Why I want to be a girl

Sometimes when I was lying in bed, I used

to think to myself, wouldn't it be nice if

I was a girl and not a boy? If you think

about it, it seems like life would be a

lot easier if I was just a girl. Since

about the age of 17 or 18 until my

mid-20s, I used to have this obsession

with looking as feminine as I possibly

could. I would grow my hair out, I would

pluck my eyebrows, I would bite my lips so

they would go red so it looked like I had

plumper juicy lips. And sometimes when I

was outside in public back home in

England, for example, if I went to the

post office or when I was working at the

petrol station, sometimes people would get

confused and they would address me as a

woman. They would call me things like dear

or miss or honey. And you might think I'd

be annoyed with that since I'm not a girl,

but actually I kind of took it as a

compliment and I felt happy that they

thought I looked feminine. I also had this

idea, this image of a perfect girl, the

kind of girl that I would find really

attractive, the kind of girl that I would

like to be boyfriend and girlfriends with.

And I always found it difficult finding

these kind of girls. And then I found it

even more difficult getting those kind of

girls to actually be interested in me. So

I thought, well, that's pretty difficult

trying to get my ideal type to feel

attracted to me as I'm attracted to them.

So my backup plan was, why don't I just

try and become my ideal type? So that way

I could just look in the mirror and look

at myself and I wouldn't have to have a

girlfriend that is my ideal type. I could

just become my ideal type. I remember

there's this one day a few years ago,

2017, when I decided to buy some

wigs off of eBay or Amazon.

And this was the first time I ever wore

wig, and surprisingly, I really liked it.

It really brought out my feminine side,

and I ended up buying several more wigs

and had quite a lot of fun with them on a

livestream. I don't know if anyone

remembers that. And I also always felt

kind of uncomfortable expressing my

masculine side. I always hated the idea of

having a beard or a mustache, and I used

to pluck out every single little chin hair

that was on my chin. Up until recently, I

used to do that, but Recently, I just— I

don't know what's happened to my body,

but I'm getting way more chin hairs, too

many that I could pluck out. So I have to

use an electric shaver now to manage my

facial hair. I always had difficulties

with embracing my masculine side. For

example, cutting my hair short was always

something I was really scared of. And I

think right now my hair is the shortest

it's ever been since I was about 12 years

old. The idea of shaving my head is

really terrifying. The idea of having a

beard or mustache grosses me out. The idea

of getting ripped and muscular kind of— I

guess the idea of appearing more masculine

just has never really interested me much.

When I think about it, it just seems as

though being a girl or being a woman is

much better than being a man. For example,

The men always have to do all of the

hardest jobs, all of the most dangerous,

the most disgusting jobs, the most risky

jobs have always been done by men.

Getting sent off to war, cleaning the

sewers, climbing up really high

electricity towers to fix cables. Most of

those jobs, 99.9% of the time, were done

by men. I am so happy that I never had

to be sent off to war. So when it comes to

relationships and dating, I feel like it's

a lot harder for the man. The man is just

expected to do pretty much everything—

driving the car, building the house,

earning the bread, putting money on the

table, providing physical protection

against the dangers of the world, going

out there hunting. There's just so many

things that the man is expected to do.

And if he's incapable of doing so, number

one, he probably will find it difficult

finding a female partner. And number 2,

he'll just be laughed at by society.

Society will say things like, he's not a

proper man, he needs to man up, and he

needs to learn to drive, and he needs to

do this and that. I just feel like

compared to women, men are just under so

much more pressure from society to be

a certain way. Even when it comes to

dating, the man is supposed to do

everything. The man is supposed to walk up

to the girl and approach her and make the

first move, and then the man is expected

to buy her a drink. And then the man is

expected to pull out her seat and open the

door and drive her home and pay for the

meal and do everything. And all she has

to do is sit there and smile and seem

interested in you. If I was a woman and

I'm looking for a relationship, all I have

to do is go on to Tinder and straight away

in the first day I'll get 5,000 matches.

And I know this for a fact because last

year I was planning a video where I would

pretend to be one of my ex-girlfriends on

Tinder, and I made a fake profile

pretending to be one of my exes. And in

the first day I got 5,000 matches.

As a guy, in, in a week I wouldn't even

get 20 matches. In a week I'd probably get

about 7 or 8 matches and then half of them

would unmatch me. And then the other half

wouldn't even want to meet me. Also,

girls have just a much bigger choice.

They have more choice when it comes to

what kind of clothing they can wear. If a

woman wears trousers or jeans, it's

completely fine. It looks normal. But if a

man wants to wear a skirt or stockings,

he looks like a twat. Women can wear

pretty much anything they want and people

won't ridicule them. They can dress cutesy

and colorful and have pigtails and

Pikachu shirts and no one would really bat

an eye. But if a guy did that, they would

think he's a complete twat. And then

there's other things like in Japan they

have the female-only carriage. What about,

what about the men-only carriage? We don't

get a special men-only carriage when the

women do. And then on the Titanic movie,

they only let the women and the children

onto the lifeboats. They wouldn't even let

the men onto the lifeboats because the

women and the children are more important.

Surely man and woman is more important

than woman and child because the man plus

woman could make more babies. A woman and

the child, well, technically they could

make more babies, but that's, it's kind of

weird, isn't it? Also, women live longer

and they have less disease and they

usually don't smell like men do and they

usually look more attractive than men do.

I just feel like life would be way easier

if you were a girl, and you could make

money so much more easily than a man could

if you were using things like OnlyFans,

or if you were just livestreaming. As a

man who does OnlyFans, I feel like I'm

doing fairly okay, not too bad. But if

I was a woman, I think I'd be doing 10

times better on OnlyFans.

Give it a quick wash.

Don't really need to wash it much, it's

not very important. And put some

water like this.

And then we just put it on the fire.

Where is it?

Here.

And then we just wait for it to start

bubbling a little bit, and then we put our

cloth and the lid. Where's the lid? I'll

put it somewhere. I think it's in here.

Yes, so you want to wrap the lid

in the cloth like this so the steam

doesn't get out, and then we can steam the

rice in the pot. So wrap it round

like this, and we just have to

wait for the rice to start bubbling.

And I'll show you what I have for dinner.

I've got these— oh, I have 4 hamburger

burgers for $2.99, so pretty cheap.

It's about maybe $1 for one patty.

I think I'll have 2, and I'll just

fry some of these vegetables that I

prepared earlier on yesterday's

livestream. Always good to have your

vegetables prepared like this.

Okay, let's check the rice.

Do do do. Give it a bit of a stir to

move it around.

So the rice has finished cooking. As you

can see, not too wet, not too dry.

Hmm.

I can't

get it off. Why is it stuck?

Oh, easy.

Easy function.

And that is how you make my famous beef

burger broccoli stir-fry with rice recipe.

Pretty simple, but pretty filling and

pretty good.