I’m quitting YouTube. Goodbye.

Hey guys, it's Daniel here, and I never

thought I would actually make this video.

And I've been thinking a lot about my

YouTube channel and my career as a famous

YouTuber, and I think I've gotten to the

point where it's time to throw in the

towel. It's time to just put my hands up

and say it's over. I give up.

It's not going anywhere. I've been trying

my hardest since 2018 to grow the channel

The best I could do was the current amount

of subs I have now, which is nearly

107,000 subs. And even

though I have the highest amount of

subscribers that I've ever had before,

I'm now getting less views than I was

getting back in early 2018, which is just

really depressing and demotivating,

demoralizing to see your channel just have

basically zero growth in terms of views.

And over the last 2 years, the views have

just gone down and down and down. No

matter what I do, no matter what kind of

desperate tactics or measures or

sacrifices I take, it doesn't seem to

make the channel grow. Running the channel

has had a very heavy toll on my mental

health. You may think that I'm just

trolling all the time, or this is what I'm

actually like, but I don't really act like

this in real life. I don't really enjoy

having all these people hating me or

thinking I'm a loser. And the reason why I

made content that made people hate me was

because that was always the kind of

content that got me the most views.

Dramatic content, drama content,

clickbait titles, content that makes me

sound and look like a massive idiot or a

terrible person was always— that was

always the kind of content that got me the

attention and the views that I wanted so

much. So it made sense to me to just carry

on doing that. And I sacrificed a lot, I

think. 2018 and '19, I, I upset

a lot of people. I destroyed a lot of

relationships. I damaged a lot of

relationships between myself and my family

and my relatives, my ex-wife and other

girls who I encountered in life for the

sake of entertaining you people.

I sacrificed a lot. Pretty much all of my

private life was was made public for the

sake of your entertainment. I sacrificed

my dignity, my self-respect, my pride, my

ego, pretty much everything in order to

achieve the goal of becoming a famous

YouTuber, which ultimately I failed. Even

with all the sacrifices and

self-sabotaging I did, ultimately at

the end of the day, I failed in my goal to

become a famous YouTuber. I upset a lot of

people in real life. Chihiro, the Hong

Kong guy, several girls, the Turkish girl.

Not really because I wanted to or because

I hated them or wanted to make them upset.

I was doing it because I wanted to be a

famous YouTuber. That has been my dream

since 2016. I just really wanted to become

a famous YouTuber and I was willing to do

whatever it took to, to achieve that goal.

And the reason why the channel has kind of

died now is because I'm not making drama

content anymore like I used to. To. And

the reason why I'm not making drama

content anymore is because number one,

there isn't actually any drama to make

content of. And I'm in a relationship that

I'm happy with and I don't want to damage

or destroy it by whining or complaining

about it and hurting her feelings like I

did with my marriage. I don't feel like

it's worth sacrificing this relationship

just to get a measly, what, 30 or 40K

views? Even 2018-19 when I was doing that

drama content, you know, peak drama

season. On my channel would still just

bring in about 50 or 60k views max.

Even getting kicked out, even the divorce

stuff, even the cheating stuff, all of the

Hong Kong guy stuff, the most I could get

was 50 or 60k anyway. It was not like I

was getting hundreds of thousands or

millions of views. So I guess I've kind of

come to this conclusion that I'm not

willing to ruin my life or upset people

anymore just to get a pathetic 50 or

60,000 views per video. And even if I did

start doing it again, it probably wouldn't

even get that much, that many views again

like it did last year or 2 years ago

because people have moved on now. If I did

start doing the same kind of content

again, it'd probably just, probably just

max out at around 30,000 views at

most, I think, and it's just not worth

destroying your life and having all of

this drama just for 30,000 views per

video. And you might be saying, well, you

should be making videos for fun because

you enjoy making them. Yeah, well, the

honest truth is I never really enjoyed

making the drama videos. I was only doing

it for money. I didn't really enjoy

standing in front of a mirror and then

having some epic rant about some

irritating person in my life. And half the

time it was just made up. I just faked a

bunch of the content. Getting kicked out,

some of it was real, but then, you know,

several times I just made up some kind of

fake argument, pretended to get kicked

out, booked a hotel, just filmed inside of

it. And then I didn't even stay at the

hotel. I just went back to Chihiro's place

after I finished filming it. So it's not

like I'm actually a wannabe actor or film

director. I don't really have any interest

in being an actor or being like a

character in my own movie. I was only

doing it because it was getting views at

the time, and it wasn't even profitable.

Yeah, the views were much higher back

then, and I was making much more money

back then, but then I was also spending

crazy amounts of money to make that kind

of content. The amount of money I, I spent

on hotels and replacing gaming laptops

and replacing tech that Chihiro threw out

when I was gone. I also wasted all this

money on plane tickets flying backwards

and forwards between Japan and England and

then other countries. The amount of money

I was spending to make that kind of

content possible was just wiping out any

kind of profits. And before I started

doing the— before I started making the

drama videos, I guess I used to enjoy

making the videos where I just talked

about my feelings or expressed my opinions

on something or talked about a past

experience I had, my thoughts on it.

Yeah, I did used to enjoy doing that

before everyone in the comments section

just turned into a bunch of massive

annoying rude horrible people basically.

So you see the channel art banner on my

channel says Internet Support Group.

Well, you guys are just not very

supportive and you don't really make me

feel like I want to express myself or be

open when you just attack me for it. I am

basically opening myself up here, being

vulnerable, expressing my true feelings

and emotions. And what did I get for it?

I got a load of people who don't even know

me in real life, just a bunch of random

strangers who just start insulting me and

calling me names like psycho or telling

me I need to get therapy and this and

that. And yeah, guess what? I don't really

enjoy opening myself up anymore. To you

people because you're just— you're not

nice people, really. You're pretty

horrible, and I don't like you.

Whenever I had some kind of problem that I

wanted to talk about, it just felt like

everyone was just blaming me for

everything, saying, no, Daniel, it's your

fault. No, Daniel, you're wrong. No,

Daniel, that happened because you did

something that was wrong. Instead of, you

know, being a bit supportive or being on

my side, No, every time something bad

happened, it was always my fault.

Everyone always blamed me and said what I

was saying was wrong. Do you know how

irritating it is when you've got some kind

of problem or something that's bugging you

and all you want to do is vent and talk

about it, and then the person that is

supposed to be listening to you and is

supposed to be supportive, they start

having a go at you and telling you that

you're stupid and wrong and blah blah

blah? Every time I had some kind of

problem with a person, for example,

First it was Tomoko, and then the Turkish

girl, and then the problems I had with my

wife— ex-wife— and then Hong Kong guy.

I had these problems with them, and then I

would express my frustration with these

people, and then everyone in the comments

would always just be against me and take

their side. It just started getting really

annoying. It just felt like everyone was

always automatically against me and just

wanted to disagree with everything I was

saying. Maybe 20% of you guys are fine and

nice and polite and civil, but the vast

majority of my viewers— they're probably

not even gonna watch this because they

don't watch my channel anymore— but the

vast majority of the people who used to be

my viewers were just a bunch of massive

dickheads, and I wouldn't piss on them

even if they were on fire. They were just

horrid, horrid people, and I hate them,

really, to be honest. That's all I can say

is I really, really hate most my audience

because they're not nice. They suck as

viewers and they suck as people.

And I don't know why I managed to attract

so many of these horrid people. I don't

want to go on and on about how much I hate

them, but I really do hate them. And they

kind of ruined YouTube for me because I

used to really enjoy making videos. I used

to enjoy opening myself up and being raw

and genuine and honest and telling you

guys about what I really think about

things. And what do I get for it? I just

got a bunch of idiots in the comment

section having a go at me, nagging me,

calling me this and that. And it just—

yeah, I guess it kind of got to me. I

tried to ignore it. I tried to, you know,

have a thick skin, but I guess my skin is

just not that thick. And guess what? I

have emotions. And I have feelings and

they do get hurt. I'm not this stone-cold

robot without any emotions like so many of

you seem to think I am. The other thing

that was kind of annoying was every time,

every single time I would start getting

excited or optimistic or interested

in something new that I genuinely found

interesting, it just felt like most of the

viewers would just start being really

negative about it. Like video games has

always been something I've been into, and

then people just say, oh, you're wasting

your life playing video games. If I start

buying some new tech, they just say, oh,

it's a waste of money. If I got fish,

they'll just say, oh, you're going to end

up killing the fish and they're not going

to last 2 days. Now with the stock market,

every time I talk about stock market, the

idiots just start going on about how it's

gambling and how I'm going to lose all my

money. Everyone's just so negative about

anything that I do show an interest in.

And then they don't even really care that

much to watch the videos about things I am

interested in. And then they only want to

watch the stuff where it's just drama and

I'm upsetting people and I'm being a

horrible person. And then they just

complain all the time about how horrible

of a person I am. And then when I try to

stop being a horrible person and I make

non-toxic content, then They don't even

care to watch it, which makes me think,

oh, I have to go back to making toxic

content again and making drama just so

that I can get them to click my stupid

videos. And it was just like this annoying

cycle where they would complain about

me being a horrible person, but if I

wasn't a horrible person, then they

wouldn't watch the videos. So I had to

become a horrible person in order to get

them to click in the first place. It was

this stupid situation. That I'm just kind

of fed up with. Basically what I'm trying

to say is the current audience— well, not

the current, the previous audience that I

used to have before the channel died— they

were just not a nice audience to make

content for. It was just not fun making

videos for them because they would be

really negative about everything, and then

they would just constantly insult me and

attack me. For making the content that

they want to see. Do you know why I kept

making drama content and toxic content?

Because that's what they wanted to see,

as indicated by the views. So after

discovering the stock market and finding

out how it's actually pretty easy to make

more money on the stock market than I do

on YouTube without having to put up with

all the stress of idiots insulting me all

the time, I haven't really felt the need

to make videos that much because I'm not

that reliant on YouTube for income these

days. Not as much as I used to be. I used

to be 100% relying on YouTube. Now I

think I'm just relying on YouTube for

about 30% of my total income. It's a lot

easier to make money on the stock market

and it's more interesting for me.

And I always wondered to myself, if I won

the lottery or if my channel got

demonetized, if money was completely not

an issue, would I still carry on making

videos? And I guess the answer is probably

not. I just don't see the point. I don't

enjoy it. People don't like me. I don't

like them. I guess I can kind of imagine a

little bar chart. For example, in the

beginning when I first started making

videos, it was 100% for fun,

maybe just, you know, 5% because I was

interested in trying to make money off it,

but I never really thought I would ever be

able to make any kind of money off of

YouTube. So I started off with it just

mostly because I wanted to do it, because

I enjoyed doing it, and then over time

that, that bar chart or pie charts just

became more money-driven,

and the reason why I was making videos was

becoming less and less because I enjoyed

making them and more and more because I

wanted the money, and now I don't really

enjoy making them, and now the money is

barely even there anyway, and now I found

other better ways of making money. I'm

just really struggling to find motivation

to carry on making videos. So, uh,

yeah, I think I'll just give up with the

channel. Um, maybe take, take a break for

a while. I don't know, maybe I'll be back

later. Hey, so I'm back now,

and yeah, I had a little bit of a think,

and I still don't really feel like making

videos. So I guess I'm sticking to what I

said earlier with this video. So yeah,

thanks for watching up until this point.

I guess goodbye. If you're a nice person

and you've been watching up until now,

then thanks, and don't misunderstand and

don't think that I've directed any hate

towards you. When I say I hate my viewers,

I'm directing the hate towards the people

who are rude to me. If you are nice to me,

then— then I like you and I've got no

problems with you. So yeah, I only hate

the people who hate me. I never hate

people who— who wouldn't say rude things

towards me and were nice to me. And I

guess my message to the haters would be,

well, thanks for ruining YouTube for me.

Thanks for destroying my passion for

making videos, congratulations, and you

suck, and I hate you too.