My response to Gimmeabreakman's video about me

It's freezing. I can't believe how cold it

is. Just a few weeks ago it was so hot and

humid, and now I'm wearing at least 4

layers of clothing and a hoodie and gloves

and 2 pairs of trousers. Anyway, so in

today's video I want to talk about the

video that GimmeABreakMan made about me a

few days ago. Now if you don't know who

GimmeABreakMan is, he's basically a,

um, an American guy who lives in Japan

and he makes videos on YouTube and he's

been making videos on YouTube for a very

long time, probably over 10 years.

And I actually used to watch him around 8

years ago when I first started to learn

Japanese, when I was obsessed with Japan

and I was really interested in living in

Japan. I used to watch his videos all the

time. So it's kind of strange, 8 years

later now that I'm making videos, he's

watching my videos. And recently he made a

very long video talking about me. It was

about an hour long. He also watched one of

my videos and reacted to it in the video

live, which, which was a really

embarrassing experience for me. So I just

want to start off the video by saying this

isn't— I'm not gonna make a video talking

about how stupid he is or disagreeing with

everything that he said because I don't

disagree with what he said. All the points

he made, all the criticisms he made

against me were valid. And they were the

kind of criticisms that any normal sane

person would make after watching my videos

and assessing my personality or my

character. So if you were expecting this

to be some kind of YouTube drama war,

or like a— like an e-war thing with a diss

track at the end, you're going to be

severely disappointed. A few weeks ago

when I first came to Japan, this trip.

Um, after a few days, I made a video when

I was feeling really depressed, and I had

something to drink, an alcoholic beverage,

and I was feeling kind of intoxicated,

and I was feeling really depressed. And I

just— I started recording. I sat on the

rooftop of my guest house, and I just let

it all out. I let all the negative— all

the negative feelings out, no matter how

stupid they sound, no no matter how

immature or ridiculous it made me sound.

I just let it all out, all my honest, raw

feelings. And Gimmeabreakman, he left a

comment on that video saying something

like he was shaking his head at how stupid

the video was, the things that I was

saying. And he said something like I

should cut off my dick because I'm so

obsessed with sex. And he said my life

would be better if I just cut it off and

forgot about sex, which I personally

thought was pretty funny. I laughed at it.

I wasn't angry about it at all. But a few

of my fans, or my viewers, people who like

me, were a bit upset with his comment,

and there was kind of like a mini argument

going on in the comments section with him

and some of my viewers, which I stayed out

of. I didn't intervene or delete anything.

I thought it was, it was pretty funny

reading the comments. Anyway, ever since

the whole Tomoko thing, my videos have

become very What's— how can I say this—

very serial-like. I've been talking a lot

about serial, and I've been sharing

with you my Tinder adventures and the

hookups that I've been doing and all that

kind of stuff. And a lot of you have

enjoyed listening to my stories about my

Tinder adventures, but a lot of you have

also decided that you really hate me

because you think I'm some kind of sex

addict because I'm Shit, I just said it.

You think I'm some kind of serial addict?

You think that I'm spreading diseases by

not, not using protection? Which is—

there's a potential for that to happen,

but I think it's fairly low because one of

them said she already got tested before we

met and she was clear. Tomoko, she hadn't

had cereal for 11 years. That's what she

said. But you know her, you can't really

trust her. I can't trust anything she

says. But I'm pretty sure she's clean. I

know none of this is 100% and I should

have used protection, but whenever I put a

condom on, I lose my erection. And it—

well, I don't lose it completely, it

depends who I'm with, but it's just so

boring when you have to use a condom. And

if I can get out of using a condom, then I

won't use one.

Anyway, ever since I've started uploading

videos talking about my Tinder adventures,

I've been getting a lot of hate, a lot of

dislikes, a lot of Negative comments,

people telling me to go and kill myself,

people saying that I'm worse than Elliot

Rodger, who murdered 6 people.

Apparently I'm worse than a mass murderer

just because I hooked up on Tinder. That

makes sense. Not. And some people are

saying that I'm a psycho, that I'm so

psychopathic, that I manipulate women

just because I have this cereal addiction,

which is a load of rubbish. People don't

know what they're talking about. Anyway,

after all this, it seems like

Gimmeabreakman has also been watching

these videos, and he decided to make a

1-hour video, uh, criticizing me.

And I watched the whole hour video, and

sometime during the middle of it, he

watched one of my videos called— the one

where I talked about married women in

Japan. And I really wasn't expecting this.

I'm used to talking about embarrassing

things and getting a load of negative

comments or people telling me it was

cringy or I'm stupid, but those are just

text comments and it's easy to just ignore

and forget about. I've never actually

watched someone watch one of my videos and

see their reaction as they're watching it,

and wow, that was embarrassing. I felt so

embarrassed because I knew what I was

going to say and I knew how stupid the

things that I was saying sounded. And

yeah, I said it. I know the things that I

say in most, most of my videos, they sound

stupid to most people. They sound like,

like my, my views on my worldviews are

completely different to a normal person.

But the thing is, I know it sounds stupid

to a normal person, but I still, I still

feel the way that I feel, even if it

sounds stupid to others. Anyway, I watched

the whole 15-minute part of, of him

watching my video, and he kept pausing it

and then giving his thoughts as he was

watching it. And it was so embarrassing.

At first it was funny and I was laughing

because I thought some of the things that

I, I said sounded so ridiculous you just

can't help but laugh. But some people

don't get my humor. They take me 100%

seriously and they get triggered. They get

actually angry. But I

didn't think I would have to explain this,

but I'm not actually 100% serious all

of the time. Sometimes I say really

ridiculous sounding things to try and get

a laugh, and to some people they get the

joke. They get that I'm being sarcastic or

I'm being over the top, but it seems like

some people, they don't— they can't catch

my subtle humor. I'm starting to think

that you need a fairly high IQ to be

able to comprehend the subtle humor that's

in my videos. And to a lot of people, the

humor that I put into my videos is so

subtle, it flies— it just flies straight

over their heads, and they get all angry,

and they start writing out their little

essays in the comments trying to explain

to me why I sound ridiculous, thinking

that I don't know that I sound ridiculous.

I don't feel angry with Gimmeabreakman.

Honestly, I felt a bit sad. I felt like I

let him down after he shouted out my

channel in, in a different video a few

weeks earlier, saying that, that my

channel was interesting, my videos were

interesting, and people should go and

check me out. Well, in his new video, he

said he's taking that back. He's

retracting his recommendation and he can

no longer recommend me, and I felt a bit

upset. I felt like I let, let him down

because, because I kind of respect

him. I look up to him. I see him as like a

fatherly figure. I see him as the father

that I wish I had, or that I never had. I

like the way he's straight talking. I like

the way he has a backbone. He, he speaks

his mind about things. He's not scared to

give his opinion about people that he

doesn't quite like. And I respect that,

and I look up to that. And sometimes I

wish my own dad was like that. My dad

doesn't talk to me like that. He doesn't

give me his, his honest opinion about what

he's thinking about. Is that someone

walking behind me? No, you can't walk

behind me when I'm trying to make a video.

That's so weird. I can hear footsteps,

but when I look behind me, there's no one

there. That's so creepy. I swear

I can hear footsteps. Anyway, what was I

saying? So yeah, my dad's a nice person.

He's clever, he's friendly, and yeah, he

does, he does give his opinion when he's

not happy about something. For example,

if he's watching TV and he doesn't agree

with something, he'll say, oh, that's

stupid, blah blah blah blah. But when it

comes to me, he never criticizes me. He

never says, Daniel, I think what you're

doing is stupid and this is why. He

doesn't tell me what he's thinking about

what I'm doing. On YouTube or with my

life. It's like he doesn't care, or he

doesn't want to poke his nose into my

business. He just— he doesn't want to tell

me what to do. And you

know, that's, that's great. It's great to

be free and not to be criticized by your

parents all the time. But at the same

time, it feels kind of lonely because it

feels like he doesn't care about what I'm

doing. It's like he doesn't want to get

involved with what I'm interested in. And

I feel like there's this huge disconnect

between me and my dad. I don't really feel

like we have much of a relationship. For

example, when he took me to the airport,

we sat in the car for over 2 hours, and

for 90% of the time in the car, it was

just complete silence. Maybe he'll just—

he'll complain about the traffic now and

then, or he'll say, 10 years ago, the

traffic wasn't this bad, you know. But I

just— I don't know how to relate to him.

I don't know what to talk to him about,

and he shows absolutely zero interest. In

anything that I'm interested in. And yeah,

it's true, I don't show any interest in

what he's interested in either because I

don't find gardening or DIY or

architecture or engineering interesting,

not even the slightest. Before, before I

started watching that 1-hour video, I

thought I was going to be angry or kind of

upset, but the strongest emotion

that I felt was embarrassment. It was— it

felt like the first time that someone—

that I saw someone react to my videos and

tell me what he was thinking straight.

And it just made me think, maybe the way I

think is kind of messed up. Maybe I am a

bit too weird, not in the good way. Maybe

I should be making— trying to make— maybe

I should be trying to make more of an

effort to change myself as a person.

Because I did feel— I felt embarrassed

that— that— give me a break, man— that I

showed this horrible side of myself to

him. I wish— I wish I was

a better person that everyone liked, that

everyone looked up to, that everyone could

respect, but I'm not. I have weird,

weird ways of thinking, especially when it

comes to relationships or to cereal.

And I know the things that I like or that

I say sound silly or horrible or

disgusting, but that doesn't stop me from

being excited about the thought of being

involved with a married woman. Why are you

stopping there? So strange. There's taxis

all over the place, but there's one behind

me. You see, he just sits there in his car

with his engine running. And he's not

going anywhere. So I'm

going to try and make a new resolution in

this video, and I'm going to try and

go cold turkey on my married woman fetish.

The next married Japanese woman that

contacts me on Tinder, I'm not going to

reply to her. I'm going to say, sorry,

I'm not, I'm not interested in married

women. I know this is going to be tough

because I'm going to be really tempted,

but Maybe I do need,

need to try and stop with these strange

fetishes that I have. It's just so

exciting, you know? It feels like I'm the

stable boy and she's the princess, and we

have all these obstacles getting in

between us, like her husband and her kids

standing in the way of our forbidden love.

It's like the ultimate romance story,

but I'm gonna try and give it up

for you, Gimmeabreakman, because you kind

of opened my eyes with your harsh

critique, and maybe I should—

maybe I should start trying to make an

effort to change. I guess

there's one complaint I have about his

criticism of me. He kept making fun of how

I kept touching my hair in this feminine

way when he touches his own hair all of

the time. He touches his own hair like 100

times in every video, so— Okay.

Also, I want to thank the people that

donated to me after the last video, and

several people also became patrons of mine

on patreon.com/hidinginmyroom,

and I just want to say thanks. Um, thanks

a lot. That— it really helps. And yes,

the last video— actually, the last video

didn't get demonetized. It's still on

fully monetized. But the one before that,

the 5-hour livestream that got

demonetized, and then the livestream with

the Canadian guy that got blocked in every

country because, because of the TV and

stupid Sony flagging it. I feel a bit

better because it's not just me that's

getting demonetized. I was scared that

it's because of my cereal-related content

I was getting demonetized, but seems like

everyone's getting demonetized. Even

bloody Casey Neistat, who's Mr. Family

Friendly. He, he's also getting

demonetized. So it's like this

new automated system that YouTube has

rolled out to flag inappropriate videos

is just way too sensitive, and it's, and

it's incorrectly flagging everything.

Taxis everywhere. I feel like they're

following me.

There's even this guy who uploaded a video

of his cats playing and it was titled Cats

Playing and that got demonetized as well.

Not appropriate for most or all

advertisers. This is kind of ridiculous,

isn't it?