alone today feeling bored

Hello.

Yuck. Old water.

What's for dinner? I had pot noodle. I

didn't realize it's quite a filling meal.

Look, 551 calories in one.

And you get 50% of your saturates

in one pot and you get 6% sugar,

35% of your daily salt from this one pot.

It's quite a lot of salt.

31% of your recommended daily fat in this.

So you get fat, saturates, sugars and

salts. Very healthy. This is like the

worst meal ever. It's just carbs and

then fat and salt.

Literally nothing else. There's probably

like 0.0001% tomato

stuff, fiber, protein,

salt. Yeah,

I guess it's not great. But anyway, I have

Huel, which means I can eat junk food.

Because the Huel is going to give me

vitamins and minerals and my recommended

stuff, and then I can just eat junk for

fun, for flavor. Do you like my

hair? I've been trimming it a bit

recently. I think it looks quite nice.

I was watching Andy. Yeah, I was watching

him too, but he was just sitting at a

table with some weird Weird guy for like

two hours. Got a bit boring. That young

guy's hair looks so irritating, like it

kept flopping into his face and he was

constantly pushing it back. Jesus, wear a

headband or hairband or cut your hair or

something. How does that not piss him off

so much? He had like curtains,

like curtains coming down the side of his

face. He leaned forward and it would just

keep coming into his face. They look so

irritating. I remember when I used to be

obsessed with having long hair, that was

one of the most irritating things.

Looking down and then a piece of it would

like flop in front of your face. My early

20s and my late teens, I was obsessed with

trying to have long hair, growing it long,

having the back long, having the sides

long. Oh, it's so much nicer when you just

have a short haircut. Messing around with

that long hair. Gets on your nerves.

Yeah, it looks like a Harry Potter Snape

I'm in a good mood because I made a lot of

money off AMC yesterday. Oh,

I made back all my losses that I lost from

shorting it. So yesterday it dropped to

like $44. I put in about $600

and it shot straight back up to like $67,

I think. And I just sold chunks of it,

$100 at a time. As it,

as it broke $60, I sold $100, sold $162,

sold $164, sold $166, and I just got rid

of the rest of it around $65, which was

good. So I made like $300 to $400

just swinging AMC. I'm so

happy. Do you know how difficult it is to

get $400 on bloody YouTube? I'd have to

make like 10 videos that

gets 10K views each. Such a pain making

stupid videos and no one bloody watches

it. If you've seen my new video,

completely bombed. So if anyone ever says

to me, Daniel, why don't you put effort

into your videos? Why don't you be more

positive? Because look at my new video and

look at the shit views it has. When I

put effort into the editing, the video

angles, and I wasn't toxic or negative.

And then look at it, it's like the

shittest performing video I have ever made

apart from that Why I Hate School one.

So if anyone ever says to me about my

bloody editing and me being toxic or

negative, then I'm just going to point at

that video and say, yeah, well, you're

Unless by magic it goes viral, then I'll

eat my words and I'll admit I was wrong.

But yeah, it just goes to show I'm not the

toxic one. It's my fucking viewers who are

toxic. Not you guys, because you watch my

streams, but I mean like the majority of

my viewers, they're the toxic ones because

they only watch the toxic stuff. So how

the dare— how fucking dare they call me

toxic when they only watch my toxic

content and I put non-toxic stuff out and

they don't even care. Who's the more

toxic? I think they are idiots.

So next video I'm gonna try super toxic

and fake video. Fuck, they're back.

Oh my God, I can't even get 10 fucking

minutes peace and quiet.

Jesus, I was

about to go into rant mode, but I guess go

quiet down now.

Oh, now I've got to go back. I'm just

going to make like a really shit video

that has like a picture and nothing

moving, and then it's just really toxic

and fake. And I bet you anything it's

going to get 5 times more views.

Just trying to prove a point that putting

effort and being Non-toxic doesn't

make any difference when I'm trying to get

views. See,

this is what's annoying. All these bloody

people trying to teach me how to do

YouTube when they have no idea what

they're talking about. Maybe because you

clickbait and did trolling and made toxic,

your channel died. It's because I Because

I didn't do non-toxic and boring

stuff that it didn't die until now.

How come every time I try and make

non-toxic stuff the channel dies then,

and then toxicity is what brings it back

to life? Bunch of idiots don't know what

they're talking about, trying to teach me

how to run my YouTube channel.

Ah, so frustrating.

It's like all these people, they don't

even have a YouTube channel, and all of a

sudden they're experts and they think they

know better than I do. If they're so

clever, why don't they make a channel

then, since they got so much knowledge and

they seem to know how to do it so much

better than I do?

My viewers are so irritating sometimes. I

just cannot believe it.

Now there's all these idiots whining about

how I lift my weights. Some stupid idiot

says, Daniel, did you know there's other

forms of lifting, not just bicep curls?

As if he thinks I'm so dumb that I think

the only way to exercise is by doing bicep

curls. As if he doesn't know. As if he

doesn't think I know about all of the

other ways to do exercise. Well, how

stupid does he think I am? Fucking moron.

Yeah, I'm Daniel. I think the only

exercise that exists in the world is a

bicep curl. Why even ask me such a

stupid question? Such an insult.

Look at this guy.

Look, this fucking idiot. Do you know

there's other exercises than dumbbell

curls? How would

you not know that there's— obviously

there's not just bicep curls and there's

all these other ways of doing it, doing

exercise.

It's just annoying. Some people think I'm

that stupid.

They ask me these really patronizing

questions. Oh, I swear,

sometimes I just wanna Look,

my new video,

9 out of 10. It got worse views

than everything. Look, everything else was

fake. Look, fake. This was fake. This is

fake. This is fake. New job, fake.

YouTube channel thing, semi-fake. Kind of

true though, I guess. Cheating thing,

fake. How I lost everything, Uh,

I guess that was based off truth. That was

true. That was— I guess that's true

as well. I guess half of it is true.

Just very disappointing. Look at that bar.

Well, we'll see, see if it actually gets

some views later, but I don't think so.

I reckon by tomorrow it'll have 5 to 6K,

and then maybe after a week it'll have

about 10K. But yeah, very low expectations

for that.

Yeah, it's just frustrating because it

just means I have to keep thinking of fake

stuff and clickbait stuff to get views.

Otherwise, I don't know what else to make

a video about because it won't get views

if it's like a genuine thing.

I like your video today. Well,

thanks. I guess the people who did watch

it did like it, but it's just,

just a disappointment.

Now someone's

upstairs.

People keep saying that I'm lifting the

dumbbells in a dangerous way and I'm going

to hurt my back, but I've been doing it

like that since January and I haven't hurt

my back Yeah,

what, what?

These? Yeah, thank you. Why are you so

desperate for your socks?

Stupid socks.

She knocked my door because I had her

socks.

I still don't know what to do with my

Are you not— are you never not annoyed?

Sometimes. I don't know, I feel a bit

cranky recently.

I just— I have no idea what to do.

Travel to Portugal?

I guess I could. I mean, my sister went to

Portugal.

I don't know why. Why would I go though?

What for? Andy's in

Greece. Maybe I can go to Greece. But then

do what?

Walk around?

Go to the beach?

How much would it cost? I had a look at

hotels. I guess 2 weeks would be like— I

don't know, it depends what kind of hotel

you go to. If it's like an expensive one,

it'd be more. Thailand. Thailand seems

to be getting worse. I talked to some Thai

girls, they all keep saying Thailand is

getting more infections and it's, it's not

Arrange a meeting with girls, but no one

wants to meet.

When am I getting vaccinated? I,

I can get vaccinated in 2 weeks.

I entered my postcode and the earliest

appointment I can get is mid-June,

around mid-June. So I'd have to— I still

have to wait like 2 weeks. After booking

it, but I'm kind of worried about about

the do about the vaccine because

I've heard some people talk about how bad

it made them feel.

They said they had like muscle pains,

muscle cramps, fever, and they felt really

bad. Sounds pretty scary.

I just don't know if it's worth it. It's

not like there's a queue of girls waiting

to meet me.

Doesn't it just show you how stupid fame

is? It's like you have fame, everyone's

obsessed with you, and then as soon as the

fame goes, it's like people don't give a

shit anymore. When really,

I'm still pretty much the same person.

It's so fickle.

Maybe that's how girls feel like when

they're young and attractive and they get

all this attention, and then they get old,

and then all of a sudden they feel like,

oh, how— no one cares anymore because I'm

old. Maybe it's like that.

There's more to life than girls.

Yeah, I guess so.

Vaccine only makes you feel bad one day.

Yeah, but what if I die from it? Some

people died.

I feel like if I can just get some success

on the stock market Maybe I

would get back some appeal. I think the

whole stock market thing makes me look

really bad because it's like, oh my God,

now he lost all his money too. Do they

take that stuff seriously?

Maybe they do. Maybe that's why.

You made fake videos. Listen,

my videos have been fake since 2017.

All the people saying, oh, I love Daniel's

channel so much because he's so open and

honest. My channel has stopped being

honest since like beginning of 2017.

It's been fake for 4 years. It's never

been honest apart from 2016 or 2015.

When I had no subs.

The moment I started clickbaiting and

trolling was when my channels grew.

I just kept it a secret better that it was

true, and now I'm just kind of fed up

having to lie all the time. Now, the only

few things that were real were stuff like

my dad dying. Obviously the marriage was

Some of the story times were real, like

the World of Warcraft stuff. The Japan

videos, like why I hated teaching in

Japan, that was real.

I don't know, I'm losing hope here. What

am I supposed to do?

I thought by June there would be some good

news.

Really struggling here.

Most of England is— I think it's out of

lockdown now, so I could just go

somewhere, but I don't know, I just don't

see the point. I'm not gonna magically

meet someone just by traveling. I'm not

Andy.

Changed a lot since his 1,000 sub special.

Well, yeah, a lot of bad stuff has

happened to me since then.

At that time, back then, none of the

really bad stuff had happened yet. I was

still like lucky-go-happy kind of guy.

Even money is not making me happy right

now. I can make hundreds on the market

with some successful trade, and yeah,

it's nice, I guess, but Seeing

my money go up, it doesn't really

make me more happy.

I mean, it doesn't make me unhappy, I

guess. It's also nice that I'm slowly

making my money back. Yeah,

BNGO had a 16% rise today.

Riot also had a nice rise. So I'm only

about— I broke— I finally broke even on 3

of my portfolios. So I haven't lost any

money on those, but I'm about £9,000 down

on the main portfolio. Riot is

like a Bitcoin mining stock. I feel a bit

uneasy about Bitcoin now. Bloody Elon

Musk keeps tweeting stupid stuff and

making it tank. Isn't it so dumb? I

thought Bitcoin was supposed to be this

decentralized way of financing stuff

that was supposed to be out of the control

of the governments. And now just one

bloody tweet from Elon Musk can either

crash the thing or make it go flying.

How dumb is that? It's just one guy making

stupid tweets and the thing goes up 20% or

crashes down 20%. It's just

ridiculous. So the whole concept of

Bitcoin is just like flushed down the

toilet if one super billionaire can

just make some meme tweet and cause the

whole thing to come crashing down.

Do I hate Elon? I don't know. I just—

can't he just stop tweeting stuff that

makes it crash? Why does he want to make

But his, his tweets are so cryptic. Like,

he's not saying, I hate Bitcoin, or I love

Bitcoin. He like puts some weird meme

that's related to it.

Yeah, sometimes these people like Elon

Musk, Donald Trump They end up having

these massive platforms on Twitter. They

have massive influence and they're not

responsible enough to handle it. They

should know better.

But the whole thing's just like a joke to

It's a bit scary for me because I decided

to put half of my leftover money into

Bitcoin stuff. I feel like reducing

it down,

but then what do I put it into?

Maybe I should just take something out,

put it into a copy trade, and then just

not stress out about it.

Let someone else manage it.

Yeah, I don't know what to do with my

life, really.

I wish I could be like Andy. Just pack

your bags, travel somewhere, not worry

about having a girl to meet.

Just meet people, hang out.

Do it then. I'm just

trying to figure out if it would be worth

it.

Who's Andy? You know that guy from MTV,

the fat guy? Andy Milonakis.

Who's making Milo

Narciss stream snipe Andy. Andy looks

a bit scary, like he'll snap at you. But

half the time Andy's bitching at his

viewers. Kind of funny.

He got that young Swedish Greek guy on his

stream who looks like that Twitch streamer

xQc, and then the chat was just spamming,

he looks like xQc, and Andy started having

a rant at the viewers. Telling them to

shut the fuck up. It was pretty funny.

I'm just wondering if going to Europe

would get me some attention, get me some

views. People would be like, oh look,

Daniel's doing stuff again.

He's tiny. Yeah, well, he's— it's

not his, his height that's scary. It's

like his, his bark. He's a very

loud-mouthy guy who's not afraid to

speak his mind.

Should do stuff out of your comfort zone.

Yeah, I know. I got so lazy since last

Complacent. I think that's the word.

I used to put myself out there quite a

lot. I would just get on a plane, go to

Japan, live in a guest house, meet people,

hang out. Now I'm all scared about, oh,

what if they recognize me? And they're

like— do you think people would be rude to

me in real life? Wouldn't, wouldn't they

be like, oh, you're that guy, is it real?

And I'd say Some of it is.

Maybe they'd be curious. It'd be like a

conversation point.

Don't know why people hate me so much. I

mean, I just cheated a couple times, and

that was ages ago. It's not like I kicked

puppies.

So it's a pretty common thing to have

someone unhappy in their marriage and then

they cheat. It's not like it's really

uncommon. It happens all the time in

Japan. That's why they have love hotels.

Half the marriages are probably unhappy

marriages where they cheat. Well, they

don't publicize it. Yeah, just because

they don't publicize it doesn't mean it

doesn't happen. I mean, what I mean

is, is It's not a great thing to do, but

it's not like killing someone. It's not up

there. It's a pretty— it's a pretty tame

crime to commit, I think.

I wonder if in a few years' time people

are still going to be like, you cheated.

People just hate weird guys. Yeah,

so I bet no one would care if Leonardo

DiCaprio cheated. And who was interested

in them. It's all just social status.

I'm just— I'm really struggling with

trying to push myself because it's just so

taxing on— it's mentally taxing.

It's financially taxing.

I'm just trying to see if the benefits

outweigh the cons, or if I just spend the

rest of my life in my bedroom, which is

also a pretty depressing idea.

I think you need to get some kind of COVID

test. You don't have to get the vaccine.

My sister didn't, and then she went to

Europe. She said you just need to take

some kind of test to prove that you're

negative within 2 days before arriving.

Do desktop streams.

I like pacing up and down.

COVID test sucks. How do you get the COVID

test? Do you have to go to some place?

Don't they stick that thing up your nose?

I just— I know if I just carry on living

like this, my channel is going to be so

dead. I'm going to be getting 5K views at

But then even if I go traveling and I get

back to 20K views, that's— the cost

of traveling is still going to be more

than how much I make. So financially, it

just doesn't seem worth it.

I'm just gonna lose money. I'd make more

money just putting it into the S&P 500 and

then staying at home.

But I don't want the rest of my life to be

like this. It's just kind of sad.

I'm really struggling with this. And last

year I was in a completely different

mindset. I just got on the plane and went

to Germany. I can't even believe I did

Am I a Twitch partner? No, they won't make

me partnership. They won't give me

partnership. What city am I

in now? I'm in Harrietsham Village.

That monitor's gigantic. It's only

Oh, I hate this stupid COVID thing. If

there was no COVID, what would I do?

I'm kind of interested in Thailand. I got

like 100 matches on Thailand Tinder,

and then I'll probably go to Japan for

a bit. Then I just end

up whining in a bloody hotel, won't I,

about being lonely and not finding a girl.

The only hope is by going to a different

country, someone might message me, and

then we meet up, and then we like each

If I meet someone on Tinder, I need to

keep my channel a secret, and I can't be

like the real me because I got to do the

fake me. But if they know me from the

channel, then at least They know I'm kind

of a weird guy, a bit awkward.

Where would I go in Thailand? Go to

Bangkok, the capital,

capital city.

Do you remember this camera I got?

Got it in 2018 in Japan.

And I never used it. This was the biggest

waste of money ever.

I thought I wanted a nice camera for the

Malaysia trip, so I got that. It's got a

1.8— f/1.8 aperture,

and it's got a flippy screen. But now

smartphones can do the blurry background,

there's no point having a camera like this

anymore. Do you

remember back in those days when they had

cameras like the Canon S500

or something? Those small pocket cameras

that had a big sensor and everyone was

raving about the low-light capability just

because it was small and it had like a

f/1.8 aperture, could do blurry

background. Now your phone can do it, so

there's no reason to have a camera.

In 2012, I used to have a camera, like a

mirrorless camera with a lens, and I'd

have it like strapped around me. It's so

lame now I think about it. I was walking

around Korea 2012 with this camera,

with the camera strapped around my neck

like some kind of photographer nerd

because I used to think photographers were

cool. I remember 2010

when I went to Japan, there's some, some

girls would walk around with a DSLR and

I'd think, wow, that's really cool.

They've got a hobby, it's like artistic

and technical. The camera—

I like the camera as a,

as a thing because it's like technical,

it's got buttons, and then you can make

art out of it. I thought, wow, I want to

be like that. And so I used to have this

obsession with cameras. I never got a

DSLR, but I had a mirrorless, and I'd walk

around with it strapped around my neck I

used to feel embarrassed though about it.

I started feeling embarrassed going

outside with a camera because it would

draw attention. People think, oh, is he a

cameraman? No, I'm just taking dumb

pictures for my Instagram. But now

phone cameras are really good. You don't

see people walking around with those big

cameras anymore unless they're like a

super photography nerd.

Da da da da da da

da.

Don't know. I haven't seen

anyone with a camera in ages.

In Japan, you get quite a lot of them—

camera enthusiasts. If you go to the

cherry blossom places, there'd be a bunch

of people with tripods doing their

time-lapse photo thing. They get so into

it, and they're all taking the same

picture of the same thing, and then they

all end up having pictures of the same

thing that all looks the same. So what's

Play WoW?

This WoW thing again. It's been like

20 years, hasn't it? It's nearly 20 years,

15 years since WoW was a thing.

I'm too lazy to play it.

All the grinding,

the grinding, waiting around.

Traveling to different areas of the map.

It's also tedious.

Oh, I got this honey to put in my hule.

I wonder if it'll taste good. It's kind of

thick. Hopefully it mixes well.

Maybe I can do a why I hate World of

Warcraft video and then just complain

about how it ruined my life again.

Do you think that would work? My Biomutant

video flopped. It just didn't catch on on

the search results. It got a few search

results, but nothing like the Resident

Evil one. I don't know why. Is it not a

popular game, or was I too late? Because I

put effort into it and I actually played

the game and I recorded gameplay. It just

shows YouTube has nothing to do with

putting effort. A Resident Evil video, I

just took pictures, like 4 pictures,

didn't even play it, and it got 26k. I

played— I made that Cyberpunk video. I

didn't even play the game. Got 90K views.

This kind of proves my point that the

quality of the video is kind of

meaningless.

The only thing I like about going to a

different country— well, one of the things

I like is that I can make a video

complaining about how I hated it. I want

to have a list of all the different

countries I went to and hated. I've got

Netherlands, Germany, Korea, Japan.

Why I hate living in— How's

the new video performing? It's doing

really badly.

Meaningless banana. I was gonna eat it,

but I feel full. That pot noodle was

pretty filling.

Do more drawing videos. I don't know,

last one didn't do well.

Why I love pot noodle: it's full of fat

and sodium. It's got like a third of your

daily recommended sodium in one.

Okay, we're being too negative.

Refocus.

Rethink. Looks like you're cool with

Chi-Chi. I haven't spoken to her since.

Then she put a comment on my new video

trying to leech off my views.

I don't know why she put that comment.

Since when does she comment? She never

comments usually.

Did I like the comment? I didn't like it

or dislike it.

Guess there's no harm letting her comment.

It's not like the video gets views anyway.

It's not gonna drive people there. They

already know about it by now.

She just said nice video, well done, or

So the main 2 motivators I had for

leaving home was sex and to

get away from my mum. But my mum is not

really annoying recently.

I don't really feel that annoyed by her

recently, and there's no sex.

So the main 2 motivators that I

usually had are just not there.

I feel like I need a reason to want to

leave to actually leave.

Make a list of things you could be

motivated by.

Well, sex would be the main thing. And

finding a good partner.

And but

the thing is, I need to not make content

out of the relationship next time because

that's just been a nightmare. So if I do

get into a relationship, I have to not be

all miserable that I don't know what to

make videos about. So it would be nice if

I found a way to get views before I find

the next relationship,

so that I don't suddenly become all

miserable because I can't do this and I

can't do that to get views.

The problem is I've put all my

relationships on the channel, so a new

girl who finds the channel

is going to think, oh, he's only going to

be with me cuz he wants content, or I'm,

I'm going to become part of his content.

So I need to make them feel assured that

that won't happen.

Yeah, make a video.

Why I regret making relationships into

content. It always

ends up blowing up in your face.

It's not worth it. There's so many things

that can go wrong. And it's so hard to

move on when you've made it so public.

And then if it looks like it was a really

bad situation, then other girls will get

repelled by it. Maybe it's too late now.

I wish I could go back in time. Try again.

You can't control yourself in streams.

Yeah, it's a stupid stream's problem.

What am I gonna do?

Just not stream. How can I not stream?

I think I'm fucked.

The challenge just became way harder.

Things were way easier when I was younger.

There was no channel, there was no history

of videos to screw up my chances.

Guess it was pretty dumb.

To just put all that stuff up there that

makes you look bad.

And then I ended up losing the money

anyway, so in the end I got nothing out of

it. Even the money I made from it, I ended

up losing on stocks.

How's Tinder? Well, I'm doing well on

Thailand Tinder. I get like 5 or 10

matches every day. But I can't get there,

that's the problem. All of the good

countries are bloody closed.

You're not doing Tinder in Japan? I was.

I got some matches. But it feels

pointless because Japan's gonna be closed

for ages. But it seems like Thailand's

closed too.

So I need to just put the travel stuff to

the back of my mind or go to Europe.

But the problem is I don't have any luck

in Europe when it comes to Tinder. I can

be in any European city for Tinder and

I'll get no matches. I'm just not

attractive for European women.

Travel around the UK.

I thought about getting a place in London

for a month, see if anything happens.

You never know.

What could happen?

Should I just go to London? Just say eff

it. Just go for a month,

get a nice place so I'm not miserable,

and then if nothing happens, just get a

cool girl. Let's just get

a month. Maybe it would be 1,500.

I can get a hotel. I don't need a kitchen

because I've got this Huel stuff. The Huel

stuff is great. I don't even need food

anymore. I just put some water in my

flask, mix it up, boom, 400 calories.

Lunch, breakfast, dinner.

But still, that's 400— that's 1,200

calories. It's still quite Small.

How many calories do I need? I already

feel full. I had pot noodles,

550 calories. I had a Huel for lunch,

that was 400. So that's

only— it's not even 1,000,

but I feel full up.

I'll have another Huel before going to

bed. But still, that's only 1,400

calories and I feel stuffed.

How am I supposed to eat 2,000? Isn't it

like 2,500 calories you're supposed to

eat?

I don't know. I don't know.

Now I don't know why I was so excited for

2021. Now I'm trying to recapture my

mindset from January.

January was completely different. There

were like 5 girls messaging me. My stocks

were booming. I was like, oh yeah, I'm

gonna get $100K this year and

I'm gonna buy Tesla. I was so pumped.

And then I'm gonna get a nice place and go

to Japan. How did

everything just go to shit? I don't

get it. I was so optimistic in the

beginning of this year. Bloody Bitcoin.

I bought— I think

I bought around here and then it dropped.

And then Tesla got wrecked this week too.

Look at Tesla.

Tesla got destroyed. So I bought Tesla

here and then I rode it up to here and I

was £200 up thinking it would go back up

to £700, and then it just crashed back

down to £570 because something about

China.

I don't feel like Tesla's a good stock.

To put a lot of money into it. There's

just too much drama, and I

think people are right. I think it is

really overvalued. Even at 600,

500, it's, it's way too pricey.

Look how much it's run up.

I can't believe it was like 800. In

January and people were buying. They must

be holding some bags. I'm so glad I stayed

out of Tesla after it reached this high.

I tried getting back into it around $550.

Crypto is going to surge within the next

month. Yeah, hopefully then If Riot can

get back up to around 60, I should make

back most of my money. I'd only be a

couple thousand down. Maybe my mood will

be a lot better then.

Look, I bought Riot when it was around up

here because I thought, oh look, Bitcoin—

when Bitcoin was at 60k, Riot was up here.

So I thought, oh, Riot's going to come

back up again because it's Bitcoin's gone

to 60K again. Never did. It peaked

here and then dropped. Now I'm down here.

Recently it's gone from about 20 back up

to 30, so it's a bit of

a recovery to start, but still a

long way to go until I get my money back.

And then BNGO, I bought BNGO around

Probably right up here, and then it just

crashed. Bitcoin— I mean, BNGO had a nice

bounce back,

16%. I needed it to bounce back like 80%

though. Am I still

shorting AMC? No, I bought some AMC shares

2 days ago from $44 and I

rode it up to $60.

6-ish. Made back a couple hundred. Oh,

it's tough. You lose hundreds and then you

make back hundreds and then you lose it

again.

It never feels like you're actually

winning because you win some, then you

lose it again.

It's just gambling. At this point,

what new girls are talking to me? Well,

there's still the LA girl. She still seems

to be into me, but I'm not really that

keen on going to LA.

America just looks rubbish. Just looks

like it's full of conflict and fighting,

racial problems, gun problems.

Plus it's really expensive.

It just looks like a, a bad place to live

in. But she's

really hot. She sent me a video. She has

like this big TV and she played my YouTube

video on it, and then she was naked

effing herself in front of the TV to my

face. It was pretty hot. I think she likes

me.

Plus she said I could stay at her place

for free. Plus I could probably vlog in

her place cuz she makes Pornhub videos in

there, so she obviously doesn't care if

people see the inside of her place.

Plus she can drive, so she could drive me

places, we could make videos. But still,

I don't know about America. I've never

been keen on America.

America is like where all the weirdos are.

If it failed, I could bounce from LA to

Thailand and then Thailand to Japan if the

world was back to normal. I just miss when

the world was normal so much. This sucks.

I hate it. It's funny

because I always say I hate traveling,

but I'm so miserable because I can't just

go anywhere I want to go.

You saved lots of money staying in Kent.

That was the plan. I don't know where it's

I keep putting it into stocks and then I

keep losing it.

I don't understand why that happens.

When are stocks going back up and staying

up?

Do you remember how great the world was

when we could just go anywhere we wanted

to whenever we wanted to? Didn't need a

stupid test or vaccine, didn't have

to quarantine.

The soonest I can get my vaccine is

mid-June, after mid-June.

But then you need a second dose and you

have to wait 12 weeks,

so I'd have to wait 3 months to get the

second one after getting the first one,

and the second one really makes you sick,

apparently.

What's the second one? Is it just the same

thing? Is it the same dosage?

I think I heard that if

you have a strong immune system, you react

more violently to the vaccine because your

immune system is triggering all this to

fight off the vaccine virus,

the virus that's in the vaccine. So if you

have a very reactive immune system, you

get worse symptoms.

Apparently the older people didn't have

such bad side effects because they've got

weaker immune systems.

I'm not sure how my immune system is.

Last time I got the flu was 2018,

and I did get pretty sick. I had fever,

I had chills, and then I nearly blacked

I made— I think I made about £250 in

AMC a couple of days ago.

That was a risky move though. I put about

£700, which is nearly $1,000, into AMC

when it drops down to 44, and then luckily

it shot straight back up to nearly 70.

That was a really good trade, but it could

have gone so wrong. Imagine if that drops

back down to 20, I would have lost half

that as well. Today I didn't really

do anything, I just put like £50 on to

test it. But it didn't go anywhere, it

just went sideways today, and then I

closed it at a loss of £2.

Yeah, I closed all my trades. I don't want

to hold AMC overnight. I also shorted

Microvision because that went flying.

Made about £10 shorting it.

But today was a bit flat, not much

happening. Well, B&G went up 16%,

which is nice.

I've got a lot of money in Etsy. Etsy is

not doing well, struggling to

get up. I put a bit

too much into Etsy.

You need travel insurance for US?

Yeah, a bit worried about that. I don't

usually get travel insurance. My dad

always used to moan at me about it.

What happens if you try to go to America

and you don't have travel insurance?

Thailand's so hot right now. I thought it

was hot all year round.

Yeah, my dad used to worry about me a lot.

Always had like an argument with him about

travel insurance. I just felt like it was

a waste of money spending hundreds

on something you're not going to use.

And I don't do extreme stuff like

snowboarding, so it's not like I'm going

to break my arm or anything. I think he

saw some horror story about a guy who went

to Thailand. He had an accident,

he was in a coma, and then the dad had to

mortgage or sell off his house to pay to

get his son back. I guess it does sound

like a nightmare. The medical bill was

like hundreds of thousands of pounds

because the young guy was in hospital for

months in Thailand.

But how do they make you pay it? How can

they— what can they do?

Maybe they're connected to the UK

government, they can get you to pay it

like that.

If you don't have the money, how can they

make you pay it? I don't get it. So they

can say you You owe us £1 million, but

what if you don't have £1 million? Then

obviously you can't pay it.

YouTube is really sucking recently, even

the second channel. I'm not getting

anywhere.

How's my new video doing? Really badly.

It got 2.5K views.

Remember back in the day I could get 10K

views in half

a day just from posting anything. Could be

a post about my toenails. Sucks so

much when you lose your fame.

It's funny, just having the fame is enough

for people to be interested, and then when

it fizzles away, they don't care anymore.

It's not like my content was

groundbreaking back then either.

It's just weird how it works.

Do do do do do.

Look at this, 2.5k views

in six hours. So.

12 hours, it might be 5K views.

So stupid how the algorithm works.

I could get way more views if I just focus

on this really negative stuff.

Well, I wasn't really expecting it to get

good views. It's just It was a bit of a

punt. I was just copying that Lana Blakely

girl. She got 2.7 million doing the same

thing. Thought it was worth trying.

It's worth a go, isn't it? And I'll just

go back to making the clickbaity negative

stuff.

The hell? Who raided me? Oh, it's Foxy.

Thanks,

thanks for the raid.

Very kind.

I wonder why YouTube doesn't have a

raiding thing.

I like the thumbnail I took.

I thought it was a nice thumbnail.

Yeah, but look at this line.

Usually my line is in between this gray

band, and then it just flopped.

What does the line mean? The line

represents the views it's getting now.

And this is where I usually get this gray

in between this gray line.

Wait, let me show you my Resident Evil 8

video line. It looks really cool.

Look at the Resident Evil 8 line. At first

it was flopping here, and then it just

took off. That's what I usually get, this

gray flatline. It just took off and flew.

That line's crazy.

8 times more views than usual.

26,000 views. That's the highest views I

got all year, and it was like a rubbish

clickbait fake review. Yeah, putting

effort into your videos really works on

YouTube.

What's that? That looks like a coffin

outside. It looks like 2 coffins.

Maybe not.

Your raid pitch isn't working. What's a

raid pitch?

I need to pee.

Look after my stream, please.

Okay, what's happening?

Daniel doesn't put minimum, minimum effort

in. What do you mean?

I put way more effort than usual today.

Who's that?

My cat's crying.

Because I get, I get punished for putting

effort in. Haven't you seen? Haven't you

noticed it? I, I put no effort into

some videos like Cyberpunk Resident Evil 8

and it gets 26,000, 90,000 views. And then

when I do put effort and I actually play

the game, it doesn't get anywhere. When I

actually make a well-edited video and I

put effort into camera angles and stuff,

it flops. But then when I do like a

clickbaity video that just has a

screenshot or like a still image of me,

uh, it gets loads of views. So in my

experience, putting more effort

in results in a worse result.

I would love to put more effort in. I'd

get a proper camera, I'd get better

editing software, I would spend more hours

making the video look good if, if I

felt like it would make a difference.

But in my experience, it just has not made

any difference.

Maybe my mentality is just wrong. If I put

effort into making good videos in the

beginning, then people would expect good

videos and they would stick around longer

to watch them. But if I just constantly

make low-effort video— videos, that's not

going to keep them around. I don't know

how to approach it. I don't

really feel like my videos were ever high

quality anyway. It was just, it was just

like me sitting in my room with the

Seems like people are easily impressed

though. You put a bit of music, put some

transitions, and then it's like their mind

has been blown away. They think, wow,

your editing got really better,

your editing skills improved. I just put

some music. It's It's not rocket science.

Biomutant was not that popular. Hmm, I

thought it was more popular. I guess it

Yeah, I guess I used to go to different

locations. I'd go to a river, walk over a

bridge. I went into the garden. That's a

different location. What if I just get a

green screen and then green screen myself

into a location?

Hi Daniel, how are you doing?

Not doing great, to be honest.

Struggling a bit, trying to keep

There's a lot of things obsessing me right

now, but I don't feel like talking about

it would make it better.

I, I think talking about it is just going

to make it way worse.

I'm trying to take deep breaths and trying

to think positively.

Because in my experience, every time I've

talked openly about something that's

upsetting me or bothering me, it— I get it

blown up back in my face. I get

people going, oh, it was your fault it

happened. You did this, it was wrong.

You did that, that was wrong. That's not

helpful.

So I just feel like keeping my mouth shut

about it is better for

my mental health.

It just sucks because I don't feel like

there's anyone I can talk to about it.

I don't have any friends. I'm not really

close to anyone.

I can't just start whining about this

stuff to someone I barely know.

Is it stuff we don't know? It's just the

same stuff that I whine about

all the time.

It just— it feels recently feels Extra

Talking about it to people doesn't really

help. Last year

I talked to a lot of people about

problems. And it didn't

really solve anything. It didn't really

make me feel much better, and I probably

just irritated them by whining on and on

about the same thing.

And then I don't even talk to them

anymore. All the people I talked to last

year, there's not a single person I talk

to now that I used to talk to last year.

The only person I'm talking to now is this

person I only started talking to A couple

months ago. She's nice. She doesn't

judge me, and she's, she's not mean when I

But everyone else I used to talk to, I

don't talk to anymore.

It's hard finding good people to talk to.

Who's the new girl? She's not really like

a girl. Well, she is a girl, but she's not

like a girl girl that I'm sexualizing.

She's just someone I like talking to.

But I don't really know how to solve this

Maybe there's like meditation stuff I

Take deep breaths,

sit on the grass,

and, um, try not to make things worse by

spewing out negativity, not ranting about

Yeah, maybe Mila was right with all the

spirituality stuff and all the law of

attraction stuff.

It, it really is true. You put out stuff

and you get it back. You get back what you

put out. It really is true.

I thought it was a load of rubbish before.

But if you're really negative, you usually

get negativity back, sent back to you,

or things become like a self-fulfilling

prophecy. So many times I made a fake

video about something and it actually came

true, like getting banned on Airbnb or

getting dumped or getting divorced. So all

this fake stuff eventually came true.

Yeah, what if I made a video about What if