second week in new apartment making BURGER

Hello,

hello.

Wow, look at the sunset.

Very pretty.

There's a really Tall thing in the

distance. I'm not sure what it is. It just

seems freakishly tall. Wait until there's

more people. Maybe someone knows what it

is. Let me zoom in.

It looks weird, like a huge

giant.

Watch this.

Where is it?

Wait, where is it? There it is.

Oh, you see that? What the hell was that?

That is freakishly tall. Wait, that's my

finger. No.

Look, look, look! How the hell is that

above the clouds? Look how tall that is.

Can you see it? So the little thing next

to it on its right is a wind turbine.

So if the wind turbine's that small

compared to it— wait, I'll show you the

wind turbines. Look, those are the wind

turbines. You see them?

Stupid focus. There, you can see them,

can't you? They don't look that huge

compared to—

where's it gone— compared to that. My god,

what is it? It's like 5 times higher.

Is it like War of the Worlds, the big

Walking Robots coming down the hill to

evaporate us. I love that movie.

It's just so cool seeing the, the, um,

walking robot things strolling along the

hills, just zapping people running away.

That is so creepy, like a really tall

thing in the distance.

Does anyone know what it is?

Damn, this view! Jesus, look at, look at

the clouds. They're going pink on the

underside. This view, my God.

Sometimes I feel like I'm in Zelda or

something, you know, like. Some kind of

kingdom.

It's amazing.

The sunset's always great. It's just

stupid stains here ruin it. I don't know

what this is. It's like someone poured

something out from the room above.

Well, you see, the problem with this view

is I don't get a great view of the sunset.

I can see like the edge of it, but the

actual sun is setting like behind that

wall. You can see a tiny bit if I do this.

Bit annoying.

Wow, let's go over here. Maybe it's

better.

Yeah, it's a bit better here.

Wow, all the hills in the background look

so mystical, like in Lord of the Rings

or something.

Look, see the clouds floating

above them?

Where's that really tall thing?

I lost it now.

A really tall thing.

I don't know. Am I

in a good mood today?

Not really.

Didn't have a good day trading. Oh, it was

so bad. I lost like 40%

of my day trading profits.

Oh, I lost all my profits.

I actually went minus £30, and then

finally at the end of the day, it— half of

it recovered. So irritating.

At least I didn't lose all my profits.

I've still— well, I had about £200 in

profits and now I've only got £116,

and I've still got my shorts, so hopefully

it carries on going down. Maybe I can

recover another £60. But today was so

shit. It's so annoying because in the

morning I made tons. I made like 60, and

then my overall profits were like 220,

and then it just tanked because

I went short on a load of stuff that all

ended up mooning for the whole day, kind

of like an upside-down cup and handle.

Finally, at the end of the day, it came

back down so I could recover some losses.

How come every time I go short, it goes

up? I go long, it goes down. So annoying.

Oh, I got subs.

Is that too loud?

Thanks very much.

I had to disable the alert thing so

there's nothing that pops up because these

stupid idiots kept doing those boob GIFs.

This stupid troll, so irritating. Now I

can't have chat on the screen, I can't

have automatic TTS, I can't

have— I can't even have the little pop-up

penguin now. These stupid idiots keep

trying to get me in trouble. Can't have

anything. Just worried about those

GIFs. I can't disable it.

Well, I can But I have to disable the

whole thing. I can't only disable the GIF.

And then I'm just a bit worried, you know,

there's like a boob GIF or something.

Stupid thing about Twitch is everything's

so damn strict, and then I get a ban just

because people being idiots in the chat.

So I have to end up turning everything

off. But thanks

for the subs.

What can you do? Why doesn't— well,

you can stream off of the Twitch app,

but then you don't get things like, you

know, widgets. Twitch should

add more things to the Twitch app.

Yeah, I'll miss the little penguin.

It's always one thing after another,

isn't it? First that stupid idiot doing

the N-word on the text-to-speech, then

those idiots spamming doxxing stuff in the

chat. Oh my God, people weren't joking

when they said I wouldn't last long on

Twitch. And it's not because it's my

fault. I haven't done anything wrong.

It's just stupid idiots. The stupid

trolls. Why do I get to get punished

just because people are being annoying?

Now I have to turn everything off. Well,

I can still have the sound. The sound is

fine because I can approve it. Just can't

have the visual stuff now unless I drag

the alert box to the bottom of the screen

so you can see the penguin, but then you I

don't know where the GIF appears. How do I

turn off the stupid GIF? I don't know how

to turn it off. I looked in the settings,

there's nothing about the Streamlabs Pro

GIF thing. Am I in Korea?

No, I'm in Manchester.

Oh well, maybe they'll get bored after

a while and then I can re-enable it. They

stopped trying to do the N-word, didn't

they? I haven't

left the place in 5 days, so I've run out

of food now. Gotta go shopping.

So my food lasted me 5 days, and that was

about £15, so it's about £3 a day.

It's pretty good.

Oh my God, I didn't want to talk about it,

but Might as

well get it over with. See how much money

I lost.

I lost £100 of my profits.

So I was at £1,200. I added

another £500 to prevent myself getting

margin called. Uh, so I

managed to get up to about $1,700,

and then stupid things I was trying to

short ended up mooning the whole day, and

I lost all my profits, $200 plus. But then

end of the day, I managed to regain it

because things came back down again. But

still, at the moment, I've lost half my

gains. Now hopefully the NASDAQ crashes.

Why won't it crash? I got 2 shorts here.

Why is it going up and up and up? It's

finally coming down. I hope it comes down

to like this level, then I should make

back all my profits. But I tried shorting

Square. Oh my God, I,

I was like minus $200 on Square because

I was watching this trading channel and

they should— they tried shorting Square.

So I thought, oh well, they seem to know

what they're doing. Look what happened. I

tried shorting it here and it just went

boom, and then it finally came down here,

so I managed to sell all of it at a loss,

but still better than when it was up

there. I can't believe I tried shorting it

when it was down there and it went boom

like that. Fucking hell.

Ah, so irritating, this day trading thing.

Not the end of the world, I guess. Still

annoying though. Everyone's saying the

market's gonna crash and it doesn't crash,

and I've got my shorts ready to go.

Well, not much I can do. Hopefully

tomorrow will be better.

This is like the 3rd time I had all my

profits wiped out during the day, and then

I got them back in the end by being

patient. Why does it keep happening?

Did I spill on the sofa? It looks like I

wet myself because I was sitting here and

then it went all dark. Why is there like a

patch where I am sitting? My bum's not

wet. I don't know why there's— it leaves

like a patch when you press it down or

touch it. Oh, it's just a fab— oh, it's

just the fabric. Look, you just

swipe it and then it, it kind of moves

over. I thought I wet myself or my

bum was wet. I was worried

I was like sweating into the sofa.

Hmm. Well, good news is I got 11%

gain on my Alibaba trade. Hopefully it

goes up a bit more.

Did I get cereal with cool girls here?

No, because it's kind of embarrassing

because there's like a guy, like a

reception guy down there, and then you

have to walk past him to get to the

elevator. It's kind of embarrassing unless

I can just ping-pong her in here. But the

Manchester ones are weird because they

want you to come outside to meet They

don't come straight up to the room. Whoa,

what is that line? It's like a weird,

very angular cloud.

Yeah, so I probably won't get cheesecake

here just because it's kind of

embarrassing, and I don't want to use the

one I used last time because she's so damn

old. She's like 50 years old, I swear.

At least she wasn't fat, but she was just

old. Probably the

oldest one I ever banged. And then all the

ones here, yeah, you have to go outside

and meet them, otherwise they don't come

in. They just drive off if you don't go

outside. I don't know why they do that.

Just come up.

So I don't know, at least, well, the

website is trustworthy because they don't

scam you. Well, they do scam you because

they show you a picture and it's not even

the same person.

I don't think I'd do it again, just wasn't

good. I mean, it was okay because, you

know, sex, but it was kind of boring.

Only lasted about 10 minutes because I

just wanted to come and get it over with.

It's just a waste of money. There's only

been a few times when I paid for it and it

was actually good in Korea and in Japan

because you get to walk up and down the

street and you can see them before you

choose. Japan was the best, but it's

kind of anxiety-inducing. You go up and

down that street, you got to approach the

women because there's like an old woman at

the entrance and then the hot girl's like

sitting in there.

And my eyesight is bad, so I can't really

get a good look at the girl unless I walk

right up to her. So a few times I had to

like stand at the entrance just like

looking at her, trying to think if I find

her attractive or not, whilst the old

woman is like trying to Get me to come in.

Someone's outside my door.

Did you hear that? That beep is so loud.

Yeah, some of those Tobitsushinchi girls

are really hot. Like, the women you see in

Japanese porn, they look like that.

Like, some of them are really cute and

young and hot. I had some great ones in

Tobita Shinchi. I had a couple bad ones.

The worst one was this one who kept saying

it was painful when I put my dick in her,

and I wasn't sure if she was like

pretending as if that was like a turn-on

thing or if it was actually painful.

Yeah, I should get my eyes tested. Last

time I got my eyes tested was when I was

17. It's like 15 years ago.

I've been using the same power lenses for

15 years. I don't want to do it because I

probably need more powerful lenses, which

would be like really thick, and I think

even with thinning they're still going to

be really thick. Now choose

new glasses as well. It asks you so many

questions, like which one's clearer, A or

B?

And then I keep getting spots. I got so

many spots now, even more than last time I

They all come at once. You don't have any

spots for a bit, and then you get a little

one, and then another one, another one,

another one, and then it all breaks out

all at once. And now I've got like 6

around my lips and my nose.

I can't make any videos like this.

Yes, glasses are expensive. My ones cost

about— I think it was like $200.

Now I wouldn't get contacts because

they're more expensive. You gotta pay for

and then you gotta keep getting new ones

sent to you in the post, and then you

gotta clean them every night, then you

gotta put them in and take them out, put

them in, take take them out,

and then makes your eyes all red and

itchy. You can feel like a lump of rubber

in your eye. It's horrible. I hated it.

And then laser eye thing is like £3,000

plus, and then you don't even know if it's

like guaranteed to last long,

or you might get an accident But

yeah, the Tobita Shinji girls, you can't

really beat them.

The problem is, I don't know.

If you do get a really good one, there's

one time I went to Tobu Shinchi and I got

a really, really hot one and she was like

exactly my type. I don't know how to

explain it, but it

was— the sex was so good and

maybe her acting is good, but she seemed

like she was really into it too. She had a

big mirror in front of the mattress,

which most of them, they had never seen

that before. So she must be like really

kinky. She had black,

you know, just like typical Japanese look.

Black hair, big cheeks,

Japanese eyes, balanced face,

normal boobs. You guys would probably

think she just looked normal if I showed

you. But the sex was so good, I ended up

extending 2 times, ended up spending like

$300 on her for—

I think it was like a 45-minute session

because first you start off 15 minutes and

I thought, oh, this is too good, I want

more. And then I extended it again, 30,

and then another 45, and it was like $100

each extension, but it

was so good.

When I touched her bumhole, she like

quivered. She probably liked it.

Ah, it was damn good though, I have to

Expensive though, that's the problem. You

find one that you really like, you end up

wanting to extend it because you don't

want it to end. But then if it's

bad, then you kind of feel like you wasted

Cheaper than a wife or girlfriend? I don't

think so. So you have a girlfriend, you

can do it hundreds of times.

I did it with Chihiro 826 times a

year. Imagine if you kept count like Russ.

I wonder how many times I did it. We

probably did it at least I

don't know, some days we didn't do it.

Then some days we did it like 2 or 3

times. In the beginning, I think we did it

like 4 times a day. Not every

day. In a day. It's hard to tell.

Definitely did it more in summer because

it was so hot. And then you had less

clothing on. Ah, summer days

in Japan, lying around having sex, then

beer and yakiniku.

Good times. Oh, I gotta make dinner.

Forgot about that. Kind of late today

because I was staring at the stocks

praying for it to go down. Oh, my

hard-earned day trading profits wiped out.

I knew this was gonna happen. I just knew

it. I just knew one day— okay, I've got 6

days profits in a row. I just know one day

I'm gonna end up losing it.

I just need NASDAQ to go down. I feel like

NASDAQ is on a downtrend. It hit all-time

highs and now it's just going lower.

Look, you see NASDAQ?

It hit all-time high and now it's making

lower highs, lower highs, but it's making

higher lows. Don't know what that means.

Surely it's coming down for another

correction.

Oh, I want to try and forget about it

because I'm getting like really addicted

to it. Can't stop thinking about the

stocks. And then on Saturday and Sunday,

I'm just miserable because I'm so bored

because the stocks aren't moving. I need

to try and detach, detach,

detach. It's really hard to detach. It

gets so— you just can't stop looking at

it. I just want to go down.

Yes, go down. Give me my money back,

stupid NASDAQ.

I don't even want to do anything else

apart from look at my stocks. This is the

most— this is the Like the only thing I

want to do. I don't want to do anything

else apart from sex. Do what?

Go out for a walk? Boring. I'll do that

when I go shopping.

I think it will come down. Probably it

could. Drop a lot tomorrow morning, maybe

have a rally. Hopefully I can get out my

shorts then, then I should be up.

I reckon I could get back up to £1,700.

I want to take out that £500 because I

wasn't supposed to have £1,500 in the

account, supposed to be a £1,000 account.

Am I gonna talk about Mida again? No. Why

is everyone bringing her up? I didn't even

say anything about her yet. No, I don't

really have anything else to say about

Mida. I went on and on and on about her

last stream, didn't I?

I'm just trying to— right now my mind is

like 100% stocks.

I just, I can't snap out of it.

I don't know what else to do. Oh yeah,

I was gonna make dinner. So I've got to

finish all the food today. And then go

shopping. I want to get— I want to get

like a mop thing, but then I don't know

what to do with it when I move out. And I

want to get toilet cleaning stuff because

that toilet's going to look nasty soon.

So I have to clean it. Look, my fridge is

completely empty. I don't even have milk.

Oh my God, how am I gonna make coffee?

Unfortunately, I'm gonna have to make the

same thing I made last time.

I might put barbecue seasoning on the

I might go to Wing Yip. It's just Wing

Yip's a bit far. It takes like nearly 40

minutes, 30 minutes to walk, but I do need

some walking. I haven't left the apartment

in 5 days. My legs are just withering

away.

I need, need a good walk.

No, I need a good walk. I'm not taking the

Oh yeah, I could go to Chinatown. They've

got like a Chinese grocery. I want to get

fried tofu and I want to get ramen.

What else do I want? What else do they

have? I don't really care about the other

stuff they have. They've got a lot of

sauces and pastes I don't really care

about. Miso soup would be nice. They don't

have good meat. I looked for meat there

and they've just got like massive chunks

of meat for restaurants. Well, they've got

these weird frozen rolls of beef that look

kind of gross.

What do I want to buy? I want to buy

something interesting that I could make

during the stream. I think people thought

the chicken wings were funny. What can I

buy that's a bit challenging to make,

takes a little bit of effort, and then I

can make a massive mess and people can

laugh at me? I might get one of those

fajita kits. I saw a fajita and taco kit.

It's funny, my fajita video got like 60K

Look how long my hair is getting.

I need to cut my hair as well.

I need to wash it too. I didn't have a

shower for 3 days. It's like drenched in

oil.

Well, at least I'm saving money from

not using the water.

Okay, what should I make today?

Oh, I'm gonna get foil. I want

to get cooking foil because it's

a pain cleaning this every time. Do I not

shower because I'm lazy or depressed?

Just lazy, and there's no need. I'm not

seeing anyone.

It just feels like a waste of time and

water and money.

I don't know if I'm depressed. I'm just

kind of addicted to stocks now, even more

than I was before. Because I'm so bored

and it's like the only thing that's

It's just kind of— it's pretty risky.

I don't know, really. I should be using

stop losses and then having

a maximum amount of loss that I'm willing

to lose. So I could have said,

okay, I'm willing to lose £20, I'm willing

to lose £15 on this trade and then I'm

out. But instead my mentality is like,

I'm willing to lose all my money and wait

until I get it back, which I think is a

pretty stupid idea.

So I literally was willing to lose 100% of

my profits and then sit there waiting to

get them back, which I did. I got, I got

60% of them back. But then I could have

only lost 2% if I only— if I set up like a

strategy to only lose £20 instead of

losing the whole £200. Yeah,

I really should have used stop losses. Or

have more discipline. When I saw it said

minus £20, I thought, okay, it's

definitely coming down. And then it said

minus £40. Okay, it's definitely coming

back. Okay, now it's minus £60. Okay,

I'll just leave it for an hour and it'll

definitely come back. Oh, now it's minus

£100. It was just going up and up and up

and up, and then my shorts were just

getting wrecked.

Stupid Neil from Trading Live TV. It's all

his fault.

Never copying him again.

Um.

Yeah, just be careful tomorrow.

Tomorrow, what do I do?

Try and, try and buy the rally and then

So there's a few things happening this

week. There's the thing on Friday

with they announce the farm roll results,

how many people are unemployed still.

That could affect the market somehow.

Day trading is tricky. It's like— day

trading is like investing, but on a

really, really, really quick, short

timescale. It's like investing, but the

time sped up 100,000 times.

Which I like. I mean, it feels really

good. You enter a trade and then in the

first 10 seconds you've made like £20 if

you've timed it well. But then it can go

the other way.

Don't really know what else to talk about.

I know you're not interested in the stock

stuff, but what

did I used to talk about before I got into

stocks? I was watching my old livestreams

when I had the fish. What did

I used to talk about?

I don't remember.

Probably whining about views and girls.

You want to know if you're seeing a girl?

No, I'm chatting to a few.

I matched this really tall girl. She seems

to like me. She's 5 foot 10.

I'm 5 foot 9,

but she said she doesn't mind. I don't

mind either. I think tall girls are pretty

hot. They got more legs.

And then I matched this German girl who

lives in Manchester.

It's just

I haven't actually asked any of them if

they want to meet up because I don't

really want to meet up right now because

my face looks terrible. I'm not

really in the mood to meet people right

now, to be honest.

I'm meeting another viewer in August when

she comes back. Because she goes— I think

she goes to school here, but she went back

to her home country right now.

She said she wants to meet me. She seems

nice.

I'm not gonna wear a mask. That'd be

stupid. It's like you're hiding your face.

No one's wearing a mask anymore. You don't

have to wear them.

I don't really know what I want to do in

life anymore. This whole

stock thing has messed up my brain.

I can't even be bothered to make a video

anymore.

If I had unlimited money, what would I do?

I'd probably just play stocks just for

fun. That's the problem with it. When it

becomes fun and entertainment, that's when

you know you got a problem. It should be

like a business that you do to make money,

not To have fun.

It's just so damn exciting.

Can't explain it.

But it really sucks because I

don't know what to do for content now

because I have no motivation to actually

do anything. Whereas when I was in Japan,

I guess you could say I had You know, I

was a bit ambitious, had some ideas,

was willing to push myself out of my

comfort zone. I did do some weird things

in Japan, didn't I?

Hi Daniel.

Oh, hi.

Hi, Carrie. Is it the real Carrie?

What did I do in Japan that was— it just

seems like in Japan I had more ideas,

like the sex doll thing. But the sex doll

thing wasn't really for content. It was

mainly because I wanted to see what it was

like to have sex with it,

and then making the videos were like a

bonus thing.

Yeah, I did go outside a lot more to

make the videos. I did the homeless stuff.

I put more effort in videos, didn't I?

But it just seems like unnecessary effort.

I went to a lot of effort and didn't get

really much back from it.

It's not like any of the videos went mega

viral. They got like 40K, 50K views most.

That's rubbish considering the effort I

put into it.

I just don't know what I can do in

Manchester. For like silly

cringe content.

In Japan, I did a few things like going to

the slum area. I would never go to the

slum area here. I'd get beaten up. And

then I went to like net cafes and capsule

hotels, but they don't have that here.

They don't have any interesting hotels

here.

I'm just wondering what would 2019

Daniel do if he was in this situation.

There's just nothing to do.

There's nothing quirky or weird here.

And now I'm all alone. I don't have like

a, a wife to make content of.

Really stuck.

People are bored just seeing me sit in an

apartment doing rubbish cooking.

No girls want to be part of the videos,

so even if I met one, they wouldn't be

willing.

Well, the Greek girl said we could make

content together,

but the problem is she has to be in on it

with me because I know what content we

have to make. We're gonna have to make

like why I hate my girlfriend kind of

content. So she's gotta be

okay with me, with us kind of like making

up some fake stuff like me and Chihiro

used to do. People were so dumb,

they're like, oh my God, how can you make

a video bashing your wife? Me and Chihiro

discussed it And thought it would be

funny.

It's like they think, oh, I just sneakily

uploaded the video behind her back without

her knowing. Fingers crossed, hope she

doesn't find out. Hehe. No, I was like,

oh hey, Chihiro, I've got this idea for a

video where I complain about you. I'm just

gonna say, you know, this, this, and this.

Is that okay? And she was like, yeah,

sure, whatever. As if she actually

cared. About me complaining about wrapping

onions in cling film. People are

dumb.

We've got to make some, you know, fake

drama together. Like, oh, my girlfriend

said I'm bad at sex.

Maybe I'll just fake it. Surely it'll get

more views than I'm getting now.

This would be more fun and convincing if

there was an actual girl with me.

I'm wondering, I'm just wondering how far

I can push it with the fake stuff before,

you know, people just completely stop

clicking it. Well, they've already stopped

clicking it, so what's there to lose?

I've only got a tiny bit of chips left.

I've only got one apple. But then how many

more views would I actually get from doing

like fake girlfriend stuff? If it's only

like 15k, then it's not really worth it.

Might as well stick to livestreams. Just

get my 10-12K views, not upset the

remaining viewers.

Most of my content in Japan was like

dating, couple, marriage stuff, wasn't it?

Why

is my phone so

dark? I hate the iPhone.

Keeps— I've got brightness. Oh no, it's—

oh, I thought brightness was on max. Why

was it on lowest?

The iPhone, the There's like a weird thing

with the screen brightness. When the sun's

bright, it seems to dim the screen even

when the brightness is on max.

Should buy a new phone? No, I don't really

want a phone. So glad I didn't buy that

Surface Duo thing. I'm kind of fed

up with phones, not really interested

anymore. They all do the same thing. I had

like a really big thing with phones

because— I don't

know, because they always seemed like a

luxury item that I could never used to be

able to afford. I remember

being a kid and then I just had like a

crappy Nokia 3310. And everyone else had

like flip phones with cameras and stuff.

And then the iPhone 4 was out. I was too

poor to be able to buy a smartphone.

Smartphones are just kind of boring these

days because they're all the same. No one

tries to do anything special or unique

anymore. LG tried, you know, they had like

some wacky design ideas with the LG Wing,

but now apparently they're shutting down

the phone, the phone branch.

Apple iPhones are like the same every

time. There's literally no difference

between iPhone 12 and 11 apart from the

design has flat edges,

but the biggest difference was the

wide-angle lens on the iPhone 11 that

iPhone X didn't have. Apart from that,

it's not much difference really.

Oh, I got a sub! Wow, 7 months!

Is the sub sound too loud or is it fine?

Thanks very much. LiDAR— I don't really

care about LiDAR.

What am I going to do with LiDAR?

I saw it in a video. They were like

scanning objects, making it a 3D— making

a 3D object of the

real object in the phone. I guess it's

cool, but I don't see how I would use

that.

Do I have 111 subs? No, I've got

like 48. I can never get more than

50-something. I usually— I think the

highest amount subs I had was 56,

but every time it goes into the 50s, it

drops back down to the 40s.

Kind of hard. It's easier keeping people

on OnlyFans than it is getting people to

sub on Twitch. I guess you get more, you

actually get something on OnlyFans. On

Twitch you get a special emote,

you get 2 special emotes. Wow.

Yeah, I think I'm done with phones unless

they make a selfie camera wide angle,

which I feel like they never will. I don't

know why. They always put the wide angle

lens on the wrong side.

I'm a bit interested in the Steam Deck.

I'm just wondering Ah,

then you might as well just get a laptop

because then I could play games on Twitch.

I don't think I would. I feel like

everyone would leave if I started playing

games. I don't even know what game to

play. It'd be cool to play like a story

game and then we're experiencing the

adventure together. I don't know if I have

the patience for it though. Probably end

up playing Rainbow Six, getting bored,

and then everyone else gets bored.

I think I would just get bored.

I only played Mario Kart now. I just play

Mario Kart mindlessly for hours. Mario

Kart is pretty good for that, you know,

you just like switch your brain off and

then you just slide around corners,

boost, get power-ups.

Ah, the Steam Deck is tempting though,

because then I can like sit back on my

sofa, play Chivalry 2, can even play

Rainbow Six,

and I don't have to pay for the games

because I've already got them. That's the

good thing about it. I wouldn't have to

pay for any games because I'll just play

the ones I've already got.

I bought one game recently. I got

Assassin's Creed Remastered. It was 70%

discount, so it was only like £10. Can do

a review. It looks interesting. You kill

the British. It's set in the

War of Independence era,

my favorite historical era.

Haven't played Assassin's Creed since

Assassin's Creed 1. I remember when

Assassin's Creed first came out, it was so

groundbreaking and epic. You could climb

up buildings, and then the combat system

was so fresh. You could do Counters and

dodge and stuff. And after that it got

Make a day in the life video. I already

did that, didn't even get views.

Did day in the life of an introvert, that

didn't even get 12K views.

Nothing I made got any good views recently

apart from— I

don't know— Financially

Ruined— no, Lost My Life Savings in Crypto

Crash. That was the last one that got

decent views.

I don't know what else to make now.

I can't keep talking about how I've lost

all my money. I've made like 3,

4 videos now about losing all my money on

crypto. I don't really have anything else

to say. Oh, I lost more money.

Why does your YouTube doesn't matter as

much? Well, it does because

I shouldn't neglect income streams really.

Some months the stocks do really well and

then some months they don't. And in some

months the YouTube channel does well, and

in some months it doesn't. It's all

fluctuating, so I shouldn't get

lazy on either one, cuz you never know.

It makes me feel sad seeing the channel

die. I don't want my channel to die. I

want to at least try to keep it going.

It's just depressing.

I don't even know what clickbaits do

I had a massive argument with my ex-wife.

The only thing that's going to revive it

is a girl, a new girlfriend,

new arguments and new problems.

I don't have any new problems. That's the

problem. The problem is I don't have any

problems apart from losing some money

today and

being lonely and my channel dying. Those

are my main problems. But no one cares

about them. Their real problem would be

like, I had my testicle removed,

or I've got lung cancer,

or my house caught on fire.

I guess it's good I don't have anything

like that, but my life is so uneventful

and boring that I can't make any money off

it. I made fat money off my life in

Japan because there was so much going on

nonstop.

Guest house, James, meeting people, going

on dates, getting girlfriend, moving into

girlfriend's house, getting married.

It was like a never-ending chain of events

that I could just monetize. Right now it's

just like, oh, I moved to Manchester, I

got catfished, I got an apartment,

that's it. And I got really drunk.

Really, I need to find a girlfriend and

move in with her and then have sex and

then make vlogs about it.

Without her knowing. Hehehe.

I think my channel wouldn't have done so

well if I didn't have a girlfriend and

then a wife. It would just be boring,

wouldn't it? It would be me in the

apartment hotel being lonely.

Complaining about women.

But the difference is, at least I tried,

you know. I went on dates and I eventually

got a girlfriend. Right now I'm not even

trying. I've got like 5— I'm

kind of chatting to 5 girls. I didn't even

bother to try and meet them yet.

I asked one out. I asked one if she wants

to go to the dry slope, and then she just

It's too difficult. And then the others,

I think they live with their parents. So

even if we got together and then she moved

in with me, that would be annoying. So I'd

have no alone time, and then I wouldn't be

able to stream. How would I make secret

videos? Be like, hey guys, my girlfriend's

in the toilet. She doesn't know I'm

filming.

Don't know.

Don't have any stories. Don't have any

new experiences. I'm fucked.

Why aren't you dating? I just can't really

be bothered. It's not that the girls

are ugly here, it's just

I don't really feel very interested in

them. Like I do with

Japanese women. I don't

know, there's just something different,

especially some of the profiles are so

entitled sounding.

At least Tinder profiles they write are

like so bitchy sounding. I, I drive

a car and I'm a professional woman and I

know what I want in life. I'm happy and

I'm looking for someone to add more

happiness to it. If that's not you, then

just won't let— they sound so fucking

stuck up.

It's just

so unattractive. Can't you just say, oh,

I like baking and flowers? They just sound

like, oh my God, so I only

deserve the best in the world because I

treat myself like the Queen.

Just reading their Tinder profiles makes

me want to go gay.

Wow, wow, wow, wow.

Dating in England is just so depressing.

All the attractive women sound so stuck-up

and entitled,

and then all the other women are like,

just— they just look weird. Like they've

got all purple hair or something.

It's just so unappealing.

I just want like a sad, lonely middle-aged

woman who likes sex.

And doesn't want so much.

That's why Japan's great. The women are

humble and they're not like, oh, I, I want

Mr. Prince Charming.

They always in Tinder here, they always

like brag about their careers as if men

give a shit about your career. Um,

studied 5 years to become the top of my

department. No one cares.

Let me find some Tinder profiles, see if I

can get a good example.

I have a 6-year-old daughter.

Um, if you

don't like dogs, we won't get on.

It's not too bad, I guess.

Why do they all love dogs? There's so many

dog people here.

I don't know, these women just made me

feel very insecure.

Can't really find a good example straight

away. Is it ready yet?

I want my burger.

I feel like giving up, to be honest. The

whole dating thing, it's just too

difficult. And then I've got to keep

everything secret, don't I? Or else

it won't even— they won't even want to be

with me if they found out my dirty

past.

I don't even know what I want anymore, to

be honest. I'm so confused. I feel kind

of worried about getting into a

relationship again. I feel like it would

just be annoying again. Now I've got to do

all this stuff I don't want to do. You've

got to put so much effort into a

relationship, otherwise they start

It's not easy making someone happy. You

gotta work hard and put effort and thought

into it. Otherwise they think you don't

care, and then they get upset, and then

they leave you.

When you get into a relationship, it's

like you're responsible. For another

person's happiness. It's like watering a

plant, you gotta keep adding water to it.

I don't know how to do that.

That's why I get dumped every time,

because I don't know how to make them

happy. They always want to emotionally

connect, don't they?

Every time a girl dumps a guy, it's

probably because, oh, I didn't feel

connection. Every time a woman cheats,

it's cuz she didn't feel connection with

the guy. It's the same thing every time.

How the hell do you make them feel a

There must be like a tutorial,

step-by-step guide, how to make a woman

feel connected to you. Do you have to

share stuff with them, or do you have to

make them feel like you care about the

stuff they share with you? Maybe a bit of

both.

Why do they make it so complicated? Why

can't we just have sex, like get good

food, watch a Netflix movie, cuddle,

enjoy each other's company?

Okay, let that cool down.

You have to have genuine interest in them.

Oh,

I'm just

not interested in any women. On TV

or YouTube.

So I could, I could watch Jeremy Clarkson

for hours and hours because he's really

interesting and funny. I can't name a

single woman I could do that unless she's

like naked or something.

So difficult. But I'm

not sexually attracted to Jeremy Clarkson.

I just, I enjoy his company because

he's funny and he says interesting things.

So difficult.

I feel like this problem is bigger than

not being financially successful and not

being good-looking. If they feel like

you're never going to care about them,

then they won't even give you a chance.

How do I pretend to care or actually care?

Caring about people is something I've

never been good at.

Am I still in contact with the American

guy? No,

because I deleted KakaoTalk and I don't

think he knows I deleted it.

You have to find someone who has something

in common with you.

That's difficult.

Don't you feel like everyone just settles?

Because everyone probably has someone they

really loved. I feel like only a small

percentage of people end up with the

person they actually love, or at least one

of them in the relationship has settled

because they couldn't get the one they

actually loved.

People just go through people over

and over and over trying to find the one,

and then they find them, and then the one

doesn't like them back.

Or the one— you aren't the one's the one.

I think it's just a very unlikely

statistical probability that you meet the

one and the one is also the one for you

and you're also the one's the one.

That's just so improbable.

Maybe it'll be easier to just learn

to live without the one then.

Maybe just train yourself to live alone.

Maybe that's easier than trying to find

the one and then trying to keep her with

you. It's just boring

being alone.

It's just like a nonstop chain of

disappointment. Like, Chihiro wanted to be

with me. Didn't she? But then I didn't

want to be with her enough to, you know,

not cheat and put effort into

the relationship. I just kind of let the

relationship break down because I didn't

really care enough.

And then Mila didn't really like me enough

to want to stick around, and I didn't

really like Chihiro enough to want to

stick around. And then there's probably

like another girl out there who really

likes me who I probably won't really like

much, like Pia maybe.

No one's good enough for anyone, then

everyone just ends up miserable and sad

and then desperate and then ends up just

settling with whoever they can find next

out of desperation because anything's

better than misery of being alone. At

least you don't feel like a failure in

society if you can say, oh yeah, I got a

boyfriend. Oh yeah, I got a girlfriend.

Oh yeah, I got a wife. I'm not a complete

loser. Really deep down, they feel

miserable because they're not the one.

The one didn't like you.

That's why everyone's just miserable and

cheats.

Well, that was my motivational speech for

the day. Oh no,

oh no, oh no, where do I put it?

That was loud.

Oh, my ears are ringing.

Have I bought Ice Poseidon's donation

crypt? No, I wouldn't buy any of— you

bought it? Did you make money? I don't

even know how to buy it, to be honest,

cuz I just— I buy crypto off eToro. It's

not actually real crypto though. I can

never get a profile made on these Crypto

apps because they always want all this

verification. I can't be bothered.

Da da da da da da.

Could just eat off this tray, couldn't I?

Why not eat off

the tray?

I don't know why I've always been

intimidated by English women. They just

seem so demanding. Like they have such

high standards.

They respect themselves too much.

It's not that they're unattractive. It's

just I don't know. I always feel like I'm

not good enough for an English woman,

and then Japanese women just seem more

approachable. They don't seem so

intimidating. They just seem more

accepting. I don't

know why my mind is like that. What caused

me to think like that? Maybe it's not even

true.

But then the women who want relationships,

they probably want families, don't they?

So they want a man that's not going to be

a burden and can help her make a family,

because that's what the majority of women

want to do. I forgot

the barbecue seasoning.

The majority of women, they want to find a

guy who can help them make a family,

don't they?

And I don't exactly show that I can do

I don't think my sperm even works.

I feel like I'm overthinking this way too

I feel like I'm gonna go crazy trying to

solve this puzzle.

So my new theory is Um, focus on becoming

good at something, becoming successful at

something, and then the women come