i made a massive mistake...

Um, testing.

Um, testing.

Hair's looking good.

How am I doing today? Um, extremely bored.

Fuck. Extremely bored.

I don't know what to do. How about you?

Hmm,

am I going home to save 1K?

No. Why would I go

home to save just 1K? Oh wow,

Crypt Cube. Daddy, I missed you. Please

fuck my pussy. Thanks so much.

Missed you.

Yeah, so someone wrote a comment on my

last stream saying that he bets or he

predicts that I will be back home at my

mum's place. In July when the lease here

ends. No,

that's not happening.

I will never let that happen. I will be

here forever, whether a certain

someone likes it or not. Tough luck.

You're the one who dragged me out here,

so I'm gonna stay here.

It's my home now. I ain't giving

up. In fact,

I have more determination than ever before

to get the bag and not have

to abandon my home.

Yep, I've got 3 months to become a pro day

trader and then I won't even need a job

I've got a solid plan so that last

week's, uh, or this week's disasters never

It's kind of ironic that, um, I mean,

it's kind of ironic that I was getting

lazy and I was on the verge of giving up,

and now I've got this fire where I'm like,

I'm not giving up.

I don't care what needs to be done. I'm

gonna pay the rent, I'm gonna pay the

and I'm gonna stay here forever.

And if you don't like it, that's tough.

Yeah, so I went to work today, picked up

about 85 parcels. I left behind about

probably 15-ish because I couldn't fit it

in. It took me about an hour and a half to

deliver 84 parcels. I delivered them so

quickly I missed my time slots, so I'm

gonna get a negative rating. But I'm not—

I was like half an hour early. I'm not

sitting outside the customer's house for

half an hour. Just because the stupid app

says delivery expected between blah blah

blah, I don't care. It's delivered it

anyway. I'm so fast the app can't

keep up with me. The app's like, uh,

estimated delivery for these 10 parcels

between this hour and that hour, and I've

like, I've delivered them already in 20

minutes. I'm like I

was flying today. I was like in the car,

zoom, out of the car, in the car, out of

the car. Every single address,

I just flew there.

It was so easy.

I'm getting so good at the job. The

problem is I'm too good at it now and I'm

too quick. Which means I'm delivering

stuff way earlier than I should be

delivering it.

Yeah, I don't know how my legs aren't

getting toned from all the getting in and

out of the car. Thought early delivery is

better. Well, the problem is the app kind

of creates a route for you and then it,

it creates like time slots and then it

tells the customer that I'll be there

between this hour and that hour. So it's

supposed to be so that the customer knows

when to be in to get the parcel, but it's

not like I knock on the door anyway, so if

they're in or out, I don't care. I'm just

going to dump it at the doorstep.

But I end up arriving way earlier than the

app says I'm going to arrive because I'm

just so damn quick. I'm really

also just not losing parcels in the car

anymore because I'm getting better at

organizing it.

It's just funny now because I remember my

first or second day when I was new to the

area and I was scared to go up certain

roads, and now I'm just so confident.

It's crazy how you just do it over and

over again, you just become really

confident at doing something.

I was having a coffee because I was

feeling really low energy, so I thought

I'd have a coffee. So I could be a bit

more energetic.

Customers must be surprised when they turn

up earlier than expected. Oh yeah, I've

had a few customers see me and then

they're like, oh, I wasn't expecting this

I delivered 2 bags of heavy compost to

this old lady. I asked her if she needed

any help. She said she'll be

okay, but thanks for the offer. Hopefully

she gives me a good review. She looked

like this frail old lady. I don't know how

she's going to manage all those bags of

compost.

When are we getting Cooking with Daniel

videos? You get them in the stream. I cook

every stream.

Sister makes $30K a year. Uh,

actually, I probably also make about $30K

a year. I make— I'm

thinking I make about— hmm,

yeah, I reckon I can make about $30K a

year if I make about $2,500 a month.

I just need to keep the OnlyFans going.

The only problem is I've had to sacrifice

a lot to get to this point and

live a life of loneliness and solitude.

And if I try to meet people, they're

gonna— I'm gonna have to either lie to

them or they're just gonna think I'm a

weirdo and then block me.

Unusually considerate of you.

Why did I do that? Uh, cuz I'm not a

complete dick. If I think— if it's like a

disabled customer, cuz I know a lot of

the— some of the houses I deliver to are

disabled people. Because I've seen them.

So I feel bad if I just dump this big

heavy box and they've got crutches.

Also, I'm worried they might give me a

negative review if I don't offer help.

There have been a few times when I helped

carry it inside of the house.

I remember when I was doing Amazon, I did

the Morrison deliveries and they were like

heavy bags of groceries, usually to old

people. And quite often they would ask you

to just bring it into the kitchen. I felt

a bit scared, to be honest. Like they

could have locked me in there. And also

the houses smell really bad. Oh my God.

So many of these houses stunk so badly.

Like, I don't know, cat piss or dogs or

something. It's like they never clean.

Smells so bad.

How many days until you move back to your

mum's place? Nope, not leaving. I checked

the contract today. It basically says an

initial lease of 4 months and 27 days,

followed by a monthly rolling basis to be

continued until either the tenant

or the landlord decides to terminate it.

So as long as I want to live here and he

wants me to live here, then it's never

ending.

Also, I had a look on Rightmove. There's

actually a house up for rent in the

village that I deliver to. So those,

those people joking to me about how I

should just move into the village, maybe

that's a foreshadowing There's a, there's

a house I deliver to behind the pub,

although I wouldn't really want to live

there because it wouldn't be very quiet,

would it? Also, I can't charge my car.

Well, it is a lot cheaper. It's about £750

a month. I wouldn't— I mean,

it looks okay on the inside. It looks kind

of like an old house with a fireplace.

It's got a fireplace and central heating.

Um, but yeah, I mean, I'd save £150

on rent a month, but then I can't charge

at home. So where am I going to charge?

I don't know. Having an electric car is

really inconvenient because it basically

means that you can only— you'd only want

to live in a place where you can charge

the car. Otherwise, what's the point?

There's no point having an electric car if

you can't charge it. If you go to the

Superchargers, it is so expensive you

might as well just buy petrol. But then,

I don't know, I don't feel confident

having a petrol car because you gotta have

all stuff like oil and petrol and, I don't

know, transmission oil.

It just sounds so much more complicated

than just having a battery that spins a

motor.

Why doesn't the company give you a

delivery van? Yeah, because you're

supposed to use your own vehicle.

They did keep asking me, am I going to get

a van? I don't know, because I might get

fired in a month. So if I get a van and

get fired, then what am I going to do? I

could live in the van, I guess. Worst case

scenario.

You're leaving? Who? I'm not leaving.

I'm staying here. I like it here.

I'm actually enjoying making money and

having a house and having my own space.

It's actually quite nice. No one

bothers me. I can just do what I want. I

talk about what I want. I stream.

It's like complete freedom. It's nice.

Why do you think you'll be a professional

trader when you lose every trade? I don't

lose every trade. It's just that the

trades I lose become really big losses

because I don't want to

take the L, so I keep holding it until it

becomes a massive loss, which is really

stupid. And, uh,

everyone's got to have a dream, you know.

You've got to have some kind of greater

ambition.

I want to be a trader.

Just like Manchester, you're playing

adult, will go back broke to your mummy.

Um, I think this time's very different to

Manchester because I have a car and I can

drive and I can get work.

Also, I'm more willing to work now

compared to Manchester when I was still in

the whole YouTuber phase.

Work double the hours in warm weather.

Hmm. I just don't really want to work

double the hours.

I feel like 2 hours is enough.

Also, I'm not being offered any more work.

So if I wanted more work, I would have to

keep nagging him about it.

I still— I don't know what happened to all

the talk that he did in the beginning

where he was saying, I'm going to try and

get you this route that's nearer to your

house. He kept saying that and then he

just stopped saying anything about it. So

who's doing it now? Did he give it to

someone else? I feel like he gave his mate

that route instead of giving it to me. I

feel like that other guy took it, which is

fine. I don't really want that route

because it's in the town and I don't want

to deliver in the town. The town's

rubbish. I like my village. My village is

really nice. I have delivered in the town

before and some of

it's quite tricky to— because there's

nowhere to park. So I'd rather not have

to deliver in the town. I like my village.

I have delivered in other villages to

cover other people, and I didn't like

them. I think my village is the best.

So yeah, I make about £30 to £40 maybe.

If I do 100 parcels, I make about £48.

So I think £30 to £45 a day is

not too bad for a couple hours of work.

So say average is like £30, £37 times

6 times 4, it's about £900 a month.

It will cover the rent and then the rest

of it will be YouTube money and OnlyFans.

Do I have a uniform? No.

Nope. No uniform.

There is heating. What do you mean no

heating? There's plug-in radiators.

I don't see how that's any different to

central heating. It's just slightly more

expensive. What is my job?

I deliver parcels.

God, the glasses are too tight on my head.

Yeah, I was looking at other rental places

and it is hard to find a place that has a

driveway. It really limits your

choices.

Do I regret not getting a degree? No,

because people who got degrees have like

£50K student loan. My sister has been

paying thousands of pounds every year plus

I don't know, 30% interest or something.

She pays like $2,800 a year on student

loan repayments. And she said she wanted

to just pay it all at once so she doesn't

have to pay the interest anymore. But that

would be $15K, which is all of her

savings. And then she was like, what was

the point of working so hard?

Because at the end of— after all that,

she's got no savings if she pays back all

the student loan. And then she— I don't

even know if her degree was useful to get

her the job she has now. Probably not.

Have I ever gotten a gift from your

customers? No. But when I was delivering

for Amazon, the Amazon customers were way

more generous. They would give you tips as

well. When I delivered for Morrison's,

they'd give you like a £5 note. Once I got

a £10 note.

No one gives you anything here.

Yeah, I do want to do something new. I

have been thinking hard. I have a few

criteria. So I want to do something new.

Uh, it has to make money.

It has to result in me being able to do

something tangible, like I

can show.

So because I have this skill, I can now do

this and I can do that. Like driving is

very obvious because now I've got a car.

I want something similar to driving.

What do you think it could be? AI

suggested carpentry, but I don't know.

It's like something, a new skill that

could improve my chances of making money.

What could it be?

Like something that requires training,

but not, not like a full-time thing that

lasts for years. Just like a short

training course that ends up with me being

able to do something.

Maybe like a truck driver or van driving

license. Could be that.

I have been thinking Or

maybe, I don't know, apply for a cooking

job because I quite like cooking, but I

don't like being yelled at, which is what

happens when you work in a kitchen.

Work in finance because that's boring.

I think if you know enough finance to be

able to get a finance job, then you should

be just be able to make money on your own

using your finance skills. With the stock

market. Imagine being in finance and then

you still don't know how to make money off

stocks. Then what, what do you even know

how to do then?

£30 for 3 hours delivery is less than

minimum wage. Number one, I don't just

make £30. And number two, if it was only

£30, it damn hell as sure would not take 3

hours. I could deliver over 100 parcels in

3 hours. That's more like £50. So get

your numbers right. Okay.

If I was only making £30, that means I

delivered about 60 parcels. I could

deliver 60 parcels in an hour. I literally

did 100 parcels 2 days ago in under 2

hours. So that's about 50 parcels an hour.

So it's like £25 an hour.

Imagine thinking it would take me 3 hours

to deliver 60 parcels. Oh my God.

Yeah, on my first day it took me that

long. Now I can do 60 parcels in probably

an hour and 10 minutes.

They're underpaying you. I don't know if

you calculate it and divide it by the

number of hours it took you on average,

it's coming to like £15, maybe even £20 an

hour because I'm so quick now.

I literally go there and I finish loading

about— takes me half an hour. And then

from first delivery until last one takes

me probably 40

to 50 parcels per hour.

So then they would just say, oh, you're

making £20 an hour. Yeah, but I'm only

getting 2 hours of work, so UPS

driver makes $100K. Yeah, but they deliver

all day long. I don't want to deliver all

day long. I want to do 2 hours, 3 hours

max. I have done 5 to 6 hours before and

it was hell and I hated it. It was so

depressing. It was like, oh, I just

finished 100 parcels, no time to go back

and get more. Finished about 4 PM,

I think. Hated it. Like,

so tired when I got home.

Oh God, I don't know what to do tomorrow.

I think the weather's going to be okay

tomorrow. I might go to the dump. I

thought maybe I'd go somewhere again

because I really enjoyed it last Sunday.

I found this castle. It's called Tinnagull

Castle, 40 minutes away. It looks really

nice, but it's £20 to get in.

And also there's parking, but it's paid

parking and you got to pay like £5 all-day

parking. And some of them are cash only.

So it's a bit annoying trying to figure

out which car park takes card and then

what if I— where can I get cash? I've got

a £5 note, but apparently it only takes

coins, so I'm just feeling like I can't be

bothered. It does look really nice for a

day out. It's along the coastline. It's

like this really old ancient castle with

these bridges and walkways on the

coastline. It looks really cool. And then

I found another place. It's like, like

this big open national park thing.

It's called the Moors, I think. That's

free. I could do that instead.

I just don't know what I'm gonna do all

day tomorrow. I got no work, there's no

I don't want to spend money instead of

making money. That Tintagel

Castle place would have been really nice

for like a date. And then go and get some

Cornish pasties. It would be so nice to

take a girlfriend there. It's just so

irritating that the entire time I've been

here, it's been cold, raining, and

horrible. And now the weather's getting

good, but I'm alone now. And all these

nice places you could have gone to would

have been such nice places to visit with

So irritating.

Didn't go anywhere together since I got

here apart from Tesco and IKEA because

the weather was horrible. Now it's getting

nice,

so I guess I just gotta go there by myself

if I'm ever gonna go.

Just, it really sucks, you know.

I don't know, it depends on my mood

tomorrow. I mean, I could go. £20 for

tickets though, and parking's like £25.

What do you mean only 1% are making money

day trading?

Yeah, if you include all the people who

quit and gave up, how— what percentage of

people make money from day trading out of

the people who are still trading after

years and years? You can't just include

all the people who gave up.

I want to know what the percentage is of—

out of all the people who have been day

trading for 5 years or more, what

percentage are making money?

Look at your debt, hasn't gone down.

Yeah, because I've been in overdraft, so

I've been paying off the overdraft. By end

of June, I will start ending the months in

positive cash flow after expenses without

going back into overdraft.

So I think from June I can start paying

off debts because I'll finally be out of

overdraft.

You guys are really clueless about day

trading. It's actually insane.

The level of ignorance is insane.

I don't know. It's like you think you know

about day trading, but then you really

don't know anything about it. You only

know about the memes and like the

headlines and you think it's like poker,

like someone trying to become a

professional poker player when it's not.

It's not about hitting a jackpot or

becoming a millionaire overnight.

Trading and day trading is not the same.

I lost $10K by investing, not day trading.

Yeah, obviously I know more about it than

you guys know. Because I spend all day

researching and reading about it.

No, investing is risky when you

invest in stocks that should be traded

and not invested in.

You know what the funny thing is? I

invested in risky stocks like meme stocks,

but then I day traded blue chip companies

and lost money. I was, I was

day trading proper companies like, well,

not blue chips, but like, you know,

well-established companies like PayPal and

Pinterest and Netflix and lost money. And

then I was long-term investing in meme

stocks and lost money.

Which equities am I interested in at the

moment? So I've been thinking. I might

just stop investing in stocks like

companies and I just swing trade the 3x

leverage long and short SPY ETF. What do

you think?

I think I just only stick to the SPY 3x

leverage ETFs, long and short.

Instead of like, oh, Netflix, Tesla,

whatever.

I wish I just did that. I didn't even know

there was a 3x SPY leverage.

That way you don't have to worry about

picking individual stocks.

I can't wait until Monday. I gotta make

back 100% of the money that I lost. I need

100% gains. Can I explain what the mistake

was? Uh, no, you got to pay for

No, I think there's just one big problem

that I need to overcome. I think stuff

like strategies and, uh, entry models,

all that It's not as important as risk

management. I just, I need to learn to

stop moving the stop loss. That's the

main, my main problem is I just need to

take the L instead of holding on to it and

it becomes a bigger L.

I've got this stupid pimple here.

It really picks up when the light hits it.

Am I good at taking profit? I take profit

too quickly and then I leave my stop loss

in too long. That's the problem.

But really, my main concern right now is

if I can easily get another place to rent

in case, in case for some reason I have to

leave this place. That's, that's my main

worry.

So yeah,

I need, I need more money. To boost my

income so I can pass the income check.

That is, I think that, I mean, the only

risk of me not being able to stay here is

if I lose my, my house.

My job and my house are probably the most

important bits. I mean, if I lose the job,

Then I could just move away, can't I?

Like somewhere north,

further towards Oakhampton.

I don't think I'd want to move, move

further south towards Plymouth, and I

wouldn't really want to move further west,

so I'd want to stay here or move maybe

northeastwards.

If I was going to look for a new place.

Rent prices in the area you deliver to,

they're like $700 or $800 a month, but

they're much, much older looking houses

and very, very crammed, like crammed

terrace houses.

What is mum debt about? I didn't pay my

taxes properly when my YouTube channel was

really good in 2018, and then they found

out, gave me a massive tax penalty, which

my mum helps me pay. And then my mum also

helped me pay off my car because I bought

it on PCP and it was costing loads in

interest. So she let me borrow the money

and I just paid it all off. And now it's

my car.

Don't get

how you make 30 or more deliveries per

hour. Yeah, cuz they're bunched really

closely together. You have like 10

deliveries on the same road,

like house 21, house 25, and 27. 7 parcels

to those houses. One house will get like 5

parcels maybe. And the village is very

condensed, so there's like little

streets here and a street here, street

here, and then I just go around all of

them quickly. And I'm pretty

quick getting in and out of the car, and

It's an automatic electric, so I don't

have to worry about, you know, gears and

clutch and finding biting point. I just

get in, I put the foot down, and I go.

I'm like, in, pedal down, I just go

straight away. No faffing about.

Yeah, so I think from— I've

made predictions. I reckon end of August

I will— I'll have £4,000 after expenses.

So it'll be interesting to see how much I

actually have at the end of each month and

see if my predictions were close. They

would— they should be accurate as long as

there's no unexpected expenses.

Although there will be 2 big expenses

coming up in November and January. So

November— I mean, also May. So May 1st,

you got 6 months of council tax. In

November, 6 months of council tax again.

And then January, income tax of

£700. So it's like £700 November, £700 in

January, £700 in May. I'm not really sure

what other big expenses there could be

unless something breaks and I have to

replace it, like the washing machine

breaks or, I don't know, the fridge

breaks, then I'll have to get them

replaced. You just never know when

something's going to break, do you? And

you have to get it replaced. You can't

really live without these things.

That's why I just got to try and hoard as

much money as I can and not

buy unnecessary stuff.

So basically I just have to try and endure

the boredom, not spend it on anything I

don't need. It's gonna be tough. But it's

going to be good practice for

self-control, which as a day trader, very

important to have self-control. The

problem with day trading is you really

want to get into another trade and then

you get bored because nothing's happening,

so you just kind of jump willy-nilly into

a trade and you have to kind of resist

that and be very cautious about entering a

trade. My problem is I'm way too eager to

jump into a trade, and when I'm not in a

trade, I feel like feel like I'm doing

something wrong. I feel like, why am I not

in a trade? The market's open. Why am I

doing— So I have

these massive problems that I need to

overcome before I can become a profitable

day trader. I'm aware of the problems.

It's just actually doing something about

it is a different story.

But I think being aware of the problems is

a good first step.

Isn't Daniel now done with girls?

I don't know. I'm still hurting from the

previous relationship, so I don't think

it's good to start looking for a new one.

It's like, I don't think it was a great

idea jumping straight from Faster to a new

relationship because I didn't have

time to process it mentally. And I think

the Faster breakup did affect the next

relationship because I wasn't really fully

moved on yet. And maybe that caused

problems, made me second think things,

or whether I thought maybe, do I really

want to be with this person? I don't know.

I think I want to wait at least a year,

maybe.

It's just so boring having to wait.

I just wish I could fast forward time like

in The Sims.

I think I just have to sit here and not

doing anything to waste money is my best

bet. So many things I

want though, like a sofa for the patio,

a little table, a TV,

maybe an Xbox, fish tank. I just

have to be patient. Maybe next year.

I just don't know what to do when I'm not

at work and there's no stocks and I'm not

streaming. I just sit on my sofa and I

just stare out the window. Maybe do some

cleaning, prepare some food.

Maybe I should play Rainbow Six or

something. I don't know, to kill the time.

Yeah, I watched a few videos about

trading, but they don't really help.

I need, I need help for self-control.

I can't, I can't control my fiddly

fingers.

What do I think about Crypt Cutie?

Uh, I'm not really— I don't know,

I'm not looking to,

um, get involved with anyone at the

My strategy for Monday— well,

I have to see how the short plays out.

I might have to set a stop loss in case

the market rips and then just give up on

that short idea. I think there's a good

chance the market does have a bit of a

pullback. But it's just so bullish.

Everyone's coming out saying, oh, the

market bottomed. Oh,

bullish signals. So if it does retrace, I

want to get out of this short. I'm not

going to hold on to it too long if I make

Do I feel like I'm repeating the same day

over and over? Yeah, I do. That's why I

wanted a girlfriend, because it breaks up

the monotony. And then you have like real

life interaction with someone and you can

like go and do something, go to the garden

center or something. It breaks up the

monotony of day-to-day grind,

which is why I really wanted a girlfriend.

But I can't prioritize having a girlfriend

over having money. It's just not going to

Money comes first and then girlfriend

comes second. Unfortunately,

there's just— there's no way I would have

survived without YouTube. I was making

$900 a month on with my job and

I had to abandon YouTube, get no PayPal

donos and no OnlyFans.

It would have been so tough. Even if I

doubled my work hours, I would have only

made $1,800, probably like $1,700 a month.

And I would be so miserable having to work

all day long every day and then still not

even make $2K. It would have been

horrible.

Which is why I had to come back to

YouTube. It was a hard decision, but

necessary. I need my online income.

So I think it's completely unreasonable

and unfair to ask me to give up my online

income. Because I don't have any skills.

I don't have any qualifications. I can't

get a good job. I would just be so broke

and also working full time. Imagine

busting your balls off working full time

and still being broke. That's just shit.

This guy is blocking all my good lines.

Can you see my hands?

What do you mean I'm blocking your— I'm

deleting your comments when I'm not even

touching the keyboard?

Yeah. So if I had to give up all my online

income and rely solely on a job, I would

have to work so hard and I would hate

my life.

What scam? My mod? What, Carrie B?

She's not even here.

How much does a postman make in a year?

Like 28K,

and they probably work 6 or 8 hours a day.

I don't know,

I just— I don't want to have to rely on a

job where I'm gonna eventually hate it.

It's not reliable, is it? I think YouTube

is more reliable.

Yeah, I can't, I can't give up my YouTube

and online income and just do full-time

work. I would hate it. It's not worth it.

I don't think any woman is worth it.

There's not a woman in the world who's

worth working full-time for. Could be

the most attractive, hottest woman in the

whole— this is no one worth that.

No way.

You could say, Daniel, you can have any

woman in the whole world you want, but you

got to work full time. And I'd still say,

no thanks. Rather not.

But I guess just to most people, having a

family and friends and girlfriend or wife

is more important and it's worth having to

work full-time for. It's just I'm not like

that. To me, nothing is more important

than not having to work full-time.

Although it is lonely, I have to say, and

I do feel a bit like a scumbag that

couldn't prioritize or take care or

protect the person who was supposed to

love me. Maybe I'm

selfish like that.

A therapist? No, I'm not wasting money so

I can talk to some person in a room.

Sounds so stupid. What are they gonna say?

Or just tell me all the things I already

know? Daniel, you seem to be lazy and

scared of people. Well, thanks for telling

me. As if I didn't know that. There's

nothing I don't know. There's nothing you

can tell me that I don't know. There's no

solutions you can give me that will be

like, oh wow, I didn't think of that.

Wow, I'm not an idiot.

It'd just be a complete waste of time.

What even is my problem anyway? That I

don't want to work full time?

Who wants to work full time?

No one does. It's just they have to. I

don't have to because I'm lucky.

Minimum effort, maximum outcome.

Give it a go for a month while work

full-time.

Can't be bothered.

I would count Amazon Flex as full-time

because I was doing double blocks every

day. I'd take a 3.5-hour block in the—

around lunchtime, and then I'd take

another one around 4 PM or 5 PM.

I was doing double blocks back to back

last year on Amazon. I can't believe my

mum came with me almost every single— so

stupid, isn't it? Now that I'm doing my

current job alone, It just seems so silly

to bring your mum every time. I don't even

know why I did that. Maybe I was scared

because I was new to driving,

but now I just can't imagine bringing my

mum. It does seem kind of lame. I think I

was just nervous because I just got the

car and I was new to it still. And yeah,

I did feel more at ease if my mum

was with me. It was really silly

though, now I think back on it. And it

ended up getting me banned, didn't it? I

find, I find driving in Maidstone a lot

scarier though. There's a lot of scary

chavvy people there.

It's so easy driving here. I feel like,

I feel like I'm the shark in the fish tank

here because I'm always going fast and

everyone else around me is slow. Whereas

in Maidstone, I feel like I'm the little

Now I'm the one getting irritated at

people driving slowly. I just don't

know why even people driving vans like

workmen vans, tradesmen, are doing 40

miles per hour on the 60 roads. The hell?

They're not old. They're probably like 40.

Everyone just drives so slow. They're

really laid back or something, so they

drive slowly.

Although I am kind— I am a little bit

interested in getting a proper job where

you meet people Just because it might lead

somewhere. Like, I don't know, you never

know who you're going to meet.

And usually people meet people when they

get a job and they work with them,

whereas a driving job is really solitary.

So I don't know, I could apply to Tesco or

Maybe I just walk around. Maybe I just

park somewhere, walk around the town, see

if anyone's got wanted, staff wanted signs

up. I get a job at the post office.

Looks easy.

Imagine I go from being a delivery driver

to being someone working at they did every

place. That'd be funny.

Get a McDonald's job. There's quite a lot

of young cute girls working at McDonald's.

When I was doing Uber Eats in Maidstone,

I used to camp outside this one

McDonald's, and there are quite a few cute

looking girls there. I bet they're all

oily and sweaty and smell like McDonald's.

Those are children? No, they're not.

They're like 19 or 20.

What, you're saying any woman in this

country who's not fat is a child?

Get out. You're saying there's no

attractive slim women in this country that

are over the age of 20? You obviously

have never been to this wonderful country.

19 is a child. No, it's not, it's an

adult. If you murder someone when you're

19, you get charged as an adult.

Yeah, maybe Exeter Airport's looking for

stuff. I could drive one of those baggage

lorries That would be pretty cool. Surely

that won't need any qualifications. You

just drive the baggage trolley up and down

the runway. Yeah, maybe X to

airports looking for jobs.

Do you think you're a bad son? I don't

think I've done anything wrong. I think

I've had a troubled life and I've had

struggles.

Getting involved in the world,

and I've, I've got my fears and stuff,

and I just wish people had more

understanding.

It's been a massive struggle of mine to

get out into the real world and stand up

on my own two feet because I've just

always been so scared my whole life.

Everything's just so scary. Like, driving

was scary, getting a job was scary,

meeting people's scary. I'm just so

scared. I don't know, I wish I had someone

to encourage me.

That's why I'm so slow in life. Like, I'm

36 and I'm doing all this stuff that

someone who's 18 or 19 will already be

But all I do is get insulted and

criticized, called lazy, when I'm just

scared, really.

Why are you scared? Because I got bullied

at school and I felt scared of people ever

since. And people are scary.

It's childhood trauma that just never

seems to go away.

It's not blaming, it's just saying I have

this problem because of this reason.

Why'd you have to frame it that way?

People ask why am I scared and I'm telling

you why. It's not about blaming.

I don't like human interaction,

and it's just hard to get through life

without human interaction.

Turkey Stom— Turkey Stom— Turkey Tom still

talks about you. Where does he stream or

something? I wonder how much money he

I watched the Internet Anarchist video

about Vitaly. God, that guy's such a

scumbag. I didn't realize how much of a

scumbag he was. He was high on shrooms or

something, and then he started beating up

some woman on the street, and he didn't go

to jail somehow. That's crazy.

He destroyed her face and he

walks free. I hope the Philippines

lock him up. I saw the clips of him

annoying people on the street and it was

just so stupid.

These people are just sick.

Yeah, people like Vitaly are just the

worst kinds of people because they just

don't care about anyone, and anyone's free

game for content. He's like Ice Poseidon

but way worse.

At least Ice Poseidon don't— he doesn't

get in people's face. And tries to annoy

them on purpose. Although he was kind of

like that in his early days when

he was in his early 20s. Ice was very

obnoxious,

but Vitaly is like a whole other level.

I've never been like that. I've only— I

haven't gone out of my way to try and

upset people to get views, but I've ranted

about people because I felt emotionally

upset about what happened.

But that's just because I have trouble

controlling my emotions.

Especially when I get all riled up.

Why am I feeling down and upset all of a

sudden? Because it's the

weekend and I can't make any stock

progress and Bored.

I don't know what to do. I thought I could

keep myself busy with work, but then work

lasts 2 hours and then I'm done. I could

go to work tomorrow and deliver the stuff

that got delivered this afternoon, but

then I'll— if I go on Monday, there'll be

nothing there.

So maybe I just deliver everything

tomorrow and then don't go on Monday, and

then on Monday I can focus on stocks.

What do you think?

Because nothing's gonna come on Sunday.

No, it's not a switchblade, it's a toenail

cutter, but it kind of looks like one.

Yeah, I might go to work tomorrow actually

and then not go on Monday.

What you think?

I don't even know if I'm allowed to do

What do I video on OnlyFans? Uh, naked bum

stuff. I put a new video on it today.

Am I still getting the thrusting toy? Uh,

that's a pretty expensive bit of kit.

A couple hundred at least.

I think the gay guys would probably like

it more if I get a male sex doll and

then I grab it by the dick whilst I pound

its anus.

I haven't made any new stuff. I've just

been using the old stuff because I got so

much of it that wasn't posted.

If I had to do gay serial, would I be top

or bottom? I don't

know. It depends who the guy is. Like, if

the guy was really— if the guy was smaller

than me and more feminine, then I would be

the top. And then he'll be my little

bitch. But then if the guy is bigger than

me, then I'll be his bitch.

I'm not sure which one I'd prefer.

I'd prefer to just have sex with a girl,

to be honest.

I don't know, I don't really care about

sex that much recently.

I'm more focused on money and, um,

capital preservation.

May's gonna be rough.

1st of May until 14th of May, I'm gonna

be in massive overdraft, like £1,900 in

overdraft, and I won't be able to start

getting out of it until 14th of May,

which is when I get paid for my job, and

then 21st of May, which is when I get paid

by YouTube. And then along the way,

you know, £50 here and there. Every few

weeks from PayPal and my OnlyFans.

Hopefully it's

gonna be rough. I think we just gotta get

through May and then hopefully end May

positive a couple hundred, and then the

beginning of June I'll be back into

overdraft, but it won't be as bad as

beginning of May. And then end of June I

should be massively up, and then beginning

of July I should not really be

going back into overdraft.

And then end of July, I should be up

massively, like a couple thousand. So

May's going to be rough and I need every

penny to keep myself from maxing out my

overdraft. So let's

see if we can do it, I guess.

I might not have to buy food for a while

because I've got 8 packs of MRE rations.

I've got a tub of chicken wings. I've got

enough vegetables and carbs to make weeks

of food. It's just I'm gonna run out of

protein. I've got loads of vegetables.

That's fine. I've got loads of rice and

pasta. I'm not sure who sent me

the MREs. I forgot.

No, I ate all the Spam.

I think it'll be amazing if I don't have

to buy any food in May. I'm trying

to ration out the chicken wings. I've

already had 3 today. I mean, I've had 2

today, so I might just have 1 for dinner

with one of the MREs.

Yeah, I get protein from Huel,

so I guess it's fine.

Yeah, I'll try one of the MREs tonight

with one chicken wing.

Hopefully I get some generous tips on

OnlyFans.

Yeah, really. God, I can't wait until the

end of May. May is going to be rough.

Overdraft's gonna kill me. It's this

stupid council tax. I agreed to pay

upfront 6 months. Ugh.

Why not pay month by month? I was, but

then I thought I was going to go home, so

I canceled my direct debit and then

I decided to stay. So then I had to reset

it up again. And then for some reason I

chose to pay twice a year,

not thinking I would have to start paying

next month. I thought I won't have to pay

until a few months.

I didn't realize it would be next month.

And also my electricity bill is like £130

a month.

So that's— I mean, it's not as bad as I

thought. I thought it'd be like £200 a

month.

You would be in the money big time if you

went home. No, I wouldn't, cuz I wouldn't

have my job, and I don't want to go back

to doing Uber Eats in Maidstone.

I would end up just getting lazy and

staying at home all day, and I won't be

able to do OnlyFans, and I I would just

end up streaming all day and I'll make

less money and then I'll get depressed

because now I'm at home and probably gonna

fight with my mum and then people keep

coming over disrupting my flow.

So I just, I don't really feel like I'd

make more money at home. I'd get lazy and

then not want to go. I'd be scared of

driving in Maidstone and then I'd not want

to go and get a job because I'd be scared

of all the chavs. I think if I'm going to

get a job, my best bet is to stay in Devon

because people are way nicer here.

People are just so much nicer here and

everything's just much simpler. The roads,

the traffic. I feel like driving in

Maidstone or Kent area is a hazard.

Police everywhere. So much police in Kent.

They even have secret unmarked police

cars. I did Uber Eats once and, um, I was

outside of Maidstone where I used to go to

do Uber Eats, and there were these other

Uber Eats drivers on mopeds. And because

we had like a— it was 2 lanes,

but the left lane is the bus lane, so the

right lane was all jammed up and the bus

lane was empty, obviously. But the Uber

Eats biker woman was was like, was driving

down the bus lane and then suddenly

blue lights come on and this black

unmarked car pulls out into the bus lane,

chases them down. And then I saw them up

ahead getting pulled over. They definitely

got a massive fine, like £100 fine and

maybe even points because I got pulled

over and they gave me a £100 fine and 3

points on my license. So they got police

everywhere in Kent and they've got speed

cameras everywhere, bus lanes everywhere.

They've got the yellow grids. If you stop

in the yellow grid, there's probably going

to be a camera and you get caught, you're

going to get fined. It's just so stressful

driving in Kent. I hate it.

Yeah, I've already got 3 points. If I get

another 9, I get banned from driving. So I

really don't want to go back home and do

driving work because I'm scared. The

points expire— I think the points expire

in 2 years. They stay on your license for

3 years, but I think it's after 2 years

they don't count towards disqualification

anymore. So I just got to

stay here if I'm going to do driving work

and be careful. And then just be patient

and wait for the points to expire. If I go

back to Kent and I do driving work in

Kent, oh my God, it's gonna

be tough. Driving in Kent is like

a whole other difficulty level of driving

compared to here. Here is so easy.

I got so many fines in Kent. I drove into

a bus lane. I overstayed in a car park.

That was a £100 fine. I got pulled over by

the police. I haven't been caught by speed

cameras, even though I did— I

almost did 35 right in front of the

camera. But luckily, I think it has like a

10% tolerance.

How much I make on my second channel?

It's making about $150 a month

even though it's dead. You know why? It's