Hiding in my room is an UTTER manchild

Hello, it's a cape. Who wants to see

my cape?

Look, what do you think?

Do you like it? It looks pretty cool,

doesn't it? I think it looks quite

cool. Do you think the back of my head— do

you think the hair is too long? I don't

know now. It doesn't— I thought it was

long, but now I look at it from the side

Like this, it doesn't look too bad.

If I

do it like this, like that— ouch,

it's pulling my hair. I'm scared,

I've never done this before.

Oh, oh.

It doesn't look like it's making a

difference, but it's a lot shorter now.

Wow, I can feel my skull.

Oh shit, feels strong, but then

I can't see.

That would have been better. Oh,

it was just so bad.

It's like the person who, who wrote

the— what's the word— the person who wrote

how the battle would take place has no,

no idea how a real battle would work.

I play Total War, so I have basic

knowledge.

So annoying.

No, if I tell you what I found

unattractive about her in detail, I

promise I'll lose another 50 to 100 subs

easily.

You see, this is what's the problem. I

blame you guys. You ask me these questions

that get me into trouble.

So if I lose subs, it's your fault?

No, I don't, because I just end up

shooting myself in the foot all the time,

damaging my channel. My channel would

probably be a lot bigger if I kept my

mouth shut, wouldn't it?

If I was like Ben Dean and I didn't tell

you anything. I'd probably have 140K subs

now. But nope,

I just couldn't control myself.

I just like telling people stuff. For

example, if you're going to be annoying,

then I, I don't have a problem telling

people that you're annoying. I don't see

I'm just sad that I'm gonna be dead in

about 40 years.

My parents will be dead, my sister could

be dead, and then I'll just be alone with

all my memories of my dad and my family,

how everything was simpler when I was a

kid. I wish I was a kid again.

Everything was easy, everything felt safe

and secure.

You probably won't be dead. I think I

might be dead when I'm 70. I don't know,

I might live until 80, might live until

90.

I just don't think— I don't know how I can

enjoy life again now. It's just, it just

won't be the same. And it's just gonna get

worse. My mum's not gonna live forever.

Life is sad and lonely. You start off

life, you're surrounded by people. You

have your parents, siblings, relatives,

your grandparents, your aunties and

uncles, cousins. And then the older you

get, the more and more alone you become.

All these people just start vanishing.

First it's your grandparents, and then

it's your parents, and then your uncles

and aunties. Your cousins, you'll never

see them again because they have their own

lives. Oh, thank you, Catlin, for the

pump and dump fund. Any volunteers?

And then your cats die, and then you're

all alone, and no one knows who you are,

no one cares.

And then you just sat there in an armchair

thinking about how much life was better

when you were a kid.

That's gonna be me.

Yeah, I'm not excited about the future.

I just can't believe I'm gonna die. It's

so weird thinking about that.

Me, Daniel,

I'm gonna die. I keep thinking that to

myself. I'll be dead in

a box. In the ground,

I'll be gone, and everything I did won't

even matter. All my struggles,

all of my achievements would mean nothing.

I don't want to die.

Am I scared of dying? I am. I don't want

to die.

I don't want to get old.

And when you're in your 20s, you don't

even think about it because you feel so

young. And then you get to your 30s and it

hits you. I've lived,

lived half my life already.

It's gone.

How can I die? That's just weird.

I've been alive all of my life, and then

I'm gonna be dead.

I don't really care about leaving a mark

and being remembered. What good would it

do me? Life is meaningless and pointless.

There's no consciousness beyond death. I

know, that's why it's scary. That's why my

philosophy on life is be a lazy bum and

enjoy it. Enjoy the pleasures of life as

much as you can before you die. And I

enjoyed things. Didn't have to work too

hard. Didn't have to fight in a war.

That's good. No, don't take me away.

I don't want to go. Take someone else,

not me. I, I want

to live.

I want to see what happens in 2500.

I want to see what happens in the year

5000. Can you imagine the year 5000? It's

gonna be crazy.

We'll have teleportation,

we'll be living on Mars,

we'll have VR that's so realistic we

wouldn't want to leave.

Can you imagine the year 5000? It's gonna

be crazy. If you think it's crazy now,

we haven't even had the internet for 100

years. Imagine what it's gonna be like in

the year 5000. And I won't be able to see

it. I want to see the year

10,000. Can you even imagine it?

People will be writing down on their

notebook saying, today's April the 25th,

year 10,121. That's so weird, isn't it?

Oh, thank you, Jasmine. Fear of aging.

I'm exactly the same. I think about it way

too much. Yeah, I'm scared of aging as

well. I'm scared of

my face drooping, my hair going grey.

I'm still young. I'm still

young. Do you think in the year 10,000

they'll still be calling it the year

Why are we in the year 2,000? There's been

more years than 2019. Maybe if I lived a

full life, then I wouldn't be worried

because I have no regrets. I lived life to

the fullest. I can't really say that, can

I? I hid

from the world the best I could.

I wouldn't want to go to jail, and I don't

want to finish myself, so yeah,

I guess I won't kill people yet.

I have a lot of onions. I bought too many

onions. I could just fry the steak

with onions. I need to make dinner.

I need to sodomize myself.

Oh, my head hurts. Tomorrow will be

nothing, and the next day will be nothing,

and then maybe after that day livestream?

Rastro? Rastro?

I'd like to get a dress and do some

cross-dressing, actually. I just feel a

bit gay. I'm scared people will make fun

And I'll see you later, I guess.

Hopefully I haven't lost too many subs.

Oh no. Bye.

Goodbye. See you next time.