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Testing,

testing. Okay.

I am ready.

Just had a shower.

Turn the laptop fan down, it's kind of

loud. I got the paintings.

Oh nice, hope they were undamaged

or anything.

They gave us some good, good packagings

like cardboard envelope.

When was your last job? My last job was in

2017. Worked in a petrol station doing

night shifts. I was worried

the paintings might have gotten a bit

smudged, but I don't think they would

smudge. Because they've been drying for

I don't think you can smudge it even if

you try to. Maybe it would smudge a little

bit if you press hard. It should be fine.

I've been painting— I was painting all day

yesterday and on the weekend. I think my

paintings have gotten a lot better since

Those ones.

I started trying to paint a face. It is so

difficult trying to paint faces without

being able to cheat and having the lasso

tool and a little eraser and editing stuff

like on— you have on the iPad. Just

painting stuff, if you make a mistake,

you can't really fix it. You have to start

over. Sexiest man,

what's today plan? Oh, thanks, Jer, but

I'm okay. Today's plan, gonna stream 4

or 5 hours, then, hmm,

maybe Diablo. Play some Diablo 4.

Don't really want to do painting today

because I painted all day yesterday. I

think I've made some big progress for

I'll show you later. I might do a bit of

painting because I want to do some

touches, touching up on my, my recent

landscape. I'm using oil painting.

Nearly finished my whole bottle of

turpentine,

but I might try some acrylics. Then I

don't have to use turpentine.

I got this big easel. Look,

you can extend the legs and it's like a

full-size standing up easel.

I thought maybe I'd do like a painting

stream, but I'm not sure how to set it up

because, um, I need a big tripod for

the camera as well so I can put the camera

at the same eye level as the canvas.

I think I might just— I might just put the

camera on here and point it down, and then

maybe, I don't know, do a bit of painting.

If I get too bored.

It's kind of funny I ended up getting into

painting. So random. I always end up

getting into random hobbies and then

getting bored after a few weeks. Oh,

thanks, Makoto, becoming a member.

What happened to the paintings on the

shelves? I sold them. $250.

Danny Collins bought them.

So I've got some new paintings ready. I

might actually hang it up because it looks

I got this one.

I was waiting for it to dry so I could

maybe add some extra highlights.

It's pretty dry now. It's hard to

fix tiny things when it's wet because you,

you add paint onto the tiny brush and then

you try and fix stuff and then it just

smudges into the paint that's already

below it, especially if it's black. If you

try paint something onto black It's

impossible because it just smudges.

So bend the top a little bit.

Danny and who?

No, Danny bought both of them.

Put it here. New painting.

I want to get maybe

bigger paper, like A3 would be more fun

because then— because it's only A4,

it's kind of hard doing little details

because it's so small. Maybe I'll get

bigger paper next time.

Yeah, I like painting. It's fun. It is

tiring though, especially if you— I spent

hours yesterday doing this face and then

it just turned out looking like a ladyboy.

My girlfriend was laughing, then I got

pissed and I screwed it up, put it in the

bin. I don't know why I keep trying to

draw cute girls and they end up looking

like men. It's so annoying. So I screwed

it up and then redid it and I made a new

one that looked a bit better. I don't know

why it is so hard to draw a feminine face.

It always comes out like the jaw's too

big, the chin's too big, the nose is too

long, and it looks like a damn stupid guy.

It's so frustrating. I need to learn how

to do a girly face. I don't know why it's

so difficult. I've been drawing girls for

over a decade. I still can't get it right

unless I have like a lasso tool to reshape

stuff. What did I study at uni?

I didn't go to uni. Didn't study anything.

So this week I gotta go to immigration and

then I'm starting school. Probably gonna

start school end of this week after

immigration. And then my whole

life schedule is going to get switched up,

which is going to be— I guess it's nice to

have a new schedule for life, but I don't

know, I'm kind of comfy right now how

things are.

Paint on canvas,

but it's kind of expensive. I don't want

to ruin a nice canvas. I need to practice

How old are you? I'm 34.

There's no fixed dates when school starts.

Yeah, I don't understand how it works

because surely they would have people

trying to join and sign up. Throughout the

year, and then I guess people just join

the class whenever. But then won't they be

joining when

the class has already started? So you're

gonna miss— am I gonna miss like the

introduction basic bits? I don't

understand how it's gonna work.

Usually you would— I don't know. I thought

you would just start when the school term

starts, but I don't know when it starts.

Maybe it starts next week. I don't know.

Seems like it just starts whenever you get

the visa.

Maybe it doesn't matter. Like, the book is

just basic stuff like this and that and

where and why and my name is, hello.

Maybe they just go through it and then

when they finish it, they start back at

the beginning of the book.

So yeah, it's kind of strange. Do they

even care if I actually go to school?

What if I just don't go? What are they

Because I'd rather just not go and just—

if there's like a test I have to do to

please immigration or something, I'd

rather just study on my own instead of

going to a class. I'd rather just watch

YouTube videos. How is it any different?

I mean, you sit in a classroom listening

to the teacher. How is that any different?

At least on a YouTube video you can pause

it, rewind it. I don't

really need to do speaking practice to

learn it.

The course is, um, well, I paid for a

6-month course, but they said it's only 2

months. I don't understand. They said

you'll get a 6-month visa, but the course

is 2 months. So what happens for the 4

months? And they said I can get a 1-year

visa and study for 4 months. If I, if I

want to carry on studying, I can extend it

and pay them more money. So I'd probably

do that and then get a visa for until,

I guess, next year, July or August. And

then after that, if I'm still here, I

don't know, like get married or something.

If I'm still— if we're still together, I

might as well just get married at

that point. I guess like the long-term

goal would be eventually to get married.

Yeah, maybe that'd be a good idea.

Married again. I wonder if I get views

again if I did like a marriage arc

version 2.

Is Thailand 99% chance they won't check?

I don't know. I heard the government was

getting strict on schools, making sure the

schools make sure the students show up.

And there's like a 90-day checkup thing.

So if you're in Thailand for more than 90

days, you have to check in to immigration

to do like, I don't know, just queue

up, wait there for hours and hours to do

like a check-in. I heard they do

like tests at immigration to make

sure you're actually studying Thai.

And if it's obvious you're not studying,

you're just not going to school, they

could deport you and ban you. So I don't

know why they care so much. Just take my

money and give me a visa, for God's sake.

Why does it matter? I mean, why do they

care if I learn Thai or not? They just

want the money, don't they?

I've been learning a bit. What did I learn

I learned that this is ni, like N-I.

I'm not really that motivated, to be

honest. I wish I did like a painting

class. Maybe there's a painting class that

could get me a visa. That would have been

more interesting. I'm really into

the painting stuff right now.

I chose going to the classroom instead of

online classes because I

don't want to do a webcam phone call with

one person. I would find that very

So I really don't like being on webcam.

I mean, not webcam. I really don't like

being on FaceTime on like a mobile phone

facecam selfie phone call. I really don't

like that because you always end up with

like a very ugly camera angle. I guess

you could prop it up. Yep,

David Ford here, pro gamer.

Can you make a living out of painting?

Well, if you guys pay me, then I guess so.

I had some, some offers on my Discord.

Someone asked me to paint their wife. I

think if I practice more doing faces, I

could get to a level where I I could

actually paint people, but it probably

won't look like them because I'm really

bad. I have like face blindness

where I really can't replicate someone's

face and make it look like them.

It's really hard trying to make a painting

look like someone. I was trying to draw—

I mean, I was trying to paint Jill

Valentine from Resident Evil. It ended up

looking nothing like her.

I did like 10 sketches. None of them look

like her. It's getting closer bit by bit.

Why didn't you take my, my Thai classes?

Because I don't really want to do martial

arts. I don't really care about physical

stuff. If I was rich,

I'd just get a Thai Elite Visa. But soon

I'm going to lose my entire life savings

to the taxman.

So in a way, I feel like— I don't

know, I feel like blaming my channel for

lumping me with this massive tax bill now.

And now it's dead, so it's not going to be

a massive help to pay it back in its

current state. So thanks

for that, 112k subs that don't watch

anymore. Thanks for the

massive tax bill.

They want me to show statements for 2019

as well, but I don't think I have to pay

anything because I was in Japan for like 9

months in 2019. Yeah, my dad died.

So from April, I think I was in Germany

for less than a month sleeping with

a Turkish girl and stuff. So that was like

3 weeks. I probably won't count that. And

then I went back to the UK for maybe a few

weeks and then went back to Japan from— I

was in Japan from July until— and

then I went to Korea, didn't I? I didn't

come back to the UK until March. So yeah,

I'm safe. I was outside of the UK for 9

months, so I shouldn't have to pay tax in

2019. But then they got me on 2021

because I was in Manchester, wasn't I? I

didn't even go overseas 2021 until 2022,

and they still haven't told me how much

they're going to give me a penalty for

because I gave them proof that I was

living in Rotterdam.

Yeah, so hopefully

it's not too bad, but I got a bad feeling.

My financial goal is completely screwed

now. There's no way I'm going to recover

from this.

Where are you from in the UK? I'm from

Kent, Maidstone.

Go to a Thai art school. Can you

even do that?

Bangkok art school education visa.

It might be hard to find. Usually it's

easier to just go to a language school.

Where's your girlfriend? She's gone to

work. She's quitting

her job soon, so that's gonna make things

difficult. She bought a

book about YouTube.

She really wants to do YouTube.

Look,

uh, I don't know where it is.

Damn it.

I don't know where she put it. Maybe she

was reading it. She bought this book about

YouTube marketing and SEO.

Maybe I should read it. It's all in Thai

though. It's just got like very basic

explanations about things like video

retention and audiences and explains you

analytics. I said, you don't need

that book. Just ask me. I know everything

about YouTube at this point.

I should make a book actually, like, um,

I don't know, why, why YouTube

is stupid or something. You don't listen

to your— step 1, don't never listen to

your viewers. They will try to tell you

what videos to make Your biggest

mistake would be actually taking that

advice. And remember my viewers saying

stuff like, oh, you should make videos

going outside. Look how that turned out.

Oh, you should do video doing fitness.

All these ideas sucked, and I tried them,

and they just flopped, and they probably

killed my channel. Never listen

to your viewers and What else would

be my advice? If you're

going to sleep with your viewers, don't

talk shit about them later. How to not

cancel yourself as someone who got

canceled. Also, don't misread your

audience. Like, I was trying to be edgy.

I was trying to be like Filthy Frank and

Leafy, and I was trying to be edgy and

stuff when I did not have an edgy

audience. I had like very very soft.

I had like a very caring audience that

wanted me to improve, like a very mature,

boring audience, I guess, that weren't

into edgy stuff. And I was trying to be

like Filthy Frank and didn't realize I was

completely alienating everyone because

they just weren't into that. They didn't

get that I was joking.

I had the same problem that Boogie had.

So he portrayed himself as this nice

internet guy. And then after the years,

his real— his true colors cracked through

and his viewers didn't like what they saw.

So I feel like people liked me at first

because they thought I was a nice guy,

sweet and innocent. And then they

realized, oh, Daniel's a scumbag. And then

they didn't like me anymore. Asmongold was

talking about it too. He said, never,

never What was the word?

What's the word? Never drop your character

or something. I forgot

the phrase. So if you've got like a

persona or a character, never stop playing

that character. Or better, just don't play

a character and just be yourself from the

beginning. Yeah, never break character.

Oh my God, never break character, he was

saying. I think I had

the same problem as Boogie, whereas if

I portrayed myself as a scumbag straight

from the beginning, then people would have

no expectation of me being this nice guy

that they thought I was. I think it's

because my accent— like, my accent is very

deceiving and I look like a

nerd. So they think, oh, he's just like

sweet, sweet, genuine guy. But I was

really into edgy humor and

that's what I wanted to be. But I did not

have the audience for it.

Are you a nice guy? Not really.

And sometimes I can be,

but I've got a lot of dark sides.

I don't know why people thought I was this

really nice sweet guy. I think it's just

because I speak softly and I don't swear

and I've got like a nice soft look,

but I was really into people like Keemstar

and Filthy Frank, and that's where I got

influenced from.

I wanted to make weird stuff, but people

didn't get it. So if I was going to make a

book, put all my tips Do

I still watch Fun with Louis? No, he just

makes these boring videos about his

electric Volkswagen hippie van.

I just, I feel like I got an audience that

was completely mismatched for who I wanted

to be. It's like a

weird failed marriage where

the two sides don't have anything in

common, but we're like together for some—

I don't know why. I wanted

an audience that would appreciate my sense

of humor, but they just got butthurt all

the time, started hating on

I always had to like tread this fine

balance between trying to be,

trying to be full of drama and say weird

stuff, but then not angering the people

who actually liked me. I kept

flip-flopping between the two. I didn't

know which one to go for.

Oh well.

No one— I feel like no one actually cares

about the stuff I'm into. Whenever I do or

talk about stuff I'm into, people stop

listening because they're not interested.

It'd be funny if I made a book, How to Not

Kill Your YouTube Channel, by someone who

killed his YouTube channel. Going back to

England? Yeah, maybe for Christmas if I

can save up enough money.

Been talking about moving into a house

with my girlfriend. Would be nice to live

in a house. Don't have stupid idiot

neighbors walking into your place. We put

a sign on the door saying do not enter.

Hopefully that will stop it. It should

stop it. Why would you think you live

somewhere where there's a sign on the

door? The people who accidentally open our

door must— I don't know, I don't know what

they think when they walk past it now.

They must think, oh, they put that sign up

because of me, probably. Yeah, because it

keeps happening. I don't know why people

keep opening my door thinking they live

here. It is so annoying.

She said to get a house, to be able to

rent a house in Bangkok, would be like

Probably 50% more than what we're paying

now, so 15,000 baht. I think it'd be like

$450 a month. It would

be nice to have a house, have a little

garden, have 2

floors of rooms, have like an office space

for me.

Get a barbecue, little garden patio, do a

barbecue, cook some sausages, get a cat as

well.

That'd be nice.

I really liked her house when I first came

to Thailand. Her house was huge and I

thought, great, I'm going to live here

now. And this stupid ex just showed up and

ruined everything.

Her house was nice.

It had massive living room, had like 3

bedrooms, massive kitchen. It's just, it

was kind of scuffed, like everything was

weird. Some of the lights weren't working,

there's no hot water, no furniture,

and the area sucks. There was nothing in

the area, it's this massive highway.

We went on a walk last— I think it was

yesterday evening, and the area here sucks

as well. There's nothing. There's just

really ugly buildings, few restaurants.

There's like these slum-looking— looks

like an overgrown ruined building with

overgrown plants and a homeless tent.

The area we live in is really ugly.

It's like a slum refugee camp in some

places. But then the building we live in

is really nice. So it's weird.

The entire area is crap. And then

we get back to the building. I'm like, oh

my God, we're back.

I hate walking around this neighborhood.

It's so ugly and noisy. I have a headache.

I feel like I'm going to faint because I

feel so dizzy just from all the noise and

the heat and everywhere looks so ugly.

It's just nowhere nice to walk. I don't

know why the traffic is so loud all the

time. I never— I've been to a lot of

countries. I never really noticed the

traffic being so insanely loud. I think

it's all the motorbikes. Yeah, I still

play Diablo 4. It's a nice game to waste a

few hours on.

I'm on level 74. I'm pretty powerful, but

I keep getting one-shot by the elites.

They'll just stun me and then one or

two-shot me if I don't pay my tax.

I don't know.

They, they would prosecute me,

and then when I go back, they'd, I don't

know, arrest me or something. I don't know

if Thailand can extradite me.

But I shouldn't have to pay tax anymore

because I'm living in Thailand, so how can

they tax me?

Also, I don't even make enough money to be

taxed anymore. I make less

than 12K at

this rate.

Who's in that house now? She, she got some

tenants to live in it, but she said they

weren't living in it. They're paying her,

but they're not there. So I don't

understand. Why would she pay for a house

and not live in it?

You would have to pay Thailand tax.

Yeah, I guess so.

What will your girlfriend do now she quit

her main job? She got a second job,

so she'll do that, plus she wants to

learn how to make money online.

So she's got these books like how to,

how to make money online, how to become

rich, like financial advice books.

She just sits around reading those all

day. Well, what can you do? Like

dropshipping, stock photography, YouTube,

affiliate marketing. I think the

easiest is YouTube. But then what's she

going to talk about? She could talk about

pharmacy stuff since she went to

university. She would know a lot about

medicines and stuff like that. What is the

difference between, I don't know,

corticosteroids and blah blah blah blah

blah? Science channels do well. We can

make like a video about medicine, the

effect, the side effects. Of

diopropantazamine or whatever drug.

You ought to talk about what you know,

because how can you make a 10-minute video

about something you don't know? I want to

make financial videos, but I can't because

I know nothing about finance.

But that would get a lot of ad revenue.

So I talk about video games because that's

the number one thing I know about and

my life, personal life topics, because

obviously the number one thing I know most

about is myself. So I just turned myself

into content is what I based the whole

channel off of.

Problem is I kind of ran out of content,

so I don't really do anything anymore

apart from sit around playing games.

That guesthouse manager was a nice little

snippet, nice little crumb of drama to

rant about. But people don't really try

and beef with me anymore, so I have

nothing to rant about. I had so many

things to rant about back then because

people kept trying to beef with me, try

and pick fights with me. Now people just

leave me alone because they don't care.

They know that I just want drama so I can

Go back to Japan. I was in Japan for a

whole month and the views were

terrible. I was getting same views I'm

getting now, 5K every livestream.

The best way to get content is by hanging

around a lot of stupid people and then

having drama with the stupid people, like

what Ice does. But I just don't want to do

that. I can't stand these weird people.

I'm not willing to do that. I had a taste

of it, you know, with Hong Kong guy and

that Caesium weirdo.

Konnaito. They were such annoying people.

I do not want to have to depend on people

like that to get views.

I should have made a video about the

OceanGate thing that was trending, but I

don't know what to say.

The most shocking thing I could say is

like, they deserve to die, but that's

going a bit too far.

I don't really know how I could say

anything shocking about it. To be

shocking, you have to go against what

everyone believes or thinks,

so I don't know what I could have said.

Am I gonna watch The Witcher? Nah, that's

boring. I tried watching the first season,

it was so bad.

Uh, I don't know what my advice would be

to my girlfriend if she wants to make

money online.

And if she wants to do YouTube, I don't

know, what, what would you make videos

about? Thailand? You could teach Thai.

I think it'd be easier to just do

streaming, like IRL streaming, but I don't

think she wants to do that. I don't want

to do it either. Maybe we

could be like an IRL couple and just walk

around, do random stuff.

People might find that interesting.

Defend lowlife clout chaser Johnny Samani.

Hmm, I tried that with suspenders, didn't

really work. I got

30k views, didn't I? I reacted to The

Anime Man's video about suspenders playing

Skrillex on the train. Yeah, actually did

okay, but I mean, it's only 30K views,

nothing to get excited about. Where is it?

My problem with the Anime Man. That was

just because I titled it— it was more like

an attack on the Anime Man.

I only made $50. It's so rubbish. The CPM

was terrible.

Are you gonna do videos with her? I

already done videos with her. The Phuket

vlogs, Vietnam vlogs, the Japan vlogs.

We done loads of videos together.

After the Phuket vlogs flop, I feel zero

motivation to do couple videos.

I'm so disappointed the Phuket videos did

so badly. I thought they'd get maybe 7K

views, 8K. Come on, 5K views? Oh, it's at

6K now. The editing

was really good as well. I did a cool

intro. People don't care

if I do a cool intro, edit it well, or

not. It's weird because, um,

earlier this year my— I mean, girlfriend

videos were doing well. Some of them got

20K views. Weekend trip with my future

wife got 21K views. And now they're down

to 5K views. I don't understand what

happened. It's like my channel took

another hit.

Chris Broad's latest video, another

sponsorship. He was promoting some camper

van, wasn't he? Every single Chris Broad

video is basically just an ad placement.

He only makes the video to promote this

thing that he got paid to promote, like

Skillshare, uh, I don't know, some

Japanese snack box, and now this Japanese

camper van. That every single video he's

just like a salesman at this point with a

video built around the product instead of

just like a product being placed in the

video. It's like the whole video is being

made for the product. That whole— his new

video, the whole thing just seems like an

advert for the camper van.

So lame.

But at this point, so many people like him

enough where they don't really care. They

just, they want to see anything he has to

show.

He's probably thinking about making a

family with Sharla, and he's trying to

squeeze every penny he can because he's

probably thinking in the back of his mind

At some point he's going to run out of

content and the channel is going to go

downhill. I reckon his channel's peaked

already. There's not much more growth. I

don't really see how more he could grow.

He's already collabing with the biggest

Japan podcast, Trash Taste. He's already

collabing with the biggest Japan creators

like Anime Man, Connor. Where else can you

go from there? Who else is big, bigger

than that? There's not really like 5

million sub channels in Japan or 10

million sub channels. He's basically at

the top of the mountain, so I reckon

there's not really much room to grow

anymore. So he's probably

just thinking about long-term financial

future, just taking up any sponsors he can

get. I guess it's a good, good idea.

And then he'll just like retire, be like

PewDiePie, do lazy stuff. He doesn't have

to try anymore at that point.

Yeah, maybe he could do more interviews

with famous Japanese people, but the

language barrier is a problem. He would

have to have an interpreter, or he would

need them to speak good English, like Ken

Watanabe. That Roland

guy is pretty cool.

He's so rich just from being a host.

Those hosts make insane money.

Did anyone watch Ice Poseidon yesterday?

He's in Thailand now.

Nah, I'm not gonna snipe him. There's no

point. He's got too many people following

him, and I'm basically a nobody with a

dead channel, and I'm a pretty boring

person. I'd just be following around, not

really doing anything.

I'm not really a loud personality, so I

don't see the point.

It was funny back then when I had, had a

pretty big community of my own.

I felt like I was somebody back then. I

felt like I was a somebody and now I feel

like a nobody.

No one would even care.

My viewers wouldn't care. His viewers

wouldn't care. So it's just like, why?

My girlfriend actually kept saying, let's

go meet him. And I said no. It's like

Chihiro all over again.

I don't really want to meet him.

I met him before and we barely spoke,

so I wouldn't know what we would talk

about. The first time I met him was really

weird. He doesn't really talk to people

unless he's streaming.

Only— I only talked because Gary kept

asking me questions. I don't remember Ice

asking me anything. If people don't ask me

stuff, I find it really difficult to think

what to say.

Really surprised your girlfriend not

questioning you about stable job and

future plans. Man, because even

with my dead channel, I make a lot of

money compared to Thai people.

$1,500 a month is a lot in Thailand.

That's like, I don't know, working for an

office kind of job.

She believes in me.

You need a break from YouTube to find your

passion? Yeah, well, I got to pay rent.

I feel pretty into painting recently,

but I'll probably just get bored of it. I

find a hobby, I get really stuck into it,

and then I get fed up and then quit.

Remember I got into coding and made an

entire game and I was like, oh my God,

this is my new destiny. I'm going to be a

coder. And then one month later I was fed

up. Now I'm into painting. I make a little

bit of money doing my new hobby and I'm

like, yes, this is my new destiny. I'm

going to be a stock trader. I'm going to

be a coder. I'm going to be a driver. Now

I'm a painter. Bet you anything next

month I'll be like, oh, I can't stand

painting anymore. I hate it. And then I'll

find a new hobby. I'll get really into it

and I'll get fed up with it. Like pottery,

maybe sculpting, clay sculpting next,

maybe calligraphy next. I don't

know. I was just going through every

single hobby, getting bored of it.

Everything's just boring after a month. I

don't know how people stick to things for

more than a month. Bored of YouTube?

I was really into YouTube for maybe a

year, and then I just got bored of it.

I used to love making videos.

Making it funny, making it creative, and I

just couldn't care less. Hey guys,

welcome back to a new video.

I don't know why everything just gets

boring after a while, so I'll

never ever get good at anything because I

just get bored of it before I can get

good. I'll get a tiny bit good and then

I'll just get bored.

Maybe I'll get a bit good at Thai, like I

got a bit good at Japanese, a bit good at

Korean, but I never get amazingly good.

I don't know why. My brain is just wired

to give up when things get too difficult.

Paint a picture of a chicken and a horse.

Well, if you're gonna pay, then sure. But

what do you want the chicken and horse to

be doing? Like a chicken riding a horse?

Oh yeah, I was really into IRL streaming

for like a month as well, wasn't I? I got

bored of IRL streaming. Collect stamps?

Yeah, maybe next time.

Well, my motto is don't force it. If you

don't find it fun anymore, then just don't

do it anymore. Find something you do find

fun. Right now I find painting to be quite

fun.

And if it can make a bit of money, then

that's great. I might feel more motivated.

Take donations for picture requests. Uh,

yeah, I would, would like to do that.

Someone on my Discord asked me to paint

his wife in a rice field. He said he'll

pay $100. How? I don't

know how to draw that. I don't even know

what a rice field looks like. What does

rice look like before it becomes rice?

Like wheat? It's just grass,

isn't it? Like long blades of grass and

then the rice. What is rice? Are they

seeds or what? I think they're seeds. I

think the plant grows rice to store

energy. Never really thought about it

because uncooked rice looks like little

beads of plastic. To think that comes from

a plant is really weird. It just seems

like a piece of plastic and it turns into

food. I don't

know what— I think it's like blades of

grass and they beat it to get the rice

out.

I was watching a lot of Bob Ross. That's

why I got into drawing landscapes. But

then I started watching other painters who

do faces. Now I'm really into painting

faces. Stream is lagging.

My internet's good. I don't know why I'd

be lagging. We're getting proper Wi-Fi

hopefully next month. Don't know why

it took such a long time to finally get

it. I should have gotten it ages ago.

Oh, I think— no, that shouldn't have any

effect. Some apps

are updating. Maybe some apps are

If you'd paint a unicorn— I don't know how

to paint these things. I can paint

mountains and trees and a sky and a face.

Your videos criticizing beloved streamers

or defending hated streamers Streamers are

great. Please keep it up. Oh wow, $20.

Thanks.

Yes, easy views if there's a trending

topic about a certain YouTuber and I can

have an unpopular opinion. I'll do it,

but not much has happened recently.

There's, I guess there's that Johnny

Somali guy.

I think that trend is over now. He's in

Thailand as well. Why are they all in

Thailand now? All the degen streamers

are here.

Sam Pepper's here. Who else is here? That

guy who has cereal with ladyboys, what's

his name? Harrison. He's pretty crazy.

He's in Thailand too, and he just sleeps

with ladyboys. He said

he slept with 14 girls this month and 2

ladyboys.

Ironic you're calling them degen

streamers. Well, I don't really see myself

as a degen streamer.

Yeah, when I was younger, I'd go on Tinder

and have loads of dates, get sucked

off by a guy. I don't really do that

anymore.

Maybe you guys would find those people

more interesting than me, but they're

young. He's like 22. When I was 22, I was

doing crazy stuff as well,

like staying in guest houses, sleeping

with MILFs, getting sucked off by gay

Daniel should get shredded. Yeah, there

was a bodybuilder phase, wasn't there,

earlier this year? I was going to the gym

every week. Got bored of that too,

trying to get ripped. Daniel should get

shredded. JK, I'm even too lazy. Can't be

bothered. The bodybuilder arc.

Now we're in the painter arc.

Everything's too hard. Why is everything

so damn hard in life? Life is boring when

you just suck at everything and you've got

no passion. And what do I do next? I wish

I was good at something. If I

had one wish where I had to choose,

what do I want to be great at?

I don't know. So I'd keep changing.

Sometimes I wish I was like this expert

guitarist or like an expert singer,

expert painter. What would you want to

become an expert at? If someone said you

could be a genius at one thing, what would

it be? You can't just say making

money. It's got to be a thing.

Expert con artist,

expert scammer. I don't know.

I just— I wish I was gifted at something

and I was really good at it.

Or I wish I could just really love doing

something and have fun doing it, even if I

suck. So as long as I'm happy, it's just I

don't feel happy doing anything. So I suck

at everything and I'm not enjoying

anything. It's just like, what am I

supposed to do then?

I wish I was good at something, but

everything is so hard to get, to get good

at.

I think everyone in the world is— the

people who are good at stuff, they're only

good at it because they are— they have

some kind of passion for it.

Good at talking? Yeah,

good at whining for hours and hours about

nothing.

I want to get good at painting beautiful

women. That's like my biggest goal is

I wish I could draw or paint attractive

looking women, but they always end up

looking like men or looking weird.

I wish I could just draw a pretty girl's

Even that I suck at.

I spent all afternoon yesterday painting

this face. It turned out looking like a

ladyboy. I screwed it up, but I took a

photo. Look how bad it is. It's

embarrassing. Why does

it look like a ladyboy?

That is so dumb looking.

I feel embarrassed. That is so ugly.

Oh my God.

I redid it and it looks a bit better.

It looks a bit better, like a bit more

feminine. Big improvement, but Jesus

Christ. Oh my God, that is the gayest

looking ladyboy. I've ever seen.

I know why. The nose is too damn long.

When you draw like a long nose and that

wide jaw, it looks like a man. I don't

know why I keep drawing him like that. I

need to just find a very feminine looking

girl's photo and just copy it and study

why does she look feminine and then learn.

I don't know. I I'm like face blind where

I can't understand why a face looks

masculine or feminine.

Are you already getting a job? No, I

didn't say I'm getting a job. I said I

need to get a job. I need to do a lot of

things. Like, I need to do my taxes, bro.

That ain't happening.

Where's the hair? Well, there's no point

doing the hair when the face is so ugly.

The face should look feminine,

attractive, even without hair.

The hair is not gonna help it. He's just

gonna look like a ladyboy with hair. I

actually did the hair and it looks even

worse, and I screwed it up, put it in the

Speak some Thai? All I can say is like

one-word things.

The best I can do is maybe 2 words.

Like tasty is aroi, and then disgust,

tastes bad is mai aroi.

So it's pretty basic.

My girlfriend keeps asking, are you

drawing yourself? And I said, no, it's not

myself. It's supposed to be a beautiful

lady.

I finished the other one, did the hair.

Don't like it. It looks better,

but still, she's not beautiful.

How do you draw a beautiful woman?

I'll try again later. I'm kind of burnt

out. I spent, I think, 6 or 7 hours

yesterday painting.

Never give up. My goal is to paint a woman

who is attractive. I don't care about the

colors. I don't care if the pose or the

expression is boring. I just want to draw

or paint an attractive woman. That's my

life goal right now.

My life mission. I have to draw an

attractive woman.

I tried using Jill Valentine as a

reference. I find her quite attractive.

Yeah, if I paint 100 faces, I should get—

step by step, I should get closer to my

goal. Look at my first ever painting of a

So this was my first attempt. And it looks

shit, I know. Her eyes are way too big.

The eyes look stupid. And then a few

days later, I went from that to this,

which I think this looks a lot more

realistic. The eyes are smaller, but I'm

still doing the lips too big. I don't know

why I keep doing the mouth so big.

But I think things like the coloring and

the shadows are okay. I need to

work on, I don't

know, like face proportions, because I, I

started drawing anime. I can't get out of

this habit of doing the eyes really big.

And then I just— I messed around

trying to do a mountain. I think it looks

okay.

Bob Ross style mountain.

But I'm bored of doing landscapes. I want

My girlfriend did one too.

This is my girlfriend's painting.

Not bad. It's okay.

The problem with acrylic paint, it makes

the paper bend when it dries.

Yeah, I don't know why it's so damn hard

to draw an attractive-looking face.

That's probably why there's so many ugly

people in the world. Even Mother Nature

struggles to make attractive humans.

There's so many variants, variations that

can make a face ugly. Like, oh, the nose

is too low, it's too high, the eyes are

too weird looking, the mouth is wonky.

That's why the reason why there's so few

attractive people is because it's hard.

To have an attractive face, you need good

proportions.

You need canvas. Yeah, but that's

expensive. I don't want to just do crap

paintings on a canvas.

How long will you be streaming? Same as

always, 5, maybe 5 hours. I hate

how those people keep saying, oh, you keep

doing these boring 5-hour streams, no

wonder your channel died. Yeah, okay, the

streams still get more views than the

There's no reason to make a video over a

stream.

The only reason the video would do better

is if it's like a completely different

subject, like a video game.

My favorite food besides pot noodle?

Uh, I like fried chicken. Air fried

chicken. Put some MSG on it,

garlic and herb powder, put it into the

air fryer for about 15 minutes.

Crispy.

Did you finish Zelda? Nah, I got bored of

it. I got to the Water Temple and I felt

like there's no point playing this

anymore. Diablo 4 is way better.

Zelda gets boring cuz you just, you

explore the world and then you go down the

depths is really annoying because

everywhere is dark and you have to find

the light things to light up the area and

then just keep getting stuck. I hate the

Depths. So frustrating.

And then you just run around, kill these

goblin things, mess around

with the building mechanics.

But Diablo 4 is so much better.

You've got leveling, got gear, got

dungeons.

Maybe I'll just play it if I'm on, on a

plane or something. I'm not really

interested in Zelda anymore.

Super rare Diablo drops. I don't know,

the only ones I got were from the Butcher.

I killed the Butcher a few times, I got

that rare hammer and the rare axe,

but they kind of suck.

The one-handed axe makes the enemies run

away for 4 seconds, which is kind

of rubbish, and the, the two-handed hammer

makes Upheaval have like a fire attack,

but I never use Upheaval because it's

rubbish. Hammer of the Ancients is the

only good skill.

Yeah, I like Diablo, it's fun.

Where do you live now? I live in Thailand.

Do companies reach out to you still? I

don't think so. I think they're just

scams. Maybe a few of them were genuine,

like this Chinese company asked me to

promote some kind of dock for a Steam

Deck, but I can't be

I got a scam email pretending to be

Blizzard.

I got this weird email. Dear Daniel, yo

deepenings. What? Yo deepenings

and your logic on Japan is stupid. Yo

dumbass needs to stay permanently in

Thailand, Bangkok or whatever the fuck for

the rest of yo goddamn life and marry a

fucking ladyboy. No wonder your fucking

Jap wife left your dumbass. You disrespect

every girl that comes to you like trash,

and that's why nobody wants to date your

ugly ass or even associate with your

Obvious troll is obvious. This is the

worst hate message I've ever seen.

Everybody knows Japan is an aging country.

That's why you see a lot of old people.

Why does yo dumbass keep coming back

anyways? You're a waste of everybody's

time. No wonder anybody other than women,

even men, don't want to associate with

your channel. Like that gay-ass video you

made. Okay,

there was this one email pretending to be

Blizzard, and they were saying, we will

pay you $1,500 first and then the

remaining $1,500 after you finish. Yeah,

sure you will. And then the email was

something like, customer services,

Blizzard @kakao.com. Yeah, I'm sure

Blizzard uses KakaoTalk. I'm sure you're

not a Korean scammer.

You always realize it's a scammer because

of the email address they send. Oh,

customer services at hotmail.cz.

Why? It's probably some Czechoslovakian

Russian scammer. They send you a link,

they want you to click on the link, and

then you get hacked.

Scammers are so stupid. At least make it

seem believable.

Does it ever scare you the amount of hate

you get? Not really.

Nothing's happened.

I don't even know why people hate me so

much. I honestly find it so bizarre that

there's people out there who, who really

want to see me either dead or in jail,

or I don't know, they must hate me so

much. I just don't get it.

Because of what? Because I cheated?

I'm pretty sure everyone in the world has

cheated at least once. Because I don't get

a job? They say such weird reasons to hate