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Garbage not going out today. I mean tomorrow, it's going out on Thursday.

Star Wars Kenobi show last year.

That was last year. I swear it was years ago.

I don't know. I haven't been keeping up with the Star Wars series. The cooking? I just put a pizza in the air fryer. That was it.

And then I had some grapes, and then I checked the market, and then I watched some YouTube, and then I watched Sean Bean try to remember his lines. I didn't realize he was in GoldenEye as well. I only know him from Lord of the Rings and Game of Thrones.

And that really old show he did called Sharp.

And then I check my YouTube, and then I check my email, and then I check my trading, and then I check my CFD account.

Why do you skip showing us dinner? I need a break. I'm not allowed to just sit here and not talking anymore, so in order to be able to stream without breaking the fucking rules, I gotta take breaks to recharge. Plus, I'm sick.

Oh, hey Turbo Express, where are you tuning in from tonight?

You wouldn't fucking believe it.

That's all I can say.

Uh, Turbo Express, I am not botting. Someone is botting me against my

will.

What message? I can't say really.

What's wrong with my face?

Nothing wrong with my face.

I'm sick.

Do I know Michelle from China? No, I don't know anyone from China.

You won't fucking believe what is going on. Hago.

Maybe one day I will tell you the tale of Garth Plagueis.

Damn, I'm boiling.

I really hope my sickness doesn't get worse.

Maybe I turn the heating off. I had tea and heating in my brew.

Yeah, I took vitamin C and zinc, and I had grapes, and I had an orange.

Why am I not looking at text message? What do you mean? I already looked at it.

I did look at it.

No, I'm just saying there's a developing story which is pretty hilarious.

I can't really explain though.

You need vitamin D. Uh, actually someone said I need zinc.

I thought that vitamin D was for strengthening the immune system to prevent colds, but I already caught the cold.

I also heard zinc's good for sperm. So if you're trying for a baby,

you're supposed to take zinc.

I already— I got a sore throat. I'm just hoping tomorrow I don't get a fever.

Surprised you came back to stream.

Well, I'll do— what time is it? 8 o'clock. I'll do 3 hours. Go to bed at 11.

This is the— Tuesday is the last day before payouts get calculated.

Didn't get an email from Kick, so looking good.

Seems like just reading out Wikipedia is doing the trick.

I wonder— I'm sure someone's been reporting it, so I'm sure they're reviewing it. It is funny, the idea of them watching me sit there reading Wikipedia and they're like, yep, that's okay.

He's talking and he's saying, where everyone tuning in from tonight, guys?

But if all, if all I said was, oh, everyone tuning in from tonight, if all I said was that on Friday a couple times, I wouldn't have lost the entire day's paint, would I?

Do I remember iDialDoll?

Um, kind of.

Why? What happened? Yeah, I'm sure I lost— I lost most of the women who used to watch me. I used to have 50% female audience and that dropped down to like 15% female audience.

And being seen as pro-Trump kind of turned away a lot of women as well, even though, I mean, I'm not really strongly pro or anti anyone. I just think he's kind of funny.

Women do not like Trump.

So it does not bode well

if you do not hate him.

Well,

I'm not, I'm not a woman, so I don't really find that relatable. I don't know about abortion. It's not really something I have to worry about.

I'm not interested in politics anyway.

Things to never talk to women about: day trading, stocks, politics. War, history, uh, cars. Do not ever bring up cars. Women do not give a shit about cars. Yeah, crypto, um,

gaming is kind of 50/50. A lot of girls like gaming, but they only like boring games like The Sims.

And weapons. So if you talk about crypto, they're going to think you're like a crypto scammer.

Do not bring up crypto ever. Uh, the people who are not into crypto only know about crypto from things like crypto scamming.

And people who don't know about stocks, only thing they know about stocks is probably that one time where there was a big crash and people lost lots of money back in 2008. That's pretty the only memory of stocks they know or have.

Yeah, there's a lot of eggshells to walk on.

I don't know why the rubbish is being taken on Thursday. Was there a bank holiday on Monday? Were there any bank holidays this week? Like, was there a bank holiday yesterday? Seemed like a lot of people in the town in the middle of the day, and not just old people.

Damn, it really sucks. Being scared to talk about stuff.

Probably shouldn't though.

Maybe sometime in the future.

When I don't care about it anymore. But then what's the fun in that?

Why are you scared to talk about that?

Um, cuz it's not a good idea.

No, I'm not talking legally, I'm talking morally.

Oh, I don't know, not very much I can do.

It's just funny.

The monotremes, extremely ancient branch of mammals. They are viviparous,

viviparous, viviparous, whatever that The word is

damn. I'm looking kind of rough.

Oh, I'm not looking good, am I?

This is my first time being sick in this house.

I might have to cut it short and do a 2-hour stream instead.

Sister, if I can't stream tomorrow because the sickness is worse, then I better stream as much as I can tonight to get as much pay on Thursday.

Cuz I got overdraft to be paying and I've only made £600.

I'm hoping I get a bit more.

I still need another

$200 to get out of overdraft.

I get no more money until next week

unless I take some stock money out to pay off the overdraft.

Yeah, I got $7K in savings, but

Uh, some of that's my Kick balance, some of it's my YouTube balance that I don't have access to at the moment.

No, by this week I mean since last payday, which was Thursday. No, it's Tuesday. So the week on— I don't know why, but the week on Kick starts on Wednesday. Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, and then Tuesday it calculates how much money you made. Balance goes to zero, the money gets sent to you, you get it

on Thursday, and then your balance starts from zero on Wednesday and builds up until the Tuesday, and then end of Tuesday goes back to zero. As they send the money out.

So when I say this week, I mean since last Tuesday, not since yesterday.

So in the whole week, I made 600-ish.

Um, yeah, so about 800 is— 800 of my savings is locked up until Thursday and then next week because it's YouTube money.

And then the rest of it is in stock, so I could take some out. To pay off the overdraft, but I was supposed to be growing the stock account, not taking money out of it.

Where everyone tuning in from today, guys? Am I doing a weekend hotel this weekend? Um, I don't know, maybe depends. I mean, if I'm sick and I can't drive, then no, I can't really. Wouldn't be safe.

Wouldn't be safe to drive that far.

Why is my face looking so red?

US or pounds? What, my savings? It's in pounds. That's why I put the pound symbol

next to it.

I should put each number in a different currency. Savings in pounds. Amazon payments in dollars, overdraft in Japanese yen, credit cards in

won. $600 is, uh, US dollars—

I mean pounds.

Monthly income is

2.2K. Uh, don't know. Last month was £2,660, which is $3,600.

Hey, oh wait, no, no, no, that was Last year. That, that was last— what the hell am I looking at? I'm so sick. Oh wait, actually is the same as what I just said. Last month was £2,664.

I was looking at last year where it said Amazon Flex, £2,660.

Damn, I made some good money off Amazon Flex I got banned. I made nearly £5K in 3 months. In August, I made £3,600, which is

$4,800. And then in July, I made £7,000.

Which is

$9,400. That was when I had my last month of YouTube, 4 months of YouTube, and when Kick was doing really well.

Where did all the money go? I paid off my credit cards. If you remember, I think I had about £7,000 credit card debt. I had like £2,000. I maxed out my Amazon credit card, remember? I had like £5,000 Amazon credit card debt, and then I had, I had like £2,000 overdraft, and then I had like £1,500 in

my second credit card. So most of Kick money went off to paying off credit cards.

He's not accounted for tax this year.

Why would I start calculating my tax now when it's only October?

I don't even— what's the point calculating how much tax I owe now when there's still 6 months left in the fucking year?

I need to know how much money I've made at the end of the year, not halfway through the year. I don't know how much money I'm gonna make in the end of the year.

Saving money? Well, that's what the savings is. Look, savings 7,300. What do you think that's for then?

It's just saving my money.

Literally says right there, savings. What do you mean I'm not saving money?

The hell's the savings then? In volatile stocks? Gold is not volatile. What are you talking about? How's gold volatile? And I got £1,000 in a volatile crypto stock, and that's it, £1,000.

Well, I can't estimate my projected earnings because I don't know what's going to happen to Kick. Kick is too volatile to be able to project. One minute I'm making good money, next minute they're fucking saying I violated this and I violated that. Violate your backside, how about that?

And next minute people saying, oh, they're gonna shut down KPP. How the hell am I supposed to project how much money I'm gonna make? I don't know, I might not even have Kick anymore next week.

In that case, I've got to barely pay any tax.

Um,

if I get booted off KPP, then I've got to get a job. I've got to try harder on YouTube, restart my YouTube.

I'd only have to pay a lot in taxes if I'm still doing Kick, and if I'm still doing Kick, I'm going to be making a lot. More money, which would be great.

If I lose Kick, then I won't have to pay much in taxes, so it's like win-win, isn't it?

I've only made £21,000 so far. Let's say I make another £5K, I'll probably make like £25K in the whole tax year,

minus tax-free allowance, minus a couple thousand. For business expenses. Taxable income is probably like $10K.

I have to pay— maybe I might have to pay a couple thousand taxes,

but I've got a couple thousand in savings.

What do you mean if cap hits?

What does that mean?

I mean, looking at the whole year, I have made consistently above $2K per month,

even before Kick. So before Kick, I had YouTube plus Every, didn't I? Plus OnlyFans. And then I lost every— and I had YouTube plus Kick plus OnlyFans. Now still got OnlyFans plus Kick, tiny bit of YouTube.

Oh, look how many Strepsils I had today.

My throat is still sore.

The good thing about a real job is even if you get sick, you can still get paid.

Oh, that.

Starting to feel a bit rougher now.

Oh God, there were so many fucking problems.

I don't even think infinite money would solve them. I don't really know what the solution is.

No, logistical problems involving cars.

Oh God, I don't know.

Oh

God, uh, if I tell you what the problems are, it seriously Um,

jeopardizes my credibility.

Mm-hmm.

Oh, market tanking.

I hate when you press a little tiny X by accident. And then you close the thing you were trying to open.

I'm just really hoping I don't get sick for the weekend because I need to be able to drive.

But if I'm that sick, then it's probably best I just stay at home and sleep.

Really fucking annoying.

One fucking thing after another.

Right, if it's not bodily things being the issue, then it's car things being the issue, and then it's road things, and then there's money things. Oh God.

And there's so many things that can go wrong.

Cars can just— I don't know,

cars can just really be full of problems and ruin plans.

Like that time my mum drove into a puddle with her BMW when we were supposed to go to the New Forest.

And then it took ages to be able to rent a car.

That's why I always check my car

so things don't just surprise me.

Get them fixed sooner than later.

No, she doesn't want to borrow my car.

Yeah, sometimes you think, you know, Dating and life in Japan is so easy because you just get on the train.

It never takes— I mean, it doesn't really matter where in the city you live, it's not going to take more than 30 minutes to get to someone's place or get to a place where you can meet. But when you're in the UK,

the distances are hours apart even by car. I mean, you need a reliable car. In Japan, you never had this problem. I mean, even if the girl lived in a different prefecture, you just get on the bullet train.

But the UK, we don't have a bullet train. The public transport, shit. There's no high-speed trains apart from— I don't know, you want to go to London, maybe.

So I felt like the difficulty level of dating in the UK is a completely different level compared to Japan and Asia. Also, everyone's broke. Cost of living crisis. I never felt like people in Japan were broke

to the point where they had to— I don't know, I can't do this, I can't do that.

All right, logistical challenges of dating in the UK are becoming more and more aware to me.

Like, you're really fucked if you don't have a good reliable car,

but I mean, what can you do if you can't afford it?

Uh, my car's been pretty reliable so far. I should bloody well hope so because it's fairly new.

Although I am a bit worried about freezing temperatures and charging my car. I mean, I do not want to be stuck in this situation where I'm in my car with my girl and we gotta charge and it's freezing and we're freezing and it's taking like an hour to charge because the charging speeds have tanked.

As a man, you're supposed to be providing security and stability, and you got a stupid fucking electric car. It's taking over an hour to charge, and you're both freezing your nuts off.

And you gotta have that. Yeah, you can have the heater on in the car, but then it's gonna slow down charging, isn't it? And having the heater on in the car drains the battery so quickly.

One problem I've heard about electric cars is if the battery dies. It completely locks down. You can't put it into neutral apparently.

Although I watched Matt Watson's Car Wow video where he runs EVs down to zero and they do this trick where

I think you gotta hold down the brake to put it into neutral. So you, you kind of hop along but you put one foot into the brake whilst you stand outside the car and then you push it.

Hmm, I mean, cars are such a money pit, but you can't live without it.

Relying on public transport,

it just takes ages to get anywhere.

Mm-hmm.

I wonder how long my last— I mean, my car is going to last before I start having problems.

I've currently done 35,000 miles on it. I think it's quite a lot for just a year, isn't it?

And I think I added on 15,000 miles since I bought it.

Guys who like fucked their car? What do you mean, like had sex with their cars?

No.

Well, must be a way to overcome these problems.

I don't even know if I'd want to get a different car if I was going to get a different car.

I kind of like— I'm not thinking of buying her a car.

I kind of like those red Honda Civics. They look pretty cool.

Max out the credit card. New car for the GF.

Genius. Wow, you get a Tesla Model 3 Standard Range, £12,900.

I like my car, it's just the range, it's not amazing. Like, it will say I got 180-mile range, but when I put my foot down, I can really do just about 110 miles.

That's because I'm driving very aggressively. Like, if I drove like a granny doing 60 the whole way, okay, maybe I'll get 180 or close. But who the fuck's gonna drive like a granny? I've got places to be.

I need my 130 British horsepower. I'm not driving in eco mode.

And really, I got like 100— I, I can only go 100 miles before I gotta think about charging

if I'm gonna put my foot down.

It's like I got to Exeter Tesla Supercharger place and I only had 45 miles left to get home,

so I topped it up to 80 miles range. By the time I got home, I only had 10 miles left on my battery. So I somehow used 70 miles of range to do a 45-mile trip because I was flooring it.

Everyone floors it on that road because it's just wide open.

Barely any traffic on that stretch up there. We'll see the A30. Yeah, A30, it's a massive long stretch of

big wide open road. Like, are you gonna do 60 on that? No, no one's doing 60.

No, I think I'm gonna be worse tomorrow.

The sickness.

I think I can only do another hour. I've got to call it at 10. I'll do one more hour.

Uh, one thing after another. Now I'm sick.

Oh, my

fucking plans.

Just please don't get a stupid email from Kit. That's what I'm praying for.

Well, I'm in a financially strong position right now, but It could be taken away at any moment, which is what I'm scared of, and I don't really know what I'm gonna do.

I got rising expenses,

mounting payments, rising bills. The last blow to the nutsack would be losing Kick.

I don't know what I'm gonna do,

and now I'm sick.

Mm-hmm.

Well, everyone tuning in from today— Guy Daniel needs brandy and lemon.

Really? Alcohol when you're sick? It doesn't sound good.

Yeah, I really don't know what— like, I'm just picturing it in my mind. I wake up, get the email saying, oh, you have been removed from partnership. I'll be like, first I'll be like, oh, thank fuck, I don't have to stream anymore. But then I'll be like, oh my God, what am I going to do for money

now?

And then I'll try and make a pathetic comeback to YouTube where every fucking thing I do will flop.

Maybe I can grind my YouTube earnings back up to

$1,000 a month. I mean, I haven't done YouTube in ages. It's currently at like $400 a month.

With barely any uploads.

So maybe if I just grind it hardcore and get back up to $1,000 a month,

and then— well, I mean, really, I need,

I need $2,700 a month. So I don't know where I'm gonna get the extra $1,700.

They'll have to get a job, wouldn't they?

Yeah, I'm living in fear of wages taken away by Kit because they've already done it,

done it once. And before they did that, I wasn't in fear, but now, like, because I didn't really think they'd do anything, but now they have.

Am I having sleepless nights? No, not really.

But I do feel very anxious when I wake up, when I check my emails.

How much worse he has gotten over the years. Worse at what?

I mean, it was good that I got out of my credit card debt thanks to Kick.

Just, I mean, yeah, I can always go back to my mum's house, but it's not very good, is it?

I should be able to not have to go back to my mum's house. I mean, if I have to keep going back to my mum's house, then how am I going to survive?

Oh, hello guy, what's up? Dumber, more selfish.

Uh, I never really been smart. I don't know what you mean by dumber, so that would imply that I was smart at some point. I don't really think I've ever been smart. More selfish.

Um, actually, I've spent quite a lot of money for my girlfriend and I.

Remnants of boyish charm gone. Yeah, because I'm aging. No shit. It's called getting old. What, you think I'm gonna have boyish charm for the rest— for my whole life? Obviously it's gonna— I— okay,

Betty Bonkers banned

for needlessly insulting me. Okay, Betty Bonkers, now who's dumber?

Guess you're dumber than I am.

You rely on haters? Not really.

I don't rely on haters at all.

Uh, I'm a bit— I don't think I can see my girlfriend this weekend.

I'm too— I think I'm gonna be sick.

Why doesn't she come to my place?

She always got car problems.

I don't mind driving there, but if I'm sick, I can't really.

I can't drive there, bring her here, and then take her back and then drive back. That's insane. It's like 9 hours of driving in 24 hours.

Yeah, it is getting kind of costly.

Get a train or bus. I don't even know how.

There's no— you have to get a taxi to my house. Well, I mean, I guess I could go pick her up at the station. I don't know what kind

of train do we get. Ah.

Oh, fucking Bitmine keeps going down,

go up, and then go down, go up.

So it never stays up. Like rip and then sell off completely, and then rip again and sell off completely.

I should have taken profit on that other day when it hit 65.

Oh well, what can you do?

I don't think my lymph nodes are swollen.

Hey, Murph, life is treating me not great. I'm sick

and vaping's not helping.

I can barely even taste it. My taste buds are going weird.

I'm hoping it's just a cold,

really. I mean, if I get sick, I won't be able to stream.

I mean, I could just like sit here mumbling deliriously.

Yeah, I had some jasmine tea and Strepsil honey lozenge.

Feeling tired. I'm gonna stream 40 minutes more and then go to bed.

Just when I needed to, uh, get my head down, grind out the streams, and I lost Friday's earnings.

And I'm sick.

Would have been nice if I had my Friday earnings on top of what I've already made.

It's hard work in the way that— I mean, what do you talk about anymore?

Constantly finding things to talk about is so hard.

And if I stop talking, stupid Kick takes my money.

They say not enough participation in your stream,

so I started reading out Wikipedia pages.

Kate don't care if you're sick.

Yeah, it is really boring just being stuck at the computer.

I quite like going outside to stream when the weather was good. But summer's over.

It's just cold and windy and rainy most of the time.

I wouldn't want to go outside.

Thailand was not any better. It was so damn hot.

Hot and noisy and sweaty and dirty.

That's why I barely ever streamed outside in Thailand. It was horrible.

I tried doing some gaming streams, but it was so boring.

What do you even say? I mean, I quite like Darkest Dungeon, but What can you say apart from just announcing everything you're doing?

Now, what PewDiePie used to do that made him big seems easy, doesn't it? But

to do entertaining commentary while gaming is hard.

When I game, I like to just be quiet, but if I be quiet, then Kick's gonna mung.

I like to game, but I don't like talking whilst I game, and I just do it for like an hour or two.

Mario Kart, usually.

I do it to relax and unwind,

not yapping away.

I don't know why Kick is so hung up on the talking thing. Like, why can't I just not talk?

I think it's insane that I can't even do a Rubik's Cube and focus on doing it. Without talking.

Don't they realize that streaming isn't just all about talking?

They don't know what they're talking about.

They call it a static stream. It means not enough participation from me,

which is just not talking. Like, I can just mindlessly read out an article and that counts as participation. No, I don't have any new content ideas. I never had any content ideas since 2019, or maybe 2021.

I don't make con— I haven't made content in 5 years. I just meet women and then go abroad and then document it.

But now I don't do that

because I don't want future women to be scared off thinking that they're going to become like the next content. So I've decided to stop doing it.

And what's more important, making yourself calm or making sure the woman comes? I always try my best to make the woman come at least twice. All

right, if I can figure out the angle, then I'll hit it before I come. Like, I don't want to come without them coming because I want them to enjoy it so they want to keep doing it more and more. Like, if I give them a really bad experience, they won't come back for more, will they?

Yeah, I'm a very generous lover. I don't think I'm a selfish lover.

Unless I just don't know how to make them cum.

I mean, there have been times where I couldn't figure it out,

and there's been times where it was really easy.

It depends on the woman.

I mean, when they come, you know. See, it gets tighter, doesn't it?

There was this Japanese woman, when she came, she squeezed so tight it'll pop my dick back out. Like, the pressure was so intense.

Do I miss McLovin?

No, not really.

I miss those people who made those Instagram fan pages. They were funny. That was like back in the day when I actually had like

less deranged fans, like more like— I don't know how to explain it. There were quite a lot of funny like little fan Instagram pages people made for me, and they made memes and stuff with my content.

Was it Daniel Senpai or something? He made some good memes.

Did I ever hear back from Crypts?

She didn't even read the message, didn't even open it.

Just gone like a fart in the wind.

Wasted all of our time.

Oh God, 27 minutes. Oh God,

I don't know if I can stomach it for another 7 bucks.

Sickness is coming.

I just gotta sleep as much as I can.

Do you think I should take another 7? I mean, do you think I should take another zinc, or would I overdose on zinc?

Yeah, most of the, um, meme troll has disappeared, like T-Pop Fever, Chosen.

Yeah, my content got boring, I guess,

because my content was destroying my life.

I don't think you guys realize that,

but the more I make— the more I do it, the deeper the hole I dig myself into.

I don't want to live in a hole.

Yeah, what do you— what do you propose I do? And don't just say, oh, go to Japan. I don't want to go to fucking Japan.

Boring.

I don't want drama. I'm not talking about drama anymore. When are you people gonna get it through your heads? Then no more drama. Fucking done with it.

Yeah, I have visited basically every city in Japan apart from Sapporo and Okinawa.

I've been to all the ones that matter. I've never been to the northern part like Sendai. Well, I don't care, it's all boring anyway.

Yeah, I don't care if drama sells. It's not worth it.

If there were no consequences, yeah, okay, I'll do drama. But there's so many negative consequences from making drama content.

Why are you unhappy? Because I could lose my Kick money at any point,

and then I'm fucked.

And I'm sick and I need to be streaming as much as I can, but if I get too sick, I'm gonna have to stop.

I've got to find a new way to make money if I lose Kit.

My YouTube videos don't get any views unless I have some kind of big announcement.

I can't— I don't have big announcements every day, do I? And even videos like the sleeping with Blood Bucket story already got 7K views.

And it only made $20.

All that for $20.

So I don't know, I mean, I need crazier and crazier stories. So I need the stories to get crazier and crazier, but the views are getting lower and lower

until it gets to the point where It won't even matter anymore how crazy the story is. The views will just keep going down.

So there's no point chasing that.

What's the word?

Diminishing returns. Gets to a point where it makes it not worth doing anymore.

I'm talking about YouTube views.

Yeah, I know there's nothing about me that interests people anymore. That's why they left.

That's why it was fun in the beginning, because everything I said, people found so interesting because they were new to me.

Yeah, so I'm just gonna do Kick for as long as I can until they boot me off. There's no point prematurely ending it.

You might as well just milk it as long as I can. And then figure out what to do.

Stream more interesting content.

Anything interesting can get you in trouble with the fucking police.

Like, anyone can— like, I don't know,

people don't like being filmed, people don't like being on camera,

uh, people aren't happy if you like walk into their business and then start streaming. Like, they could

Take legal action. I don't know, there's so many— so much trouble you can get, it's not worth the risk.

You guys don't understand how the real world works. Like, you don't understand the risks of streaming.

Streaming is extremely risky.

When you take the camera outside, the risks are just random, unpredictable.

How will you get into trouble streaming in the UK?

Um, example one, I took the fucking stream into the voting building.

Now I'm worried I might get in trouble for that.

That's just one example.

Yeah, I didn't know.

You think I knew? I don't fucking know.

I put the stream away in my bag, so I'm hoping that's Good enough.

Yeah, I always get in trouble because I don't fucking know, like filming my mum and on Amazon and uploading it. I always get in trouble because I make stupid mistakes like this. Which is why it's not a good idea to go outside and stream.

I didn't know I was going to get fired for bringing my mum with me.

That's what I'm saying. You people don't understand the dangers of going outside to stream. There's so many things that the police can get you for, and if you film yourself doing it, you're fucked.

Just saying, oh, I didn't know, is not gonna work all the time, is it?

Yeah, I am overly paranoid, and for good reason.

And also, I get the same number of viewers even if I go outside. I don't, I don't get like 10x more viewers because I went outside.

How many viewers did I get on Kit Hill? How many viewers did I get walking around Bog Hill. How many viewers did I get going to the post office?

Less than what I have now, that's for sure.

Yeah,

well, I'm not I'm not glad that I took those risks to get to 100K. I kind of regret it

because

now I have to suffer the consequences, don't I?

What consequences? Um, that I have to keep my identity a secret so the stuff I've done in the past doesn't resurface. Number one, why do I have to explain all this stuff to People, I mean, you should know this stuff.

Well, when I, um, when Chihiro found out about it, my,

my internet history wasn't that bad at that point. Compared to how bad it is now.

Like, I still hadn't done any gay stuff yet.

Oh, it's not really about being homophobic, it's about having it on the internet on video. That's the problem.

I think you're missing the point. I think you guys are so slow. It's not about being gay that's the problem. It's— the problem is having fucking porn video of yourself

on the internet. Not many people are okay with that.

Well, if I could turn back time and let's say I reversed doing OnlyFans, then it would be like saying, okay, well then give us back the $40,000, $50,000. Okay, I'll wake up next morning, wish granted,

uh, decision reversed, and then minus $50K in your bank account then, because you can't keep the money if you want to revert it.

9 minutes to go.

Han.

Well, I think as time goes on, as more and more people pile into the internet and more and more platforms rise up, it'll become more diluted.

So like maybe in the early 2010s,

YouTube— like being on YouTube, um,

would be like a big thing, wouldn't it?

Because there were less people on it.

But now there's like so much on the internet, I feel like dilution, people getting bored of stuff. There's so many things to watch on the internet nowadays.

Like, YouTube's just one of hundreds of things people do.

Plus, everyone's getting older. Like, all the stupid dumb young people will one day become 40-year-olds and then 50-year-olds, and then, okay, haha, Onision, this and that now. 10 or 20 years' time, no one give a shit. And it's not like the younger people are going to really care about some YouTuber who was big 40 years ago. It's

like, do you care about some celebrity from the 1980s? No.

Enough time passes, people start forgetting. They also start dying, or just starting their own families and not caring about this juvenile stuff anymore.

I think the whole thing about girls Googling— like, even my sister said, yeah, if I'm going on a date with a guy, I'm gonna Google his name.

It's fucking annoying,

girls Googling your name.

Turkey time video got 2 million views. Yeah, and it'll get no more. It's done. It's not going to get 2 million more views.

You can't erase— and it's like, what can you do? You can't erase people's memories. Even if you— if the video got taken down, still doesn't change the facts that 2 million people saw it. Unless the 2 million people die or just get dementia.

What can you really do?

Well, I'm going to bed. No point in dragging it out for another 4 minutes.