I'm All Alone In A Hotel

Very nice pajamas.

I've wanted one of these for such a long

time, but I never wanted to spend money

to get one.

Do you like it?

Um, okay, so last time I streamed, I was

walking around the streets of Japan

looking for a love hotel. If you remember,

now I'm in a new hotel.

Not sure if I want to use this.

What does it look like when I do this?

Pretty wide.

You look like a surgeon. No, it's my new

Japanese outfit.

Makes me look fat.

I broke my shaver. My electric

shaver. The head snapped in my bag.

Stupid thing. Look at it.

It still works, but it's detached from,

from the plastic bits, so I can't use it

anymore. I need to get a replacement

blade. What a load of rubbish.

So I used a razor blade for

the first time in years, cut my lip as

well. Started bleeding here. You can't

really see it though.

Not many people today. Maybe it's too

early.

Reconnecting.

Okay, so I had to turn off the hotel Wi-Fi

and switch back to data. Stupid hotel.

I don't understand because it's really

good Wi-Fi here. The Wi-Fi upload speed is

really quick. Uploaded a 4 GB video in

about 20 minutes, but it keeps

disconnecting on this stream. I was trying

to save data because

last time I did a stream It was about 2

hours and used about

5 gigabytes, and I've only got 21

gigabytes a month, so I would

prefer not to use my data, but I guess I

Um, about the whole Hong Kong guy thing,

I kind of don't care anymore. I've been

going on and on about it for the last 3

days. A bit bored with it now.

Um, I've got new information about the

whole situation. So, you know, in the Hong

Kong guy's last video, the 3rd one, he

begins the video by saying he can

see that he saw the tears and he had to

hand my wife tissues, and apparently she

was crying. I asked my wife about this.

Guess what she said? She said she wasn't

crying and she doesn't know what he's

talking about. She said she had a lot to

drink, or she had some, some drinks, and

she can't remember. And she said

she was sniffing, and maybe that's why he

thought she was crying. But how can you

confuse a runny nose with crying.

Oh, thank you, $100 Smokey.

Welcome. Yeah, it's just weird. I had a

long chat with the Hong Kong guy as well.

He said he wants to meet me, no filming.

Sounds like he wants to fight me or

something. I said no thanks. Yeah, as if

I'd want to meet someone I just called all

these names on YouTube. I'm not stupid.

I'm not saying he wants— I don't know, he

doesn't seem like the kind of guy who

would want to beat someone up. So I had a

long chat to the Hong Kong guy, and I— he

said to me that he, he wants me to make a

video explaining that he didn't secretly

message my wife and try to make videos for

content. And it turns out he was right,

because my wife sent me screenshots of all

of the private conversations they were

having, and by the looks of it,

he never really mentioned making a video.

She did. The conversation kind of went

like this. Um, how can I word

this? It kind of went like—

I don't know how to explain He said he was

upset because I

stopped talking. No, wait, my wife asked

him if we were still talking. He said no,

and then he said he felt like he wasn't

worth anything to me anymore because our

last video didn't get very good views.

And then he seemed sad, and then my wife

said, well, when we meet, you can film

me and make a story out of our meeting,

make a video out of our meeting. And then

he said, really? And he just said thanks.

That was it, really. So it was my wife's

idea to make the videos. It kind of seemed

like she pitied him and felt sorry for him

because I stopped talking to him,

and then she wanted to help him out by

letting him make a video. So that's what

it seemed like. It, it didn't seem like he

was It didn't seem like

he was trying to set the whole thing up so

he can grow his channel. It really didn't.

So I take all that back, and I apologized

for it, for, you know, losing my temper

and calling him names and stuff.

So that's cleared up. That's nice.

And what

else am I upset with? Yeah, I was upset

with his community post making it seem

like I'm a domestic violence person,

make it sound like I'm abusive in, in the

relationship. I told him I'm not,

and we've just had 2 fights in the last 6

months where I smashed stuff But apart

from that, it's not like I'm regularly

threatening her and making her feel scared

and stuff like that. I told him that she's

also pretty violent. We're almost as

violent as each other. I'd say she's

slightly more violent than me because she

hits me. She doesn't hit me really,

really hard, but it's enough to be

So he said he's going to make a video

clearing things up if I make a video, if I

say in a video that he wasn't secretly

messaging my wife to expose me. I don't

know, I feel like he, he also overreacted

to what my wife was saying,

making a big issue out of it,

but he's really making it sound like I'm

abusive in the relationship and I scare

her using violence, which just isn't true.

Oh yeah, I didn't explain why I'm here.

So in the last stream, if you remember, I

was walking around looking for a love

hotel. After wandering around

for hours and hours, I And I failed to

find a love hotel because it turns out

love hotels aren't open in the early

morning. I went to about 5 and they were—

they all had no rooms, which is kind of

weird. I'm trying to keep my voice down

because I don't know how thin the walls

are, and it's midnight.

12:58 PM.

And after I ended the stream— was, was it

last night? No, 2 nights ago. After I

ended the stream, I went to Shin-Osaka and

I got on a bullet train. I got the bullet

train to Kokura, which is in Kyushu,

about 2 hours away. And then I got on

another train to Oita, which is where my

ex-girlfriend used to live, where we used

to live there together. And then I got on

another train to Saiki. So I

was on trains for 6 hours because I missed

the stop at Saiki, and then the next stop

was an hour away. So I had to go all the

way to the next stop and then wait for the

next train and then come all the way back.

I guess I could have just stopped off at

the next stop, I don't know. I wanted to

come here because it looked weird on the

maps, but it's kind of boring. There's

nothing here.

It's just like a really tiny town and

there's mountains.

I had a walk around. Look, the entire

place is just dead at night. There's no

entertainment center or shopping area.

There's like a karaoke thing over there,

which is the bright lights, and there's a

few restaurants over there. There's a

little supermarket. That is it,

nothing else. I walked around at night

yesterday and the whole place is just

pitch black. What is the point

of this place? It's just so boring. Why

would you want to live here? There's

So tomorrow I'm gonna go to

Miyazaki, which is supposed to be bigger,

a bigger city, also has an airport. So I'm

going to go to the airport and hopefully

catch a plane to back to Osaka and then

go back to my wife's place because we made

up. And my sister and my wife— I mean, my

sister and my mum are pressuring me to get

back together with her because they want

to see us for Christmas, because they've

booked a place for, for us all to go to

and they want us to come together. So I

thought I might as well just stop being a

baby about this whole situation. Go back

to her. I think

I've made my point with

my anger.

So I'll make a video tomorrow, just going

to be something like exploring Miyazaki.

People won't— probably, probably won't

Oh, thank you, El Martillo. I have been

binge-watching your channel. Thank you for

that. And then I'll

get a plane back to Osaka and then go back

to my wife's place, drop off my computer.

I don't know why I brought my computer. I

guess I thought I wasn't going to go back.

I didn't even use it. It's weird, isn't

it? When I Runaway, I kind of lose

interest in Rainbow Six and I just want to

walk around, explore,

chat to people. Not really interested in

playing games and it's pretty heavy, so

when I go to England I won't take it.

Don't need it.

Why don't you just stream your exploring

videos? Yeah, I guess that might be better

because it'll get terrible views. It

probably won't even get 10K views. I know

people who subscribe to me don't really

care about traveling around Japan unless

it's my wife in the thumbnail. Might as

well do a stream, I guess. I don't know,

might still get good ad revenue from it.

Might do a bit of both, film some footage,

stream some, depends my mood.

What else is this update you on?

Um,

don't know. I think that's it really.

Now that I think about it, it doesn't

really seem like it was much of a big

deal. Maybe I over-exaggerated. Oh look,

I could get room service.

Typical stuff. Fried chicken gyoza.

I feel like coming away here has been

refreshing. It's nice to get away,

have a bit of a break from being cooped up

in that apartment all the time.

What did I do today? Well,

I woke up pretty late because I was very

tired. My entire body is aching just from

all that walking and carrying that bag.

Just shows how unfit I am. Just a bit

of walking and carrying a bag destroys all

my muscles. So my whole body's Still

aching, especially my shoulders.

It's crazy. I can't believe how angry I

was at the Hong Kong guy. Now I'm not

really angry anymore.

Don't really feel that angry. I feel kind

of relieved. Satisfied. Had a nice bath.

I might have another bath tonight,

actually. Quite like my new pajamas.

I think it was a case of my wife being

very emotional because we were having a

fight, and she was also drinking.

And maybe the Hong Kong guy overreacted

to what she was saying a little bit. I

don't know why he thought she was crying.

Is it really that easy to mistake sniffing

for crying? It's hard to tell when people

are crying. It's like when the, the

Turkish girl was saying she was crying

during sex. I had no idea she was crying.

I thought she was just sniffing.

So I mistook crying for

sniffing, and the Hong Kong guy mistook

sniffing for crying.

When me and the Turkish girl were having

sex, I did feel a bit of moisture on her

cheek. I thought she was sweating,

and then I heard sniffing, but I thought

she just had a runny nose. I had no idea

she was crying.

And then she started telling people that

Daniel didn't even realize I was crying

when we were having sex. I don't know. I

don't look at people's faces when we have

sex. I only look

at their faces if I find their face to be

very attractive, which usually in the

majority of my sexual experiences Their

faces aren't very attractive, so I don't

There hadn't been many women that I slept

with that I thought, wow, they look

amazing, I want to look at their faces the

whole time. So I wouldn't

even be able to tell.

Why was she crying?

Um, apparently I didn't do enough foreplay

and it was painful.

I didn't— I didn't know. I thought it was

wet enough. If it wasn't wet enough, then

it wouldn't have went in. If it goes in,

then I just assume it was wet enough.

He said she— he said he saw her tears.

I don't know, his story is different to

her story. And then she gets angry

if I believe him over her.

And maybe she's just saying that so

I forgive her. I don't know. Getting fed

up with it, to be honest. I feel like I

can't trust either of them, what they say.

She also said she was drunk and doesn't

remember a thing, so how would she know if

she cried or not if she doesn't remember?

Maybe she did cry, but she doesn't

remember.

She said she was drinking, but I don't

remember smelling alcohol. She came home

and she went straight into the shower,

which is a little bit weird. She doesn't

usually go straight for a shower when she

comes back. It was like she was trying to

hide something, hide the smell by

having a shower, because usually when you

go to yakiniku, you come back smelling

like smoke and meat. It's pretty obvious

that you've been to yakiniku, so maybe she

went for a shower to hide that. I don't

know, or to wash off the alcohol smell.

Move to South Korea. I was thinking about

I have thought a lot about what would I do

if we did break up, and South Korea is the

first destination on my list. It just

looks kind of depressing there, but does

it really look that different to Japan? I

don't know why I think Japan looks less

depressing than Korea does. Looks kind of

Why do I feel like all of this is made up?

I don't know. I don't really know how to

prove that it's real. I mean, I'm in a

hotel by myself in the middle of the

night. My wife's not here. She's not

hiding in the toilet.

And I came all the way here, which costs a

lot of money. Do you know how much it

costs to get here? Number one, I'm staying

2 nights here, which cost $270,

and I got on the bullet train, which cost

$140. So I've spent £400 plus

just to come here. If I was just doing it

for money, then I would have made a loss.

And if you— and if making up stuff, if the

only motivation for me making up stuff is

to make money, then I haven't done a very

good job because I've probably lost a

couple hundred easily.

Oh, they gave me a new bag.

Laundry, shaving stuff.

What's here? I thought it was a closet.

Do you like my red underwear?

Do I know any people in Korea? No, that's

my ex-girlfriend, but I don't talk to her

anymore. What else do they

have? There's a hair dryer.

Magazine.

Look at this woman's name,

Elizabeth Hardcastle.

Hardcastle. What kind of name's that?

As opposed to what, a soft castle?

Oh look, you can order women to the hotel.

Which one would you choose?

This one looks like a man.

Women.

Imagine if you could order women just like

that, like a pizza. It gets delivered

straight to your room. Which one would I

choose? Let me see.

No, definitely not. No,

possibly. No, no, no,

no, no, no, no, no.

Yeah, this one's the best one. This one's

my favorite. Wait, you can't see it.

I mean her, you can't see her. I like this

one.

She has the most balanced face, I think.

This one has a massive chin. This one has

too many teeth. This one's face too wide.

Isn't it sad? 1 out of 4,

4, 3, 11. 1 out— I only find 1 out

of 11 women to be attractive. That reduces

the amount of women that I could possibly

find attractive by 90%.

And you, you look at cats, they're all

cute. You look at humans, only 1

out of 11 are going to be cute. Why do

humans look so weird?

You show me 11 pictures of cats, I'll

probably say that they all look cute.

You don't get cats who have big chins and

wide faces and massive noses, bad teeth,

wonky eyes.

I feel like there's too much variation for

humans. There's too many possibilities to

turn out ugly. Really sucks.

They don't even give me a minibar.

Empty.

Some nice artwork here.

Bit dusty. Look at this, they don't even

clean properly. Covered in dust.

When will I go home?

Tomorrow, and then back to England.

England trip coming up soon.

Am I leaving my wife? No, we're getting

back together. Well, we didn't break up in

the first place, we just had a fight. I

forgave her.

Well, she seems like she's sorry, so

there's not much else— not much

else she could do.

Why is she still with me? Because she

loves me. Why else?

Look, they give you a tiny pocket. You can

put your razor blade like this.

I might take this home with me.

Hey, I could take both of them, give one

of them to my sister as a Christmas

present. She might like it.

I wish I bought the drink. Getting

thirsty.

Tastes okay.

I fell asleep on the train. I was

so tired. It's kind of boring traveling.

You're just sitting on trains and public

transport for hours and hours, and then

tomorrow I have to sit on a train for 2

hours. Hopefully I can

get a plane from Miyazaki Airport. If I

can't, oh my God, I have to get the train

all the way back to Oita,

which would take 3 hours,

and then get a train from Oita all the way

to Kokura, which would take 1 hour, and

then all the way from Kokura back to

Osaka, which should take 2 hours. Oh my

God. Why are

the trains so slow?

Is Chihiro coming back to England with me?

Yes, she is.

Do you think I should get her a present?

She keeps moaning because I don't get her

presents. I don't know what she wants.

Well, she said she wanted a pressure

cooker. Did I

get stream sniped? No, I didn't.

No one cares about me.

I hate getting people gifts. So stupid.

Number one, I don't know what she likes.

Number two, if she really needed

something, she probably would have bought

it herself by now.

I don't understand why women are so

obsessed with having their boyfriend or

husband get them gifts. I couldn't care

less. If there's something I want, I'll

just go and buy it. I have my own money.

I don't get all upset because people don't

buy me gifts.

Don't really care.

My mum's like that as well. She used to

get angry if my dad didn't get her a gift.

But every time my dad bought her a gift,

she would call him stupid for buying her a

bad gift or something she doesn't want,

or buying something that's overpriced.

You know what I bought my ex-Korean

girlfriend for her birthday? I got her a

big bottle of Coca-Cola.

She was not happy because she said She

likes Coca-Cola, so I just got a big

bottle of Coke. I hate buying birthday

presents. It's so cheesy.

I just feel like it's really lame.

I watched that Rachel and Jun video where

he makes birthday presents for Rachel.

And I was just cringing the whole time.

Jesus Christ, I can't believe people

actually do this. I wanted to puke in my

mouth. Just get a card, for fuck's sake,

like a normal guy. What does he do? He

gets dried— no, he makes his own chapstick

and perfume by drying flower petals in a

book, and then he blends them and then

adds oils and beeswax and all this crap.

Who has time for that?

Just get her a bloody card and a piece of

chocolate. And then all the idiots in

the comments going, oh, I wish Jun was my

husband. Oh, Jun's the perfect man.

Yeah, well, if all the men were like Jun,

then we would have lost World War 1 and 2,

and you'd all be speaking German. So think

about that before you start saying Jun's

the perfect man. Would Jun be in the

trenches? I doubt it.

He'd be too busy making flower daisy

chains, writing poetry.

Women think Jun is the perfect man, but

for the success of human society, he

probably isn't. Jun is

basically a woman disguised as a man,

and women love him because he's what they

think they want men to be,

which is basically just a woman. Women

just want, want women. Women just want men

that are like women.

Why don't they all just go become lesbians

then?

I hate it. They keep saying, oh, he's the

perfect husband. Yeah, if you want a woman

for a husband. That's not what men are

like, unfortunately. That's what

men are like in Disney fairy tales and

women's fantasies.

Lame. He rides his bicycle with a cat in

his basket.

What a loser. I made a video on my second

channel making fun of Rachel and Jun,

and it actually got the attention of their

fans. It has about 60,000 views.

They're so angry. I disabled the comments.

On that video, so it forces them to click

on my other videos to complain. And they

do, they click on my other videos so they

can write their little hate comment saying

that my videos are boring and Rachel and

Jun are awesome. So sad.

They're so desperate to leave a hate

comment that they'll click onto another

one of my videos just to leave the hate

comment. They write like a paragraph

explaining why Rachel and John are great,

as if I give a shit.

I'll log into it now, see if I can show

you the comments. It's pretty funny.

So easy to trigger people. Just call

people they like idiots.

So I have this second YouTube channel. It

doesn't really get views, gets a couple

Yeah, my problem with Rachel and Jun,

62,000 views.

Guess how much money I made from it?

Well, it was when I had that stupid beard

That I made nearly $200 from just

whinging about how boring Rachel and Jun

are. And then you

go to my comments and it's just people—

it's their fans whining about him. I mean,

about me.

You're wicked and demon possessed. You

have to smear other people in order to get

views. Just know everything you think

you're doing to other people will fall

back on you. You're not free to do what

you want in this life. Just figured

someone should tell you how lame you are.

He clicked on my Day in the Life of a

Japanese Train Driver video to leave that

comment.

My score on your video about Jun and

Rachel is you being stupid out of 10.

First, them having a lot of views is

normal since they have quite a successful

channel. Not to mention they talk about

things related to Japan, blah blah blah.

Look how long this thing is. Just imagine

him sitting there typing it all out.

This channel sucks. He is so

disrespectful, can't take criticism from

others. Rachel and Jun are talented

They just film themselves picking garbage

off the beach and their fluffy cats. What

talent! And Jun sharpens knives.

Wow. But it's

just constant complaining.

Fuck you, Rachel and Jun are amazing.

They just make good content. Their last

video is literally them picking rubbish up

off the beach.

Yeah, the second channel is fun.

It's actually quite easy to get views.

You just put other people's names in the

title and then you talk about how much you

don't like them.

I did the same with Chris Broad. That got

70K views as well. I was just complaining

about how he didn't want to meet me for a

Name of the second channel is I keep

renaming it. I think I renamed it to

Walking in Japan ASMR. I was going

to change it to a walking ASMR channel,

but I got fed up with that. Now I'm

doing Star Wars video game reviews.

I can't stick on one theme.

Well, it's just, you know, not a serious

channel. I just mean it's like a mixture

of just clickbait and things

I'm actually interested in, like Star

Wars, and talking shit about other

YouTubers trying to trick their viewers

into clicking it.

I don't really think you're interested in

anything. Well, I'm pretty interested in

Star Wars. I spend most of the day

watching videos about Star Wars, and I'm

quite interested in cooking. I watch a lot

of Hell's Kitchen, Gordon Ramsay.

That's where I get my inspiration for my

cooking series.

What else am I interested in? Quite

interested in cameras. I got this new

camera. Oh, I left it on by accident.

It's so warm. I've got this new

Sony camera and I tied a Elastic band.

I use an elastic band to attach this piece

of foam so the wind doesn't make a sound.

Well, so I have— I also have an Osmo

Action and a GoPro in my other bag.

I quite like playing with cameras.

That's how I started my YouTube channel.

Because I was into cameras, and then I

started reviewing cameras, talking about

different cameras I was using.

It's funny, this channel started off as a

camera review channel, and then it morphed

into a vlogging channel because I started

watching Casey Neistat in 2016, and I was

really into him. I thought, well, I want

to do vlogging as well, looks fun.

But I never got views doing that. I got

like 50 views and I was doing it for half

a year, realized that wasn't getting

views. And then I just thought, what if I

just spoke about my ex-girlfriends and

sex? And guess what? That got views.

And then I started talking about really

personal things like my problems in life

and how I feel depressed and lonely and

anxiety and That got views as well, then

my channel started to grow, and basically

I just stuck with that, never went back to

reviewing cameras.

I think reviewing cameras in the long run

would have been better though, but it's

just so expensive to buy the cameras,

and then smartphone cameras started to get

really good I just got a smartphone and I

stopped buying cameras. Stopped buying

those, those expensive

cameras like the mirrorless ones. I used

to have a few of those.

Where are you? Did you take the bullet

train? Yeah, I got on the bullet train to

Kyushu.

Do I use the GoPro? I've used it a few

times recently.

I wish you could make more of what you

want to make. Yeah, I wish I could as

well. I wish

I could just talk about things I'm

actually interested in.

But I just feel like people don't care.

They won't care. Oh,

thank you, Paris Hilton.

Would you, would you rather fuck a phone

or Caitlyn Jenner? I don't know who

Caitlyn Jenner is. I've heard of the name,

but I'm not sure who, what she looks like.

I spoke to my sister for about an hour on

the phone. It was quite nice.

It's been such a long time since I, since

I spoke to a native English speaker face

to face. Well, apart from Elvis. It's nice

speaking to an English person.

I kind of miss listening to English

people. There's one time when my debit

card got blocked and I had to phone up the

bank in England. To get it unblocked, and

I felt so emotional being able to speak to

a fellow British person.

I felt like it was such a long time since

I spoke to someone who had a British

Yeah, I spoke to my sister and we talked

about stuff. I told her what happened.

She said the only person using the words

domestic abuse and violence was the Hong

Kong guy. You watch the videos, my wife

never really says anything about me being

a wife beater or anything. Those are just

his words because he overreacted after

listening to her sob story.

Have I talked to my wife? Yeah, I did. I

said I was upset because she said stuff

that makes me look bad that aren't even

true. And then we had this kind of long

argument about gifts. I said I do pay for

stuff and I bought you this and that. She

said you don't buy me gifts. I said yeah,

but I still buy you stuff.

Now people think I don't pay. She said no,

people think that she feels like she's

being taken advantage of and I don't give

her any money. From the videos that I make

with her or thanks to her,

but I pay her the rent and utilities using

the money that I make from YouTube.

So isn't that rewarding

her? But she doesn't think of it, of it

that way. She thinks that I'm supposed to

get her something special with the money.

I don't make that much money. Bloody hell.

You know the one when she went to the

onsen place? Yeah, it got good views, but

I only made $100. It's not like I'm making

thousands.

For some reason, the videos she makes get

good views, but they don't make much money

compared to my ones where I'm just ranting

and complaining about stuff.

I don't really understand why people

like her more, but they don't watch the

videos as long when I'm not in them.

That made me sound really narcissistic,

but it's true. When you look at the

analytics, I'll get less views,

but people watch longer. She'll get more

views, but people watch for less. Guess

which one makes more money? Watch time,

baby.

What's the hardest part of living there

alone? Where? In Japan.

I'm not sure because I've never really

lived alone in Japan. I've always lived in

guest houses or with girlfriends. The only

time I'm alone is when I'm running away in

hotels.

My sister said some weirdos were sending

her messages about me being a pedo or

I said, yeah, there's loads of weird crazy

people who find my relatives and then

message them saying weird stuff about me.

They sent messages to my auntie as well.

My auntie messaged me saying, Daniel,

someone called blah blah blah said, said

to pass on a message to you.

Take us out while you're livestreaming. I

think it's raining and it's pitch black

out there. It's really lifeless.

You walk outside in this place and it just

feels like you're the only person in the

Feels pretty lonely. At least if you're in

a city, you walk around outside, there's

always people around.

I feel like I could go outside and then

strip naked in the street and no one would

I thought you didn't like people. Yeah,

this is the weird thing about me that

sounds very contradictive.

I don't like people, but I feel lonely.

In general, I find most people to be

annoying. Are you going to UK for

Christmas? Yes, I am.

I just don't like feeling all alone.

We're on this massive rock that's floating

around in space. Spinning around another

massive rock that's on fire in

this massive universe which is just void

of life apart from here.

And I just feel all alone sometimes.

Makes me feel like My existence means

nothing. That's one of the reasons why I

started YouTube. Not for money,

because when I started YouTube, obviously

I didn't think I was ever going to make

any money on it. I started it because I

was bored and lonely, didn't have any

friends, didn't have a girlfriend.

Sister's in London or university. My dad's

always at work outside. My mum is my mum.

I just felt like I had no one, so I

started making videos and treating my

camera like it was my friend, talking

about experiences and my

feelings, kind of like a therapist

session. People ask me why I make videos,

and yeah, money is a big part of it, but

That wasn't why I started.

I don't think— I don't think I would have

started a channel if I had a healthy

social life and had lots of friends,

because I wouldn't need to.

I would feel fulfilled socially to not

have to rely on a camera and,

and people on the internet to fulfill

that void.

You ignore us. I'm not ignoring, I'm just

not reading out loud the comments.

You opened this channel in October 2014.

Yeah, that is true.

October 2014, what was I doing?

October 2014 was a pretty crazy

year. It was the first time I had sex with

multiple women in the same year. I was so

proud of myself. Who did I have sex

with in 2014? Beginning of 2014.

Oh wow, what a crazy year that was. So I

was having— first I was having this fling

with a married Japanese woman for

about 3 months in Japan, and then I left

and I went to Korea to hook up

back with my ex-Korean girlfriend. So I

stayed in South Korea for 3 months,

and then I went back to England in May

Saved off a bit of money from the job

center for a few months. Then I went back

to Japan to meet this Japanese

woman that I met in a guest house a few

years ago, and then she became my

girlfriend, and she was the one who gave

me chlamydia.

Wait, when did I make a video?

That doesn't match up with the timeline.

If— when did I make this channel?

Can't have been October.

October 23rd.

Oh, I went back to Korea after

the chlamydia girlfriend.

Yeah, yeah, I remember now. After the

chlamydia girlfriend relationship failed,

I went back to Korea at the end of 2014,

and I made a YouTube channel,

and then I started making videos in Korea.

One day, my ex-girlfriend went to the

hospital to do a checkup, and I was all

alone in the apartment. And I thought, I

wonder what I look like and sound like if

I filmed myself. Because up until then, I

was always really self-conscious about the

way my voice sounded because I thought I

sounded stupid. And I was really

self-conscious with how I looked. I still

kind of am. So I was always

scared of filming myself, but I decided to

go crazy that day and try it out.

I just made some videos while she was

gone, deleted them straight away because I

thought they were stupid. I wish I still

had them. My hair used to look really

dumb. And then

I got fed up with it because I thought it

wouldn't go anywhere. And then I picked it

up again in 2015, early 2015.

I started making videos about cameras and

laptops.

What did I do in 2015?

I'm scared because getting old, starting

to forget. You know, when I,

when I'm in bed and I'm trying to fall

asleep, do you know what I do? I go all

the way through each year remembering

what I did, starting off around 2008.

I try and remember all of the main events

that happened because I'm kind

of scared I'm gonna get old and just

forget everything.

2010, 2011, 2015. What was I doing?

Oh yeah, I was buying

cameras over and over again because I

wanted a really good one, and I was making

videos on each camera that I was making— I

was buying. And then the Korean girlfriend

suggested we could go on a trip together.

So we went to Paris. I met her in Paris,

and then we came back together on the

Channel Tunnel train back to my parents'

house. I introduced her to my parents,

and that was the first time I had sex in

England. And then we went to Norway.

Norway was shit. Went to Norway

for a few days. And then we came back to

England for a day, and then my dad drops

her off at the airport.

And then I don't think I went to Japan

2016, I got the itch to go back to Japan

again. I went to Korea first in March.

For one month this time, just one month,

and then I went to Japan. So I did it the

other way around. I stayed in Japan for 3

months, felt really depressed because I

couldn't find a girlfriend, and I went to

Taiwan for about a month, and then I came

back depressed again because I couldn't

get a girlfriend. Then I got the job at

the petrol station.

I really wish I started making videos

earlier because I feel like the most

interesting parts of my life have passed.

The most interesting part was definitely

2010. Oh, I feel so stupid

because 2010 was when all those J-vloggers

were blowing up. I could have been one of

them and had all of these experiences

happening. I could have made videos on

each one. Instead of telling them as

story— storytime videos. It would have

been much more interesting if I was

telling them at the time they were

I never thought I'd become a YouTuber.

How old was I when I lost my virginity? I

think I was 20.

Why don't you try making other content? I

did, but it didn't

work.

I tried doing illustrated videos,

I tried doing cooking videos.

I did travel videos. I guess the travel

videos do get views.

And the reason why I don't take risks and

just try and make something completely

different is because once you've

established an audience,

you can't really just suddenly change what

you're making because people subscribe for

a reason, because of what you make.

And if you just suddenly change that,

they probably won't watch. It's like if

you have a football channel and then one

day they just upload a video about tennis.

Everyone's there to watch the football

stuff.

If your channel's big enough, then yeah,

it's easy to take the risk because you've

already got a big fan base. But when

you only have 100K, it's not really that

big. Make a second channel.

I have a second channel. That's where I

just mess about on. I make stuff that I

don't really care that much about.

What happened? Why are you in a hotel?

Well, we had a big fight after the Hong

Kong guy made— uploaded that 3rd video,

and then I stormed out and I got on the

bullet train to Kyushu.

I might buy a present for my wife so

everyone thinks I'm a great guy. They can

say, oh, Daniel's not so bad after all.

I could buy a present in Miyazaki and then

film myself giving it to her.

The title can be Giving It to My Wife.

You know what I'd love to do? You know

that guy called Harold Boulder? I'd love

to just go to interesting places and vlog

it and just show you what it's like.

He, he lives the dream, the YouTube dream.

He's doing what he likes. And making

videos about what he's doing anyway and

getting really good views.

I love the way he just,

he just vlogs stuff. It's not even that

special. He doesn't edit it. He just

clips, you know, trims it and stuff.

There's no fancy editing like Chris Broad

does, and he gets more views than Chris

Broad in total.

And it's just, you know, like lazy

vlogging basically. It's nothing fancy.

He pretends to be a German. Yeah, he's

pretending to be Swedish now. I don't know

why he does that. And Harold isn't

actually his real name, something weird

like Jens Jorgensen. People found out,

people found out the university he used to

work at in Thailand. It's pretty crazy.

The subreddit he has is just full of

people dedicated to finding out who he

actually is and uncovering his shady past.

Wow, they dig up everything about people

on the internet.

Would you put the Hong Kong guy as a worse

white knight than Kanae Toh?

Hmm, Kanae Toh was

a pretty bad white knight. He was

defending Tomoko and accusing,

criticizing me for being a liar when he

was defending Tomoko, who was also a liar.

I can't decide. Yeah, I definitely

think Kanae is a worse white knight.

White knight people are really irritating.

They see the crocodile tears and then

they're all supportive instantly.

I'm not saying I'm completely innocent,

but I'm

not as bad as how they make it out to

sound. And my wife isn't as innocent as

she makes it sound. We're probably both

as bad as each other.

Apparently I'm not allowed to get angry

about her meeting the Hong Kong guy

because they're 2 adults and they can meet

whoever they want to and they're just

friends.

I'm pretty sure my wife doesn't see the

Hong Kong guy as a friend. They don't

even know each other.

Casey said he invited you too and you

didn't want to, so nothing was secret.

Yeah, I know. This is what I have to keep

re-explaining. I know he invited us. But I

didn't know she was going. She didn't

tell me she was gonna go.

Did you or did you not go into a psychotic

rage and smash stuff after the Hong Kong

guys video? Yes, I did.

But I smashed my own stuff. I didn't smash

her stuff. I definitely didn't hit her.

But when I banned her, she threw my iPad

on the floor and then hit me.

But she gets upset when I tell people that

But if people found out it was the other

way around, and I said I hit my wife,

then you'd all go crazy, wouldn't you?

Saying I beat my wife. But no one cares

when the wife beats the man,

do they? They think I'm exaggerating or

I'm just making it up or something.

I don't like it. I don't like being hit,

even if it's not painful. It's still

annoying. It's like having an annoying

little kid hitting you.

It's irritating.

Am I completely done with male friends

now?

Hmm, I don't

know. I thought I'd give it a try,

see what it's like having a male friend,

but I just— I don't see the point in it.

I don't find it interesting hanging out

with guys. I don't really find girls to be

interesting to hang out with either, but

at least I can have sex with them. Well,

I could have sex with guys, but I don't

really want to.

Why don't I head to Tokyo? I don't like

Tokyo. Every time I run away I end up

coming to Kyushu for some reason. I always

get the bullet train— never eat shredded

wheat— west instead of east. I never go

east when I run away,

I always go west. I'm not sure why, but

there's something I prefer about Kyushu

instead of the Kanto area.

It's more scenic.

I kind of like this feeling of loneliness.

It's weird, isn't it? I say I don't like

being lonely, but then at the same time,

it's kind of nice to step,

step out of the relationship and then

experience being alone again.

To remember what it's like.

Daniel, do you know who I am yet? Well, I

remember your username because you comment

a lot, but I don't know who you are as a

person.

If you don't like people, what do you feel

for your wife? Well, I like having her

there. In the background.

You know, like when, when you just turn

the TV on but you're not actually watching

the TV, you just want some background

noise.

For example, when I'm playing Rainbow Six,

it's nice just seeing her in the

background. I guess I enjoy her presence.

He likes her for sexual reasons. No, you

can't really say that anymore because we

don't have that much sex anymore. I find

it difficult to make it stand.

It depends on my mood. Sometimes I just

don't really feel like it.

Did I see the Hong Kong guy's new video?

Did he upload a new one? Let me check.

He didn't upload a new one. 2 days ago.

This is another thing that irritated me.

Look at this thumbnail. They're in a

It looks like—

I'm not sure what, what place that is.

They're sitting next to each other.

Maybe it's like a cafe,

but in the video they're not in that

place. In the thumbnail they're in a

restaurant.

Do I still have Kanaeito's torture

chamber? Probably. If the person

that was helping me on Minecraft hasn't

destroyed the whole place, then everything

should still be there. I haven't logged

into it since I stopped streaming. That

was ages ago when I was making my dad's

house.

And Casey was also saying that,

um, what am I saying?

It seems like he thought that she was

scared of him uploading more videos

because I was threatening her with

violence. She, she didn't want him to

upload more videos because It was making

us argue each other,

but then he still uploaded it anyway.

That's a bit of a douchey thing to do,

don't you think? If he thinks Chihiro is

his friend, Chihiro's begging him not to

upload anymore, then he uploads anyway.

I heard she cried. Well, that's what he

said, but then I asked my wife. She said

she didn't cry, she was just sniffing

because she had a runny nose.

So I don't know who's telling porkies, or

maybe it was just a misunderstanding.

I'm a bit scared what these other videos

are. I hope he doesn't upload it because I

don't want to get angry again.

I don't know what else she said. Those

were just the first 3 videos,

so it was about an hour.

For— that was just the first 40 minutes of

the entire 3 hours that he filmed.

Why did she let him film her? It was

her idea, she said, because they were

talking about how the video me