[2025-03-06] how i plan to get Sunny back [OzssmV4EsLw]

Um, a testing.

Um, a testing.

Wow, my hair looks good today.

Why does it look kind of, uh, not very

contrasty?

Got lots of updates, uh, none,

none about Sunny though, unfortunately,

but I got boss updates.

Internet,

internet feels

a bit slow today. I don't know why.

Internet slow today.

I don't know why.

It was kind of awkward at work because I

arrived at work. I still didn't get a

reply from my boss, but I go

there and then I see his car outside. So I

thought, okay, he's here now. What do I

do? Do I confront him about why he didn't

reply? So I see him. I said, good morning.

And then I was like, I tried to contact

you, but I couldn't get a reply. He just

said, oh, I was off.

That's it. Okay. Oh, how about

reply to the message when you're not off

anymore? I don't know. So then

I asked the question in person and then he

just— I don't know. It seemed kind of

awkward. Like the energy was different.

Did you get your present, Daddy Daniel?

If not, it should be waiting for you at

your front door. I hope you enjoy bouncing

on it. Yeah, it's in the bin because it's

just stupid. If you're gonna

get me one, at least get me one I could

actually use. The thing's like the size of

a person's arm. There's no way that's

going in. It's massive.

It's like this big

and it's like that thick.

I thought, okay, maybe I'll try it if it's

like a normal one. No, I put it in the

bin. Get demonetized if I show it.

Yeah, so I don't know, like, um,

he didn't ignore me because he did come

over and he talked to me

a bit. Well, he wasn't— he brought over

this other guy And then the 3 of us were

talking and he was explaining to the other

guy what I was doing. And then this new

person came and then he was like using me,

my car as an example. So I don't know, I

feel like now that I'm not really new

anymore, I'm not getting special

treatment. Maybe that's just how it goes.

Maybe he thinks, oh, he's been doing it 2

weeks now. I don't need to handhold him

It just seemed like he was way more

attentive when I began the job.

Just kind of strange. Maybe he's like ill

or something. I don't know. But I'm

not in trouble or anything. I just— I took

my parcels like usual, went off, but I

only had about 50. So it's not really the

80 that I was hoping for.

And I talked to this other guy and he was

like really friendly and really chatty

because he's, he's coming back. He used to

work here, then he quit to join another

company, then the new company wasn't very

good, so he came back. He was really

talkative. He said, well, why don't you

get a van? I said, I'm a bit Not very

confident about driving a van.

Scared I'll get stuck.

He was nice.

No, I wouldn't get a van. Well, he said

you can get a van that's about the same

size as my car, I guess,

but then what's the point?

I like my car. Oh, I have

good news. I managed to reduce my monthly

expenses down by maybe a

couple hundred now because I cancelled my

car insurance. I was paying £120 a month

for car insurance. I just phoned up Tesco

and I cancelled it. So I got a new car

insurance. This time it was a one-time

payment, annual payment, not a monthly. I

didn't know if you do monthly payments,

it's more expensive than if you just do a

one-time payment. So I made a new contract

with a different company and I chose

annual payment and they quoted me £820,

which is like £65 a month compared to

£120 I was paying before. So I just paid

that with my credit card and my Amazon

card. So I should be getting half a

percent of cashback. So that's like £4. I

should get £4 Amazon rewards. So I saved

myself £650 by switching,

and I got £4 cashback. So I don't have

to pay car insurance anymore until a year,

which is good.

But I still don't have my Doogee VMAX Plus

refund, which is a bit weird. Yeah,

it's full coverage comprehensive,

and I'm taking my oil heater back as well

because I don't use it anymore because

it's not very cold. So I've packed that

up. That should give me another £82

refund. Maybe I'll refund the feet warmer.

I never use that now. I bought this stuff

because it was cold. Now it's not cold

anymore.

So what I've learned is don't pay for

things in monthly installments because you

get ripped off. So my monthly expenses

are now about £1,400.

Let me quickly calculate. £900 rent,

£100 council tax. My,

my electric bill for 20 days came to £170.

So for a whole month it might be like

£200. That's quite expensive.

£120 for food. And then you got internet,

water, monitor, and live view.

And then phone bill, free trade, Amazon.

That's like 28. It's like £1,450

now, my monthly expenses. I mean, it's a

lot better than £1,800, isn't it?

It's a stupid live view solo. It cost

me £20 a month, and I messaged Amazon

asking if I pay upfront, would it be

cheaper, and they said no. So there's not

really any point paying it all off at once

if it's not going to make it cheaper.

So I don't know what else I can get

reduced. Rent, can't really do anything

about that. Council tax, I've already got

the 25% discount. Food, I could buy

less food. Now I've got Huel.

Internet, I mean, that's already pretty

cheap, £25. Phone bill

is already cheapest plan. I could get rid

of Amazon Prime, it's £9,

and Freetrade, but that's only like £15.

Yeah, I don't really see what else I can

do, to be honest. You don't have to put

all 12 and a half inches in at once. You

could slowly ease it in halfway and work

your way up to handling the whole thing.

It's just like having a big poo. Yeah,

but it's really thick. It's thicker than

my arm. It's like that thick.

I'm gonna have a gaping hole if I did

that. I'll just shit myself all the time

because I have a gaping hole. No thanks.

There's no way that's stretching. It's

like the size of a fist.

Can you send something useful now I don't

have Sunny? I need like big butt love doll

torso.

I don't really know what else I can do

with the dildo.

Um, that's just kind of useless.

What's the plan on getting her back? Um,

basically just stream about her every

single day until she unblocks me. It's

definitely gonna work. She can't ignore

me forever.

I'm going to manifest her back. So

basically, I'm just going to focus on work

and reducing expenses and try to

forget about her and stop chasing,

because the more you chase, the more they

run. So if I stop chasing, then she'll

start chasing. I'm going to manifest her

back using the power of twin flames.

So basically, just ignore her.

My mum said she and my sister are gonna

come and see me, probably on the 17th,

for my birthday. Maybe we go to a

restaurant, Chinese restaurant, just like

we always used to when my dad was alive.

Every time it's my birthday, we'd always

go to a Chinese restaurant. You know,

with the spinny thing in the middle of the

table, you get the seaweed and jasmine

tea. We used to go to one in Maidstone

called Tang's Imperial, and then they shut

down. Going to a Chinese restaurant was

the only time my dad would ever eat rice.

My dad would never eat rice or Asian food

at home. He would only eat roast potatoes,

boiled broccoli, and some meat like roast

pork, roast beef with some gravy. He'd

have the same dinner every single day.

Maybe some lasagna, shepherd's pie.

He would only eat the same 3 or 4 meals.

He would never eat junk food or

non-English food apart from, I guess,

lasagna is Italian, but he would never eat

rice or noodles. Even if my mum made some,

like a bowl of fried rice or some stir-fry

noodles, he would never eat it. I just

don't get it. He would eat it at the

Chinese restaurant, but I never saw him

eat my mum's non-English cooking. I just

don't understand it. It was weird seeing

him eat rice because you never see him do

it. But when we went to the Chinese

restaurant for someone's birthday, yeah,

he would always get the lemon chicken as

well. Lemon chicken with rice.

Every single time he'd get the same thing.

It's like he grew up on that World War II

potatoes and cabbage diet and

then never wanted to try other stuff.

Imagine my dad eating Indian food or even

sushi. I remember I took my family to

yakiniku in Malaysia. My dad had never

seen something like that. I didn't think

he liked it. He would not want to eat

kimchi or the pickled stuff. He was like,

why do we have to cook the food ourselves

when we're paying for it?

Yeah, it just goes to show.

I mean, he ate very healthily and he still

died young. So just enjoy food.

You're going to die for something. You

might as well enjoy life whilst you're

alive. Just don't overdo it, you know?

Not— I mean, it's okay to have a

McDonald's once or twice a month. Just

don't have it every single day. No one

died of having a McDonald's once a month,

did they?

Yeah, so maybe we go to a Chinese

restaurant, uh, maybe the one that Sunny

recommended.

I'll roll up at Sunny's house with my

whole family. Where's my laundry, Sunny?

Where's my son's laundry? My mum banging

on the door. That would be funny.

Now I want to take them to the beach, and

I saw a nice castle. There's a

cool-looking castle at the coastline, and

also there's the national park.

Where else? Where else could I take— I

don't want to go to Plymouth.

Crackington Haven. What about that?

What's the famous beaches in Devon?

Summerleaze Beach. It's got 3,700

ratings. Where's like

sandy beaches?

Efford Down Park.

Widemouth Bay.

Get some fish and chips. Did your boss

reply? No, but then he was at the depot

and I talked to him and he just said, oh,

I was off. And I was like, oh, okay.

And then I asked him my question.

Well, you're not off now, are you? He's at

work. He was off yesterday. Why doesn't he

reply when he's not off anymore? I don't

get it. It's like, oh, I got a message

when I was off, which means I'm not going

to reply. But now I'm back to work, I

guess I won't reply because I got the

message when I was off. It's just a bit

I mean, how was I supposed to know he was

off? I didn't know he was off.

So it felt a bit weird, but I saw my

parcels started loading. And,

um, he was chatting to some guy and

then he brought the guy over to me and

then they were chatting with me. So, I

mean, at least he's not ignoring me.

I did message him at work hours on the

first day, but then the second day, yeah,

it was 7 PM. Okay, a bit weird.

Who am I going to the beach with? I just

said my family coming for my birthday.

They said where could they stay. I said

the place I stayed in before moving in was

pretty good and it's only a 20-30 minute

drive away, but I don't know if they want

to stay in an annexed building joined to

someone else's house, but they're very

friendly, the couple there. Very nice

English couple. They give you fresh milk

in the fridge when you arrive.

They can sleep in the bed me and Sunny did

it in. It will be an experience.

Who donated a fiver?

No one. What are you talking about?

No, my mum said just her and my sister. I

don't think Dave Gibson would come. It's a

long drive, it's like 5 hours. He'd be

cramped in the car.

I don't see a dono from Dave Gibson. What

Oh yeah, I own my car now. I got a message

from the car finance company, kind of

weirdly worded. Where is it?

They said— oh,

here it is. They said, following your

recent inquiry, we are pleased to confirm

all payments have been received in respect

to our agreement and we hold no further

interest in the vehicle. I just

thought that sounds kind of weird. It's

like, oh, we don't care about your car

anymore. We're not interested in your car

anymore. Makes me feel like,

why? It's a good car. Why aren't you

interested in it? I thought maybe it means

like we don't want any interest, like

money interest as in payments. But then

I realized, oh wait, They're saying it as

in, we're not interested in— we don't care

anymore because we got the money,

basically. So yeah, my car now, I can do

what I want. I can paint it yellow, put

stripes on it. I could go and sell it.

It feels kind of nice.

But I renewed my insurance policy with a

cheaper one, so I guess I'll keep it.

Because, you know, when you pay monthly,

the good thing about paying monthly is

that you can just cancel the policy and

then you don't have to pay anymore. But

when you pay all up front, I don't know if

I can get a partial refund. Can I get like

10 months worth of the policy as a refund

if I change my mind in 2 months? But if I

get a new car, I can just switch the

vehicle on the policy, can't I?

I don't have to get a new policy. Why

didn't you just buy it outright? What,

the car? Because at the time I didn't have

any money and I didn't think to ask my mum

to lend me more money because I already

owed her a lot of money. So I didn't

really want to ask, can I have more money

to get a car? Trust me, I'll be able to

make lots of money with it. I wanted to do

it on my own, you know, go there, sort it

out, come back, not have to ask my mum to

help. But, you know, at the end of the

day, I saved £3,200 by

getting my mum to help.

It's just not worth it. I got ripped off

so much with that deal. So I'm going to

pay probably total £15K for the car when

It's only worth— it was— the car value was

like 13k when I bought it.

I can probably get the same car for like

10, 11k now. Did Sunny

unblock you? Let me check.

Nope. Messaging Sunny every day

until she unblocks me.

How could she be so cruel?

Yeah, that's why the debt thing says I owe

my mom $19,000.

That means my total debt's gone up because

I paid for the car insurance.

£26,000 minus my stocks,

£21,000. But paying up for around £820

is going to save me £700 over the next—

over this year.

Definitely worth it.

Yeah, a bit disappointing recently. I've

only been delivering about— well,

yesterday I delivered 108 parcels,

which might be why today there were much

less, only 50-ish.

He said tomorrow I should be getting an

email saying how much I've made so far.

So that should be interesting to find

out how much I've actually made up until

Also, I, I've cancelled my home insurance,

so that's £21 a month gone off my

expenses. And I blocked Tesco's

and I blocked the car payments. Even

though it's mine anyway, just in case.

And what are my other payments? I've got

to pay rent in 2 days.

Yep, it's all coming together just as I

And then tomorrow I go to the post office

during my shift to drop off my heater.

Hopefully they can print off the label in

the shop. I think they can. That's what it

said. I get rid of my heater, get £83

back. See,

maybe I didn't make loads of money like I

wanted to today, but I managed using some

genius brainpower. I managed to lower my

expenses, save a lot of money. Sometimes

making money isn't about working and

bringing in more money. It's about

thinking, what can you do to lower your

expenses? What can you cancel? What can

you switch to a cheaper plan? There's a

lot of things you can do, actually.

I think I can actually be eligible to not

pay council tax if I can prove I don't

make enough money, but That might be a bit

tricky.

How much did I make today? Well, I

delivered 50 parcels, so that should be

about £50. I don't know really,

because I'm getting £10 bonus every day

for doing this route. So it's like 50

parcels times average of, I don't know,

84p per parcel. It's like £42 plus my £10

bonus, should be like £52. It's not

great. I would like to make £75 a day

minimum, but maybe— I mean, yesterday I

delivered 108, so that

should be like £100 I made yesterday. I'm

just hoping it averages to around £60 or

£70 a day.

And also, I think I can start working

Saturdays again.

It's also still very slow waiting for

him to get me the double shifts because

he's still— I don't know what's really

going on. He said something like there's a

contractor, he owns a bunch

of shifts, but he's leaving. When he

leaves, he'll get all the shifts back and

then he can distribute them to us.

Drivers. So I don't know what's going on

there. I don't know when that's gonna

happen because then I'll get the route

which is where Sunny lives. That's gonna

be so weird. What if I deliver to Sunny's

house? I'm like, knock knock knock.

God, it's gonna be so weird. I really hope

I don't have to deliver to Sunny's house.

But he wants to give me the route in the

town where Sunny lives because it's where

I live too, nearby.

Sunny ain't getting her parcels now.

Uh, you know what is scaring me? The

thought of coincidentally seeing Sunny

outside and she's with another guy.

God, that would kill me.

Oh God,

it would be very unusual, unlikely.

Because she's not going to be walking

around residential areas unless she's

like— unless the guy she's seeing lives

there and then she's like walking around.

Or if I go to the Tesco and she's there

with another guy, it would be horrible.

See, this is the problem. It's like the

problem if you date someone from your work

or your school or your roommate

because you break up and then they start

seeing other people and then you might see

that. It must be horrible.

But what can you do? You can't do anything

if they want to be with a new person.

Because now I'm like, When I go to the

Tesco or I'm in that town and I see a

very pale ginger-haired woman, I have a

quick look and I'm like, is that Sunny?

No, Sunny wouldn't be outside. She'd

either be at work or she'd be in her house

or she'd be in the park with her mum with

the dog. I just don't really picture her

having a stroll down to the supermarket.

Just hope Just

have to hope that doesn't happen.

Usually if I break up with a girl, I won't

stay in the same area.

It's kind of why I don't date local girls.

Don't poop in your own backyard, as the

But I really like my job.

I never had a job where I actually liked

it. It's just so casual

and relaxed.

And the views are so good when I'm driving

around, get all these views, especially

when you go up some of these houses that

are on hills. And then I just stop and I

have a look around at the view.

Is this breakup worse than Mila?

Well, I didn't hang around in Rotterdam

after I broke up with Mila, so I was able

to move on quickly. But now I'm like stuck

here. I put a

lot of— made a lot of commitments to be

here.

I put a lot of work into being here as

well, like looking for a place to rent,

looking for a job.

Isn't there the same delivery job back in

Kent? Yeah, maybe they have the same

company there. And they would just send me

to like the villagers to deliver.

But the driving in Kent, even around

Harrietsham, the roads are just so much

more congested and busier. A lot of

police, so many police going up and down.

I really hate the police now. They suck.

It's like they don't actually prevent or

stop real crime, and then they just pull

you over and give you a £100 fine and

points for the dumbest thing ever. But

then, you know, people snatching phones

and stabbings, all that— oh, they don't do

anything about that. Pull over the guy who

just changed lanes with without

indicating. Oh no,

now I hate seeing the police. Now I've

got to be careful for the next 3 years to

not get any more points.

It's not the money that I'm upset about is

the points, because you get 12 points,

you get your license taken away. 3 points,

that's 25% of the way.

Bit harsh, isn't it?

I think 1 point should have been like a

nice warning.

3 points is so harsh. I didn't do it— it

wasn't even that dangerous.

Well, that's not going to happen here, is

it? There's no crazy 5, 6-lane roads here.

So I wouldn't really want to do much. I

don't want to do delivery work in Kent.

If I was gonna do delivery work, here is

really good.

But then if I go home, I wouldn't need to

do that much work because I wouldn't have

to pay rent anymore.

Hmm, pros and cons, isn't it?

But right now I do like working. I like

showing up, getting my parcels. It's

something to do, isn't it? Rather than

just sit at home. I'd hate it if I was

just at home all day. I'd go crazy, I

think. I think it's nice to do some work,

get a bit tired, come home, relax.

How do I like living alone?

It's kind of boring, to be honest, but

nothing gets in your way. Like, you got

stuff to do, you need to get things done.

Nothing is getting in your way.

Everything just flows smoothly. You want

food, just get it. You want to stream,

just do it. You don't have to worry about

anyone being here, any guests downstairs.

Basically, my house, its only function

is to serve my body. Ulla is a drunk

£27. She wants one bottle of Casillero del

Diablo Chardonnay. I mean,

£20, £25 for delivering one bottle of

wine. Why does it

always happen when I'm streaming though?

She only drinks late.

40 miles away. God, it's so far away now.

It's like up towards Tiverton where I used

to live.

No, I can't do that anymore.

Yeah, so the house only serves to— its

only purpose is to serve my body so

I can sleep, I can eat, I can bathe,

and I can do my online stuff.

It's like a pit stop, basically.

So that I'm ready and able to go out and

do my job.

And it's nice not having stuff getting in

the way. So everything you need to do

needs to get done, you just do it.

So that is one pro. But then the con is it

is lonely and boring.

Maybe I get a pet and get a dog. I get a

puppy. Why not? Who's going to stop me?

No, but things I miss about my mum's

house, obviously Pushkin. I miss—

it just feels bigger and open, you know,

like the conservatory is massive,

great 360 views almost. You go down, you

sit on the sofa, everything's like spread

out, I've got the TV. Got the big kitchen.

Everything's just bigger. You got nice

views from upstairs, my bedroom, from the

windows. It feels a bit claustrophobic

here, to be honest, because there's no

windows apart from when you go into the

conservatory. Yeah, I've got no window

there, no window there.

I would have to go into the conservatory

to see outside.

And then 80% of the time I'm in the house,

I'm in this little corner at my

computer desk. I don't really know how you

fix that. I thought I'd put my desk and

stuff upstairs, then I can see the view

out the window, but then the room's really

small. Yeah, I do miss my

house layout at home. I miss Pushkin.

I guess it is— it was kind of nice,

people coming over, like my sister coming

over, Dave Gibson

coming over. At first I didn't

really like it when he came over, but then

I didn't mind anymore, and then I thought,

that's actually kind of nice.

It's just not fair. Like, my mum treats

people badly all the time,

but she doesn't get blocked and ghosted.

But when I do it, I get dumped and

blocked.

I thought Sunny of all people would

understand how sometimes when you get

emotional you say things that you wish you

didn't say or that were too mean.

So it's okay when she does it, but when I

do it, I get blocked and dumped.

It's blocked me for like a week now.

It's probably been about a week.

Oh well, just focus on tomorrow.

Go to work, come home, go to work,

pay off debt.

Yeah, I feel like last time we fought,

she blocked me and then unblocked me, and

I blocked her and unblocked her. It all

happened within a day or two.

So now it's been over a week. The longer

it goes on, the less likely it is to

reverse, because she's probably like

made the decision now to stick with the

Blocking. We've never gone so long without

talking, have we?

Usually it was like a few days at most.

There was one time I didn't text her for

like 9 days. And then when we started

texting again, it was a fight.

I think that was before Christmas.

This time it really does feel final.

Way more than last time. Last time was so

Last time was like way more fierce and

violent, but it didn't last long. This

time it felt way less violent, but it's

spread over a longer amount of time.

Like last time she said I'm the shittiest

boyfriend ever, and then I did the stream

raging at her. And then

she was like texting me in the middle of

the night, and then I ignored her

thinking, I'm done with you. And then she

sent me that long text, like the long

breakup text. I think it was a day after.

Was it?

Yeah,

I remember doing the stream and then she

texted me at night and I ignored her. And

then I went to work the other day.

It was, it was at Every, wasn't it? And I

hated it. It took me like 8 hours to

finish. And then I came home, did the

stream, and then she sent me that long

message and I was like, fuck you,

saying that thing about going on a date.

And then I blocked her and then I ended

the stream like 3 AM and then unblocked

her and then I phoned her. But at least at

that time she was answering my phone

calls. Now she didn't, and she blocked my

second number too. So it all

happened within a few days, and this time

it's like over a week because we had the

fight on Sunday.

I'm still so shocked. It was

23rd of Sunday. Wasn't it?

Yeah, it was not last— it was Sunday

before last Sunday.

It's gonna be 2 weeks in a few

days, and then it's really over, isn't it?

Because then she's probably thinking, oh,

thank God I decided not to text him again.

Now I feel so much better.

Don't even know what I saw in him in the

first place. That's what she's gonna start

thinking. And then it's over.

Women have that point where they're either

madly in love with you or something

happens to make the love go away, and then

they just move on, don't they? And then

they're like, oh, so much better without

And then after you get to that point,

there's no coming back. Like with Chihiro,

once they move on, it's over.

She's high energy? I really would not

describe her as high energy. She's in bed

half the day and then she wakes up and

then she just kind of, I don't know,

plays video games.

She sleeps so much and then she'll have an

afternoon nap for like 5 hours and then

wake up at 10 or 11 PM.

I can't believe it. It just happened so

fast. One minute I was streaming, and then

all this— she was sending me all these

messages about her mum, and I was trying

my best to send the right responses, and

then it all just blew up in my face.

I just can't believe it's just— it was

like so quick.

I'm just still so shocked.

I'm just so shocked she was able to make

that decision so easily.

Maybe I made it easy for her by my actions

and what I said. It's like it would have

been harder for her to make that decision

if maybe I wasn't So horrible on stream.

Maybe she's thinking, I'm glad Daniel made

it so easy to break up with him.

And sometimes it's hard breaking up with

someone, but then you have a reason, like

a good reason to, and then you feel like,

oh, thank God I broke up with them.

Like, when I was with Fasta,

I just couldn't really think of a good

reason to break up with her. But then

certain things would happen and I'd be

like, okay, I'm so done, it's over.

Like when— I don't

know, probably like when she kept crying

because of videos I made,

or when she would threaten to move out if

I didn't pay for a car or something. But

because we lived together, it was hard for

us to separate, cuz it would take a lot of

effort to pack all your stuff, book a

hotel, and then you got to find a new

place to live. How, how are you going to

do that? If she actually wanted to break

up, she would have to leave the condo Even

though it's her condo, I would have to

leave even

though I'm paying for it. Yeah, she packed

up, but she didn't leave because it would

be a lot of effort. Where's she going to

go? Go to her sister's place, go to a

hotel. That's fine short term, but you

need a place to live. You're going to have

to do viewings. So then they think, oh,

it's a lot of effort. Maybe I'll just stay

with him. It's not that bad.

She probably didn't have any money to rent

It lasted for a few months. What did?

Since we became official.

Maybe she'll change her mind. I don't

know. This time feels different. All the

other times,

usually there were just a few days. And

the difference is last year I

didn't go ballistic on her. These last 2

fights have been different because I went

ballistic. In the previous fights, I was

okay. Maybe I ranted a bit, But she said

she found it funny when I was ranting

about how she has juice all the time.

I don't think she finds it so funny

anymore because I've been stepping it up a

level. Because back then I was like,

yeah, I'm upset and hurt, but I know I

shouldn't go ballistic. So I

tried to tone it down.

But I really went ballistic this time.

Although I think I went harder last time

when I pulled out the B-word.

Maybe I'm going ballistic because I also

want to break up. I don't

know. Sometimes I do feel like I wanted to

break up because it's just so hard.

Last time we fought, I thought, yeah, I

want to break up, I'm done.

But then she made me all jealous with that

new guy thing, and I was like, actually,

I want her back. But now she's not doing—

she's not playing games now. To try and

make me jealous because she doesn't want

me to want her back.

Didn't even go nuclear. Well, going

nuclear would be like doxxing and

describing sexual acts in great

detail. That's like level 2 and level 3

stages of ballistic.

I won't go that far.

Yet. Maybe in like 2 years, 3 years.

In 2, 3 years, then you know it's

definitely over. Like with me,

like after 4 or 5

years, yeah, it's over.

Might as well just say whatever I want.

'Cause you can't really, um, go back in

time and undo what I did. In her moment of

need, I didn't show up, and I can't really

say, oh, it won't happen again. She

wouldn't believe it now.

It was an unacceptable failing.

Which I didn't— I wasn't expecting it.

I had no idea that's what it would take

for it to break up.

I thought, okay, she might be pissed for a

bit. I didn't think it would go this far.

I gambled and I lost.

She called you as you were streaming?

Yeah, and then she hung up on me. I

couldn't even say 2 words. She was like,

Daniel, why are you ignoring me? I said,

because you're angry. And she said, I'm

not angry, I'm upset. And I was like,

yeah, same thing. And then she hung up.

Oh wow, go buy yourself a takeaway.

$64. What?

Oh, best viewer ever.

Don't need Sunny anymore, got money.

No, I'm using it to pay off my credit

card, not wasting it on takeaway. Oh,

fish and chips tonight without any chips,

so fish and rice.

Wow, so generous.

Yeah, that's more money than I pre-made

today while delivering 50 parcels.

Yeah, so I was thinking, even if I said on

the phone, okay, okay, I'm coming now,

do you think it still would have been— it

still would have been too late. She would

have been like, oh, don't bother,

obviously your stream is more important.

And then if I just insisted and I showed

up anyway, that could have been a game

changer. If I just ignored her and then

got in the car and drove to her anyway,

and I'm like, Sunny, I'm outside.

She might have seen that as romantic, but

I didn't even try. Like, I didn't even try

I just kind of gave up, didn't I? And then

she said about the laundry, and I was

like, okay. I didn't even plead or

beg. I wasn't like, come on, Sunny, let's

talk. And then I lost my laundry too.

I can't call her, she blocks my numbers.

I don't want to go to her house, that's

just weird.

What number would Sunny be on your

priorities if you got back together?

Well, now I've got work kind of sorted

out, I can maybe bump her up. To priority

number 3.

I think that's pretty generous.

God, Bee Livery is booming tonight.

2 people using it. Wow.

This app is dead. No one uses it.

Why would anyone use it? They mark up the

product so much. They have to to make

profit. Like, why would you go on this app

and do your grocery shopping and

everything's 40% more expensive when you

can just book it at Tesco on their website

and all you gotta do is pay £2 delivery

fee and no markups? This app is stupid.

No wonder it's dead. You get like one

person pinging a job in a week.

Useless. You would have to be desperate

for the items if you're going to use that,

which is sad because it, it's a good idea.

Just go to the shop, buy the stuff, take

it to the customer.

And it keeps going off.

Who's gonna rush out at 7 PM in the pitch

black to go and make 20 quid?

Not worth it.

I'm broke and I wouldn't rush— I wouldn't

even rush out to go save my relationship.

You think I'm gonna rush out in the dark

to make £20? Nope.

I can't believe I lost my girlfriend.

Everything was coming together so nicely

I didn't think it would be so easy to lose

her.

She didn't help me put the bed together.

Where was she when I was struggling with

the IKEA Malm bed frame?

I should have said, oh sorry, my car

battery is completely dead.

No can do.

Bet she'll never date a guy with an EV

ever again. Date a real man who has a

petrol car. 500-mile range.

Loads of people have EVs now, it's not

like it's a weird thing.

Don't understand why you got an EV.

Because it's really cheap. To do a lot of

driving. Can you do 1,000 miles

of driving for £70 with a petrol car?

It would be £18 to do 1,000 miles

if you got the EV tariff. Without the EV

tariff, it's about £57. Can you do

1,000 miles driving with £57 of petrol?

You save so much money not having to buy

petrol if you're doing a lot of driving.

Oh yeah, I got to pay EV road tax from

April. It's going to be like £250 a year.

Great.

More taxes.

Aren't they also going to do a mileage

tax? So the more you drive, the more you

got to pay in the mileage tax. God, this

country must be so broke if they're so

desperate to tax everything. Need to fund

that Ukraine war, don't they?

You pay with your time waiting for it to

charge? No, I plug it in at night and then

I go to sleep and I wake up and it's fully

charged. It's not like I'm standing

outside for 12 hours whilst it charges.

Is it really going to benefit us British

people if we fight Putin? Like, how's it

going to benefit us?

Yeah, when you gotta do a road trip in the

freezing cold in the middle of the night,

unexpected, without any planning, EVs

suck. EVs require planning,

patience, strategy.

If you just rush out in the middle of the

night Yes,

things aren't gonna go to plan because you

didn't even make a plan.

But how likely is that gonna happen?

Once in a lifetime event.

If I got home, I'd plan it. I've already

planned it. I already found 2 Tesla

Superchargers that I can get to on the

way. And Tesla Superchargers are

much better than the non-Tesla stuff.

Why is Amazon credit card debt rising?

Because I paid car insurance using it. I

cancelled my car insurance policy, which

was £120 a month, and I replaced it with

this cheaper one, which is only £68 a

month. But it was a 1-year all-at-once

payment, £800.

And I got 1— I got 0.5% cashback.

By using my Amazon credit card,

and I paid the £100 police fine with it.

And I still don't have my £400 Doji

refund.

How many years to be debt-free?

My debt's like £21,000,

most of it to my mum.

I still don't know how much I'm gonna make

every month. It's really hard to predict

with this job. The boss said if I do

full-time, it'll be like 30k, 32k a year,

but I haven't started full-time.

If I actually make what he says I could

make— he said £120

a day,

that's like £29K,

and then plus my YouTube of £10K, I could

make £38K.

But at this current rate— but I don't

think this current rate It's gonna be like

this forever where I'm only doing 50

parcels a day. I did 108 yesterday.

How much is YouTube money with daily

streaming? It's about £1,200,

which is

pretty good, mainly thanks to the PayPal

donos. Without the PayPal donos, it would

be like half that.

You only stay debt-free for a week. Yeah.

I was like, yay, I paid off my credit

cards, and then Sunny came back and

wrecked everything. $7K in

debt and then dumped me.

Thanks so much.

Now I've got to like mentally, I've got to

try and find a way To,

um, just survive day by day mentally

without going insane. Think positively,

work hard, get dopamine from finishing

work and getting money,

uh, figure out meals to make and eat.

Gotta stay nutritioned.

Make a stock market plan. You know,

there's plenty of things to do in life

other than obsess over a girl. She's got

to get on with it.

Here's something interesting to think

about. Oh wow, you have always moved

wherever to be with a girl, but have you

ever had a girl make the effort and move

to be next to you? Has a girl ever loved

you enough to chase after you and want to

be with you? Yeah. Faster ditched her

house, quit her job, and moved all the way

to Bangkok. You don't realize how far

Bangkok is from where she was. It's like a

2-hour drive,

2 and a half hour drive nearly from

Ayutthaya to Bangkok. She moved all the

way back to Bangkok. Her plan was to

buy that house, live in it, and work at

that pharmacy. And then she ended up just

completely changing her whole life to be

You moved to Thailand, that doesn't count.

Well, yeah, I'm— I did most of the moving,

but no, I guess I've never had a girl

where— I mean, Mila came to the UK Didn't

Turkish girl came to Germany. Pia came

to my house against her will.

Hong Kong woman flew from Hong Kong to

Japan to come see me, and then she was let

down, and then she banged a bunch of guys

on Couchsurfer. She probably got AIDS.

She was just banging random guys on

Couchsurfing raw.

What do you mean none of them move? Oh,

you mean like moved and stayed

instead of just coming for a short

holiday?

I mean, Pia would have stayed if I didn't

kick her out. I don't know why I didn't do

with Pia what I did with Sunny. It's like

Pia shows up at my house,

but I didn't have a car, I think, because

I don't know, we would have had to get a

place to live in. How would we get

anywhere? We'd have to like walk to the

train station. With all the luggage and

then get a train to Maidstone. And then

how would you even do it? Or maybe she

could have just stayed at my house for a

bit whilst we organized.

I didn't do any of what I did for Pia

compared to what I did for Sunny. A lot of

it was because I didn't have the car and

I don't know, I had money back then.

2021, I still had a lot of money. It was

before the tax thing happened and I was

still doing OnlyFans.

Um, but honestly, I thought I could get

Chihiro back, back in 2021.

Otherwise, maybe I would have thought

about Pia instead of sending her back.

It was just too difficult with Pia at that

time. I didn't know. Also,

it was lockdown. Oh my god. Yeah, it was

lockdown. You couldn't do anything during

lockdown. All the businesses were shut.

I'm pretty sure you couldn't do house

viewings and be like, oh, we can't do

social distancing, stupid fucking mask.

Whole world shut down, didn't it? So Pia

would have to stay at my mum's house. I

don't know if my mum would have been happy

with that. Although she didn't seem to

have a problem with me, me listening.

I don't think the summer cabin was built,

so yeah, it would have been tough,

especially with the lockdown and no car.

This time was different because I felt

like, yeah, I got the car, me and Sunny,

we're official, it's time to take this to

the next level.

Live together, get a house.

You know, I was thinking about Pia in

2022, but then Thai Woman kind of came out

of nowhere and I thought, hmm. I really

miss being in Japan. Japan's still closed.

Thailand's kind of like Japan.

So I ended up choosing Thailand.

But me and Pia were talking a lot in 2022.

I even asked her if she would do a road

trip and she said yeah. And then even in

2023, we were gaming a lot together.

I chose Faster over Pia because— well,

it's a new experience, isn't it?

I've already met Pia. I hadn't met Faster,

and I thought she was cuter in the

pictures than she actually was in real

And I've never been to Thailand before,

so it seemed like a no-brainer.

Because to be in the UK, you really need a

car. I don't know how you have a

relationship in the UK and not have a car.

Like, you'd be fucked. I can't do anything

without a car. I can't go to the dump. I

can't go to work. I can't do house

viewings. I can't even do shopping. You

can't do anything if you don't have a car

in the UK. And I did pass my driving test,

but at the time I wasn't really that

interested in getting a car.

You either live in a shitty town with

public transport or you have to get a car.

There's no other way.

There's no way you could live here without

a car. There's not even— there's no buses

here. I didn't see a bus stop anywhere.

Yeah, London, like I said, you either live

in a shitty town or you live

in the countryside and get a car.

That's why I lived in Manchester before I

passed my driving test, because I still

had that, you know, Japan mentality where

you take the train and you do use public

transport like a pleb. God,

when you get your own car It is so nice.

It's so comfy. You don't have to sit next

to stupid people. You can

go anywhere you want, whenever you want.

The downside is then people start

demanding that you come pick them up or

take them places, and if you don't do it,

they get mad. That is the downside

of having a car. You become like a tool,

you become like an asset. And then if you

don't use your tool to help people,

they're like, what the fuck? And then they

ghost you, block you, hate you.

You know, with great power comes great

responsibility.

It's like if someone's dying of a heart

attack and you're the only guy who knows