my girlfriend almost left me -( [gnrAmTFeXic]

Testing,

testing, testing,

testing, testing finished.

Um.

Hello.

Yeah, TTS is on as always.

Uh, how do I link my stream? Copy link.

Discord.

Oh,

stupid.

Okay, I think

we're ready to go.

Where is it? Oh, here it is.

Okay, she just left to

go to work, so I've got 5 hours, I think.

Wait, why is the video— it's not in

sync, is it? Or was it just me? In sync.

Is it? Or is it just me? Oh, it's like

delayed. Oh no. Oh, it's like delayed.

Oh no. Damn it.

Does YouTube pay all your bills? Yes. Why

do people think I don't make any money on

YouTube? I got another comment earlier

today saying, I don't understand how you

travel all the time. You don't make

anything on YouTube. How do you know what

I make on YouTube? I make more money than

people here in Thailand make.

Let me try and fix the camera first. I

don't know why it's delayed. Oh, thanks

Johnny, very generous.

My only suspicion is maybe the phone has a

VPN turned on, which could be. Oh, it

looks looks better now. I think I fixed

it. I don't know what I did.

Ba ba ba.

Yes, I think it's in sync now.

You always tell us you make £800 a month.

Yeah, that's good. I mean, it's not

amazing, but it's not nothing.

It's plenty for my lifestyle. Actually,

we were in the shopping center earlier

today and we walked past the hiring sign

outside of a shop and they said they only

pay 42 baht an hour, which is like £1.

Text-to-speech didn't work. Yeah, because

it takes like 40 seconds from when you

send it until it shows up on Streamlabs.

I don't know why it takes so long.

Yeah, so you work full-time here, minimum

wage, you're gonna make like $400 a month.

So I'm making nearly triple minimum wage

of someone just working a normal job here.

It's still pretty good. See, there it is.

Gotta have patience. Let me

check the monetization. So my new trick

is, since I always automatically get

demonetized in the first few minutes, my

trick is I request a review straight away,

which should shave off some time that I

have to wait for the review. Uh, it's

pretty yellow. It was still green. Okay.

Would you consider £300 a week a lot in

rent? No, not really.

Oh, the camera's gone delayed again

because I'm using my old phone for the

video. I don't know if

your title's clickbait. If it is, haha,

fooled me. No, it's not clickbait. We

actually had massive arguments after the

last livestream. I'll get into it in a

minute. When I get the stupid camera

working. Why is it doing this?

It's like slightly delayed.

This stream title is going to get me a lot

of unsubscribes. Mostly because this is

the kind of title that gets people to

click, but they get fed up with it because

they keep getting baited.

Well, maybe if I didn't have to bait,

then I wouldn't bait, would I?

I'm just waiting for the stream to get

demonetized so I can request review.

Still green. 6, 7 minutes, we're still

green. That's kind of a record.

I don't know why it's delayed. Do I have

NordVPN on?

No, NordVPN's not turned on. I don't know

why it's kind of delayed.

Is it really that noticeable?

It's just annoying to have to keep

switching my Line account from this phone

onto the other phone.

I could just switch it, I guess. I hate

Line. Line is such a stupid messaging app.

So what you gotta do is first you gotta

uninstall Line Because it won't let you

log back in until you uninstall it.

I need Line because I need to check when

my girlfriend messages me.

Just don't understand why they— Hiroshima

and Nagasaki. What's that? Symbol dash

symbol face with tears of joy rolling on

the floor laughing. What? Why is the voice

a man? That made me jump. Where did that

come from? I don't even know where that

came from. Yeah, Hiroshima is a very

lovely city.

Hold on, just let me set this up quickly.

So you got to log in with the QR code,

get the QR code, transfer it.

Confirm transfer, enter my PIN.

Now it's transferred. Now I can switch the

camera over to this phone. It'll only be a

second, be, be patient guys.

Do you like Hiroshima and Nagasaki?

Collision running, dash, tears of joy

rolling on the floor laughing.

Yes, I love Nagasaki.

Okay, see if that fixed the problem. I

guess we use the new phone. I think that

fixed it. I don't know, maybe the Samsung

S10 Plus is just too old now. It's so damn

slow.

Okay, okay, I'm ready to get into the

topic. Are you guys ready?

For some drama.

What's that? I don't know where that noise

is coming from.

Check the comments.

Can I get a hello? Yes, hello to you.

Where's that dinging sound? I don't

understand where that dinging sound's

coming from.

I've only got Streamlabs open. It should

be coming from there, but it's not coming

from there. And what even is that ding?

What is that?

I have no idea where that's coming from.

I don't even know what it is.

Yeah, my girlfriend watches my streams on

2x speed to find out what I've been

saying, and I got in pretty big trouble

last time. Let me try and turn off this

dinging sound because that's going to be

annoying, interrupting me. Chat box,

browser source.

Is it coming from alert box?

Did that stop it? That didn't stop it,

so it's not coming from alert box.

Uh, window capture, get rid of

that. Oh my God, what is that?

I think I'm just going to mute the whole

computer because I can't figure it out

right now. I can't figure out how to turn

off that stupid sound.

Oh my God.

Anyone have an idea what that could be?

I don't recognize that sound. What, what

sound is that from?

It's like a someone followed you or

subscribed to you sound. Do you know what

I think it is? I think it's doing— because

I've had people subscribe to me in the

past 6 days, I think it's like dinging for

each of those subscribers. Wait,

no. I don't know.

I think it's finished now.

Oh, thanks. Unrelenting News. Zar 14.

Okay, so my

girlfriend currently has all of her

clothing packed in bags on the floor

since, since the last livestream, which

was When was it? Like a

week ago. My life is ruined. 14th of

November, which was 6, 8, 8 days ago was

the last time I streamed. We had that big

argument.

Thanks, Luffy. Hi to you too.

I'm waiting for the stream to get— the

stream is still monetized. What is going

on today? Usually the stream gets

demonetized after five minutes. It's

really weird.

So yeah, do you remember my last stream?

Some you know I was saying my my hip joint

was really painful, and then someone asked

me why does your hip joints get painful?

So I then explained why I get arthritis in

my hips every few months. So I had to

retell. The GF story who

gave me the you-know-what, and I kind of

got a bit too carried away with the story,

as I do, and she was watching that, and

then she got really upset, and then she

started packing her stuff into bags and

said she was gonna leave because I keep

saying stuff that hurts her. But then she

didn't leave, so I don't— I'm

understand. And then 2 days later. So

after she said she was going to leave,

she didn't leave. And we talked a bit and

then everything was fine the next day.

And then 2 days later, I was in a good

mood. And, you know, when I'm in a good

mood, I kind of grin and I laugh a lot,

like my, my devious laugh, like I'm

planning something up to no good. So I

kept doing that. And then she thought,

because I'm doing that grin, like, You

know, like that smug grin I do. She thinks

when I do that, it means I'm hiding

something. Was that?

Yeah, that was the fight that happened

last time. So she kept saying, "Tell me

what you're hiding," and I wasn't honestly

hiding anything. I was just grinning

because I don't know, I felt in a grinning

mood. And then she kept saying, "Tell me,

tell me," and I kept saying, "Tell you

what?" And then I got mad and I shouted.

So loud the whole room vibrated. I was

like, tell you what, I got so pissed off

because, oh my God, I was like, oh my God,

not this again, just because I'm grinning.

So that was a pretty big fight. And then

we had a fight on the way back from Khao

Yai, the camping place. So we had like 3

or 4 big fights within the last week,

I think. And I was scared to livestream

again until recently. So I asked her

for permission to make this stream to tell

the story, and she said okay. So fingers

crossed, I'm hoping she's not going to

come home mad again.

But I've been kind of scared to stream

since the last stream because I get— I got

in so much trouble just from the last

stream. It was really— it doesn't sound

like a big deal now, but at the time it

was like really Big deal.

And then I think she messaged my sister

about it because my sister messaged me

saying, how come you don't delete these

comments? That is so upsetting.

And the comment was just something like,

are you going to cheat on her again?

Which I don't really think is very

upsetting. It's just like a funny in-joke

within my community because, you know, I

cheated a lot. So my viewers kind of crap

on me about cheating, like give me shit

about cheating. So I don't really take it

personally because that's just part of my

brand, I guess. But my sister was like,

why don't you delete this comment? As if

I'm going to delete. If I delete comments

like that, there'd be no comments left on

my videos because half my viewers like,

you know,

What's a family-friendly way of putting

it? They're not being mean. I don't really

feel like they're being mean. They're just

like making fun of me because that's part

of my thing.

So I don't want to delete because I find

the comments funny, even if it's like kind

of mean. I don't mind.

And then my mum messaged me also, asked

me, what's going on? What's wrong? What

did you do this time? So I don't know why

she suddenly messaged my sister about all

this. Kind of weird.

Now my sister's not talking to me because

someone on my Discord sent me— they told

me that if you go onto Google Earth Pro,

you can find Google— what's the

word? Google sat— not satellites, because

they didn't have satellites back then,

but they've got aerial, aerial photos all

the way back from 1940 and 1960 of my

house. So if you go onto Google Earth Pro

and look up my address and go back to

1940, you can see the land that my house

is built on before it was built. It's just

a field. It's so cool. This black and

white aerial photo of 1940 of the area.

And you can see the land before my

granddad bought it. And then you go to

1960, which is the next time frame. You

can see the house. So my dad— my granddad

built it in 1950. So 10 years later, he's

got the house built and everything's

looking pretty good. I sent those pictures

to my sister and she didn't reply. And

that was on Sunday and now it's like

Wednesday. So I'm a bit upset. I sent it

to my mum as well. I don't know if my dad

ever saw those photos. He would have found

that so interesting. And then you can look

all around Harrietsham of 1940 aerial

photos and there's just nothing. It's just

like fields. The Marley factory's not

there. My school is not there. But if you

go to Sutton Valence, my primary school in

Sutton Valence is there in 1940. I didn't

know the school was so old. It was so

cool. So I don't know why my sister's not

talking to me now.

Check my stream. I keep refreshing now.

Yeah, we're still green. Oh my God,

20 minutes into the stream, we're still

green. What is this? Has the algorithm

blessed me?

She's having her woman's thing. Yeah,

maybe.

I don't know if she's gonna get mad if I

go and grab the bags of clothing and show

it. Can I

show your bags of

clothing on my stream?

So I'm not allowed to talk about exes,

otherwise she gets really upset.

So don't ask me about exes, please.

Otherwise I'll get in trouble.

Since when does Taigo even watch your

streams? She seems to watch them a lot. I

don't know. She also reads the YouNow a

lot, which is kind of annoying. But she

watches my streams on 2x speed just to

find out what I've been saying. Now you

have to get permission. Yeah, I gotta do

what I used to do with Chibiro, where I

used to, you know, people used to say,

oh, this channel's fake. How is he having

these arguments when he's posting videos

about it? Wouldn't she see them? And

people accused me of faking my content

back then when I was just asking Chibiro's

permission. I would, we would have a fight

and then I would say, oh, can we, can I

put, can I talk about it on YouTube? And

then after the fight and things have

calmed down, she would usually give me

permission.

I want to show you the bags of clothing in

the bedroom.

She said no. Ugh.

Okay.

Why not? It's just bags of clothing.

Otherwise people are gonna accuse me of

faking it.

Her entire wardrobe is in bags right now

for a week.

I think things are stable now.

This guy is so annoying. Well, so are you,

Fernando. You're pretty annoying as well.

She was gonna leave. Yeah, I thought she

was actually gonna leave.

Do you think it's weird when I talk about

exes? It's just because all my funny

stories or pivotal moments in life are

linked to an ex. So I have to tell the

story from beginning to end.

Yeah, so I've been kind of stressed out

this week, as you can tell from all the— I

think I definitely get pimples when I'm

stressed out. It's not diet related

because I had all these really big pimples

explode across my face. They're starting

to heal, but it was looking pretty bad.

Yeah, my skin was really bad. I had a

massive one here. And then I had a massive

Why'd she almost leave? Because my last

stream I talked about an ex and then she

was listening to it and she got mad. And

you know those animated videos? I did 3

animated videos in a row. All of,

all of them were about exes. The Hong Kong

I feel scared just mentioning their names

now. The ginger girls, she got really mad

at those as well.

It's fine, I don't really have plans to

talk about exes anymore anyway. They don't

even get views. Got 6k views on the Hong

Kong girl. Plus they get rubbish

CPM, so even if they do get some views,

it doesn't make any money. It makes like

We're still green. This is so weird. I

planned for it to be yellow so I can

request review. And now it's— why does

always the opposite of what I think is

going to happen happen?

Oh, someone messaged me on Facebook. Is

that my sister? Oh, what? My sister just

messaged me now when I was complaining

about her not messaging me.

What? Why does everything I say, the

opposite thing happens?

What is going on? So everything opposite

is happening. See, it's the law

of attraction, isn't it?

I'll show you the picture. I don't know if

it'll be very clear. Look at this, you can

see it yourself. You have to download

Google Earth Pro and then go to

Harrietsham and click the little time

rewind button. Look at this.

You can't really see much. That's where my

house is in 1940 during

World War II. I don't know, before,

slightly before it, or during it.

She said she had bad jet lag. Oh yeah,

she was in Mexico. You just came back

from Mexico.

She said Mexico was really nice. She said

it wasn't all scary like the media makes

it seem like. Don't dox yourself. I'm

already doxxed. Just type in Daniel Lord

address. It's on a Pastebin. Some weirdos

back in 2017 thought it'd be funny to

post where I live. You know, the haters

were so, or are so weird, because they

always make sure to put my whole name on

the doxxing stuff, like Daniel Jason Lord,

born in Maidstone, 1989. He lives here,

or he works here.

Oh, thanks, Blood Bucket. I need your

advice later on because I have some ideas

about Japan. I don't know why the

text-to-speech voice is coming from

another speaker with a man's voice.

I really don't know where that's coming

from.

The haters have such bad mentality. Yeah.

Even back in 2017, before I even did

anything outrageous or like cheating or

anything, they're writing up these massive

essay wall of text posts and then they'll

be like, give up on Daniel Jason Lord.

He'll always be that loser who works in

Harrietsham petrol station. And then I'll

put like the postcode as well and the

phone number. They're so sad.

She said she doesn't like Mexican food.

I'll talk to my sister later.

Girlfriend ruins Daniel's YouTube career

arc, part 4. Thanks. She's gonna get

upset. Don't upset my girlfriend.

Oh, and then someone wrote like a fan

page, like a wiki fandom page for her,

and she found it, and then she asked me,

can I delete it? And I was like, no. I

didn't write it. I don't know who wrote

it, but she's not happy that you wrote it

and she contacted the police. I said, the

police can't do anything. The person who

wrote this is probably American,

definitely not Thai. I don't know what the

Thai police are going to do about it. And

it's not illegal to, like, write a page

about someone. I mean, if they wrote stuff

that was really horrible and

wrong, you could sue them for defamation.

But then how are you gonna do like an

overseas international court case?

Unfortunately, when you're dating a famous

YouTuber, it's just part of the job.

People are gonna write stuff and they're

gonna have opinions about you, and the

opinions might not be nice. Or they might

not be true. The best you can do is ignore

it. Don't let it get to

you. I've had to deal with it since 2017,

and I don't really care anymore. People

can write what they want. I give up.

Tried for years explaining things like, I

make my own money, I'm not a leech, my mum

doesn't give me money. I have to, like,

try and dispel all these myths. It does

get very tiresome. Don't let her on

the subreddit. She already knows about it.

She reads it all the time. And she was

like, Daniel, why do these people hate

you? I don't know.

I honestly don't know why they hate me so

much. They write these horrible, vile

things nonstop, like, haha, Daniel's

getting old. Haha, Daniel's got white

hairs. Haha, Daniel's getting fat. Daniel

looks like a loser. Daniel's channel is

dead. I don't know why they hate me so

much. It's really weird.

Like, they've never seen someone get old.

They've never seen a channel die. Why are

they so fascinated about it? I can't

explain it. Someone asked me, why do you

have a whole subreddit dedicated to hating

on you? I don't know. Because something—

I must have really annoyed them or

something. I honestly can't say

why they— I mean, they probably enjoy it.

That's why they find it fun to do, to like

make fun of me. If they didn't enjoy it so

much, they wouldn't do it so much for

years and years.

People like attacking weak people. Yeah,

they're just like these weirdos who get

pleasure out of making fun of weirdos.

I think the business tags

are not removed

when you go back. Same with the roads.

Download Google Earth Pro,

you can see the whole country in

1940. Sutton Valence.

School is still there,

and the Sutton Valence House was not

there in the 1960s,

I think. Do you ever get homesick and

then you go onto Google Maps and you just

go around the street view It's nice

because they update it every year. I was

looking at the 2023 Google Street Maps,

just going around my neighborhood, having

a look, see how things have changed.

I saw my secondary school built a massive

football court. It's like they gave up on

trying to educate the kids in that area

because they were so dumb. And they

thought, let's become a sports school

since everyone here is so stupid. We'll

just like become a sports academy. And

invest all the money into a massive

football pitch. It's like a

professional-looking, really nice football

pitch with lights and everything. Didn't

have that when I was there.

Should read the revision history on the

wiki of her. Who? She edited it herself?

On her page says, I will call the police.

What, really? Is that just the person who

wrote it? He's trolling. I don't think my

girlfriend would know how to edit a

wiki page.

I have a wiki. It's actually called an

incel wiki page, and it says something

like, his dad was a rich businessman

who owned petrol stations. Which Daniel

works at, which is completely wrong.

My dad wasn't rich at all.

I don't know why people think my dad was

rich.

There's an edit button right there.

Really? Is she editing it? She's really

upset about it. Don't make it worse. I

don't know who wrote it, but could you,

like, write some nice things or maybe take

it down? She is the most wonderful woman

who gave Daniel a second chance and is

willing to be with him despite him being a

weirdo on YouTube. Write something nice.

Why you always got to write horrible

things to make them dump me like Mila?

Oh, talking about exes again. Next topic.

So I sold my Switch OLED. I found out I

can sell stuff on Facebook really easily

on the marketplace. I didn't realize there

was a marketplace on Facebook. I haven't

used it for ages. So I put my Switch OLED

on it and I met this Thai man the other

day. He gave me $150 for my Switch,

which I think is— sorry, Kate.

It's a bit low compared to the other

adverts, but I desperately want to sell

this stuff. Thinking what else to

sell. I might sell the ROG Ally, but I

might keep it as like a travel PC. I might

sell the iPad Pro because I never use it

anymore, but I thought this could be good

for travel as well as,

as like a big screen. But then I could get

a portable monitor for the ROG Ally and

then replace— use that to replace iPad and

then get rid of this big 17-inch laptop

which weighs nearly 5 kg.

Why are you ignoring my desperate attempts

to meet up with you? I don't know.

What are we gonna do if we met up? Can I

livestream it or vlog it?

What game do you play nowadays? Still

Rainbow Six. I went back to Rainbow Six

again. It's still the best game ever.

Oh, we're still monetized. I can't believe

it. I feel weird, like this shouldn't

My streams are never monetized whilst I'm

streaming.

I've met Suspender several times and been

in his streams. Really? Which stream

are you— where can I see you in the

stream? Now the camera's lagging out

again. Why does it do that?

I don't know why it does that.

Oh wow.

I need to find a way. I really need to get

like a camera that's wired to the laptop.

Suspenders fell off. I think his

relationship drama has been pretty funny

though. They said they found his, his

wife. It's his wife now, isn't it? They

got married. They said they found his wife

on Tinder and she was chatting to viewers

and her ex-boyfriend moved into their

house. It's actually crazier than my

marriage series, isn't it?

And it's all streamed, almost all on

stream, and he doesn't have to hide

anyone's face or anything, and she never

tells him to turn off the stream. That

guy's lucky, he can just stream everything

he wants.

So I've been trying to sell my tech. I

sold my Switch OLED, thinking about

selling my iPad. What else can I sell?

Maybe the ROG Ally, but that's a good

travel PC. Really trying

to scrounge up some extra funds.

The earnings not looking good, and I have

some plans for Japan next year. I have

some crazy plans that I can't

promise I'll actually do, but I'm really

interested in the idea of buying a house.

That sounds really silly now I say it.

You know the IKEA abandoned houses?

I'm really interested in seeing if I can

buy one because they're like $2,000 or

$1,000 or maybe $5,000. I thought

it'd be so funny if I bought a house and I

tried to fix it up. And then I just strain

myself trying to fix up the house. And

then I get fed up and I just ditch it.

Abandon the abandoned house. You don't

need a visa to buy a house. Foreigners can

buy a house. But the problems

are you've got to go and you

go to the town. And then I don't know if

this is for every case, but I've heard

you've got to have an interview with like

the town leader. To see if you're suitable

to get the house. And then you've also got

to promise you're going to try and fix up

the house. And then you also like meet the

owner and like have a chat with the owner.

Sounds like a lot of work.

We should meet up with suspenders. I don't

know. I've said some very judgmental and

critical things about suspenders. I said

some things probably worse than what I

said about Deepak.

Well, not about suspenders. I said some

pretty mean things about his girlfriend,

and if I met up with him, people are going

to send that screenshot of me saying it.

There's probably some weirdo in my Discord

screenshotting everything negative I say

about suspenders to use in case I did meet

I've been watching loads of videos on

YouTube about IKEA's abandoned houses.

One guy got a house for $6,000.

Some couple got one for like, I don't

know, $2,000 in the Japanese countryside.

Imagine if I bought a house. That would be

so funny. The problem is they're full of

insects and it's disgusting. I would tidy

up, get rid of all the junk, do some

cleaning, but I wouldn't do like really

difficult maintenance or building work

because I don't know what— I don't know

what I'm doing.

And then I get a tent and like camp inside

of the house and then get bored and just

leave it.

I don't know if I can demolish the house

because I've bought it. It belongs to me.

Can I just knock it down and then live on

the land?

And then my other idea is we rent a van

in Japan and then we live in the van and

I'll do like a road trip across Japan.

That's my other second crazy idea.

I kind of like the driving idea more. I

think it's easier and cheaper. To rent a

car would be like $1,500 a month,

and then I just try and live in the car

and we get a mattress, put it in the back

of the van or something.

If you go into IKEA Bank, you can look up

abandoned houses and they have some for

like $200, and it's like a big traditional

old-looking Japanese house in the middle

of nowhere.

I don't know how difficult it is to get

one though. I think there's probably a lot

of hoops to jump through, like you got to

fill out documentation and forms and then

go to the town and meet the community

leader, the town council leader, put in

an application, then they have to like you

and think you're going to fit in with the

village. As if I'm going to live in the

village for the rest of my life. I'm just

there to make a video, mess around for a

few months. Also, having a home in Japan

would be fun because I wouldn't have to go

to a hotel anymore. I can just land, rent

a car, drive to my house, live in the

house for a few months, and then my

viewers, you guys could stay in the house

for free if you want. Or I don't know,

pay me $100 or something. For maintenance.

But you would have to live in the middle

of nowhere. I don't know if you're

visiting Japan, you probably want to stay

in a city.

You've got to pay ¥100K to fix the house.

I'm not going to fix the house. I'll buy

like some wooden planks and glue it over

the ugly bits. That's the most I'll do.

If it's like one of those ugly corrugated

metal tin can sheds, I would just get some

wood and then nail them together and

then just place it against

the metal so you can't see it.

And then, I don't know, paint it white or

Get a carpet, get a rug and put it over

the ugly dirty floorboards. It can't be

that hard to fix up a house. Just get some

wood and a nail gun and a drill and then

just plaster the boards of wood over

stuff. Have you ever been to northern

Japan? No, the furthest north I got was—

is Saitama north of Japan? It's like

northwest of Japan, isn't it?

Yeah, I think the land is included. You

buy the entire property, including the

land it's on.

But I think it could get kind of

depressing and miserable living in the

I went to the most rural little town I

went to was in Kyushu. It was called Saiki

City, and it

was so dead and empty. It just had like a

massive blaring pachinko that was

really loud and bright, but the rest of

the town was just like sleepy town. No,

barely any people. It felt really

depressing.

And stream is still monetized. I can't

believe that. That is amazing. I just

don't get it. I don't have— have

I just not said anything to trigger it

yet? Maybe I've just not said anything to

trigger the bot.

Cycle stream from Osaka to Sapporo.

That would destroy me. I was so tired

doing that nonstop stream cycle subathon.

I would have to get an electric bike. I

couldn't do it without electricity.

I think an electric bike trip could also

be fun. Because then we could travel much

further distances and then we could just

take out the battery, bring up to the

hotel room, charge it in there.

I feel like doing something adventurous.

I don't know what got into me because the

last few weeks I've been kind of

miserable, kind of like, uh, I've given up

on life. I don't want to do anything.

Everything's failing. Everything's

rubbish. And then all of a sudden

Yesterday or the day before, I just got

this massive fire in my chest to do

something crazy, like bike across Japan,

buy a house.

And then in a few weeks I'll probably be

miserable again and I'll be like, oh, I

can't be bothered. What's the point? I

really hate it when I feel in that mood.

I like it when I'm in this mood, when I'm

full of ideas and it feels like anything's

I don't think I'll do any cooking today.

It's 5 PM and I already have curry

cooked from yesterday. Maybe next time.

I'm just kind of tired. We went shopping

for food today, so I got— I got some

apples for another apple pie. And I've

also got a new fish and chips batter

recipe idea. It's going to have egg

whites, beer, baking soda, and tempura

batter, and I'm going to whisk it so it's

aerated. So it should be crisp and fluffy,

not like a thin piece of batter.

Do you have ADHD? I don't know if I've got

bipolar because sometimes I get really

miserable and I feel like it's the end of

the world, and then I flip and then I get

all manic and I come up with these stupid

I don't know what's up with the camera

today. It's like out of sync.

I updated Thai Girls Wiki. A nice

love story. Oh no, now the toxic trolls

are gonna find it as well and they're

gonna put stupid stuff.

So these ideas, I'm aiming to do

them next year, maybe next summer after my

sister's marriage. I'll save up some money

in the UK, get my international driving

permit, and I want to do one

of these crazy ideas.

I'm thinking of the car trip first,

and then I'm not really expecting it to

get views because whenever I do like a

vlog, travel vlog, they always do really

badly. But I want to do it for fun as a

challenge.

Something seems appealing about driving

across Japan to me right now. I watched

Chris Broad's driving in Japan video. I

watch Life From Where I'm From, watch a

bunch of driving in Japan videos.

Driving in Japan looks easy. Everyone

drives really slowly as well. You know,

the maximum speed limit on highways is

only 80 kilometers per hour. That's like

50 miles per hour. In the UK, it's 70. I

don't know if that's true. That's what I

saw in the video. Where's Google?

What is speed limit? In Japan highways.

Oh, it says 100 kilometers per hour.

Why was that video saying 80 is the speed

limit? 100 kilometers

per hour is like 70, isn't it?

62 miles per hour. I don't like 70 miles

per hour. It's scary. 60 miles per hour is

kind of scary as well. 50, 40 to 50,

I feel comfortable. It used to be

80. When did they change it?

I can get one of those Suzuki kind of

wagon square-looking boxcars, and then

I could push back the back seats and I

could sleep in the back quite comfortably,

I think. And then We could go to

the gym for showers and then I'll just poo

in the 7-Eleven and then we can just drive

randomly all around the country. And I

won't stream the driving because it'll be

dangerous. I need to focus on driving.

But when I found somewhere to stop for the

night, I would set up the stream and then

do like an evening stream and maybe some

cooking. And then I want to vlog it as

well. Like vlog the entire— document the

whole experience from beginning to end.

And then I'll stream whilst doing the

trip. And then after the trip's over, I

will finish editing the vlog and just post

it as like one big vlog.

That way we get views, probably get like

4K views. The streams would

make a bit more, I guess.

That's what the plan would be. I'd

probably land in Fukuoka, pick up the car

in Kyushu, in Fukuoka, and then drive to

Hokkaido and then ditch the car.

And I wouldn't ditch it— ditch it in

Hokkaido. No, I thought I could drop off

the car in a different city than what I

picked up in. Yeah, we'll hit all the

big cities. Like, do a tour around Kyushu

and then go into the— what's it— the main

middle island bit, maybe Shikoku as well,

and then randomly stop if there's

interesting things to make a vlog or

something. I don't know, I haven't

fully planned out the plan yet. I don't

think it'd be that expensive. I went onto

rental car websites and it's around £1,000

to rent a car for a whole month. £1,180

for one of those Suzuki wagon things. And

then obviously there's fuel and expressway

tolls, but I don't think there'll be too

much. Maybe a couple hundred dollars here

and there.

And it'll be automatic, so it'll be easy

to drive. And then I could do a bunch

of different videos like camping in my car

in Japan. I think there could be loads of

stuff we could do and then end it all with

like a big concise video that captures

every part of it. And it'll be like an

hour-long video.

That's what I feel inspired to do right

Journey across Japan,

not copying anyone at all. And then I get

electric bike and bike back to Kyushu.

What a massive waste of time, but you

know, you gotta do something. It's better

than sitting in a hotel room every day

playing Rainbow Six, isn't it?

I never really explored the countryside in

Japan much. I always just stuck to cities.

But then where do I park the car? I want

to sleep in the car, so I have to find a

campsite one night. Or can I just like

illegally sleep on the side of the road?

Check my monetization. Oh,

it's still green.

What?

Yeah, I'm refreshing it. It's still green.

Wow, YouTube's finally gonna let me make

Wild camping in Japan is legal. Really?

Aren't there bears though? Japan is not

super safe, I think, in terms of wild

animals. They got bears. Don't they have

wolves as well? I can't believe they just

have bears roaming around. They could maul

you. I don't think the UK has any

dangerous life— wildlife. Yeah, I saw in

Chris's video he brought bear spray and

there were signs saying beware of the

bear. That'll be scary.

I'd probably die.

Where does your girlfriend fall into the

picture? I don't know what's going to

happen next year. She could join me for 2

weeks. Thai people can come to Japan for 2

weeks without a visa. But I'm

gonna be too broke to pay for her, so

she's gonna have to find a way to pay for

It's up to her, I guess.

I'm kind of struggling with money now

because I owe my mum £500 a month.

Nothing is getting views anymore. I don't

know. What, what am I gonna do about this

YouTube thing? No one cared about my

jungle mountain vlog. 2K views.

It's getting tough.

It's getting tough to keep people

watching. My mum

helped me pay my tax. She gave me £7,000,

so I have to pay about £500 every month.

Yeah, things not looking good, but I'll

remain hopeful that maybe I'll find some

kind of content that people would like.

I'm really disappointed with the The

kawaii videos. I can't believe more people

didn't want to click on it. Seems like

people just don't want to see me

traveling, which means this whole car idea

is kind of dumb, isn't it? It's not what

my viewers want. People want drama,

they want girl stuff, not me driving a

car. I think

I just suck at making videos.

I'm only good at making one type of video,

and that's like drama and being an idiot.

I'm not good at anything else. It's not

that people don't like travel vlogs, they

just don't like travel vlogs from me.

They probably watch Chris Broad. I'm just

not good at them. I don't know how to make

I'm good at whining and stupid train wreck

drama. That was my thing. I should have

stuck to it, really.

I don't really know how to make it

interesting. We go for a camping trip. I

show the tent. I show the food. What else

is there to show? Like, show us in the

tent? It's not really much to work with.

Whoa, I nearly dropped my water.

Your recent Japan content, latest Japan

trip, didn't do as well as you thought.

Yeah, I didn't make any videos. Maybe that

was the problem. But the streams maxed out

at like 5 or 6K views, which is the same

as I was getting Now, really. And before

I went to Japan, the streams were very

unwatchable for a lot of people though,

because they were so long and most of the

time nothing was happening. Just me

cycling or sitting in my bed. Next time I

go to Japan, I won't do that again. I'll

try and focus on videos with streams twice

a week. You have

no discovery. I know. I don't know why

YouTube is not showing my videos to a

different set of people. They're like,

YouTube says your videos, your video

is doing worse than usual because your

viewers are not showing interest. Well,

then why don't you show my video to people

who would find it interesting? There's

millions of people who would find a road

trip in Thailand or elephants or camping

in Thailand interesting. Why don't you

show them to a different audience then,

stupid YouTube algorithm? It sucks.

It has one job. The YouTube algorithm's

job is to match videos with an audience.

You're saying there's no audience who

would find my videos interesting? Come on.

It's a lot of rubbish. People do

road trips and travel stuff all the time

and get tens of thousands, hundreds of

thousands, millions. YouTube is dumb

because they match me with an audience

that are not interested in my content,

and then they're like, oh, your channel's

dead. Yeah, thanks to you, stupid

algorithm. If you showed my videos to a

suitable audience, maybe they'd find

There's plenty of channels who have huge

audience where they're just

Like traveling, barely talking. They just

show scenery. It's like ASMR vibes.

Why can't I have an audience like that?

It's so hard to, to get

the right audience. I guess you gotta have

a video blow up. It's not easy to get the

video to blow up.

It's like random luck more than skill.

Why are you streaming so late? My

girlfriend went out to go to work.

She said she'll be back late.

She got a new job recently. I don't really

know what it's about, to be honest. It's

about real estate. Or something like that.

It's kind of annoying, to be honest,

because she's on her phone all the time,

nonstop. I missed

when she had her other job.

It's like some kind of consultation job,

and she's part of a team. So they're

always having to phone each other and do

meetings and stuff. It's really intrusive.

Like, we'd be watching Netflix, but she's

got some meeting on her phone as well at

the same time.

But if it gets her money, then whatever,

I guess.

I said you should just let me dramatize

our relationship. That'll make more money.

But she's like, no.

What else is happening?

Selling stuff. Meeting the guy that bought

my Switch OLED was really annoying. I told

him, come to BTS Victory Monument, I'm

waiting there. And then he keeps phoning

me because Thai people love to phone

people. They're definitely more phoners

than texters. So I pick up the phone, I'm

like, hello? And I can't hear a word he's

saying because of the traffic and his

English wasn't very good. So luckily my

girlfriend was there and I just gave her

the phone to talk to him. And then he kept

getting lost. It took him ages, took him

like 40 minutes to actually get to the

meeting spot. And then he didn't have

enough cash. He only brought 3,000 baht

when I asked for 5,500. And then he wanted

to, I don't know what the cash, it's like

Cash App or Venmo. He wanted to Cash App

me the rest of the money, but I don't have

those Cash App apps. So he Cash

App'd the rest of the money to my

girlfriend. How are you so disorganized?

Like, we agreed on the price. Why didn't

you just prepare the money before you

arrived? I reckon he's going to resell it

because I sold it at a cheap price to get

rid of it. So glad to get rid of that

Switch OLED. That's the most useless,

rubbish device I've ever had.

Now I want to sell the ROG Ally, but no

one's buying it. I put it at $21,500

starting price, but it's brand new,

$24,000 in the shops.

But I don't want to set it for any less

because then I'd be losing like $150.

And all my videos flopped. I made like $50

from my videos about it.

So if I really want to sell it, I think

we're going to have to take a loss of like

$100 to $200. Maybe I'll just keep it and

I'll get a portable monitor for it. Maybe

I can sell the iPad. How much do you think

I can get for iPad Pro 2019 version? It's

slightly bent. Can you see?

It's slightly warped in the middle, I

think because it was in my backpack and it

was like bent over my back, pressed up

against my laptop. When I put it on a flat

surface, it wobbles. And it's not because

of the camera bump. I put it on the screen

side and it kind of wobbles. You don't

really notice it though. I'm gonna bend it

back. Why did you want

to sell all your tech? Because I'm broke.

My videos make like $10 a video now. Can

you believe I used to make hundreds of

dollars every video and now I make $10,

$15 per video? It's so sad

how low you can drop. Don't you

draw on it? Not really anymore. Drawing

video. I don't know if I want to do

drawing videos again. They got

okay views.

6K. I want to make some extra money and I

also want to lighten my backpack. So I

don't want to carry 14 kg of tech in my

backpack. Do you remember when I first

came to Thailand? I had so much stuff like

the LiFePO4 battery banks, laptop,

Switch, iPad. It was so heavy, 14 kg

I don't really draw for fun.

I don't really like drawing, it's

And the only thing I want to draw is, is

like hot anime girls that

I can't really post anywhere because

I'll get in trouble.

Oh, the stream is still monetized. I'm

gonna be saying that over and over again.

I can't believe it. I just, I don't get