I got a girlfriend!

Hey, so I wasn't sure if I was going to

tell you this or make a video about this

yet because it's still early days and it

would be kind of embarrassing if I told

you this and then like a week later we

broke up, but I kind of have a girlfriend

now. I met this Japanese girl online a few

weeks ago at the beginning of January and

we've been talking a lot and I told her

that I liked her and she said she likes me

as well. And I said, how would you feel

about being in a relationship with someone

that you've never met before? And she said

she'd be worried about if I would like her

or not when we actually meet, but because

she really likes me, that it's okay, she

wouldn't mind. So I guess I have a

girlfriend. It's really weird. I haven't

had a girlfriend for such a long time. My

last one was in 2014, but I feel like It's

time to move on from that relationship.

It's time to start something new with

someone new, and I'm really excited about

it. Right now we're making plans to meet.

Right now the plan is to go to Japan in

April for 2 weeks to see her, and I've

already booked holiday at my work. They

said it was okay. Everyone was really

surprised when I told them that I was

going to Japan to meet a stranger that I

met online. They said, you seem like such

a shy, quiet person, and it's really

surprising to hear that you're gonna go

all the way across the world just to meet

this stranger you met online. And I said,

yeah, this isn't really my first time.

This is like the third time I've done this

now. And she's kind of the reason why I've

been making less videos for YouTube

recently. My videos have become really

short, and this is mainly because I'm

finding it really difficult to find time

to make videos now. We're talking all the

time. I come home from work, I go to bed,

I wake up at 2 PM, and I talk to her

for about 4 hours on Skype, on, you know,

phone calls, actually speaking, not just

texting. But we speak, we speak on Skype,

on the phone for like 3 to 4 hours,

and I just don't know when I can make a

video. The only time slot I have to make a

video is now, half an hour before I have

to go to work. And it's really tricky.

I'm not sure when to make a video now

because I tried to make a video before

Skyping her, but then I feel kind of

pressured. I feel like I have to make a

video really quickly because I don't want

to keep her waiting, because when we

phone, it's like midnight over at her

time. So I don't, I don't want to make her

wait too long, otherwise she'll fall

asleep, and I feel kind of bad. Bad for

making her lose out on sleep.

So I'm just trying to find like how to

balance this, talking to her and making

YouTube videos and working 8 hours a

night, night shift, 5 days a week. It's,

it's kind of— I feel like I'm really busy

now. I used to have so much free time. I

had so much free time I could do anything

I wanted, and now I feel like I'm really

busy and there's all these things I want

to do and need to do. And I need to

improve my time management skills a lot

more. So yeah, it looks like we're going

back to Japan, even though I made all

these videos last year saying how I'm

never going back to Japan, how my

obsession with Japan is over. And look

where we are, we're going back this year

in April. I'm not sure what's gonna

happen. I've shown her a lot of my photos,

I've seen a lot of her photos, we still

like each other. So I don't really know if

there's going to be much disappointment

when we actually meet. I know when you see

someone in real life, they look very

different to how their photos look.

So I do feel a bit worried if I'm actually

gonna still feel attracted to her or not

after seeing her in person. That's what's

tricky about online dating. You can never

really fully tell if you're actually

attracted to the other person. Until you

meet them face to face. Okay, there's a

few details I wanted to tell you about

her. She is a bit older than me. She's 8

years older than me. I don't really feel

like that's a problem because she doesn't

really look her age. She still looks

really young. I'd rather date

someone who's older than me but looks

younger than a young person who looks like

they're 40 years old. So for me, The age

difference isn't really a problem. I still

feel like she's an attractive looking

person. Okay, this is the next detail

that you're probably gonna laugh at, but

she, she was divorced. She got divorced

like 7 years ago, and she has a daughter.

She has a 9-year-old daughter, and I'm not

really sure how I feel about that. At

first I was a bit like, um, is this

a good idea or not? But now I'm starting

to feel like maybe it's not such a big

deal. So she has a daughter, so what?

It's not like I'm gonna become her dad or

something. Maybe if we did get into like a

serious relationship, I would end up being

like a stepdad, but I don't really feel

like I'm a stepdad. At most,

if— at most, I would feel like an older

brother kind of figure. I don't know,

it's really confusing. I've never been in

this situation before. I don't really know

what she's thinking about this. Does she

want me to be like a father to her

daughter? Is she even going to introduce

me to her? Does she want me to be

involved, or is she just going to keep me

separate, like a separate part of her

life? Anyway, I feel like it's too early

to be thinking about things like that. I

haven't even met her yet. Maybe I'll start

thinking about that more after I've met

her and decided if I really want to be in

a serious relationship with her or not.

But right now, to be honest, I'm not, I'm

not thinking about the future. I'm not

thinking about these things like becoming

a stepdad or getting married or moving

over to Japan. I'm just thinking in the

short term, you know, go there in April

just for 2 weeks, meet her, see how things

go, see if we are a good match for each

other, and then decide from there.

Recently, I just feel so happy. I feel so

energetic and motivated. It's like a

breath of fresh air. I was so depressed

recently because I felt so alone and

lonely, but ever since I met her and we've

been talking daily, it feels like I have

someone in my life now. It feels like— it

feels great to have someone who loves you.

And I just wanted to say I'm not quitting

YouTube. It just means that I have a lot

less time to make videos now. And I'm

trying very hard to make videos and trying

to, trying to figure out when is a good

time to make videos. Also, my channel has

grown a lot recently. I'm getting a lot of

views on my videos and I'm really happy

about that, but I'm also feeling a bit

like, I don't know, it kind of feels like,

you know, in World of Warcraft when you

spent months and months getting your

character to level 60 and then You spend

the whole time playing World of Warcraft

obsessing about getting to level 60, and

then you finally get to level 60 and it

feels amazing. And then after a day or two

you feel like, oh, okay, I'm level 60,

now what? And it's just like

anticlimactic. Is it? I don't know how to

pronounce that word. Is it anticlimactic

or is it anticlimactic? My English is so

shit. I'm just so excited for April right

now. It's all I'm thinking about. So I

feel like I'm obsessed, fixated on this

idea of going over there and meeting her,

and I don't know what to expect from it.

I have a good feeling about it. I feel

like we're gonna meet and we're still

gonna feel attracted to each other, but

you never know. You can never really tell

100% with these things. So yeah, that's

what's going on. I just felt like I wanted

to make this video to let you know what's

going on, and, um, yeah, we'll see how it

goes. Maybe next week I'll make a new

video saying she dumped me or something,

or she blocked me or she's not replying

anymore. That would be embarrassing.