my apology to Deepak and Ice Poseidon-7823b5a0-76cf-47fd-a353-3c4b378ecb4a

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I just finished class. Thought I'd do a quick stream explaining things.

Since I seem to be getting a lot of hate,

and I want to talk about my experience meeting Ice and Deepak, how I feel about the whole situation. It's been 2 days, had some time to formulate my opinion, and I have some things to say because in, in the heat of the moment I was kind of like put, put under the spotlight, felt kind of pressured, didn't

really feel like I had a lot of time to talk and express myself. It's kind of hard to talk when you've got someone yelling talk right in your face. If you want someone to talk, yelling at them to talk is not really gonna help, is it?

But I don't expect some people to understand that.

Make a video on why ICE has kidnapped you. I have a few videos I need to edit from the stream footage, like meeting his girlfriend, my thoughts on Sam Pepper, my thoughts on— I got like 4 videos to process out of all this, so it's keeping me busy. Very interesting getting to meet and talk to the CX

gang in person

after watching them for many years. It was quite Quite interesting seeing them in the flesh

and talking to them.

You had 700 viewers? What, last night? Yeah, I wasn't really paying attention because, you know, the whole DPAC thing happened at the train station. Yeah, that was pretty shocking.

I actually completely forgot I said that.

It's kind of hard to explain why I said that

without making people mad.

Ice asked me if I wanted to meet yesterday, but I said no because it's kind of awkward now.

And I had plans with my girlfriend.

Ice just said, hey, do you still want to meet today? And I said no because of the D-Pak thing. And he said, yeah, I don't know what you can do to fix it. And I said, yeah, I don't know either. I said sorry, but it seems like it's not good enough.

I don't really know what more I can say apart from sorry.

Meet Ice today? No, he seems busy,

and I don't really feel like being pressed again. It's like the whole time I was there, I was just being pressed about cheating and stuff.

I'm not really interested in talking about the cheating stuff because it happened like 5 years ago. I don't really care anymore. So yeah, I was married. Yeah, I slept with some viewers. Move on. No, it wasn't good. Well, it was good for me. Some of those girls are pretty hot.

I don't regret it. I slept with this one girl. She was like 4 foot 11, nicest bum I've ever seen.

So no regrets there. I didn't even like my ex-wife anyway.

I only got married because it was better than having to go back to my parents. My choices were go back to my parents' house or get married and live in Japan, so obviously I got married.

Also, how did Deepak even meet Ice?

I think Ice just met him randomly on the street, and then Ice was like, oh, he's short and funny, he looks like an Oompa Loompa, let's turn him into a streamer and save him from the slums.

I don't think Deepak sniped Ice. So I'm pretty sure Deepak had no idea who Ice was like 5 months ago, or however many months ago.

So the reason why I said it was lame for Deepak to stop streaming when his mother died was because when my dad died, I carried on streaming and I got a shit ton of donations. I made like $1,000 in a day, which is a lot for me, by streaming myself talking about how I felt after my dad

passed away. So I was thinking, it's pretty obvious Deepak only streams for money, so he should have taken advantage of the situation and just streamed.

I didn't say anything about his mum. People were saying, oh, you insulted his mum. I didn't say shit about his mum. I commented on his not streaming. I didn't say anything about his mum.

I'm just saying, if you want— he obviously is only streaming to make money, and he doesn't stream because he likes streaming. I mean, he looks really bored half the time when he streams. He's not reading the chat, he's not doing fun stuff, he's barely talking. He's only doing it because he's gotten this opportunity from Ice to make

a lot of money by streaming. That's why he's streaming.

So my logic is, why don't you just stream

and like take advantage of a situation where people would probably give you a lot of money? Because that's what I did

when my dad died. So I don't know why people get so— got so upset over what I said. It's pretty harmless.

Deepak was working at a scam tourist office. Really? Yeah, I did hear he was like a scammer before meeting Ice.

Oh, he's like a scammer and now he's a streamer because Ice likes him because he looks funny and he's— I don't know, I personally don't find him entertaining, but Ice obviously does.

And I think Ice likes the idea of being this messiah, saving this poor Indian guy from the slums and turning him into a streamer and changing his life. I think Ice gets some satisfaction from the power dynamic of being a messiah and saving him.

It makes Ice look good because he's like, oh wow, Ice is so magnanimous. He gave Deepak a platform, gave him this opportunity, which is true.

But let's not be— let's not beat around the bush. This is for mutual benefit here. This is not a selfless kind act on ICE's behalf.

It benefits them both. It actually benefits ICE way more than it benefits Deepak.

I don't know, actually I take that back.

See, it changes— no, it changes Deepak's life more than it changes Ice's life,

but it definitely helps Ice's streams.

They got upset because you said imagine crying like a baby in your 30s because your mum died. Yeah, okay, that bit was a bit, bit too much. I agree.

I mainly said that because I'm, I'm kind of insensitive to death at this point in my life. I've had a lot of death around me. My dad died, my fish died, my cat died, my uncle's dying. So I'm pretty immune to dying,

but that's just me. I shouldn't have projected my own feelings onto Deepak. I guess that was a dumb thing to say, but I

personally won't cry again if someone else dies because I, I have mentally solidified.

Let's not forget, I'm like 6, 8 years older than all these people. I'm actually older than Deepak, believe it or not. Deepak's like 32, isn't he?

I'm like 8 years older than Ice and Kim. I'm probably nearly 10 years older than Kim him. So I got way more life experience than all of them, but because I look the way I look and I'm kind of shy, people think I'm like a little boy.

But no, I've got a lot of life experience.

I've already been through this stuff.

I know what it's like to lose a parent.

So is that a good apology? Don't really care anymore.

I have very critical and harsh opinions on basically everyone I watch, and I'm sure most people do as well.

It's just most people are anonymous.

Actually, I didn't really want to meet ICE again because I didn't really enjoy the first time.

Like, being interrogated about why I cheated or whatever wasn't really a fun time. It was interesting to be part of the content, and it was amusing to, to like see what they would do.

Uh, Jay Streetsy met Deepak a year ago, said he tried to scam him. Really? I don't know who Jay Streetsy is.

I don't really care about Deepak. Pak's feelings because I don't know him.

So why would I? I mean, you don't care about my feelings, do you? Because you don't know me. So why would I care about some random Indian guy's feelings? If you, if you can't handle criticism, then you shouldn't be a streamer on the internet. He

said, uh, what did he say?

Who are you to judge me? You don't know me.

Well, I, I know of him and I can judge anyone I want.

Why don't you talk like that when you're in front of people? Because I don't want to escalate the situation.

Plus, they won't give me a chance to speak. They keep yelling, so it was hard to get a word in.

I'm not really a confrontational person.

Plus, I need time to formulate my opinion. Takes me a while to gather my thoughts, come up with an opinion.

If I said this stuff in front of them,

what do you think would have happened? It would have just been annoying. They would have been like, oh my God, Oh my God, you're a narcissist, you don't care about so-and-so's feelings.

No, I don't really care, to be honest. Why would I care? I don't know these people. I only care about what my family thinks, what my girlfriend thinks. I don't really give a shit about what anyone else thinks.

I don't even know these people.

I just watch them as a viewer. I watch them, I have opinions like everyone else does.

You only act like this behind camera? Well, yeah, because no one's interrupting me.

I can say what I want to say. I don't get interrupted. I don't have people yelling at me.

But my— I was rolling my eyes so much yesterday.

It was a very exhausting experience,

but I was kind of expecting it cuz I watched Ice for years now, so I kind of know what he's going to do and say.

It wasn't really surprising.

Yeah, I know all these people like Sam Pepper, Ice, Deepak, they're all scammers and they're not exactly ones to preach from a moral high ground. So I thought it was amusing that they were preaching to me about ethics and morals when they're not any better than me, but I didn't bring it up.

Because I can't be bothered to waste my energy and effort.

It's like having an argument with a wall. It's a waste of time.

I don't know if Deepak's a scammer. It's just what I heard.

ICE was just farming content. Yeah, I know, that's why I don't take them seriously, because it's all like an act.

It's all an act on stage

where nothing actually matters.

You can't really believe anyone on the internet because it's all an act. They're all fake.

To play along with drama. Yeah, I don't like to, so I think it's cringe.

I'll just sit there and I'll appease them and go along with it, nod my head and chuckle, but I'm not going to like confront them in person because I can't be bothered.

Like, do you think Deepak streams—

do you think Deepak streams because he's passionate and he loves streaming? I started streaming back in 2017 because I was lonely and I had no friends, no one to talk to, and I did it for fun, and I still do it for fun. I've been streaming for like 7 years because I enjoy it.

Not because someone gave me a big platform and loads of money.

I really doubt Deepak cares about streaming or enjoys it.

I also use streaming as a way to try and get out of my shell,

try and challenge myself. So my point is

if he's only here for money, then he might as well have taken advantage of like the pity views, cuz he would have gotten loads of donations if he streamed his grief.

I mean, that probably wasn't a very good apology, but that's what I think.

I can't imagine getting upset over that. That's crazy.

There's also cultural differences. Like, obviously India— in India, family is very important. Actually, family is the most important thing in the world in India because it's still a developing country. In the UK, In the UK, we strive to become independent from our families and move away at a young age, and we're not really involved with our families

as an adult. But in India, it's like you got to look after your parents your entire life. The family unit is the most important thing in the world,

so I don't really share that.

Cultural thing. Yeah, it's like most of Asian culture is like family number one, obey your parents, filial piety. Now in the West it's like screw your parents, I'm gonna make my own way in life, fuck you. I told— I said fuck you to my dad when I was teenager and I played World of Warcraft instead of

studying,

and I barely talked to my mum because she's always whinging at me about getting a job.

But because of the cultural difference, I can understand him getting very emotionally triggered about my words. But if you said the same to me, I wouldn't care. Imagine someone said to me, oh, Daniel, it's kind of lame you didn't stream just because your dad died. I'd be like, okay, if that's what you think.

I wouldn't get butthurt over it. Oh, someone on the internet says something mean. Get off the internet then if you don't like it.

Yeah, I get, I get messages now from ISIS viewers saying stuff like, I hope your whole family dies, you scum. And that's, that's multitudes worse than what I said.

So how are you any better of a person?

Because you— they hate me because I said that mean thing, but then they say something even worse. So that makes them worse than me, doesn't it, in their own logic?

But I've been on YouTube and streaming platforms for years. I don't expect people to have common sense.

Like, I thought it was kind of ironic, Ice and Sam saying I'm the psycho, and then they start saying stuff like, let's tie him up, let's tie his hands up and lock him in the closet. I mean, who is the actual psycho?

They're literally saying let's tie him up and then try and make him cry.

Okay,

the hypocrisy is so great that it, it's just baffling.

Oh my God, it's so noisy.

Uh, yeah, when, when Ice phoned me on Instagram and told me about the stuff I said and all I said was sorry, that was because I was kind of scared. I was scared they were going to come track me down or something. I'm glad they didn't find out about that when I was there in the hotel room

because it would have been very awkward.

Maybe you think it's cowardly that I don't say my real opinion in front of people and I just say it when I'm alone, but it's very— it's, for me, it's very difficult to articulate what I want to say when I'm being stared at and having a camera pointed at me.

I can formulate my opinion much better when I'm alone.

Oh, I have to go up there, don't I? Forgot, came here before.

Uh, what else do I have to say? Hmm,

not sure.

I've said a lot of bad things about everyone basically over the last 5 years. I've said much worse about Sam Pepper and the others. I've been watching these people for years, you know. I know who they are, I know their history,

and I like them for some reasons, and I'm aware of the bad flaws, the personality flaws.

He would respect you if you talk like that in front of him. Well, I get very nervous, especially when I'm being yelled at,

because if I, if I say this, I should just say, okay, well then you're a scumbag, and I'd be like, well, okay, that's what you think.

Takes one to know one.

He said I called Deepak a pussy for crying when I didn't. I said imagine crying in your 30s over someone dying. It's not really the same as just calling him a pussy.

It's just in the UK we believe in the concept stiff upper lip. You don't cry, you don't show emotions, you keep it to yourself.

But in Asian countries, it's very different, especially in South Korea where they all start wailing and crying at funerals.

In the UK, no one cries. I went to my dad's funeral, no one cried.

Sorry for his loss and everything,

but I don't really think— I don't really feel like I said something so heinous to be blacklisted from the CX community.

Even Nick White hates me too. Nick White was shit-talking me on

Discord. And Nick White's just like a kid who's got no life experience. He's like 26, he only just turned 26. I'm 34, you should be respecting me as your elder.

I like Nick, it's funny,

but he's hating on me because I said that one thing. Okay, he hates me because I said that, but than he likes ice.

Yeah, the software guy, he's got a YouTube channel, Nick White. He does coding. He was talking shit about me on the, on the ice Discord,

and then they were digging

up. I didn't know, I didn't know you can dig up chat logs on Kick streams because I've said some wild stuff on other people's streams. Like, uh, you know when Sam Pepper went to

some zoo and there was tigers chained up? I said, imagine if there were naked women chained up instead. And then they were screenshotting it and then And I think I did some trolling on Joel's channel or someone else's channel. I said something like, oh, my wife— ex-wife is such a bitch, she divorced me because I cheated on

her. And then they were screenshotting that.

I'm just trolling.

I thought the CX community would understand trolling when they see it, but obviously not.

I mean, my ex-wife is a fucking bitch though, because she cheated on me and I got all the hate and she didn't get any hate. So yeah, she's a fucking bitch.

And she slept with some guy when I was at my dad's funeral, and she was sexting with an Australian sex friend whilst we were dating. But I got all the hate,

not her.

Bad Daniel for cheating, but wife does it and it's okay.

Stupid logic.

Yeah, Chihiro literally got impregnated by a 16-year-old underage boy

when she was like 20. My ex-wife worked at a convenience store when she was 20,

and she fucked some guy who was like 16 or 17, and he impregnated her.

And then the boy's family had to pay for the abortion

because Shahira was too embarrassed to tell her own family. So at least I'm not a pedo.

People don't know the whole story and they're judging me.

And they're hating on me because I laid judgment on Deepak whilst they're laying judgment on me. Can't you— isn't that hypocrite— hypocritic— hypocritical?

So the psychological reason why IRL streamers all shit on each other is because by smearing other people, you make them look worse than you look, and it makes you look better. It happens in politics.

If you smear your opponent,

you focus the hate mob on them instead of you. It's the Asian old game that humans have played for millennia. So look at this guy, he's terrible, and then the hate mob goes and hates on them.

Humans are dumb. They don't see it happening right in front of their eyes.

And if you don't play the game, you get screwed. If you're not good at playing the game, you get screwed.

Some people are very good at playing the game. That's how they get into places of power.

Because they're good at screwing everyone else over.

What's the plan for today? I'm just walking back to my home.

School is so boring now. Level 2 of Thai language is definitely boring. I feel like I'm falling asleep.

So I don't really feel like I'd meet Iceland to do content, cuz I can tell what the content's going to be. It's going to be like, oh, what can we do to make Daniel cry? Or what can we do to make Daniel do something that's embarrassing?

Will Daniel kiss Deepak's feet for $5,000?

That's kind of content I can imagine they would try and get me

do. And then they'll just keep complaining, saying I don't talk. It's like high school all over again. You know, when I was at school, I used to get bullied all the time cuz I didn't talk. The other kids would say stuff like, Daniel's boring, he never talks. Daniel, why don't you talk? Daniel's a mute. Even the teachers

used to bully me. Like, I'd be sitting in class and then the teacher suddenly says, I wonder what's going on in Daniel's brain cuz he never talks. I bet he's got some interesting ideas. And then the whole class laughed. My entire childhood was me being bullied cuz I don't talk, so it was kind of like

traumatic in a way that it kind of brought childhood memories, being pressured to talk. I do talk, but only when I feel comfortable, not when I'm like being pressured into talking.

I always felt insecure because I don't talk a lot in social situations and people think it's weird and they talk shit about me. I was staying in a guest house and I was just hanging out with the other people at the guest house and this stupid American guy says

Hold on.

This stupid American guy in the guest house starts talking shit about me in front of my face, saying, Daniel, you're so weird, man. You got to talk.

Maybe if you gave me a chance to say something, I would talk.

Getting pressured into talking is so frustrating.

Like, I understand if I'm gonna be on stream, I gotta talk,

and I do talk when I stream. I'm talking now. But if I'm meeting someone, I feel nervous,

and we need a topic to talk about. If someone just says talk, I don't know what to talk about. Like, talk about what? Give me something to say. Like, ask me a question.

Yeah, I didn't like that. It made me feel like I was, I was back at school again. The kids were surrounding me and saying stuff like, talk, talk, do this, do that. You know what it felt like? It's like being in a classroom and the teacher

leaves and then the bullies start surrounding the quiet kid. That's what it literally felt like.

Imagine if Sam Pepper was there, would have been even worse. You can tell Sam Pepper's a massive bully as well. I reckon Sam Pepper

was probably a bully. I don't know. No, he said he was a very small kid, didn't he? Uh, maybe he got bullied. I don't know, actually.

I was surprised Sam Pepper was making fun of my accent. The first thing he says was, why do I talk like this? Why do I talk posh?

This is not posh. This is just standard English. This is like, what is it? Received pronunciation. I didn't grow up in a working-class family, so obviously I don't speak like a working-class family. I will go up.

I don't speak posh, I speak properly.

It's called trying to pronounce words properly. Well, I try my best to.

This is not posh.

I talk the way my dad talks.

With a mixture of my mom's Chinese accent.

I don't know why he, he pressed me so much about my, my accent sounding posh. It was kind of weird.

Why do I talk like the way I talk? Because this was how I was raised.

All my family talks like this. My sister talks like this, my cousins talk like this, my uncles and aunties talk like this.

Why do you think I talk like this? What a dumb question.

Did you meet Sam? No, I didn't, but I nearly bumped into him once.

Once. I nearly bumped into him at Nana Plaza. Yeah, my mom's from Malaysia, but she's genetically ethnically Chinese. My mom doesn't have 1% of Malaysian blood.

My mom is like 2/3 Han Chinese and 1/3 Vietnamese,

but her grandparents migrated to Malaysia

probably southern China, probably in the early 1900s— no, the late 1800s. My mum's grandparents.

People from Kent, there's a wide variety of different accents, not just one accent.

So the, the fact he was so weirded out by my accent kind of tells you he never had friends who spoke like me.

Or maybe he's like being racist because I look Asian, so So he was kind of shocked that I have a British accent when I look Asian.

So it's like unknowingly being racist. British people are like that. A lot of them don't accept that I'm British because I look Asian. They're like, no, where are you really from? They say, oh, where are you from? And I say, I'm from, I'm from Kent, I'm from Maidstone. And then they say, no, you're not, where are you

really from, mate?

And I say, yep, I was born in Maidstone.

A lot of British people are like that. That's why I left Britain, because it's shit. It's full of racists. I can't go out the door without British people telling me to go back to China.

If you're Asian and you live in the UK, it's shit.

White British people are constantly mocking you, like making fun of your eyes.

Calling you ching chong, saying, oh, your dad works in Chinese restaurant, and then they shout ni hao at you and tell you to go back to China. That's my experience growing up in, in the countryside in Kent, like constant racial abuse.

That's why I came to Thailand, because I look, I look kind of Thai. People here think I'm Thai. It's nice.

I feel like it happens less in America because America, America is way more multicultural than the UK. London is very multicultural, but outside of London in the countryside, it's like 90% white, maybe some Indians. But East Asians, like Chinese Asians, aren't very common outside of London. The only place you see them is at the Chinese restaurant or

Wing Yip in Croydon.

I've never seen another Chinese person where I'm from.

I was the only Asian kid in school.

It was 99% white.

Oh yeah, my girlfriend's ex-boyfriend tracks me down once and threatened to kill me if I don't get in his car. And he said he was going to take me back to the airport and send me back to the UK. And then I ran away and he ran back into his car and he drove off. So that was

kind of funny, as if I'm gonna leave the country because he doesn't want me here. Who the hell are you?

Been smashing your girlfriend for a year now. What are you gonna do about it, bitch?

But you got to be careful in Thailand because I heard that the number one

crime in Thailand— no, the number one cause of murder in Thailand is crimes of passion.

So that's like revenge killing because someone stole your girlfriend or something. That's one of the number one reasons people get murdered here. They're very emotionally insecure and they don't have control of their emotions.

I imagine killing someone and going to jail Because your heart got broken. Hey, move on, grow up. You got dumped, take the L and move on.

Imagine wasting your whole life in jail because your girl dumped you.

You're way more toxic now than on Ice's stream, fake introvert. Because I'm alone and I'm feeling confident and comfortable.

I didn't really feel very comfortable with Ice pointing the camera at me with 10,000 people watching, with my, my face being shone with a flashlight or a lamp and being interrogated in this hotel room. It was pretty intimidating, not gonna lie. His girlfriend was a bit scary too, Kimberly, and she looked at me with these piercing cold

eyes. And she was like, is it true? Do you disrespect women?

The stare she gave me was kind of chilling.

Is it true, Daniel? I was very scared. I felt like I was being scolded by my mum or something, like a teacher scolding me.

I felt like I was a school kid. Teachers took me to detention and they were telling me off. Daniel, why did you cheat? Why would you do that? You know it's bad. Then why did you do it? Felt like I was in school again.

And the whole why do you love your girlfriend question is the dumbest question ever. There's no way to answer it. Because if you say, oh, I love my girlfriend's body, then it's like, oh, you already love her body, what about when she gets old? And then you say, oh, I love my girlfriend's personality, and then they say,

oh, that's just superficial. So what am I supposed to say? So I love her because— I don't know. There's literally no way to answer that question. Elvis the Alien interviewed me as well 4 years ago, and he asked me the same question.

He asked me, why do you love your wife? And I said, I don't know.

It's like asking someone, why do you like chocolate?

The love question is so dumb. I hate it. And no matter what you answer the question with, they'll just say, aha, got you, you don't really love her.

How do you know what I feel? You don't know anything. You don't know what I feel in my heart?

Who are you to say what I love or don't love?

So I say, okay, I love this thing or this person.

You can't just say no, you don't.

So it's like a trick question. Very frustrating.

Talk like this on stream and he will love it. Yeah, it would have been more content if I just spoke like this, but,

uh, I can't.

I can't speak my mind when I'm

in that kind of situation.

Oh, the Thailand Elite Visa. What's that? I want that long-term visa. Thailand Elite. I might get that next year. It's like, uh, $15,000 US. You get a 5-year visa.

Yeah, when there's people around, I definitely get brain freeze, like stage fright. You know stage fright? That's what happens when I'm in a social situation. My mind literally goes blank. I'm like, uh, um, and then when I go back home by myself, then I can process what just happened

and I can formulate an opinion.

Yeah, I still have a tax bill, but I'll be able to pay that in monthly installments, and I might ask my mum for some money.

Oh yeah, Sam Pepper said I'm a trust fund baby. My mum doesn't give me any money, but I might have to ask her for some money next year.

She might give me some money, I don't know,

because I'll be like, Mum, if you don't give me some money, I'm coming home. And you know how great we get along. My mum will be like, just take the money and stay there, don't come back. They're gonna let me cross.

No, my mom doesn't give me any money.

Uh, my dad died and I lost— I got an inheritance payout when my dad died for £20,000, but I lost half of it investing on the stock market.

So I don't— unfortunately, I don't get money from my parents.

Oh my God, I feel so much better getting that off my chest. It was like eating away at me.

Being able to get that off my chest feels great.

That's, that's one of the reasons I like streaming, because I can talk and express myself and say stuff that I wouldn't share with other people. Like, I would never say this to my, my family or people I know.

I use streaming as a way to vent, like self-therapy. Oh, I have arrived at the market.

My girlfriend was funny when I came back from Isis Hotel.

My girlfriend wanted to talk to Ice on the phone. My girlfriend wanted to tell off Ice

because she was upset. She was watching the stream and she got upset. I was thinking, imagine if I— if my girlfriend confronts Ice Poseidon live. That would be hilarious because my girlfriend has no fear of, um, people.

And she's a very emotional person, so I think she would start yelling at ICE in very broken English and it would be hilarious.

But I didn't really— I didn't really want her to.

I thought it'd be kind of funny, my girlfriend's sticking up for me. Hiding behind my girlfriend.

It's just like my mum. Did you bully Daniel? It used to happen when I was a kid. I'd get bullied at school, my mum would take me to school and confront the kid that bullied me and tell the kid off. There was this kid called another Daniel. His name was Daniel Macken or something, and he was the

school bully. And he used to bully me.

So my mom talked to his parents, made him come over to my house,

and she told him off and made him be my friend. And then we played together. It was really awkward.

My mom's funny.

Sam asked Ice why he loved Kim.

Ice didn't have an answer to. Yeah, exactly, it's an impossible to answer question.

You like them because they're attractive

and the personality is tolerable. First you find physical attraction to the girl, because if there's no physical attraction, you wouldn't talk to them, would you? So there needs to be physical attraction in the first place for any kind of emotional feelings to develop. So first is the physical attraction, and then you get to know each other, and

then you realize, oh yeah, I feel comfortable around this person. I like how they make me feel. We have things in common. They understand me. And then you do things together, like go on dates, have life experiences together. Maybe you lose a loved one together, like a pet or a family member,

and you share those experiences and create a bond. All of that together is what we call love,

with some chemicals like oxytocin.

The oxytocin binds it all together.

So that's my answer why I love someone.

It's a combination. It's not only one thing. It's a combination of physical attraction,

bonding through experiences,

sharing things in common, and enjoying each other's company. That's why you love someone.

You can't just say, oh, because of X, Y, and Z. It's like a combination of things fused together by oxytocin

and positive brain loops, like neurons that feel good in your brain when you associate it with that person.

Love is a very complex emotion involving chemicals and science.

It's a hard question to answer when you're put on the spot.

He only asks you to suppress. Yeah, I know. I watch Ice for like 6 years now. I know what he does. He asks stupid questions to put people on the spot, uh, because it's funny.

Like, would you fuck Kim if you could? That is another trick question that I always see him ask. So if you answer honestly, yes, I would fuck Kim, then you look like a creep and a weirdo. But if you say no, I wouldn't fuck Kim, then you look like a liar, because most men would fuck Kim if

they could. Let's not be fake here. Kim is an attractive lady. If you were given the opportunity to and she was willing and it was like no consequences, why would you not? Like, if you say no, then he's like, oh, you're lying,

you're a liar because you said no when you obviously would. So you can't answer that question well either.

So it's like very exhausting to talk to Ice because he's always trying to, trying to do like gotcha moments. Uh, gotcha. Hypothetical questions like, would you let me fuck your girlfriend for $10,000?

He's always asking that stuff. I know.

And you feel like an idiot trying to answer

it and trying to avoid the wrong answer.

It's very, uh, frustrating.

But you know, it's funny. I get it, I get it.

As a viewer myself, it is funny watching— it's funny watching the person being asked the question squirm. It is kind of funny.

I need a drink.

I might go to the market.

Oh man, I've been yelling for like an hour over this traffic.

One hour of yelling over Bangkok traffic. Oh my God. Problem is you didn't say what you really think. Yeah, people don't like me because in person I'm very polite and quiet, and I seem— I seem— even Kim said it herself. She said, you seem very innocent and shy. And I am. I am really shy and nervous, and

that comes across as being innocent. But then on the internet, I don't feel shy. Why would I feel shy? Shy about what? I'm alone.

Turkish girl said it as well after I smashed her in my hotel room. She said Daniel is very sweet and kind in real life, but on the internet he's a monster. That's basically true.

I think if me and Ice were going to collab, I think an interesting challenge for Ice would be to try and

bring out the monster in me in real life in confrontational situations instead of doing it on the internet only. Like, that would be interesting because I, I have like a massive concrete barrier wall that I put up to prevent the monster from getting out in real life, but on the internet, I let it run rampant and it

gets me in trouble, as most of you know.

I think it'll be a good challenge.

Let's see if we can release Daniel's inner monster in real life.

But I don't want to because I don't want to get punched in the face, you know. Self-preservation is priority.

My number one priority in life is self-preservation.

So if that makes me look like a coward or spineless, then so be it.

But I don't want to get punched in the face because, I mean, look at me, I'm like a stick.

I can't even beat up a girl.

Someone's strange.

Shocked when I wrote on Joel's chat, what is the point of Joel, he never talks. That's funny. It's funny because I didn't talk much and then I'm bashing Joel for not talking. My sense of humor is like hypocrisy.

Hypocritical humor I find pretty funny.

Talk shit and you should expect physical confrontation. Yeah, that's why I don't do it in person, I do it online.

Still don't really feel like I said anything that bad.

Didn't you roleplay as a psycho on YouTube and had drama? Over your ex-wife? Yep, because it got good views.

Why do you think Ice instigates and provokes drama on stream? Because it gets views. Everything is for views.

Everything everyone does is for views and attention, and to, to get you to click and to give us your time is the goal of anyone making anything on the internet. Uh, how do I go inside?

So yeah, I milked my failed marriage into Japan for years because it got good views, and now I don't do it anymore because it doesn't get views.

Oh my God, I'm tired.

Yeah, I don't really feel like he cares about anything apart from what's good content. I really don't think he cares about what is

Uh, the pack's gonna leave because he then hit