Kick Livestreams/life updates 2025-07-29 06_35 [68731994-life-updates] 480p

Yeah.

All right.

All

right.

There

you

go.

Oh.

Done.

Oh, shit.

嗯，哇啊！

Washing up and then apple— I mean orange and KitKat.

Better dinner than yesterday, right? Nice and juicy. Yesterday was horrible.

Oh shit,

fish

in the fridge.

These oranges are not good. Should have squeezed it before I bought it.

Ah, failed again with the oranges. I can't seem— can't seem to get any good oranges recently.

Skin

is not soft.

Where's my tripod? Tripod.

Jobs done, another day done. 2 hours till I can go to sleep. Another shitty day is over.

I kind of gave up on eating the Kit Kats, the vegan Kit Kats. Oh, well, congrats so much.

Done.

I gave you the role.

I can do it from my phone.

Well done, hard-earned badge.

This orange seems quite good.

It's okay, I guess. I don't know, kind of chewy.

Oh,

why is it crunchy? Oh, these oranges suck.

It's all hard. I don't want that one.

Why is it hard?

It's supposed to be soft and plump.

嗯。

I don't

know if I can eat the KitKat, too full up.

I think I'll just have the tea.

Oh God, times have been not good to me recently.

Not good at all.

嗯。

I'm already going to Amsterdam.

Uh, I don't know, it's a silly idea.

I just feel very uncomfortable being here.

I don't want to go, really, but I feel scared.

Yeah, I'm getting déjà vu too.

What if I get stalked in Amsterdam as well?

I was just stressed out all day with this lawyer stuff.

Talk about Mila.

Mila was such a kind and nice person, one of my best exes. Big heart. And very lovely.

嗯。

It's 5 Thai women in England

on the app.

I don't know if my sister's all fat or just the stomach.

Maybe.

Stomach must be huge. I haven't seen it.

Must look weird.

Bet my mum's excited and she's— I don't know, do you think my mum's saying stuff like

You should do this and do that, and this is good for the baby and this is bad.

Seems like it sounds fun at home. Sad I miss out on all this.

Do you feel a bit sad sometimes, miss out on family life at home

just because me and my mum can't get along?

Feels like it's not fair sometimes.

Sad life and ended up this way.

I don't know why it had to be like this.

I feel like I might as well keep the money unless I can pay the money all off at once,

cuz I don't know if some emergency is going to happen where I need the money.

Now I have to borrow it again.

Like, if I had 30K, yeah, I'd pay her back I'll have 10K left to fall back on.

I'm just worried.

I need some like backup money so I can get back on my feet in case anything happens. I don't feel comfortable just sending off all my money back to my mom.

I need this sense of security.

The only thing I might blow it on is travel expenses.

Like, my recent travel ideas could cost between $1,500 to

2,000. Get paid on Kick on Thursday. That's just 3 days away. Got Tuesday,

got Tuesday, final day to make some extra money. What the fuck is that? It came off my neck. It's in orange. Yeah, Tuesday is the last day to make

money before the payout cutoff date, I think.

Yeah, because what I mean, because, you know, the money, um, I've got built up in my balance now would be shipped off to me on The end of Tuesday. So Tuesday is last day to make it before I get the money on Thursday. Might be able to get to 1,100,

maybe 4,200 end of the month.

Mhm. What's that?

It just blipped me because of rain. Rain possible overnight. Wow, thanks for blipping me.

I hope it doesn't rain tomorrow. I really want to go outside.

Tuesday, rain. Oh my God.

Oh no, it's raining until 12:00.

60% chance

stops raining at 1:00. Oh, fucking rain. Every day. I'm gonna go insane.

This must be the wettest summer I've ever known.

Maybe I'll just go anyway and get wet. Who cares? Flip 7's waterproof anyway.

Just don't get the ports wet.

Never seen such a wet summer.

Oh God, hiya.

Maybe Devin's just really wet.

Atlantic Ocean spraying it.

Can't they just shoot a missile into the clouds, vaporize the Wayne?

Make it all evaporate.

No, I'm not talking to any more lawyers.

I think I've heard all I need to know,

which is basically just don't talk about anything.

It's what they say,

just don't talk about the situation and it will be all good.

Just don't want to waste thousands of my precious Kick money.

Been destroying my mental health to make this money.

I want to use it on something I can enjoy, like going to Thailand.

嗯。嗯。

嗯。

Any news? Not really.

Nothing really. Except I have to keep my mouth shut for a whole year. About certain things, which is fine, I guess.

Lawyer said it's £500 for advice.

I got one free consultation and then another one wanted £500.

The urge to go to Thailand is getting stronger and stronger.

No, I don't have any girls lined up. It's hard chatting to them. There's just nothing to say. Like, what are your hobbies? When do you want to meet?

嗯。

Thought you didn't want to go to Thailand.

I know.

Yeah, that phone call really sucked.

She was so annoying on that phone call. I don't know what she was going on about. Asked these weird questions like, what kind of person are you looking for? I don't know, someone who's nice and fun and cute.

What else? And then she's like, oh, is that all?

And then I was like, no. Also,

I don't know, like, why do I have to list off all the things I want? It's the same as everyone else. Everyone wants same thing.

I want hot sex and I want cuddles and love.

嗯。

Maybe I end it early tonight, 11 o'clock. I don't know if I can do it till 12.

Right, finish in 37 minutes.

Why am I so itchy? Once I start scratching, I get more and more itchy.

I guess I'll just force myself to go outside even if it's raining.

Rain means there will be no people there.

I'm gonna go mental if I just stay inside all day.

Funny, since my name's Hiding in My Room, you think I love being in my room all day.

One thing I, I'll miss if I leave the country is I do quite like driving now.

There's something kind of relaxing about it. The way the car just effortlessly glides down the roads, the way you slow down around curves and then speed up again. There's something kind of nice about it.

Now, I never thought I'd say that, that it's relaxing, but when you're driving, you can really feel like, yeah, now I can like think about stuff.

You have like a nice think, it's kind of like going on a walk.

There's a lot of things I'd lose by leaving the country. I mean, I could rent a car again, stupid international. Maybe I'll do that tomorrow actually. If I get the international, doesn't it only last a year since I get it? So it wouldn't be wise to get it Until the last day, until up until the last moment

I leave.

I shouldn't get it then. I should only get it when I know when I'm gonna go.

I don't want to go in summer.

It's the only thing I hate about being in the UK is the cold, but it won't be cold until another few months.

I could ban Chuff Weasel if you keep saying that. I never said anything like that. What the fuck you're talking about?

More or less. So I didn't say those exact words, did I? So shut the fuck up. Banned.

What do you mean more or less? Don't just put words in my mouth and be like, oh, more or less. I didn't say the words, did I? And don't say that I said it. Fucking idiot. Yeah, I never said anything like that. And he's like, keep saying that I said that. I didn't say that.

Not

unbanning.

He's been very critical about the whole thing recently.

Basically saying that it's like I deserve it or something.

No, I'm getting rid of this unbanned thing. It's annoying. If I want to ban someone, they're going to get banned.

No more unbanned redemption.

He did not mean it. He's been saying it all day.

First he says, I said it, and then he goes, more or less. So I didn't say it, did I? Stop putting words in my mouth.

I never said anything like that.

Not unbanning anyone. Everyone who's gotten banned today got banned because they're making my situation possibly worse if they don't shut it.

I'm not tolerating any chat where it's gonna put me at risk. I don't give a shit about chat.

Tread very carefully. I'm not messing around here. This is serious.

Serious situation.

More people falsely accusing me of stuff I didn't say.

Oh, I'm banned tomorrow, but I don't want to hear anything else from him today. I'm done.

But he needs to stop saying that I said that because I didn't say that.

How many hours?

I've only done 12 hours 15, not even 14.

Oh God.

Yeah, because I started later today because I had a phone call.

Started at 10. Usually I start 9 something,

but today's been tough.

I do not need people in the chat making things worse for me.

I'm already— you know, I'm being watched

by the authorities. I do not need people in the chat saying I said this and that when I didn't say that.

I'm under investigation.

Similar to the horse clip of

2022.

That's why I'm like kind of anticipating another knock on the door in the coming weeks. This is why I'm on an edge. On an edge.

You just, you can't have fun on the internet anymore.

Internet used to be a place where you can just like blow off steam, goof around, say dumb stuff. Those days are over.

Just can't have any fun on it.

Crips talk. She just disappeared, didn't she?

Remember all the drama was like, oh, Crips and the passport, oh, she's going to flake.

She's completely just gone out of the picture now. 2 weeks, she's still posting stupid things about cats on Toronto Cat Committee thing while she ghosted us and ran off with the money.

Doesn't respond to texts or DMs.

Vanished.

You can't— like, you just really don't know anyone. You think you know someone, you just don't know them at all. I thought I knew Crypt, like I understood her, but no, another

Says all this stuff and then— no,

I didn't give Crypt any money, but she took money from the viewers. I helped link her PayPal.

She got like $160.

Just pocketed the money and ran off.

She posts a lot on Facebook.

Does Kbug still talk a lot on the bootleg?

I feel like they've all slipped away.

I don't really make the stuff I used to make, I guess. I don't really make videos anymore. I don't really make content. I just do this streaming thing, which is not the same, is it?

Sorry, but I,

I don't even get any view, like extra views from the Turkey Tom thing anymore. I make a video, it gets like 2K views.

It's completely dead.

If I made a proper video, not like a highlight clip thing, maybe it would squeeze 3K to 4K.

I saw AJ in the chat yesterday,

but she's not on much because she's in Indonesia.

I already made a video about Turkey Tom,

got 22K views.

I don't know, sometimes I feel like, yeah, I'd like to make a video, but I just don't know what to make one about.

What kind of video could I make? I've already talked about everything already,

and I can't talk about what's going on now.

Why I regret

Moving to Devon.

No, I like Devon. I think it's okay.

Why? I,

I just don't know anymore.

Used to come so easy when I knew I had a big audience there.

But they're not there anymore.

It's like being a musician and holding a concert when you know only 5 people are going to show up.

It's not the same as knowing there's going to be 100,000 people showing up.

You feel, oh, what's the point? I can't bother.

Why I had to flee the UK.

Yeah, but I can't explain why. That's the problem.

They be like, I have a problem but I can't talk about it.

I think it's just

I don't think it's a good idea to meet viewers anymore,

cuz I can't say what I want to say. I think I should just stick to meeting randoms

and make sure they don't find out about the channel. I just say what I want.

Cuz I feel scared

to talk about other people now,

and I feel like if I can't say, speak my mind, then what's the point of meeting them in the first place?

I just, I keep it to people who don't know about the channel.

Talk about blood bucket. Imagine she does restrain order.

Well, I've been very respectful towards Blood Bucket. I think I've only said good things.

Blood Bucket was in the YouTube stream. I streamed on YouTube a couple days ago. Just to test out the numbers. It was awful, by the way.

I did an early morning YouTube stream on Kit Hill after I got angry at the Kick chat, and it was dead. I got 65 viewers. Chat was basically same people on Kick apart from a couple people like Blood Bucket was there.

I need something big to like get people back. What it takes is like some big news or drama. They'll come back just like people came back to my Kick recently. Had 180 viewers yesterday shopping at Tesco getting breadsticks. All it takes is like a little, little bit more fuel on the fire to keep it going again. Get

it going again.

Where's Crypt? She's at home messing about with cats like usual. So what she does is like she stays at home and she does a bunch of random stuff like picking berries outside, fishing, and then searching around dumpsters for cats. So her life is so weird and random. I don't know, does all this random stuff.

Like she's got nothing else to do.

I don't know why she has obsession with rescuing cats. Just work at a cat shelter then.

Rather go around picking berries off a bush.

And then she ghosted us, took the money, ran.

No, I didn't send any money.

Thank God. You know, I was actually starting to think maybe I should send a bit of money since I'm making a lot of money now.

And I did offer AJ that I'd pay for her flights,

but good thing I didn't.

I think if Crypt kept the lie going, like stretched out a little bit longer, I might have sent some money. But because she didn't prove that she got the passport, I just couldn't trust her anymore. I think she knows that. That's why she ditched. I think she knows she lost the trust, so she can't get what she

wants. So she just thought, ah, fuck it, boring anyway. Boring Daniel with only 1K followers on Kick and dead YouTube channel.

Why would I fly all the way to UK for that?

I don't know what she wanted. Maybe she thought like, because I had seemed like I had clout when the Turkey Tom video dropped,

or maybe I'll look better in the videos than I do on the streams.

I have— I had like a perception of perceived clout from my olden days, but it's kind of over now.

She made maybe $250, about $180, $170 on PayPal, like $80, $60, $80 on OnlyFans.

I wonder if she's still subscribed to my OnlyFans on a recurring payment.

She's still following me on Instagram.

I don't— I think she's still in the Discord. I know she hasn't nuked everything, she's just like abandoned everything apart from her Facebook.

When will it turn to 3K? When I get my Nighthawk refund.

Check my bank.

No, I don't have it. I reckon I might have it when I wake up tomorrow. Amazon says issued 29th, but that just means issued, doesn't mean I actually have it. It will take my bank some time to then actually give me the money. Stupid banks are so slow, aren't they?

First the money is issued and then my bank receives it and then I don't know, they do some kind of check.

And she saw the GoPro stream and ran. God, I look terrible on that GoPro stream. I don't even look like that. Look.

See, this is what I look like.

I've got some pimples here because recently I've been stressed. I've been getting a lot of jaw pimples recently and chin pimples.

Really don't think I look like what I look like in the GoPro video. That just makes me look weird. Makes all my veins look popped out as well,

like I'm on steroids or something.

Oh, awful. I don't know what they do with the image processing.

Oh, I've got a pimple on my lip,

pimple on my nose. I'm just covered in— I'm so pimply recently. I think it's the stress.

First it was the stress of having to stream all day every day, and then it was the stress of the stupid fucking Bella Box. God, I hate the Bella Box.

Doesn't even help. And then there's the stress of recent events, and then there's the stress of police possibly coming to my house.

When I'm under stress, I break out. When I went back to my mum's house in 2022, all my skin cleared up.

Just magically cleared up.

Stress triggers certain hormones, which triggers pimples. It's not really about diet. Yeah, I know my diet's not great, but I've had times where my skin's been good and I haven't had any pimples, and I have the same diet.

I also— I just don't know what to do with my life.

There's, there's like nothing I really, really want to do,

and it's making me a bit depressed. And I'm lonely. I feel like I've got no one.

I don't know, I feel like I've not done well. I've not been proud of myself with how, like, with the end of streaming, it stressed me out and I've had rage moments where I shouldn't have said things I shouldn't have said.

Now I'm facing consequences for it.

Yeah, I've got no one in my life, like physically. Like no one. Everyone ran a mile.

Because I can't— I couldn't control the words coming out my mouth.

I don't even mean half what I say. I say it and then I regret it, and then I feel bad. That's why I ban people and then unban them later.

But that's not really going to hold up in a law of court, is it?

It's not really an excuse.

You said I was depressed and mentally ill. Yeah, I said that about everyone though. Are you going to file a restraining order against me?

Cannot talk about Mommy anymore.

No, I only drank half the beer. I shouldn't drink whole beer. I feel terrible.

I feel awful. Last time I had the big bottle, I can't believe I drank the whole thing, cuz it tastes really good cuz it's refrigerated. Tastes way better.

Talking about other people is a risky endeavor. I should just stick to talking about myself.

Why am I pacing? Because if I sit down, stay still, I'm gonna fall asleep.

I think there could be a pullback August, September. I have some cash then

rebuild my portfolio.

Summer's gonna be over soon.

If I go to Japan again, I want it to be different. I want to get a car, I want to drive around Kyushu, I want to hike up some mountains.

I would get like nice countryside retreat. I want to do this whole walking up and down cities in a slum. Now I can drive. I think it could unlock a new kind of experience in Japan.

Because I reckon it'll be like here,

lots of open areas. Driving should be easy as long as you stay away from big cities. Like, I wouldn't go near Fukuoka

or Hakata.

Yeah, I should get that international driver's permit. Get like a Toyota hybrid or something. True Japanese car.

2 weeks ago you were shitting on Japan. Yeah,

yeah, that— I mean, the lifestyle of being in a guest house and just walking up and down streets. I was shitting on that.

I haven't had enough of that.

So I'm, I'm kind of scared of Japanese people now. They have really had enough of streamers.

I don't want to walk around with my selfie stick.

They've— they have no patience for it anymore.

I'd walk around with my camera in my bag strap.

I got overconfident last year in Japan. I was walking around myself. You see it like this everywhere. I remember someone screenshot me because I was in CDawgVA stream when I was following him, and then you, for a split second, you can see me in the background and I look really weird. Like, I'm wearing that, that blue hoodie

with my selfie stick up and I got my hand in my pocket. I look kind of creepy.

No, I wouldn't want to go to Osaka.

I don't see a point going to a city, really.

Maybe I'll book some place with parking, like an apartment. I don't know, see what they've got in Kyushu.

I land in Fukuoka again, get a rental car.

Just, I mean, it's kind of scary driving another country because it's also alien, but it should just be the same, shouldn't it?

The problem is the signs are going to be in Japanese. I don't understand every single word. Maybe I could read it, but I don't really know what it means.

There's not many signs here that I think are really important anyway. Just need to remember the give way sign and the stop sign.

I mean, he needs to study up. It's funny they just let you drive in Japan because you got a British license, but you can't read the signs unless you spoke Japanese. So what, reading the signs is not important?

We've honestly got like a van and I slept in the van. I get some bedding.

Well, I think I'm gonna go to bed now. Today's been shit.

Yesterday was great and I felt amazing. I don't know why today I feel rubbish. I don't know, like, maybe yesterday I felt hopeful. I don't know why today my hopes got dashed.

Well, I'm gonna go to bed. Good night.