Day in the Life of Unemployed NEET in Thailand

Testing,

testing.

Oh, damn it. Why is there a chat in the

middle of the screen?

Uh, I guess it's fine.

I guess it's cool.

Testing. Bit nervous

Testing. A bit nervous today.

Haven't had great internet recently.

Don't know why.

It's weird because the internet on my

phone seems, I think, okay, but then on my

laptop it's been kind of bad even though

it's the same connection.

So fingers crossed it'll

be fine today. You stream frequently these

days? Well, I don't think 2 days a week is

a lot. I think it's pretty low.

Why this boring chopping board view again?

Well, I think it's more interesting than

just seeing like a little square box of my

face against a white wall. At least you

can see some movement.

You'll have to excuse the chat in the

middle of the screen because the only way

to move it is if I end the stream.

I can't be bothered. I'm still sick as

well. Why does it take so damn long to get

rid of a sickness?

It's been over 2 weeks now. I knew it was

going to take like a month. I think on the

3rd week I'm still going to be coughing.

My voice still hasn't come back either.

See, look, I can't do a high voice.

There's just no sound coming out.

Do a vote, your face or the chopping

board. I don't think it really matters.

I get the same views even if I put a black

screen and like nothing on the screen.

I mean, I went out and did a stream in the

city of Bangkok And I got the same

viewers, same number of viewers as I

usually get when I just sit at home.

So maybe I'm wrong, but I'm assuming you

guys don't care what's on the screen. Oh,

thanks, Jordos, very generous.

We care? Well, maybe a few of you do.

There, you got over the goal. Haha,

thanks. It only took 3 months, but I

finally made $1,000. That's like

$300 a month. Actual poverty income.

I think I started that donation goal in

December.

The time difference— no, that doesn't make

any difference. This is good time in

America. It's like evening.

You taking Thai girlfriend to Japan with

you? Nope,

pretty gonna dump her when I'm in Japan

because I'm sick and tired of that.

I'm sick and tired of having to hide

stuff.

It's been so stressful.

It's 2 AM in the UK. Yeah, I do notice

after about 7 hours my view— viewers do

start going up a bit. I guess that's when

Europe starts waking up, but that's when I

have to end the stream because then my

girlfriend comes home. So I guess when I'm

in Japan, we'll have a slightly better

time zone where Europe will be awake as

well as America.

I'll start streaming later in the day,

I think, when I'm in Japan.

You finally called yourself a NEET. Well,

I don't think I ever denied it.

I guess I am a NEET. I'm not employed,

I'm not in education or training.

Yeah, I'm gonna be in Japan in Under 2

weeks. It's coming soon, guys.

After 3 years,

I feel like I'm never going to get back to

You admit YouTube isn't a job?

Depends what you mean by a job. If a job

means something you do to make money,

then it is a job. But is it like a job

where you have an employer? No, not

Could be the last 2 weeks of this

relationship. Yeah, it could really be the

last time I see her.

Either 2 things will happen in Japan. I

will feel really lonely and miss her, and

the views don't really change when I'm in

Japan anyway, so I feel like, oh, there's

no point being in Japan, views are still

shit, might as well go back.

Or I feel completely fine and actually

better without her, and the views go up,

and I miss— I like being in Japan again,

and I just stay in Japan. So those are

the 2 outcomes. My sister's coming

to Thailand in May, so if I come back to

Thailand, it'll be nice to see her.

Do you actually like her, or do you just

not want to be alone? Well, I kind of like

her. She's not bad. But I

feel like she's damaging my channel.

So if I go back to being single and the

channel still doesn't come back a bit,

then I'll just accept that the channel is

damaged beyond repair at this point.

And if it turns out the channel is still

effed even without her, then I'll just

come back to her.

I don't really know what exactly is

ruining the channel. Maybe it's because I

can't show much. Like right now, I can't

show anything interesting. But is that

really gonna make a difference? I don't

think so. Why is everyone in bloody

Osaka right now? Sho is in Osaka.

Slightly Homeless is in Osaka. Japan the

Andy is in Osaka. Chihiro's new

boyfriend's back in Osaka. Everyone's in

bloody Osaka. They better not snipe

me.

And if they want to meet, they should

message me and ask me. If they're just

gonna like snipe me, I'm not gonna be

I would be more down for meeting if they

messaged me and asked me than just showing

up. I feel

like it's kind of disrespectful to

just show up,

but you know, I can't stop them because I

mean, I'll be in public. I just can't

imagine what would happen if they just

showed up. I would just be really shy

and quiet, and I'll be trying to get out

of it somehow.

I don't think that's Nightmay. And I mean,

no one sniped me when I was in Osaka back

in 2018 and '19 when I was way more

popular, so I don't think I'd get sniped

now with a dead channel.

Who's going to want to snipe a dead

channel?

The Streamlabs link is broken. Really?

I don't know why it would be broken.

It's fine, looks fine to me.

I randomly remembered your channel 2 days

ago. What made you remember

me? I'm in

Osaka too. I'm hoping that being in a new

country— oh, thanks, Blood Bucket.

Yeah, Osaka fan meet up then. So many

people are in Osaka now.

What was I saying? Wouldn't say it's

completely dead. Well, thanks, but people

with 3K subs get more viewers than me when

I livestream now. I got, what, 60 viewers

now? My God,

I'm hoping that being back in Japan again

will lift my moods, my, my spirits,

and it will be more visually interesting

for viewers, but I'm not too hopeful.

My average— I used to have 100, like 120

viewers average. Now I get like 80

viewers, sometimes even 60.

I think— I don't know if the algorithm is

like messing with me or people just really

got bored.

You're lucky to get over 10. I got 112K

subs. Oh my God, I should be getting way

more.

Well, Sam Pepper has like 2 million subs

and he gets like 50 viewers sometimes.

People are bored of the clickbait. Well,

I don't know what else to write for the

title then. You know what's going to

I'm gonna sit here for 8 hours and just

chat. What do you want to happen though?

Like, if you think this is boring, what do

you want me to do?

I'm sorry, but I don't know what else I

can provide.

I'm really trying to think, like, what can

I provide? What can I— what can I offer to

my viewers that they would enjoy? And I

just don't know, to be honest.

I'm hoping being back in Japan is going to

be more interesting for you guys. It'll be

more interesting for me. Maybe like

because I'm bored in Thailand, people are

also bored because there's like no

excitement coming from me.

Thailand's just pretty boring. I don't

know what to say.

There's just nothing exciting about

Thailand. All ladyboys, all temples.

So the only famous thing or well-known

thing about Thailand is ladyboys.

That's it.

If I was in Japan, maybe I'd like go to

the USJ. By myself.

I don't know, do something.

The ex-husband arc was kind of exciting.

Yeah, that was like the only one thing of

excitement that happened in 6 months.

I was actually scared afterwards. I think

I was scared for like 2 months after it

happened that he might stick around or

show up again. Or try and track us down.

I think he did just give up. The guy's

completely nuts. He goes from like lying

to me, telling me he's her husband and

all that crap, and then just disappearing.

He didn't try very hard, did he? What was

his— what was his plan? That he was going

to chase me away and then my girlfriend

would magically go back to him and be

like, oh, you really love me?

What was his plan? He was going to try and

scare me off and then my girlfriend would

be single and then take him back? The guy

can't be that stupid. He owns a pharmacy.

He's obviously went to university, so he's

not dumb. But he's actually dumb.

I don't get it. How can people be smart

and still be so stupid at the same time?

There's like no logic in that. Thinking

and the action he took that day. So

there's zero logic that went through his

brain. So I want to say he's really

stupid, but at the same time I can't

because he's obviously smart. So weird,

the contradiction. What's that word?

The dichotomy. And I noticed Joey uses

that word a lot. Joey uses a lot of big

words. Oh, look at me, I'm Joey, went to

Australian university, I'm so smart. Our

family has a personal financial advisor.

I learned— pick up quite a few new words

watching Trash Taste that I don't usually

use. I don't even know if I used it

right. The dichotomy— I never use that

The Discord link. Oh yeah, the Discord

link's broken. The damn thing always

expires even though I always set it to do

not expire. It expires anyway.

Oh my goodness.

You used it, right? Yes. I think it's like

on one hand he's really smart, on the

other hand he's really dumb. So the

dichotomy of his Personality. I don't

know, actually.

What do I think about China? I think it's

a stupid country.

Can you imagine being Chinese? What is it

like? Can you even be a YouTuber? Is there

like an equivalent of being a YouTuber in

China? I think they just ban anything

because they don't want people to be

influencers or YouTubers. They want

everyone to be a good boy and go and study

and get a job. They've got that,

um, WeChat thing. No, it's not WeChat.

What's it called? They've got like a

YouTube equivalent, I think. They have

TikTok, don't they? So don't they have

like Chinese TikTokers?

So I guess you have professional

TikTokers, maybe,

but I don't think they want people just

sitting around streaming, not doing

anything useful.

My favorite anime, it used

to be Welcome to the NHK, but then I

realized the ending is kind of stupid.

The ending is basically So if you haven't

watched Welcome to NHK, it's like a

20-year-old loser who stays

in this apartment, doesn't have a job,

and then he like has all these adventures

trying to make money and they all fail.

And in the end he gets a job working as a

construction laborer and that's it,

that's the ending. And that's how he finds

happiness, by giving up on his dreams and

like becoming a construction worker.

That's just so anti what I'm trying to

achieve. This just goes against what

I, I think and believe in.

It's like, don't even try, just give up

and get a job.

That's the message they're trying to send

out there. I think that's kind of lame.

I haven't actually watched anime though

since like 2008.

It's been ages.

Doesn't really appeal to me anymore.

I don't even know if you can even move to

China anymore as a foreigner. Didn't that

Sir Pencer guy move out and leave, and he

was saying stuff like English schools in

China were shutting down and firing

people, clamping down.

I don't know.

I would never want to go to China.

I just want to go to Japan, really. Just

stay in Japan. But as a single man,

you might think, oh well, you were living

in Japan, you had a wife, why did you give

that up then? Because I didn't want to be

married. I wanted to be free to do what I

want, and I

thought I would just go straight back to

Japan, but then COVID happened. My dream

is to just be able to live in Japan.

I would love to just be able to live in

Japan forever and just stream,

have my own place, not have to keep moving

around to stupid countries all the time.

No other country is good like Japan.

Thailand's okay, but then I've got no

motivation to go out.

Thought you

were saying a year or two ago you lost

interest in Japan? Yeah,

I lost interest in Japan as like a weeb,

but I still appreciate the country being

nice and clean and pleasant

to walk around. Thailand is not a nice

country to walk around if you enjoy 8

lanes of traffic everywhere and rats

and rubbish and people selling crap on the

side of the street everywhere. If you like

dirty places, then you'd love Thailand.

But if you want clean places, then you've

got to stick around the expensive super

shopping centers like Paragon,

Terminal 21, Icon Siam.

And then you've got to stick around those

areas and get like a taxi back to your

place and just avoid All the traffic.

Visit Hua Hin or Phuket? No,

I've been out of Bangkok and it's just,

it's just like, I don't know, nothing.

Yeah, the towns do get smaller and quieter

when you get out of Bangkok, but then they

also get uglier and dirtier.

I went to Pattaya and it was just crap. I

went to Phetchaburi, Ratchaburi,

Phetchabun. It all just looks depressing,

to be honest.

I can imagine Phuket just being like nice

beaches and everything, but probably

run-down ugly-looking shantytowns selling

coconuts and shrimp.

Squid, like grilled squid on a stick, is

what they sell everywhere. They love the

grilled squid on a stick.

I'm just not a fan of it.

I don't know why they love coconuts so

much. Coconuts everywhere.

If I want to drink, I'll just go to

7-Eleven and buy a bottle of water.

Where do they get these coconuts from?

I watched some of these live streamers in

Japan and I'm just looking at the traffic

and thinking, my God,

Japanese traffic is so calm and most of

the roads are like 2 lanes at most. You

don't see any motorbikes. It's weird how

the more developed a country gets, the

less motorbikes you see. You go to Vietnam

and it's just like a sea of mopeds.

Absolute chaos. They all ride their

motorbikes up onto the pavement as well.

Can you imagine that happening in the UK?

You'd get arrested.

There's no way you'd ride mopeds up onto

the pavement. The police would take it

away. In Vietnam, it's like the pavement

is a lane of traffic. When it's all jammed

That's why they have such high curbs in

Thailand, I think, to stop motorbikes

getting onto the pavement. But in Japan,

it looks so peaceful. 2 lanes of traffic,

no motorbikes,

no crazy driving.

Aren't you showing your face today? No.

Because it's too dangerous.

If I move the camera,

I don't know what it's going to show, and

I don't look great, to be honest. The

shower's not working. We had a power cut

in the morning, and for some reason,

after we have a power cut, the shower

heater doesn't switch on anymore, so

there's no hot water. I only washed my

private bits and I wet my hair, but it

looks kind of weird.

I need to shampoo my hair and wash it

properly to reset it.

I don't know why this happens. We've got

this little electric box that heats up the

water, and when it's heating up, the

orange light comes on. But then sometimes

in the morning, I don't know what happens

to the electricity, but it goes off. I

think they're doing like an electricity

test. And then when it comes back on, the

shower heater thing doesn't work and we

need to call someone to come up and fix

it. It would be

nice if they showed us how to fix it.

We've got like a circuit breaker and I've

switched the shower pump on and off and

it's still the same. Last time they came

up, they, they took the panel off the

shower box and they did something. I don't

so I couldn't have a proper shower.

I'm not having a cold shower.

I just washed a few bits with the cold

water, but I can't get my torso

wet because that's where all my organs

are. And I think when my organ area is

getting cold with the water, my body is

like under shock.

I cannot have a cold shower. I don't know

how people do it.

Oh, thanks, Rosetta. Please remove the

sticker. I can't. I tried scratching it

off. Oh, I can actually. I can scrape it

off. I just can't be bothered. What? It's

so annoying. Why do they put these stupid

stickers on it? In the first place,

I can't stand companies putting these

annoying stickers on stuff like the bottom

of bowls and plates as well.

Please remove the sticker from the cutting

board. Thank you. Please remove the

sticker from the cutting board. Can't be

bothered.

Expecting a channel to grow but you're not

showing anything. Well, what about Ice

Poseidon? He showed everything— his face,

interesting things in Japan. His channel

didn't grow. He lost 10,000 subs. He

didn't grow even a tiny bit.

He was getting more viewers like 4 years

ago, so I just don't think it matters.

At this point. You've got different phases

of a channel's life. There's like the

undiscovered phase where no one knows

about it, and then you've got the blow-up

phase where everyone thinks it's amazing,

and that is when you put your best stuff

out. And then you've got like the plateau

phase where, okay, you've kind of

established what you do and your content

and your audience, and that lasts a couple

years. And then you've got the like

falling-off phase where it literally

doesn't matter what you do, it's like

downhill. It doesn't matter if you get a

new camera or do new stuff.

I think we know which phase my channel's

in. My channel's pretty old, it's like 7,

8 years old now.

Why'd he lose subs? Because they were like

inactive subs that only came back because

the algorithm brought them back,

and they were like, oh, I don't want to

watch anymore, unsub.

So I'm probably going to lose subs being

back in Japan because it might bring a lot

of people back only to have them unsub.

Show your face? No, maybe next time.

I need to get a USB-C splitter so I can

plug in a mic and charge the phone at the

same time. I do have a USB hub. I guess

that would work. It would work, wouldn't

it? Then I could like set my phone up

where the webcam was and use the mic.

Wow, amazing content. Daniel scrapes a

sticker off a cutting board.

I think I might would like to maybe have

someone else on the channel.

Don't know.

I do think about it sometimes.

I just don't know who.

In hindsight, I think the Hong Kong guy

was a good addition to the channel. And I

could have used him more.

The reason why I ditched the Hong Kong guy

was because our last video together, we

were messing around with fireworks,

remember? And the video only got about 20k

views, which was pretty poor for me at the

So I feel like we could have done

something else. Maybe live

streaming together. Maybe Hong Kong guy

would still want to meet up

if I message him. Do you think he hates

me? Well, if he knows,

it's pretty obvious I'm only interested in

him because of the content, and maybe he

won't be interested. Oh wow, thanks Blood

Bucket! Sorry I can't show my beautiful

Blood Bucket is very generous these days.

Today's stream's going pretty well

actually. No one's saying anything about

Like audio stuttering.

Huh. I don't want to bore you with like

technical talk, but I'm doing a different

setup today. Slightly different.

So that your number one master? Yeah,

Blood Bucket and Rosetta Stone are

basically keeping the show going at this

point. The chat

stuck on screen. Oh yeah,

last chat was D Junior. That was ages ago.

The thing is— oh wait, I can hide it, but

I can't— wait, if I hide it and

then show it again, what happens?

I'm wondering if it's going to pop up

again. I remember

when Cesium would send 100 donos. Yeah,

I think Cesium was my first ever donator.

I remember the time when he donated very

clearly. Me and James were walking around

in Don Quijote looking for Halloween

costume and And then Caesium donated like

$15, and I think it was my first ever IRL

It's kind of sad how— I don't know why he

started hating me so much.

Because I slept with his girlfriend? I

didn't even know that he was her boyfriend

at the time. Not that it would have

stopped me. I still would have slept with

her anyway. It's not my fault your

girlfriend cheated on you.

But then I probably lost a lot of money

from him. He might have kept donating if I

didn't sleep with his girlfriend.

I don't really know how— if we could go

back in time, how could we have saved that

situation? Why I got back with Hong Kong

guy. Oh, thanks, Kevin.

Yeah, my apologies to the Hong Kong guy.

Please help me, we need to make content,

we need to get the old gang back together.

My channel's on its last legs, I'm

desperate.

Are you still on good terms with Peter?

Yeah, we played Sons of the Forest

yesterday. We still play games together.

Talk about Sneako. Uh, people like

Sneako don't really interest me. The whole

kind of like red pill alpha guy stuff is

so lame.

I don't know why incel type people are

drawn to people like that. I'm gonna get

back pain again. After I did the last

stream like this, I think it was on

Monday, I had such a pain in the back

because I'm like sitting on the floor

hunched over. If I raise my tripod higher

like that, the stupid thing falls over.

Have you seen any of Sho's streams? Yeah,

I tuned in for a bit, but he never does

anything.

It's just like walking up and down making

weird sounds.

You have awful posture. Yeah, cuz I'm like

trying to hunch over to be close to the

I need to pee again. First pee of the

stream. I need to get like a— what's it

called— a catheter attached to my dick so

I don't have to keep getting up.

I've so

far drunk, caught up, of one of those big

bottles of water. I need to pace myself.

Okay, I'll try and fix my posture.

I'm just very scared of knocking the

camera over because of all the cables. If

I accidentally tug on the cable, the whole

tripod falls over. This tripod has such

small legs, it's not really a tripod,

it's more of a selfie stick.

You should increase your goal. Hmm, I'm

not sure what the next goal would be.

Maybe guess

house rent.

Buy a microphone to clip to your shirt. I

have a wireless mic, but I can't plug it

in and charge my phone at the same time.

And last time I plugged it in, there was

like this high-pitched whistling that

pissed everyone off. Remember? I was in it

in England messing around with it,

plugged it in, and there was like this

high-pitched whistling, screeching sound.

So now I'm scared to put it in.

What is a couple things you are most

excited about when you go back to Japan?

Probably just being able to show my

apartment and take the stream out.

That's it, really. I'm excited to stream

again normally.

Excited to be able to sleep alone, not

have to worry about a woman nagging me.

Guess I'm just excited to be back in

general, not really to do anything in

particular. Love your content. Oh,

thanks. How much is 26?

You know what I really miss? I miss

Amazon. I miss UK Amazon.

There's no Amazon in Thailand, and the

online shopping just seems kind of crap.

I thought you'd say USJ, sushi, Skytree.

I already have sushi here. I've already

been to USJ and it was boring. And Skytree

is in Tokyo and I've already been there

and it was not really that interesting.

It's just a really big tower.

I was watching Ginny Ty yesterday trying

to find out what she uses. She uses a

Netgear Nighthawk portable router, which

is interesting. Did some research and

apparently they're really good, so now I

want one, but they're like £280 and I

can't seem to find where you buy it in

Thailand or Japan. Even on Japan Amazon

you can't buy it. In the UK, you can buy

it on Amazon.

Seems like Ginny just uses 2 SIM cards,

one in the phone and one in her night

gear, but I'm not sure how she bonds it.

I'm using Speedify. I don't know what she

uses.

Homeless went to slums in Osaka. Yeah,

that's the one I went to. In my video, he

walked past Tobits Shinchi. Said they

don't like filming. Yeah. Do you remember

when I accidentally streamed in there? I

didn't even know I was in the red light

district. They told me off.

I was so dumb. I had

no idea what that place was. I was just

randomly walking. I thought I

minimized the streaming app, and I put my

phone down. She saw me. I guess I

mispressed. She saw on my screen it was

still filming.

She said something like "撮ったらあかん,"

and I said "撮ってないです," and she said

"撮ってるよ撮ってるやろ," like that.

Kansai-ben. I felt so embarrassed.

He found a place that was giving free

udon. I can't imagine them giving the free

stuff to foreigners. Yeah, when I went

there with Chihiro, around 5 PM everyone

starts lining up and they get given out

free coffee and bentos and stuff, but I'm

not sure if they would give it to a

Why don't you just— I mean, if you're

Asian looking or Japanese, why don't you

just dress up like a homeless person and

get free food? Doesn't seem like they do

any checks. That would be pretty evil,

taking advantage of the homeless people.

How to live off ¥0.

Number 1, pretend to be homeless, get free

food. I think

the Nishinari slums are actually nicer

than Thailand. Most of Thailand looks like

a slum, especially around the river areas.

You got like the slum shanty areas.

Do you remember when I did that IRL

stream? I accidentally walked into it.

The Nishinari slum looks nicer than that

place.

You can even book a hotel in that area.

They're really cheap, but you'll get like

a horrible tiny coffin of a bedroom,

yellow stained walls, probably smells like

cigarettes. I'm tempted to book a

room for like one night just to stream

there. I think it'd be pretty

funny, and then I'll just be complaining

the whole time about how crap it is.

He can't wait to go back to Japan so we

can stay inside and play video games.

Yeah, I can't wait to shut myself into

some tiny box room and complain about

how I'm lonely and sad.

No, I just miss the vibes.

But I'm feeling like it's not going to be

the same as before.

Things have changed. Japan is not the

same. See, look, my tripod keeps trying to

fall over.

I'm gonna go to Yodobashi Camera and see

if they've got some, some of those

portable Wi-Fi things, but I don't know

why She uses that. I guess it's really

good, but why is it really good compared

to like a stick USB modem?

I mean, I've already got a pocket Wi-Fi

that I've ordered in Japan. Isn't it the

same thing, the rental Wi-Fi?

Can I take the SIM card out of the pocket

Wi-Fi? That I'm gonna get in Japan.

I'm going to get the same thing Suspenders

uses. It's called iVideo Unlimited Pocket

Wi-Fi. They claim that they don't restrict

your speed.

Copy Rion Ishida. I haven't checked up on

him in ages. His channel kind of died

though. It peaked and then

it just kind of flopped.

He got a few good videos, but then

it's growing slowly,

very slowly, but he doesn't seem to get

virals anymore. He's stuck at like 20-30K

Don't know why,

cuz you'd think Japan travel stuff would

do well.

@SushiVlogs, Chihiro's new boyfriend, he

still gets good views. He gets like 80-90K

views on his, oh, look at me, single man

living in— I might actually just copy his

title and put like single man in Japan.

Living off— oh,

thanks, I will keep it up.

I don't know how to play the donations on

my phone. It's playing off my laptop.

But I need to watch my own stream. Last

donut. Okay, thanks, thanks Kevin.

Yeah, Asushi Vlogs gets good views,

but I think he's still in like the,

hmm, kind of like in the blowing up phase.

I remember Chihiro messaging me back in

2021 saying she has a friend who's

recently blown up on YouTube. I guess

that's him. Didn't know she was smashing

him too. He gets like 80-90k views in

a, in a few days and he's only got 52k

subs. That's like me back in

2018 when I had 50k subs and I was getting

like 100k views. So he's— I think

he's in his blowing up phase still, even

though he started blowing up in like 2021.

When you're getting double the views of

your sub count, that's pretty good.

But if he can't— if this style

videos he does doesn't keep blowing up,

it's going to flatline and, and hit a

Depends if he gets like a million views,

one of them blows up, then he's going to

reach like half a million subs.

Cuz it's easy, cuz then all he has to do

is like pump out the same type of video

over and over again. You know, like that

Study With Me Pomodoro guy. The guy blows

up because he does Pomodoro study streams,

and that's all he ever has to do. He has

like 4K viewers and he just sits there for

like 12 hours studying. Doesn't talk,

doesn't do anything. He's just like

sitting there studying.

The guy has a golden egg.

But that Asushi Vlogs guy, his videos are

all the same. It's like, oh, good morning,

this is my empty apartment, this is my

lunch. What does he even do? And nothing

happens in the videos and they're like 25

minutes long.

Is he like showcasing how

he lives off of a— he now changed his

title to, uh, 33,000 yen a

month. Single man,

that's like $1,000 a month. There's no way

he's only making $1,000 a month. You're

getting 90K views a video. He must be

making like $1,500, $2,000 minimum.

So maybe he does. I don't know if he's

lying or not. Maybe because he posts so

infrequently. He only posts once every 10

days, I think.

He should be posting more. I don't know

why he's not posting like every 2 days.

I, I took advantage of my channel blown up

and I spammed the crap out of posting

videos and live streams. He doesn't even

do live streams. All the, the donations

he's missing out on. But maybe that's

why my channel fizzled out quickly. Well,

not quickly, like three or four years.

Maybe he's doing a slow approach, slowly

putting stuff out. Maybe that would last

Might as well diss C Dog and Giguk. I

already dissed C Dog. It's called My

Problem with C Dog VA. Got 14k views.

There's nothing I can say about Giguk. He

never does anything controversial. He

doesn't, he doesn't do anything you can

criticize him about. He's too clever.

I think CDawg slipped up a bit with his

stream sniper complaints,

but other than that, CDawgVA is pretty

clean too. My Anime Man video is getting

good views. Got like 16K now.

But the video only made like $30.

My livestreams get more and they only get

like 4K views now.

Yeah, when you post too much, you risk

boring your audience or running out of

material. You've got to pace yourself, I

guess. I did tried to pace myself, only

posting every 2 or 3 days,

but I was scared if I don't hit the iron

whilst it's hot, I'll miss my opportunity.

I wish I did more live streams actually

back then.

Why is he called V8? Yeah, he's a voice

actor,

but he's,

uh, more of a Twitch streamer now.

It seems like he stopped caring so much

about his YouTube channel. He's more

dedicated to Twitch.

So I've hit most of the Trash Taste

people— Chris, Connor, Anime Man, and

PewDiePie. Now my PewDiePie video has 162k

views. Pretty impressive.

This towel stinks, by the way. It's the

one I use after I shower. I need

to put it in the wash.

Maybe I could make one about

MoistCr1TiKaL. His little drama with

Sneako is kind of pathetic. When he

brought out his machine gun, I was just

like, oh my God, you seriously just

whipped out your gun to do like a, oh,

mine's bigger It was so cringe.

That's like something a 12-year-old does.

Oh, look, my, my machine gun's bigger. I

got a bigger peepee. And then he's like,

these are not clips, these are mags. You

sound like an idiot. But most— I think

most people use the word clips even though

it's technically different. They use the

word clips as in same way you use mags.

Like, oh, I need more. I'm out of clips.

I need to reload my clips. That's just

what people say.

And Spiko was saying clips because it was

like a play on words, you know, like

Twitch clips. And he was like, these are

my clips. He was just doing a pun, play on

words. Doesn't really matter if it's not

100% technically accurate. I thought

it was kind of silly.

And the insults they use are so lame as

well, like soy boy and cuck. It's the

equivalent of a 12-year-old calling each

other gay and retard. When you

start calling someone a soy boy or a cuck,

it just makes you look really immature and

bad. And it doesn't even matter if

your insults are true. They're just like

really childish insults.

I thought Charlie would be the bigger man,

but he's just like showing his true colors

that he's very immature.

I would never use insults like soy boy or

cock unironically. It's just so cringe.

I don't know why they banned Leafy when

MoistCr1TiKaL basically does what Leafy

used to do, which is just insulting some

losers and pathetic people on the

internet. It's literally what Leafy used

to do. And Leafy got banned for it.

Why is it okay for MoistCr1TiKaL? I mean,

technically, isn't MoistCr1TiKaL harassing

Sneako?

He was responding because the dude was

threatening them. Well,

I don't really feel like you need to

respond because if someone starts

threatening you with a gun, that guy's

lost. I mean, he really look— he looks

crazy at that point.

The guy's basically dug his own grave when

he starts like whipping out a gun and

making threats. You don't need to defend

yourself.

The internet will defend you for you

because they will call it out.

I miss Leafy. He was a good creator.

I miss the whole toxic community around

Leafy. They were funny.

So you're going back to Japan? Yep. In 270

hours' time. It's kind of sad watching

that timer tick down.

I'm trying not to feel too emotional about

leaving my girlfriend because I know it's

something that has to be done, but yeah,

it's kind of sad. She really thinks

we're gonna be together forever.

She doesn't know who I am.

I don't like hurting people, but sometimes

it just happens because

I just— I don't see myself happy with her

because I don't like living in Thailand.

So hard to talk to her.

And one day she's gonna find out about

this stuff, my YouTube stuff,

and it's not gonna be pretty.

Don't you feel any shame breaking her

heart? I don't feel shame, I feel guilt.

I didn't think things would get this far.

I thought I'll just meet up. Pump and

dump, goodbye. I didn't think we'd end up

living together for like 6 months.

I thought it would just be like those

British girls I dated in England for like

a few months, but they were so easy

to dump. I don't know why. I had no

attachment to them. The first British

girlfriend, she was just annoying. The

second one We just stopped talking,

and then she said, oh, I thought you lost

interest, so I stopped messaging you.

She dumped me, so it was easy.

I feel like my girlfriend is really in

love with me, but at the same time, she

knows that I'm not happy. She's basically

called me out. She— I mean, she already

says stuff like, you don't love me. I know

you don't want to live in Thailand.

She's suspicious I've got a YouTube

channel. She's like already sussed out a

lot of stuff about me and I keep denying

it. I say, oh no, don't say that. That's

not true. Because why am I going to say,

yeah, you're right, I don't love you?

Yeah, you're right. I hate it here. I

can't tell her that. I need to, like,

say, no, you're wrong. I like Thailand.

Really? I miss Japan.

She's basically sussed everything out

using women's intuition.

She's saying stuff like, in 10 years'

time, I want to move back to my parents'

place where they live, and they live in

the middle of nowhere, hours away from

Bangkok. And then she asked me if I'm okay

with that, and I was like, I guess I'm not

okay with it. I do not want to live in the

middle of buttfuck nowhere countryside in

the jungle where there's probably nothing

Where you go and buy like coconut water

from the street. I would be so miserable,

and the internet probably sucks.

I would not want to live outside of

Bangkok. Outside of Bangkok, Thailand is

just like a third world country.

And then she's saying, oh, I want to have

kids and I want twins. I can't even make

kids.

So I don't really see myself fitting in

with her future plans. I would never want

to live outside of the city.

I just think a settled-down lifestyle is

not for me. I need to be on the move.

I'm pretty sure I'm infertile because I've

been planting the

seed for like 6 months and there's no

baby. So I don't know what's wrong with

me. I think chlamydia messed up. My pipes.

Having chlamydia untreated for nearly 4

weeks must have had something to do with

it. Did I ever pay for

cereal in Thailand? No. I haven't cheated,

haven't met anyone else. I can't be

bothered. I don't want to waste $100 and

get like crap sex. I'd rather just watch

some porn for free. If I get bored,

I just switch to a different video.

It's not worth it. I don't see how it's

worth paying hundreds of dollars to have

bad sex with a woman who probably is

repulsed by you,

and it's not even good, and you have to

The only reason you would pay for sex is

If you're so desperate and you feel like

there's no other way to get actual sex and

you really want sex, that's when I

entertain the idea.

But every time it's just a disappointment.

It's not that great. And even on the off

chance that it is great, what are you

going to do? Like, keep going back to her

and blow thousands of dollars? She's never

going to be yours. And the only way you

can enjoy her for a good amount of time is

by blowing hundreds of dollars. You're

going to go broke.

So it's like lose-lose. It either

sucks or it's great. And then what?

You're going to blow your bank account.

I think it's better to just try and find

other ways to satisfy your urges,

like masturbation.

I'm really trying to resist the temptation

of going to Tobita Shinji. The, you know,

the website I used to use to get cool

girls. That website seems to have shut

down. The website is still there, but it's

like all glitched. All the links are

broken. I messaged them and there's no

reply. So I think the business shut down,

which is a good thing, I guess, because I

wasted thousands of dollars on the call

So I want the temptations to be removed so

I don't waste my money.

I want to use my money for productive

things like getting gear to improve my

channel. Even if it's not going to grow

the channel, at least the people who still

enjoy it, I can provide more stable stream

or better connection so it doesn't eff or

lag.

Someone sent me a message on Instagram, a

website for call girls in Bangkok. I had a

look at it. The pictures of the girls,

they look so fake, like love dolls. You

just know they won't look like that.

Not because you want to be faithful? No,

because I want to save money.

I've got to be careful with money now.

I'm not a super famous YouTuber anymore.

I've got to start being responsible.

I'm not making $2,800 a month.

I've got to plan and budget. I've got

to show self-control.

How much are you making? Probably like

$1,500 a month.

But to be honest,

I'm kind of losing interest in women.

It's just— it doesn't interest me

as much. I mean, it still does. I mean,

I'd be lying if I said I don't fantasize

about hot girls, because I still do.

But I just feel like I don't care as much.

I think if I can find a way to live

without crippling loneliness, I'll be a

lot happier. I just remember back to

Manchester how miserable I felt,

and I do feel a lot happier now. Now I've

got a girlfriend, I've kind of forgotten

what it feels like to be single and alone

and feel like completely alone in the

world. I've forgotten what it feels like

because of the girlfriend. So it'd be

interesting feeling that again when I'm in

Japan to see— I want to see if I've like

mentally matured to be able to cope with

complete solitude.

How much is a guest house in Osaka?

Probably around 300 to $400 a month.

I guess you can get some really cheap ones

for $200-ish, but if you want

a nice-sized room in a fairly modern

building, you'd be paying about between

$300 and $400 a month.

I think the biggest struggle I have in

life is coping with loneliness

and human interaction.

It's like I want human interaction,

but then I reject people when they reach

I don't know why, I just kind of feel

automatically repulsed. By people.

Apart from— it's like certain people don't

repulse me after I've

watched them for long enough to get used

Repulse me in— I mean, in the way that I

feel uncomfortable around them. Because of

the way they look or sound, which I guess

sounds really judgmental, but that's just

the way it is. I think I need to be less

judgmental, but I just

kind of automatically hate people. But

then when I get to know them better, my

mind changes.

You want companions that listen to you?

No, I don't think I want to like whinge

and whinge about myself if I had friends,

because I know that would be boring and

annoying. I want to talk business, like

what can— what ideas can we exchange to

make money? I don't want to like

start talking about philosophical stuff

and like all the meaning of life.

I want to talk about how can we make some

money, like improve each other's lives,

exchange ideas and tips,

that kind of stuff. I think would be cool

because I have my stream for

talking about my feelings and struggles in

life. I feel like that's what the stream

Yeah, I can tell my personal business and

stuff to strangers on the internet because

I think of a stream as like a self-therapy

session.

But I would feel uncomfortable opening up

about stuff to people because I don't want

to be seen as like whinging or whining.

I don't want to be problematic to people.

I like people to think of me as

unproblematic and I have my stuff

together.

Wow, stream's been completely stable. I

guess my new setup really worked.

Touch wood. It's been an hour, so I think

if there hasn't been problems, there's not

going to be problems.

Would you feel uncomfortable in a