A Day In The Life Of An Unemployed NEET In Japan

Okay.

So it is half past 10,

beginning of a brand new day.

The goal is to stream 6 hours. I think 8

hours was a bit much last time,

so it may be 6 hours. So it's 10:30 now,

so in 1 hour it'll be 11:30.

5, half past 5 is when I clock

off. Okay, what do I have planned for

today? I have some pacing up and down to

do, and then we will do some cleaning,

and we'll clean the fish tank and

then make lunch. And then just complain

for the rest. I think that sounds like a

good plan.

Um, if you're wondering what happened to

my last 2 videos on YouTube, I decided to

take them down because They got terrible

views and they weren't good videos. I felt

kind of embarrassed about them, so I

thought maybe I should take them down.

If they got good views, then I would have

left it up. If they were videos

I felt proud of, I would have left it up,

but I felt neither. They didn't get good

views and I didn't feel proud of them, so

might as well take them down.

Maybe I'll reuse the cooking bit.

I feel like if I upload a video and it

doesn't even get 1,000 views in an hour,

then I've kind of failed to choose a topic

that you guys are going to be interested

in, and I kind of failed in making a

decent video, so I took it down. I don't

know if they would have gotten more views

later, but the people who did see them,

they didn't really think they were very

good anyway. And honestly, it was a bad

video. I don't really know why I made it

in the first place. Why the hell did I

think that you guys would be interested in

why I think England is a good country. It

was a shit idea.

And then the Fugu video, that was just

like a desperate attempt to try and get

some views using my wife, which usually

works, but surprisingly that one didn't

work either. Got the worst— it got even

worse views than the England one.

So That

was a bit depressing because usually any

video with my wife in the thumbnail

would easily get at least moderately

decent views.

It's kind of depressing, isn't it? Oh,

this is why I hate making videos. This

pressure to get views is just so annoying.

I shouldn't have to worry about it.

Things were so much easier back when I

barely got any views, then I just make

anything, didn't have any expectations,

didn't have to worry.

I had more fun making videos a couple

years ago because I didn't really have

this pressure.

I thought the 2 videos about Don't Come to

Japan and the Don't Call Me a Racist video

were good. I enjoyed making those. Most

people didn't get the joke though. I

thought the Indian accent was pretty good,

and I thought my Don't Come to Japan video

was quite funny.

And those got good views, so I feel, I

feel quite satisfied with them. I bit the

inside of my lip again, so it's kind of

difficult to talk. If I sound like I'm

mumbling, it's because I've got these

massive holes on my lip that have swelled

up. It's like having 2 massive ulcers. I

keep doing it. I get really hungry and

then I eat really nice food, and then I

chew really quickly, and then I just bite

down really hard by accident on my lip

with my canines. Oh, it's so painful.

The pain is just crazy. I'm so

stupid because I keep doing it. All I have

to do is chew slower, but no, I can't

control myself.

So I think I'm gonna take a little break

from making videos, maybe just do some

streams. January is kind of shit anyway

for ad revenue.

The Onision video was bad.

Yeah, it was kind of bad, but it got

decent views, so I left it up. If it got

shit views, I would have taken that down

as well.

I don't know, people keep saying just make

videos about what you want to make, but I

can't. You know what I want to make. I

want to make videos talking about fucking

girls and my dick and my

flaky ballsack. You can't make that stuff

on YouTube these days. Maybe back in 2016

I could have. 2017. Then stupid Logan Paul

has to ruin the whole platform for

everyone filming a bloody dead body. I

want to make weird like I used to. I

can't. I can't even describe kissing a

girl without getting demonetized.

And then the, the other bunch of videos I

would like to make, I can't because then

my wife will get angry. I can't make

anything.

Well, at least I can talk about anything I

want to in streams. It's weird, isn't it?

I can say the R-word without— well, I can

say racist without saying the R-word and

it will stay monetized. But if I say

racist in the video, it gets demonetized

straight away. I don't know why, but

streams seem to get away with it.

I can say any word I want to. Probably

even the N-word and it will stay

monetized. It's weird, isn't it? I don't

understand YouTube. I guess it's because

my streams are so long that the AI doesn't

even bother to scan it for naughty words,

maybe. But if it gets manually reviewed,

then it probably will get demonetized.

Can you imagine that poor sap who has to

sit there for 8 hours reviewing my

livestream? Do you think they review the

I can't believe how many people didn't

even figure out what the R word was. It's

racist. What else was it going to be? I

was talking about not hating people of

different color and having black friends.

Obviously it's the word racist.

And then so many people didn't even

understand that I was joking. They would

say, oh my God, Daniel is complaining

about not being a racist and then he does

a racist accent. Yeah, that was the whole

joke. The joke was I'll

complain about how I'm not a racist and

then I'll do something that's kind of

racist in the eyes of certain people

straight after. I don't think doing

accents is racist though. I know some

people do, but I think that's stupid.

Doing accents is not racist.

If an American does a British accent, I

don't think it's racist. I think it's a

bit annoying. I met a lot of Americans,

they think they're so funny trying to do

British accents. They just sound really

I thought it was funny. I quite like my

Indian accent. I spent more time trying to

get the accent right than I did with the

actual video. Oh, hello, Alo Nev.

Thank you very much.

It's gonna be a long day. I've got several

things to discuss. I don't want to just

suddenly start discussing them. I'll segue

into them smoothly when I get the chance

to. It's weird though, I got

such a mixed reaction to that video. Some

people said it was hilarious and it's

really funny, then some people got really

angry saying it was racist. I've got such

a weird mixture of people who watch my

videos. Some people have a sense of humor

and they get that I'm not really being

serious and I'm just being

tongue-in-cheek. And then some people just

completely don't get it and think that I'm

being serious and that's what I'm actually

like. So weird.

I think it was pretty obvious that I was

joking. How could I not be joking?

I said That I had a black friend, so it

means I'm not racist. I'm just

getting kind of fed up. I just feel like

making a video saying, guys, I'm joking,

for fuck's sake. But then I feel like it

kind of ruins the magic if you have to

explain that you're joking.

Oh God. Yeah, I put a black man's face

over Elvis the Alien's face, and then

someone says, you just photoshopped that

black guy, he wasn't actually— well, duh.

Jesus Christ,

I get so frustrated with people

who don't get me and then insult

me and then get angry at me. Because they

don't get it. So irritating. Oh, I just

want to strangle them sometimes,

but I need them to pay rent.

So, uh, why do I care about what people

say? Because it pisses me off.

And why can't everyone just get me? I feel

like I'm so misunderstood as an artist.

Should I

sit down? If I sit here, then it's kind of

Noisy. Look, I got a new plant for my fish

tank. Wow, it's already grown

so much. It was— I swear it was

this long last time, and it's grown a few

inches. I don't know what kind of plant

it is. It looks like a piece of spinach.

Maybe it is just a piece of spinach.

Can you see it?

I think it's called hornwort or

something like that. And I got a bunch of—

I don't know if I showed you this last

time— I got a bunch of things for the

tank, liquid fertilizer. I put a bunch of

this in and then algae started

multiplying, and there's all this algae I

had to clean off. And I also got liquid

CO2. I don't know if this plant is

completely dead. There's still roots

coming out, so I thought if I put some

fertilizer, maybe it'll come back to life.

But it's not looking good. It's all gone

black. And I got a new plant

at the back, which is like a big bushy

green thing, which looks quite nice.

Hopefully they don't die this time. I got

little fertilizer pellets as well.

Why are there chopsticks in front of the

aquarium? So I can poke things around in

case I need to move a piece

of plant out of the way.

Sometimes the leaves get stuck and

I like to rearrange it.

I think it looks nice. It makes the tank

look kind of crowded, but I think the fish

like it because they have little places to

weave in and out of and they can hide if

they're scared. If it's just like an open

tank, it looks boring, and I, I think the

fish get bored if there aren't objects in

there. Look, look at them. I like the way

they swim in and out of the fake plastic

log. It's funny.

I think the tank is too small. Yeah, it

is. I'm thinking about getting a bigger

one that's double the size, but then I

have to take everything out of this tank

and move into the new tank. And my red

shrimp's getting really big. It's actually

bigger than most of the fish now. There's

only 2 left. I had about 20, the rest

They used to be so small. They doubled in

size at least. They used to be half the

size of the orange ones.

My hands look like an older Asian woman's

hands. Why?

People say my fingers look pretty. I was

in a guesthouse once, I was playing the

keyboard, and a bunch of Korean people

were behind me, and I could hear them say

my fingers were really pretty. I pretended

I didn't understand, but I knew what they

It's weird that I got into fish tanks. I

didn't think it would be so interesting,

but it's nice.

I feel kind of disappointed that I can't

get the plants to stay alive. I'm doing

something wrong.

I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong, so I

just bought a bunch of stuff to squirt in

there to see if it makes anything better.

I think the reason why they die is because

there's no nutrients. I used to have soil

But I took the— my, my wife took all the

soil out because it was making the water

Do I dislike black people?

No. One of my favorite actors is black.

Will Smith.

And I watch one black YouTuber, that

Marquee Brownlee guy.

Maybe I'll make another why I don't date

black women video. That one did really

well last time.

Where's my laptop? It's on the floor.

I'm getting ready to sell it. I reset

everything. Some people are saying,

oh, he's selling his laptop because he

needs money, his channel's dying, he has

to sell his stuff. No, it's just because I

realized that I don't really need a

laptop. And I don't really feel addicted

to Rainbow Six anymore.

I'm quite satisfied just playing the

Switch, so I don't need it. Might as well

The only reason I needed it before was

because I was addicted to Rainbow Six,

but after I got addicted to The Witcher I

tried going back to Rainbow Six after I

finished The Witcher. I just couldn't go

back. It was just too boring. And now I'm

addicted to Mario Kart. You just go round

and round. It's quite satisfying. I might

make a why I hate Mario Kart video on my

second channel. I just don't see why I'd

want to keep a gaming laptop. There's no

games I want to play.

What happened to your Proud to Be British

video? I took it down because people

didn't like it. The comments really pissed

me off on that. I should have expected it,

but I didn't think I'd be so annoyed. I

hate it when people say stuff like, you

don't look British, you're not British

because you're not white. I hate those

idiots who say that stupid stuff. And then

they'll start saying, if a white man's

born in China and he grew up there,

would you think he's a Chinese man?

Well, yeah, his nationality would be

Chinese. He would just be white in

ethnicity. So these people, they can't

tell the difference between nationality

and ethnicity. They're not the same

things. And then they say that stupid

thing Just because a mouse is born in a

stable doesn't mean it's a horse. Oh,

they're so stupid. It pisses me off so

much, and it's just a waste of time

debating them because they're completely

stuck in that way of thinking,

and it just makes me angry.

They'll say, oh, he's only British by

paper because of his documents.

Um, what about the facts that I spent

nearly 30 years growing up in England?

What about the facts that I had the exact

same upbringing that everyone in England

had? You know, going to English schools,

watching English TV, being surrounded by

English people. Following the traditions

and customs. How is that not being

English? What is being English exactly?

If it's not that, then I don't know what

it is. I had the exact same upbringing

as every other English boy and girl.

The only difference is I have a Malaysian

mum, and then sometimes she made me fried

I seem to have a lot of people who watch

my channel that are racist.

Kind of disappointed in that.

But the video was pretty shit. I just

Googled famous inventions from England,

and the television, the telephone, the

train, all the stuff I said did come up as

English inventions. But then other people

say actually it's an American that

invented the blah blah blah. I don't

really care. I just Googled it.

You really don't like being considered

Asian? I don't mind. I don't

really care.

Actually, when I was younger, I wanted to

look more Asian because I was really into

anime. I wish I had a small Asian nose. I

wish I had straight black, straight black

Asian hair. I was desperate to look more

Asian when I was in my anime phase.

In the US, we're all Americans, yellow or

brown. Yeah, if I'm not British because

I'm not white, then that means all

Americans aren't American because they're

not Native American. What are they then?

It's the dumbest argument ever. People

move around from place to place.

American isn't the color you are, it's the

culture.

So frustrating.

If I saw a white Japanese person, okay, I

think it's a bit weird because when have

you ever seen a white guy who was born in

Japan, raised in Japan, and is basically a

Japanese person but he looks white? It'll

be strange, but I wouldn't go up to him

and say, you're not Japanese. That's just

rude. He's obviously Japanese because he

grew up and was raised here just like all

the other Japanese people.

It's just unexpected because Japan isn't

really that diverse compared to England

and America, so they're shit examples to

compare England to.

Most of it— most of the Asian countries

aren't really that diverse,

unlike America and England and Europe.

So yeah, it is kind of— it would be a

little bit strange to see a Black Chinese

guy. I'm sure there must be at least one.

There must have been at least one example

of 2 Black people moving to China and then

having a kid there.

I hate this conversation, just makes me

angry. But thankfully

most people don't think like that.

Thankfully people have a brain and they

can tell the difference between

nationality and race.

This is so stupid because does it really

matter what you look like? The only reason

we have different races or ethnicities is

because of the sun. We're all basically

humans. The only thing that makes us look

different is because of the amount of UV

light that gets through the atmosphere

depending on where we live. We live in

cold countries, you have pale skin. You

live in hot countries, you have darker

skin. It's all just evolution.

If everywhere in the world was the exact

same temperature, had the exact same

climate, then maybe everyone would look

That's not how it works. It is. It's

exactly how it works. You have dark skin

to protect you from higher UV rays

in places like Africa where the intensity

of the sun is much stronger, and then you

have people who have lighter skin Because

there's less UV light and they have

lighter skin, so they can produce vitamin

D more efficiently. It's all science,

just Google it. Even the shape of your

nose is depend— depends on

the temperature and the moisture of the

Things— people don't just look the way

they are randomly, it's, it's for a

reason. Even hair.

Hair evolved to be frizzy or straight

because of the climate that those people

evolved in or lived in. It's all science.

You can Google it. I'm not making it up.

It's all researched and documented.

Living organisms adapt to their

environment so they can thrive there more

efficiently. It's that simple.

What should

Kind of fed up about talking about race.

What's a neat? I wrote it in the

It would be interesting if everyone was

just the same skin color. I wonder what

would happen then.

You are not a NEET. Well, I'm not in

employment. I'm not employed by YouTube,

and I'm not in education, and I'm not

training for anything. Who,

who employs me? I don't have a contract.

I can't get fired by YouTube. They don't

employ me. I just have a channel.

You're self-employed? Well, self-employed

would be SE, not E. It's not naseit,

not in employment, self-employment,

education, or training. Self-employment

isn't in, in that In those letters.

Still didn't get my play button, by the

way. Surprise, surprise. I wonder

why YouTube hates me. They won't give me a

viral, they won't give me my play button,

didn't give me my join button until I had

100K subs.

When I googled how to get the play button,

apparently there's supposed to be a redeem

button that pops up on your dashboard. I

don't see any redeem button. I guess I

could contact them, but I just don't care.

I don't really feel like celebrating 100K

subs when my channel is dying. I was

getting more views back when I had 40K

subs. I feel like everyone's channel is

dying. I looked up a load of channels I

used to follow, they aren't doing too

well. Maybe it's because it's January,

dying channels all over the place.

Is my channel dying? Well, I wouldn't say

it's dying, I'd say it's stagnated.

It's barely growing. It's not growing at

all, actually. Why did I delete

the pufferfish video? Because it was

boring. It was lame. I want to upload good

videos that I feel proud of, that I think

are funny, that I think people would be

interested in. The pufferfish video was

just me and my wife picking at this

tasteless, bland fish. It wasn't

interesting. I just got kind of desperate

and I thought, oh quick, put up a video

about my wife, I'll get views, which

failed.

I have a bunch of ideas, but now I'm

scared to make them because I don't know

if you guys are going to watch it. If it's

going to get shit views, then I'd rather

just not make it.

I want to make a video talking about The

time I had an affair with a married

Japanese woman. That's been on my mind for

quite a while, and I don't think I've made

a video about it. I've mentioned it in

streams and stuff, but I haven't made a

proper video about it.

Good old story time.

And then I want to make a video comparing

myself to Shinji from Neon Genesis

Evangelion. Like my Onision video. People

seem to like the similarities between

so-and-so videos. I think there's quite

a lot of similarities between me and

Shinji.

Um, my other idea was pretending to be my

ex-girlfriend on Tinder.

It's pretty crazy. I got 2,000 matches in

the first few days,

and my name is Daniel because you can't

change your name on Tinder. So I could

only change my gender, and I changed the

picture to my ex-girlfriend's picture.

Instantly got 800 matches, and then the

next day nearly 2,000. It's crazy.

It just makes you realize that women

probably have thousands of matches on

Tinder So you can't be— you can't really

be surprised if they don't reply to you

when they have thousands of people to

pick. Even when I boosted my Tinder

profile, I'd only get about 5 matches and

they'd all be fat and ugly. If you're a

woman, my ex-girlfriend isn't even that

pretty. She looks kind of plain. She got

2,000. It's because men don't care who

they match. They'll match everyone.

They'll just keep swiping right until

someone swipes right back on them. Men

aren't sitting there on Tinder going,

hmm, she, she doesn't look very nice. Men

would fuck anyone they can. That's the

difference between men and women.

I think it's quite a strong title, kind of

weird, kind of in theme with my channel.

Plus I get to, um, expose my

ex-girlfriend. Haha, that'll teach her

for ghosting me. And then I can just say

it's not actually my girlfriend—

ex-girlfriend, it's just a Google image.

Safe. There's no proof that it was

actually my ex. That's for me to know.

But the actual meat of the video, I don't

really know how to make that interesting

because I just got a load of messages from

guys going, hi, how are you? I messaged

some back hoping that they'll say

something funny or interesting, but I

don't think they will. Maybe I should

start saying weird stuff. I should start

trolling them. I should say, do you fancy

me? See what they respond with. Because

men will start off being really nice

because they don't want to appear as a

creep or a weirdo.

And then they might eventually start

trying to be sexual with the girl,

try flirting with her. That's the most

awkward thing, when you go from being a

nice guy to trying to unmatch you and run

away.

Maybe you should just start off being

really flirty and sexual. If you start off

being nice, then they'll just think you're

a nice guy.

Would I go back to Malaysia? I don't think

I'll ever go back to Malaysia ever again.

I can't picture it.

I can't think of a single good thing about

Malaysia.

Um, no, I can't think of a single thing.

I went on Tinder. In Malaysia,

and it was just full of you know what

wearing you know what.

Not exactly my cup of tea.

Is the stream lagging? People are

complaining.

You know, I feel quite proud of myself

that I've managed to talk about racism in

a video just by calling it the R-word and

get the video monetized.

I think I could get away with using

naughty words if I just spelled them out,

spelled them out letter by letter.

I wonder if that would work. I

F-U-C-K-E-D'd someone last night.

Maybe I could say it like that.

When you say lagging, do you mean the

video is jittery, or is the

audio cutting out and then coming back on?

Because on my screen, the video does look

a bit jittery. I don't know if that's

because of my phone.

I really don't want to use data again.

Last time I did a stream for 8 hours on my

data. Guess how much data I used? I used

11 gigabytes of data and I only have 21 a

month, so I used half my data on that

stream. So I'd prefer not

to use my data,

but if I have to Some

people say my laptop is a bad laptop.

It's not a bad laptop. It's the 2019

version of a 15-inch MSI gaming

laptop. It's not the highest end, it's

like mid-range. You can play Rainbow Six

on ultra and The Witcher on ultra easily.

Okay, those are fairly old games. I guess,

but it's not a bad laptop. I'd say it's

mid-range.

What do you plan on having instead of a

computer? Well, I have my Switch. I, I

feel completely happy with the Switch.

It's a great device. Look at it, it's

beautiful. Fits in your hand. Can it fit

in my pocket? I really

do like it. Look, it just fits in your

pocket like that. Can't do that with a

laptop. The games are good. I like it. I

got The Witcher on the Switch and I got

Mario Kart for mindless repetitive

gameplay where I just go round and round.

And I've got Tetris.

Don't really feel like I need a gaming

laptop, and if I do want to get back into

proper gaming, I might just get a

PlayStation. Those are only a couple

hundred dollars, and then plug it into the

TV. PlayStation's good enough. Don't

really need a really expensive gaming PC

when I'm not really a hardcore gamer. I'm

a casual gamer who plays games all day.

I'm not one of those people who are

obsessed with maximizing everything.

The other Switch you had before, didn't

you give it to a girl? No, I sold it to

this person on this app called—

I forgot what the app is called. It's kind

of like eBay. You sell stuff. She bought

it from me. I am a gamer. I'm a casual

gamer. I'm not a hardcore gamer like

TotalBiscuit.

What's the worst thing anyone's ever said

to you? They said I'm not British because

I'm not white. That's the one thing that

irritates me most.

Will I do another homeless video in Japan?

Only if I actually become homeless. I

don't think I would unless I

completely run out of money.

I'm a bit out of ideas, to be honest. I

had loads of ideas when I was doing the

homeless stuff. That's why I didn't want

to tell you guys that I got back together

with my wife. I had all these ideas I

wanted to do first, and if I told you that

I got back with her, then it kind of makes

it pointless doing those ideas.

Oh wow, thank you, Unique Utilities. Hey

Daniel, I don't think you're really much

like Shinji, but for the sake of argument,

who is more your taste, Asuka or Rei?

I liked Asuka, to be honest. Rei was just

kind of boring and robotic,

but actually I preferred Misato. Out of

all of them, because you know she's a

woman, not a 14-year-old kid.

I prefer grown women over 14-year-olds.

Misato was kind of hot. I like the way she

had this kind of desperate, lonely single

woman vibe.

Those kind of women turn me on.

I think I'm like Shinji because we're kind

of losers and we're all depressed and we

don't really have much charisma or

confidence. And we have that hedgehog

dilemma thing, you know, where we're

scared to get close to people because

we're scared of getting hurt. And then we

have strange relationships with our

fathers. We had fathers that weren't

really around much and were just working

all the time. And we didn't really have a

close connection with them. I guess my dad

didn't make me do stuff I didn't want to

What else do we have in common? I guess

there aren't really that many things.

Did I watch The Witcher on Netflix? I did.

I was not very impressed.

And I'm not sure why. It was okay,

it wasn't amazing. I felt confused

because the storyline kept skipping

around. Why did they do that?

The first episode, they showed that woman,

the queen woman, getting beaten by the

Nilfgaardians, and I thought they were all

dead and finished. And then a few episodes

later, she's back in the

castle and everything's normal. I thought,

what the hell's going on? And then I

realized, oh, maybe it's a flashback, or

they're just showing what happened before

the first episode. Why do it like that?

It's really confusing. Then there's that

hedgehog guy. Who the hell was he?

And then they go and Hunted dragons. It

just felt like so many of the stories were

pointless and weren't really necessary.

And then the fight scenes are kind of

lame. The monsters look like giant

puppets. They look really unbelievable.

I don't know if I like Henry Cavill as

Geralt. He just— he doesn't really give me

the Geralt vibe. He gives me the

washed-up, old and scruffy Legolas vibe.

I feel like he's making his voice too

grumbly and deep. It sounds kind of

forced. It just gives me

this cheap American drama

show vibe instead of a high-quality

gripping show like Game of Thrones used to

be. I don't know, I wasn't too impressed.

How do you pay to survive without

employment? I get money from Google

for making quality content that everyone

loves. What do I think of the J-vlogger

scene? There isn't really much of a scene

anymore. There used to be a really

tight-knit community about 10 years ago,

maybe. I guess I came too late to the

Who is there on the J-vlogger scene?

There's that weird Asian guy called

Mariah. Who makes cringy weeb

stuff.

And then there's that lovely Kelly woman.

I don't even know what she's about. And

then there's like that black lady,

Kemushi-chan.

I just feel like it is dominated now by

Rachel and Jun and Abroad in Japan. And

everyone else is just struggling to get

views like me. I watched

Amazon Prime's James May: Our Man in

Japan. That was quite entertaining, I

guess. It was a bit annoying though.

James kept trying to speak Japanese and

pronouncing everything wrong, and then his

Japanese translator sucked at English,

and James could barely even understand

what she was saying some of the times.

I'm not really interested in J-vloggers

anymore. I don't really care. The whole

magic of living in Japan has kind

of died for me. There's no magic in it

anymore. I used to fantasize and dream

about living in Japan. And I used to watch

these J-vloggers and I used to think,

wow, I wish I could be like them.

They must be so happy.

I thought if only I could live in Japan,

then my life would be so much fun and

exciting and interesting. It's exactly the

same as it was when I was in England.

Does anything make you happy?

Looking after my fish is quite fun, I

guess. Playing Mario Kart makes me happy.

It's nice and comfy. I like sitting here

playing Mario Kart, watching YouTube or

Amazon Prime. You lose interest in

everything pretty quickly. I know, that's

something I hate about myself. I can never

stick to anything or become good at

anything because I get bored with it

within a year or 2.

People keep saying if I get a job, I'll

feel less depressed. Maybe I would.

Depends on the job. If I like doing the

job and it doesn't drive me crazy, I could

imagine having a job might make me feel

less depressed. Plus it would give me

things to talk about. But I don't have to.

Sometimes I wish my channel would just

die. Then I would actually have— I

would have to go out and do stuff. The

thing is, YouTube has become like a safety

bubble for me. And even

though it's great not having to do

anything because YouTube provides

everything for me, it also prevents me

from doing anything because I'm too lazy

to do anything unless I absolutely have

to. So I blame all of

you for ruining my life. No, I'm just

kidding. I don't know, am I kidding?

I don't want people to stop watching

because then I can keep getting money.

And I can hide myself away from the world.

But then I kind of feel sad because I

don't have to go out into the world

because of YouTube. I kind of understand

why people who win the lottery get

depressed now, because they don't have to

do anything. Most people do stuff because

they're motivated by money. When you don't

need to do anything for the money, then

why bother? Just sit at home all day

playing Mario Kart.

Maybe if I even enjoyed making videos. I

do enjoy making videos sometimes if I have

a good idea, but sometimes I don't have

any ideas, but I still need to put a video

out. I don't know what to make, so I just

look around on YouTube and I see some

other video. I think Hmm, I can make a

video like that as well,

even though I don't really want to and I

don't have anything interesting to say.

So I'll just make a bunch of dumb stuff up

and then just put that out. You know,

like when I said the Japanese government

is trying to trick us into thinking Japan

needs more foreigners. If I don't know

anything about a topic, instead of

researching it and finding out, I'll just

make a bunch of dumb stuff up in my head

that doesn't make any sense.

That's more interesting to me instead

of actually researching stuff. I don't

know anything about anything. I'm not an

expert on anything, so I can't make videos

about things that I know a lot about

because I don't know anything. So my

options are either learn something which

takes a lot of time and effort, or just

make up a bunch of random shit. That's

easier. Plus it pisses people off, which

makes me laugh.

That's why my whole channel is all about

me. It's because the only thing I know

well enough to be able to talk on and on

about is my own life and my own

experiences and things I've done. I don't

know anything else enough to be able to

even talk about for 5 minutes.

It would be nice if I found something I

felt passionate about and then decided to

learn about and become an expert on.

There's nothing. I thought maybe I could

learn about The Witcher and

then make videos about The Witcher lore,

but then I got bored with it. I just get

How about art? I have one idea that

involves art. It's going to be called The

Ugliest Woman I Ever— no, it's going to be

called Trying to Draw the Ugliest Woman

That I Went on a Date With. And I'll try

and draw from memory this really ugly

woman I went on a Tinder date with back in

2016. And then I can just have the drawing

time-lapse happening as the video whilst I

tell the story and how ugly she was.

With jazzy piano music playing in the

background. I think that could work. I

need to learn how to draw a really ugly

witch, fat-looking woman.

What's the point in livestream if you

don't answer anyone's question? No one's

asking any questions.

What do you think of people saying your

life isn't anime? I thought it was funny.

Starting to get less comments like that

though. I think the whole anime crowd are

getting bored because nothing's happening.

I don't really think my life is like an

anime anymore. It's just a

depressed married man who doesn't do

anything and doesn't go outside and

doesn't talk to people, moaning about his

YouTube channel. So I kind of

understand why people are losing interest.

Why did I delete my Onision video on my

second channel? Because it got demonetized

straight away. I think I can't use the

word banned because I said the word banned

over and over again. I tried putting in

the title, stayed monetized for about 2

minutes. Oh, so annoying.

I can't do anything.

Losing interest because you aren't

learning and growing. Well, that's the

problem. I don't know what to learn. I

don't have anything that I want to learn.

Oh, do you know who reminded me of

myself recently. Do you know that Brooke

Houts girl who was, was getting a lot of

hate because she spat and hit her dog on

camera?

Well, there's an interesting video that

was made by this channel called The Right

Opinion on her, and I watched the whole

thing And the whole time I was thinking,

she is exactly the same as me,

trying desperately to make videos, and

then the channel dies, and then you try

something else. And then she finally

started to make videos about her dog,

and that started to go viral. But she

accidentally left in bits in the video

where she was getting angry with the dog.

And then people saw it, and then the right

opinion said something like, maybe the

reason why she hated the dog so much was

because people were more interested in

the dog than they were in her.

And that reminded me of myself and my wife

and why I started to hate my own channel,

because people like my wife more than me.

It kind of hurts. And you can kind of tell

that girl Brooke House is obviously a

narcissist. And okay, I'm also kind of a

narcissist, so I related with her on that

level. Everything the right opinion was

saying about the dog, you could say the

same thing about my wife. I was using my

wife for views. And then I saw how

everyone loved my wife, and every video I

made with my wife would get more views

than my own videos. I got angry. I got

upset because everyone liked her more than

me. Hurt my feelings.

I think that Brooke House girl didn't like

her dog, or she was getting angry with the

dog because she felt the same. Her channel

was dying, and then people more interested

in seeing the bloody dog instead of her

when she wanted to become some kind of

famous YouTube star.

I would— I really would recommend The

Right Opinion. He has great videos. He

does ramble on a bit, but he does make a

lot of good interesting points.

It's tough making a YouTube channel. You

keep trying and trying, trying, and then

by luck one of your videos go viral, but

that won't last forever. After a few

years, you can't, you can't just coast off

of that one viral. You have to get another

viral. People lose interest. You have to

try something different.

Maybe I should get a dog.

What would I do if The Right Opinion made

a video about me? That's what I'm kind of

scared that he could. There's a lot of

things you could analyze about me and my

channel.

I see people like Onision as well, and I

get scared because it's pretty much the

same as me, desperately trying to get

attention to keep the channel alive.

Throwing your friends under the bus to try

and get views from drama. You know,

Onision had friends and then he turned

against all of his friends to make it into

some kind of YouTube drama. Remind you of

someone like the Hong Kong guy and me?

What else am I supposed to do? I'm not

talented. I'm not good at doing anything.

I'm not interesting enough. To maintain

viewers, it's the only option you have:

drama,

or get a pet,

or actually make good content. Well, if I

knew how to make good content in the first

place, then I wouldn't be in this

predicament.

Get a job? No, the whole point of doing

YouTube is so you don't have to get a job.

If I got a job and I was happy with the

job, I would say fuck it to YouTube.

What's the point? Maybe I'd log in for a

stream or two now and then, but it would

feel pointless if I didn't need to do it.

And then people say, oh, he's only doing

it for the views. Well, what else am

I supposed to be doing it for? To save the

planet. Obviously I like

it if people like the videos and they find

it entertaining.

The goal is to make good stuff so people

are entertained, so I can get views.

So yeah, I do want views. Why would I not

want views? If I didn't want views, I

wouldn't make videos.

Don't understand that kind of comment.

If I don't answer the questions because I

don't think it's an interesting question,

sorry about that.

I need to do something completely

unexpected in a different direction

because what I'm currently doing now

obviously is not working.

I just don't know what that is, and I'm

obviously very limited in what I can do

now because I'm married. I can't just

suddenly go to India, say, first day

in India, my new life.

Everything you could do, you just dismiss.

It's because I don't want to do it. If I

wanted to do it, I'd be doing it already.

I could go skydiving, but I really

couldn't care less about skydiving, so why

would I do it? I could shave

my hair off. But I don't want to.

Didn't I get divorced with my wife?

No. Don't know how people still think that

we got separated. I made loads of videos

over Christmas of us together. Some—

someone said on my last video Huh, you're

still with your wife? I'm so confused.

The problem is there's nothing I want to

Have I slept with YouTube fans already? I

slept with 4, but I can't make videos

about it because my wife would get angry.

How long did you spend learning Japanese

and you hardly even use it? That's

actually one of my ideas— why learning

Japanese is a waste of time. I might make

I guess it was a waste of time, wasn't it?

If you spend a lot of time learning

something, then you don't use it. That's

why I don't like learning things. How do I

know if I'm actually going to use it?

What if I learn how to speak Turkish

and then I never use it? What's the point?

Well, I guess I use it with my wife.

There's a show on TV last night where

they just tell stories that happened in

America. I think it was America. Well,

there's a married couple and they have a

kid, and then the man— they're having a

barbecue and the woman is standing in

front of the barbecue. The man uses

gasoline to get the barbecue going. The

gasoline splashes on the woman and she

catches on fire. She survives, but she's

horrifically scarred and her

face looks like an old woman now. The man

leaves her and divorces her, and then

I don't know what happened afterwards

because I started playing Mario Kart. I

think she tried suing him, and I was

thinking, holy shit, I think I would do

the same if I was the man. But the man was

the one who made her look ugly. And now

she's so ugly, she probably won't even be

able to find another man for the rest of

her life. Such a depressing story. I feel,

I feel sad for the woman because she's

basically fucked now. I feel relate— I

relate to the man because I wouldn't want

to be stuck with a woman who looks like a

ballsack for the rest of my life either.

Even though I was the one who made her

look like that. Oh, so many complex

feelings when I saw that story.

I couldn't, I couldn't be with a woman who

looked so ugly and scarred like that.

Could you, if your partner got

burned like that and then their face was

completely messed up? I don't know how

many people would be able to stay. It

would require really, really true deep

love between the two.

Maybe if the woman was rich and she was

providing for me, maybe I'd think about

I'd feel so guilty though. I'd feel so

bad. Maybe the man owes

her. He ruined her life, so he should

support her and provide for her. It was

his fault. I mean, what kind of idiot

pours gasoline on a barbecue in the first

place? Obviously it's going to explode.

It's extremely flammable.

A lot of weird stories on the TV. Maybe I

could react to those. There's another one

with this massive family where

where they had 12 kids. Japanese family.

Oh, thank you, Levi. Brilliant internal

dialogue. Thank you. I'm very good at just

talking on and on by myself. But I'm very

bad at talking to people.

No text-to-speech? No,

too lazy to set Streamlabs up.

Streamlabs is just kind of ugly looking.

I can't see the chat very well, and no one

does text-to-speech anyway. Switch it on

and one person uses it.

You're talking to 400 people pretty good.

I'm not really talking to you, I'm talking

at you. I'm not talking with

I just don't really know what to talk

about apart from myself. What else is

there going on in my life? Not a

lot.

I think that's why my channel was

interesting in the beginning,

because my life wasn't really decided yet.

There was lots of things happening.

People didn't really know what was going

to happen or where I'd end up, and it was

interesting seeing what would happen. But

now nothing happens. There's nothing

to update you on. Because there's no

updates.

And then if I do anything, then it's not

genuine because I'm not doing it because I

would actually do it. I'm only doing it

for content. At least before, when I

wasn't doing it for content, it was