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Hello.

Hello. Hello.

Hello.

Am I back in the UK? Nope.

Not yet. Do you want me back

in the UK?

So I feel like people don't want me in

Thailand for some reason.

Do you like my new webcam? It's pretty

good quality.

Well, I can make it do this.

Whoa, $10 webcam because

I left my $200 webcam at home.

Am I still with my Thai girlfriend? Yep,

nearly 1 year together.

I think it's my second longest

relationship. Longest one, I guess,

was Chihiro, or Korean woman if you count

that one. Would you count that? I don't

know, because I met Korean woman in 2010.

And last time we met was 2016.

So we met every year for a few months over

6 years, but we weren't together, living

together for the whole 6 years. I don't

know why she kept agreeing to meet me

because it was obvious I wasn't like

serious about her.

Most women wouldn't let you do that. They

wouldn't let you just like come and stay

with you for a few months. Do it and then

not see them until the other, the other

year, the next year.

She must have been desperate.

That's kind of— I mean, it's kind of like

a relationship then. You could say my

longest relationship was 6 years if you

count that. I don't really count it. I

didn't really feel like it was a serious

relationship. I felt like I was just

I don't know, going to see a friend that I

also shared a bed with.

But I'm guessing she loved me. Otherwise,

why would she agree to it?

Finally, I got properly notified for this.

I wonder why. A lot of people are saying

now My channel's shadow banned and they're

not getting notifications. Um, you stop

getting notifications if you stop watching

the channel. I found this random

Japanese girl YouTuber, she's only got

like 100K subs, and I just— I clicked on a

few videos, watched like a minute here and

there, and then my whole front page feed

was just all her videos. And now I didn't

click on any of them, and now YouTube

doesn't show it to me anymore. So you've

got to actually watch the channel to, to

get my stuff on your front page feed.

Just being subbed isn't— it doesn't really

make a difference. Like, I'm subbed to

loads of channels, but I don't watch them,

so their stuff never shows up on my front

page feed. I don't even know why I'm

subbed to them actually.

Most people just sub to people and then

they don't watch, and then they have like

1,000 channels they're subbed to and then

they don't even remember. I don't actually

sub to anyone because you don't need to

sub to anyone. There's loads of YouTubers

I watch that I'm not subbed to, and

YouTube recommends me their videos because

it knows I'm interested in them. Like,

uh, Asmongold. I'm not subbed to him, but

his stuff's on my front page all the time.

How old are you now? I'm 34.

Getting old. I'm middle-aged now.

Let's say I live until 70, I'm well into

middle age.

Maybe my channel's actually shadow banned.

Do you think it is?

I think people just got bored. Although it

is kind of weird, my Do Not Buy Starfield

only got 2K views. Like, that really

should have gotten 100K views.

Or at least 10k views. Super popular

trending game and only got 2k views. Bit

strange. Yeah,

I don't know.

I want to watch your show, but I also need

to work. Well, you could watch later.

I'll leave the stream up.

Maybe leaving the stream up was also like

a bad idea. Most YouTubers take the subs—

I mean, take the streams down. You're down

to 11K subs. Yep, I lost

like 200 subs over the past few weeks.

So the I Want to Become a Woman video lost

me a lot of subs, like 60. And then

the PewDiePie videos made me lose a lot of

subs, so I guess I had some big

PewDiePie fans as subscribers.

And then what else? Every time I stream,

I lose like 20 subs. They don't even say

goodbye. So rude. It's like, oh, I'm so—

at least have decency to say bye.

Sorry, I'm not entertaining anymore.

It's not my

How's my financial situation? Uh, last

month's earnings were not too bad

£770 I'll get from YouTube in

a few weeks, and actually next week.

£770 is— I know it sounds rubbish, it's

like $960, but you know, Thailand In

Thailand it's not bad, it's like 35,000

baht. But I am very worried

about the future now.

How's your class going? It's so boring.

I thought level 3 would be more

challenging, we'd learn all this new stuff

and our Thai level would be propelled to

the next level, but it's now day 12,

so 2 weeks into level 3, and I swear we

haven't learned anything new. We just, we

just revise all the old stuff that we

already learned. I actually just skipped 2

days this week and I skipped 3 days last

week. I went to immigration yesterday to

get my visa extended again. So now

the problem is like I want to book a

ticket going home to the UK for Christmas,

but my current visa only lasts until

December 12th, and then I've got to go to

immigration again to extend it by another

3 months. You have to go every 90 days.

So now I'm a bit worried. What if I book

the ticket now for like, I don't know,

20th of December, and then I go to

immigration on the 12th and and then they

say, oh, sorry, can't extend it anymore.

But then I've already booked my ticket. I

don't think I can get a refund. I have to

book another ticket. Imagine I buy me and

my girlfriend flight tickets the week

after I have to go to immigration, and

then they say, oh, you got to go on the

12th, but I booked my ticket for the 18th

or the 20th. Oh wow, thanks, Blake.

5 Canadians walk into

a bar. But I think

it's very unlikely because I paid the

school the money and it's basically

guaranteed me a year in Thailand, so I

don't think they'll say, oh no, can't

extend it. Although that

would suck. If I had to buy another set of

tickets. How's my stocks?

Not doing great,

although I think they're going to get

better. So I think the market's going to

crash soon. The iPhone 15 was just

announced and it's so rubbish.

I think it's going to flop and then Apple

stock is going to crash. No one is

excited about the iPhone 15. It's like,

oh, USB-C cable. Oh,

titanium. What else is there?

48-megapixel camera. No one cares.

I think Apple peaked. All they can do now

is just keep making more iPhones and

just slightly update the cameras or make

it a tiny bit faster.

I was thinking of buying one, but I don't

feel confident I'll get views. So I want

to do like an unboxing, then a review,

but it's a big gamble, isn't it? If I

spend $800 or $1,000

to buy it, the videos flop, I'd barely

make anything. And then I'm stuck with a

phone I don't really want and just wasted

loads of money unless I can sell it.

Your streams were you trying to find your

way in this world. The streams are,

or were, because I'm lonely. I got no one

to talk to and I got no friends.

Streaming is like the only way I

socialize. Well, now I've

got a girlfriend, so I socialize with her

Any news from Tax Collector? Nope, still

waiting. I need content,

I need updates. The tax thing is like the

biggest thing going on in my life right

now. The massive amount of money I'm going

to owe.

I gave them proof that I was living in

Japan 2019, so hopefully they'll say,

okay, you don't owe us any tax.

Move to Somalia. Did you see Johnny Somali

got punched in the face? He got knocked

out. Well, he didn't get knocked out, but

people were saying his friend did. He was

hanging out with some other black streamer

and this white guy knocks— I mean,

punches them both down to the ground.

And then you see the camera flip and

Johnny's got like a bleeding lip.

I don't know if— how much money are they

making? How much money would you have to

make for it to be worth getting punched in

the face? Like streaming outside and

getting attacked by randoms.

When I was really hated on YouTube, I was

genuinely scared that I would get attacked

on the street because I felt like, oh my

god, I'm getting so much hate. If one of

these people see me, they might actually

punch me. But I don't think anyone would.

That Johnny Somali guy takes making

people hate you to the next level.

I mean, if I was getting paid $10,000 a

month, would I be okay with being punched

in the face? I don't know.

$10,000 is good money, but getting punched

and attacked doesn't sound like

fun. Did he cry?

He didn't cry, but he looks pretty Shook

and shaken up.

Would I double down on China growth? I

already did. I added 50% more to it. I

think October Chinese stock market will go

up. That's what I hear.

Maybe I'll make a video about my

investment plan. 2K views, maybe.

I got a lot of silly comments on my last

video about my channel dying. People

saying the quality of my videos are not

good enough, as if that actually

matters. Imagine thinking, oh, I just get

a 4K camera, my channel is gonna come back

to life. I wish it was so easy.

If you're out of ideas and the content's

boring, it doesn't matter how much money

you spend on gear, it's not going to

really change it, is it? The problem isn't

the gear, the problem is I don't have any

I grew this whole channel just by using

smartphone cameras.

Never once used a really good camera. I

had a Canon G5X

and I used it once and I didn't like it,

and then I never used it. I used it a bit

for cooking, but it didn't really make any

Go back to your philandering ways. What

does philandering mean? Hold on.

Casual relationships with women.

Well, I had one with that Korean woman a

couple months ago and no one cared. There

was no outrage, no backlash, not even any

interest. Why did you guys not care about

the Korean woman? I lived with her for

like 10 days and then I ditched her when

she was in the shower. Come on, that's

funny. If that happened a couple of years

ago, there would have been all this anger.

Happened too fast. Yeah, it did kind of

just happen and I didn't really make

content out of it.

Well, I couldn't— I don't know,

maybe I could have done like a video

saying, oh, I'm Moving in with Korean

woman, showed her apartment, and then made

a video saying, oh, I ran out on stupid

Korean woman. I just streamed and I

chatted about it on stream. When you chat

about drama on stream, it doesn't have the

same impact as a video.

Yeah, it's weird. All the angry hate

watchers, they're gone now. All my

new videos, even though the views are very

low, has like 80 to 90% like

to dislike ratio. So the people who left—

the people who are left are the people who

actually like me, which turns out weren't

that many. When all the people who hate

watched left. It didn't really leave me

much with much of a core viewership, did

it? Maybe 5,000 people.

So now my, my videos get very high like to

dislike ratio. It's not many people

disliking anymore, so I feel like

there's no point trying to hate bait

anymore. Just go back to being normal, I

guess. You know, I've been thinking a lot

about what to do now.

The whole kind of trying to get people to

hate me doesn't work anymore, so it feels

like it's pointless.

So I'm thinking I should just be genuine

and real, not like trying to make silly

Like, oh, I love cheating, you know, that

kind of stuff.

So I really don't know what to do,

thinking like, do I lean more into

trolling? Do I do the hate-watching

stuff? Or do I just be go back to like

being genuine.

It's very, it's a very confusing time

because for 2 years I was so used to just

like trying to make people hate me.

Do a Copper Cab. Well, Copper Cab also

gave up making videos and just only did

livestreams, but he's disappeared for a

Didn't you consider it would be

unsustainable? Yeah, but I didn't

have any better idea at the time.

What was the alternative? Do Japan

vlogs? I don't know.

Who knows, it would be interesting if I

could go back in time and try a different

tactic, see if the results would have

changed. Oh, one of my shrimp died,

one of the big ones. It was just floating

around, don't know why. It's fine. I got

like 20 baby shrimp. They'll grow up

strong. I need to

clean the tank.

I'm surprised something died because the

tank's been pretty good. Nothing's died

until now.

How are things with Vast? They are better

now than they've ever been. She hasn't had

like an emotional outburst in a while.

She— I mean, a month ago, over a month

ago, she was having an emotional outburst

like every week over money.

We nearly broke up several times over a

month ago because, for example,

she said the internet bill is 2,500 baht.

So I said, okay, I gave her 3,000 baht,

and then I asked for my 500 baht change

back. And then she got really upset

because I asked for the change.

And then we had to have like a serious

talk. We're in this in the Central World

going shopping, and then we just had to

like stand there and have a serious talk

over 500 baht. And I was like, oh my God,

it's just 500 baht,

what's all this fuss about?

Money is a very frustrating topic.

And I said you've got to pay for your own

ticket to the UK. She said she doesn't

have any money, but she can give me like

10,000 baht every month. So is she gonna

pay the rent or what? I don't

have to pay the rent then? How much is a

plane ticket? The cheapest plane ticket I

could find was 765, Sri Lanka Airlines.

2-hour stop in Colombo. I don't even know

where Colombo is.

£755 is like 34,000 baht.

Oh, thanks, Braid EG. Do workout

and bulk training vlog videos?

I kind of gave up going to the gym. I'm

really losing the willpower to carry on

doing the dumbbells. I just— I cannot be

bothered. Goodbye, bust— muscles. I mean

biceps. I was really into it going

to the gym earlier this year. I felt like,

wow, I'm actually getting kind of big.

And then I went to Japan and then came

back and then I completely lost interest.

It's just so boring and it

hurts. And then you got to spend more

money buying more food because you need to

build the muscle. And it

just feels like a waste of time, wasting

hours and hours and hours in the gym.

And still I can't even defend myself

against an average-sized male because even

bulking up, I'm still like the size of a

woman. So I still stand no chance if like

a big brown man attacks me again.

Imagine how— imagine how ripped I would

have to be to even be on like an equal

standing against big brown man, because

they're naturally huge. They're like

6-foot, wide shoulders, even when they

don't work out. To be able to stand up to

someone like that, I'd have to be ripped.

And even then I'd be at a massive

disadvantage. I think it's better if I

just hide in my room and avoid countries

with multiculturalism. That's why I

like Thailand. I haven't had one single

physical or racial negative experience in

the whole year I've been here, whereas in

England or Europe, every time I go outside

the house I get some kind of racist

experience. Stupid kids saying ni hao to

me. So nice. I can just go out and no one

makes fun of me because of my looks. I

don't have like big scary immigrants

begging me for money or attacking me.

Bangkok is so nice compared to like

Berlin, Rotterdam, where you just get

followed and harassed by beggars. I hate

beggars so much. Okay, there are beggars

in Bangkok, but they just sit on the

ground with a little cup and they like put

their hands together. In Europe, they

follow you around, they harass you, they

grab you. They're so annoying.

Learn Muay Thai. Well, the problem in a

street fight is 9 out of 10 times it'll

just resort— it will just turn into

grabbing, and the bigger guy will grab the

smaller guy and just like body slam him.

It doesn't matter, like karate, boxing,

taekwondo. Yeah, in a ring those

are cool fighting styles, but in real life

it's just gonna be like wrestling. I think

you should learn wrestling if you're gonna

learn anything. Wrestling and judo. For

like grapples, because I swear every fight

I see always turns into the bigger guy

just grabs the other guy and like slams

him or gets on top of him. The smaller

guy has no chance because he's at a

disadvantage.

I stand no chance. I mean, look at my

arms, they're like the size of— even women

have bigger arms than me. Wrists.

I had so many beggars coming to me in

Rotterdam and Berlin, even knocking on my

door with a card reader so they could take

card payments. So weird.

I thought— this woman knocked my door in

Rotterdam and I thought, oh, it's nice, a

friendly neighborhood lady come to welcome

me welcome me to the city. And no, it's

just some beggar from, I don't know,

Romania or something.

Europe is so rubbish. I don't know why

you'd want to move to Europe. The cities

are all horrible.

Asia, Asia is the place to be. Either

Japan or Thailand or Korea.

Asia is nice.

As an Asian, I think Asia is the best

place to be. Surprise, surprise.

I don't know what it's like being here if

you're black or white. What do you think

of the iPhone 15? There's literally

nothing about it that I'm excited about.

Pro Max has a 5x optical zoom.

If I was still doing vlogging, then maybe

I would care about having a nicer camera,

but I'm not buying a $1,000 phone just so

I could make slightly more zoomed-in

videos for 5K views.

Surprise, surprise, people are happier

when they're in the countries where they

fit in and they are the majority. Why

would you want to live as a minority when

you could live as a majority? The only,

the only time when being a minority is a

plus is when you're white and you're in

Japan and everyone worships you because

they all think you look like Tom Cruise.

But if you're not white and you're a

minority, you're just gonna have a tough

time. I think I

had such a tough time in the UK just

because our location.

I feel so much safer and happier in

Bangkok. People think I'm Thai.

They come up to me and they speak Thai.

London is just a hellhole.

My sister's— my sister lives on not

central London, but like outskirts of

London. She said she heard a gunshot, and

then this other place she lived in, some

car was on fire and exploded, and there

was like stabbing or something. And then

her boyfriend got chased out of the park.

He and his friends got chased out the park

by a bunch of black teenagers on BMX

bikes. Yeah, London sounds so great.

Not. And then you're paying like, what,

£2,000, £1,500 a month to

live in London, rent and food and stuff.

You get to experience the rich cultural

diversity of burning cars and gunshots

and stabbings.

Great.

I haven't seen one incident where the

police here have had some kind of trouble

with the locals. I've actually never seen

the police ever talk to anyone. Just see

them walking around or in their cars.

I have never seen any problems with the

police. In the UK, you always got like the

police having a problem with like a drunk

person or, I don't

know, trying to break up a fight. You

know, Ice is on— is in Australia now. I

haven't watched Ice in a while, but I

clicked on his stream in Australia, in

Melbourne, and the first thing I see,

like the gang of police trying to break up

a fight between, I don't know, it's like a

bunch of black women screaming at each

other. And I was like, yep, that is a

Western country right there.

This is why I'm glad I left Europe.

Australia is just like any other country

in the West. It's just not

in Europe, but it's basically like a

European country.

The only thing I miss about the UK is my

big house and big garden and Amazon

next-day delivery. But if you have to live

in a city or town,

I pity you.

In Manchester, little laughing nitrous gas

canisters all over the ground.

So degen. Everyone's high all the time.

Yeah, Bangkok's a city, but it's not like

a city in the UK. It's a night city.

I haven't seen anyone fighting. I haven't

seen the police have to break up fights

and stuff like that. Oh my God, my

stream's demonetized already. What the

hell? It's only been how

long? 30 minutes?

This channel is screwed. I can't even

stream with ads on until the stream is

over and then it goes green.

But when I stream on my second channel,

it's green the whole time. I streamed 7

hours Starfield and it was never

demonetized.

I talk about this stuff on the second

channel too, and it doesn't go yellow.

This channel is so screwed. Maybe we

should all just move over to my second

channel and I'll rename it.

I think this channel is actually screwed

somehow and nothing gets views.

My streams will get demonetized.

Ah, the utter state of the channel.

What should I do? Make a new channel?

If I made a new channel, I don't think I

would even get 1,000 subs. Probably get

like 200.

Maybe I can request a review whilst I'm

streaming. It usually takes nearly 2 days.

Yeah, I can request review now. Well,

if I fiddle with the title— life

Am I gonna play Lies of P? P. Yeah, I

guess I got to review it. I think there's

a demo on Xbox Gaming Pass.

You could turn sub count off.

Is there any point doing that?

Yeah, why did Harold do that?

If I had— I think he's got like 2 million

subs. Oh no,

he shows it now. 2.35 million.

Everyone's making iPhone 15 videos now.

I made a couple, but none of them got

I think it comes out next week. I'm gonna

go to the Apple Store and then film myself

using it and then make a review,

use that for footage. So as someone who's

been playing around with the iPhone 15 for

like 10 minutes now, I have to say it is

not up to my standards. Go with my

girlfriend, she can film it. Go to Icon

Siam. That's got a big Apple Store.

Oh, now the stream's monetized for like 2

minutes and then it's gonna get

demonetized again. It's weird, it goes

yellow, I change the title, it goes green,

and then it goes yellow again, and then

when I end the stream it goes green.

So dumb. I don't know what they've done to

YouTube. This didn't used to happen.

Mortal Kombat 1's coming out in 6

days. Gotta review that and Cyberpunk DLC.

I don't think I said anything that would

flag the stream, did I? Black people,

do you think that flags the stream?

I didn't swear, I didn't say any weird

stuff. You know, I see Ben Dean's channel

is dying as well. He gets like 30k views,

so is he shadow banned as well? He just

eats food. What does he talk about to get

shadow banned? His last

video got 20k views, 40k, 60k, 29k,

100k, 47,

60k, 40k, 30k, 30k.

It's pretty low considering he's got 1.3

million subs.

Do you remember when Ben Dean gave me a

shout out? He didn't shout me out, he just

mentioned me in his stream. Do you

remember when he used to stream a lot and

I donated? I donated like $5 and he

was— he was— he said, yo, hiding in my

room, what's up man? And then he

said, I used to like your stuff and

thought you were cool, but then you

started hating me, and then he said, come

on, man. I wish I clipped

that. It was so funny. Come on,

man. There's rumors he broke

up with that SJ girlfriend because he was

in Japan and people were saying he's with

a different girl now.

Come on, man. Yo, hiding in my room.

What's up, man?

His accent cracks me up so much.

He sounds like— who does he sound like?

Oh, he sounds like someone.

Damn it, who does he sound like?

I had like a really good comparison to

someone that he sounds like, but I forgot

Yo, what's up guys?

What's up?

How does he get his voice so deep?

Yeah, I miss when he used to make personal

vlog videos and fashion stuff like haircut

stuff, and then he got freaked out because

some weirdo— so the story was Some

weirdo stalker found out where he lived

because of the background in his videos.

And then the stalker broke into his place

and then tied him up on a chair.

But then Ben Dean broke free and hit him

with a golf club. And then the stalker

left. That's like the fakest sounding

story I've ever heard. But apparently it's

true because it was in the Korean news or

something. He just broke free from the

restraints, and apparently the stalker

wanted his personal information. I mean,

yeah, this does sound pretty scary, and it

sounds like a fake story, but if he

changed his whole channel and then after

that he never showed the background of his

apartment ever again, he put like a,

a white wall behind him or something, or

black wall. And he took down all of

his non-food videos, so I

kind of believe it was true if he made

such massive changes. That video got him

over a million views.

I missed that whole time with TerryTV and

Ben Dean, that weird-looking Korean girl.

Do you remember that Korean girl who used

to make videos with TerryTV? Her name was

Boyoung, and she used to have a YouTube—

she has one still, 180k subs, but she

deleted everything. And I was looking,

she streams on Twitch, and I thought

her face looks kind of weird now. And I

was looking at the old videos of her and

TerryTV and looking at her now, she

definitely had plastic surgery. Her nose

looks messed up now. She's got like

Michael Jackson nose, and it's like, it's

like this. It's like

pointing up, but it's really thin like

that, like this.

And then her lower jaw looks completely

different. In the TerryTV video, she's got

like a big fat jaw, but now it's really

small, like freakishly small looking. And

then I found this Japanese YouTuber, this

girl small vlog channel, and she's got

like the same nose. I think they all go to

Korea and they get the same plastic

surgery for the nose, and it always ends

up making the nose look like this, like

really, really thin. Like the nostrils are

very narrow like that, and the nose kind

of points upwards like that, and it looks

really weird. These girls are mentally

ill. They've got such low self-esteem.

With their looks, and then they go and get

plastic surgery and they just make it look

worse. You can just see the mental illness

seeping out.

They get that jaw shave, shave down the

jaw surgery.

I feel kind of sorry for these people who

They hate the way they look so much they

go to these extreme lengths like surgery

or starving themselves.

I would not want to be around that.

I think it's better you just accept your

ugliness than trying to get surgery and

See, it just reeks of mental

illness and insecurity.

I bet they're like super emotionally

insecure and unstable.

Maybe I'll get plastic surgery too. What

would I get? The only thing I'm insecure

about is my teeth. I hate my teeth.

These teeth down there are so crooked and

they're so yellow. And because I keep

biting my nails, the— what's

it called— they're not smooth, they're

like jagged. So I've got like serrated

teeth, the front 2 teeth,

the edges are like serrated bone blades

where I keep biting my nails. I think

they're not smooth. Yeah, I've got like

piranha teeth. No, I'm not doing a

close-up of my teeth because they're so

yellow. I tried

getting teeth whitening strips and gel and

nothing works. I made a baking soda and

hydrogen peroxide mix I don't know if it

works. Doesn't really seem to make a

difference. Oh well.

Why do Brits have bad teeth? I don't know.

Must be all the tea drinking and not

really— we don't really have a culture

where people care about teeth, so we're

not going to go and get them fixed or

anything. I think in America they care

more, so they go and get it fixed. Or they

wear braces. Like George Trumbly had

terrible teeth. I forgot

now because he was talking about them and

he got braces. I remember now when I met

him last time he was wearing braces. I

thought that's kind of interesting, like

50 years old wearing braces, but his teeth

look really good now. They're so straight.

Maybe I should wear braces too.

If you wore braces as a school kid, you

got bullied where I was from.

Oh no, demonetized again.

The title changing trick only works for

like 2 minutes. Toilet time.

Well, I'm not making any money today

because my stream is demonetized.

So I predict my channel is going to be

making between $400 and $500 soon.

Currently it's at $540.

I reckon this month the channel is gonna

make like $450. The streams keep getting

demonetized. The videos get like 5, 4K

views now, make about $10. I don't know

what to do for money, honestly. Unless

some new video game actually gets me

views, then I literally have no more

tricks up my sleeve.

Stream on Twitch? I get like 10 viewers on

Twitch.

What was I saying? Yeah, that Boyoung

World girl, I think she took down all her

YouTube videos because she was hiding what

she used to look like. And do you think,

do you notice a lot of Korean women,

they've got like that big round jaw kind

of face, like massive chin, massive jaw?

I don't know why that is. Why do you think

plastic surgery is so prevalent in South

Korea? It's because obviously there's so

many of them that take it or want it.

That's why there's such a big demand for

it. But they, they, they've all got like

this big round, U-shaped jaw, but they all

want the almond teardrop jaw, like anime

pointy chin. I don't know

why Korean women have that so much, like

the big U-shaped face. It's very

unfortunate.

Anime drawings of whites or Asians,

I think they look more— I don't know, it

depends what anime

you're talking about.

Sometimes anime girls look like Asian

girls but with big eyes.

Oh, I found out the Japanese boy— should I

call him guy or boy? I think he's a boy

because he's so young. I think he's like

19 or 20. I found out he's going to

university to study drawing, probably to

become a manga artist, which is funny

because I spend all class drawing in my

book and the teacher saw me. My book is

full of anime girls. So I'm kind of

embarrassed now because if he sees me

drawing, I don't know, it's a bit weird.

I said today we were practicing some

sentence. I said, I want to go to Japan.

And he had no reaction. I thought maybe he

would say something. And then the teacher

said, why do you want to go to Japan? I

said, I don't know. And then everyone

laughed. I said because my visa runs out

next year for Thailand, so I gotta go to

Japan for 6 months.

She said, what do you want to do in Japan?

I don't know. Well, actually, what do I

want to do in Japan? Nothing.

Sit there playing games and jerking off to

Japanese girls, I guess.

Show us your art. No, I haven't really

done good stuff recently. I found a tactic

of drawing pretty faces by first

drawing a circle and then drawing like a

triangle to create the face structure.

And I do find it's easier to draw an

attractive face when you do those

guidelines, but then you've left— you're

left with a bunch of guidelines ruining

the picture. I wonder

if he knows Tobitsushinji, because he was

saying— because the Russian guy asked the

Japanese guy, because we had to practice

this sentence, he asked him, if I'm going

to Japan, where is good? And he said USJ,

which makes me think, oh, is he from

Osaka? Because if he's from Tokyo,

wouldn't he say go to Disneyland? Why

would he say USJ?

So maybe— I wonder if he knows about

Tobirama when he's just like a

20-year-old.

But I don't think I'm gonna talk to him.

He said he's leaving Thailand in 12 days,

so I've got 12 days to talk to him, but I

don't think I'm gonna talk to him.

There's no chance because he always just

sits at the table during break,

and I, for some reason, I never see him in

the elevator. He either leaves really late

or he arrives really early.

No, I should leave him alone. He's too

young. If he was like 30-something with a

Thai girlfriend or Thai wife, then I'd be

like, oh yeah, I could be friends with

him. We could be like— he could be my

Japanese friend in Bangkok, but he's too

young. He's a university student. He seems

to have a Korean girlfriend because he

says his Korean— his girlfriend's going to

Korea to study and they speak to each

other in Korean, which makes me think,

then is she Korean? Because if she's not

Korean, then why are you speaking in

Korean? Why is she going to Korea to study

if she's Korean though? I don't get it.

Is she like a Thai Koreaboo who doesn't

speak English or Japanese, so she

speaks Korean? And why does he speak

Korean? I don't get it.

It's very confusing, but I'm putting the

pieces together. I'm putting this puzzle

together piece by piece. We're gonna solve

the mystery of who this Japanese boy is.

So he lives— I don't know how long he's

been here. Why is he going back to Japan

this month? To go to university? Then why

were you in Thailand? Was he just here for

a few months? Who's his girlfriend? Why is

she going to Korea to study when you're

going to Japan to study? Are you gonna

break up or what? Very confusing.

Need more info. I also heard another— I

heard someone talking Japanese behind me.

From the corridor, but the Japanese guy

was in front of me, so I'm thinking

there's another Japanese guy. I also heard

some British guys in the class below me.

Yeah, Japanese boy, a new source of drama.

Gonna gossip about him. I need

to find out everything about him.

Ask him those questions? No, it'd be like

I'm interrogating him. Who's your

girlfriend? How did you meet? Why'd you

speak in Korean? Are you gonna break up?

If so, what's her number?

Is she single? When's she

available?

High school's so boring now. We don't

learn anything new. Today we learned We

practiced maybe and what else did we

practice? Maybe,

probably, but we've already practiced this

and it's so easy. Maybe it's just atja,

probably is kongja. It's not hard to

create an example sentence like, pom atja

gin McDonald's, maybe I'll eat McDonald's.

Could I learn from textbooks alone?

Well, the textbook just has words in it,

like a dictionary. It says like, at ja,

maybe, and then it's got some practice

Or sometimes we practice a word, but she

doesn't teach what it means, so I have no

idea what it means. Unless they practiced

it yesterday when I didn't go. Which

language do I like learning more? Yeah,

I like Japanese way more. It's so much

I miss Japanese.

Yeah, Thai's boring now.

Level 1 was fun, level 2 was boring,

level 3 is even more boring.

I want to talk more, like have a proper

conversation, not just read

out a stupid textbook and, and do like,

today I will eat McDonald's.

I want to just talk, you know, but we're

not doing that at all.

She does ask a few questions, like if

you say, I like cooking, then she'll say,

what do you like cooking? And then she'll

say, how many days a week do you cook? So

she asks a bit, but because our Thai

knowledge is so basic, we can't really

express ourselves or expand upon

McDonald's in Thai. I don't know. It's

like McDonald's.

Probably. I don't know what the

pronunciation is. In Japanese, it's just

Macdonald. But in Thai,

English words are weird. Like apple is

apen. Ice cream is aidim.

Central World is centron world. They

replace the L with N. For some reason,

but I don't think my Thai is good enough

to express feelings and

emotions.

McDonald's.

Johnny Somali got punched. Yeah, I saw it.

Bit risky for the white guy punching him.

He could get in trouble if Johnny presses

charges. I don't know, can he press

charges? Go to the police?

Didn't, um, that Korean streamer get

punched in the face by a Thai man? And

then he went to the police and the police

fined the Korean guy money for harassing

people. That's pretty good actually,

because he did kind of deserve the punch.

I think if you did, if you provoked

someone into punching you, then you kind

of deserved it. And the guy who punched

you shouldn't be punished. Because you,

you like got in his face and provoked him

and you got punched, so you kind of

deserved it really.

But if you did that in the UK or America,

I think you'd get in trouble because you

just physically assaulted someone.

I think everyone agrees Johnny Somali

deserves any punches or slaps he gets

because he's, he's basically asking for

it. He goes around, he gets in people's

faces, yells at them. The guy

is the walking definition of deserving a

I don't know how long he's gonna be able

to do this though. Eventually he's gonna

mentally break. Or get banned,

or just get fed up of getting punched in

the face. Or sometime something

really bad's gonna happen, like someone

actually crazy is gonna just jump on him

and keep punching him until he's blacked

out.

A lot of crazy people out there. I

wouldn't want to test it.

And that is why I don't want to be an IRL

streamer, because to keep your audience

entertained, that's the kind of stuff you

need to do. You need to be causing drama,

provoking people. There was that other

guy, Smooth Sanchez, he used to do stuff

like that. He got arrested in Yeah,

there's people like Rob CD who do boring

stuff and have thousands of viewers,

but they put in the work to build the

audience and the community over years.

People like Johnny, they want— I mean,

people like me as well, we just, we don't

want to put in the work. We want the

quick, easy views now,

but that doesn't last forever, and

eventually you're gonna get fed up and

it's not sustainable. The audience will

I wish I wasn't so lazy and I could just

build a good channel with a good

community. Without having to clickbait and

lie. It was really annoying because I was

on the right track. I think around like

the back end of 2019 was when I just, I

chose the wrong path and I ruined

it. I really wish I just was

more careful with my community.

I didn't realize how fragile it was.

But things like your community seeing that

you're trying to be a good person, seeing

that you're trying to improve as a person,

and all that stuff really matters when

I didn't think it mattered so much.

The community wants to see you grow and

improve, not just stagnate.

But I don't want to improve or grow. I

just want to sit around playing video

games and doing nothing.

Are you capable of growing? I don't know.

I just— I give up on everything so

quickly. I have no

confidence in myself because I know I'm

just going to give up. I'll get

into something, but then after a month I

get bored. Like, I was really into coding

and I was really into playing the banjo.

Remember that? Remember I got a banjo and

I was actually not bad at it? I could play

that little tune. Do do do do do do do

do do do do do do do.

And then, yeah, I gave up. And then I got

a Karimba, then I gave up.

I don't know why I just give up, or I get

bored with everything,

so I can't commit myself to doing anything

difficult because I know I'm just going to

give up.

So I don't know what to do. I'm screwed

because I can't, I can't achieve anything

difficult or build anything that takes a

lot of time and effort because I'll just

give up and then get annoyed and then be

like, oh, why is my stupid YouTube channel

not growing? Got a new camera.

I went on Ben Dean's Patreon. He's got 18

people paying him $80 a month. That's like

$1,500 a month on Patreon alone.

I wish I had 18 people paying me $80 a

Plus all of his ad revenue, he probably

makes like $3,000, $4,000 a month,

which is pretty good in Korea.

I can't even finish video games. I'm

already bored of Starfield. Been playing

it for 2 weeks now and I really don't care

anymore. I got the best ship, I maxed out

all of the piloting stuff, I made this

amazing ship with 12-gun auto

turret that destroys everything. I took

on an entire armada of UC and Freestar

ships. It was like 60 versus me. And I

destroyed them all. You're not supposed to

be able to do that in games like Skyrim,

Bethesda games. You're not really supposed

to just be able to wipe out everyone, but

when you're able to do that because you're

so strong, the game just feels meaningless

because where's the sense of fragility and

weakness? You just feel like, okay, I'm a

god, there's no point playing this

anymore. A bit bored of Starfield now.

Oh, thanks, Blood Bucket, looking

colorful. Yeah, I boosted the saturation

for your viewing pleasure.

Feeling in a colorful mood.

Don't want to be too— I don't want to moan

and whine too much today. We got to move

on from this whole dead channel thing.

It's not fun. We just gotta move on,

take it on the chin.

Come on, go find something more

interesting than whining about my dead

channel.

I don't know what the next phase is.

Oh, thank you.

Fake lipstick from the filter.

Oh, I bought a green screen, but it's

rubbish because it's,

it's not all the same green. It's like

different shades of green. So when I do

the chroma key, it doesn't make the green

screen disappear. It was only a couple

dollars, so whatever. But I got this— I'll

show you the green screen.

I don't know why I bought it. I was

watching Dr Disrespect and I thought,

hey, it's pretty funny how he uses the

green screen. For his streams, and I got a

little bit inspired, so I went out and

bought a green screen, but I don't know

how to make it work because it's all

different. Look at this, it's all

different shades. You got dark green, you

got dark green, light green. So you use

the color picker for the green, but you

can only pick one green, so it will make

the light green disappear, but then dark

green still visible. Well, I can show you

And then I realized I've got a built-in

green screen function on my—

you know that program I use to link my

smartphone to my laptop? It has a built-in

background remover that does the

job perfectly, and it removes the

background without a green screen. Look on

my second channel. I made a video about

the iPhone where I'm in the iPhone store.

And the cutout is so good,

it actually looks like I'm in the Apple

Store. So this was a complete waste, but I

got some stands out of it which I hang my

jacket on now.

It came with these big stands, so you,

you get this stand and it has a hole

drape the green screen over it. Yep,

never gonna use that because I have to get

it all out, set up the stupid tripod, put

it where, like behind me? And then I've

got to set up the green— I can't be

bothered. Why did I buy this? Just hang my

jacket on it and I can use this as

like a big makeshift tripod. You know, in

the My Channel Died video where I'm doing

my tie, I used this and And I used,

I used these clamps which came with the