i got stream sniped again [CVCEMyGkq4c]

Wait, I started the stream right next to

music.

Someone's playing music in the car with

the window down.

Look where I am! So I'm in

a very special place today,

the legendary Kireuriwari Station.

So it's been 7 years since

I last came here, and this was the first

place I came to the first time I came to

Japan in 2010.

So it should be interesting.

That's the Aeon shopping center I used to

sit in when I first got here.

This place has kind of an old smell,

and it's got like an old vibe. Even the

train station and the train line, the

Tanimachi train line, feels really old.

I wonder if I'm gonna get nostalgia.

It has been 14 years.

I hate when they put those stupid flags on

the side of the road, it blows into you.

I used to park my bicycle here. It got

taken away once and then I had to go all

the way to the bike pound compound—

impound? Forgot what the word is. I had to

go to the bike place and pay ¥1,500 to get

my bike back.

The Aeon shopping center's over there. I

don't think I'll go there, might lose

connection inside. Why always put

clickbait wasted my life stuff? Because

that's what you guys like. If I put eating

the best Japanese food, none of you would

click, be honest. But if I put emo I

hate my life title, then you guys click it

for some reason. So there should be a Book

Off. There used to be a Book Off.

I don't know if Book Off went out of

business. Oh, it's here, the Book Off.

I'm surprised Book Off is still in

business. Who still reads books?

Oh, what? Okay, this is

weird. There used to be like an overhead

road. They're taking it down.

There used to be a big overhead road here.

Why are they removing it? Oh, look!

Oh, that's so weird. It looks like they're

building it, but they're not. They must be

taking it down because this bit used to go

over and then you used to cross the road

here and you would stand under it when it

rained. I remember me and James standing

over there.

And then there's life in the supermarket.

We know it's clickbait at this point.

Yeah, well, I'm not trying to fool you,

but if I don't put a title that the

algorithm thinks you like, the algorithm's

not going to show you my stream. I'm not

trying to trick you guys, I'm trying to

trick the stupid algorithm. If I put going

bowling in Osaka, no one's gonna click

it because the algorithm won't show it. I

know how it works. Plan for today,

we're gonna go back to the very first

guest house I ever stayed in and

roam around where I used to live before I

got married. So this is the first

weird thing because that used to be a road

that went over this thing.

I don't know why they're taking it down.

I wonder why.

Look, it used to go over and then connect

over to that side.

Actually, I'm getting weird nostalgia

standing here now. This is where I lost

my B-word.

I mean, not right here, but in this area.

Getting weird feelings. Okay,

let's cross.

I remember sometimes it rained, I would

stand in the middle here and then you'd be

underneath the overhead bridge thing,

overhead road. I don't know why they're

taking it down. And then I used to come to

this Life quite a lot.

There should be a McDonald's right down

there. I remember going there with James.

2 AM in the morning.

And then if I remember correctly, you go

down that way.

I think we gotta be careful. This area is

kind of ghetto. It's like South Osaka.

That guy was just like mumbling to

himself. It was so weird coming here first

time in Japan, 2010. No smartphones,

things like Google Maps didn't really

exist. Or did it? Did it exist? I don't

remember. I couldn't afford a smartphone

until 2011. Most people didn't have

smartphones back in 2010, and if you saw

someone using one, it was kind of rare.

So I had no Google Maps, I had no

internet.

My girlfriend had to, had to like hold my

hand and take me to the guest house, and

then she left me there. I felt so alone.

It's so weird now. I've got internet,

Google Maps, got money.

I felt like such a baby back then.

But it was my first ever time in Japan and

I was only 20 years old. I had barely any

money, had no technology.

I printed out a paper map. My dad said you

should print out a map and take it But

there's no point because you don't know

where you are on the map,

so it wasn't very helpful. It's weird, I

remember exactly how to— oh, this bit is

the same as well. There's a petrol

station, you turn right at the petrol

station. Oh wow, thanks Gerald.

A lot of people had iPhone 3Gs in 2008.

At night. Well, I didn't know anyone who

had a smartphone. Well, I didn't really

know anyone anyway. I knew my sister, my

mum, and my dad, but at the guest house

not many people had smartphones.

Everyone were you— everyone was using the

old kind of flip phones, Nokias.

I don't remember a single person with a

smartphone in 2010.

Oh look, there's that bridge. I took a

selfie up there. I don't know if you

remember it. I was standing on that

bridge, I took a selfie. I had kind of

like long hair. I used to walk around this

area a lot during 2017 as well because I

lived here as well in 2017 before my

YouTube channel took off. So I filmed a

lot of vlogs and stuff in my early days

here. Yeah, this is literally where it

all started.

And then it should be turn right and then

turn left.

Very weird to be back. It's like 14

years since my first time

here, and then 7 years since my last time

And then we can walk around the

neighborhood and

then 13-kilometer walk back to Umeda.

Does that sound like a fun day? We're

going to JF Plaza, the first ever guest

house I stayed in in 2010.

Don't you feel like the poorer the area,

the more bicycles there are?

So many bicycles.

Here it is. It's down this road.

I remember going to this Family Mart quite

a lot to get food and stuff.

Oh my God, here it

is! Look, it's right there. That building.

Oh, looks like loads of people live there.

All the bicycles outside of it.

Look at all the bikes. I wonder if I can

It looks kind of small. There's people

coming out.

Ah, this guest house still looks more fun

than the one I'm in. It's got more of a

social feeling.

Not really much to do. That's it really.

I'm not going to go in. I can't go inside,

I don't know the code. It looks kind of

nice though. They've got a little tree

outside of it.

I met so many people here.

Had cereal for the first time here too.

I don't know which, which room it was,

one of those. It was right at the end of

This is where I met that Korean woman back

in 2010, my first real girlfriend.

Why didn't you stay here this time?

Um, I don't know.

I didn't really want to stay here again

because I stayed here in 2017.

This supermarket wasn't here. When I was

here in 2010, but it was here in 2017,

and then I used to walk up here to make my

vlogs because I couldn't make it in the

So I'd always wait until evening or

nighttime to come out when there were no

people around to make my vlogs in 2017.

Oh, I remember these. Footpaths. I used to

walk up and down these talking about my

Tinder dates because I went on a lot of

Tinder dates in 2017, and every video was

basically me talking about some Japanese

woman I met, or people at the guest house,

like the fat French guy who was muttering

to himself in the corridor. Used to be the

one who annoyed me back then.

Yeah, if you've been watching from 2017,

you might remember this is where I made

all my vlogs before I got married and

left this place in October.

I think I only stayed here in 2017. I only

stayed here for about a month before I got

mauled. And then in 2010, I stayed here

for 5 months whilst going to Japanese

school in Shinsaibashi. It was such a

fun time. Didn't hide in my room all day

every day. Had friends, ate food together,

went out places.

I think I like this place more than I

maybe this place is a bit quieter than

where I live. It's just apartment blocks,

look, so you don't have

people racing motorbikes up and down.

There should be a river. I remember there

was a bridge and it was raining and I was

sitting under the river. Doing a

livestream.

Who's Sasaki?

What are you guys talking about?

Well, if I knew the guest house I was

staying at now was like how it is, I

wouldn't have chosen it. It's really bad

now. An American guy was up until past

2 AM on the phone. I know he wasn't really

on the phone, he was just like muttering

things to himself, and I could hear a

woman's voice. I think he might have been

watching a video. Or exchanging voice

messages, but he kept randomly saying

stuff. And then the other guy in the other

room, I don't know if he's new or if he's

moving out, he was on the phone at 3 AM.

It sounded like some kind of Indian

language, so I don't know if it's the Sri

Lankan guy and he's moving out now because

he's making a lot of noise, like banging,

moving inside of the room. He dropped

something big and it went bang at like 3

AM, and then I heard the American guy

mutter something, so it must have woken

him up, which I find kind of funny because

now he's getting a taste of his own

medicine. See how he likes

being woken up in the night. It'll be

funny if he knocks on the Indian guy's

room complaining.

So either it's a new guy or he's moving

out now, so he's making noise. Packing

stuff. But before, he was quite quiet.

He would go to bed early, be at work all

day. So, it was getting really bad.

I was right— I mean, I wrote an email to

the manager complaining, but I didn't send

it because the American guy finally

stopped. They all stopped finally making

noise around 3 AM and I fell asleep.

But I feel like, what's the point

reporting the American guy when it's like

everyone there stays up really late and

talks on the phone in the middle of the

night? Why don't they go to sleep?

Both of them not sleeping past 2 AM.

So I can't get to sleep until they get to

sleep because I can't sleep if there's

noise. Traffic noise is okay, but when

someone's speaking, especially if

it's English, because my brain starts

trying to follow what they're saying,

I'm just getting so fed up with it. I

don't know why they have no consideration

for other people. They know the walls are

thin, but they still talk. They don't even

try to keep their voices down.

This guest house sucks so much. It's not

even a guest house like the one over there

that I just showed you. That's a proper

guest house where you've got a big

building and it's like basically like a

hotel with a long corridor and then rooms

on either side. It's like a hotel room,

but the one I'm in now is like an

apartment block with individual apartment

units, and within each unit There's 3

rooms, so I'm basically sharing an

apartment with 2 other guys, and it

really sucks. At least in a big guest

house, you would have like a big toilet,

shower— you have a shower area, a big

shower area room on the ground floor, and

that's what everyone used. And then you

have big toilets on each floor, maybe 10,

5 to 10 toilets in each toilet room.

And then you have like hotel-style

corridor with rooms, and then people would

go down to the shower room or the kitchen,

and it was like that. But this is just

completely different.

Wear earplugs? I thought about it. I

stuffed some tissue in my ear. It didn't

really help. It's just really

uncomfortable because I like to sleep on

my side, and if you've got something

in your ear and your head on its side,

it's not very comfortable.

Trying to sleep only on your back gets

uncomfortable after a while. I move around

a lot. I like to sleep on my slide— my

slide? I like to sleep on my side mostly.

So putting in earplugs would be really

uncomfortable, but it might be the best

solution. I don't

know if they would change their behavior

if I reported them, or I could try and

just book a hotel and waste £500.

I've stayed in guest houses before and

it's never been this bad. Usually people

stay quiet, keep quiet after midnight

because they've got jobs and school to go

to the next day. For some reason The

American guy, he wakes up pretty early

because I can hear English lessons around

9 o'clock. So he wakes up at 9, he goes to

bed at like 2 or 3. He's only sleeping 5

hours. It's crazy.

I don't know why he goes to sleep so late.

And he does— when he goes to the toilet,

he doesn't shut the door. He'll just go in

there, trousers down, start pissing with

the door wide open. Because I don't hear

the door opening or closing, and I can

hear the piss so loudly. So, he just

treats the whole place like it's his home

and he's the only one there. And now the

other guy is getting really loud and noisy

too. So annoying having to live there.

I'm counting the days until I can leave.

I've got about 17 days, I think.

It would just be such a waste of money if

I just got a hotel.

I would end up wasting like £500 or £600.

It's the first time I've stayed in a guest

house where it's so bad.

2017 was the last time I stayed in one and

it was not like this.

Had no problems. There was only one time

this guy opened my door because he got

confused, but I had no problems going to

sleep in the last guest house. I already

knocked on his wall once, but he didn't

change. The next day he was on the phone

again.

Basically, I have changed my sleep pattern

because I'm waking up at 12 now in the

middle of the day, and I'm going to sleep

at like 3 because

my streams end pretty late.

Be as annoying as he is. I don't know how

to, because if he's asleep,

I want to go to sleep too.

I don't really want to make noise. I don't

like making noise.

No, I can't go to a different guest house.

They have minimum stays of usually 1

month. I'm only here for another 17

days in Osaka.

I don't really want to have to sleep later

because I'm so tired from all the walking.

I fell asleep yesterday around 7

PM. I woke up at 9 PM, had a small nap.

All this walking is really making me

tired. My feet still hurt, like the bones

in my foot. Every day they hurt.

So I don't know what to do.

It seems like they stay up until 3 AM

at the most, usually not past 3,

so this is really annoying.

Why couldn't I have people who go to work

and go to sleep?

And go to school.

The guest house here was way better.

It's funny how the vibe of the guest house

can completely change— again, completely

change. I can't speak properly today.

Completely change based on the layout of

the building as well. The guest house here

has like a more open, welcoming living

room as well. I wish I could go inside.

Maybe the manager lives there and I could

ring the doorbell, ask if I can do a

viewing.

No, they wouldn't let me stream. Maybe

it's the same manager as last time who

told me off for streaming. I remember one

Twitch stream, I went up these staircases

in the middle of the night and I peed.

It was quite a nice view at the top.

Oh well, that's what you get when you're

broke. You've got to live with annoying

people. I feel like people are

more annoying the more poor they are.

Oh, I think that's the, the baseball field

I used to walk around. This is also the

area where I used to walk around with that

Korean girl. So I cheated on my first

Japanese girlfriend with that Korean woman

who's 35 when I was 20, and then I cheated

on her with this younger Korean girl who

was like 20. Her name was Yumi, and I had

a really big crush on her, but nothing

really happened. We just kissed once, but

we used to come out here in the evening

and like run around and stuff like kids.

I found her really cute,

but then she just kind of moved out of the

guest house I saw her one more time. We

met up. She said she moved in with some

Korean woman, and then I never saw her

ever again. Didn't even get her contacts.

She was a bit weird. Yeah, I used to walk

around here. Are they dismantling this

place too? Why are they taking everything

down?

Oh, here's the river.

I wonder what

else is nearby here.

I think last year.

Might go there after. I finish here.

I don't remember where we used to go. We

used to just hang out in the guest house,

and then if we went anywhere, we'd get on

the train either to Osaka Castle

Oh, oh, usually the park.

Maybe next year I stay here again.

My first time in love with a woman.

I remember when she left to go back to

Korea, I was so sad, felt so lonely,

cried every night.

She wrote me letters. And then she came

back again. She left to go back to Korea,

and then a couple weeks later she came

back again to see me. We booked a hotel

and stayed in a hotel for my last few

weeks in Japan, and then we said goodbye

at the airport. It was like some kind of

romantic romance novel.

15-year age gap though. She was really

in love with me. When a woman goes home

and then comes straight back to see you

again, that means she really likes you.

Not just like, like proper love.

She was my first proper girlfriend.

The Japanese girlfriend, she was

technically my first, but we never did it

and it only lasted for like 2 weeks.

Yeah, this is where I used to come. I

remember this road. Oh my God, I used to

walk around here at night whining about

people at the guest house,

and then I'd get triggered every time a

bicycle comes up behind me or a car

passes. I'd be like, oh, stupid effing car

ruining my video. Yeah, I used to walk up

and down this pavement because it's quite

wide.

I remember this.

This is

like being back in 2017. I had about 2K

subs. I was about to meet Tomoko.

I was just getting some traction on

YouTube. My channel was finally starting

to grow. I had 2K subs, but I was getting

like 3K, 4K views every video. I was

getting double the views than I had subs,

which is a very good sign when your

channel's new. That was like the growth

phase. All these flies flying. That's like

the growth phase of a YouTube channel. So

when you get double the views of your sub

count. And then I turn around and

I walk up and down this road doing my

I made a video called Why Am I Getting So

Much Hate after the Tomoko thing. I think

that's when Troll Daniel started,

started to make an appearance. I was like

copying Keemstar. Everyone kept hating on

me because I called Tomoko old, and like,

give me a break, man, I was making videos

about me too. So I felt all

this hate on me, but I was kind of

trolling in it, pretending I didn't know

why people were hating on me.

Do you wish you could go back? Uh, I don't

know, it was a different time.

I was— I mean, I was broke then, but I'm

more broke now than I was back then. At

least back then I didn't have negative net

worth. Now I've got negative— I'm in debt

by nearly £12,000.

So I'd walk up and down here.

It was a real struggle to make videos

because if I'd come out at day, as you can

see, there's loads of people. I could not

make videos with all these people around.

And then if I came out at night, it was

really dark.

And I couldn't really livestream because I

didn't know how to get good

internet connection. Um, I don't know

if pocket Wi-Fi were a thing back then. I

think they were, but they weren't very

good. Oh, I did have pocket Wi-Fi. Yeah,

I remember doing streams with the pocket

Wi-Fi and it was really blocky and

pixelated. I hate it when there's people

behind me, so I just stop and

I pretend to look at my phone like this

and then put my phone back in my pocket

and then turn.

Yeah, I did try live streaming, but I was

focused on making videos because that's

how you grow a channel. When you're

growing the channel, you shouldn't do live

That's when you're in the growth phase of

a YouTube channel. When you're in the dead

phase, it doesn't really matter what you

So many kids today.

Why are there so many kids? It's— oh,

it's 5 PM.

It's really windy today. So you notice in

Japan there's basically 2 types of

weather: rain all day or windy all day.

And maybe one day out of the week it would

be cloudy and sunny.

Last stream is raining all stream. And

then today it's been windy all day. I

don't know why Japanese weather is so

miserable. Oh, it was under here. I sat

under here eating 7-Eleven food during the

and it was raining.

I remember it was raining, so I hid under

Weather in Thailand's so much better.

Okay, it's really hot, but it's not gloomy

and horrible. Japan weather is horrible.

Rains so much, and then it's windy when

it's not raining, and then you get summer

where it's really hot.

Yeah, I sat under there, under that

bridge. I wonder what happened to this

stream. I must have deleted it,

or it must have been a Twitch stream, so

they delete themselves after 2 weeks.

I don't know why weather in Japan is so

about. I never noticed it before streaming

outside all day. I used to just sit in my

apartment.

Oh my god, really fed up of being in

Japan. Got like Japan fatigue,

just fed up with everything.

It's nice being a tourist in Japan,

but when you're just living here like I

am, it gets so boring and depressing,

and then you get fed up with every single

Maybe that's why Japanese people are so

miserable and gloomy. The weather makes

them miserable. It's weather sucks. Look

at it. Looks like it's gonna rain again as

well. Dark clouds looming. I'm not in

Tokyo. Oh my God, why do you keep asking

that? When I'm in Tokyo, I'll tell you I'm

in Tokyo. I'm at Kiriuri Waru.

The first guesthouse I stayed in

in 2010.

I'm going to Tokyo.

I booked a hotel for the 25th and 26th,

but I'm thinking of going earlier, like

22nd. Not sure yet.

Depends if I really hate it here. If I

just really can't bear it anymore, I might

just whip out the credit card,

go to Tokyo earlier.

The annoying thing is I have to come back

to Osaka to get my flight because my

flight leaves from KIX International.

Then back to the UK in June.

Yeah, there's some big fat fish sucking

the bottom of the river. Oh my God, well,

there's a fish.

Sucking the floor.

Might look for the McDonald's. Me and

James had 2 AM Big Macs in. We did a

stream doing that, doing— I mean, going to

McDonald's as well. I feel so tired I can

barely talk. I'm like screwing up every

sentence.

Yesterday I just sat on my bed all day to

try and let my legs recover, and then I

did laundry, then I got Lawson

food.

The night bus from Osaka to Tokyo. That

sounds horrible. I took a night bus from

Ho Chi Minh to Da Lat. It was the worst

thing I ever did. It was a sleeper bus.

It was horrible. I hated it.

I felt so sick. And then you arrive really

early in the morning, like 6 AM. But you

can't check into the hotel until, I don't

know, 2 PM. They let

us check in around 11 AM, thankfully, but

still waiting from, I don't know, 7 until

11 in the freezing cold. Da Lat is cold in

Vietnam. I hated Vietnam.

Vietnam sucked. Never want to go there

again. Food sucked, weather sucked,

people were annoying. So desperate to get

your money, they like

follow you down the street trying to get

you to buy stuff.

Hmm, I think those mountains over there

Are the Nara Mountains. I'm not sure.

This is way down south,

south Osaka.

Took me an hour to get here on the train.

Hope you guys enjoy the scenery. You have

to be a real OG viewer to remember this

When I left this guest house to move in,

because I was, you know, felt so happy to

leave this dump and live in a proper

apartment with my own shower, own kitchen,

felt like heaven. You go from sharing a

kitchen and shower with 100 people to then

having your own place. So nice.

Now I'm back in another guesthouse dump.

Well, just another few weeks and then we

get to leave, be a tourist again,

living in upper hotels.

Vietnamese food is yummy. All they have is

pho and a sandwich banh mi,

which just tastes like a sandwich. It's

okay, I guess.

Pho is rubbish, or pho as it's

pronounced.

Rather have a pot noodle. Yeah, I remember

squatting down here sucking on a

cheeseburger. I wonder how many viewers I

had back then. I probably had like 70

viewers, 60 or 70.

Oh my God, it's so windy. At least it's

not raining. My charging cable fixed

itself. I guess it dried out.

Thank goodness.

I'm not sure what else is around this

area. I think we're done with the guest

house. Don't really need to stand outside

of it and point my camera at it. You know

what it looks like. What else do we have

here?

I want

to find the McDonald's.

Hungry. I remember when I first made out

with the Korean woman, we were walking

around this neighborhood at night and it

was very windy, I remember. And we were

sitting on a bench and then she suddenly

held my hand and then we were making out

on the bench and then

we were kind of making out against

a wall, and I was like putting my knee in

between her legs and rubbing it on her

you-know-what, which— it sounds kind of

weird now, like I kneed her in the pussy.

No, I was like using my knee to stimulate,

and then we were kissing, and it was kind

of windy and rainy,

but we didn't do it that night. We didn't

do it until a couple nights later. She

came to my room and knocked on the door.

It's my

first time.

I lasted for like an hour. I don't

know why I lasted so long. I didn't know

when to stop. I remember

it felt good, but I didn't really have to

try hard to not see you out.

No, my minimum credit card payment every

month is £50.

I didn't know there was a minimum payment

monthly.

I wonder if I can find the exact bench we

made out on.

15 years ago— no, 14 years

ago.

It was probably around this time as well,

May, because I came in February but my

school didn't start until March, and then

I had 3 months at the school, then I left

him. Japanese never see you then.

Oh, thanks. And wow, $5, very generous.

Japanese men's soy sauce comes out

black and and salty. Disgusting.

I really want to get a little boat and

sail it down the river.

I am the same age now that the Korean

woman was when she met me. Where's my

20-year-old young love?

She was lucky she met me. She was

basically— her life as a woman was over or

nearing its end at 35, and then she meets

me, 20-year-old virgin, handsome,

big dick. She fell in love. I think it was

like love at first sight. I definitely

noticed she was infatuated with me the

first time we met. She was like looking at

me right in the eyes and smiling.

She couldn't take her eyes off.

And then she did it with me even though I

had a girlfriend, which means she doesn't

give an F if I had a girlfriend or not,

which is what women do when they really

love you.

Damn, she'd be so pissed if she knew I was

here. Talking about all of our secrets.

I talked to her in 2022 when I was in

Manchester. Oh, 2021. Last time I spoke to

her was in 2021. I was in Manchester and I

was cooking pork belly. She said, next

time I'm in Korea, let's meet, it'll be

funny. Don't know if that

offer still stands. It would be weird

though. She must be so old now, like 50.

I should probably say I look old and

different too. I do look very different

since I was 20 years old, obviously. It's

been 15 years.

I lived in this guest house as well.

What? JF Plaza, Kiroriwadi. They used

to make this joke because Kiroriwadi

sounds like Kiri ure, which means sold

out. I have been lying naked by the front

door for a month. Oh wow, are you ever

going to come over? No,

I'm a loyal, devoted boyfriend.

I have changed my ways.

I had so many good memories first time I

came to Japan, and then every time I came

again afterwards, it was just less and

less fun. Why is life like that? The first

time you do something new is always the

best time, don't you think? And then you

try and recreate those good times, and

it's just never as good. And then it gets

worse and worse, and then you become mad

because you can't recreate the past.

Keeps happening to me,

like blowing up on YouTube. I can't

recreate it. The fun pub crawl, I can't

recreate it. It's always the first time

that's the best.

It was really great.

Everyone I met It was like everyone I met,

they were iconic legendary

characters in my life story. And now

everyone I meet now in the guest house, I

couldn't care less. It's just like boring

NPCs. There's no legendariness.

They're all just annoying people that I

have to put up with now. But 2010, my

first time here,

Everyone was memorable.

These old people keep walking really close

I was so outgoing and sociable back then.

Now I just sit in my bedroom. I did try.

I saw a couple French girls in the living

room, but they were just sitting there

studying Japanese.

It's so lame when you see people who are

new to Japanese and they're like,

oh, taberu means eating.

Yeah, well done. Isshoni means

together. Oh my God,

so easy. Who cares?

They're just starting their Japanese

language journey. Been there,

done that. Couldn't care less anymore.

You could teach them. Yeah, I'll teach

them all my— I don't

know how to teach. It's so easy though,

I don't know how you need to be taught

Japanese grammar. You just put nai onto

the end of verbs and you take off the ru

to make it negative. You basically just

take off the ru off verbs and replace it

with a nai or tai or ta for

past tense. So easy! Imagine needing

to study it.

You go bar hopping now? Yeah, I can

socialize if I go bar hopping, but I can't

do it in the guest house. It's too weird.

I don't know if I should go up to people,

but when you're in a bar, everyone's like

kind of drunk and they want to talk.

That's why they're there.

Hmm, I wonder what else we can find here.

There wasn't a lot here, it's just these

footpaths and the river, a few little

playgrounds where I used to make videos.

It was a pretty bland area. I really

don't remember Where me and

the Korean girl— not the woman, the girl—

we used to run around, chase each other.

I wonder what she looks like now.

She's married, she's probably got kids.

No, not the Korean woman, the Korean girl.

There's the Korean woman and the Korean

girl. They're 2 different people. The

Korean woman now, she's like 50. The

Korean girl, she should be my age because

she was my age back then. So unless time

moved faster for her, she should be the

same age now.

Hmm.

See, this is why I never came out during

the day to make videos. To so many people.

I could not— I can stream if

I'm not showing my face. If I have to show

my face, then I need more confidence.

And I knew back then I needed to show my

face to create— what's

the word— like brand presence, so people

know who I am. I don't care anymore

because you guys know what I look like.

So it's not important. But when you're

growing your channel, I think being in

front of the camera is quite important

because you want people to recognize you.

It's like creating that familiarity.

So I had to focus on doing short vlogs,

keep my face in the camera. It was not

easy when you're very anxious and low on

confidence. Oh, my pimple is freaking

massive. Look at this.

It's a bit smaller now because I popped

it. God, it was so huge. I didn't even

pop it. I just yawned and stretched my

face and it popped just like that. It just

erupted like when Bear Grylls eats

that grub and its backside explodes with

white goo. It was like that as so gross.

And then all this clear pus started coming

out, so much white stuff

and blood came out of it, erupted.

But it's in the healing stage now, it's

getting smaller. Still looks pretty gross.

You make Like you knew all the rules for

YouTube success, and yet— well, yeah, I

know a lot about YouTube, but when you're

in this phase of death and decay, there's

not much you can do really. It's like the

life cycle of a star, the growth phase.

Did you save the white goo for me?

Yeah, you can suck it out.

Oh, oh my God, I remember this place!

The little wig wiggly waggly path by this

playground. Stupid kids ruining

it. Yeah, I remember sitting on these

benches 2017. I'd come up this bit.

Don't know what I used to talk about.

Stuff like, oh, I went on a— hey guys, I

had a Tinder date. She was fat, but we did

it anyway. I did it in the karaoke.

All my videos were all just me talking

about some Tinder date I just went on, or

whining about people at the guest house

not talking to me. So my videos

from 2017 were so funny. I sound so

stupid. You think I'm trolling, but I was

actually serious, not realizing how stupid

I sounded.

Yeah, so a YouTube channel has different

phases. You've got the undiscovered phase

where you're a nobody, you're making stuff

just for fun, and then you start getting a

trickle of attention. That's the initial

phases of growth. You get the growth

phase, which is the phase leading up to

your peak. That's where you get explosive

growth. You're going to get your most

views here. You'll get more views than you

have subs. This is when you want to focus

on short videos, 10 minutes, focus on your

brand, your face,

and try and make your funniest, best

stuff. And then you kind of peak for a few

years and you just kind of maintain the

same number of viewers, and then it starts

slowly declining. And then you've got like

the death phase where there's zero growth,

viewership's getting smaller and smaller,

nothing you do makes any difference. You

can try different kinds of new content,

try being creative. Nothing will really

matter because you have been abandoned

by the algorithm. At that point, you might

as well just do live streams.

There's no way a video will make more

money than a live stream unless it gets 10

times the views or 5 times the

views. All right, I can't go this way. So

many chavvy kids.

I'm trapped. I feel like I'm playing

Pac-Man.

Every path and exit is blocked.

God, kids everywhere. Oh my God.

Yeah, so there's many phases of a YouTube

channel. Recognizing which phase you're in

is important.

So when you're in the growth phase, I

wouldn't recommend doing live streams

because you'll never grow a channel using

live streams unless you're super

charismatic like that Ice Joe Speed guy,

because he only did live streams, but he's

the top 1%. It's completely different.

And he's insane, and his live streams are

only like 1 hour, so they're basically

videos anyway.

Okay, go this way.

I'm trying to find where the McDonald's

was, and I'm trying to find the streets

where I used to walk around vlogging and

playing with the Korean girl.

I wish I left a mark, you know, like

scratched a D into the wood somewhere so I

could see it 10 years later. But no,

could do it now, but then I don't think

I'm coming back here ever again. Would be

kind of sad. I really need to move on in

life after this. This has to be the last

time I do this. Oh my God, why are there

kids everywhere? This is my last attempt

to get closure and move on. Closure from

my YouTube boom and bust, closure from

my marriage and divorce. I need to get it

out of my system.

If I come back here again in 5, 10 years,

then I'm really a loser. 50 years old,

walking around where I lost my virginity.

It's kind of sad.

Hopefully when I'm 50, I have somewhere

stable to live. I don't

really want to be living like this when

I'm so old. It's too tiring.

I want something more stable.

Last time I was here, my dad was alive.

Gimme a Break Man was talking shit about

me, and everyone hated me

because I called Tomoko old.

But my little YouTube channel was about to

explode.

Oh my God,

it's funny. All these kids here, they

weren't even alive— well, they might have

been 1 or 2-year-olds, little babies.

They weren't even alive back in 2010. Now

And all these old people, they would have

been, I don't know, 40s,

late 30s. Now they're like 50s and 60s.

It's really

a noisy neighborhood during the day. So

many kids. I don't know which way to go.

Maybe that way.

Maybe I'll be like Gimme a Break Man.

Does he still make videos?

Damn, that motorbike's huge. It's

basically a little car on 2 wheels.

I always looked at Gimme a Break Man's

channel and I felt scared because that's

gonna be me. He can't even get 1K views

anymore.

But at least he's got a family and kids

and a business, doesn't need YouTube.

But I reckon deep down he wishes his

YouTube channel was more successful.

Everyone does, really. And then you lose

interest in it, you don't have the

strength or the passion to do it anymore.

You move on, you find something else.

Anyone remember Apple Milk?

Yeah, she came back,

didn't she, trying to promote her Twitch

She was weird as well. Everyone who came

to Japan and did YouTube were basically

weird.

Some ended up staying, lots ended up

leaving, some died.

Jesus, I wish

like a girl sounds so horrible. You hear

that? Sound like old women.

I wonder why

Osaka is so rough.

Rough sounding and rough looking.

Don't really know why.

Did you eat anything

today? I had ham sandwich and a banana

last night.

I had, had some kind

of mixed grill bento.

Did you see him spit on the ground?

Disgusting. He could probably beat me up

though. He looked like 17 or 18.

Boys are strong when they're 17, 18.

Taller than me too.

Not really any different to UK school

kids— loud, annoying, spit everywhere.

Disgusting.

Ah, this is not how I remembered it.

Things have changed.

I feel like back in 2010, the Japanese

people were more respectful. Things have

really gone downhill. Or maybe I just

didn't notice it. I was in this bubble,

like honeymoon phase of being in Japan for

the first time. I was in this bubble where

everything was amazing.

I loved everything. I hadn't experienced

the dark side of Japan yet,

but now I'm like full of hate and

bitterness.

I was in such a bubble. I think I was in a

bubble even up until the third time I came

to Japan, where I just thought— I

idolized, glamorized everything about

And now I hate everything.

That's the natural way.

Miss Thailand.

I really hate the men.

Yeah,

I think we're done here. Do you want to

have one more look? It's not that

interesting, it's just a building.

Can't even go inside. Where's McDonald's?

It doesn't really feel magical anymore,

it just feels like another Japanese block.

I think doing these 10-hour outside live

streams has really opened my eyes to

the ugly side. I've seen so

many shocking things.

What? Where am I?

Oh.

Maybe I go back in to the neighborhood.

So I only came to Osaka in the first place

when I first came here because I got this

online Japanese girlfriend and she lived

here. Otherwise, I was gonna go to Fukuoka

to meet Sayaka, but then she dumped me.

Sometimes I wish I was a girl. I feel

nervous walking around streaming because

people think I'm like a pervert trying to

film girls. Like, those kids who nearly

beat me up were only mad at me because

they thought I was doing like perv photo

taking of the girls. But if I was a girl

just walking around vlogging No one would

think that. They'll just think, oh look,

it's a girl doing an Instagram or a

TikTok. No one ever thinks a girl is being

a perv with a camera. But just because I'm

a guy, I instantly— people are hostile to

me just because I'm walking around holding

a camera or my phone.

Being a guy is scary sometimes because

everyone sees you as a threat. Other guys

see you as a physical or sexual threat.

Women see you as a sexual threat.

It's hard being a guy. But if you're a

girl, no one sees you as a physical or

sexual threat.

It's not fair.

Just because I've got a willy doesn't mean

I'm a pervert trying to film girls.

Why would I walk around like this trying

to film girls? It's the dumbest way to do

it. I'd get— if I was going to film girls,

I'd get a massive zoom lens and then I'd

sit on my balcony,

not walk around with a selfie stick.

If I want to watch girls, I just go on to

Pornhub.

Stupid girls. They see a guy and all they

think is, oh, he's a disgusting man who

wants to put his willy in me.

Yeah, you wish. You wish

you could get a willy like mine.

As if I want to put it in you,

stupid hot Japanese girls.

Think they're so good. What's that

thing? Something going up my bum crack.

It feels weird. Okay, we'll do one more

flyby of the guest house and then we're

leaving.

Oh, what's going up my bum crack?

Feels like it's moving.

A centipede? I think it's just my

underwear bunching up, but it's tickling.

Do you remember the Italian guy and that

Japanese girl? And I got mad at them.

She said she was going to the skin doctor.

They invited me for ramen. We went to some

ramen stand. It was sort of boring. We

just went in there and ate the ramen

without talking.

Okay, here's one more look at the guest

house. Where I lost my virginity, got my

first girlfriend. My first time in Japan

was here. It's weird how small it feels

now. Now that I'm coming back here as an

adult man instead of a 20-year-old kid.

Here it comes! Oh, there's people outside.

Damn it. They look brown.

No, he looks white. Oh crap, that guy was

white. A white guy just heard me say he

looks brown.

What's that white fat white guy doing?

We'll come back in a minute.

Abort, abort,

recalculate. Massive fat white

guy just rode past me as I was saying He

looks brown.