everyone's getting bored as fuck, and I'm getting annoyed. I've tried every single thing.

Oh God, so fucking irritating.

I'm not going out again today. I'm so fed up.

It's because I keep, I keep turning off the stupid Wi-Fi and then the stream disconnects.

Also, if I go overseas, obviously I'm going to switch all the SIMs.

So is it just gonna not work if I keep switching SIMs?

But to be honest, I don't even need it overseas though because I'd be in a city.

It was mainly so I could stream out here in the middle of nowhere on hills and stuff.

Yeah, I turned off Nighthawk. I connected to my phone's hotspot and yeah, hotspot works. It always works. Everything works fine here. It doesn't work outside, that's the problem.

I have to just go outside and not stream and then just sit there fiddling with everything whilst getting drenched and blown in the fucking wind. Fucking stupid fucking weather.

Raining all week now. Every single fucking day it's gonna rain.

Oh my God,

I have removed the Nighthawk. It's not even fucking turned on. Look, it's not even plugged in.

You know, nothing to do with the fucking Nighthawk.

Fucking—

oh my God.

Fucking stupid fucking bike.

Oh my God, I give up. I quit. I'm never doing IRL again. I'm done. It's over. I'm finished. I can't be fucking bothered.

I'm so done.

No more IRL.

I'm done.

What's the point? What's the point of it only working when everything's perfectly set up here when I need to go to fucking Thailand and switch everything anyway?

Everything will be different.

It's completely pointless if it only works if everything's set up perfectly here.

It needs to just work when I turn it on.

I don't know why I need it in Thailand. Maybe if I go out of Bangkok, I need it.

Everything's gonna be different if I'm not here. I won't have the SIM cards, I won't have The same cell towers, whatever.

The only thing I understand is it only works when I'm in my fucking house,

and then when I go outside, it doesn't work.

Oh God.

Oh

God, this

is the worst day ever.

Lost all my viewers too from non-stop talking about it.

Oh my God,

it's like I can't get my mind off it, and then I can't stop talking about it, and it's driving all the viewers away, and I'm going to make fuck all money.

And then I went outside, wasted half the day doing nothing apart from effing on the hill.

At least the market's tanking.

Look, 233. Oh, thank God, I was down to 170. And then the market tanked.

Like, yeah, okay, if I start the stream in the house and then go out with all the connections tethered, yeah, then it might work. But I need it to work without being in the house.

How am I going to get it working if I leave the country?

I think I gotta get away. I need a way to just connect it to the thing with a wire and give up on the stupid hotspot.

Do what Joel does? What does he do?

He streams in a massive city with 5G connection everywhere.

Well, what does he use then? I don't know,

apart from S25 Ultra.

Now it's going to rain every single day, so now I can't even test it.

I can't even go outside anymore anyway. Anyway.

Oh, I need a distraction. Where the fuck is Crypt?

I'm sick and tired of this. We need some girl drama.

I've got no girls. Canadian girl doesn't message. Crypt gone. All fucking useless.

Look, nothing from Crypt.

Where are you? Oh my fucking God, fucking God.

Where are you? Oh my fucking God, wait, wait, delete that. Wait, can I delete that? Unsend. Unsend.

She didn't even read the message.

I'm not blocked because I can click on their profile.

Look.

I can see her profile. It says account private, but if you're blocked, it will just say account doesn't exist or something weird. Like, um,

Moon blocked me.

It will say profile not available,

and there won't— it won't show any numbers like followers, people they follow.

So it's not like she blocked me.

Call her on Insta.

Oops, I screenshot it by accident. It just says calling.

I don't even know if it's ringing. Does Instagram make a ring ring sound?

I can hear white noise like when it says calling.

Oh God.

Oh, I'm so mad.

But why the fuck should what it's connected to or what it's not connected to matter? It should just fucking connect to something and turn the fuck on.

I've obviously got internet connection. I had internet connection on the hill, otherwise my stream wouldn't have worked. Obviously I had internet connection because the stream was streaming.

There was internet connection. It didn't turn the fucking hotspot on.

I think we gotta use that church on the hills testing spot because it's only 5 minutes drive away. I'm not driving 40 minutes and then it doesn't work.

Uh, drive to that 5-minute place

tomorrow. I think I'll do it tomorrow. I had enough today.

Oh God,

I fucking hate technology. It's so stupid.

The only thing different I can maybe do is turn off the Nighthawk and use another connection to turn the hotspot on. But why would the Nighthawk be a problem? Because I can turn the hotspot on at home and Nighthawk is on.

Now I can't stop thinking about it. I can't think about anything else.

Oh, all I can think of to do an easy cheat is if I can use a cable to connect my iPhone To— let me ask AI.

Then I don't need the fucking hotspot.

Hotspot is such a liability.

Hey Daniel,

can I connect my iPhone to my Bella Box using a cable to send video to the Bella Box to stream from? Yep, you can. You'll need a Lightning to HDMI adapter for your iPhone. Connect the adapter to your iPhone, then use an HDMI cable to link the adapter to the Bella Box. Once connected, your iPhone's video should

stream through the Bella Box. Easy peasy. So wait, I get Lightning to HDMI cable and plug the HDMI into the Bella Box?

Exactly. The Lightning to HDMI adapter goes into your iPhone, then the HDMI cable connects from the adapter to the Bella Box. That setup— wait, I get a Lightning to HDMI adapter and plug a HDMI to HDMI into the adapter and the other end into the Bella Box?

Exactly, you've got it. That'll link your iPhone to the Bella Box for video streaming.

Yeah, but where's the video coming from? Is it coming from an app or the native camera app on iPhone? The video can come from anywhere on your iPhone, whether you're using a streaming app, playing a video. I want to use Moblin.

Ah, gotcha. You can use Mob Crush on your iPhone. No, Moblin.

Ah, Mob Crush. No, Moblin.

Mob Crush. No, you fucking stupid fucking idiot. I'm really sorry for the frustration, Daniel. Could you clarify what you mean by Moblin? Maybe I misunderstood. Not Mob Crush, Moblin. Got it, thanks for clarifying. I'm not familiar with Moblin. Could you explain what it is? Then I can help you. Oh, it's a live streaming app. What the fuck

do you think it is?

Ah, I see. Thanks for explaining. To send video from your iPhone to the Bella Box using Moblin, you'd still use the same setup with the Lightning to HDMI adapter. Once connected, open Moblin on your iPhone. Yeah, okay, whatever. So what, I get a Lightning to HDMI No, I don't need the stupid hotspot.

Lightning to HDMI.

Do you think that would work?

Oh, 10% voucher.

Oh God.

Oh God,

I mean, if I just give up on the hotspot and I just directly connect it to the BattleBox using a wire—

okay, it's coming tomorrow.

Lightning to HDMI.

Cool.

Wait until 8 PM probably until I get it.

Order placed.

Hey Daniel, what's new with you today? So you're sure if I plug in a Lightning to HDMI cable from the iPhone 12 Mini into the BellaBox, I can stream from the iPhone Yes, once you plug the Lightning to HDMI adapter into your iPhone 12 Mini and connect it to the BellaBox, you should be able to stream from

your iPhone.

Uh, stabilization works?

The stabilization should work as it normally does on your iPhone, even when streaming through the BellaBox. Yeah, I can't get the hotspot to turn on from the BellaBox when I'm outside of my house.

That sounds frustrating. It might be a settings issue or a network compatibility problem. Have you checked if the Bella Box supports your carrier's frequency bands? Yeah, it does. When I'm at home, it turns on fine, and when I go outside my fucking house, it won't turn on.

That's definitely frustrating. It might be worth checking if your mobile data settings are allowing the Bella Box to create a hotspot. Outside your home. Maybe try reconfiguring the hotspot settings on your BellaBox. I don't know, whatever.

There's barely any settings to configure. There's like one button. There's hardly any settings for the hotspot. It's not like a computer where you got all these settings. There's literally one setting where you choose the band.

Uh, whatever. I'll wait until tomorrow, see if this HDMI cable works.

It would just be annoying because I can't use it wirelessly, but then I'm never using it wirelessly ever because it's always connected to the charger. But then it won't be able to charge whilst the HDMI cable's in, so how am I going to charge it then unless it can charge through the HDMI cable?

It's not going to charge, is it?

Hi Daniel. If I connect the iPhone to the bell box using HDMI cable to Lightning, cable. How does the iPhone charge?

Ah, you'll need a Lightning to HDMI adapter that also has a Lightning port for charging. That way you can connect your HDMI cable and also plug in a charger to keep your iPhone powered.

Oh, I didn't get one of those,

but then I have like a little USB hub dongle thing hanging out my phone. Charge with MagSafe. Yeah, you could do,

but that tends to make the iPhone overheat.

Oh, how tired after raging

like this. HDMI, USB-C, Lightning. Maybe I'll buy that too. I'll buy both.

Well, I can get a MagSafe charger that has a fan built in. Really?

Buy now. Okay, I got Lightning to HDMI cable and I got a Lightning HDMI and USB-C adapter, and then I've already got HDMI to HDMI cable.

But for now, I am defeated.

You win.

You beat me.

I've already tested every fucking thing. I turn this off, I turn that off, I turn this off, I turn that off,

I connect this, I connect that. I did ev— when I was outside, I did everything.

David Bond had 2 inches on you. Yeah, David Bond's 5 foot 11 or something. He's like 5'10 or 5'11. He's a tall guy, so obviously he's got 2 inches on me because I'm 5'9.

David Bond's not short.

He's like slightly below 6 foot.

David Bond give up on his tricking the media prank thing. He was used to like, um, trolling the media and getting on TV. He was on Korean TV. I mean, he wasn't on it, but they were talking about him on it, saying he's like a disgusting sexual predator. And then the TV hosts were like scolding him, looking

into the camera and scolding him.

And then he would show it on his YouTube and laugh about it.

Yeah, last I saw his channel, he was in the the jungle flying the drone about.

He's one of those people who are like, oh no, the government's stealing my data. Oh, I've got to be off-grid. I've got to encrypt everything and use my traceless Bitcoin wallet. Oh no, the government's trying to track me down. Like, they, they think they're some kind of double agent super spy when actually no fucking government gives a

shit about you. And you're just paranoid as fuck. Oh no, they're phishing my data, they're gonna sell it on the black market. No one cares about you, you're nobody. You're not Edward Snowden, you're not Mark Zuckerberg. These people, they, they think they're like Mark Zuckerberg or something

with all their stupid data. No one fucking cares about your stupid fucking data.

You're some irrelevant nobody that no one cares about.

Imagine caring if the government's got your data or not. As if they couldn't get it if they wanted it. Well, you think you can stop the government from getting your data if you didn't want them to get it?

You wish.

As if you think you can outsmart the FBI and the CIA. Or MI6.

People are lame.

Oh no, I got to use Brave browser so they don't track my cookies.

Get a grip.

The stream ended, the 5-hour one. It said I made—

I think it just said $50. No, it was like $70.

Oh, I bent my tripod.

I bent the tripod leg. So it's supposed to be straight like that. It's bent.

Oops, I didn't think it would bend so easy.

Rubbish. Oh, now my tripod's wonky. Oh no,

bend it back.

Now I've got to smash it the other way.

Now I need a new tripod as well. Look, my tripod's wonky now.

Oh my God, the whole thing's wonky.

That made it

worse.

Yeah, I fixed it.

Genius.

No, the 5-hour stream that F'd and ended made $70. So I need to make another $130 in 5, 7,

7 hours.

That means I need $18 an hour. I don't think I'm getting $18 an hour with this shitty view count. Where the fuck did all the people go?

I'm not getting 18 an hour with only 70 viewers.

69. Oh my God,

where the hell did everyone go? Oh my God,

I'm gonna get a shit hourly rate, like $10 an hour.

I can't even go outside anymore anyway. It's raining every single day now.

I don't care if the 170 number is real people or not. Do you think I fucking give a shit if it's real people or not?

It's about the hourly rate. If I have 170, I'll make like $18 an hour. If it's not that, I'll make less than $18 an hour. It's not a stupid thing to say. As if I give a shit if it's real. Oh, really? You think it's real? You know what is real? $18 an hour when I get 170

viewers. I don't fucking care if it's real or not,

you stupid fuck. I'm

not getting $18 now with only, what, 70 viewers?

No, I shouldn't care about anything. You should care about me banning you because you've been a fucking annoying prick. One more— say one more thing, Carbonara, you're banned. Go on, do it. Apologize now or you're banned.

Okay, you're banned. Sad Toilet, you're banned too. I'm not botting anything. I'm not. You think I'm botting? You think I know how to fucking bot? You stupid fucking fuck. Sad Toilet, you're fucking banned.

Imagine thinking I'm botting. Imagine thinking I know how to bot. You stupid fucking twat. See ya. Banned.

Carbonara, where are you? You're banned too.

Carbonara banned.

2 viewers gone. No, they're still there, they're just not chatting.

No, I'm not unbanning them.

Imagine accusing me of bots— botting. I'm not the one botting, you stupid fucking idiot. If I was botting, I wouldn't have 80 viewers, would I? I have 170 then. I'm stupid fucking thing saying.

I'm not doing art, so I don't give a shit about fucking art. I hate art.

How have I showed any interest in doing— if I want to do art, I would have done it already. I'm not going to do it because I don't care.

I've got zero interest in doing art. I want to get a baseball bat and smash the whole fucking house up. That's what I want to do.

嗯。

Oh, I don't know how I can move on from this point. I need like a reset, just end the day already.

I just want next day to start and this day flushed down the toilet.

I

don't know what to do tomorrow.

There's, there's no point.

There's no point if it only works if I start it from the house. What am I going to do when I'm in Thailand or Japan?

I probably need to go to Tesco. I think I've run out of food.

Pescar.

Thursday.

Thursday.

Oh,

I don't think it's raining on Thursday, it's just cloudy.

I got it working with the GoPro,

it did work.

Uh, what am I gonna do tomorrow?

I think I'm just not going to stream outside tomorrow, but I'm going to— I think I'm going to go Tesco in the morning and see if I can get it working in the car park.

And if I can't get it working, I'm not going to go live. I'm just going to come home and then go live.

I'm not gonna— I'm not gonna go live if it doesn't work because I'm just gonna rage again.

I think I'll just go Tesco in the morning,

try a few things.

Uh, but this is

really hurting my income.

I need to forget about it for today.

Just forget about it.

Yeah, it might work out actually.

It's a good idea.

Piece of fucking shit.

Good.

My bicep.

I've already got an online store with merch on it.

It's on my YouTube channel. No one buys anything.

Endlessly being told to do things I'm already doing.

I don't think anyone suggested to do something that I haven't already done.

I've already done push-ups. I did them in the morning. How many more things am I going to get suggested to do? I've already done it.

Why do people keep telling me what to do? I've already fucking done it.

And if I haven't done it, it means it's because I don't want to do it.

Otherwise, if I want to do it, I would have done it already.

One pork loin.

Uh, frozen sausage, sausage roll.

Okay.

New topic.

We shall no longer mention the B word. B word is banned.

Tomorrow. Okay, let's talk about money again.

Eyes on the money.

I like money, right?

Okay, so I've got £2,500 withdrawable, £1,800 still waiting. Now, do I withdraw £2,500 now or wait for the rest of it and get it all at once?

Hmm. And I think maybe I'm getting my Kick money either tomorrow or tonight.

And then I'll pay off all of the credit card.

Altogether from the stocks I get 4,400, but there's still 1,800 uncleared waiting to be cleared.

I should get it tomorrow morning. And stupid Freetrade takes so long for you to sell the stock and actually be able to take the money out.

I'm not using Freetrade again. I'm gonna shut it all down.

Paying £6 a month to lose money.

What is Sam Pepper's Thailand house? Well, is he just ripping off Big Brother and then the viewers vote people out? That sounds like hell.

What if I rage and I smash the whole house up?

My bicep growing powerful every day.

Triceps. I don't need triceps. Biceps, all you need.

Triceps look stupid.

I need pecs and biceps, that's all.

Keep it simple.

Maybe I make my own streaming house where only girls allowed.

They must fight to have the honor of being my girlfriend.

You're wearing this shirt from the Rotterdam video. Yeah, I moved to the Netherlands. Yeah, it's the same shirt.

How can I reduce the weights to 12.5 kg when

It's already 12.5 kg. Oh my God,

the weights are 12.5 kg. How can I reduce it to what it is already?

What did you think they were?

S26 Ultra coming out next year.

Yeah, I got one that's 15, and I do maybe two reps because I can't do many on it, and then I go down to the 12 kgs.

Ha ha ha!

Hoo hoo hoo hoo hoo!

No B-word.

We're not discussing the B-word anymore.

Why is it so difficult for you to copy other streamers?

Do other streamers stream in the middle of Devon nowhere? Do they stream on Kit Hill? Do they stream at Meldon Reservoir?

I'd love to see them come to the UK or come to Devon and see how the stupid S25 Ultra works out.

They're gonna be effing all over the place.

All these other streamers just stay in cities.

Where obviously there's going to be good internet.

Yeah, if I, if I streamed in a city, it'll be fine, but I don't want to go to a city and get stabbed and my phone stolen and I get beaten up by youths. No thanks.

No way am I going to a UK city.

I want to stream in the middle of nowhere because I don't want people disturbing me. And I want to see beautiful views, not a bunch of buildings. Maybe I should just get the Starlink.

I would never stream in a UK city in Norway.

All I need is my new cable tomorrow. And I'll fix everything. I'll fix it myself, my way.

Imagine Crypt was here and we try go outside to stream and it doesn't work and I start raging, and the whole stream is just me raging at the Bella Box and Crypt sitting in the car bored.

Oh God,

maybe it's a good thing she doesn't come.

I thought by now I'd get this all sorted out and it'll be flawless.

It's been— it's been like a month and I still can't get it to work flawlessly.

Do I plan on improving my viewership? Well, yes, well, I wanted to get a girl here and now no girl's coming.

Maybe if I go to Asia and walk around some city like Joel does and then just buy random food.

Any word of Quipt Queen?

I tried phoning her today but didn't connect.

I don't think her mum replied.

I thought maybe I'd book my Thailand ticket in the coming weeks. £500 direct to Bangkok.

I've got to book a taxi as well, it's £900.

Imagine I'm in Thailand, I can't turn the hotspot on

cuz I got to be in my house. Oh, I'll just fly back to my house quickly.

No, 450 for taxi and 500 for the planes, 900 total.

And then maybe I'll get an outgoing ticket somewhere else.

Like, I don't know, maybe I'll go Vietnam too.

Yeah, the taxi from here to Heathrow is £450.

There's no— there's a bus from Exeter, but how do I get to Exeter? Yeah, I've got to get a taxi from here to Exeter. £170.

So I might as well just spend the extra £300 and get a taxi all the way there.

Yeah, one thing about Devon that sucks is the airport's so far away.

Connecting flight from Exeter. Well, okay, now I'll go get a taxi to Exeter, £170, and now I've got to buy a £750 ticket instead of a £500 ticket because it's stupid— not stupid— 2-stop flight. I've got to go to Amsterdam and then I'll go to Dubai and then I've got to go Thailand. So how about I don't

do that?

The ticket's more expensive from Exeter because there's more connecting stops, and then I still got to get a taxi to Exeter, which is like £150, £170.

And I won't save any money because the ticket from Exeter is more expensive than the tickets from Heathrow because there's less options.

Exeter Airport is rubbish.

It only— for some reason it only goes to Amsterdam and Heathrow.

A taxi from my mum's house, like £150. When I booked a taxi for Milo, it was 150.

So the convenience and the price just makes sense to get a taxi all the way there. It's a 3-hour drive. Me and the driver are going to be best mates at the end of it.

Well, I drive 4— I drive 6 hours to my mom's house, spend hundreds on charging, and then get a taxi from my mum's house, which is £150. It would come to like £300 anyway, and then I would drive my car all the way back to Devon when I get back after I've just come back home from 10

hours on the plane. It sounds horrible.

Train? To get the train from where? Okay, then I've got to get— I've got to carry all my luggage, and then I've got to get a bus. I've got to walk to a bus station, and then I've got to wait for the bus to take me to Plymouth, and then I've got to get a train from Plymouth

to Exeter, and I'll get a train from Exeter to London, and then I've got to get a London train from London to Heathrow, and it will cost like £200 for me, and I might get stabbed in London. No thanks.

Every other idea sounds terrible.

Well, taxi and then train. It's like 3 stops for the train, and the train costs probably £100 to £200. Me and Sunny looked at trains from her place to my house, and it would have taken 2 to 3 stops, and it was like £150, £100 maybe. So she just got the bus here to my place.

So seems like the best solution is I just shell out and get the taxi all the way there.

Public transport in the UK is very rubbish.

Oh God, today was so stressful. I feel like I've grown 10 gray hairs just from today.

Imagine thinking my mum can drive to the airport. My mum is scared of motorways. Do you know my mum? She doesn't drive on the motorway. Did you know?

Did you know when my dad was sick, she would drive us to the hospital and avoid all the motorways, and it would take ages to get to the hospital? And then when I took her to the hospital, I went on the motorway, and I thought, wait, why didn't we just go on the motorway when dad was sick?

My mum kept saying, oh no, going wrong way, wrong way, go through the town. I'm like, Why do that when I can go on the motorway? She's like, she'll go on the motorway and do like 50 miles per hour. And I said, Mum, you got to speed up. You're going to get pulled over by police. You know,

people have actually had their licenses taken away because they're doing 45 on the motorway. I swear my mum was doing like 47, 48, 50, and people were catching up behind us. My mum's scared of the motorway. That's why she didn't come to Devon. She didn't really want to come anyway because she's scared of the motorway. And then

the fight was just like perfect reason for her to not come.

So there's no way she would drive me to the airport on the M25. She'd be so frightened.

The funny thing is she's not— she'd rather drive through the town center than go on the motorway when I hate town centers more. I'm scared of town centres with all the police and the speed cameras and the bus lanes and the stupid roundabouts and all the stupid lanes. At least on the motorway, you've got plenty of time

to figure out which lane you gotta be in.

Yeah, she'd rather she went through the town centre of Maidstone and then goes to the hospital.

If I take a little country lane, she starts freaking out and shouting at me. Do you remember we had that argument on the way home from Amazon Flex? Because I didn't go the way she wanted me to go because Google Maps was telling me to go down the country lanes because the main roads were kind of blocked

up because it was rush hour. So I went down the country lanes and the whole way she was like, oh my God, you're going the wrong way. Oh, I told you not to listen to sat nav.

You don't listen to your mum.

You're going the long way. It's not the long way. The distance is the same. It's just one's a bigger road and this one's a tiny road, and the bigger road's probably jammed up.

Who's that cute Asian girl emote? Which one?

All the emote girls are my exes apart from Crypt.

Crypt is, or what would have been, an ex. Ex? She is an ex. She's a pre-girlfriend, not an ex-girlfriend. Someone who never came to be.

Who's with Jenny?

I thought you meant my emotes. Some Asian girl on Discord messaged me. I don't know who the hell she is, but she's got a Twitch channel. Unless it's a fake person. She's called Bunny KYXO.

Is it someone pretending to be her?

She's got a twitch,

but she looks way too cute for a girl to be messaging me.

There's no way girls that cute message me

unless it's a ladyboy.

Now, if a girl that cute is messaging me, I get instantly suspicious. Must be a ladyboy or a scammer or a troll. In no way a girl that cute messages me.

Times like this, you just need to nut.

Asians are supposed to respect their parents. Yep, well, I'm not Asian. Born and bred in the UK.

Asian would imply you grew up in Asia

with Asian traditions. I grew up in the UK

with British people.

When I was a kid, you disrespected authority. You rebelled against teachers. You rebelled against the police. You don't respect authority. That's lame when you grow up in the schools I went to.

What's this clip?

That was a good clip.

Fucking stupid. The full force of 49 kilograms descending upon you,

crushed by 50 kg of pure muscle.

I give up, I quit, I'm never doing high row again.

The battle's charged up.

The clip doesn't play, but the sound does.

Fucking stupid. Oh my God.

I give up. I quit. I'm never doing IRL again.

It's over.

Oh God, I ain't time for that. No more IRL.

No, the army guys didn't get clipped.

It's pretty funny.

Oh, it felt so good. What is smashing stuff? Smashing stuff feels so good. That's why I smashed your hero's door.

Oh my God,

it's fast. His iPhone got smashed too.

You should— I went ballistic in the Apple Hotel. I smashed everything.

I just went on a rampage. You know, the desk in the Apple Hotel always gets full of junk and clutter. I just went Everything went flying against the wall.

And then Chihiro's place, I kicked the door, my foot went through it, smashed the glass. I had to send Chihiro like $400 to fix 2 doors.

I kicked her door like that and then I slammed it, busting the hinge. And then I kicked the entrance to the staircase door with my foot. And my foot went through the glass.

Oh God, I had to give her $400.

And then, uh, you should see how much stuff is smashed in my bedroom at my mom's house.

There's, there's a big crack on the bathroom door from when I kicked it when I was a teenager, and then there's a big crack on my bedroom door when I punched it in because I had a fight with my mom last year.

I've also punched my wall, but it didn't do any damage, just hurt my hand.

And the reason why my knuckle on my right hand is bigger than the one on the left— look.

Look, can you see the knuckle on my right hand's bigger? The middle knuckle.

See, look, it's cuz that's the one I punch things with. So I punch the wall and my whole knuckle would swell up like I nearly broke it or something.

Yeah, sometimes you just get so angry. What are you gonna do? You gotta let it out somehow. It's not healthy. What, you're just gonna bottle up the anger? You gotta release it.

At least I'm not hurting any living thing. I'm just smashing inanimate objects. The only thing I'm hurting is myself.

I think energy must be released.

The rage,

the rage must be released.

I've got one pork loin.

I think I need to go to Tesco tomorrow. Okay, what I'm gonna do is

I'm gonna go to Tesco and I'm gonna sit in the car park and try a few things, see if I can get the hotspot, get it going up, turn it on. If it works

I need to buy meat.

If it works, maybe I turn the stream on. If it doesn't, I'll just come home and then start streaming at home. I can't be bothered to go out and rage again. I need to pee.

Last time I had real— really had a good time going outside to stream was probably— I quite enjoyed the Litford Gorge when everything worked.

That was good.

Yeah, I enjoyed Lydford Gorge

and the little castle. That was actually the last time we saw Crypt. I remember I was in the castle, wasn't I?

She was in the chat.

I've got one idea to try and fix it. I don't know if it'd work.

I'm not telling you, otherwise it'll jinx it.

Okay.

That fly. The fly is pretty good content. Look at it. I want it to go off her nose. Imagine it goes off her nose. She looks kind of hot. That's what I just said.

I think most girls look hotter when they're on their back because the gravity gives—

good old Thailand clip.

Yeah, Bongbong looks pretty good when she's lying down.

Yeah, what's that, um, carnival parade? I saw a sign.

Yeah, girls look better when they're on the back because gravity pulls their face back, kind of like a facelift.

Carnival parade, Tavistock,

20th of July, will start at 4 PM. That's so late. Do you think Sunny's gonna go? I bet Sunny's gonna go.

Part of Tavistock's Carnival week includes a variety of events. The parade will start from Down Road, proceed through the town.

Includes a fun day in Tavistock Meadows, a baby show, pavement art, and music

on Sunday.

Do you think Sunny's gonna be there?

Imagine I find her and she's on stream. Yeah, what if I go there and she's there and she's like with a new boyfriend or something? I'll be fucking pissed. Maybe I shouldn't go,

but I'd be so fucking annoyed if she's got a new boyfriend already. And I can't get a new girlfriend.

Nah, I don't want to go.

I feel like she would definitely go. It's on Sunday as well. It seems like her whole family would go.

Looks lame anyway, a dog event.

Sunny tainted this place for me.

I feel like I can't go anywhere because I might bump into her.

You know the bit of, you know, that open area that I drove through on the way home?

I drove through that bit a lot when I picked up Sunny because that's on the way to her house.

I wonder how quickly she moves on.

It would be kind of sad if she's moved on and got a new boyfriend already.

It makes you feel like, oh, I wasn't very special then.

She must have not loved me that much then.

I wonder if she saw me there, would she, would she leave? Would she be like, Mom, I want to go home? Because she wouldn't She wouldn't be able to just drive home because then her mum would be stranded.

So they're all just gonna leave because they've seen me there.

I wonder

when would I have flip 7.

4 to 6 days.

Yeah, I really wonder what she would do if she saw me outside. Would she ignore me? Run away? Say hi? Imagine she just says hi. Oh, hi Daniel. Like nothing happened.

That'd be so weird. Imagine she just treats me like a stranger. Or no, like how when we first met. Kind of like a stranger, but on a friendly basis. Oh, hello, how you been? That'd be weird.

I reckon she'll like spot me and then try to avoid me or run away.

I've never had a situation where I've lived in the same area where my ex is. This is probably the first time. Every time I broke up, I had left the area or left the whole country.

It's so weird. Like, people date people from the area all the time because it's convenient and that's how you meet people. And then they break up and then they've got like an ex. Oh, I bumped into my ex at the supermarket. They got like 2, 3 exes in the same area. It must be so weird.

That was actually one of the reasons I didn't want to date in the UK, is because I didn't want to bump into an ex, or I didn't want an ex nearby to where I lived.

It would just be so— not only is it awkward, but it brings up a lot of negative emotions, especially if you see them with a new guy. I can't imagine what it feels like seeing your ex with a new guy.

I'd fucking rage. Like, some other guy's fucking my girlfriend.

And then you start thinking, oh, oh, I wasn't good enough for her, but this fucking guy is. Who the fuck is he?

And then you start comparing yourself to him, like, oh, how does he text dry? Or his texts so great.

Yeah, enjoy your boring, stupid, shitty, fucking boring life, cuz your boring fucking boyfriend has a boring shitty job.

Loser.

Now she's like, oh, I'm so glad I broke up with Daniel and I got a normal boyfriend, and internet weirdos aren't bullying me. Now I'm gonna have a peaceful, quiet life with my boring family and my boring new boyfriend, my boring stupid dog.

Yeah, enjoy your boring fucking life, stupid boring idiot.

No, it would not have been better for my mental health. I was so depressed doing Amazon and doing every— I hated it.

Can you believe I even thought about getting a truck or van license to do truck work? Oh my God,

imagine me trying to be a truck driver.

That's so not what I would be doing.

I love streaming so much, it's so great. I love every moment.

No, I don't miss Amazon Flex at all.

I feel like she would go— she would go to that event. It's in the town she lives in. It's a fun day. Obviously her niece and sister is going to go there as well, so she's going to go too.

She would so go.

Why would she not?

It's like she just poisoned her own drinking water.

But she brought me here, now I'm here, and now she's like, oh God, when's he going to leave?

You brought me here and then you ditched me. You poisoned it yourself.

I'm like this taint on her perfect little hometown now. She loves Tavistock. She loves it here. She always says how great it is.

Yeah, you brought me here, so don't complain. I'm here because of you, and then you ditch me.

They all came from Essex. They all moved here together. They all— the 3 of them, they all move around like a pack of sheep.

They're like sisters, the 3 of them.

None of them are from here. I'm more from here than they are. Kent's closer to Devon than Essex is.

Yeah, compromising. Is good, but being expected to give up your entire career that you've built for like 8 years— I've been building this career for 8 years and she thinks I'm just going to give it up. So selfish.

She met me knowing that this is what I do and then she thinks I'm just going to give it up.

It's like you think, oh, she says, oh, why can't you just start a new channel? Okay,

do you know how hard it is to build a channel and build a community? What, you think I'm just going to magically conjure up a brand new community that don't know anything about me?

Just clueless about how it works. Oh yeah, I'll just magically start a new channel and get thousands of people.

Yo, at least I 69'd her right in the ass one last time. Worth it, am I? It's worth— I think taking 2 weeks off YouTube's worth that. Felt so good.

Oh God, she does all the terrible things that women have the power to do and should never do, like weaponizing their vagina,

weaponizing their emotional stuff.

What are the chances you run into her? Well, if it's a weekend and it's like around Tavistock,

could be not that low of a chance. Weekday, she'd probably be at work

unless she quit the job. I don't know, I doubt she quit the job. She said she really liked it and the pay was good.

She literally had her— she had her hand around my cock and she was like, Daniel, just delete it. I'm not even making this up. She was literally edging me to delete my channel and I was rock hard and I was like, can't we have sex? And she was like, no, while she's like rubbing it. She's nuts.

And then I go, fuck it, I'm gonna delete it.

And then I deleted all— I took down all the videos, and then we fucked so hard all night. It was amazing. It was probably the hottest fuck I ever had.

It was like a fuck you got to do by doing something you shouldn't have done that you know you're gonna regret.

And it was also like half hate fuck as well, because I was like, fuck you for making me do this, but I want to fuck you so hard. It was like one of the best fucks I had in my life, and it— we started off like 60/90 too.

Oh, I'm getting hard just thinking about it.

Oh God, sex is dangerous, isn't it? It's like this drug that you do stupid things to do to be able to do it,

and then you go through all this mental torture, like chasing a girl, trying to please her.

Just to put Willy in a hole, but it's so good.

Do I think she's dating anyone now?

I don't know how long there was between me and her ex, the Japanese guy.

It sounded kind of fresh last year when I was streaming and she was in the chat saying stuff like, oh no, you're at my ex's city again.

Sounded kind of fresh, didn't it?

Like maybe it ended a couple months ago. I feel like she would easily meet new people And she's social and she's not shy or she doesn't have anxiety, so she could easily meet people. And she's not banned on dating apps. I don't know if she uses dating apps.

I forgot how she met the ex-Japanese guy,

but she claims she's only had one previous ex, the American guy. So she doesn't— for some reason she doesn't count the Japanese guy as an ex. So maybe it was just like a hookup for like a week or two and then didn't work out, so they ended it.

So maybe it's like, you know, me and single mother girlfriend. We just did it for 2 weeks, but it didn't go anywhere. I don't know if you consider that a girlfriend.

How long was it between Fasta and Sunny? It overlapped. There was no in-between Vasta and Sunny. It was happening at the same time.

Between Mila and Vasta, there was like 3 years, I think.

No, less. 2 years, I think.

Between me and her and Foster.

Yeah, well, I don't know. I can't complain about her getting a new boyfriend when I would literally fuck anything that comes here. I would have fucked Crypt. I would bang a threesome Kananga. I'd have banged Moon. I'd bang them all. So I can't really complain, can I? But I will. I'll complain all day long. If I saw

her with a new boyfriend, I'd fucking rage. I'd bend my tripod in half.

Can't believe you hid her in the closet. Yeah,

you know, I nearly got busted because, uh,

I hid Sunny in the closet. And I couldn't— for some reason I didn't hide her shoes. So what I did was I picked up her shoes during the FaceTime call and I was holding the shoes. The problem is a light was behind me casting my shadow, and in the shadow you could see me holding the shoes. It

must have looked sus.

Yeah, at the time I was like, oh, Fars is so annoying, can't she just leave me alone whilst I fuck Sunny? Now looking back at it, I feel bad.

Must have been horrible for her.

Sunny didn't care at all. She was like, oh, can't you just turn off your phone?

Faster sent a message to Sunny, something like, I hate you, you ruined my life. And then Sunny messaged me telling me about it, and she was like, why is your— why is your ex messaging me, Daniel? I don't need this right now.

And then do you remember When my mum messaged Sunny— what was it about? It was the sex tape. My mum messaged Sunny, and then Sunny messaged me saying, Daniel, why the fuck is your mum messaging me trying to justify the disgusting thing you did? Oh, I just don't need this now. Can't you people all leave me alone?

And then she blocks me and my mum. Do you remember that?

No wonder the British went all over the world conquering and colonizing, if we could get away from the women here.

She'd always be like, oh, why are they doing this, Daniel? Oh, why always me? Oh, I don't need this stress in my life now. Oh, it's all your fault.

Oh, she was so toxic. She looks like such a nice sweet girl, and then she's toxic as hell.

The, the way she talks and her tone is so Disgustingly toxic.

I've never been with a woman so toxic before who does this weird act of, oh, I'm so nice and friendly because I say please and thank you

and I offer people a drink when I'm having a swig of my juice. And she thinks she's so friendly and nice and kind, but she's not. She's like my mum, actually. My mum's really friendly, nice, and kind to strangers and people outside, and then she'll be really toxic to her inner circle.

My mum and Sunny are very much alike. Maybe my mum could sense it.

When didn't Faster message Sunny? Yeah, it was when I chose Sunny over Faster.

And I broke up with Fasta.

You know, Fasta was on the Discord. She started ranting on the Discord and Ollie said, shut the fuck up, you fucking C-H-I-N-K word. So then I banned Fasta, but Fasta was on the Discord the whole time. And then she started typing for the first time something like, my boyfriend's cheating on me, blah blah blah.

I don't know how fast they got into the Discord

because I didn't link it much.

Was Sunny a feminist? I don't know,

kind of. Like, she kept going on about that bear and man in the woods meme.

She would say, oh, I choose you over the bear, Daniel.

Okay, thanks. Thanks for choosing me over getting Mauled alive by a bear.

I feel so honored.

At 36 years old, you got so much baggage. The older you get, really, the more fucked up baggage you start collecting.

I think Vasta messaged Sunny up through Discord because they were both on the Discord and Sunny made herself quite— Sunny made herself quite public on the Discord.

She really wanted to get in on the Discord, didn't she?

Yeah, Pasta was lurking in the Discord. I don't know how long.

Yeah, then they start getting accidentally doxxed and they freak out. Like, Cake Instagram got doxxed, didn't it? Because it was in her profile.

I mean, it's not doxxed, it's public. You just didn't realize that all these weirdos are going to start messaging you on it. It's not like anyone did any special hacking or something to find it out. It was literally on the profile for anyone to click on.

I mean, you dox yourself basically,

like Moon dox herself. She joined the Discord on her main Discord thingy, and before she changed her name, she— yeah, she joined it. And then I warned her, saying, I don't know, like, people are going to find your stuff, you know. And then she goes, oh, is that going to be a problem? And I said, maybe. So

then she started

getting worried, and then she quickly left the Discord and joined it again on a different account with a new name.

Moon.

You think I'm gonna leave my car key in the house when I'm away? Why would I do that?

Why would I leave my car key in my house when I could just put it in my bag? That was a really stupid thing to say. I'm not gonna leave anything of value in the house. Everything's coming with me. Sure, be my guest, come steal my sofa. As if I give a fuck.

The car's already scratched up. Have you seen how many scratches are on my car? Do you think I give a fuck? I'll just put some tape over it, whatever.

As long as the car still works.

Oh, I just jumbled the words up. I read it as your car key instead of key your car.

It's cuz, you know, I'm fluent in Japanese, and in Japanese sentences read from back to front, so I read the English sentence from the back to front.

Buy the Starlink. It would solve my problems, wouldn't it?

The problem with Devon is they got these cell towers that shoot out a connection in a straight line, but there's a lot of hills and valleys, so if I go down into a valley, the line of sight is going to be lost. That's why I completely effed today when I went down that valley.

Starlink would have been cheaper than all this stuff.

It's a lot of effort just to do a stream in the middle of a field, isn't it? What even is the point? Uh, sometimes I don't know why I'm doing this. I don't even get more viewers from doing it. Like, why the fuck am I doing it? I'm just driving out to the middle of nowhere to walk

up a hill so I constantly F and lose all my viewers because I'm just talking about stupid effing.

I don't know why I'm doing this, guys. Why the fuck am I doing this? What even is the point?

I get my highest viewers when I just sit on my beanbag eating a pot noodle.

I, I feel like I'm so done with all this IRL stuff. Like, with the Kick, as soon as I got Kick, I thought, okay, I got to do IRL now like everyone else.

It's just really hard to sit in my house the whole time.

I know

if

I put meat in my hot bag, will it stay cold?

Because I can't buy meat and then go walking.

I need an ice pack or something.

Yeah, it's kind of funny. I quit YouTube. I made such a big fuss about not quitting YouTube, and then I quit it.

I guess I don't enjoy making videos.

If I didn't need the money, I would never make a video again.

But it's sad because my old videos were good and people enjoyed them, and that's what allowed me to have an audience now, is because I built an audience. So it's not like I can just say screw, screw videos. It's what got me here today.

I wish I could make videos like I used to, but I just— I don't have it in me anymore.

Yeah, sometimes I'm curious if I go live on YouTube what's going to happen.

Title can be, I'm back on YouTube.

Blood Bucket video only got what, 6K views, 7K?

Not even 10K.

Hmm,

well, the iPhone and Moblin is definitely very good.

Yeah, well, I lost a lot of viewers because of boring talk and also disconnecting constantly.

Today's been a complete disaster.

Yeah, I know Moon told me Walamo is interested in learning Russian

and has roots in Russia or something, like ancestry.

But the whole Moon never likes me thing is such a lie. Yeah, sure, I never liked her either, and that's the truth. That's why I never met her in 2020.

I had no interest then, didn't really have any interest now, but I thought if she really wants to come, like, give her a fuck.

But I'm not bending over backwards for it. I don't really care, come or don't come. Could not care less.

Now she's like being all schizo about it. Oh, I was just pretending to like him. Oh, I was just pretending to get the visa. Yeah, sure you were.

She's mentally ill.

Like, is that supposed to hurt me? Am I supposed to be like, oh, she— what do you mean you never liked me? I don't give a fuck. I never liked you either.

Imagine thinking that's gonna hurt me. Or is it to like save face for herself so she can play it off cool?

I think it's more to save her own face.

Yeah, yeah, well, well, I never liked you either. Grow up.

Take the L.

You got Danny L'd. Haha, suck it.

No, we're talking about Moon, not K. Since when did K start becoming part of the conversation? Why would I— why would I be talking about K? Since when did I say K? I didn't say K once, so why would we be talking about K? God, keep up. Jesus Christ, we're talking about Moon.

Never even mentioned Kate. Why would we be talking about Kate when everyone's never even said Kate? Did I— don't make me rage again.

Today, tomorrow, which Tesco do I go to?

Tavistock Tesco?

Hmm, I used to go to Tavistock Tesco a lot to pee. I would pick up my parcels because Tavistock Tesco was on the way to Horror Bridge. I would stop in at Tesco and do a quick pee and message Sunny a bit and then start work.

Sometimes I would text her a lot and then she'd go, wow, Daniel, you're texting me a lot today and I really like it, smiley face. And I say, yeah, see, I do text you when I've got stuff to say.

I don't text people if I've got nothing to say.

Like, do you fill your car with petrol when it's already full? No, it's just a waste. Do you brush your teeth when they're already clean? Of course not.

Well, I would just tell her about something that happened, like, I don't know,

my, my tire got a puncture. Or I would like rage at her about my job,

or I would send her pictures of the depot, the shipping container.

I would just basically just rant at her about something that has irritated me, like I do on stream.

It's not— I'm just talking about my own stuff. It's not like I'm asking her stuff. But she liked it because I was texting her.

Oh God, watching Joel in Vietnam earlier this morning really bummed me out.

The sound of the traffic and getting the food at the food store, they reminded me of faster when we went to Vietnam. All the motorbikes.

You know that feeling where you're in a new country and it feels kind of fresh and you've got nothing to do apart from get food, go shopping, go to the hotel, walk about?

I felt really dizzy in Vietnam for some reason, like I couldn't walk in a straight line.

It was weird. I don't know if it was all the heat, the overstimulating of my senses.

Maybe I need more water.

Vietnam is crazy. Ho Chi Minh's crazy, especially in the evening. All the motorbikes start riding up onto the footpath. So even the sidewalk gets swarmed by motorbikes. They just ride up onto the sidewalk. In Thailand, they have very raised up curbs, and I think they've done that to prevent motorbikes riding up onto it.

I went to Vietnam 2023 doing my first visa run to Thailand,

cuz I went to Thailand in 2022 October. I only had a 3-month visa,

tourist visa, and then I went to Vietnam with Fasta so I could reset my visa. So we stayed in Vietnam for about 10 days, I think. And then flew back to Thailand. They let me back in for 3 months, and then after that I went to Japan. And then after Japan I tried to fly back in again

and they scolded me, but they let me back in

and I got a student visa.

I'm surprised they let me back in, to be honest, because I had already done 2— wait, I went Thailand, Vietnam, Thailand, Japan, Thailand,

Thailand, Vietnam, and then back in Thailand. And then Japan, then back inside. So second re-entry, isn't it? So I guess it wasn't too bad. I think if it was my third re-entry, they would have maybe said, no, you can't come in.

Hmm, I can't get the viewership number back up.

It was really good yesterday, like 160, 150.

I think my earnings are gonna be really bad today. I think I need to do like just stay at home all day tomorrow,

go shopping myself.

I think I just need to stay inside

so the numbers stay up.

I'll go outside myself and do shopping, come back, and then start the stream.

Today's been terrible.

Tesco stream's boring anyway. I don't talk.

I think the cheese ring stream was quite good, and then the bee livery— did the bee livery thing.

The cheese ring thing, I was just I remember ranting about Crypt most of the time. The beginning was whining about Bellabox again,

but I forgot about it after a few hours.

The problem with today was—

I don't know.

There was just nowhere to go. It was just like endless nothing in every direction, and it kept effing. So I thought, I'm not just gonna walk and constantly eff.

Yeah, I know I need storylines. That's why I'm so disappointed with Crips.

I thought she was going to deliver.

I need a blood bucket or Sunny Phase 1.

I don't know if you can get that from a stranger on the street.

I mean, how do you go up to a stranger and then end up spending hours with them?

I don't want to think Crip's a liar. Or flakes. And I— yeah, I'd like to give her the benefit of the doubt and think, oh, maybe something really bad happened.

I'm not angry at Crypt, I'm just— I don't know what happened.

Or maybe like a streamer friend, like Joel and Temin stream together in Vietnam.

You kind of have similar goals, or the same goal, I guess.

Didn't get a refund from the monitor.

I don't know why they asked me if I want the refund to my original payment method or a gift card. Why would I want a gift card? That's so stupid. Just give me the money back into my bank account. I don't want a stupid Fucking gift card. Why would I want a gift card?

If I want to buy something again, I'll just use my card again. Not a gift card. They just want to get out of giving me my money back.

What even is a gift card? It's not even real money, is it? They can just print gift cards.

嗯。

I'm not gonna make much today then.

I don't know why I can't get the viewer number back up. I thought once I'm home and I stop disconnecting and stop talking about Bella Box,

it would go up again.

What if I change the stream title?

It needs to send out the notification again.

I think I need to avoid doing IRL until I can get this thing fixed.

I'll give it a try tomorrow when I'm at Tesco.

Otherwise, I'm just gonna come home. I'm not gonna go live.

When will Crypt timer go away?

I don't know, I feel sad to take it off.

Maybe it'll be there forever.

I always wondered if some of my viewers died and that's why they just disappeared.

Well, they probably just lost interest.

It always feels kind of sad when you start noticing someone who was always on the streams, someday they just never come back.

But people come and go, don't they? Last year we had Blood Bucket and Sunny, now they're gone.

I don't really remember who was in the chat a lot before 2022.

I remember Kerry B a lot was in the chat.

No, I do like doing IRL when it works.

I enjoy going out, walking about, seeing the views. It's fun when it works. That's why I'm like dedicated to try and get it working,

but I really can't have another today happening again.

Really can't have this happening again.

I think my new solution tomorrow could work.

I, um, yeah, I think it could work. AI said it could work. Okay, we need to change the energy.

We need to change the energy. New solutions. Never give up.

The new solution, I'm gonna get HDMI cable

and not use the

hotspot. Today was bad, but tomorrow will be better. It's not over.

What would the army do? Give up? No,

we've tackled the problem from a different angle.

I'm gonna fiddle with it in the Tesco car park tomorrow before I do my shopping.

And then later in the evening tomorrow, I'll get the cable and test out that. We'll get working.

Tinker Joe Castle awaits.

I'm gonna tinker with my Bella box in the car park. Now which Tesco do I go to? Corlington, Tavistock, or Launceston?

I don't like Launceston. I like Corlington, but it's further than Tavistock. But Corlington is good if you want to go to Kit Hill. I don't want to go to Kit Hill again though, although I might do. We'll see.

AJ buying bots. Yeah, it's just another load of rubbish.

No one's buying bots

apart from that stupid troll from a couple months ago buying me the bots on YouTube. That was really annoying. Do you remember that? Oh God, I thought it was never going to end. Day after day after day, 20,000 viewers, 40,000 viewers. I was losing my nut.

Imagine believing anything that's said on the bootleg Discord. God, I hate that place.

Nothing is true on it. It's all just lies, stupid dumb jokes.

She lied or she died.

No, I'm not having a beer tonight. It's just gonna make me depressed again. I'm already depressed enough as it is.

I think a beer would just push me over the edge and I'd smash my whole house up.

Oh, I'm sorry, I meant I'll smash up my landlord's house.

I'm not an angry drunk, I'm a sad drunk. I get depressed, low energy, and I want to go to bed.

I'm an angry rager, a sad drunk,

a furious

Lover.

Drinking tastes good, but then it ends up making you sad.

Oh God, uh,

I'm not little. I'm 5'9. Probably taller than you, but I guess you're just gonna lie now and say you're 6 foot. Yeah, sure, we all believe it.

Why does non-alcoholic beer not taste like alcoholic beer?

I don't even know if the taste of the alcohol is what makes beer taste good. I thought it was like the hops and stuff.

Step on the scale. Could do. Now I've bent my tripod.

Mhm, 50 kg. Suck it. Now who's little?

5 hours until this terrible day ends.

I might not even make 150. I've already made 70 from the first 5 hours,

and we've got another 5, 7 to go. Maybe I'll make 180 today.

So we've done

Oh wait, that's funny. It says 9 hours on Streamlabs, but one of them definitely ended. Well, we've done 9 hours today. Really?

We got 5 hours left in the day. I must have started pretty early today then. That means we're going to do 14 hours today. Yeah, maybe I got to push it, do a late night tonight to make up for the loss.

Do one.

I don't know if I can make it 200 today with these numbers

unless I get the same rate even though the numbers are lower. Could be an interesting test.

Maybe there's like a minimum rate that it stays at, doesn't go below

it.

Maybe I'll put out a video on YouTube.

Might as well

try everything.

Desperation mode.

Currently streaming on Kick now. Join it now, you fucking useless fucking idiot. How about that?

So I'm currently streaming on Kick.

Hmm.

I look so angry. My face looks so angry in the video.

Maybe I don't show my face.

So just to let you know, I am doing a stream on Kick. Would love to see you join my Kick in case you miss me.

Um, yeah, gonna make some food and talk. On Kick. See ya.

That's pretty good.

Just to let you know, I am doing a stream on Kick.

We need reinforcements.

So just to let you know,

if I download the clips of me raging, that might be funny.

How do I download clips?

I just screen record it, maybe.

Fucking stupid.

Fucking stupid. It's pretty funny. Oh my God, I give up. I quit. I'm never doing IRL again.

Where's the other one?

It was pretty funny.

The tripod, the tripod was good.

Now I edit that.

That was good.

I thought that was pretty funny.

I think that's my favorite clip from 4 weeks of streaming.

I'm just finishing up my Instagram thing.

I like the— I like going to yell cry. The Yoda battle cry.

Okay.

I tried my best.

Been away a couple weeks, how's it going?

Um, didn't have a great day. A lot of technical difficulties, much raging, much anger, but I'm feeling a bit better now. Yesterday, full of wins. Yesterday was great. Sent this GoPro back, was told I'm getting a refund for the broken monitor, sold my stocks. Now today's a lot of badness,

badness and sadness.

I think we're on a downtrend. Lost all my girls as well. No girl wants to come and see me anymore.

How do I go from having like four,

four girls who wanted to come to the UK to see me and now I've got none? That's actually wild.

That's crazy.

I can't believe no girl was interested.

Maybe Crips wanted to do the voice— the video chat. You know when she said, what if you're a catfish? Maybe she meant like, what if I don't look like what she thought I look like? And then with the GoPro stuff with making my skin look bad, she thought, oh wow, that's what he really looks like, don't want

to meet anymore. Although it would be rich coming from her because she uses loads of filters too.

So I thought the whole thing about the video chat and me refusing to do it, maybe that gave her cold feet because the GoPro makes me look really bad.

Like when she said, what if you're a catfish? What if it meant, what if you don't look like what I think you look like?

And wanted like an off-stream video chat without filters or anything. Yeah, well, she uses filters too. I mean, I'm not using a filter now.

Kind of.

That's what I really look like. The GoPro made me look ugly. Look, this is what I look like.

Yeah, I got some dots here.

I mean, I don't know what else you want to see, like my hairline.

Hairline. Maybe she saw the GoPro thing and got scared off.

She asked for voice, not video. True,

but she also said, what if you're a catfish or you're AI? That was such a weird thing to say. That was like the beginning of the weirdness. What do you mean, what if I'm a catfish? And why wait now? Why not— why not do the voice chat thingy months ago? Why now?

Is it receding? No, I'm pretty sure if you go back to my videos 5 years ago, you'll see my forehead is the same size.

Okay, maybe I put some filter on to just, you know, make my skin look a bit nicer, uh, but that's kind of what it looks like.

Uh, actually my skin looks pretty bad right now. I've got a lot of pimples. I've got a lot more pimples than usual around my chin and under My jaw.

One just flaked off.

The GoPro made me look terrible though. It was, it was almost as if the GoPro had like an aging filter built into it. It looks so bad.

I don't think the pimples are the problem. Like, a young person could have pimples and they still look young. I don't think having pimples makes you look old.

I mean, I am old. It's just I'm not that old looking, and I still get ID'd when I buy alcohol.

I don't think the pimples are the problem. It's like the way the GoPro made me look. It made me look really bad, isn't it? Oh wait, when did I use the— I'm pretty sure I got the GoPro stream going after she disappeared, not before.

No, she was definitely disappeared before the GoPro stream. She disappeared at the Lydford Gorge stream. GoPro stream wasn't until the next week.

What do you mean no veggies? I have broccoli and peppers and onions all the time, every meal. Go look, literally check every single live stream, there's vegetables in the meal. What are you talking about, no veggies? I have all this broccoli. Look, look at my fridge.

Uh, what's that? And what's this? And what are these?

I eat veggies all the time. And my spring onions.

I eat a lot of veggies.

GoPro stream was way after she disappeared.

My mum saw my story on Instagram. Cami,

my mum stalking me.

It said my mum saw it. My mum saw this.

Oh, stupid.

I like the tripod rage.

Why does it remind me of the Homer Simpson rage thing? When he tries building the barbecue set and then he can't do it and it's just like a load of mess in a concrete puddle and then he attacks it with the umbrella. That was funny.

I see a lot of Homer Simpson in myself, but at least he's got 3 kids, a wife, and a car and a career,

so he's not a loser, is he?

Yeah, and a massive house, and a wife that sticks with him even through all of his buffoonery.

How does he do it?

Homer Simpson's like a legend.

He gets everything out of life and he doesn't put any effort in. He doesn't even know how to do his job. He's my hero. Minimum effort, maximum outcome.

Oh, shut up, Gunner. If you wait until tomorrow, it'll be back over 100.

It's actually saying 99 now.

Ouch, your backside.

It's not going down, it's just down today because we had a lot of setbacks. Constant ending streams, disconnects.

People don't stick around when it keeps disconnecting.

No, you should be worried. You should be worried about getting banned. And also, did you even thank TB for unbanning you? No, you didn't, because you're ungrateful sod.

He spent his hard-earned channel points unbanning you, and now you're just going to get yourself banned again, aren't you, by being a dick? Look at you. Look, you can't help it, can you? You're just a dick, aren't you? You got banned for being a dick, and then you got unbanned because someone's nice, and now you're going to

get banned again because you're a dick and you can't stop being a dick. You can't even— you can't even last one day without being a dick. Before you get— before you get banned again. And you didn't even say thank you to TB because you're ungrateful sod.

And now you're gonna waste his points by getting banned again because you're a dick.

Well, maybe if people didn't be dicks, then I wouldn't ban them, would I?

You're next, D Zhang. You watch your words. You're banned next.

Don't tempt me. Been waiting to ban you for weeks.

Yeah, Vix, you're fine. You, you never say anything that annoys me.

Main ones on my list: Dijang, Garner Larson. Got rid of some of the others like MMO Guy and, uh, McCroltra.

Yeah, I don't threaten to ban everyone, it's just a certain few people are very annoying and it's like they're trying to be really annoying. All they do every time is spam horrible comments.

It's like they want to get banned.

They just— they keep trying to push it, see how far they can push it before I ban them.

Okay, Gunner Larson, you're banned again. This time no redeems.

See ya, Gunner fuckface. You're banned.

Sorry, TB, had to waste his points unbanning you, but you're just a useless fuck who can't shut his mouth and stop being an annoying prick. So you get fucking banned again. How about that, you stupid fucking fuck? Fucking gone, Larson. Go eat shit.

You think they'll show some gratitude for being unbanned, but nope, they just try and act like a dick even more, so they get banned again.

This like stupid fucking Sneak Feed. I banned Sneak Feed and then he got un— he got unbanned, redeemed. And what does he do? He writes out an entire paragraph of why my life sucks, where nearly half the reasons were stupid, like half Chinese, nearly 40. What? Everyone's gonna be nearly 40 at some point. It doesn't mean your

life sucks. What's wrong with being half Chinese?

Stupid idiot. This is what I'm saying, guys. Don't waste your points unbanning people because they're fucking morons and they're just going to get banned again because they don't know how to shut their stupid yaps. All they know how to do is piss me off.

You can't teach a fish to swim. You can't teach a dog new tricks.

They get unbanned, they come back. Do they learn their lesson? No. They're even more stupid as before, and then they get banned again.

Garner Larson must have been banned for like 10 times on YouTube as well because he's got no brains. He only wants to comment hate comments. That's all he wants to do, and then he doesn't mind getting banned for it. Well, then stay banned and stay the fuck out my life, chat.

Idiot. Get the hell out of here. Not welcome. Don't want you, Gunnar Larsson, or Sneed.

Well, get the hell out my livestream.

Yeah, okay, the mood span was a bit uncalled for. It wasn't that bad, I guess. Sometimes I do feel like the markets are a scam because it's making me lose money all the time.

No, I'm not going Tesco today. I'm going tomorrow, and I'm gonna fiddle with my Bella Box in the car park, see if I can make it work. If it doesn't work, I'm not gonna go live. I'm just gonna do my shopping and come home.

I'll have one last attempt, but I'm not doing it. I'm not trying to fix this whilst live. I'm going to do it offline.

Did I do anything with my stock money? Uh, I received half of it. The other half is still waiting to be cleared, and then I'll pay off the credit card.

Am I looking forward to being an uncle?

Um, what's there to look forward to?

I'm not going to be like Sunny and be like, oh, my little niece, I'll play with them every weekend and neglect my boyfriend. Imagine having a boyfriend and then you choose to play with your niece instead of spending time with your boyfriend. I would never do that. If I had a girlfriend, I would never be like, oh

sorry, I can't hang out with you and have sex tonight because I'm playing with my niece. Stupid. Like, imagine having a boyfriend and you'd rather stay at home with your stupid family instead of being with your boyfriend. The hell kind of girlfriend? It's like a useless girlfriend, isn't it? It's like having a bicycle without any seats, and

when you ride it, the pole thing goes up your asshole.

Useless, painful, and a waste of space. That's why I had to ditch Sunny. Sunny was a useless girlfriend. Sunny was the worst girlfriend I ever had because she would just prioritize her stupid family instead of hanging out with me. Imagine not wanting to hang out with me.

Can you believe that? That she'd rather sit in her sister's or mum's house playing with her stupid niece than coming over around mine and having a good time.

Blood runs thicker than water? Yeah, and then my mum and sister choose their friends over me every fucking time, don't they? I mean, they literally had Dave Gibson in the wedding photo and didn't invite me. So where's blood thicker than water there? Oh, I don't know, is Dave Gibson our blood relative?

I wasn't even invited to the wedding photo. I'm literally their blood. And they didn't even go, oh Daniel, come on, come join us in the photo. No. Instead, after they finished taking the photo, they go, oh, why didn't you come and join us in the photo? I didn't know because you didn't tell me I had to go

take the fucking photo. And they say, oh, that's because you didn't come to the rehearsal. You didn't say I had to come to the rehearsal. And then why didn't you just tell me? Because you know I didn't come to the rehearsal. So you should know that I didn't know that I had to go and take the fucking

photo. Obviously, if I didn't come to the rehearsal, I wouldn't know, would I? So then maybe just, I don't know, tell me. It will take 2 seconds. Oh, by the way, at the end of the ceremony, we're gonna take a photo. And I'll say, okay, but no.

So, so much for blood thicker than water.

Sunny made her choice. She'd rather hang out with her family than hang out with me. She drags me out here in the middle of nowhere where I'm all alone, and then she bitches me.

Didn't tell me anything.

Yeah, okay, they're busy organizing the wedding. Had a lot of stuff to do, a lot on their plate. Didn't have time to worry about me. Thanks. Yeah, I'm just an invisible nobody. Got it noted, duly noted. I am invisible and not worth telling anything to.

Sure you can meet someone.

I got to do dating apps. I don't want to do dating apps. Can't some viewer just come and have sex with me? Come on, I'm not that bad.

If you treat me nice, I'll treat you nice back. Although I might not text you a lot, cuz yeah, I'm busy trying to make money. Can't sit here texting you all day while I'm trying to stream.

I can't be— if I go on dates, I have now got to appeal to the woman and be like Oh yeah, I do this. Oh yeah, I went there. I just want to date a viewer because they already know everything about me, so I don't have to tell them anything.

Also, I want to stream with my girlfriend. So if I find a Tinder date— I mean, I don't really care that much about sex, okay? I want to have sex, I don't— but I want to have a partner where we can stream and have sex, or maybe just stream is fine. But if there's no stream and just

sex, well then I can't stream because I'll be too busy having sex and going on dates. So I mean, I want to make money. If I get a non-viewer girlfriend, I now have to give— I have to sacrifice streaming time to now go spend time with her and go on dates and stuff. Okay, I'll have sex, I

guess that's nice, but we— my streaming hours will go down. I won't be able to stream with her because she won't know about the channel.

So, I mean, I'm trying to make money and have sex, not sacrifice money to have sex. That's my, my point is my number one mandate is I want to make money. And then also side goal, cherry on top, is have sex. I don't want to sacrifice money to have sex.

Otherwise I just get an escort, wouldn't I?

Complain about the dates. Yeah, I could have a good rage about the dates, couldn't I?

I do hate dating and it would be good, good rage content. She's so stupid, she didn't even offer to pay her half.

That's why Crypt would have been great, cuz we could have sex and she would be on stream.

I don't know why she's disappeared.

I

mean, if I'm in Thailand, I guess I might try and have sex. I'm, I'm just not really that into bar girls or Thai girls in general. You know, honestly, I never used a prostitute in Thailand.

Number one, I couldn't be bothered. Number two, I don't know where you go to do it. And number three, I'm just not that into Thai girls. In Japan, I go wild. Yeah, because I know where these places are.

But in Thailand, I never paid for sex. Even though I had all day to go out and do it, I couldn't. Number one, I was broke. I had the tax problem, so I didn't want to waste money. Number two, I didn't really want to anyway. I'd just rather jerk off in the bed. The problem is I jerked

off too much in the bed. By the time it was nighttime and Vlasic was home, I didn't really feel like having sex anymore.

So we didn't really have a lot of sex, and I would just pretend I'm tired. I didn't want to do it.

When— actually, I already nutted like 5 times when she was out.

Yeah, it basically became sexless after a while. Well, I'd force myself to do it like once every few weeks, but it was getting really hard. I would basically have to shut my eyes and start picturing Chihiro.

Cuz if I looked at Vasa, I would just— and I wasn't aroused.

I don't know why, cuz in the beginning I was aroused and we had good sex, and then like a year in, I got really bored

and it became like a chore, and I was like, okay, let's go. Get it done.

And then the last time we did it, I couldn't even finish. I actually went completely floppy. I went completely floppy and it wouldn't go hard again.

I should have smoked more weed because that made me really horny.

I think if I smoked some weed— but I don't want to smoke weed every day.

I don't know, I just wasn't interested.

I started talking to Mizuki and I was really turned on by her. Just because she was Japanese. I didn't even really know what she looked like. I saw one heavily filtered picture of her where she had long hair and thought, wow, she looks okay and her voice sounds really cute.

The photo must have been 5 years old or something.

She looked nothing like the photo. The hairstyle was completely different as well. She had really short hair. I don't know if her hair is really short because she likes the style and it's not feminine, or she just recently shaved it all off because she broke up with her boyfriend and it was like a, I just broke up

and now I'm depressed, I'm going to shave all my hair off thing that women do.

Maybe she would have looked okay with longer hair. I don't know. I don't think her face was ugly, it's just the hair was so short.

I don't know how much the hair actually contributes. Like, if there's a hot girl that you actually find very attractive, would you still be attracted even if she shaved all her hair off? Because she's still got her face and her body, but it seems like the hair makes up a big part of the attractiveness.

I think the hair is a lot— has a lot of importance.

You nutted in Blood Bucket, she was almost bald. Yeah, from the back she was bald, but from the front she had a nice little fringe.

She was only shaved on the back of her head. It was weird because I like to cradle the back of the girl's head when I have sex, so I did it with her and I felt the back of her head was like really prickly, like a cactus.

I think Blood Bucket's face is decent though.

If she had longer hair, she'd look so much better.

I think if I shaved my hair, I'd be so depressed. I would look awful. I would not look good without any hair.

I think I would look like a melted Werther's Original.

I'll be watching you

everywhere you go,

everywhere you are.

I'll be there

wherever you go. I'll be watching you.

Hmm, what should I make for dinner? Look at all my beer oozes.

Definitely not alcoholic. I need to tidy up my desk a bit. My table. My dining table. Oh, I've got one more bottle. I haven't worked on my Lego recently. I haven't made any updates to the— what should I call it— the D-Wing 62 prototype fighter.

Yeah, that song's so funny. The lyrics are basically just, I'm stalking you, what are you gonna do about it? The lyrics, it's supposed to be like a romantic love song. It just sounds like

Sexual harassment.

I didn't realize the lyrics were so weird.

I broke my tripod. Look, at least it's not broken, it's just a bit bent out of shape.

I can't believe it bent that easily. I didn't even— I guess my strength is more than I expected.

I didn't damage the wall, did I?

You should have seen what I did with the gaming chair at Chihiro's place. When, you know, the Hong Kong guy fight. When she came back and told me she was with the Hong Kong guy, I raged. I was like, I picked up the chair and I went, I was like

smashing it against the wall.

I went completely nuts with the gaming chair and I just started smashing against the wall. Left these black marks on it too.

I think I have anger problems.

Yeah, well, she went out for dinner with my enemy Hong Kong guy without telling me and made like 5— how many hours? It was like 5, 6 hours worth of content and split over 100 videos nearly.

No, I did meet Hong Kong guy again. It was fine. I don't hate him. I'm not mad at Hong Kong Guy. I was mad at Chihiro because she went behind my back and had dinner with him. We were having a fight at the time and she went out and had dinner with him and helped him make content.

And all the content was just trash talking me. He released, I don't know, 40 videos of her trash talking me, and he was just saying, oh, I'm just helping my friend tell her side of the story.

Such a good friend.

She just wanted to rant about me, and because she didn't have her own channel, she kept saying, oh, I don't know how to edit videos, I don't know how to make a channel.

I said, you can rant about me, I'll put it on my channel and I'll get the money. I don't mind you ranting about me, but you did it on his channel. I, I honestly would not mind. I mean, I did let her make videos ranting about me. It was called My Husband Cheated on Me, got 100,000 views.

It's not like I don't want her to tell her story. I want to— I want to make the money.

You're my IP. I did not give Hong Kong Guy permission to use my IP.

That's why I got mad.

She was supposed to make the videos for me.

So you get a taste of your own medicine.

Yeah, uh, maybe. I didn't really feel that way. I was mad because

the most complex. I didn't feel that annoyed by the things she was saying. She was just saying things everyone knows, like, oh, my skin's bad, or my communication skills are poor. Yeah, since when did anyone ever think my communication skills were good? I've always been a poor communicator.

I've never said I'm good at it. I never said, oh, I'm so good at chatting to people and conversation. I mean, my very first videos were about social anxiety and how I struggled with it.

I still struggle, but I don't care anymore. I just accept that I suck at it. I'm not scared of doing it, like, I will say stuff to people if I have to, but I won't seek it out.

I've just accepted that I'll never be a good talker to people. I can talk by myself like this, it's fine.

But you know, the funny thing is a lot of people can't talk like this. They can talk to people and have a conversation and banter, but I think doing this kind of endless ranting thing on your own is something a lot of people can't actually do.

It is a skill that I have honed,

and it requires endless topics, which is why I have to shit talk everyone. Like, why am I still talking about Chihiro 5 years later? Why am I bashing Sunny? Why? Because I need things to talk about, and that's an interesting thing to talk about. What's not interesting is stocks, my Bella Box,

and video games.

Hmm, I got loads of Instagram messages. Who could it be? Predictions?

No one.

Not Crypt.

I don't— I have messaged these people before. But I don't talk to them much.

I got excited for a moment. I thought maybe it was crypts.

Now every time I feel nervous when I see my Instagram messages. So I've had one message.

Who else saw my story? My mum saw the story. Oh my God, is that my sister's ex? No fucking way.

I think that's my sister's ex. You're joking.

Is that my— he— my sister's ex? Saw my story.

That's so funny.

No, not that ex, another one.

Uh, Wallamo is still there.

Someone called My Wife Wants to Kill Me saw it too.

Some Japanese girl, Mayumi. Who's that?

Oh my God, is that the Manchester girl?

I don't know, she's got the same name.

It's funny seeing who,

who's watching it.

There's another person called AJ, but this one looks like a guy.

There's not enough room in my fridge to put the beer in it.

My mum, my mum saw my Instagram story.

Yeah, the streaming is going so well, guys. Look how good it's going. Look how good it's going.

I should put that on YouTube as well and title it, hey guys, the streaming is going really well, and put derpy music like

Let me check if the Bella Box survived.

Yeah, it's fine. I was just whacking the outside of the bag. It wasn't directly hitting the bell box.

Demesser used reinforced steel plating for the case

just for me.

Oh God.

Hmm, yeah, maybe I edit that

for YouTube as well.

What does this light do? I never press this one.

Wow,

I never used that one.

I'm gonna send an electricity meter reading, maybe tomorrow.

Oh my God, so loud.

I've already apologized to my mum. I've been telling you this for ages. I've already apologized to my mum. She didn't accept the apology, and she didn't apologize back to me. Stop telling me to apologize to my mum when I've already said I've apologized to her a million times. For things I shouldn't have to apologize for. Like last

year before I bought the car, we had a fight

because she thought Sunny clogged the toilet, and apparently I didn't help when I didn't even have the chance to help because my uncle was already around straight away doing it. So the toilet got blocked. My mum was like, oh, I blocked the toilet.

I don't know how to unblock it. I mean, where, where's the pipe? Where? I don't even know if we have an unblocking pipe. So how would I know how to do it? I don't even know if we've got the gear. I don't know if we've got the pipe. So she just instantly calls my uncle around. So he

comes over with his pipe. So I thought, okay, uncle's here, he'll do it. So why do I need to help? What am I going to do, stand behind him? How am I supposed to help if my uncle's already here? What am I supposed to do? So she starts bashing me again, and then I get angry at her.

So the next day I storm off and I get a taxi to my job interview, and I buy a car. And then when I come home, I apologize to her because I thought, yeah, I should apologize because it would be awkward if I don't,

even though I didn't do anything wrong that time either. And then we had a fight again, um, when Sunny was at my house. Again, I didn't do anything wrong, but I apologized. So stop telling me to apologize. Maybe start telling her to apologize for lashing out at me for things I didn't even do.

I'm not the one who should be apologizing. She should apologize, but she won't. And she won't even like accept my apology gracefully. She's got to be like, I apologize to her and then she says stuff

like— I don't remember what she said.

No, I'm not apologizing again. I'm done.

I did apologize. I said I said stuff that was out of line, shouldn't have said it. I was angry,

but she won't accept that she made me angry over something I didn't do.

She thinks that she didn't do anything wrong, and I for no reason started shouting at her and saying horrible things. I didn't say it for no reason. There was a very good reason.

So there's nothing to communicate anymore. There's nothing to say anymore. We're at an impasse.

The negotiations have failed.

I did swallow my pride. I apologized when I shouldn't have had to,

but she kept making a big deal about it.

So I don't really want to talk to her. She keeps doing this. She keeps lashing out at me over things I've not done, and then she doesn't accept any responsibility and expects me to apologize and come groveling back. No, I'm sick and tired of it.

Why do I have to keep being abused?

I'm not standing for it.

I didn't even do anything wrong and I'm getting verbally abused constantly.

So stop telling me to apologize to her because I already did.

Last time I spoke to her was when me and Sunny broke up, because I thought I was gonna go home. I thought I was just gonna ditch this place. I was just going to ditch this place, pack as much as I could in my car, and drive home and sort out this place later. I thought, you know,

I'll just go back home in March when— no, was it April? I think me and Sunny broke up beginning of April. I thought I'd just go home and then sort this place out later.

So I messaged my mom, but she was Not— she just seemed like she didn't really want me to come back,

and she seemed like she's still mad at me over the fight that she started over nothing.

So I, I was like, okay, if you're gonna be like that, I'm just gonna stay here. And then I blocked her. That was back in April,

April 1st. Sorry, Mom, not April Fools. Suck it. Not sorry.

She should apologize to me.

No, my sister knows that it's a waste of time trying to argue with my mum. She will never agree to anything that she disagrees with, she'll end up getting really defensive and she'll be like, oh, you take Daniel's side over your mother? I do this and I do that and I look after you and you take Daniel's

side? Your crazy brother. She'll be like that. I know exactly what she'll say. That's why my sister doesn't, you know, try and get in the middle.

I've heard her say those exact words before. You took so-and-so's side, you didn't take my side.

It's all about sides and who's right, who's wrong.

I feel like I'm Amber Heard.

I don't know, I feel like Amber Heard had a lot of— she was very unhappy in the relationship and then she ranted about it and bashed Johnny, and then he came after her because she said stuff that he didn't want people to know. I feel like that's kind of how it started. So she was just like ranting

about unhappy she was, but by doing that it makes Johnny look bad.

So I mean, I don't really know the full story of what happened,

but I feel like it could be something like that. Because when you rant about why you're unhappy and it's because someone else made you unhappy, you end up bashing that, that person, don't you?

No, I'm not swallowing my pride. I'm making a stand for my own self-respect.

I've been swallowing my pride for decades, since I was 20-something.

Done swallowing.

Got my own house, got my own money now. I don't need her.

She's always been unnecessarily grumpy and hostile towards me, and I don't know why.

Even way back before the YouTube days, even in my early 20s or something, she'd lash out at me. Sometimes my dad stepped in, defended me.

Like, I'd just be sitting there eating dinner and my mom would just lash out at me, and my dad would be like, why are you being horrible to Daniel?

Well, you shouldn't lash out at someone just because you expected more from them. That's stupid.

It's not my fault. I didn't live up to expectations.

It will just never be resolved. I give up. It's a waste of time.

The only way to resolve it is to let her win and be like, yeah, okay, you're right, I'm terrible, so sorry. That's the only way.

Yeah, I just said she's always lashed out at me before YouTube, since my early 20s.

It's not just because of the YouTube thing, it's been going on way before YouTube.

This predates— The Grudge predates YouTube.

She's extremely critical and negative. Everything is a bad idea. Everything is stupid. Like if I say, oh, I met this girl, I'm gonna go to Japan, meet her. She'll be like, oh, why you waste your time meeting some stupid woman? It's always just negativity. She's never like, oh, that's nice, Daniel. Hope it goes well. Can you imagine

my mum saying that? Imagine my mum going, oh wow, I really hope that goes well, Daniel. I'm rooting for you. She would never say anything like that. It's always, oh, waste your time, waste your money.

Whoa! I could never imagine her saying anything encouraging.

There's constant negativity.

Yeah, where do you think I get it from?

Why do you think I'm like this?

I had 2 very negative parents. My dad wasn't as negative, but he was—

hmm,

he wasn't as outspoken with his criticisms.

But I never really felt like he thought it was a good idea, or, you know,

I mean, he wanted to support me, I guess.

I read some of the emails he sent. To his brother when I first went to Japan. After he passed away, I went through his inbox on his computer, and I went all the way back to 2010, and he was saying stuff like— to my uncle, he was saying stuff like, I just got some pictures from Daniel from

Japan, and he looks so happy. I've never seen him look so happy before.

Maybe. I mean, it's nice he recognized that I was miserable in

the UK. I remember him saying stuff to my uncle, oh, Daniel's just started this YouTube thing, maybe he can make a career out of it. A lot of people doing this these days.

Yeah, my dad wasn't negative about what I was doing, but he seemed— what's the word?

Yeah, maybe concerned.

I mean, he wanted me to just get a job anywhere.

Just join a company, get a job, earn money. Like a proper job with a company.

Get my foot in the door, work my way up. That's what he did. That's like the Japanese way, isn't it? Get educated, get a job, stay in the same company for decades. That's literally what he did. He worked at that same company for, I don't know, 30 years.

But I don't have that kind of mentality. I'm not built that way.

The best I can do is maybe 6 months work before I get fed up of it, and then I want to do something else, meet someone else.

My parents never liked it when I quit stuff and then started something new and quit it.

Oh, I'm still not very hungry.

I still got the catnip on the floor.

Do cats come when it's raining? No.

Once it did. I let it in, it fell asleep. For a few hours.

Daniel doesn't know what he's lonely for. Basically, all I want is acceptance,

for someone to know my history and be cool with me,

which is why I like Sunny. 'Cause she was cool with me, and then she wasn't.

I don't want to have to hide my past and my everything because I'm scared she's gonna be disgusted or something. I just want acceptance,

understanding, forgiveness.

But in the end, Sunny wasn't understanding at all. She constantly built resentment against me. She opposed my values.

I don't even know who she is anymore.

She hated everything I stood for.

In the beginning, she was so different.

My values,

Streaming, not getting a job,

alternative ways of making money,

being free.

So you wanted me to give up my dreams to chase a normie life, which is the very thing I've been fighting against my whole life.

So I lost all respect for her.

I just— I cannot respect someone who thinks getting a normal— okay, if you need to get a normal job That's fine, everyone needs money. But to choose a normal job over an alternative job when an alternative job can give you freedom, it's crazy for me.

I

mean, this is way better than getting a normal job.

I just sit in my house and I talk and I make $250 a day nearly.

So I can't see eye to eye with that.

Like, people like Sam Pepper and Ice Poseidon,

Joel, you know, all these streamers, I look up to them because that's what I think is cool. They've rejected the normie lifestyle. They've rejected the idea of getting a normal job. They carved their own path. Even with massive failures like YouTube channels dying,

they find another way.

I respect that.

It's the unconventional way, isn't it?

The problem is you live an unconventional life, you do end up closing doors. To a lot of people because they are normal and they're not interested in the unconventional.

You end up losing a lot of people that don't want to have any part of it because they want a normal life.

So yeah, it can be isolating

unless you, you hang out with your own people, I guess.

But I've never met any girl who's like me. Maybe Crips was the closest.

I don't know, all the girls I date are really boring with the whole get a job thing.

I think there's a lot of women like me who do porn, do OnlyFans. It's just I haven't met any.

I only end up meeting people like Mila and Sunny, boring wet tissues.

Why can't I meet some cool people who want to do crazy stuff? I mean, not too crazy, but you know, unconventional methods.

Would I want to date OnlyFans model or porn star?

OnlyFans model was fine, but probably not porn star unless we're doing the porn and she's not doing it with other guys. I wouldn't be happy with someone I have feelings for sleeping with another guy. She can have a girlfriend, I guess, but not a guy friend.

I don't know, it's hard to say really.

Maybe from the very beginning the girl was showing her nudes and stuff to everyone, I'd be like, oh, that's just what she's like. But if we start off normal and then she starts sending nudes, it'll be kind of different. Like, if Sunny started posting nudes, it'd be weird because that's not how she started.

But if, if like she started off like that and that's how I knew of her, then I wouldn't be able to complain because that's what she does. So imagine I start dating OnlyFans star and then I suddenly say, oh, you got to stop OnlyFans because it's making me feel No, that would be my fault, because if it

was going to make me feel uncomfortable, I shouldn't have tried to date her in the first place.

I would have no right to tell her to stop doing it or threaten to leave. I would just say, well, I'm going to leave if I can't— if I can't deal with it, then I guess I'll just have to leave.

Such a sweet guy. Why did he become evil?

Evil, evil,

evil! Jump scare,

jump scare from the camera. What's this in here?

Juice.

I like this nozzle. You can spray the juice out in a jet stream, hits the back of your throat.

I don't know why it tastes better like that.

It doesn't even enter your mouth, you get squirted straight to the back of your throat, covers the tonsils and the flavor buds.

Getting a bit cold. Maybe put my long sleeve on.

I've probably done 10,000 steps pacing up and down inside my house.

I do 10,000 steps outside, 10,000 steps inside.

Yeah, it's middle of July. Why the hell is the weather like this? Where's the summer? It's gonna rain all week

and be cloudy.

This is very miserable.

Maybe I just go Thailand already. Why not? AJ's going to Indonesia now,

and then she's going to go again in October. That's a lot of Indonesia.

Who's AJ? She's my best friend and only friend. K-Bug's also my friend

and my number one girl, but she doesn't seem like she's very— I don't know, she said we need time to get close again. After the damaging things I said.

You need to make more YouTube videos. What about each and every girl?

The dossier, AJ. The dossier, K-Bug. I'll do it like Creepy style. On the 26th, on the 26th of April, a girl named K-Bug DM'd me. At first she said she liked my videos, and then it became sexual.

We need a dossier on each girl.

Yeah, like a thriller. Kind of

creepy sinister music

with B-roll of me typing on my keyboard.

Although a video about Crypt could be interesting, like, she first appeared on March 21st.

She introduced herself to the community by flashing her titties.

She was an avid commenter in every stream until one day she suddenly disappeared without any word. No one could get a hold of her.

Did she ghost me, or did something more sinister happen?

Then to be continued. Dot dot dot. Yeah, documentary. We need documentary.

It's a heavy filter on this can. There is no filter. What are you talking about? Look,

how's there a filter if you can see all the dots?

What filter?

Where the grease?

See, if there was filter, you wouldn't see the blackheads.

Bring back on-screen chat. Is it really that good?

What, this? It just takes up so much of the screen,

it gets in the way.

I spelled the title wrong. Life Updad to

updad to put

it down there.

You're in overdraft again. Uh, yeah, because I bought the cable, the HDMI cable.

How many more hours of stream? I've got to do an all-nighter. We wasted too much time messing around outside.

Yeah, I'm overdraft minus £10 now. I spent £16 on an HDMI cable and another £6 on an adapter. I need to find out.

Yeah, I think we gotta do an all-nighter until 1 AM.

I missed, um, missed out a lot of earnings today by messing about, but make up for it. Amazon payments is for the monitor, but they said they're gonna refund me. They said that yesterday, didn't they? Didn't I reply to it yesterday? Well, it's only been a day. Give them some time, I guess.

I do an all-nighter after wasting half the day faffing about losing all my viewers. Now we got to make up for lost time.

Battery bank's at 70%. Dinner at 9-ish. Finish dinner at 10-ish. Kick out an orange. Half 10.

What if I can change the timer to instead of a countdown, what if it counts up time that Crypt has been missing?

Days passed since no Crypt.

I don't know how to do a timer. I know how to do countdown.

Yeah, well, if she was missing forever, that would be sad. Imagine like a year later she's still gone.

Maybe she met a really nice guy.

She said, I would like to have a voice chat before I come to make sure you're not a catfish. I've only seen you through online. A personal chat would confirm. How do I know you're not AI made by Englishmen Intelligence?

What?

How am I a catfish?

Maybe people she knew kept telling her, oh, you should definitely voice chat. Like you guys keep saying to me that I should video chat with girls. Maybe people she knew kept telling her, oh, you should video chat with him, and if he doesn't want to do it, maybe he's hiding something. How am I hiding anything? Look, I'm

right here. I'm not, I'm not hiding anything. How am I hiding?

Definitely sounded kind of weird when she started saying that stuff, like she was getting cold feet.

The only thing I'm hiding is hiding in my room.

But how would I be a catfish?

I'm literally right here on camera. What is she worried about? How can I be fake or something?

See my whole naked body as well. I mean, she did. She signed up to my OnlyFans. She has, uh, recurring payments turned on on my OnlyFans. So is she just gonna forever be paying me on OnlyFans?

Don't know. Very weird, the whole voice chat thing. She never asked your voice chat before.

Ding ding ding ding ding ding ding.

Ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding ding.

Ah, don't you hate it when?

It's hard to explain, you know, like when in the moment certain things happen and exist, and then certain amount of time passes, usually 4 to 5 months, things start to change. People move about, people disappear, and new people appear, and then the vibes of everything feels off.

I mean, what kind of— what vibes are we in now?

Maybe I'm in one now, but I'm not recognizing it. And now I feel like we've left or finished a vibe.

It's like an end of an era.

Who do we have now?

I kind of miss all the, um, the girl catfighting era. Cake versus Crypt, Moon versus Crypt. It was funny.

All the Turkey Tomsoft definitely brought some drama with it. Now I feel like, yeah, it's kind of over now, isn't it? Party's over, everyone's left, everyone's gone home, music stopped.

Yeah, my house is 2-bedroom,

but the second bedroom's tiny. Look, that's— you know, in the— there's old pictures of this house from when it was listed on sale on some website for sale. They had the main bedroom in here. They had a double bed Like there. I don't know how they fit in there. And then this room, they had 2 single beds.

It was like a guest room or, I don't know, kids' room that shared.

Yeah, they had 2 single beds in here. I reckon maybe this was the kids' room and that was the parents' room. It seems like a scene of a crime. Like, where are they now?

The master bedroom where the parents made love. How do you fuck anymore? Like, if you're parents and you've got kids and you live in a small house and the kids are in the next room like that, are the parents gonna fuck? That'd be kind of sad.

They have to do it very quietly.

Oh, they're putting rubbish out. Oh yeah, the rubbish goes out tonight. That was quick. Now I've got this creepy stag up there staring at me.

Yeah, my house is a bit depressing, isn't it? I keep thinking of the previous people who lived here. With kids and the family. I imagine the laughter and the friends and family coming over to visit. And look at how sad and miserable it is now, devoid of laughter,

no people.

I'm just thinking of how lively it must have been previously and And now it's just like void of life.

Do I want kids? Not really.

I wouldn't really care. Depends if I found the right woman or not.

A lot of things have to fall into place before I can even think about it. Like money.

Can I even find the right partner who's going to stick around? So far, no.

No one's wanted to stick around, or I've not wanted to stick around.

Looks like you moved in a week ago.

Yeah, I don't really care about decorating it as long as it functions and does what my body needs.

I'm not gonna hang up pointless rubbish.