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PROOF My Ex-Wife Misses me and Wants me Back!

2022-05-01 · 9 min

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  1. After I made my last video, it seems like

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  2. a lot of people think it's weird that I'm

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  3. still following and checking up on my

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  4. ex-wife's social media. And yeah, maybe it

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  5. is a little bit weird that even after 2

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  6. years of getting divorced that I'm still

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  7. checking what she's up to. But what I find

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  8. even weirder is the fact that she's

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  9. uploading to these websites in the first

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  10. place at all, because when we were

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  11. together, she never uploaded anything to

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  12. Instagram or YouTube. It was only after we

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  13. got divorced that she started posting all

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  14. these images of, hey, look, my life's so

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  15. great and amazing, look how happy I am now

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  16. Daniel isn't in picture anymore. And I

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  17. feel like she's only posting and uploading

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  18. these things because she knows that I'm

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  19. looking at it. It feels like she's trying

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  20. to taunt me and she's trying to mess with

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  21. my head. I just find it very strange and

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  22. difficult to understand why she seems to

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  23. place so much importance on maintaining an

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  24. online social media presence for my

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  25. viewers, or my ex-viewers, because all of

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  26. my other ex-girlfriends that were featured

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  27. on the channel, they just kind of

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  28. disappeared. There was Tomoko, there was

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  29. Mila, there was Turkish Girl, and there

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  30. was a single mother. And after things

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  31. ended between me and those people, they

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  32. just kind of disappeared. They didn't

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  33. stick around to maintain a presence or a

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  34. social media profile. I've always just

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  35. found it a little bit strange as to why

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  36. she cares so much about updating my

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  37. viewers and sharing what she's up to

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  38. nowadays, because I don't see what's in it

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  39. for her. And I have a theory that she's

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  40. just doing this mainly to make me feel bad

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  41. and to make me regret leaving her and

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  42. regret getting divorced. I think she was

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  43. shocked and surprised when I said yes when

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  44. she suggested us getting divorced. I think

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  45. she expected me to say no, and then she

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  46. thought I would beg her for forgiveness.

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  47. But then when I was so willing to say yes

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  48. to getting divorced, it kind of dented her

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  49. ego. And then as a retaliation tactic,

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  50. she started posting all of these images

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  51. and content showing how amazing and great

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  52. her life is now that I'm not with her.

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  53. And I also have a few screenshots of her

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  54. pictures from her Instagram that kind of

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  55. proves that she still misses me. So in a

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  56. lot of her pictures on Instagram, you can

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  57. see things and objects and items in the

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  58. background of the pictures, or even in the

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  59. foreground of things she's using that

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  60. belonged to me. And this is kind of weird

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  61. because usually when a couple breaks up,

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  62. the person who decided to break up, to

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  63. initiate the breakup, they decided that

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  64. because they don't like the other person

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  65. anymore, and then they would throw out the

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  66. other person's stuff and belongings.

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  67. That's how it usually works. But if you

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  68. hold on to items or you carry on using

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  69. items that your ex-partner used to use,

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  70. then that's kind of like a sign that you

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  71. miss the ex-partner. So example number 1,

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  72. my black Amazon mug. You can see that

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  73. she's clearly using it in several of these

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  74. pictures. And if you remember when I used

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  75. to stream back in Japan, I always used my

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  76. black Amazon mug because I like Amazon as

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  77. a company. I use it all the time to buy

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  78. pretty much everything. So I wanted an

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  79. Amazon mug. And maybe you don't really

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  80. think there's a lot of significance to

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  81. this, but in Japanese there's a phrase

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  82. called indirect kiss and basically refers

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  83. to when you use an object like a cup or a

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  84. bottle that someone else has also placed

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  85. their lips onto in the past, and it counts

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  86. as an indirect kiss. And the fact that she

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  87. was using my black Amazon mug, even if it

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  88. was subconsciously, kind of indicates that

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  89. she's missing the sweet embrace of my

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  90. lips. Okay, so Exhibit B is

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  91. this coffee jar. So as you can see, this

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  92. is a Nescafé Gold Blend coffee jar,

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  93. and Nescafé Gold Blend used to be my

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  94. favorite type of coffee before I ascended

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  95. and I started to use a proper coffee

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  96. machine with Americano capsules. But back

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  97. when I was a freeze-dried instant coffee

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  98. peasant, yeah, I used to really love

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  99. Nescafé Gold Blend. And the fact that

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  100. she's still holding on to this empty jar

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  101. is kind of a big indication that she

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  102. misses me. And one of my theories is maybe

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  103. she just carried on drinking Nescafé Gold

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  104. Blend because the aroma and the flavor

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  105. reminded her of me, and she just recently

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  106. ran out of coffee. I definitely remember

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  107. when I first moved in with her, she didn't

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  108. used to have Nescafé Gold Blend. She used

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  109. to have some kind of rubbish Japanese

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  110. brand coffee that tasted really horrid. I

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  111. think everyone knows that one of the most

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  112. powerful ways to trigger nostalgia is

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  113. through the smells and aromas and tastes

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  114. of certain foods and drinks, and she's

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  115. definitely missing my aroma. And finally,

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  116. example C, she's using my camera tripod.

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  117. That is clearly my tripod that I used to

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  118. make my videos when I was in Japan and to

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  119. do my livestreams, and she has it right

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  120. out on display on the floor, which

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  121. indicates that she's using it regularly.

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  122. Now, I don't know exactly what she's using

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  123. this tripod for, but it seems as though

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  124. she hasn't chucked it away and she hasn't

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  125. put it away. And this is strange to me

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  126. because when we were together, she had

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  127. zero interest in camera stuff or film or

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  128. photography. She had no camera equipment.

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  129. She had no tripods or lenses or fancy

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  130. cameras or any kind of camera gear before

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  131. I moved in, or even whilst we were

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  132. together. She had no interest in filming

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  133. videos or livestreaming. It was, it was

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  134. only after we separated that she started

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  135. to show a lot of interest in filming

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  136. videos and camera stuff and making content

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  137. for Instagram and YouTube. I just find it

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  138. a little bit interesting that someone

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  139. would show so much interest in their

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  140. ex-partner's hobby after they separated.

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  141. And you know me, filming and making videos

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  142. for Instagram and YouTube is basically my

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  143. entire identity. And the way that she's

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  144. embracing one of my hobbies, it's kind of

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  145. like she wants to keep alive that part of

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  146. my identity that was once present in her

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  147. own life. So I might be grasping at a few

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  148. straws here, but I feel like there's

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  149. enough evidence and proof in those few

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  150. examples that kind of give a good

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  151. indication and show that she misses me and

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  152. kind of wants me back in her life.

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  153. Tenderize like

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  154. Look at that egg yolk. Oh, it's so weird.

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  155. Oh, oh, it's running everywhere. Look at

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  156. that egg yolk. It's so slimy.

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  157. Look. Oh, look at

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  158. it. Look at it go.

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  159. Oh, that feels so wrong.

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  160. Oh. Did you see?

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  161. Look at that

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  162. pork.

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  163. And want some garlic

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  164. and some peri-peri salt.

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  165. Wow, I don't know if

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  166. I want to cook it a bit longer. It looks

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  167. like it's gonna start going black.

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  168. Look at that!

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  169. Mm, I don't know, it's a bit pinkish.

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  170. Now I'll try with the salt.

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