Why I Slept with my Fan

Last year, shortly after my father passed

away, I met up with this British girl who

watches my channel in London. I never made

a video about it because at the time we

were trying to keep it a secret, and then

I got back together with my ex-wife, and

my ex-wife wouldn't let me make a video

about her. She said to me, if you ever

make a video about that girl you met in

London, then we're finished. But now that

I'm a free man again, I can make any kind

of videos that I want to without needing

anyone's permission. So this happened a

few weeks after my dad's funeral.

At the time, my wife wasn't there because

she decided to go back to Japan by herself

because she was feeling bored being stuck

at my house waiting for my dad's funeral.

After my dad's funeral, I was supposed to

go back to Japan to go back to my ex-wife,

but then I suddenly started to get

messages from this girl on Discord. I had

never spoken to her before and I had no

idea who she was. She seemed very

interested in me, and after she sent me a

few photos, I thought she looked very nice

and I decided to meet her. I guess you

could say that I was cheating on my

ex-wife, but at the time I didn't really

care because I didn't think anyone would

find out about it. I thought this meeting

would be a complete secret. However, I was

wrong. We met up in London outside of

London Victoria train station. She was

standing there waiting outside for me. I

walked up to her and tapped her shoulder.

We said hello and then we started walking

around. I didn't really know where to take

her to or where to go, so I just walked in

a random straight line from the train

station. After about an hour of just

randomly walking around and talking, I

started to feel a little bit bored, so I

asked her if she wanted to go to a hotel.

She said yes. I checked her ID to make

sure she was over the age of 18, and then

I started to look for a hotel. I booked

the nearest hotel I could find, and then

we walked in and checked into the hotel

room. We went into the hotel room, and

then I guess you can imagine what

happened. We had 2 bowls of cereal in the

space of a few hours, and then we got

dressed and decided to do some sightseeing

around London. At the time, London was

pretty hectic because of political things

starting with a B and ending in a T. It

was quite tricky getting around certain

places because there were just so many

people blocking up the roads, shouting,

being rowdy, drinking beer. A lot of the

places actually smelt like beer because

they were spilling it all over the roads.

We didn't really do anything interesting.

We just walked up and down randomly again,

talking about random things. I don't even

remember what we talked about. I really

wanted to take her to a nice restaurant,

so we started walking around looking for a

place to eat, but I couldn't find anywhere

that looked nice, and we just walked past

a bunch of restaurants without going into

them because I thought they looked kind of

crap, and I didn't really feel confident

enough to go into any of the restaurants

that we did walk past. After walking

around for hours and hours and failing to

find a decent restaurant, I decided to

give up. I was feeling extremely hungry,

bored, and my legs were starting to ache.

So I just walked into a Waitrose, which is

a high-quality supermarket chain in

England. Now, the great thing about

Waitrose is they have a huge selection of

delicious sandwiches and refrigerated

snacks such as chicken in a box. And they

also have self-checkout machines, which

means I can buy stuff without embarrassing

myself with my extremely poor social

skills. We got some sandwiches and some

crisps and snacks, and she didn't complain

about having to get food at Waitrose,

which was great. And we headed back to the

hotel since it was starting to get a

little bit dark. I wasn't really feeling

like having cereal so soon again, so we

just switched on the TV and we started

watching the news. I had my sandwich and

she had her sandwich. We didn't really

talk much. She was on her phone most of

the time talking to people on Discord. I

didn't really mind too much. I thought it

was nice that we could just enjoy each

other's company in silence without it

being too awkward. I thought, well, if

she's on her phone, then I guess I don't

really have to worry too much about

struggling to find things to talk about.

I had no idea what to talk about. After

watching the news for a few hours, it was

starting to get late and I felt tired. So

I started to get ready for bed. I brushed

my teeth and I put on my pajamas. We got

into bed and we had another bowl of

cereal, and then we cuddled and fell

asleep. I woke up in the middle of the

night and we had one last bowl. Before

waking up in the morning and then heading

back to London Victoria to say goodbye.

She walked with me to London Victoria and

we said goodbye, we hugged, and then she

whipped out her phone and asked me if it

was okay to take a photo with me. I'm glad

she did take a photo with me because it

gave me a good image to use for the

thumbnail of this video. A few weeks

after, she actually asked me if I wanted

to meet up again, but I said no. I decided

to say no, and I'm not sure why. I think

one of the main reasons why I didn't

really feel very attracted to her at the

time was because I thought she had long

brown hair. It turns out that it was

actually a wig, and she took it off before

we went to sleep. She took the wig off,

and I was pretty shocked. I didn't say

anything at the time because I thought it

was too awkward. I really thought that the

wig was real hair. I thought she really

had long brown hair, and when she took it

off, her hair was really short. It was

shorter than mine. And something that

really turns me off is when girls have

very, very short hair. But I feel kind of

stupid about this because I've seen a

recent picture of her. It's been a year

later and she has grown her hair out, and

I have to say she looks pretty cute with

her hair grown out. I think if her hair

looked like that when we met, I would have

met her a second time and maybe I wouldn't

have gone back to Japan. Well, she

probably thinks I'm shallow and

superficial now for rejecting her.

Because of the length of her hair. We kept

in touch even after I went back to Japan,

and actually we did talk about meeting up

again in Japan. You might remember this if

you watched my videos around August. It

was the time when I got my own Airbnb,

and I bought that L-O-V-E-D-O-L-L. We were

talking about meeting up in Japan, and

somehow our conversation screenshots got

leaked, and my wife— ex-wife found out

about it And she kicked me out.

Unfortunately, our plans to meet up in

Japan secretly never happened, and it was

actually kind of funny because everyone

thought it was just fake drama when

actually it was completely real. Even

after I went back to Japan, we still did

things together. For example, you might

remember my Minecraft livestreams when I

was recreating my family home in

Minecraft. There was another person

helping me do stuff in Minecraft, like

clearing the land and preparing things.

That was her helping me in Minecraft all

the time, and people kept asking, who's

that person? Person helping you, and I

couldn't say because if my ex-wife found

out that I was playing Minecraft all day

long with this girl that I met in London,

she would have been very, very angry. We

also played a lot of Rainbow Six together,

but I don't think I livestreamed any of

this. As of now, we don't really have any

plans to meet up again, although I would

like to. I don't think she's really

interested in me in the same way anymore

because she has a boyfriend now. I'm

starting to see this repeating pattern in

my life where girls show interest in me,

but at the time I'm not interested in

them. And then some time passes, and then

I feel interested in them, but then they

aren't interested in me anymore. It's

almost as if girls won't be interested in

you forever. They'll be really interested

in you and into you for maybe a few months

or a short period of time, but if you

don't show interest back, then eventually

they will start to lose interest. Their

feelings will change. Maybe they'll find a

new boyfriend and then lose interest in

you. So my advice to myself would be Make

sure you eat up your baked beans quickly

whilst they're still hot, because it won't

take very long before they get cold and

then you have to chuck them into the bin.

But then I guess you could use a microwave

to reheat the cold baked beans, but then

it's not really the same as opening a

fresh can of baked beans and having them

straight away. I think there's a limited

amount of times that you can reheat things

in a microwave before the quality of the

food starts to get so bad that maybe you

don't really want to be eating it in the

first place, and you might be better off

just getting a fresh can out of the

cupboard. But maybe it's not a very good

idea to be wasting food when you're having

a food shortage, and even though it

doesn't taste as good as a fresh can,

it's still better than nothing.