[2023-07-04] My life just completely changed [o1A3GRIspq4]

Recently, my life has kind of changed and

turned upside down in a good way. So most

of you know my channel is called Hiding My

Room. That's not just like a funny silly

name. It's actually because that is what I

do most of the time since about 2017. I

just hide in my room and I don't have any

reason to go outside into the real world.

Most people are kind of forced into going

outside because they have to go to work or

they have to go to school. But because I

have the luxury of being a YouTuber since

the year of 2017, I haven't really had any

real reason to have to go outside into the

world, and I just kind of sat in my room I

just sat in my room making YouTube videos

thinking this is the best thing ever and

the best way to live life is by not going

outside. After a few years of living this

hermit kind of lifestyle, I started to— I

did actually start to crave a little bit

going back out into the real world, but I

was always too lazy to actually have to do

something outside in the real world like

get a job or go to class. But my current

life situation and decaying financial

situation has kind of forced me into

having to go outside into the real world.

If I was super rich and had loads of money

money, I would just buy the Thai Elite

Visa for about $18,000 and get a 5-year

visa and not have to go to school or do

anything. But unfortunately, because I

have a TAX problem and I owe

a lot of money and my channel has kind of

fell off and I don't really get views

anymore, it's, um, basically impossible

for me to finance $18,000 just to get a

5-year visa. So I had to begrudgingly sign

up for a Thai language school and get

myself an education visa, and I've going

to school for the past few days now. I go

Monday to Friday, 9 AM to 12 AM,

or is it 12 PM in the middle of the day?

I guess that's 12 PM. And I do 3 hours a

day of Thai language courses. And

actually, I think I'm pretty good at

speaking Thai. I've only had a few

lessons, but I think I've already mastered

the basics, like saying my name is Daniel

and nice to meet you. And at first, I

thought I would absolutely hate having to

wake up early in the morning to catch the

train to go to school, sit in a classroom

with a bunch of other people who I might

have to talk to. That really kind of

terrified me and scared me, and I wasn't

looking forward to it. But it's not so

bad, actually. I'm kind of— maybe I could

even say I'm kind of enjoying it. And,

you know, being broke, there's good things

about being broke, including that

involving having to go out into the world

and meet people and do things instead of

just sitting in your room doing nothing.

Because if I was rich, if someone just

dropped me like a million dollars

tomorrow, I would just quit school, buy

the Thai visa, just sit in the room all

day long doing nothing but playing video

games, and probably whine about feeling

miserable. My thoughts so far after a few

days going to school and going out into

the real world have been kind of

pleasantly surprising in a good way. And I

go— I get on the train, I go on the train,

I look around at the other people who are

also commuting somewhere, and I think,

hello, I'm like one of you guys now. I

have something important that I need to do

Monday to Friday that doesn't involve,

you know, going on dates and going

shopping for food. And then I have to go

to class and I have to speak to the other

people there because we're practicing Thai

language together. And it's not, it's not

actually that bad. And I guess, I guess

it's okay. And it's, um, kind of nice

interacting with other people in a way

that doesn't involve, you know, getting

into bed together. Sometimes I always

think that the YouTube channel, my YouTube

channel blowing up and me becoming a

successful YouTuber has kind of been a bad

thing, has been like an overall net

negative on my life, even though the money

has been good. And it's dried up now. And

now I have a massive tax bill. So thanks

for that, YouTube. Sometimes I feel like

maybe it would have been better if the

channel just never became successful and I

had to find another way to make money and

I had to get educated and eventually get a

proper job outside in the real world. But

because of the YouTube channel success,

it means that I never really had to do

those things. But now, you know, I have to

go to school and actually seriously think

about where am I going to make money from

now that the YouTube channel is not very

reliable. And I think humans are not

really designed to be happy by just being

inside of a room for 90% of their life.

And you need reasons to go outside into

the world. But the world is not a very

interesting place, in my opinion. Okay.

There's some pretty places and yeah, you

can go shopping, but that's just like a

few things. 10% of the time you're going

to be doing those things. I feel like

having something important to do outside,

like going to a class or going to a job,

does bring some variety into my life that

makes my life feel like there's more

routine instead of just wake up, turn on

computer, play video games all day, have

lunch. I feel like my life has more

routine in it, more structure, and I feel

like I can enjoy my gaming time more now

that I have less gaming time. I feel like

I can cherish and appreciate the gaming

time I do have left more than when I just

had too much of it. It's like having too

much of something makes you lose the

appreciation of having it and you stop

really caring about it. Being able to play

a game for 10 hours a day gets kind of

boring, but when you've only got like 5

hours or 4 hours to be able to play the

game, you— and you're desperate to come

home and play the game, when you're

playing the game for those 5 hours, I feel

like those 5 hours are higher quality than

the 10 hours which are just kind of lower

quality. In a way, I feel like the real

world is kind of like an open world in a

video game. Some video games like Diablo

4, for example, have this big open world

and sure, you could spend thousands of

hours roaming around and exploring this

open world, but there's no real reason to

because there's not really anything

important to do in that open world apart

from, you know, farm the Helltides. But

when you're not farming the Helltides,

there's basically no reason to go outside

into the open world. You just basically

stay in the town hub where the vendors and

the shops are and go to dungeons where you

just teleport straight to the dungeon.

You don't actually have to go outside into

the outside open world to get to the

dungeons now in Diablo 4. You teleport

there, so Like 90% of the game, you're

just teleporting between the dungeons and

the towns and you're not seeing the open

world. My life was kind of like that where

my apartment or my home is the town where

I just stay all the time. And then I

teleport to a dungeon. I guess in this

kind of analogy, my dungeon would be doing

this in here in front of the camera,

making a YouTube video. And then I'd

finish making it and then teleport back to

my computer chair. And then my whole life

just be sitting on the computer chair and

then back here to make a video and then

back to the computer chair. And that whole

open world out there, the real world that

I never go out into apart from going to

the shopping center to buy food, never

really had a real reason to go outside

into this open world, the real world,

until now. Sometimes it is kind of weird

to think when I'm walking to the train

station, I'm thinking to myself, why am I

here in Thailand, in Bangkok, getting on

the train to go to a school to learn this

language that I never thought I would have

any interest in learning it? Just is kind

of weird where you end up in life. I never

thought ever that I would end up one day

living in Bangkok going to school. It's so

bizarre. I always thought I'd be living in

Japan, or I don't know, at least living in

England or something. And to think that

the entire reason why I'm in Thailand in

the first place is just because Japan

wasn't open and I got fed up waiting for

Japan to reopen to tourists. And I

thought, well, I'll just go to Thailand.

Never been to Thailand before, seems okay

there. And Nearly a year later, I'm still

here and Japan's reopened and I've

completely lost interest in the idea of

going to Japan or living in Japan or

having a Japanese girlfriend. And that's

because of the global pandemic. If that

event, that world event never happened, I

probably wouldn't be sitting here in

Bangkok going to a language school. I

always find it funny how you don't seem to

always get exactly what you want in life.

You kind of get something that's fairly

close to what you want, but it's not

exactly what you wanted or thought you

wanted. Or you end up getting something

after you stopped caring about getting it

anymore. When I gave up on the idea of

getting into a relationship, a

relationship just magically appeared out

of nowhere in Thailand. I thought, okay,

might as well grab this opportunity, see

where it leads. And I guess this is where

it led. Finally, I want to talk a bit

about the school, what it's like going to

class again. It's not really the same as

my experience going to Japanese school

back in 2010. I went to a Japanese

language school in Osaka in 2010, and this

is kind of different but also the same in

a different way. So the classroom is a lot

smaller. There's only about 10 of us

instead of like 30. Back in Japan, there

were like 30 students in a classroom and

people made friends in the classroom. I

made friends with all these Taiwanese

people and we hung out after class, went

for meals, went to karaoke and restaurants

and did stuff outside of school. But in

this classroom, maybe it's too early to be

saying anything, but in this classroom,

people don't really seem to be making

friends in the classroom. There's a few

Americans, a couple of Chinese people, a

couple of Russians, and I'm the only

European guy there. So the Americans

obviously just talk to each other because

Americans talk a lot and they're very

talkative. The Russians just talk to each

other, the Chinese talk to each other. I

just sit there on my own staring at my

phone like a weirdo. To be honest, I'm not

really that interested in making friends.

I haven't really changed my opinion on the

idea of having friends. I'm still kind of

anti-friendship. I don't really care that

much about having friends. I guess I

wouldn't be against the idea if someone

really wanted to like be my friend, but I

don't really see anyone in the class being

really desperate to invite me out to lunch

or anything. That would be kind of weird.

So far, my favourite person in the

classroom would have to be American Dan.

Yes, there is another Daniel in the

classroom, which the teacher and the

entire classroom found hilarious when we

both said our names are Daniel. Why is

there always another Daniel? Why is it

such a common name? But I think he would

be my candidate for probably my favourite

American Dan in the class. He's kind of

funny and talkative and seems charismatic.

And he seems pretty clever about things

like politics and economics, which I'd

like to dabble in the stock market

occasionally. So far, my thoughts on the

Thai language are so far I feel like it's

not too difficult. I feel like in some

ways it's easier than Japanese. Like the

pronunciation is a lot easier. It's a lot

easier to pronounce thank you in Thai than

it is to say thank you. I really hate

having to say thank you in Japanese

because it's such a long— it's like 7 or 8

syllables long word in Japanese, whereas

in Thai it's like 3 syllables. It's really

easy and simple to say. And the grammar,

the grammar also seems kind of simple so

far. For example, turning a noun or a verb

into a negative, you just add the word mai

in front of things. It's kind of like in

English, we just put not, not a pen, not a

car, instead of like in Japanese where to

turn things negative, you got to change

the ru into a ri and then add ta and

kunai and all this changing conjugating

verbs and stuff like that in Japanese

doesn't really seem to exist in Thai.

From what I've seen so far, Thai grammar

and sentence structure just seems kind of

simple compared to Japanese. I really like

how so many of the words are just one

syllable or two syllables. For example,

to say I as a man, it's just pom,

pom. That's it. It's so easy to pronounce

and easy to remember. So yeah, I'm

actually kind of enjoying the learning

experience and learning how this language

works. At first I didn't really care

because I never really had any interest in

learning how to speak Thai, but now I kind

of have to. I am in a situation where I'm

forced to learn it, and I thought Well, I

better make a good situation out of this

situation and just try and show some

interest. And yeah, I guess it is, it's

kind of interesting trying to figure out

how the new language works grammatically

and the syntax and learning new words. I

guess it is kind of like a fun new

challenge to make my brain start working

again on something that, that's more

difficult than like pressing the mouse

button on Diablo 4. And because I have to

go to school now in the morning, it's

completely changed up my life routine, my

schedule. I kind can't livestream anymore

in the morning because I have to go to

school. Can't livestream on the weekend

because my girlfriend will be here, and my

girlfriend now goes to work in the

evening, which is now the evening now,

which is why it looks kind of dark. So I

have to make the videos or do streaming in

the evening while she's at work, and then

she'll come home late in the evening and

then we have dinner. So it's kind of like

a new challenge, re- rethinking my daily

routine, how I could change my routine

around going to school and trying to make

videos still and try and do livestreaming

still. I was getting kind of bored with

how repetitive my life was feeling, but

now I have to go to school and there's new

things happening. I feel like this is a

good, good thing to be doing and a way to

freshen up my days. And maybe even after I

finish the language course, maybe I'll be

open-minded to maybe doing something else

that gets me out of the house, the

apartment, because it's, it's It's been—

so far it's been a positive experience.