[2024-12-28] sad and alone on Christmas [rOB6GhLu2u8]

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Is Christmas over yet?

I think it's over.

I look really rough.

Being sick not only makes you feel bad,

it does something to your face.

It's like the color has drained from my

Whoa, whoa, that scared the crap

out of me. I was looking at this part of

the screen and I thought I was

hallucinating. I saw like a cat appear out

of nowhere. It took me a few seconds

to realize what was happening.

Yes,

it looked really weird. I thought I was

like dreaming.

No, I definitely look different. I look

drained, physically drained.

Any news from Amazon Flex?

Yep. Shut up, I'm talking here.

Yeah, they sent me an email today. They

said— they just said the same thing as

before. They just said Having someone

deliver on your behalf is against the

rules. Therefore, we are staying with our

original decision. Took you

10 days to tell me that?

I was downstairs for like an hour having

lunch. Why didn't he bother me then?

Yeah, they're stupid. Screw Amazon.

So I managed to go through my footage

files and I found some

unused footage of me delivering parcels I

managed to edit into another video. The

reason why I didn't use that footage

before was because Basically the entire

thing, you can see all of the addresses.

So I thought, I can't show this, it's too

much. But now I don't care, just put it

all on. It's like 8 minutes of me putting

parcels in my car and you can see the

addresses on almost everything. What is

it? What? What?

What? He doesn't even know what— trying

to talk here and he's like, meow, meow,

meow, meow, meow.

Give him some laser action.

Yeah, he wants to play with the laser.

It's behind you.

Did you see him? He was like a crab.

He was like Did

you see? That was so funny.

Wait, is it broken?

Oh, he was like—

he looks so funny.

Whoa.

It's kind of hard to see it because the

room's a bit brighter than usual. Hmm,

no, it's not a vape pen, it's just a laser

pen and a torch, and it's got a blue

light. I think it needs to be

charged. The blue light's not working. I

think it's running low on battery.

That's weird. Why is the blue light not

working? And the torch is really dim.

Oh, the torch is like really small now.

Yeah, I think I need to charge it up.

Anyway, what was I saying?

What did Dave Gibson get you? He got me

car washing soaps and a sponge.

The thing is, now I don't do Amazon Flex

anymore, I'm never going to the

countryside again, so I just don't see my

car getting very muddy anymore. Now I only

drive on nice roads and town roads.

I'm not going to see another speck of mud

ever again.

Send back the mud, Daddy.

Yeah. One good thing about doing Uber Eats

is my car's not going to get wrecked on

potholes and stuff like that. God,

my voice feels so weak. Like I got no

power in my voice. Am I going to sell my

car? No, I can't sell it because it's not

mine.

I feel a lot better today. I feel like

I have energy compared to a couple of days

before. But when it gets late, like around

7 p.m., I feel so tired.

So my eyes start closing. I can't think.

I just get into bed around 8 p.m. and then

I do some YouTube

doomscrolling for about an hour and then I

go to sleep.

It's been rough. 8 days of sickness.

You know what would be scary is imagine

you get sick on Christmas Day and you fall

asleep and you wake up and it's over.

You just slept through all of Christmas

and then all your family and relatives

have all— they've all left. You wake up,

all the food's gone. It's like 1 a.m. in

the morning. Everyone's gone. That would

be horrible. That's why

I was a bit— I was like forcing myself to

stay up.

It's really annoying. I really wanted to

be able to enjoy it a bit more, be in a

better mood. Felt kind of grumpy the whole

day.

Everyone left. They all went home.

Everyone left on Boxing Day.

My mum went out to meet the Japanese

woman.

Yeah, but even Sunny was shocked when I

told her everyone left on Boxing Day. She

said, what, on— they left on Boxing Day?

That's so soon. And I thought, yeah, I

know.

And I had most of my Christmas food

liquidated in a soup. So I didn't have

much appetite on Christmas Day. Had a

couple slices of goose, had a potato or

two, didn't have any turkey.

Then my mum turned half the leftovers into

a turkey soup. So the only turkey and

potato and stuff like that I had was in

the form of a soup. So I just had it all

wet. Turkey soup.

Who is this Japanese woman? She is— she

used to work at Leeds Castle. My mum met

her there. Then she became friends with my

mum like 8 years, 9 years ago.

And she had an English husband

and 2 kids. Chihiro hung out with her when

my dad died.

I've met her twice. She came over our

house and I practiced Japanese with her.

That was like back in 2017,

but her husband died recently,

so my mum's been hanging out with her more

often.

Lots of husbands dying recently.

Did she put coconut milk in the soup?

No. I think if you put cream or milk in

a curry, it's no longer a curry, it is now

a soup. Coconut milk should never be

in anything apart from like a dessert.

You put coconut milk into something

savory, it just turns it into weird,

weird flavor. What is the difference

between like coconut milk green chicken

curry and just chicken soup? How is it any

different? It's literally just bits of

chicken and potato in a watery soup. Why

is one a curry and one's a soup? No,

curry has to be brown or yellowish

and it has to be not sweet unless it's

Indian. But that's okay because Indians—

if it's an Indian curry, it's obviously a

curry.

I do not like green curries or creamy

curries. I mean, I guess most curries are

creamy. I just

don't like Malaysian curry. It's got to be

brown, basically.

Otherwise, I don't count it as a curry.

Coconut in a curry. That's weird. It's

like putting yogurt in a curry.

A coconut doesn't even have milk. It's

water. Inside of a coconut, you got

coconut water. Since when did it have

nipples that you squeeze and milk came

out? I didn't realize the coconut was a

type of mammal.

Can't just add the word milk to

everything.

I think it should be only used for

desserts, coconuts.

Yeah, well, I don't like coconut. Unless

it's in a dessert like ice cream topping.

It's weird when it's in a curry.

I'm not really a big fan of my mum's

Malaysian curries.

Malaysia has no good food apart from that

satay stick, the chicken. But that's

basically just a grilled chicken on a

stick with some yellow turmeric added.

How is that not going to be good?

Those people living opposite are weird. I

saw one family come in with his car. He

attached the wheelie bin onto the back of

his car and then drove the car into the

compound with the bin dragged on from the

back. That's so weird.

Who does that?

Talk about laziness.

No, I don't like Malaysian food. They got

nasi goreng. It's basically

just fried rice, bit of egg on top, isn't

it? Where's my phone?

I left it downstairs. Did I? No way do

I leave my phone downstairs. Oh my God,

I'm getting dementia.

They got a lot of weird curry. I remember

going to Malaysia and then my Muslim

relatives would come over. They call it

laksa. Even the name sounds horrible. Oh,

laksa. Sounds like laxative. It literally

is because it gives you diarrhea. They

come back to wherever we're staying and

they'll always bring their own food. And

it's always like a load of radioactive

orange gloop inside of a plastic bag.

Like an actual plastic bag. They put the

curry in a plastic bag. And then they'll

get the mountain of rice and then they'll

like cut open the plastic bag on top of

the rice and then it will spill out onto

the rice and it smelled awful.

Like, I don't know, chili, every single

spice you can imagine.

And the texture and consistency just looks

like diarrhea. Horrible.

It always looks so gross.

That's my memory of Malaysian food.

Green, yellow, orange looking gunk.

And then banana leaf restaurant where they

just chuck all the food on top of, on top

of a banana leaf and then you scoop it up

Disgusting. Did they learn nothing about

table manners from being in the British

I like curry. I'm just saying I don't like

the green coconut milk stuffed curry.

I like Indian curry and then

maybe sometimes Japanese curry.

No, curry should never be green. That's

just a weird color.

Thai curry. I hate Thai curry. I hate

every Thai food. Every kind of Thai food

is just bad. It's all bad. The soups

are bad. It's all tom yum, chili, shrimp.

I'm gonna go get my phone. Hold on.

Oh my

God. Guess where

my phone was? It was in my pocket the

whole time.

Pushkin's being weird. He's like suddenly

running, sprinting out of nowhere.

Pushkin, what do you want?

I got this cough mixture. Do you think it

actually works?

I guess I can use my sister's gift, the

measuring cup, for the Venus flytrap food.

Wow, it actually serves a function.

This is the best Christmas gift I got this

year. It's got precise measurements of 10

millimeters— pen— 10 milliliters intervals

up to 50 milliliters. Stop running around,

stupid cat.

I'll give myself 15 milliliters

cough syrup.

He's being weird. Can't he just go to

sleep? It's like randomly sprinting

up and down the stairs. Does it have

dextromethorphan?

Oh, the ingredients are on the box. Oh no,

here it is.

It's got guaifenesin,

guaifenesin,

levomenthol. So that's just the menthol.

It's got liquid glucose, sucrose,

ethanol, sodium, E124, and E211.

I don't know why it's got alcohol in it.

Apparently alcohol relaxes and soothes

your passageways. Should just get a bottle

Oh, it's like a melted Strepsil. Oh,

it's so strong. Oh, it tastes just like a

Strepsil that you've melted down into

liquid.

Oh,

it's so full in your face of

Oh, I can't sip this. It's horrible.

I'm gonna have to one-shot it.

Oh, it's like drinking toothpaste.

Oh God, that's horrible. Oh my

it doesn't even work. I'm still coughing.

Oh, it's like toothpaste.

Oh God, it's horrible.

Disgusting. Yuck.

Oh yeah, I got good news. I've basically

paid off all of the credit card. I'm just

waiting for money to come in.

I forgot about my tea.

Hold on.

2352. So the new amount I owe It's

two three five two.

Ta-da! And I have the rest of the money.

It's in my stock account. It's just

processing. Once it's processed, I can

withdraw it. But it won't probably won't

happen until Monday. Take a few days.

So probably by next week, I would have.

Paid off all of it. I'm just waiting for

the stock money to go through.

I got my YouTube money, £528.

£100 got deducted for the car insurance,

and then I paid the rest into the credit

card. I got it down to £2,352, and then

I sold off £1,000 of Barrick Gold and

£1,150 of ASML.

And I had about £100 cash anyway in the

stock account, so I managed to make free

up £2,337.

£2,374.

I sold— oh no, I sold 1,117 of Barrick

Gold. And 1134 ASML.

Oh wow, I got a £17 dividend from

my US bonds ETF.

That's a lot of dividends considering I've

only got £700 in it. The hell? Yeah,

they got a 4% dividend yield.

I didn't realize the bond ETF gave you a

dividend. They gave me £17.

Look at that, from my US bonds ETF.

That's nice. I wasn't even thinking of

that. So I got that and I got my Barrick

Gold dividends, £26. And I had £50 in

UK bonds which I took out. I made a £1

profit from reinvesting it over 4 months.

So yeah, I got all the money. Let's just

wait until next week and I'll have no

credit card debt.

We made it! We paid off the credit card

and got a car.

So the car deposit is all paid off. The

credit card that I used to pay the deposit

is pretty much all paid off. All the Japan

expenses that I used with the credit card

basically paid off.

I got 4 months of intensive driving

experience from being an Amazon driver.

So now I'm pretty good at driving.

First you pay them to learn to drive and

then they pay you to drive. That's how it

I didn't force my mum to come with me.

Every time I was getting ready to go, she

was like, can I come? Or I

would say, I'm going now, do you want to

come? And then she would say, okay. I

wasn't like, please, Mum, please come with

me or else I'm not going.

If she didn't come, I'd just be like,

okay, see you later. And I'd go and do it

myself. Barely made any difference. She

didn't even do anything. She sat in the

car the whole time. Apart from the

Morrisons, it was

actually faster if I just did it alone,

because when she'd be looking for the

parcel, she was so slow. She was like— I

was like, like that. And then if I open

her door, she'll yell at me. Sometimes she

would take so long I would have to help

her look for it and open the door.

Can't stay in the Uber Eats arc forever.

Yeah, well, I need quick money because

I won't get another YouTube paycheck until

the end of January. 4 weeks.

So the only way to get money until then is

to do Uber Eats. I heard

back from Amazon today. They said, no,

not unbanning you.

So now I'm going to unleash the rest of my

footage as a new video.

So I need money for the London trip when

Sunny comes. Don't know if she's still up

for it, but she suggested we go to London

for a night and get yakiniku. I'm thinking

that could cost about £50 return ticket

train for 2 people, £100-ish for

a hotel. And then maybe £100-ish for the

food. So maybe £250 would be

how much it costs. So I need to grind Uber

Eats for a couple of days to make that

money.

Yeah, I'm not really a big fan of London,

but they don't have yakiniku outside of

London, unfortunately.

Because English people are stupid and they

don't like yakiniku, so it didn't catch on

in this country apart from in London. Um.

Yeah. So my goal is to try and make £50 a

day on Uber Eats times

30, £1,500 minus about

£5 insurance a day.

Oh, what? How did Pushkin get outside?

That is really weird. I see him running

around outside now. I thought he was

trapped inside, that's why he was

restless. I'm guessing my

mum left the cat flap open, he just

figured out he can use it. That was weird.

I thought she was keeping him inside.

Yeah, so, um,

£1,300. I'm gonna make about £800

in January for YouTube because December

did pretty well for me.

Yeah, maybe I have £1,500 left over for

God, this cough mixture doesn't do

So now that I paid off the credit card,

my goals are To rebuild my

stock portfolio, I want to build

a hefty position in the bond ETF

and pay back my mum. I'll have a dual

mandate: rebuild the stocks and pay

back my mum. Oh, I just vomited in my

mouth. It tastes like cough mixture.

Delicious.

So my goal is to make about— oh

wow, thanks girl. It's not Christmas

anymore. Just for that, you will—

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Someone's pulling into my drive.

Who's in a black BMW? Oh,

that's not Kevin, is it? My mum's not

here. Is he doing a U-turn in my drive

or what? Imagine he just does a U-turn in

the drive. I think that's Kevin.

Yeah, it is Kevin. He brought a

gift. My mum's not here.

He's the guy that I sent an angry

Facebook message to when I was in my early

Yeah, no one's answering that door, mate.

I can't believe he's still around. He's

the guy I saw my mum having a thing with

back in like 2000 and— 12.

And then I found out. And then I sent him

a Facebook message, said something like,

you, you better not ever talk to my mum

again or else it won't be in your best

interests. It was like trying to be a

threatening message. It was so stupid.

He gave us a lift back home when I took my

Peugeot into the Peugeot dealership for

servicing. Shit, he knows I'm in here

because my light's on. Fuck, fuck.

Oh, if I don't open the door, he's gonna

think it's rude. Oh my God, what? Oh my

God, my mum's obviously

not here.

Fuck, I can just say I'm sleeping.

Oh, he phoned my mom. I can hear my mom's

Why do people just show up without telling

my mom or asking my mom if she's here or

not? God, I could never just imagine

showing up at someone's house without

announcing it.

Oh my God, I just freaked out.

Because if I speak loudly, he can hear me.

Say I'm in the toilet. I had diarrhea.

Yeah. So I took my car in for servicing,

but I had an Amazon block booked, and I

said to my mum, we should cancel the block

because I don't think my car's going to be

finished servicing in time. So then she

calls him up And he just shows up and

takes us home so we can then get my mum's

car and do the Amazon block in my mum's

car, which, by the way, is against the

rules because you're not supposed to do it

in a different car.

I don't even know what he brought. It

looks like an empty Tupperware with

a fork in it.

No, I couldn't understand a word he said.

Yeah, that would have been so awkward if I

went down and answered the door.

I don't know if he remembers that I sent

him that message. I reckon he forgot.

Yeah, he's putting his seatbelt on.

I don't understand why he rang the

doorbell unless he thinks my car is my

mum's car. Yeah, as if my mum would get an

electric car.

Why is he still there?

What's he waiting for?

I remember back then, it was like 12 years

ago, I told my sister about it,

and then me and my sister were debating

whether we should tell our dad.

We decided not to tell our dad about it

because we didn't want to ruin things or

make him upset.

Why is he still there?

What's he doing? You don't think my mum

said she's coming home now, wait in the

car, I'm nearly there?

There's no way.

I saw him put his seatbelt on though.

My first dono after 8 years of watching

Daniel. Oh wow, I feel like a bit of a

deadbeat. Wow, thanks for

not doing it as a Super Chat so I don't

lose 30% of it. Wait, it's more than 30%.

No way, I think it's 30%. I forgot now.

So generous.

We've got 3 more days in gen— why is he

still there?

I don't

like random strangers just sitting in my

driveway. Yeah,

my mum found an Amazon package at the gate

and it was there for days. It was all

soaked. Some Amazon delivery driver just

left it at the gate and no one noticed.

He knows you're in the house.

Yeah, because my light's on and

my car's here.

The car kind of gives it away. Obviously

I'm here if my car's here. Unless I went

out with a friend.

I don't know why he's just saying that.

Wait, my camera hasn't frozen, has it?

My camera's not frozen.

Is he just gonna sit there?

People really do just show up without

telling you, do they? It's happened a few

other times. Do you remember back in 2021

when my mum had that woman friend with the

kids and she would drop her kids off here

to stay while she went out to work? And I

used to get really triggered.

She came over with her son. The son looks

way bigger now. And my mum wasn't here at

the time, so she just came and dropped off

a gift and left. But why wouldn't you tell

my mum that you're coming if you're going

to come so you don't waste the trip? And

then my mum's— no, my sister's friend

and the friend's sister and mum came round

too, straight after my sister left.

If you're coming around, why didn't you

tell my sister? People really

do just randomly drive to their friend's

house without saying anything and just

show up. It's so weird.

Is he actually just sitting there waiting

for my mum to come home? That's insane.

Should we start timing it? It's been at

least 5 minutes already.

Do you think my mum's on her way home

already? She left the house around 4

hours ago.

Now when I go to the toilet, I've got to

crawl so he can't see me by the window.

I don't know why, since I got sick, I've

been having diarrhea.

Maybe the virus got in my stomach too.

Should I ask my mum why is a

man sitting in the driveway?

Why would I need to crawl? Because if I

walk by the window, he can see me,

obviously.

I should put a GPS tracker in my mum's car

so I know where she is. That would

actually be pretty useful.

It's been like 10 minutes. He's been

sitting in his car for 10 minutes now.

I need to put Oh,

he's getting out the car.

I could hear my mom's voice again.

Oh, he said he's gonna put something under

the tree.

It says something about a doggy.

Weird. Why'd he wait for 10 minutes and

then decide to put it under the tree?

Send this stream to Kevin's wife. I think

his wife died. His wife was a Spanish

woman, and she was friends with this other

Spanish woman who was my mum's friend,

who was married to a Chinese man. He had 2

kids. I mean, she had 2 kids,

Daisy and Brian. Brian appeared on that

naked show. Naked attraction where he

got naked on TV.

Thank God he's leaving. Why did he wait

for like 10 minutes in the driveway

though? I don't get it. If he was

waiting, then he must have been thinking

my mum's coming home soon. Oh, thank God.

Yeah,

so the Spanish woman Divorced the Chinese

man and then found this British guy.

But she already had 2 teenage

half-Chinese, half-Spanish kids. The son

hated her and then disowned her and moved

in with his grandparents.

The daughter lived with her for a bit. I

don't remember. I remember going over to

their house, 2010, and it was really

And I couldn't believe she just randomly

divorces her husband, splits up the whole

family. Some people are so selfish.

All they care about is themselves.

I wonder what he got my mum.

Um, yeah, anyway, it was kind of awkward

when he gave us a lift back home. Because

I was, I was like piecing things together.

I was like, wait a minute, is this the

Kevin that I sent the angry message to?

No. How is he still around?

I thought he was like out of the picture

decades ago. I wonder

if he remembers it. It's so awkward.

So yeah, he shouldn't really be surprised

if he thinks I don't like him. Because

obviously I'm a loyalist to my father and

I'm not really going to be pleased, am I,

at the idea— I mean, now it's okay because

my dad's dead, but this happened when my

dad was alive, so it's a little bit

Just, I find it a little bit insulting to

my dad's memory. That's all.

It's like, imagine you're married, or not

even married, but in a relationship, and

then there's like this other guy that your

woman has a thing with.

And then after you die, the man's like

coming around. God, that would make me so

angry.

Why do you think I'm using the heater? Do

I look like I'm hot wearing all these

layers and this bathrobe?

Are you completely stupid? Do I look like

I'm sweating my balls off from all the

heating? Use your brains,

please. I know it's hard.

It's not even that cold anyway.

It's like 5 degrees outside.

Yeah, the radiator's a little bit warm,

but that uses oil, doesn't use

electricity, so it's not my fault.

I feel like the theme of 2025 is just

I'm going to be sick all the time.

Probably every 2 months I'm just going to

be sick. I just feel like I'm sick all

the time recently. I'm sick at least

2 months out of the whole year because

when I get sick, it takes, takes at least

a month until I'm fully recovered. I got

sick in October. I was coughing for at

least 4 weeks,

and now I'm probably going to be coughing

for another week at least, minimum.

It's kind of hard to make money when you

keep getting sick. I've lost how many

days? I've lost 8 days.

I still don't feel like I can drive

because I still feel dizzy.

I don't think I'll be ready to drive until

probably mid next week.

There's no way. Driving is such a tiring

activity. I feel tired just sitting here.

Actually talking, which is tiring.

Every time I try and speak, there's like

fluid building up in my throat.

But I really need to get in some Uber Eats

before Sunny comes. So I've got some

money. I will literally have no money

until the end of January if I don't do

some Uber Eats. I have to go back into

debt to pay for whatever me and Sunny do,

because after I pay the credit card,

that's it. I got no money.

Oh, I got $10 in my PayPal now, so that's

pretty good. When are you meeting Sunny?

She's coming in about 8

or 9 days.

I thought you were selling some stocks.

Yeah, I already sold them. I still got

£5,000 left in my stock account. I'm not

selling that. I still got my Bitcoin.

Actually, I sold half my Bitcoin. I put it

into Ethereum. So now I've got— hold

on. In total, I've got

£515 in

Bitcoin. I mean, crypto.

Half of it's in Bitcoin, half's in

Ethereum, and then I've got £20 in Sweet.

That's the nice thing about crypto. You

just buy it, sell it instantly, the

money's there. You don't have to wait for

a week. The annoying thing about stocks,

they're not as illiquid as you think

because it takes ages for the money

to settle and then become withdrawable.

Maybe I just sell all my gold and I just

take it out. Put it into my crypto

portfolio, and I say screw stocks,

gold's never going to make me any money.

I'll put it all in Ethereum and

then I'll make 50% gains,

and that'll be more gains than gold has

ever made me after 2 years.

You seem to spend lots of time and money

on Sunny. I didn't spend that much money.

I think all in on Ethereum sounds

more reasonable than being all in on gold

at this point.

She texted you Merry Christmas. Yeah, she

did. Don't you think she's gone crazy?

She reports me to the police and then she

wishes me Merry Christmas.

And she said, I hope you can live a happy

life every day. I said, you too.

So weird. Thanks for reporting me to the

police. I learned my lesson. No, I didn't

mention it. There's no point. I can't be

And she's never wished me a Merry

Christmas ever since we broke up.

Yeah, my mum probably messaged her on

Christmas because

my mum messages everyone.

Oh, maybe she's seen my channel and seen

how dead it is now and she feels sorry for

me. At first,

when the haters were laughing at my

channel dying, yeah, maybe it was funny

watching my channel die, but I think you

look at it now and it's just sad. It's not

even funny anymore. It's just sad. So

imagine you got this enemy and maybe he

bangs his head, has to get some stitches.

You're like, ah, serve you right. But then

he catches cancer and he's got 4 years to

live. You kind of just feel sorry for him

at that point. It's just sad. It's not

really funny.

My channel needs to be put down, put out

of its misery.

She got what she wished for, didn't she?

She wanted my channel to die.

Are you happy now?

Chased me out of Japan, killed my channel.

She probably thinks she won.

It's not Christmas anymore.

I think Christmas can count a few days

after Christmas because weeks before

Christmas everyone keeps saying how it's

Christmas.

I need to go dire.

Oh, my stomach's not good.

I don't know what's wrong with my stomach.

It has to be connected with my sickness.

Because I haven't eaten weird stuff. I

just had— for

lunch I had tomato soup with bread, and

then yesterday I had turkey soup and

cheese on biscuits and a bit of goose.

My mum yelled at me about the goose. It

was so annoying. Wouldn't it be nice

if when you're sick you had someone nice

and caring being nice to you instead

of shouting at you for the dumbest reasons

you could ever imagine? So I go

downstairs. It's about 6:00 to

get some goose. I get the— I get the goose

out of the fridge and then she suddenly

bursts in going, I'll do it for you. I'll

cut it for you. Put it down! You get germs

all over it! You got germs all over your

hand! Just shouting the dumbest stuff

ever. And so I say, I don't have germs all

over my hand. I'm not going to touch the

goose. I'm going to use a knife and fork.

Well, she thinks I'm going to grab the

goose like that, like rip chunks off it.

She's so annoying.

So I shout back at her, I'm going to use

fork and knife, I'm not gonna touch it,

and then she storms off like, huh, I do so

then, oh, I'm gonna chuck it in the bin,

and then she storms off upstairs like a

stupid little baby.

What even just happened? I just went down

there to cut some goose and I get screamed

Number one, There's like so many things I

can point out that's wrong with her logic.

So number one, yeah, there's germs

on my hands. There's germs on everyone's

hands. Who cares?

That's just how it is. Number 2, there's

not loads of germs on my hands. I do wash

my hands after I do a poo. And number

3, I'm not going to touch the goose with

my hands. I'm going to use a fork and a

knife to cut it. Number 4,

even if my hands were covered in germs and

I was going to touch the goose with my

bare hands, who cares?

I'm eating it. She doesn't

eat goose. There's barely any goose left

on it. I'm the only one here who's going

to eat it. So why does it even matter?

The 5 points just destroyed her whole

stupid reason to shout at me.

Someone else will eat it later. I just

said there is no one else here. They all

left, and there's barely any goose left on

the goose. I could barely get 8 slices out

of it. Goose is such a big bird

and it's got like such a big skeleton,

but there's hardly any meat on it.

They've got these massive wings. The wings

are like all long, like this massive

long bone. It doesn't look like a chicken

wing. Chicken wing's like a little cute,

got lumps of meat on it. Goose wing's got

nothing on it. It's just skin and bone.

And then all you have to do is cut down

maybe this much into the breast and you

already hit the bone. There's barely any

meat on it.

It was so irritating. I just came down to

get some food and I get fucking yelled at

for the dumbest reason ever. Oh no. My

germs. Who cares?

She'll be like, oh, the germs get in the

fridge. You know what the whole point of a

fridge is? It's to stop germs multiplying.

That's the whole point of the fridge. Oh

no, the germs are going to get into the

thing. That's whole purpose in life for

existing is to prevent germs spreading.

How's it gonna spread in the fridge when

the fridge is the place that stops germs

spreading? She's got no brains, I swear to

Yeah, I don't know how mums, they know

exactly how to say And be— they know how

to be the most annoying they can out

of anyone else. The amount of stupidity

that comes out is just unbelievable.

And then they have the audacity to shout

at you as if you're the stupid one.

That's what pisses me off. You're talking

to me like you think I'm stupid when

everything you just said is completely

stupid and makes no sense.

And then she goes— she starts like ranting

about Sunny's present for me. She says

something like, why did Sunny get you an

electric blanket when—

I can't remember what she said.

Is she always— is she always too hot?

Yeah, she said, why did Sunny get an

electric blanket? Was she always too hot

when she was here? If she

was too hot, why would she get an electric

blanket? That would just make her hotter.

And then why would she get it for me? She

would get it for herself.

That made no sense either.

Why, why did Sunny get you an electric

blanket? Is it because she was complaining

she was too hot when she was here?

Don't you mean, wasn't she complaining she

was too cold when she was here?

Sunny is always saying it's too hot. She

would never get an electric blanket for

She's never cold.

Imagine you get electric blanket, but

instead of heating you up, it cools you

down. That would be funny. Air

conditioning blanket.

Oh my God. I just wonder if

sometimes she realizes how stupid the

things she says are.

I just hate being yelled at over something

that makes no sense.

I can't even go in the kitchen and cut my

own goose without getting screamed at.

Is she a thoughtful person? No, she's a

bossy person. She loves bossing people

around and telling people they're stupid.

She'd be like, oh, let me do it. You don't

know how to do it. You're stupid. Oh, you

don't know how to cut goose. Should always

be like that. It's so irritating.

And then she seemed mad because I came

down for food at 6 when I usually come

down at 7, and she was like, it's not 7,

you come down at 7. I said, I'll come down

whenever the fuck I want. I'll come down

when I'm hungry. I came down— I couldn't

be bothered to explain, but the reason

why, if you really care, I came down at 6

for food because I'm sick and I'm tired

and I want to go to bed.

I don't want to wait until 7. I want to

eat now and then go and go have— go

and have an early sleep.

Usually I'd eat at 7, but I'm sick.

God's sake,

germs on my hands. A lot of rubbish.

If she's talking about my sickness germs,

I get the feeling when she said germs,

she means my flu germs.

And that would be even dumber because my

flu germs are all over the house because

I've been coughing. My flu germs aren't on

my hands.

They would basically be everywhere where

I'm coughing in like a cloud of germs. So

let's say, for example, that's what she

meant, that she didn't want me to touch

the goose because she thinks I'm going to

put my flu germs. Number one, they're not

germs. They're viral particles.

It's a virus. They're not Bacteria or

germs. It's a virus. Okay, so number one,

I'm already sick. So why does it matter if

I'm spreading my virus? Number two, she

already caught it because she was coughing

the other day. So who exactly am I saving

from catching my flu? No one is here.

And if I'm going to spread my flu germs

onto the food, it would be by coughing,

not touching it.

People who eat the goose? What, me? The

only person in the house who eats goose?

Who are these people?

Yeah, in case

guests come over and they want to

scavenge the last bits of goose skin on

the goose carcass. Goose skin

sandwich with a bit of Daniel's flu on it.

She'll just snap at people for the most

silly reasons. When Sunny was here last

time, she actually snapped at Sunny as

well about leaving the light on the

landing on. How's that Sunny's fault? She

kept saying, I told you, last people

upstairs, turn off the light. She was

literally the last person upstairs though,

because me and Sunny don't sleep upstairs.

We slept down— we sleep in the guest room

downstairs. So how are we the last people

upstairs when we don't sleep upstairs?

We were downstairs watching a movie until

midnight. My mum went up to bed around 10

PM. She was like, turn off the lights.

Why don't you turn off the lights if

you're the last one up there?

And then you try and argue with her. She

just gets more angry.

She'll never be like, oh yeah, I didn't

think of that. You've got a point. That

would never— hell would freeze over before

she says that. That would just be so funny

imagining her saying that. Oh yeah,

I see how I was wrong there, and you do

have a point. I apologize.

That would never, ever happen in a million

years.

Why is it so hard to just turn the light

off yourself? I don't get it.

Uh, why don't I move out? Um,

I don't know, I guess I got higher

standards of quality when it comes to

living.

And with my current financial situation,

I don't really have great choices if it

came to moving out.

I like a detached house, no neighbors,

Big garden, driveway.

Does she snap at Sabrina? Yeah, on

Christmas Day she was snapping at

everyone. But I find it— I seem to have

the lowest tolerance towards it. Everyone

else, they're able to laugh it off or just

shrug it off, but I get really fucking

pissed. It really triggers me.

I think I'm probably the most sensitive to

Yeah, because I'm the one who has to deal

with it almost every day. All these other

people can just go home.

I've had to put up with this for decades.

I lived at home way longer than my sister

Why don't me and Sunny sleep upstairs in

my room? Because the bed is too small.

There's a big double bed downstairs in the

guest room. Why don't we just use that?

I don't think I'd be happy unless I was

living in a place that costed probably

£2,000 a month in rent.

Then I might be happy.

Does anyone wash the bedsheets in the

guest room? Yeah. When Sunny left, I took

everything out, put it in the washing

machine. Oh,

is that— Yep, she's back.

Yeah, I'm going to have to clean the guest

room again in about a week's time.

Sunny says, oh, you didn't have to. Trust

me, if I didn't clean the guest room, it

would be horrible. It's all bits of mud on

the carpet from when I go in there to plug

my car in. There's 2 electric

bikes in there. I need to figure out what

to do with those because they take up all

the space. I need to chuck Dave Gibson's

electric bikes out of there. 'Cause

they're being stored in there, and then my

mum's gonna be all angry about it. She'll

be like, oh, don't touch my electric

bikes! Oh, why can't you and Sunny sleep

in your bedroom? That's gonna be

fun. Why don't you put the electric bikes

in the fucking garage? Got a whole ass

garage over there. Put them in the garage.

For God's sake, why are they in the guest

room? Got a whole

garage there, half of it's empty.

You could fit 10 electric bikes in there.

Now she's gonna like shout at me probably

for trying to move the electric bikes.

Yeah, then I got to make the bed nice.

I don't want to sleep in the horrible,

ugly, dirty guest room.

Maybe I'm doing it more for me than I'm

doing it for Sunny. I don't want to sleep

in a dump.

I bet she's gonna ring the doorbell

because she doesn't have a house key.

Or did she get a house key?

Where'd I put my phone? Oh, she did get a

house key. That's weird, I thought she

didn't have one.

I really wish you didn't buy a car that

looks exactly like mine.

It's just so boring. At least if she got

a different car, it would have been

interesting. She should have gotten the

Hyundai Kona Electric.

Nice size SUV. Looks pretty cool. And

Hyundai even said we would give you

a free home charger with the car, and

that's worth like £800.

I kind of wish I got it now. Now I don't

do Amazon Flex anymore. I feel like a

slightly larger car could be more

And look cooler.

It's always what's good for you. Well,

yeah, I have very high standards. I like

things to be clean and tidy.

How's that a bad thing? Why doesn't Sunny

come on stream anymore? Because she keeps

getting upset over things I say. Last time

I was talking about butts and then she got

mad, so she said maybe it's best if I

don't watch your streams anymore.

But I think she's watching my other stream

because she heard me rant about people not

getting me presents because they don't— I

mean, people not getting me good presents

because they don't know me well enough.

And then she asked me if her present was

rubbish. I said no, it was good. I give it

an 8.8 out of 10.

I should do a Christmas present tier list

video. My sister got me a

digital potted plant. I give it a 6.1 out

of 10. Number 1.

Since when have I ever shown an interest

in looking after plants? Oh wait, I did

have my aquarium plants, which I quite

enjoyed looking after. Do you think she

knew that though, and that's why she got

me the potted plant? I don't know.

She should have gotten me an aquatic plant

I got my sister an electric screwdriver

with multiple drill bits.

Admittedly, my present for her husband was

a bit rubbish. I got him luxury mince

pies, and they might not even have

been very good because they were trying to

be quirky with brandy flavor. It was like

brandy luxury mince pies. Maybe it

just wasn't a very good combination. No,

I thought my present was good. She likes

DIY. She likes tech.

It's useful and it's a quality item. It

was £50, not like cheap rubbish.

I've got Dave. I actually just got a

Christmas hamper for my mum and Dave

Gibson. I put, to my mum and Dave Gibson.

I don't know if he ate anything out of it.

Maybe he took some of it home.

My next project for 2025 is I want to grow

a wheat field in the garden. I think we've

got so many unused gardens in the garden.

I think it would be pretty cool if you

turn one of the gardens into a wheat

field. I'm inspired by Jeremy

Clarkson's farm. How hard can it be?

I'll just get a plow, I'll plow the land,

I'll rip up all the grass. My mum would

love that. She'd let me rip up one of the

lawns and turn it into a muddy boggy

field. I'll plow it and then I'll sow the

seed and then I'll just sprinkle poo.

I can make my own poo. I'll just poo all

over it. And then just let it grow,

and then we can make our own wheat and

make our own bread.

Yeah, I'll just hand plow it. Get a hoe.

You just need to dig up the earth.

Explosive diarrhea all over it.

I think diarrhea would make better

fertilizer because it's more acidic and

it spreads easily.

And then we get the yeast from somewhere

to make the bread.

That would

be so cool though, just having a wheat

field growing in your garden.

One garden can be for barley, or you

can just have a mixture of barley, wheat,

and beans.

Beans are good for the ground because

apparently they draw nitrogen in from the