All Alone on Christmas again...

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Oh, I just woke up. I think it's still

Christmas for a lot of people around the

world. It's not Christmas for me anymore.

Christmas was yesterday, so technically

it's not Christmas anymore, but I couldn't

stream on Christmas. I mean, what, what

does it matter more if it's Christmas for

me or if it's Christmas for you?

Merry Christmas, guys.

I had probably the least Christmassy

feeling Christmas I've ever had. It was so

un-Christmassy, it didn't even feel like

Christmas.

Christmas in Thailand is weird. I mean,

they don't celebrate it because it's not a

Christian country, but they do stuff.

I mean, they have decorations and stuff

outside, and they go out on the weekend

because Christmas was on the weekend. So

people went out and they had like

Christmas hats, Christmas outfits,

but it just didn't really feel like

Christmas. I mean, the Manchester

Christmas felt more like Christmas because

I had a turkey and I made myself Christmas

food and had a Christmas tree.

We didn't really do anything on Christmas

Day. We went out on Saturday, which is

when I made that video, and we just

went to We just

went to like a market, Chinatown market,

which is quite interesting actually. And

then we went to a Ferris wheel, and then

we had food, and then there were

fireworks. It was okay, I guess.

Not bad. At least I did something.

The Chinatown place is weird. It felt

really It— that's what I thought Thailand

would be like, you know, the craziness,

the markets, all the food, all the

tourists on the street and stuff. That's

what I thought Thailand would be all

about. But Thailand isn't really like

that for the most part. You have to search

out those places. I felt like I was in

one of those videos where they do street

food and eat stuff. Actually, I made a

street food video, but I don't think you

guys would watch it.

You guys don't seem to be interested in

the travel stuff,

like walking around the streets, eating

food, doing stuff.

I don't know why my viewers don't care

about that stuff, because those videos

always get the lowest views, lowest watch

time. It's like you guys

just want to hear me talk and whine about

life and why everything sucks.

I might upload it anyway. I might get like

$20 out of it. Probably won't. I mean,

it's not going to go viral, is it? It'd be

cool if it did though. I'd love it if I

just went viral on like a street food

thing and then I just changed the whole

channel to street food. Your dates

are boring? What do you want from a date

though? Do you want me to like pull down

her panties in public? Spray her with

Pepsi? That's what happens on a date. You

just walk around, talk a bit, hold hands,

get some food. That's what happens on a

Oh wow, I can never seem to go viral with

travel stuff, can I? I can go viral like

making videos about video games, but when

it comes to travel, I don't know why it's

so difficult to get views on travel stuff.

Every time I've done like an exploring

Something which gets like 4K views.

Maybe you need like a more lively looking

face in the thumbnail or something like,

like that.

You date like you're 19 years old. Well,

how does an adult date? Like, I mean,

everyone at that place were adults that

were dating. I mean, there were loads of

middle-aged people and older people

holding hands and walking around.

So we only have, uh, 5 days left until

2023.

Thought I'd do some lives before I go to

Vietnam. I cannot

be bothered to go to Vietnam.

I downloaded the, the boarding pass on the

app, so it seems quite easy to get the

boarding pass and not leak my name. But

now I need to get her boarding pass, so I

need her to give me my— I need her to give

me her passport number, and then I guess I

just share the link with her so she can

open on her phone. But I'm worried that my

name is linked to her name because it's

like We're both on the plane thing.

So what if I just screenshot her? If I

just screenshot her boarding pass and send

it to her, that would work as well,

wouldn't it? Because all they need from

the boarding pass is the barcode.

I'm worried if I, if I do check-in on the

app using her name, get her boarding pass,

and then I share the link and then send

her the link, when she clicks on the link,

would it show other flight information

like 2 travelers, Daniel Lord and blah

blah blah? Because that's what it says on

my app. I go onto my app and it says,

says 2 travelers, Daniel Lord,

Tiger.

Ah shit, if she downloads this app and

then she puts in— I don't know

if she would have all the flight

information if she downloads this app.

Does anyone else know? It's called

AirAsia.

Should be just her boarding pass. I hope

so. Oh no, I could test it. I know how I

could test it. So I go on, I find my

boarding pass. How do I do that?

And then I just send the link to myself

and then open it in an incognito browser

and then see what it shows. It should just

only be the boarding pass.

I do view boarding pass.

Now also, they've not seated us together.

We're next to each other, but the aisle is

right in the middle, and they want me to

pay more so we can sit together. It's so

dumb. They put her on seat C and me on

seat D, so I don't know if I want to pay

extra so I can get her to sit next to me.

What does she think your name is? She

thinks I'm called David Ford.

I'm a bit nervous. It just seems kind of

weird leaving a country for only a week

and then trying to come back in. Surely— I

mean, I did fly out of England with

Chihiro and then flew back in like one

week later when my dad was ill. And they

just asked, so why are you back again?

And I just said, because my dad's ill.

And they were like, okay.

I could have easily lied. I mean, I could

have just made all that up. Okay, so I do

Uh, it seems to just open a web page with

only the— with only the boarding flight

on. I can open it in Safari.

You don't want back in. And you know, I

really can't decide actually, because I'm

trying to think, how am I going to jinx it

so the opposite things happen? Because

every time I don't want something to

happen, it happens. And every time I want

something to happen, it doesn't happen.

It's like I wanted Japan to open, then it

didn't open. And then I went to Thailand.

So I thought, uh, it better not reopen

now. And then it opens. And then I

thought, I want a girlfriend, but then I

never get a girlfriend. And then when I

was like, oh, I don't really care if I get

a girlfriend, then I get a bloody

So now I'm thinking if I want to get back

in, I probably won't get back in. But if I

don't want to get back in, then I probably

will get back in. But there's pros and

cons to getting in and getting rejected.

So if I get back in, it's like another 2

months, easy life, low cost of living,

more sex. But then it's

also going to be boring. I'm kind of bored

just sitting in the apartment all the

But then I went out all day on Saturday,

filmed a bunch of content that I know

won't get views. So it's not like me being

out and about doing stuff is going to get

views. Oh, in the end, my whole life goal

is I want to get views. You know, I'm a

YouTuber, I want to get views on YouTube.

How can I get views? And if you said like

being out and about, moving around, doing

different stuff would get me more views,

I would be interested in it. And I'm sure

there would be a few more views, but I

just don't really feel like there's going

to be a whole load of extra views in

return for the sacrifice I'm making.

I think the views won't really change much

whether I sit here in my room or if I go

out. I thought the video was really cool,

had some tuk-tuk scenes where we sat in a

tuk-tuk and went on a Ferris wheel.

I mean, it's not talking content, but it's

like visual content. Yeah, the boarding

pass link just links the boarding pass,

so that's great. All I need to do is send

her this link and then she'll have her

boarding pass. Crisis averted.

So I think we can go to Vietnam and my

name should be safe. I was worried about

the boarding pass revealing myself.

All I need to do is ask for her passport,

and then I'll get a boarding pass link.

Outdoor stuff is boring because you're

putting on an act. I'm just being normal,

you know. I'm not being weird. I'm not

saying weird stuff to people, which would

make it funny. I mean, Ice Poseidon is

funny because he says weird stuff to

people like, oh, can I get your number?

Can I sleep at your house tonight? Even

though it's just a stranger. If I just

started flirting with all the people

saying cringe stuff, it would be pretty

funny, wouldn't it?

Yeah, I'm pretty boring when I'm outside

because I'm just very quiet. I don't say

weird stuff, don't talk to people. I don't

know what the viewers want to see anymore.

I feel like they don't want to see

anything. They're just— they're pretty

done with me. There's probably not

much I can offer anymore. And then they

just unsub when they get reminded that

they're still subbed to me. They think, I

don't know why I'm subbed to Daniel

anymore. He used to be funny. I think my

best videos are when I just sit down in

front of the camera with a weird topic and

then I say weird stuff.

So if I, if I can't get back into

Thailand, what would I do?

I'd have to buy another ticket, won't I?

Which, I mean, I could just go straight to

Japan from Thailand. And then stream snipe

Ice because he's still there. I'm a bit

bored of Ice's streams now. The first few

days, the first week were fun and

interesting, but now it's like in the

second week and he's still just walking

around streets at night talking to

strangers. It looks kind of sad, to be

honest. It's like he's just walking around

streets all night, every night. Just seems

kind of aimless.

How do you have 112,000 subs but almost no

views? Because my stupid viewers don't

watch anymore. I'm putting out all kinds

of stuff, like interesting stuff out and

about, and also talking videos and stuff

about my girlfriend, and people just don't

care anymore.

They don't care because there's no drama.

There's no drama because she doesn't know

about the channel. There wouldn't be any

drama with Chihiro if she didn't know

about the channel. So if I let

her know about the channel, or if I dump

her, those would get views probably. But

as things are right now, people are not

interested. In what I have to offer.

You complaining about viewership is your

brand. Yeah, I'm probably the only

YouTuber who complains constantly about

his channel dying and no views, because

all the other YouTubers, they try and keep

their mouth shut. They know the channel is

dying, but they know whining about it

doesn't help and just makes it worse. I

don't care anymore, I'm gonna whine about

it. This is my livelihood and it's gonna

die pretty soon.

Other YouTubers think, oh, if I just keep

my mouth shut and don't seem like I'm

whining about my dead channel all the

time, maybe my channel will come back

alive. But it won't. Have you ever seen a

dead channel come back to life?

When a channel's dead, it's dead. I've

never seen a dead channel come back to

I've seen channels try to change their

content and pivot, and they

usually don't. I mean, look at TerryTV.

He's tried to pivot towards these murder

true crime documentary videos, and

sometimes they do okay, but then they're

just getting like 20K views. I think he

would have done better if he made a whole

new channel with this new content on.

It's funny because TerryTV used to be

massive. He used to have like hundreds of

thousands of fans, and he used to do IRL

on Twitch. He used to be a pretty big

YouTuber, and now his channel is just kind

of dead, and this new stuff is not really

Am I still in Thailand? Yep, but for

another week or two.

Pivot to second channel. The second

channel is doing pretty well. It's just,

um, being carried by those Steam Deck

videos, but they're starting to die down a

bit now. The views are starting to slow

down, but the Steam Deck stuff and the

Switch OLED is still getting like 5K views

a day since I uploaded it nearly 3

months ago.

Have you considered doing creative writing

for more scripted videos? I thought about

doing a ladyboy video, but I just couldn't

really think of anything funny about

ladyboys.

I am pretty creatively dead. I don't

really have any ideas creatively. I had

quite a lot of ideas last year, like

dressing up as a woman and getting the sex

doll with the penis on it. I got so much

money from OnlyFans from making that

video. That was pretty good though. I

liked it until I split. I used it a bit

too much and then they put a metal rod

inside of the dildo and then it split

through the rubber and I tried to fix it

by using super glue. And then the super

glue dries hard and becomes rough and

I tried putting it in my a-hole anyway and

it caused me a bit of bleeding.

But it was pretty good for the few times I

used it.

I went pretty crazy with the content last

year, didn't I? The whole dressing up as a

girl stuff and the, the male sex doll

torso. And I made some pretty crazy stuff

on OnlyFans.

Fred has fallen off many times, still

finds a way up the algorithm. Yeah, some

people are really good with the algorithm.

I found one channel yesterday. It was a

channel in Thailand where he films really

hot girls making street food and the

videos get like millions of views, tens of

millions. And then I found all these other

channels That do the exact same thing. I

found like 6 different channels and I

swear some of them have the same Thai

women in them. Just like really sexy girls

with bikinis and stuff making chicken on

the street. And they get so many views and

he's got like 6 or 7 channels. I bet it's

all the same guy making the exact same

content over different channels. And

they're all just like street food girl in

Thailand, tastes delicious, Bangkok

treats. And they all look the same. All

the girls in the videos are like, it's

very similar looking.

You can game the algorithm if you have a

formula, but you need that kind of stuff.

You need like good camera and you need

like a bunch of models to be in the

videos. I really doubt these are actually

girls working on street food vendors.

I've seen a lot of street food vendors

here And none of them have hot, sexy girls

working at them. It's always like

middle-aged or old Thai woman trying to

make some money, or it's like ugly brown

fat girl.

None of them are hot. In his videos,

they're like porn star level hot girls.

Big boobs, cleavage.

There's no way that's real. He has like,

he has like a load of models who work for

him and then just they go and rent a

street vendor and then she pretends to

cook at it for the video.

But it's such a great idea. I have seen

people walk around here in Thailand

carrying like a YouTuber rig, like a

big selfie stick, big DSLR,

mic on the top. I saw one

girl, it's like a girl and a guy. The girl

had a clip-on wireless mic, he had like a

Sony mirrorless camera. I wonder what

they're doing to make videos.

I'm not hating on brown people. Just by

describing that someone is brown doesn't

mean I'm hating on them. It's like saying,

oh, there was a white guy at the shop

today. I'm not hating on white people,

I'm just saying he's white. Why do black

people think because I'm describing the

color means I'm hating on them? I remember

back in the day I used to say stuff like,

oh, I got attacked by a group of black men

in Paris. And then I get idiots saying,

why did you have to point out they're

black? Because I'm trying to, I'm trying

to paint you a picture of what happened

using words because I don't have footage

or images of what happened. I got to

explain to you in, in words and

describe to you the situation. It's like I

could say, oh, a tall fat guy Attacked me.

And why would I have to point out he's

tall or fat?

It's like you read a Harry Potter book,

it's gonna be very descriptive. How did

they describe Hagrid when he first made an

appearance? Was it like, big fat

man with hair like spaghetti on his face?

Or they might describe a white person,

oh, his skin was as pale as the moon.

If there's like a black character and they

describe them as, oh, his skin was as dark

as caramel, all these stupid people would

get so butthurt over it, wouldn't they?

Oh my God, they described him as, as

chocolate. That's racist.

J.K. Rowling was pretty mean describing

characters. Yeah, but who cares? They're

fictional characters. If I made a

character and his name was Mr. Blob and I

was writing a book, I'd say Mr. Blob

waddled into the room. His fat body could

barely squeeze through the doorframe. He

had disgusting hair coming out of his

nose. That's how you write stuff in an

interesting way. It's not being fat

shaming or whatever, or racist. It's just

called describing what someone looks like.

If you said his skin was the color of

shit, then okay, it's taking it a bit far.

Terrence the Vampire's skin was as pale as

rotted cheese lying

on the floor covered in fungi.

Do they celebrate Christmas in Thailand?

Not, not really. I mean, they just go out

and they go to like some decorations.

They put some Christmas trees out on the

street, but at home they don't do

anything. My girlfriend didn't say

anything like, let's get a tree, let's

cook a turkey, let's give each other

gifts. We didn't even give each other

So no, it didn't really feel like

Christmas. Also, it doesn't seem like

she's going to spend New Year's with her

family because it sounds like she's going

to spend it with me. And I thought New

Year's was all about family in Asia

because I know in Japan and Korea, New

Year's is way more important than anything

else and you have to spend it with your

family. But it's weird. She's not going to

see her family at all. She doesn't even

seem very close with her sister. We saw

her sister twice. We went for sushi once,

and then when she came back from Japan,

she came here to give us some, some

souvenirs, just some biscuits. But she

doesn't really seem to meet her sister

much. I don't think she's met her mum

once since we've been together. You are

her family now. Yeah, that's what she

says. She says, you are my home.

She says she doesn't have a home, and then

she says, you are my home. So I'm like the

center of her universe, I think.

No, I didn't buy her any gifts. I don't

like buying gifts, and I don't have any

opportunity to go out by myself to buy

anything anyway. Otherwise, maybe I

would have picked up like a little box of

chocolates wrapped in like Christmas

decorations. She's a nice girl.

You're going to break her heart. Well,

it's your fault because you're not

watching the videos. So I got to find

something else. If I was getting like 100K

views with my new girlfriend, then I'd be

like, okay, she is the number one

priority.

But nope, it keeps telling me to go to

I think I'd be kind of depressed if this

was the rest of my life. Life is okay now.

I mean, it's comfortable, it's cheap, but

my god, I feel so bored.

I need some kind of— I don't know,

some adversity, something to moan about.

I've got nothing to moan about. My whole

channel is built on moaning about stuff.

And I've got nothing to moan about apart

from I'm bored.

I want some real things to moan about,

like, oh, I hate this place. The shower's

too cold. There's nothing to moan about.

My channels revolve around negativity and

me being negative and whining about why

life sucks. When life doesn't really suck

much, it's hard to make videos.

Bring Chihiro back. I tried, tried baiting

her, but she doesn't take the bait

anymore. And she even stopped whining to

my mom because she knows that doesn't

She knows I don't listen to— when have I

ever listened to my mom? Why does she

think I'm gonna listen to my mom? What is

the point whining to my mom? Hoping that

she's gonna get me to stop.

Casey's channel died without you as a

foil. Yeah, I didn't think— I mean,

I, I don't want to feel like I'm hating on

Casey for his channel dying, but I did

tell you so. And I'm not hating on Casey,

I'm more hating on the stupid viewers.

Not you guys, I mean the stupid viewers I

used to have. You know that 20,000,

30,000-odd people who all they cared

about was this stupid marriage drama?

Fuck those people. God, I hate them so

much. They're not around anymore, so I

don't care if they hear this or not

because they're not here anymore. Have you

seen any hate comments on my videos

anymore? You don't see any hate comments,

not because I banned them, 'Cause they

don't watch anymore. All those fuckheads

giving Casey like 20K views a video,

all they cared about was the stupid

marriage drama. And when I stopped and

when Casey stopped with the marriage stuff

because we exhausted the content reserves,

they all disappeared like a bunch of

fucking flies after they consumed all this

shit. Oh my God, I never had so much

hatred for people. I never had more hatred

for a group of people more in my entire

life, I swear to fucking God.

Oh, I'm getting face twitches from the

hatred.

Those fucking people ruined my life.

They were like, oh, Jaheira should make a

channel, we'll watch her instead of stupid

Daniel. Well, they didn't. Chihiro's

channel barely gets 2K views either

because she didn't do the drama stuff. I

told her she should have done the drama

stuff. It's the only way to get those

stupid fuckheads to watch, those 20K

Now they ruined my life because I knew

what they wanted and I was willing

to give it to them because I wanted the

money, but it ended up ruining my life and

making everyone hate me. Like my mom,

Chihiro. I don't

want Chihiro to hate me, but I felt like I

had to make the content they wanted to see

because that was the only way to get like

a 30K or 40K view.

I had to choose. I mean, do I keep Chihiro

and people happy with me, but then I let

the channel die? Or do I chase the 40K,

50K viewerships and then make Chihiro

upset and then make myself look like an

idiot? Guess which one I chose.

I chose to squeeze as much money as I

could out of it whilst I could. I don't

really regret it because those people

would have stopped watching if I didn't do

the drama stuff.

It's kind of hard to tell. I mean, did,

did I completely kill my channel by

focusing on all the drama, or would the

channel have died anyway if I didn't do

any drama? Because things were pretty

boring without drama, weren't they?

Why are the alerts— oh, there it is. Why

is there no— do you miss cheese cereal?

Question mark. Oh, thanks, Jenkins.

Do I miss Chi cereal?

Do you miss Chi cereal? Question mark.

Sometimes, because Chihiro did

do the finger in the bum thing really

well. My girlfriend can nearly do it, but

she never seems to find the hole. She like

tries to poke as if she thinks that's the

hole. And I'm thinking, that's not the

hole. And she's got long nails, so she

can't even— I wouldn't want her to poke

anyway because it would hurt.

I really wish I could do like alternate

history where I find out maybe like an

alternate universe Daniel didn't do drama

stuff and focused on wholesome stuff and

the channel was doing better. I don't

know, I've seen channels die anyway, even

if they don't have any drama and they just

focus on being nice. People just get

bored, especially after 5 years.

I think people do have a maximum of a

5-year attention span, which is pretty

long actually if you think about it. I

personally have never been interested in

anything for 5 years, let alone a YouTube

channel. Have I followed any

YouTubers for 5 years?

Um, Trash Taste is still pretty new, so

it's only been a few years, but I do feel

a bit bored of Trash Taste recently

because they always talk about the same

stuff, and then half the podcast is just

them going, buy our merch, we got new

merch, buy it now, limited availability,

so you got to be quick. I hate all these

YouTubers making it sound like,

oh, we've only got limited stock, so you

better buy now. But they've chose to make

it limited. They don't have to make it—

they could make it unlimited. They only

have like— they create like this false

sense of scarcity so

the fans go, oh no, there's only 100 left,

I better buy it now.

And half of Trash Taste is just, did you

know about this stupid shaving brand? Or

do you know NordVPN? Do you know Japan

Bento Box? Half this stupid thing

is just trying to sell you stuff. It's

like 60% podcast, 40% sales.

TV sale, you know, on TV used to have

these shows where they sell you stuff and

they would advertise like, oh, this bag,

blah blah blah, phone this number, get it

now. It's now only $200. That's basically

what YouTube has become. All these

podcasts are just like TV,

TV shopping, isn't it? It's like TV

shopping. They bring on this product.

They're like, hey guys, if you like my

channel and you're my fan, then you should

know I like using this stupid product.

Get 10% off using my coupon. That's what

all YouTube is like now.

It's just lame. I don't watch it, just

skip, skip ahead.

They must be getting paid so much. I mean,

I got paid quite a lot, just I got paid a

couple thousand dollars to promote some

stuff. Can you imagine how much money

Trash Taste or multi-million channels get?

They probably get like $50,000 or

$100,000. Yeah, trash is very repetitive.

You're cool though, Dan. Oh, thanks, Jane

Kids. I'm also pretty repetitive though.

There's always Joey and Connor whining

about food, like bone-in chicken or

boneless chicken. Who cares? Just eat what

Stop hating on people. Your channel would

do better. Maybe. Maybe if I never whined

about views, if I never whined about other

channels, if I never talked about

cheating. I'd be getting more views right

But then what would I talk about? I'd be

like struggling to find things to talk

What do I do when I'm not making videos?

I am playing video games.

Playing video games while I'm watching

other videos, while I'm watching other

streamers. I'll probably be watching Ice.

What is Ice up to? It's fun checking in

what he's up to. I don't really watch much

of the stream anymore. I did watch the

entire thing all day long the first day

or two, but then I have to stream and

then he's not really doing anything most

of the time. What's he doing? I think he's

just sleeping. Wow, he's only got 300

viewers. I'm surprised anyone watches it.

It's just a black screen. What happened?

It doesn't look like he's sleeping. It's

just like a black screen. I think his

battery ran out or something.

It's been like this for 2 hours.

What?

Don't know what happened to

The whole thing's black. Five hours ago is

a black screen.

That's weird. He's still sleeping.

Yeah, I don't know why my face got fat.

Maybe it's just the camera angle,

but most people's faces do get fat when

they get older. Did you see El Camino with

Jesse Pinkman? He's supposed to be playing

as Jesse Pinkman after Breaking Bad

ended, but in Breaking Bad he was kind of

young, his face was slim, but El Camino

was shot so much later His face is like a

big round ball at that point because he's

gotten so much older. He looks like Phil

Mitchell.

Everyone's face just seems to get rounder

when they get older, usually because

people start making more money when they

get older and they start eating more food

or better food. When you're young and

broke, you kind of starve yourself because

you don't have enough money to buy nice

food. I'm not eating nice food,

but I feel like I'm eating a lot,

especially yesterday. I had a lot of

street food and

it's all like fried stuff.

I got a Blue Yeti for Christmas. Can you

tell me how to set it up? I don't think I

did anything to set it up. I just plugged

it in. Maybe I fiddled with the gain knob

a little bit. You don't want the gain too

high because then you can hear everything,

like little tongue clicks and stuff, but

then you don't want it to be too low. I

think I just recorded a video and then

kept fiddling it until it sounded how I

wanted it to sound. Am I getting

fast internet here? I don't have internet,

I have 4 SIM cards.

I've got 4 SIMs. I guess

I won't be needing them soon when I leave

Thailand forever. Next video, leaving

Thailand forever.

Next video, why I came back to Thailand.

My videos are so stupid, aren't they? So

why I'm finished with my girlfriend until

6 PM and then she comes back from work.

It's good when you buy new tech and demo

it. Yeah, the only time I get really

excited and giddy like a child is when I

get new tech. Do you remember how excited

I was getting those wireless mics and and

then never use them. And then how excited

I was with the LiveU and the GoPro thing

and the Steam Deck. I really get excited

over tech, but right now I can't think of

anything that looks exciting.

My girlfriend's not in her 40s. She's 30.

She's 2 years older than me, so she's 35.

Oh my God, her birthday's Coming soon.

I hope I'm not around when it's her

birthday because I suck at birthdays.

Birthdays, you gotta make the person feel

special, and I'm really bad at making

people feel special. You gotta buy them a

gift, make them something nice. If you

don't do anything, they feel like, oh,

you don't care about me.

Also, I just woke up like an hour ago, so

I'm pretty sure waking up has something to

do with your bloatedness. It's weird

because I remember when I cycled a lot,

back home in England. When I come home, I

swear my face looked a lot tighter. It's

like exercising and doing cycling makes

your face tighter, and then just sitting

around all day, and then especially after

you wake up, your face is kind of bloated.

I'm surprised you showed your girlfriend

on cam. Well, she's wearing a face mask,

so I don't think you can really see much.

It was actually really good she wore the

face mask because I wanted to film the

tuk-tuk, and I thought,

well, I have to, have to pixelate her

face. And pixelating her face is such a

pain because I've got to manually slide

over where the pixelation is to cover her

face. And then I have to go frame by

frame. Every time the pixelation

slips off her face, I gotta re— move it.

I got to move it so it's on her face

again. And if it's moving around a lot,

it's kind of annoying. I don't have an

automated face tracking thing. Why aren't

the alerts playing?

I want to read out the Super Chat.

It's not, it's not showing up on the—

what's it called— the alerts.

How do I fix this before?

I'll just read it out myself. Uh, thanks,

I'm Heba. Was Mila the greatest love of

your life so far? Pretty sure she was the

only love. Mira was probably the only girl

I actually had feelings for.

I never felt so sad over a breakup. The

first breakup really destroyed me. I think

you see a big change in the videos and the

channel between the time before

she dumped me and after she dumped me.

There was like a massive change. I think

they call it an ego death. But before she

dumped me, I was my same old, you know,

trolly, cocky self. Like, oh, I'm in love

now. Oh, leave my girlfriend alone.

And I was making streams with her like I

didn't have a care in the world. And then

after she dumped me, it was like

everything changed. I thought, oh my God,

all this drama stuff and me being a troll,

it ruined it. And now she doesn't want to

be with me. But then the second time

she dumped me, I was kind of numb to it at

that point. I just kind of accepted it.

Any update, ex-husband? Has he been

looking for you? Uh, no, no updates. I

haven't asked her about it. Why do they

all come in all at the same time? Merry

late Christmas, D-A-N-Y-O-L. Oh, thanks,

Vishidu. Merry Christmas to you guys as

well. Yeah,

there's been no news about the ex-husband.

He just completely disappeared. I thought

maybe he would show up again, but it seems

like he let go. He gave up.

What a weird person. Just shows up at his

girlfriend's house, ex-girlfriend's house,

tries to confront the new boyfriend and

chase him out of the country, and then he

just speeds off in his car and runs away.

I'm a coward because I ran away, but he's

also a coward because he was like, oh,

I'm gonna kill you. And then instead he

just ran off to his car like a woman and

then sped off. I thought he

was driving around the block to try and

find me. I was scared. I was hiding behind

the neighbor's car, and then I saw the

neighbor look at me. It was a woman. She

was like cleaning in her front entrance

bit, and I was squatting behind a car in

front of a house. And then I saw her

looking at me and I was scared she was

going to phone the police. I just turned

around. I was like, hi. It was so

embarrassing. I thought, oh my God, I must

look like I'm trying to break into

someone's house. I must look so

suspicious. But I thought he was driving

round and round trying to find me because

I could hear cars driving, but it was

someone else's car. I could hear a car

driving round. I thought, oh my God,

that's him. So I ducked down behind this

other guy's car. And then this Thai man

came in his motorbike, on his moped. And I

forgot what I said. I was like, excuse me,

do you speak English? And he said no. So I

started typing into Google Translate,

my girlfriend's ex-boyfriend is chasing

me, please help me. And then he

like read it and was like, oh, I was

scared. I thought, what if this guy's

crazy too? And he like kidnaps me in his

basement. He said, he pointed at this

entrance. He said, you could hide here.

So I dragged my bag over to— I was

exhausted because I just sprinted. I don't

know how far I sprinted. It was like 5

minutes of sprinting, but I was carrying

16 or 15 kg on my bag.

My bag was so heavy. The laptop, the

batteries, the Switch, the LiveU. It was

like army military gear. I don't know how

many kgs I think. In the army, they do

training with like a 16 kg backpack. I had

like 15 kg backpack on me.

My legs were destroyed for the next week

after that. I could barely walk. My thigh

muscles were just completely shredded. I

could barely walk upstairs. I had to like

limp upstairs.

I probably lost all that muscle. I

probably gained some muscle from doing

that. I lost it now because I stopped

using my legs again.

I actually thought about just ditching my

backpack and just legging it, but I had so

much stuff in it. I had like probably like

$5,000 of gear in my backpack.

$2,000 laptop, $1,000 LiveU,

$300 switch, nearly $200 in battery banks.

I had all my phones in it, my GoPro.

That would have been expensive if I lost

I thought I was gonna die. That guy could

have done anything to me. There's no one

around. There's one woman, she was doing

her gardening, she was watering plants,

and then she lived in the house next to my

girlfriend, and the boyfriend was

trying to stop me from walking off. So I

tried turning to the woman. I was like,

can you help? This man is harassing me.

And she just said, I don't speak English.

And I thought, oh my God, there's no way

that she's going to understand the word

People don't help, do they? I'm in trouble

and people are like just trying to mind

their own business. Some people help,

I guess. Like, that man did help me.

And then I put him on the phone to my

girlfriend. My girlfriend nearly was in a

car crash because she was at work. And I,

I messaged my girlfriend, your crazy ex is

here. Come now, come quick. I need help.

And then she got into her car and she was

like speeding. She was probably going like

150 kilometers per hour.

What a mess. And she went to the house. I

had to tell her I'm not in the house. I'm

down the street hiding behind a car. I

thought the ex was still at the house.

Maybe it was so

funny now I look back at it, but Jesus

Christ, what a mess the whole thing was.

Do I think my girlfriend lied about her

age? No, because she showed me her ID for

the plane ticket. I need her actual date

of birth. And yep, she's born in

'87, so she's not a liar like some

people, like Tomoko.

I might do one more stream before the end

of the year. Oh, I do like a 2022 review

because I quite enjoy doing those. We'll

go by the year, month by month,

recapping on stuff that's happened. I'll

give each month a score out of 5 and maybe

out of 10, and then we'll like get an

average score for the whole year. So I

think this year has been pretty eventful.

I don't know what people are saying that

I'm boring now. There's so many stuff has

happened this year. Like the driving,

Elden Ring, Malaysia, Scotland. I was in

Scotland, remember, in the beginning of

the year. The Scottish girl. Remember

Scottish girl drama? That was funny. And

then the British girlfriends, the London

dates. And what else happened?

Quite a few things happened, I feel like.

And then Ending the year with the Thailand

I think it's been a pretty eventful year,

better than 2021. 2021 was pretty funny as

well because Pia got dropped off at my

house in the middle of the night, and then

there was like a tiny spark between

me and Chihiro that thinks that we could

get back together. I'm pretty sure if

Japan reopened 2021, I could have gotten

back with Chihiro. Because she didn't have

a boyfriend. I'm pretty sure she didn't

have a boyfriend until May 2021 because

she was talking to me a lot. She was

messaging me first as well. She would

message me stuff like, good morning, what

are you doing? Just like, hey, what's up?

Kind of messages. And then we'd chat. I

bought her the Apple Watch. The Apple

Watch cost me like $600. You know, I think

it was like ¥70,000. How much is that in

dollars?

It's like $500. Oh my God.

And she doesn't even wear it. You see all

of her new videos and pictures, she's not

wearing it. And there's only a few videos

and pictures where she's wearing it. I

think she's wearing it in one of her

YouTube videos. Which one was it?

One of the first few of her videos. You

can see she's wearing the Apple Watch. So

she was happy that I sent it to her and

she was happy to wear it as this gift from

Daniel. But then somewhere along the line,

she took it off. I don't know if she sold

it. She might have sold it because it's

quite expensive and she could probably get

a couple hundred dollars. She could

probably get like $400. Out of it if she

kept the box and everything. But she was

so happy when I sent it to her. She was

phoning me and phoning my mum, and then

she phoned me and she was like, my

husband, thank you. I sent it to her on

her birthday.

And then she— and then I remember she

found out how expensive it was, and then

she asked me, Daniel, why did you send me

such an expensive gift? And I said, I just

felt bad. I wanted to do something nice.

I felt bad about everything that happened

between us. And we chatted

on a friendly basis up until around

October in 2021. Then we stopped

chatting and I thought, okay, I really

lost her. She's got a boyfriend. I'm just

going to make why I hate my ex-wife videos

again. And then she got upset.

And now I think she hates me now.

Do I know any YouTubers similar to my

style of vlogging? Not really.

There's a couple incel guys who make stuff

like, oh, why my life will always suck,

why I'll be alone forever, why girls don't

like me. Stuff like life

update videos. There's a few other incel

guys, but they just got tiny channels,

like a couple thousand subs. I don't think

the whole whining about why my life sucks

is a very viable niche on YouTube.

I don't think there's a big audience for

it. Who would have thought it?

I'm probably the only YouTuber That has—

I'm probably the biggest channel who has

the biggest audience for this niche of,

of content where we just whine about how

much our lives suck. Oh, thanks, Carrie.

Merry Christmas to you too. What did you

get? Did anyone get some nice presents?

Do you remember when Christmas used to be

about getting nice Christmas presents and

that's all you cared about? When I was a

kid, all I cared about was getting a

present. I would ask for 2 video games.

My mum would let me have 2 brand new

PlayStation games or Xbox games. And

because games were expensive and I didn't

have money as a kid, Christmas and

birthdays were the only times I could get

a new game. So I'd be

really looking forward to it.

And I'd be thinking— you had to think

carefully because there'd be a lot of new

games out. I can only choose 2, so I need

to pick carefully. Sometimes I regretted

it. I remember I asked my mum to get me

this Alien game from the Alien movies,

and my friend got 007: Tomorrow Never

Dies, and I thought, oh damn, his game

looks so much more fun. And my Alien game,

it's one of the Alien horror FPS games,

and it was too scary. I hated it.

But then ever since I made my own money,

Christmas wasn't exciting anymore because

I can just buy my own stuff. And then my

mum would just get me like underwear or

socks, so I'd never get interesting

presents. No one knows what I would

actually want because I feel like no one

actually knows what I'm into. So if you

really wanted to impress me, you could get

me maybe that Aya Neo 2 handheld

console. Looks pretty cool. Or maybe

something I can use for my channel, like,

I don't know, like a new microphone.

Or what if they get me like a really nice

webcam and I don't want to use it because

it makes my skin look bad? Then I'd feel

annoyed. I mean, I'd feel guilty for not

using it. So I don't actually like

it when people get me gifts because they

can never get me the gift I want. And then

I feel guilty for not using it.

I remember my sister got me something. I

put it in the bin because it was too big.

She got me this big Stormtrooper phone

holder thing. It was like this big and you

put your phone into it and it holds your

phone like a big Stormtrooper. And I knew,

I kind of knew me and Chihiro were gonna

break up, so I tried to leave it at home,

but my mum kept saying, Daniel, you forgot

your present. So I had to put it in my

bag. I ended up having to ditch it in

Japan. I put it in the bin in one of the

hotels because after I left Chihiro, I

didn't have space to put this massive

Stormtrooper in my bag. I think my sister

found out about it because after that she

said, Well, since I know you like to

travel light, I got you this small thing.

I felt bad because she got me that gift,

but then I couldn't carry around with my

backpack. My backpack was so full of stuff

and I, I needed space.

I put Mila's Christmas present in the bin

as well. Remember Mila got me that big Art

of War, Sun Tzu's The Art of War book,

and it was like this big and this thick,

300 pages. I had to put it in the bin. I

tore out the page where she wrote that

handwritten message. I can't

carry a massive book in my bag. I need

space in my backpack for important things.

As if I'm gonna carry around this massive

book with me.

Yeah, I keep the message in my wallet.

Oh, that's the condom. Probably can't use

that anymore. Where's the message?

If my girlfriend saw this, she would be so

upset. She'd be like, why are you carrying

around a message that says I love you,

Daniel, from your ex?

Look,

it's gonna

be reversed.

You can't see it. I need to flip the

camera unless I show it like

that. Oh no, that's just the back of it.

It says, please don't ever be at war with

yourself or others. Love, Mila, 2020.

I'll probably keep that for the rest of my

life. It's the only meaningful thing I

have left from Mina,

but it's top secret. Imagine my girlfriend

saw that. I don't think she'd be happy.

It's kind of like you haven't moved on

from your ex if you're still keeping that.