I'M MOVING TO THAILAND (soon)

Hello, welcome back to a new video.

It's not a video, it's a livestream.

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Video. It's not a video.

Yeah, sounds pretty good.

Okay, so today I'm talking about Thailand,

probably mostly Thailand and my Thai

First of all, it's not clickbait.

If you're saying it's clickbait, it's not

clickbait. I'm officially going to

Thailand in a

few weeks, I guess I can say that.

Bought my tickets. I haven't booked the

hotel yet, but I found one that I really

like and I'm going to book it. Soon.

Oh, thanks, Loogling. What if the Thai

girl is a trap? Crying.

No, I'm pretty sure she's not a trap. I'm

pretty sure she's a woman because number

one, I think it's pretty obvious

if they are traps because they usually

have broad shoulders and square jaws and

an Adam's apple, and they don't say stuff

like, I'm on my period. Oh, my mom's home.

How come she comes home right now?

At least give me credit, I've been saying

this for years. Yeah, it's funny, so many

people kept telling me to go to Thailand,

and I kept saying, why would I want to go

to Thailand? It looks rubbish. And then

all it took for me to go to Thailand was

some random girl shows an interest in me,

and then I'm like, okay, buy my tickets

now. I'm going.

Why does my mum park so close to the

garage door? How do

I make money these days? Same as before.

YouTube.

OnlyFans, some dividends here and there.

I thought the days of traveling for girls

was over. No, why would it be over?

Traveling for girls is like the best bit

about life. Everything else is just like

waiting and grinding and doing boring

stuff. You do the boring stuff so you can

do the fun, exciting stuff.

Oh, thanks, but Sky— yeah,

I've been trying to come up with ways

that's going to allow me to film, and I

came up with a new idea. Which I think is

quite ingenious. Let me show you.

Bet you can't even notice. I guess it's

kind of obvious. It's a bit shiny.

I got Velcro— wait, let me shut the door.

Otherwise my mum's gonna come in and start

shouting. I got Velcro and I Velcroed—

I didn't realize there was a strap on my

shoulder strap, and the GoPro and my

phone goes right in inside this strap,

and it was already pretty secure. I just

got some Velcro and put it inside the

strap, and now it's completely fixed in

there. I can take it off, look.

But it's tearing the, the other side off,

so maybe I shouldn't do that.

Oh, thanks, Lougling2. I don't know,

she just kind of disappeared, didn't she?

She hasn't posted on Instagram in ages.

Last time she posted on Instagram was July

when she went on holiday. She hasn't

posted anything on YouTube. She seems to

have completely moved on. My mum says she

got a boyfriend. So she told my mum she

got a boyfriend. I knew it. I thought it

was so obvious that she found someone.

But it seems like she's finally moved on

and she doesn't do those stupid

livestreams with Casey anymore. I can't

believe they were doing those for such a

long time. I didn't actually notice

because I was with Mila. But they were

doing livestreams together all the way up

until around

January of last year. It was like a

whole year they were doing livestreams

together since me and Chihiro separated.

I didn't really watch most of them because

I was with Mila and not really caring

about what Chihiro and Casey were saying.

But I went and clicked on a few the other

day just to have a look. See what they

were saying, and they were just constantly

making fun of my skin and my Japanese

language skill and that

I'm awkward and not great at conversation.

It's so petty when I look back at it now.

They did how many livestreams together?

And they were just completely roasting me

the entire time in every single stream

about the same things over and over, like

my skin's bad. I saw one bit Chihiro said—

Chihiro was laughing. She was saying, Oh,

Daniel's 8 years younger than me, but I

still have better skin. So what?

Who cares? There's 18-year-olds who have

spotty skin.

Generally, older people have better skin

because the hormones calm down a bit.

How come I got so Few viewers tonight.

The hell? 90? I didn't

put ex-wife in the title. That's probably

why. It's so dumb. It's like the algorithm

doesn't push my stuff out unless I put

ex-wife in the title.

If I put I had a massive fight with my

ex-wife, I better get like 200 viewers

like before. Oh well,

what can I do?

I thought I would title the stream

something relevant to what I'd be talking

about most of the time.

You have way better skin. No,

my skin's pretty freckled and blemished.

Oh, thanks, Luling. Do OFs with a ladyboy.

Can I even do OnlyFans in Thailand?

I don't think I'm allowed to, but there's

loads of white guys making porn in

Thailand and they get away with it.

I feel like I never get away with anything

though. I feel like I get punished and

penalized all the time over such tiny

things that no one else seems to. I

watched PewDiePie's video recently. It was

complete clickbait. It was all caps, OUR

HOUSE GOT ATTACKED. And you think, oh my

God, did he get burgled again? Did he

get robbed? No, it was like 20 seconds of

a big spider and PewDiePie sucking it up

with a vacuum whilst cleaning. So he gets

this vacuum cleaner and hoovers up this

huge spider and then shows its dead body

inside of the vacuum cleaner, close-up of

its dead body. And then I got a 3-month

strike just for killing a cockroach and

zooming in on its body. I don't get it.

Sometimes I feel like I have really unfair

treatment towards me on YouTube where I

got strikes. I've had videos taken down

over such mundane things that no other

channels would have taken down. I don't

I got 90-day strike for that cockroach,

and then PewDiePie just hoovers up a

massive spider and zooms in on its body.

Am I planning on visiting anywhere else in

Thailand? Yeah, I'll go all around. My

Thai girl's been coming up with planning

ideas. She's really into the whole

planning our trip thing. She seems really

excited. She seems more excited than I do.

I don't really feel overly excited

because, well, I've had a lot of bad

experiences going to countries to meet

girls and then it doesn't really work out.

So I'm not really getting my hopes up too

high. Otherwise I'm just going to get

disappointed. So I'm just trying to go

into it thinking, yeah, on the plus side,

I could get a girlfriend and it could lead

to regular you know what and a free place

to stay. And maybe some video content,

but probably not because it seems like

people don't really care anymore about my

personal life. You look at my videos

recently, none of the personal life kind

of content stuff really does very well

anymore. So I'm not sure what I'm going to

do in terms of documenting it. I do want

to document it, but I just don't have

confidence that people care anymore.

So Plan A would be things go well with the

Thai girl and I get what I want and have a

nice little trip, nice adventure, new

experience. Or Plan B, it doesn't work

out. Either she doesn't like me or I

really don't like her and I just say,

sorry, but I don't like you. And then I'll

just end up staying in Thailand, I guess,

for a few months.

Which could be interesting too, because

then I can experience living there by

myself and I could try going on dates and

maybe I could meet some viewers if there's

any viewers there.

It's just that if, if things

do go with the Thai girl and I move in

with her, then I can't really do much else

because she doesn't live in Bangkok.

So I wouldn't be able to sneak off to

Bangkok easily. If she finds out, it would

be really suspicious why I went to Bangkok

without her. So I don't really feel like

it would be safe to just go to Bangkok to

do other stuff. So I'd be stuck in the

town she lives in, which is not Bangkok.

So I'm probably gonna end up just stuck at

her place while she's at work most of the

time. I guess I could make videos about

Thailand. Why I hate living in Thailand.

Why I hate my Thai girlfriend.

Did the visa application get accepted?

So I sent off my visa, tourist visa,

a couple of weeks ago, and then they asked

for additional documents because the bank

statement I sent to them didn't have my

name or address on, and they want a bank

statement with at least £500. It was a bit

confusing because on the application form

it says you need at least £5,000. But then

when they emailed me, they said it needs

to have at least £500. So either the email

has a typo or the website has a typo. I

think the website has a typo because

There's no way they would want you to have

£5,000. And then I looked up the American

version. They said you need $700, which is

about £500. So the problem was

that my last bank statement, I don't have

£500 in it because I usually have all my

money in stocks or in the stock app

because they give me interest on money I

have on the stock app. So I usually don't

have my money in my bank account. I have

it on the Stock App, either in stocks or

just in cash. So I had to send— I had to

sell some stocks and then move the money

back into my bank account. And then I took

a PDF of my current balance, which was

over £500, and I sent that to them

thinking that'll be okay. But because it

doesn't have my name and address on, they

didn't accept it.

So I had to phone the bank and then ask

them for a new bank statement because

otherwise I would have to wait until the

2nd of October to get a new bank statement

with the updated balance. And that's too

late. I need it now, really. So I phoned

the bank up and they managed to make me a

new statement for my current balance.

And that shows I have £5,000 because I

thought it'd be £5,000. So I sent that

off. On Sunday and now it's Wednesday.

I haven't had a reply yet. The automated

reply said it should take 3 or 5 working

days to get back to you, so hopefully this

week they will approve my visa and

then I'll get my visa.

Um, You can get a

bank statement online. Yeah, I know, but

my previous bank statement was from August

the 2nd until September the 2nd, and it

shows that I have £100. I need £500,

and my next bank statement wasn't until

next month, so I needed to phone up the

bank so they make me a custom statement,

and then I sent that. What was I saying?

Oh yeah, they, they didn't ask for any

other additional files or documents, so

I'm assuming that if the bank statement is

fine, then everything else should be fine,

because if there were other problems,

then they would have said, can you also

send blah blah blah. I think everything

else was fine. They just wanted proof of

insurance, which I got. They wanted proof

of purchase of a ticket and hotel, which I

got. And I sent those to them.

Um, what else?

What if they don't accept your

application? I don't know. Why would they

not accept it? They asked

me for a bank statement with £500 with my

name and address on, so I sent that. If

they were going to reject my application

for something else, they would have

rejected it already, wouldn't they?

Some people were saying, oh, Daniel

doesn't know that you don't need a visa to

go into Thailand. He's lying, blah blah

blah. Why would I lie about getting a

visa? You don't need a visa to

go to Thailand for 30 days. If you're just

going for 30 days, then yeah, you can just

enter without a visa, but I want to stay

for longer than 30 days. I want to stay

for 90 days if possible. So I want to get

a good feeling of what it's like to live

there. So I have some experiences and I

get a good idea of what it's like to be in

that country. 30 days is just kind of

short and I need more, more time,

I guess, because I'm a bit slow.

It usually takes me a few weeks to you

know, get used to the new country and

settle in and get used to my new

environment. And if I'm

serious about being with this girl, then I

don't want to be with her for only 30

days. I want to be with her for like 90

days, which is— I think 90 days is a good

period of time.

So to get 90 days, you need to apply for

this tourist visa, which gives you 60

days, and then you can extend it another

30 days in Thailand.

You know, in order to refresh your 30-day

visa, all you need to do is cross the

border and go to Vietnam for one day.

Yeah, but I can't keep doing that, can I?

They're going to catch on to it and I

might get in trouble.

I don't really want to have to keep going

in and out of the country. That looks

suspicious.

It's a bit annoying because Korea and

Japan, they just let you in for 90 days,

no questions asked. But Thailand,

I don't know, seems like they're a bit

stricter.

There's also something a bit worrying is

when you go onto the website There's a big

warning sign now saying that the tourist

visa program is ending on the 30th

of September. I hope I get my visa before

it ends. I don't know why they're ending

the program. Either there's too

many foreigners trying to, trying to apply

for it, or there's not enough and not

enough people are showing interest in

going there for 90 days. I don't know why

they're ending the program.

Hopefully I get it because I've already

paid the £60 for it and it would kind of

suck if I can only go for 30 days. The

Thai girl is going to be disappointed if I

say to her I'm only allowed to stay 30

days. I don't know if there's, there's

another way to stay longer, longer than 30

days.

Maybe I can apply for a school or

something, but I don't really want to

apply for a school because then I have to

go to the school and schools are kind of

expensive sometimes. Is the girl of legal

age? Yeah, she's 35 or 36.

She's perfect age for marriage and

They say women in their mid-thirties or

early thirties, that's when they are the

horniest and the loneliest.

And they just, you know, they kind of

lower their standards at that age because

they realize that they're starting to get

old, they're starting to lose their looks,

and they don't have the luxury of being

picky anymore. Come on, you're nearly 40.

I think I look not bad.

Sure, I'm not like an 8 out of 10. I'm not

like a white alpha Chad. But come on,

you're 35. Your, your clock is ticking.

I'm here for you. Let's get it on. This is

where I play. This is where I play my

grade A game. Sure, maybe I'm not in the

clubs picking up the 20-year-olds, but

when it comes to mid-30 MILFs,

I get in there with the marriage. And then

Is that my mum?

Have you had dinner yet? Yeah, I'm

streaming now.

You don't even know her name? Okay,

I don't know her name because I forgot.

What it was when she told me the first

time, and I haven't had the courage to ask

again. I feel like if I ask her now what

her name is, she's going to be really

upset. I don't think she would ask me if I

know her name. That has never come up

before, ever.

No girl has ever questioned me if I know

her name or not, and I never use their

names anyway. So hopefully it's not a

She said, have you eaten dinner yet? I

said, yeah, I'm streaming. She said, not

yet. What? What do you mean not yet?

Not yet what?

You know this is not going to go well. I

think it could go very well. I think I'm

gonna get there and she's gonna feel

attracted to me because most women do feel

attracted to me. When I meet them. I have

a very high success rate when it comes to

meeting women online and then securing the

bag. We had single mother Japanese woman,

had Tomoko. We had— who

else was there? I don't know. There were a

few others that I met on dating sites,

and I think I look more attractive than

she does. So I just gotta go there, gotta

smile, gotta be nice, gotta be kind.

Mustn't let my YouTuber personality creep

out. And yeah, it should be easy.

There's a bit of a language barrier

because her English is bad, which is kind

of helpful because it means we don't have

to have complex conversations. We can just

keep it simple. Hopefully she's bubbly and

easy to make laugh and we can just laugh

at silly things.

I'm a bit worried because like I talked

about before, I think I talked about it

last stream, something weird did happen

where this random woman messaged me

sending me a picture of a picture that

I've only sent the Thai girl, and then she

said she found the picture on Facebook.

So I don't know how this picture that I

only sent to the Thai girl found its way

onto Facebook. I asked her and she said

she doesn't know, she didn't upload it

anywhere. Sounds a bit suspicious, but I

can't really keep questioning her because

it's not really going to prove anything.

She's not going to tell me if she doesn't

want to tell me. And it's obvious that she

has to have uploaded it somewhere. How

else would that picture get onto Facebook?

It doesn't make any sense, but I just let

it go because she— unless

she's a really good actress, she seems

very, you know, excited to meet me still.

So I don't know if I should just put that

to the back of my mind. It's a bit of a

red flag.

A bit worried about that, to be honest.

If it wasn't for that incident, I would be

feeling 89% confident. But I just— I don't

know what to think of that. This random

woman said to me she found the picture on

Facebook from her Facebook friend, and

then she kept saying that I'm not him and

that she knows this guy. She didn't tell

me. I said, what do you mean you know this

guy? And she wouldn't tell me.

Have I seen her on video call? Yeah,

we've done video calls, video chats, sent

videos to each other. She's showed me lots

of pictures and stuff,

and she sent me some very unflattering

pictures too. Some women do this weird

thing. Where first they'll send attractive

looking pictures and then you compliment

them a lot. You say stuff like, oh,

you're really pretty, I think you're cute.

But then they start feeling really

insecure because they think, oh, well,

what if you— how would you react when you

see me in real life and I'm not like that?

And then she started sending me loads of

pictures, like really bad looking

pictures, weird lighting, really weird

angles, and really close up. Pictures.

They look pretty bad, but anyone would

look really bad if they took pictures like

that. It's like, like that.

I don't know why some girl— the Taiwanese

girl did the same thing as well. It's like

they're trying to show you how ugly they

can look, and then if you're still okay

with that, then they feel a bit at ease.

So I said, yeah, I still think you look

fine. I said, I like you because of your

personality, blah blah blah. You just

gotta tell them what they want to hear.

It's kind of hard to tell what she

actually looks like. I'd say most of the

pictures are consistent and she looks

fine. It's just I don't want to nitpick

her facial features. That's, that's what

2018 Daniel would have done. But, you

know, I changed and became a better

person. Not that anyone cares anymore.

It's just so annoying, you know. I try to

improve as a person and people don't even

care. So what's the fucking point?

I should have just not even bothered

trying to become a better person. Fucking

idiots.

That's what I hate

about people. Anyway, I don't want to get

into that. Just so pissed off that

I get criticized and insulted for years

for doing certain things, and then when I

try and stop doing them, people don't care

anymore. Might as well not have bothered.

Will she let you film videos with her?

She is always filming videos herself. She

sends me a lot of short videos of her and

her friends, which is kind of weird.

It's like she'd be driving with a friend

going to like a health thing,

skin doctor or something, and then she

would just be filming on her phone. She

will send me like a 20-second clip.

So I don't think she would think it's

weird if I whipped out my GoPro and filmed

a bit because I'm new in Thailand, I'm a

tourist. I can say I'm sending it to my

mum and my sister.

So I think, you know, even with the

Japanese single mother, I vlogged

everything we did together. And she never

even questioned me, like, why are you

filming everything? Are you a vlogger?

She just thought, okay, he just takes a

lot of videos. I don't think people think

it's that weird if you just take a lot of

videos. It doesn't necessarily mean you're

a YouTuber. So I think I could vlog quite

a lot of it. I'm going to try to. It's

just I don't know if I want to show her

face or not. I mean,

it's more likely than not that this is not

going to end well. And it's just going to

be like a short-term thing, if anything.

So I might as well just vlog it and not

care about, you know, whose face gets seen

or who gets revealed. I don't know. It's

hard to tell right now what I want to do.

I kind of want to do what I did with

Chihiro and, you know, slowly building

up a bit of a storyline,

episodical video series of our

relationship. And then slowly tease out

the personality of my Thai girlfriend.

That's if my cover doesn't get blown.

And hopefully if I get far enough in this

mission, I'll get to a point where I do a

livestream with her and we do like Q&A.

And I don't know, that might be pushing it

a bit too far.

If you don't believe it's going to be long

term, why even pursue her? Because I

haven't had a girlfriend since 2 years

ago. I haven't had regular sex since Mila,

and I'm a bit, you know, bored. And I'm

ready to have regular sex and a

relationship where I have to put in some

effort paying her attention. And I want to

go to Thailand and see what it's like

there. Because if I like Thailand, then I

can add it to my rotation of countries

when Japan reopens, because I've been

looking for a new country to add into my

rotation. I call it the— what's it

called? The Holy Trinity, the trifecta.

So I got Japan as my number 1, Korea as my

number 2. I need a 3rd country to make the

rotation good, and Thailand could be a

good a good nominee.

So I do 6 months Japan, a few months

Korea, 1 month Thailand, I guess, because

I can't be bothered doing this visa thing

every single time. And then I spend a few

months back home in England to save up

some money again, spend some time at home,

maybe Christmas as well.

I want to split my time up over different

countries because being back home

is nice and everything. It's cozy, it's

cheap, it's comfy and relaxing, but it's

kind of boring. It's really hard to meet

girls. It's hard to, you know, get you

know what, and it's hard to meet people.

Dating in England really sucks. What are

you going to do on dates here in England?

You go to the zoo and you go to a castle.

You go to like a park and walk around.

Maybe you go to fish and chips. There is

nothing to do in England. Me and

my Thai girl, we've been planning our trip

and there's so many things in Thailand.

Go to Phuket Island, which is really nice,

has really nice beaches. There's Pattaya,

which has like all the Crazy stuff. And

then there's Bangkok. It's got loads of

stuff there, like sky bars

and sky things and temples and stuff

like that. England's so boring for

dating. I just honestly ran out of ideas

for me and that English girl to go on

dates to. And she kept asking me, what are

we going to do this week? What are we

going to do this week? And I had no idea.

We've already been to every place in Kent.

And that was just castles and parks and a

couple of zoos.

I feel like England is not great for

dating. It's really tough. I don't know

where to go. There's, there's one thing in

London I would like to go to. It's the

battleship. I think it's the HMS Belfast.

You can go onto it and you can go down to

the lower decks and stuff. It's like a

museum. I nearly went on to it with the

Polish woman back in April. I went

on a date with a Polish woman, met her 2

times, and the second time we walked past

HMS Belfast and I was really interested in

it. We went in, asked about tickets, and

she just wasn't interested at all. So we

walked back out. I would have liked to

have gone on it. I like military stuff and

battleships. So I wouldn't mind going to

that Belfast thing.

The fact you just travel for sex will

always be funny to me. It's— but it's not

just for sex. It's for relationship,

possibility of love, some companionship,

intimacy, experience living in a different

country. Experience being

in a relationship with someone new. It's a

whole bunch of different things, and sex

is just like the cream on top.

I thought maybe I could do IRL streaming

in Bangkok if it doesn't work out,

because if it doesn't work out, I'm going

to have to get myself my own place.

And I'll end up doing a lot of streaming,

I guess, because I'm going to be bored and

lonely. I wonder if it's safe to

do some IRL streams. That's if I feel up

to it. It's just I kind of lost a lot of

confidence in public when it comes to

filming, and it's probably going to be

really noisy and full of traffic and full

of people. I don't know if it would be

great for streaming.

I did a lot of streaming in Japan before I

moved in with Chihiro, and I felt fine and

I thought it was fun. And then for some

reason I completely lost my confidence.

It might help push me a little bit outside

my comfort zone, so I

might get a SIM card in Thailand.

I just don't know what I would do apart

from just walking around aimlessly around

the streets. I don't want to go near the

red light stuff because if they find out

I'm filming, they might get angry.

Also, I could drive, couldn't I? If I get

an international driving license. I'm

still not sure if I should get one. I have

to go to the post office. You can't apply

for it online for some reason. You have to

go into a post office and then pay £5 and

then they hand it to you over the counter.

Why can't they just make it online? So now

I have to go all the way to the post

office. Do you think it's a good idea to

get one? It would be funny if I rented

a car. I'd be so scared to drive in

Thailand. I heard it's one of the most

dangerous countries for driving. And she

drives as well. And she says stuff that

makes me a bit worried. She says stuff

like she's been in 2 car accidents. And

then she said she likes driving really

fast and she drives kind of recklessly.

And she keeps asking me, are you going to

be okay with— are you going to be worried

about my driving? I said, no, why? She

said, because I drive like a crazy person.

I guess I trust her. She's been driving

her whole life, so she's got 20

years of experience. I think it'll be

I drive like a scared old woman.

Is it Vietnam? I went

to Vietnam in 2012 with my family just

for— I think it was 10 days. It was okay.

I don't really remember it well. I

remember crossing the road was a

nightmare. Because you're not supposed to

just stand still. You're supposed to keep

walking and then the mopeds drive around

you. We went to the Mekong Delta. I

remember we did canoeing in that brown

water and then we went to— forgot

now. Such a long time. 10 years ago.

Saw my uncle. My Malaysian uncle lives

there. He's got some businesses. He owns

a massage parlor. That sounds really

shady. My uncle in his massage parlor.

Are you dating this girl already? Well,

the way we talk to each other, it's like

we're already together. She calls me

darling. She calls me baby. She says stuff

like, I miss you so much. And we, we phone

call every day for like an hour.

So it seems like she wants to be with me.

She's kind of already made up her mind.

She just wants to meet and then make sure

for real that she does like me.

And she said she would stay in the hotel

with me as well, obviously,

if she likes me. So she asked me to get

single beds. But it sounds like— it's just

like the subtle way she says stuff. It

sounds like she wants me to get a double

bed, but she's too shy to say it that

directly. So I'm going to book this hotel.

It's a family room. It's got a double bed

and 2 single beds. I can't believe how

cheap the hotels in Thailand are. You can

get like an executive studio room with a

kitchen and a lounge and 2 bedrooms. And

it's only like £200 or £250 for 2 nights.

I can't, I can't believe it. Just a

regular hotel is like £30, £20 in the

middle of Bangkok. So I'm going to splash

out for the first few nights, get a nice

big place just in case, you know, I get

disappointed. And I feel fed up because

I'm not getting any sex that night and it

didn't work out. At least I have a nice,

nice hotel I can do some sad

and lonely streams in whilst I plan my

next move to, to be, to live alone.

Do I have anyone to consult if I'm lost in

Thailand? I had a few viewers message me

Saying that they live in Thailand, we

could meet up. Um, but I should have

internet because I'm going to get a SIM

card at the airport.

Should be fine. And I've memorized how to

get to the place anyway, so I don't really

need internet. It's pretty

straightforward, I think.

Wouldn't it be better to buy the sex? No,

I want real sex, not fake sex. And I

don't want condoms. Hopefully she won't

make me use condoms. I hate condom sex. I

want regular daily sex multiple times with

a woman who actually likes me and someone

I feel comfortable with. Hookers are just—

it's too expensive to do regularly,

and they usually make it pretty obvious

that they don't like you. I hate it when

hookers tell you to hurry up. It's so

annoying. Like, I'm trying to enjoy it.

I've paid for an hour. It's only been 10

minutes and they're saying stuff like,

aren't you finished yet? Are you going to

come yet? And then I'm like, oh, fine, I

guess I can come.

I hate being told to come and told to

finish and they look like, oh, they're

just waiting for me to hurry up. It ruins

the whole thing. It's so unarousing.

I want genuine feelings. I want a woman to

actually want to have sex. So it kind of

ruins the whole thing when you have to pay

for it and you know it's all fake.

Plus, I want girlfriend experience, which

you don't really get with a hooker.

You pay 60 for 60 minutes. Yeah,

but they don't care. Once I paid for 6

hours and she left after— no, I paid for 4

hours. She left after 2. And I was like,

where are you going? I paid for 4 hours.

It's only been 2. Where are you going?

You're supposed to stay so I can recharge

and we can do it again. And then

she didn't even cuddle me after we did it.

She was just on her phone the whole time.

It was so irritating.

So I'm hoping that I actually get a

relationship. From her and we can go

traveling too, go to different places and

have an interesting time. Otherwise it's

going to be kind of boring. I'm just going

to be stuck alone in some apartment again

like I always do. Like stupid Scotland,

stupid Manchester. I go there thinking

I'm going to meet a girl and then end up

just alone because she ghosts me or

something happens. And then I end up just

sitting in an apartment getting more and

more depressed because I'm so alone and

I'm paying all this money and I'm not

feeling great. And then my skin gets

really bad and then it's like this death

spiral of losing confidence.

I felt so miserable in Manchester. I

looked at my older videos there and my

face just looks so like dead inside.

At least my recent videos, my skin looks a

lot better and I don't seem

so miserable now I'm back home.

It was really tough in Manchester. I

didn't know what to do. I wasn't getting

many dates. I just wasn't feeling

confident with myself.

It was, it was a pretty bad situation.

But it seems like most people agree that

Manchester is not a very nice city, so

maybe it's not just me. Most people say

Manchester is kind of miserable and

dull. It is. It's pretty boring there.

People who say Manchester is great,

they're like those music druggie type

people who do weed and they like indie

bands and they like going to these bars.

I'm not really interested in that stuff.

Where's my money coming from? I already

said 100 times, where do you think my

money's coming from?

YouTube. If I got a job, I would tell you.

I'd talk about it. But I'm never going to

get a job. Even if my YouTube channel only

makes $200 a month, then I'll just wait

longer in England, saving up my $200 a

month until I can afford to go traveling

again.

Japan is open? It's not open.

You've got to book your holiday. I hate

calling it a holiday. I don't go on

holiday. I move to places.

I move there and I live there and I

experience what the country has to offer.

Holiday is such a lame word. It's like you

just go there for 2 weeks and you sit on

the beach and you stay in a hotel and

you have food and you see some temples and

you go home. That's what a holiday is. I

go there and I live there and I sometimes

get married and I have sex.

That's called a, a real

overseas adventure, not a holiday.

Is YouTube still sustainable? What do you

mean, is it sustainable? How, how would it

not be sustainable? My videos don't

cost any money to make.

I don't have to be doing anything in

particular to make the videos. I literally

make them in my bedroom. It takes me like

half an hour. If it was

not sustainable, then it would be like I'm

spending all this money to make content

and I'm not making the money back and it's

actually costing me to make the videos.

Then that would be unsustainable. But my

videos have always been extremely low

effort. Doesn't cost me anything to do

apart from the sex doll stuff.

There's never ever going to be a reason

why I cannot make a video.

It isn't sustainable if you're getting

$200 a month. Yes, it is, because I'm

making $200 a month. That's the dumbest

statement I've ever heard. If I'm making

money, how is that not sustainable?

You know, I have no expenses, right?

He means, are you getting enough income to

support your lifestyle? Well, then he

should word it like that. My lifestyle

doesn't cost any money.

The only thing I have to pay for is like

the gadgets I splurge out on.

Bills? You think I pay bills?

Oh, that's so funny. I give my mum

a couple hundred pounds like every few

but I don't have rent. I don't pay for

bills. I do pay for food now and then. I

actually got my Tesco shopping today. I

spent £60. I got some steaks, I got some

pork strips, I got some yogurts, coffee,

and vegetables. Because my mum doesn't go

shopping a lot. My mum doesn't eat proper

food for some reason. It's like she'll

just come home and have a packet of

crisps. I don't understand why my

mum or sister don't eat properly. So the

fridge gets empty I just go on Tesco and I

order my own stuff. You don't

pay a phone bill? Yeah, my phone bill's

£30, and then

I pay YouTube Premium, like £7, and then I

pay— what else? I don't know, I pay for a

lot of stuff recently, like Xbox Game

Pass.

But I still make like £1,000 a month.

£1,000, sometimes £1,500 if it's a good

month.

But I don't see why I'd

stop making videos.

Unless the entire channel got demonetized,

then I'd probably not bother anymore.

Because if the video is not going to make

any money and then the channel makes like

$1 a month because everything's

demonetized now, then I probably wouldn't

bother. I don't know. It depends if I'm

really bored and I feel like streaming

anyway, just for fun.

Maybe I go over to Twitch.

Did I give up on investing? No, I still

got stocks. It's just they don't go

up. The stupid market doesn't go up

anymore, and the stuff I have just stays

flat the whole time, so I'm kind of bored

with it. I do an odd trade here and there.

But it only makes like £100 because I'm

not willing to put a lot of money into it.

I just put like, if I have a trade idea,

I'd put like £2,000 and then take profits

at 5 or 10%. I don't want

to risk it anymore. The days of getting

like 40% gain in a weekend

over a weekend, those days are over.

It's sad to have to admit it,

but I remember back in 2020 you could put

a couple thousand pounds in almost

anything. Next week it'll be up 25%,

40%. Those days are over.

It's finished.

Bear market. Come back in a few years.

So I'm just kind of over that now.

I lost a lot of money. It is what it is.

It sucks. I'm down like £12,000.

I would like the money back, to be honest.

But even if I had the money, it's like

even if someone said, here, Daniel, sorry

you lost all that money. I'm rich. You can

have £12K. And then I'll be like, oh

great, I got my money back. But then it's

not really going to change anything at the

end of the day, is it? Be nice to have,

but it's not going to be life-changing.

I feel so stupid that I lost so much

money. I thought, yeah, you hear a lot of

horror stories. People lost their entire

life savings on stocks. What an idiot. As

if that would happen to me. And it nearly

did happen to me.

Which is

really frustrating. I was so into it. I

was so excited about stocks and then like

everything, it just fails, doesn't it?

Why move to Thailand? For what purpose?

Thinking of opening MS Paint so we can

write all this down. So number one, new

relationship prospects. Number 2, sex is

almost guaranteed. Even if it doesn't work

out with her, there's— I'll be able to

find someone else, I reckon. I've got— so

I'm banned on dating apps, as you know,

but I've got some new devices. I've got a

Steam Deck. I've got a new— I don't want

to spoil the surprise, but I've got

something exciting tomorrow coming which

will give me another new device. And the

problem with making new accounts on dating

apps is I think they device ban you. So if

they recognize the device you're rejoining

on, they can ban you pretty quickly. So

either you got to like factory reset the

entire device or just get a completely new

device. So I've got some new devices

coming that will be good for if

in case I need to get back onto dating

apps. I've got that prepared.

So hopefully I can still do dating even if

this girlfriend plan A, if she doesn't

work out, I got some backup ideas. And if

all else fails, you know, I just pay for

it. I guess I'll go for a massage or

or maybe I'll just finally break out of my

comfort zone and try talking to women at

bars and stuff. Even just saying it cracks

me up. Imagine me going to a bar and

talking to women. This is so funny. Maybe

I can pay someone to help me, like a

dating coach. Help me socialize and not be

so timid and scared of people. Give me a

bit of a nudge. Take me out to some clubs

and stuff. Teach me

how to buy some nice clothing. We go to a

nightclub. Maybe I can pay someone. Ice

Poseidon did a stream. He paid some guy

off Craigslist to be a dating coach and

help him talk to women. It was a really

weird stream. Did anyone else see it? The

dating coach looked embarrassed. He kept

saying, oh, I know people around here, as

if he's saying Don't do anything weird

because people around here know me. I

don't want you to embarrass me. He ended

up not even talking to many women.

The only women they ended up talking to

was because Ice approached them. It was

such a weird guy. Such a weird stream.

You have to record the dating coach

session. Yeah, like Ice. My secret GoPro.

I think it will just ruin any chances if

I've got a camera on me.

You talking to women IRL would yield worse

results. Maybe depends who I

go up to talk to, because if I go up to

like 8 out of 10s, obviously I'm going to

get shot down. So I've got to pick, what,

4 out of 10s maybe? You got

to know, know what level you are because I

don't know, I think I'd have no chance.

Maybe if you're really charismatic and

funny and witty, then maybe you got a

chance shooting above your own level. But

I suck at conversation so much.

So even if I'm a 4, I would have to aim

for women who are like 2s. Because I

can't. I don't know how to make

conversation. I'd be like, hey,

I'm Daniel. How are you?

What's your favorite color? I don't know

what to say.

What's that noise?

Well, maybe I'd get desperate enough and

just try going to a club or something.

Surely I could get someone if I tried hard

enough. The worst thing

is the whole dancing stuff. I can't dance.

I don't want to dance.

I feel like if I actually enjoyed dancing,

I didn't feel so nervous, then at least

I'd have a good time. But I just— I don't

know, I feel way too nervous to do

anything silly. And that's the

problem. You go to like a bar or club,

you end up getting a drink, you just sit

there not moving, just sipping your drink,

getting all depressed. Nothing's going to

happen like that.

I'll be your wingwoman in Bangkok.

I'll keep it in mind.

Would I even like the type of people that

go to clubs? I don't know. Maybe they're

also other lonely girls who don't

know what else to do. I mean, my sister

met her boy— not her current boyfriend,

but one of her exes who she dated for like

4 years. She met him at a club.

And my sister's like a, you know,

sensible, well-grounded person.

Not like a crazy sex addict or anything.

Well, not that I know.

I don't know how else. I mean, I could go

to like a language school and then meet

other people. The hardest part about

dating is you got to put yourself out

there and meet people and make friends.

It could be going to a club, or it could

be joining a class and getting to know

people, or just Living in a guesthouse and

then making friends there can even yield

But it's been such a long time since I've

had to do that. It kind of terrifies me

now, especially now I've got this internet

history. I'm always worried people are

going to find out my YouTube because all

you have to do is enter my name into

Google and it comes up. It's like when I

was doing driving lessons. The whole time

I was paranoid that the instructor knew

about my channel because he never asked me

about work. Not, not even once. We met

about probably 30 times

and we spent about 60 hours together and

not a single time he asked me, so what do

you do for a living? Or what did you used

to do? Or what kind of work Are

you into? So it's kind of fishy, but maybe

he doesn't just ask students what they do

for a living. Maybe it's rude. I don't

know. This seems like a normal question

would be, so what do you do for work? How

come you got all this money to pay for

But if he knew I did YouTube, I think he

would say something because it's kind of

an interesting, weird thing, isn't it?

But all it would take is one person who

remembers my face, or maybe they remember

my voice, and they'll be like, aren't you

the hiding in my room guy? And then he'll

tell everyone. Do you remember I told

James, the Canadian guy at the guesthouse,

that I do YouTube. And that was back when

I had about— I probably had like 4K subs

at the time, and I kept it a secret and I

only told James.

I don't think I told him not to tell

anyone, but he ended up telling someone

because everyone in the guest house ended

up finding out about it, but none of them

None of them told me or talked to me about

it. They just, they pretended that they

didn't know. It was really weird. Like,

there was this ginger English guy teaching

English and he was at the guesthouse. I

tried talking to him. I said, so what have

you been up to today? And he said, oh,

just hiding in my room. And then he had

like a smirk and then he walked off.

So I don't know if he hated me Because he

didn't even— he didn't talk to me again

after that. So he had no interest in

talking to me. And then he just kind of

had like a sarky comment. So I don't think

he likes me. And then back then my content

wasn't even that bad. That was before all

the cheating stuff. I don't know,

actually, my content was pretty weird back

then too. Didn't I have videos saying

stuff like I came inside my Tinder

date? In a karaoke and I touched