I finally feel like a proper Adult

Hello and welcome back to my new Airbnb.

So this is the only room which I can show

you because luckily this is the only room

that the Airbnb owner didn't take a photo

of. So hopefully I should be safe from the

hordes of people trying to track me down.

So I finally got myself somewhere to stay.

Long-term. I'll be here for a month, and

the last few weeks have— they've been a

lot of fun, and I've done a lot of

traveling. I've seen a lot of great places

in Germany, but it's also been kind of

tiring having to move around different

hotels and different Airbnbs every few

days. I think the longest I stayed in one

place was about 6 days. So I

finally got myself a place to live

long-term, and hopefully I can get back to

making slightly better videos. I know my

videos haven't been very good recently,

and that's mainly because I just haven't

been— I haven't been living a stable,

settled lifestyle that would enable me to

give— that would enable me to make decent

videos. I've just been on the move all the

time, and I've been trying to frantically

rush out videos and I didn't really have

much time to spend on making the videos

look good. And, um, yeah, that's why they,

they've kind of sucked recently.

Hopefully they'll be a bit better now that

I have a kind of permanent place to live.

I guess 1 month is, is, is fairly

permanent. Look at this! I saw it

hanging behind me. It can be my video

assistant. Hopefully this monkey isn't in

any of the pictures, otherwise it's going

to give it give my location away.

Ugh, it's a bit dirty.

So today I wanted to talk about how I

finally kind of feel like a proper adult

now, and that's mainly because it's been

nearly 2 months now since I've been living

in Germany, mostly by myself in my own

places, and now I have my, my own place

for about a month now. I think this is

actually the longest amount of time that

I've lived by myself. So you may be

surprised to hear that I've never really

lived by myself before— well, not properly

anyway. For most of my life, I lived with

my parents, and then there were a few

times when I lived with ex-girlfriends,

and then obviously I lived with my ex-wife

for a few years. But I've never really

lived all by myself. I've never really had

my own place that I was 100%, well,

mostly responsible for. I'm still living

in an Airbnb, so I guess it's not really

the same as having a normal apartment

where I have to pay bills and manage

things. And if anything goes wrong, I can

always just rely on the Airbnb owner to

sort things out. So I guess I'm not 100%

responsible for the entire place. But

since technically I'm just still a

tourist, I'm not I'm not properly living

in the country. I don't have a visa or

anything, so I don't think I'd be able to

get a normal apartment like a normal

person living here would be able to. So

I'm kind of just limited to Airbnb, which

is fine. I don't mind. It's a bit

expensive, I guess, but then if you think

about it, um, it's also not expensive

because I can use the air conditioning all

day long and I don't have to pay extra for

the electricity bill. I can have a hot

bath every single night and I don't have

to pay extra for the water bill.

And you've got all of the furniture

already here, like a sofa, beds, fully

equipped kitchen, massive TV. I don't have

to buy anything extra. It's all— it's,

um, it's all provided for me here already.

So yeah, this is my first time properly

living all by myself and And I guess this

is what being an adult feels like,

because I've always kind of been against

the idea of living by myself. I always

thought, what's the point? It's a waste of

money. I might as well just live at my

parents' house, or I might as well just

live with a girlfriend. I never really

saw the point of living by yourself or

moving out unless you're going to move out

and then live with a partner. And

actually, now that I think about it, Um,

I kind of like living by myself on my own.

I kind of like being independent. It's,

it's nice to have my own place that I can

do anything I want to inside of it. I

don't have to get nagged by anyone. I can

live how I like to live. I can, I can eat

rice and I don't have to wash it because

no one's nagging me about washing my rice.

I can do laundry and they're just lay the

wet clothes all over the floor to dry them

without anyone complaining about it. I

feel like this is ultimate freedom. I can

do anything I want, whenever I want, how I

want, and no one's here to complain about

the things I do. And it's pretty good, I

have to admit that I've never really

experienced this lifestyle for a very

long period of time. Always had someone

who had power over me who would,

you know, boss me about, tell me what to

do, complain about how I was doing things

and how I was living my life. But now I

can do anything I want to and no one's

gonna complain. Now people can't really

call me a leech. People can't say, oh,

Daniel isn't independent, Daniel's just

living with his mum, Daniel can't even

survive on his own. Because what am I

doing now? I mean, I I've been here for

nearly 2 months surviving on my own,

not depending on other people, and, um,

yeah, I guess it's quite good. The one

downside is it does feel a little bit

lonely sometimes, and I am spending a lot

of money on rent, obviously,

and that kind of sucks because now I have

to worry about money more than I used to.

I just really don't understand why so many

people don't believe that I'm capable of

supporting myself and being independent.

I think this is pretty much proof that I

can support myself financially without

depending on another person. I think in

general, um, even though the channel has

seen better days in the past, in general I

do feel quite happy with my current living

situation. I don't know why I never

considered Europe as a potential place

that I could live live in. I don't know

why I always wanted to go to Asia so badly

and I just never even considered European

countries. Maybe there's a better European

country out there. I think Germany's

pretty good, but it is— it's also kind of

expensive. It's up there on the cost of

living scale. Maybe there's cheaper

countries in Europe that are also safe and

nice to live in. I'm not sure. I guess

I'll have to look into it. But in general,

yeah, I feel like, um,

I've made the right choices to get to this

stage, to get to this point that I'm in in

life. And, um,

yeah, I shouldn't really complain because

I, I think things are going pretty well.

If you were to ask me, do I think my life

is better now compared to a year ago.

So a year ago, what was I doing? What

month is it? It's August. So yeah, a year

ago I went back to Japan and

I gave my marriage a second try.

Obviously it didn't work out. And yeah, I

do feel like, um, I'm a lot more relaxed

now. I have a lot more freedom and I'm a

lot more independent. And I do feel like

I'm in a better headspace right now than I

was a year ago. So yeah,

I think things aren't looking too bad.

Uh, that's all I had to say on this topic.

Goodbye.