I think I'm in Love...

Hello and welcome back to my garden.

It's a bit windy today. For some reason,

it's been windy every single day for the

past week now. It's kind of annoying

because it makes coming outside kind of

unpleasant. Even though it looks nice,

it's not very nice when the wind keeps

blowing in your face. And I have to walk

around in my socks because I can't find my

sandals. I bought these black rubber

sandals so I could use them to walk around

the garden about a week ago, and I looked

everywhere and they've just vanished.

They've Disappeared and have no idea who

took them. Where did you find them?

Who took them to the green room? Not Mila.

I got them after she left. Oh,

can't even get sandals and

use them when I want to.

Okay, so now I have my sandals back, I'm

in a good mood again, and today I want to

talk about love. Now, I'm not really an

expert when it comes to love, even though

I've been in a lot of relationships and I

had loads of girlfriends before. I don't

really think I loved any of them. Even

with my ex-wife, I don't even think I was

in love with her. And some people ask me,

why did I marry her if I wasn't in love

with her in the first place? And that's

because, well, there's other reasons apart

from love to get married, but that's a

different story for a different video. So

maybe I don't even know what love actually

feels like. Maybe I've never even been in

love with another human being. But this

time I think maybe I might actually be in

love. So it's been about 9 days now since

Mila left, and To be honest, I haven't

been coping very well. I've been kind of

depressed and sad nearly every day since

she left. And I really wasn't expecting

this. When I asked her to come to my house

to stay with me, I thought it would just

be some fun, you know, just have a bit of

fun, mess around in the garden, make some

videos, and then she'll leave after a few

weeks. And then everything would just go

back to normal and everything would be

fine. But surprisingly, after she left,

I just felt so hollow and empty

inside. And it's weird.

I find it kind of annoying when people

keep saying I don't have any goals in

life, or they say, Daniel, you need to

have some goals in life or you'll never be

happy. I do have a goal in life. My goal

in life is to find love, and I think I

finally found it. So I guess I just want

to talk about some plans that I've been

thinking of. I was hoping to go to the

Netherlands this week, end of this week,

or maybe next week, to go and see Mila

again. But because of this stupid

you-know-what— I think I can say it now

actually, because recently YouTube changed

their policies so you can actually just

say the, um, you-know-what virus. But I

still feel kind of scared to say it.

People over there, stupid. Can't even walk

in my own garden, bloody people. Walking

past it. Oh my God.

Anyway, what was I saying?

This is why I hate it when people

interrupt me when I'm making a video.

Yes, I was hoping to go to the Netherlands

end of this week, but unfortunately,

after phoning the embassy or the Ministry

of Travelling in the Netherlands, they

said that I need a valid reason if I want

to enter the country. And apparently

visiting a girl is not a valid reason

to enter the country during this situation

that we are all facing right now. So I

think there's going to be some kind of

press conference that's going to be held

in the Netherlands where they're going to

update everyone on the situation, and that

could mean either the lockdown gets lifted

or it could be extended, and I think the

current, the current travel situation is

no non-essential travel up until the 15th

of May. So that means I'm stuck here until

at least the 15th of May, and even on the

15th of May, probably still can't go there

anyway because they might extend the

lockdown even more. So I don't have many

options when it comes to trying to see

Mila again because before she finds a new

guy in the Netherlands. Hopefully she

doesn't find anyone and I can see her.

This whole virus thing is just so

irritating. It's just messing up my life

completely. I can't do anything I want to.

I can't go anywhere. I can't meet people

because people don't want to meet and they

can't meet even if they could. And I can't

even get stuff off of Amazon anymore

because everything's out of stock. I

wanted to get the Oculus Quest, which is a

wireless VR headset. Can't get one of

those because they're all out of stock for

some reason. I can't even get an Airbnb

somewhere else in England because it seems

as though none of the Airbnbs are open

anymore. There's a few in London, but

they're like £5,000 a month. And even

after the lockdowns get lifted, it doesn't

mean everything's 100% completely safe

again. There's still danger even after the

lockdowns get lifted. And I am a bit

worried about traveling straight away.

And me and Mila have been talking about

visiting Amsterdam and the Netherlands

together for maybe a week, not too long,

and then going off to somewhere more

exotic together like Thailand or the

Philippines. That should be nice, but I'm

not sure when that's going to happen.

So yeah, I thought I'd just update you on

some ideas, some plans. That I've been

making, and hopefully everything starts

to get back to normal soon because it's

getting kind of annoying now.

Where you hide and eat? Daniel, what you

cooking? Not pot noodle.

Where is the food? Where?

You chuck it away? You can smell food.

You are miserable.

Daniel, you cook something and you chuck

it away? No.