My Life Is Ruined... I Give Up

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Hedru. Hedru.

Embroidery. Yeah, today we're going to do

a sewing and embroidery stream. Hope you

have your needles ready.

That'll be funny.

144 quality? No, I put it 720p.

I've got 720p. Who else has 720p?

And 20p. And 20p.

Why the new setup? Well, I got to make

dinner, so I thought I'd

film some cooking.

Making romantic dinner for

my girlfriend.

Dinner. Yeah, I know it's only, it's only

8 AM here in the morning, but I

gotta do something. I'll just make it

really slowly.

Maybe I'll plan to prepare the vegetables

and stuff for 2 hours, and then maybe I'll

cook it for half an hour. Then it

would still just be 11 AM. I guess I'll

just put it in the fridge.

So do you like this more realistic view of

life, or do you like the little black

screen with a little square box of my

face. I said

your wife is coming on the RV. Really?

When they were desperately trying to find

a driver, I thought, you know, actually I

could drive the RV. I've got a— I've got a

British driving license, but I don't have

the international driving permit. But you

can just buy that from a post office. It

seems like Americans are really screwed if

they want to drive in Japan. America

doesn't have a— what's the

word? They don't have an agreement with

Japan to drive, so they— you have to pass

the Japanese driving test if you're

American to be able to drive, and it's

probably all in Japanese. You've got to

pass the Japanese theory test and the

practical test. I don't know if they do it

in English, but if you're English— I mean

British— You don't need to do that. You

can just get the international driving

license and you can drive. So I could

drive in Japan. It's funny

because it's like, um, Japan doesn't

think that the American driving test is

hard enough and that American people suck

at driving, but they think the British

driving test is hard enough and people who

pass the British driving test have have to

be actually good at driving.

I don't know what the American driving

test involves, but I— from what I've

heard, it's pretty easy. Like, you just

get in an automatic car and you just drive

down the highway for like 10 minutes, do

some turns, do a parking. I don't know why

everyone thinks, or why I used to think,

the British driving test was really

difficult. That's what everyone makes you

think. Even my driving instructor was

like, oh, you made 2 mistakes today. I

don't know if you're gonna pass. If you

had done that in the test, you would have

failed. I passed the driving test

without any single mistakes, not even one

minor fault. Is it because we drive on

the other side of the road? No, I think

it's because It's known worldwide that the

American driving test is really easy and

it's not challenging at all. So for

countries that do have a stricter driving

test, they're not going to let Americans

drive there unless they get the Japanese

driving license.

So I was thinking like silly things. I

could just fly over to Japan and be like,

hey, I, I got a driving license and

Imagine me driving an RV. I'd probably

crash it. Driving an RV must

be completely different to driving a car.

Have you seen the driving test in China?

They have like a massive obstacle course.

It's like, um, big wide area

and they've painted like a test course on

the tarmac and it's like It's got all

these different challenging driving stuff

on it. You got to keep in the lines.

The Chinese driving test looks crazy.

I don't know why I'm so scared of driving.

I think it's a lack of confidence.

Most people can drive without any problems

because most people don't have crippling

anxiety and they just, they're just normal

people. It's all about

confidence when you're driving.

I think my girlfriend's upset with me.

I think her period's coming again. I can

always tell when her period is coming

because she starts acting weird. She

starts saying weird stuff like, oh, I

think you should find another girl that

you really love. I'm not good enough for

you. And then she'll start being really

insecure, and then she'll start saying

like all this really self— she'll say—

she'll like victimize herself and say

stuff like, oh, I've got bad luck because

you don't like me.

I don't even know how that conversation

started. We were just in bed and I was

messing around like usual,

and then she started saying stuff like,

oh, you don't love me.

She started talking about Valentine's Day.

She was saying, you know, this month is a

special month, and I was like, is it your

birthday again? I hate

Valentine's. It's so annoying. All these

stupid companies create these dumb

holidays like Easter and Valentine's and

blah blah blah just so they can sell crap

like cards and chocolate. And us men,

we can see straight through it. We're

like, oh, they're just trying to get money

out of us. But women don't get it. It's

like women fall for it so easy and they're

like, oh, it's Valentine's Day. My

boyfriend better buy me something. Oh,

it's Easter. My boyfriend better get me

something. And then if you don't get them

anything, they're like, oh, my boyfriend

doesn't love me. Can't they see it's just

stupid corporations inventing these

stupid, dumb holidays so they can sell us

shit? Crap. Why don't women get

it? Now I got to go and buy some stupid

Valentine's Day rubbish just so she

doesn't start crying about, oh, you don't

love me. Next will be birthdays, and then

next will be stupid whatever holiday.

Oh, I hate all these stupid holidays and

birthdays. I buy a gift and buy that and

buy this. It's just a waste of money.

So now I don't know if I'll actually buy

some. Maybe I'll just go to 7-Eleven, buy

like a little box of chocolates. Why are

women so annoying? They're so easy to

please in one way, I guess,

but then they're also so easy to upset.

Why can't they just have some, you know,

middle ground where they're not insane?

Now she's gonna start crying. She started

crying at me in Vietnam because her period

came again nearing the end of Vietnam.

We're in the airport and then she was

like, oh, do you really love me?

And she was like looking into my eyes and

saying stuff like Am I

in your heart or something like that?

I just ignored her because I didn't want

to deal with it in an airport surrounded

by people. It's so annoying.

You should be alone then. Yeah, sometimes

I wish I was alone. I wouldn't have to

bother with all this rubbish. I've got

more important things to concentrate on

and worry about than buying some stupid

chocolates on stupid Valentine's Day.

But that is the cost, the price you pay to

avoid loneliness, I guess.

And then she wants to go to her parents'

house. I don't know why she calls her

parents her parents when really it's just

parent. She said her mum and dad don't

live together and they don't really like

the dad or talk to— why didn't she say,

I'm going to my mum's house? So I don't

know if she wants me to come to her mum's

house. We talked about it earlier, like a

few months ago, and I said I don't really

want to go. And then she was really upset.

She was like, well, why don't you want to

see my family? So I said to

her I don't really like people, so I'm not

sure if she's going to go alone or she's

gonna ask me to come.

If I go, I could make a video about what

happened, why I hate my girlfriend's mum

or something. I don't really want to go,

but then if she's gonna sulk at me for not

going, Then I might as well go.

I don't really like the mum because she

was trying to break us up in the beginning

of the relationship, and I'm pretty sure

the mum was the one that told the stupid

crazy ex about us,

and she had something to do with him

showing up at the house because the

girlfriend said her mum likes the ex

because he's Thai and he owns a business.

And there's like this thing about Thai

mums not really liking it when their

daughters date a foreigner because it's

not keeping within the culture, blah blah

So I kind of feel like the mum is an

enemy, not an ally. The mum was,

you know, on the first day when I got to

Thailand and I went on a date with my

girlfriend for the first time The stupid

mum was phoning constantly trying to

cockblock me, and then my girlfriend was

seriously considering not going

any further with us. She was like, oh,

I'm not sure if I should be doing this,

my mum's against it. And I was saying,

you're 35 years old, you shouldn't be

listening to what your mum says. And then

she was like, oh, this is Thailand, we

have to listen to our parents. And I said,

in England, we just tell our parents to

fuck off. Imagine listening

to your parents when you're 30-something.

You tell your parents to go get fucked.

I'm an adult. Who the hell do you think

you are telling me what to do? That's the

annoying thing about Asia. They suck up to

their parents so much, and people are

scared of their parents in Asia.

They're actually scared of their parents,

scared of being disowned, written out of

the inheritance or the will,

banned from coming to family events.

Asian parents are sick, I think,

especially Indian and Chinese parents.

It's called tiger mums. They're just

mentally sick, don't you think? Like,

they emotionally blackmail their children

and they say stuff like, oh, you You're

not my daughter, you're not my son. And

then they say all this really hurtful

stuff like, oh, I'm so ashamed having a

son like you. And then they make threats

like, oh, you're gonna get nothing when I

die because you want to date a Black man.

They're just sick in Asia. I think the

culture is sick. So old-fashioned BS.

And I hate it. I mean, I think it's so

messed up. And Asian parents can go suck a

turd.

Go back to the UK? Well, back to my Asian

mum who also tells me she's ashamed of me.

And why have a son like you?

Fuck off, stupid Asian

parents. I hate them.

They're all the same. Chihiro's mum, my

girlfriend's mum. They're just

not open-minded at all. They're so

closed-minded that, oh, you've got to date

a Japanese guy. Oh, you've got to date a

Thai guy. They're so closed-minded.

I just find it disgusting. Disgusting

attitude, disgusting behavior.

I spit on it. I hope

that didn't get me demonetized.

Accidentally dropped an F-bomb.

Accidentally.

We're safe. We're still green.

Anyway, I get really triggered about Asian

mums, and I think I'm gonna hate my

girlfriend's mum. But my girlfriend's

mum's rich. My girlfriend's mum phoned up

telling my girlfriend that she's gonna buy

a new property That's like 3 million baht,

which is— it's nearly $150,000. I said,

how come your mum has so much money? Is

she rich? She said she's going to take out

a bank loan, and she's already got several

properties. Her mum seems loaded. Just buy

a $150,000 property like that, like it's

You angered many Asian mums. Well, Asian

mums need to listen up. And get with the

times. It's not bloody 1849 anymore.

You're not going to sell your daughter off

to some village man for a donkey. It's

2023, and we don't have to listen to you

when we're 30-something.

You better listen to us, otherwise we're

not going to look after you when you're

old and dying. So shut the fuck up.

Mind your own business. Stop meddling.

Stop trying to control us.

So maybe I should marry my Thai

girlfriend, because if the mum dies,

who's going to get all the properties? My

girlfriend is next of kin because she's

the eldest daughter. The husband is— I

think they're divorced and he started a

new family with another woman, so he's not

really in the picture. So I could joint

inherit all of these properties with my

girlfriend. I don't know how old the mum

is. She might, she might be like

Just date British. Well, I can't get a

non-fat British girlfriend.

If I could get a slim British girlfriend

who doesn't have a weird face with like

Weird teeth, big nose, no chin.

That's the kind of British girlfriends I

get. At least if I come to Asia, okay,

I'm not getting 10 out of 10s here, but at

least the girlfriends I get in Asia look

okay. Chihiro looked pretty good facially.

Chihiro had a good face, don't you think?

She didn't have like a witch nose or big

chin or small chin. She didn't have messed

up teeth. She looked pretty good. And my

girlfriend looks okay too.

She's just kind of emotionally annoying.

She's so much more emotional than Chihiro

was. Chihiro was never like this. Chihiro

was like a man, actually. Chihiro never

got emotional. The only time Chihiro cried

was when the Hong Kong guy stuff was

happening and I raged out.

And then I packed my stuff and stormed

out, and then she cried. And that was kind

of shocking because Chihiro is a pretty

tough woman. So, so to see her cry is a

little bit— maybe I went too far with

the Hong Kong guy stuff.

What's wrong with fat? I don't want to

date a girl who's way bigger than me.

Which rules out basically every fat girl.

I mean, why would you want to date a fat

person anyway? What, for their

personality? If you like the personality,

then just be friends and then find someone

else to date.

Why would you date someone just because of

their personality? Just be friends with

them. You don't have to make it romantic.

But I'd rather have a guy friend than a

fat female friend.

I don't want a fat girlfriend. I just feel

embarrassed in public. I want a slim

girlfriend or someone who's near my size.

No chump. My Thai girlfriend's really

skinny. She's actually around the same

size as me. When you look at our wrists

and legs.

Yeah, I feel— what's the word— emasculated

if the girl's bigger than me. I want to be

able to put my arms around the girl and

make her feel small,

which is difficult for me in England

because the girls in England are just so

much bigger. Being 5 foot

9, that's like average height for a woman

in England. Two of my British girlfriends

in England were actually 5 foot 9. I think

one was slightly taller by a centimeter.

Don't knock it till you try it. What fat

girls? I had many hookups with

Japanese fat girls. And an English fat

woman. She was so fat, it was like rolling

on top of one of those exercise balls.

She was huge. I was just rolling on top of

her belly whilst doing missionary. It was

so weird. And then every time I thrusted,

it was like her whole body shook like

jelly. It was so weird.

It was really hard to actually— I mean,

the first time we did it, I lost my

erection halfway through. And I had to

pretend, oh, I'm tired, I need to rest.

But then after about 10 minutes, I got

bored and it got hard again.

But it was so— I mean, the mental

challenge of trying to remain hard with

that fat woman was so difficult.

That was the worst one-night stand I ever

had. After we finished, I was like, oh

crap, now I've got to stay here all night

until next morning. Otherwise she'll think

I mean, how would I get home? She drove me

here. I had to stay all night. We just

watched Star Wars, um, Mandalorian— no,

Boba Fett or something on Disney Plus,

and we just watched that for a few hours

and then went to sleep. It was so awkward.

Never— I'm not having hookups ever again.

They're so awkward unless I actually like

the girl. I didn't think she was going to

be so fat. She looks okay in the pictures.

Never again. The worst thing is you think

the girl looks okay, you go for a date,

and then you end up sleeping with her,

but you really don't find her attractive.

But then you're stuck with her for the

rest of the night and it's really awkward.

I don't want to hurt her feelings, so I

pretend that I like her. And then as soon

as I get home, I block them. I never want

to see them again.

Online dating sucks. Every time it's just

disappointment. I was surprised that my

girlfriend looked okay because I was

expecting she'd be like really ugly or

something be weird. But when I first saw

her, yeah, she was okay looking. I

thought, yeah, I could work with this.

Did I cry in the shower after doing it

with the fat girl? No, but I definitely

went into the bathroom and washed my you

know what. I didn't like the smell either.

I could smell like her vagina on my dick

and it grossed me out.

My girlfriend's at work, but I have— I'm a

bit worried she's upset with me because

usually she'll say bye when she leaves and

she'll give me a kiss on the cheek. But

this time she just left and didn't say bye

or anything. So that's kind of strange.

I didn't really take anything she said

last night seriously because she was just

saying the same stuff, like the same

stupid stuff, like, oh, you don't love me.

Blah blah blah blah blah.

I like to do this thing when we hug in

bed. I like to push her away because she

gets upset and I find it funny. I push her

away gently and then she goes, oh, you

push me away, you don't want me.

And then she'll make this sad face and

then I'll be like, no, I'm just joking.

But I think she took it seriously last

night. And then she got all upset with me.

Wait, I can hear footsteps.

And then she started talking about She

started asking me what my plan is for next

month when I have to leave Thailand. So I

have to leave Thailand at the end of

March, and she's been asking me a lot,

what's my plan, which country am I going

to go to.

I said I'm going to go to Japan, but I'm

not sure if she wants to come with me. I

joke and I say I'm going to go back to

Vietnam again. Then she says No, you go by

yourself then. Does that mean that she

would come with me if I'm not going to

Vietnam? I don't really want her to come

with me to Japan. Japan is like a special

solitary experience for me. It would be

weird or it'd be tainted if I brought

someone with me. It wouldn't be the same.

For me, going to Japan is like when

Muslims go to Mecca. It's a spiritual

journey, it's an emotional journey.

All the memories I've had since I was 18

or 20 come flooding back— the smells, the

sounds. It's a

very powerful experience, and I prefer to

be alone for it, to soak in the

atmosphere. Sometimes When I'm in Japan on

my first few days, I just, I just sit

outside in silence, not doing anything,

just soaking up the atmosphere.

It takes a while for me to, to realize— I

mean, to— what's the word? Yeah, to

realize that I'm actually in Japan,

because the first few days I feel like,

wow, am I actually here? It's just so

weird that I'm here again.

Did you compare a holy place to Japan?

Yeah, Japan is my holy place. It's my

spiritual Mecca. I don't know why I have

this special connection. Japan has this

special place in my heart,

and if she comes with me, it's going to be

annoying. She's going to expect me to

talk, do the talking. Because I told her I

speak Japanese.

Okay, I need to sort out my charging

stuff. These batteries won't last long.

My iPhone's already drained 50% just from

being used as a hotspot. The hell?

Okay, so today I'm gonna make a special

dinner. Get some kitchen

stuff out.

It's been ages since I last cooked on

stream, hasn't it? I think last time I did

a cooking stream must have been back home

in England when I got the air fryer. The

air fryer was fun, wasn't it? I like the

The iPhone 12 mini, the battery drains so

quickly, it's not good. I can't believe

I've been using it for 2 years now. I

bought this iPhone 12 when I was with

Mila, remember? I did that unboxing video.

Says the battery capacity is now only 80%,

so it's degraded quite a

lot over the 2 years.

Peel the sticker off completely. What,

this? It won't come off, it's just stuck.

I hate it when companies put these stupid

stickers on stuff and you're trying to

scratch it off and then all the glue gets

stuck. Why do they do that?

You know I'm gonna use it as a cutting

surface. They put this stupid sticky

stuff. Do you think my hands look

better now? Look, my hands have

completely— well, not completely because

there's still some marking. It did start

coming back a bit here. I put the cream on

and now it's going away again. It tries

to come back, but then I have to put the

cream on and it goes away.

Tries to come back.

I feel like I'm going to be stuck with

this skin thing forever. It goes away and

then it comes back again, and then I have

to have the cream, and then it goes away

again, then it comes back again. It's very

I want to get a little sticker to block

the selfie cam in, in case I accidentally

flip the camera. I hate it when I do that

and it's like a super up-close shot of my

face. Oh wow,

thanks Rosetta Stone. When is your

birthday, Daniel Opa? It's March 20th,

1989, but I told my girlfriend it's a

different day, so on my actual birthday

I'm not gonna be celebrating it, and then

she's gonna be celebrating my fake

birthday. I need to remember what day

I told her my fake birthday was.

I was scared she might Google my birthday

and that famous birthdays website would

I saw Ice walking around Don Quijote in

Japan on his stream. And the, the store

owner phoned the police on him. The police

came, and I've seen quite a few of these

police interactions with ICE, and they

always ask him the same things like,

where are you from? When's your birth

date? All these really dumb questions.

And then they start asking questions like,

oh, are you live streaming? As if live

streaming is such a weird and bad bad

thing to be doing.

Just seems so pointless. Yeah, he's live

streaming, so what? He's not doing

anything wrong or illegal.

I don't know if that would happen in the

UK. Well, they would tell you no filming,

and if you refused, I think they would

call the police if you don't leave.

Because they do have the right to tell you

not to film in a store. It's strange

so many stores don't let you film.

Because of what? Because they think their

competitors are trying to steal their

products design or something.

He got put on a Japanese database. Yeah,

I bet they're watching his stream and

finding out about him.

He's just being annoying in public, being

loud, but he's not breaking any

laws, is he? So they can't really deport

him or kick him out, can they? Well, just

for being loud.

That's why I never go into shops when I do

a live stream. If I do, I, I put my phone

into my pocket or I put it into a strap so

it doesn't look like I'm filming.

Would I ever consider to get a normal job?

No. My main goal in life is to not have to

get a job. Because I want to be a content

creator and a stock market investor.

I don't want to work in Tesco's or

McDonald's. That's just lame.

It's not about the money. It's about the

freedom and not having to work in

a team. Working in a team and having to

communicate, it's not something I'm good

at.

I think every single job I've had, I've

had problems with teamwork, and I get

annoyed with my co-workers. They get

annoyed with me. Usually my co-workers

don't like me because I'm not very chatty.

I'm not very bubbly and friendly. I'm kind

of boring. I look like I'm miserable all

the time because I'm at work, and I'm not

I'm not a fun time to hang around,

and I know they think that I'm weird. My

boss even had a word with me once because

I wasn't saying hello to people when I

came in. Because what I do at the petrol

station, usually when the next shift staff

come in, they would walk up to the

cashier, say good morning, and then make a

left turn and then a right turn into the

office. I would make a left turn at the

entrance, avoid the cash register area

completely so I don't have to say good

morning, and kind of sneak into the office

by going around the edges of the store.

My boss saw me doing that and she was

like, Daniel, how come you don't say good

morning when you come in?

Because I can't be bothered.

It's just like a stupid word. I can't be

bothered to say good morning every single

I'm just really weird like that. I don't

like to follow the social norms. In the

first few days or weeks, I will just obey,

but then after a while, I'll get fed up

and give up trying.

YouTube isn't a stable job. You could lose

your views. Well, that applies to

anything. Look at Google. They laid off

10,000 people. Amazon fired like 20,000

people. Twitter fired like 90% of its

staff when Elon Musk took over. So even if

you're like a coder working for Google,

your job's not safe. You could get fired

as well. And then you say, oh yeah, well,

I could just get a new job coding for a

different country. I mean, different

company. Yeah, that's true. I can't

really just jump over to TikTok and

start again because I'll lose all my

viewers. How am I going to tell you guys

that I'm on TikTok now if my channel got

deleted? I guess I'd tweet it out and

post it on Discord, but I don't have that

many followers there.

I guess I'd move to Twitch, do Twitch

full-time. I will be

doing Twitch again next week when Hogwarts

Legacy comes out. I'm gonna get the deluxe

version so I can get 72 hours early

access.

TikTok might get banned. Oh yeah, because

it's a Chinese company. The only

alternative site to YouTube would be

Twitch. But that's not a video website,

it's a streaming website. But I do mostly

make— I don't know, I think most of my

money still comes from videos actually,

but streaming makes up a large part of it.

Well, as long as I don't get banned. Not

getting banned and trying to get views are

my main goals.

I seem to be safe for now.

I haven't had a strike since the Tim

Schofield thing, which was in 2021, I

think. Wasn't that 2021 when Tim

Schofield gave me a copyright strike?

So all of 2022 I didn't get any strikes,

so that's good.

I think now my channel is more low-key and

not really, not really being watched by a

huge amount of people. The chances of

getting a strike— I don't want to jinx it,

but I think the chances of getting a

strike are much lower now. So there's less

haters. There's also less big channels

making videos about me.

How much do I make? How much do I earn

nowadays? Um,

October, November, December, I was making

about $2,000 a month. They were pretty

good months, but January's been bad. I've

only made about 1,400

end of January. Hopefully things pick up

February with this new Harry Potter game.

Fingers crossed my Harry Potter video gets

some good views. I've made some Harry

Potter videos on my second channel, but

none of them are getting views for some

reason. I need to bring out the do

not buy clickbait.

That one seems to work. I'm gonna put my

review out, I think, Monday night,

right before the release date, hopefully

before IGN. I'm actually gonna upload it

if IGN posts their review. I'm gonna

upload mine straight away too. It's ready

to go.

As an avid fan of Harry Potter, I knew I

just had to play this game.

Unfortunately, so far it's been bland,

boring, and uninspired. How can a Harry

Potter game not have Harry Potter in it?

This is so rubbish. I think I

made some funny arguments. I also said,

how come they don't let you fly the flying

car from Harry Potter? I'm hoping someone

says Because the game's set in 1890,

dumbass. Cars haven't even been invented.

They should make a Harry Potter game in

the future so

it's like cyberpunk, and Harry Potter's

not really in the game. He's like a, a

character in the background, but he's like

50 years old and it's all cyberpunk and

futuristic. That'd be pretty funny.

January is slow for content creators.

Yeah, most YouTubers don't even post

anything in January. Look at Chris Broad.

He posted what? I don't think he even

posted anything in January. Now he's back.

How come viewers don't find that

upsetting? Don't, don't you as a viewer

find it kind of weird Or find

it disappointing that YouTubers care so

much about the money. Because you look at

December, everyone starts pumping out

loads of videos like Vlogmas because

the CPM is really good. You get a lot of

money in December from ads. And then in

January, all of a sudden everyone's so

quiet and not making anything.

They don't mention it's about money, but

if you know anything about YouTube, then

you'll know it's about money. But no one

seems to really bring it up and say, oh,

I'm disappointed in you, Chris. I thought

you did it because of the passion,

not because of the money. How can you

argue that you're doing it for passion,

not for money, if you refuse to post in

January because the money's lower? What a

bunch of fakers.

My plan is to stream on Twitch Harry

Potter, and if anything video-worthy

happens, I want to clip it whilst I'm

streaming and then post it to YouTube,

straight to YouTube. But I'm not sure how

you do that because on Twitch you can't

scroll back the live stream. There's no

rewind button like there is on YouTube.

So I'd have to end the stream and then

edit the VOD to post to YouTube. I'm not

sure what kind of videos I would post.

I'm gonna have to just put out a load of

stuff like first

20 minutes of gameplay in Hogwarts Legacy,

how to become a dark wizard.

Dark Wizard build and playstyle tutorial,

something like that.

Maybe I'm

just jealous because there's all these

other channels making loads of Harry

Potter videos now. They're getting huge

views. Like 100K, 150K,

and they're just posting updates about the

trailer and little bits of information.

They managed to stretch it to 10 minutes,

but I think they've been making Harry

Potter update videos for the last 5

months, so they've built up an audience

who are interested in that. And now I'm a

bit late with the Hogwarts Legacy stuff,

I think.

Well, I'm not going to be late for the

review. I'm going to get my review out

before everyone else.

I'm hoping it gets at least 100K views.

I can't really tell though. If it pops off

on the algorithm, could get a load of

views, but if it flops, it's gonna get

like 4K views probably,

and then I'll look stupid for

having such low views.

I saw a tweet from Chihiro's boyfriend

Apparently he's in Thailand again. He said

he got food poisoning from some food stall

and he's got like a 40-degree temperature

fever and he's got diarrhea. So that's

what you get for stealing my wife. Karma,

baby.

So is he in Thailand now? With Chihiro,

or is Chihiro back in Japan? Chihiro can't

take so many days off work. I know they

were in Laos up until the 20th, but

according to his tweet, he's back in

Thailand again in Phuket. So I don't

understand if he's just— maybe he's

actually solo traveling now and Chihiro

went back by herself. Joey is

in Thailand as well. Really? What, the

anime man? Sam Pepper's in Thailand as

well. He only gets like 130 viewers when

he streams. 2 million sub channel.

His streams are pretty boring though. His

gear is good and the stream quality is

really good. He's made a load of videos

like eating insects in Thailand. They get

2K views. So sad. You see a

massive dead channel like that and trying

to do streams and they only get 100

viewers. Why doesn't

he go back to doing what he used to do?

Those weird social— social—

what are they called? Social experiments

on the street. That's what made him

famous, not IRL streams.

Sam Pepper used to be huge. He used to get

like PewDiePie numbers. 3 to 5 million

views a video. He was kind

of like MrBeast type of content,

but degenerate and scuffed

Can we see your girlfriend? You can see

her in some videos, but I'm not going to

show her face.

Will I do IRL stream again? Probably not.

I get, I get less viewers and views when I

do IRL. Look at my last IRL, has like 4K

views. I don't get any more viewers

or views when I do IRL, so I don't see the

point of doing it. And no one really cares

about me freaking out at lizards or

talking to some old Thai woman.

So I don't have an IRL audience, so

there's no point in doing it. Maybe I'll

do some in Japan. I'm not really sure what

my life is going to be like in Japan.

I've been trying to figure out what I want

to do. I'm leaning towards guest house.

Guest house seems to be the most

affordable option. You can get a guest

house room for about £300 a month.

And then if I want to make a video or

OnlyFans, I might just go to a love hotel,

book myself a love hotel for a couple of

hours, which will just cost maybe—

probably cost like $30 for a couple

hours in a love hotel. I can make some

OnlyFans stuff, make a quick video.

Bring my mic and tripod. I'm not gonna

make stuff in the guest house because you

just don't really have much privacy in a

guest house, and people could

hear me talking if I'm in my room. It'd be

And I'm not gonna make OnlyFans in the

guest house. I'd get in trouble if the

manager found out. But it's silly to spend

like $2,000 on a hotel or apartment just

so I have my own room to make stuff in.

I think the guest house is the best idea.

I could do a naked OnlyFans livestream.

I want to go to one of those Don Quijote

stores and then go into the adult section,

buy a bunch of weird stuff.

I need to get my OnlyFans running again,

promote it again. How would I promote it?

I could, I could make a video buying sex

toys knowing it'll probably get

age-restricted or demonetized, but I'm

gonna blur out all the stuff. Trying not

to get demonetized, but the main purpose

would be to link my OnlyFans.

Let's see what kind of weird stuff I can

get in Japan. Maybe some tengas,

stuff the tengu into a, a big cuddly

bear.

What else would I do? I'm not sure what

I'm gonna do in Japan. If I

stream, I have to go outside to stream

because I'm not gonna stream in the guest

house. So I guess I could do some IRL in

Japan.

But I think life in Japan is gonna be kind

of rough after living in this nice

apartment, having a girlfriend, going back

to a guest house and being lonely and

single again. Not really looking forward

to it. I'm not sure if I'll be able to

make friends because I've become really

antisocial. I need to really change my

attitude and just lighten up a bit. Stop

being so scared of people. Maybe I'll make

some friends at the guest house and it'll

be a good time.

Delete OnlyFans, it's degenerate. I wish I

could, but I need the money. YouTube is

just not bringing in the views like it

used to. If I was making 2K a month on

YouTube, I'd not do the OnlyFans.

I need the money. People not

watching my YouTube anymore.

Every time I stream, I lose about 30 subs.

We're gonna get back down to 111K at this

rate.

My girlfriend's also upset because I don't

message her when she's at work. Maybe I'll

message her now. She also gets upset

because I don't call her baby. I said in

the UK, men don't use the word baby.

Whenever she complains, I just say, oh,

it's UK culture, we don't do that.

I don't think she believes me. Good

morning, hope you have a

nice day. Love.

She has a point, I'm not being very

romantic.

I think I was really romantic in the

beginning because I was trying hard to get

her. And I was sending her the love hearts

and the kissies, being all cute.

But now I just feel like, ah, I can't be

bothered doing this every day.

The honeymoon period is over. Yeah.

Oh, she replied.

She said, wow. Why? She put

W-O-O-W-W-W-W-W.

So cute. See how easy it is to

please women? They can be so upset one

moment, and all we have to do is send them

one message, and it's like it makes their

day. Should I— I nearly accidentally sent

the emoji, you know, online. There's an

emoji of the bear kneeing the rabbit

in the stomach, and he sent that. Why is

that emoji on there? Domestic violence

arc.

What should I send back? I'll send the

little rabbit peeping out the hole.

Tricky thing, maintaining a relationship.

It's like watering a plant. You got to

keep giving them some nourishment,

otherwise they get upset. Happy wife,

happy life.

What's the percent chance you marry her?

Uh, probably like 20%.

I'm thinking maybe it

wouldn't be so bad I don't really want to

go to Japan and live in a guesthouse. I

don't make enough money to rent an

apartment, as you know, like an

Airbnb apartment.

They cost at least $1,000 for a serviced

apartment in Japan. Can't afford that.

It's too much. She said,

you make me happy today. You make

me happy every day.

This is so gay. Just feel cringe when I

say that stuff, but you have to. I don't

like saying that stuff. Chihiro deleted

her Instagram? Really? You mean she

deleted the whole account? That's just

sad. I didn't want her to delete

her social media.

Oh no, it's still there. I thought you

meant she actually deleted the account.

That's her Instagram.

She's probably not gonna like that I'm

linking her account.

Chi.chi0304.

She deleted everything.

I can't believe she deleted everything. I

thought she really wanted to have her

Instagram and her posts and her social

media presence.

Hong Kong guy hasn't deleted his stuff.

Do you think she'll ask Hong Kong guy to

delete his stuff? I bet she regrets it

now. All those videos of her makes

her look really bad as well, you know. It

doesn't just make me look bad, we both

look bad. We both look like clowns

insulting each other over the internet.

No one is respecting us, they're just

laughing at us.

Hong Kong guy's channel description: talk—

taking a walk in the woods, playing the

piano, kicking the hacky sack, and

shredding the footbag. Shredding the

footbag? No one cared about his stupid

hacky sack thing. Did he think he was

going to go viral? A million views.

Hong Kong guy hacky sack tricks,

2022. He did try to make some videos,

didn't he? Language tips. Don't study

monkey equals racist. Deserve versus

fate or destiny.

Osaka City during pandemic, street piano,

2 AM abandoned hotel exercise.

He did try to, to make something of his

channel, didn't he? And then it just all

flopped because you got a drama

audience. You got the Hiding in My Room

audience. All they care about is bloody

Chihiro and drama. The Hiding in My Room

audience don't give a crap about Oh, 3 AM

abandoned hotel or street piano.

The Hide in My Room audience don't care

about anything apart from stupid marriage

and girl drama. That's why I

failed to make anything that works on the

channel. That's why the channel doesn't

grow. My audience only cared about one

thing.

Chihiro this and Chihiro that.

Imagine it's 2025, I'm still making videos

about Chihiro. It's been 10 years since I

divorced my ex-wife. Why I regret

divorcing my ex-wife.

Do I still study kanji?

Not really. Don't really study Japanese

anymore,

although I

did think I was reading some Japanese

stuff recently. I forgot what I was

reading.

I do feel a bit interested again in

learning Japanese or brushing up on my

Japanese, but I don't have

any Japanese friends and I don't go on

Japanese dates anymore, so it's kind of

useless.

You blew up before Chihiro. Yeah, I did,

but for some reason people only stuck

around for the Chihiro drama, not for

anything else.

I want to do an RV trip. It looks fun.

Who would I do an RV trip with? I think

I'd get fed up. I think it would be

boring. You'd have no alone time, it would

start stinking, people would get annoying.

I think I'd rather just be a viewer of

that kind of stuff and not, not be a

creator. It does look like

a fun adventure though that would drive

you crazy. It's kind of like

the Top Gear specials where they would

have a challenge to go somewhere using

a limited budget or limited vehicle

options, and then they'll drive each other

crazy, and then there'd be drama.

Similar concept, isn't it?

More content involving your interests. My

interests are the stock market,

Ice Poseidon, gaming.

So nothing my viewers would care about.

Whenever I talk about stocks, people hate

it. They get really bored.

They don't care when I talk about games

either. I also like fish. I want to

get some fish again. I want to get a fish

tank, get some plants,

put some fishies in it. That'd be fun.

I might ask my girlfriend if we can get

fish. I really liked having

the fish in Japan. I think they're all

dead now. All my fish died. I think 2 of

the goldfish died. I think maybe one of

the goldfish is still alive. It says

goldfish live up to 20 years. How are they

all dead already? Chihiro is not very good

at looking after things. She would make a

bad mother.

Next video, why my ex-wife would make a

bad mother. She has zero mothering skills.

I want to livestream games, to be honest,

but every time I put a game on, I'd lose

50% of my viewers.

I had a weird dream about my dad last

night. I woke up crying.

Something like my mum got a new man, my

dad got angry, and Then the new man killed

my dad.

And then I was stealing a camera from a

shop and the police were chasing me. It

was really weird. I woke up and all these

tears were coming out of my eyes.

I need to be careful I don't knock the

tripod over. And dox myself.

This tripod's not very stable.

See,

if I get caught on the charging cable,

it's going to knock it over.

Oops.

There are these weird Thailand emojis that

make sound. Listen,

it's funny. Hey.

No, it's not a game. It's an emoji my

girlfriend sent to me. It makes a sound.

When you press it.

Okay, let me get the ingredients out.

Oh,

oh my God,

put the pot— should I

put the pot— put it here.

Uh, not sure if

I have all the right ingredients. See if

you can guess what I'm gonna make.

I'm also not sure if the meat is the right

meat. I wanted to get minced beef and

this is the only thing I could find that

was closest to minced beef. It's called

minced beef on the packet but it doesn't

look like minced meat like in England.

In England it looks like a brain, you

know, like noodles of meat and it's very

red. But this looks just like chopped up

beef. Does say

beef minced on it.

See, look, beef minced.

There was minced pork and it looked like

what I wanted, but I don't think you're

supposed to use pork for this dish.

Why not take a license, become a financial

consultant, become a financial advisor?

Because I'm pretty bad at investing.

You know, I'm going short to the market