I GOT A JOB

Testing.

Oh God, I feel sick.

I did so much driving.

I can't say what the job is.

The haters try and get me fired from it.

Gotta keep everything top secret.

Oh God, I miss the days of easy money on

YouTube and Kick.

Having a real job's tough.

It's just delivery work again, nothing

special.

But I don't know, after you deduct the

cost of charging my car and everything,

money's not very good.

The problem is I live right bang in the

middle of 3 towns.

Okay, there's like a small town,

Tavistock, which is like 15 minutes away,

but

not really anything there.

So to make this job worth doing,

I'm already trying to like crunch the

numbers and see if it's worth doing as it

is now.

And I don't know,

I feel like I can still make more with a

combination of streaming on Kick YouTube

and trying to do some day trading

because I just, I live so far away from

anything.

Why are you posting on this channel

instead of the other one?

What other one?

In case you didn't realize, this is Hiding

in My Room.

People, some people don't seem to realize

that this is Hiding in My Room channel.

It's just I destroyed all the branding.

All the branding wrecked.

Oh God, I feel like weirdly sick.

Why change the channel name?

There's no point explaining it.

You people won't understand.

It doesn't feel like a community anymore.

Yeah, well, the community was rubbish.

It was a horrible, toxic community of

trolls, weirdos, hateful, spiteful, horrid

excuses of human beings.

Good riddance.

Flush it all down the toilet.

Yeah, I, I wanted a community.

Part of the reason,

part of the reason I wanted a channel was

because I wanted a community,

but I don't want a horrible toxic

community who just hates on me all the

time.

That's why YouTube's not fun anymore.

It's not just the trolls though.

The trolls, I'd say it's like

20% trolls

50% hateful, horrible people, and then

like 30% of people who actually like me.

Even if I post a very, you know,

non-provocative video where I'm not really

saying anything that's wrong, but because

I have a horrible audience, I get hate

comments on them.

I know, even making a video about premium

bonds, I got so much hate in the comment

section.

I didn't say anything wrong.

I mean, the information was from AI.

Just because it's coming from me— if it

came from anyone else, they wouldn't have

said the same things, but because it's

coming from me

So when you decide you want to be a

YouTuber, there's probably 3 reasons you

want to do it.

Number 1, sense of community.

Number 2, money, obviously.

And then number 3, because you enjoy

sharing, like you enjoy sharing your life

and telling people what you're doing and

stuff like that.

Number one, the community.

My community is shit.

It's toxic.

It's horrible.

It's full of weirdos and freaks that I

don't like.

I don't like my community, to be honest.

I don't know why we got so many, like, red

pill, incel pill, black pill, all these,

like, weird pill people.

I don't know why I got so many of those

people.

I don't like those people.

I don't believe in those things.

Like, I don't believe in red pill, black

pill.

I don't believe

any of these stupid pills.

The community is shit.

Like, there's a few good people, but they

get drowned out by all the weirdos.

I don't like the community that I have

built.

Unfortunately, I don't know why or how I

ended up with this community, cuz I never

talk about black pill stuff.

I never talk about red pill stuff.

I never talk about incel stuff.

I don't know, like, just, I don't get it.

Like, why do these people

watch me?

What do they get out of it?

I just don't get it at all.

Number 2, money.

The money is shit now.

But I make like $20 a stream.

Money is just awful.

It used to be good,

but to be able to keep up doing the

content that made people stick around was

just not sustainable.

Not only is it not sustainable, I don't

want to do it.

Like, I don't want to go to Japan.

I don't want to endlessly walk around

Japan all day long, every day.

It's a boring, miserable life.

I don't want to— I don't want my whole

life just being walking up and down the

streets of Japan holding a selfie stick.

It's boring.

I hate it.

And then number 3, the sharing bit.

I can't share anything anymore.

Even sharing that I was going to get a new

car,

uh, nearly got me in trouble

because a troll snitched on me about the

wheel cleanup.

So I can't share anything I'm doing

anymore because it's too easy for people

to try and meddle with it and like

interfere and get me in trouble.

So the 3 things I enjoyed doing YouTube

for now don't exist.

The money's gone.

The community sucks.

I've banned like 50 people in the last few

streams.

And then I can't overshare.

Like, I can't talk about girls because if

the— because it makes me look bad for

future girls.

And if my current girl finds out,

oh, I'd be in so much trouble.

Maybe it doesn't matter because if she

finds out, I'll be in so much trouble,

it's over anyway.

So I might as well talk about it.

But maybe there's like a chance that I can

salvage it by saying, oh, I didn't talk

about you that much.

So I can't even talk about girls.

I can't talk about like jobs anymore

because if I say what job I'm doing,

stupid trolls try and get me banned or

fired from it.

I really just— I can't talk about

anything.

So it's just very hard to enjoy or want to

do YouTube anymore now that the 3 things

that I loved about it are gone.

I can't do some video series of something

I'm up to because then there's like a

million ways that it'll get ruined by

trolls.

So like, I'm really stuck because I don't

know what to do.

Yeah, I mean, all the things I loved about

doing YouTube, it's like I can't do it

anymore.

Like, I— if I used to really enjoy having

a good rant about some relationship

dilemma,

I can't do that anymore.

Because, I mean, usually, like, the things

I get upset over,

if I rant about them, it makes me look and

sound really bad.

Yeah, I do.

I wish I do enjoy it, and I wish I could

rant about anything I wanted to, but I

can't because there's always consequences.

And by the time that it's safe to rant

about it, I won't care anymore about it.

Ah, so all the things I enjoyed about

YouTube are just gone now.

I can't believe

how many things I've lost because I made a

video about it.

Like, I'd still have Amazon if I didn't

make videos about it.

The only thing all my channel used to be

was just like me ranting about a

relationship, or I don't know, like why I

hate this, why I hate that.

I find it so strange when you're in

Cornwall,

everyone is white.

I— you don't see anyone who's not white

in Cornwall, and all the place names are

really weird.

It's like you're in a different country.

It's just, uh, very different to Kent,

and there's so many ginger people.

I went into Cornwall today.

It's quite nice.

Oh God, I've got a headache.

Oh, I haven't updated my numbers.

Overdraft is £11.

I think I made—

I made £1,200 this month.

Well,

I don't really have savings, I have

stocks.

All my savings are in stocks.

That's low.

Yeah, because I lost, I lost 90% of my

Kick money,

and I can't get my YouTube channel back on

track without any content.

Surprise, surprise.

Surprisingly, YouTube channels need

content, and my only content was moving

somewhere to meet a girl,

but I can't do that anymore because

if I move, there's no way I'm doxxing

myself again.

I'm thinking about moving, moving to like

somewhere that's nearby one of these

towns.

So I can do Uber Eats.

Otherwise it's just, I mean, I've got to

charge my car from nearly zero when I get

home and it costs like £10 because I don't

have WAN coverage, which means I can't get

a smart meter, which means I can't get the

overnight EV tariff.

If I can get the EV tariff, it would only

cost me like £2.50 to fully charge.

It costs me £10 to fully charge.

So I don't have the overnight tariff.

And also,

see, this is the problem with the

overnight thingy.

The overnight peak— I mean, the overnight

rate is only about 7 hours.

It's like, I think it's midnight to 7 AM.

It takes, takes like 15 hours to fully

charge my car from nearly zero.

So you need a home charger that can charge

at faster speeds, but I can't get a home

charger cuz I don't own the house.

Please rank all your girlfriends by how

good their pussy felt, nothing else.

Uh, yeah, I can't get a home charger cuz

you need the landlord permission, and even

if I got the permission to install a home

charger, I wouldn't do that anyway.

Because if I move out, I can't take it

with me.

And those things cost like £1,000.

I can't like uninstall it and bring it

with me.

So I'd be able to charge half the car

overnight rates and then the other half

would be like in the evening and in the

morning it would spill out of the

overnight time zone.

The girlfriend rating video.

Yeah, and there's a reason why it's unique

to YouTube, because no one else is stupid

enough to make that kind of content.

Because any girl who sees that would never

want to date you.

Because she'll be like, oh my god, I'm

gonna end up on his next tier list video.

And there's a good reason why that content

was unique, because only I was stupid

enough to make it.

Now I gotta hide it.

There's not a single— there's not a single

girl in the world who would find that

video funny.

The only people who found it funny were

you freaks and weirdos.

Women are just gonna think, oh, I don't

want to be on his next tier list.

I mean, that's the reason why I deleted

all the videos, because all these videos

just make me look really bad.

Yeah, it was funny,

but it makes me look like a psycho.

You found a niche?

Yeah, because no one else is stupid enough

to do this stuff because they know it's

gonna ruin their future.

And now look at me,

desperately hiding my name and hiding my,

my content, my channel, because I'm scared

how it's gonna affect people's opinions of

me.

I can't even tell people my real name.

Out of fear they'll find out the stuff I

used to make.

It's not that I was some kind of genius, I

found this niche.

It's just that I was the only one dumb

enough to do it.

Now I'm suffering the consequences.

Yeah, I did whatever I could do.

I did whatever it took to get views,

and

the things I did to get views hurt me in

the future.

It's like enjoy now, suffer later kind of

content.

At the time, I didn't care.

I thought

No, I don't care.

I just want views.

Now I don't get views anymore,

but the stuff can still come back and bite

me.

If I could go back, would I stop myself?

Well, yeah, it would.

But at the time it was exciting, you know.

I was getting big views and I thought I

was gonna be a big YouTuber and I'm gonna

be rich.

And then, you know, there's always girls

who like famous people, even if the famous

person's messed up.

I thought as long as I got my clout, I got

my fame, there's always going to be girls.

Yeah, psycho girls.

Not the kind of girls you want to be with.

Yeah, and then the, the clout dries up.

Where are all the girls now?

All gone.

Not a single one interested anymore.

Yeah, they lose interest when they hang

out with me in real life because in real

life I am not how I portray myself on

YouTube, which you people just don't seem

to get.

I keep telling you I'm not like that in

real life, but you're like, oh, which

one's really you?

YouTube is the real you.

No, it's not.

YouTube is the version of me that I

exaggerate to get views.

But yeah, if people think I'm crazy from

YouTube, they meet me in real life and

then they think, oh wow, he's kind of

dull.

Yeah, because I'm pretty boring in real

life.

What, you think I just sit around off

camera ranking my exes?

I don't, I don't just suddenly start like,

I don't know, going on some rant about

something weird.

What's the point?

I only did that to get views.

There's like zero point doing it in real

life.

Also, the more views you get, the more it

kind of

encourages you to act weird because your

brain goes, well, Wow, being weird is

getting me attention.

I know, be more weird.

That's— you don't understand the

psychology of doing YouTube.

You guys just don't get it.

The more views you get, the more you're

like, oh my God, bumhole, oh, I love

sniffing panties.

Like, just say anything you can.

To keep people watching, basically.

So for the next 2 minutes or so, can you

bring up topics that you would bring up in

real life so we can see the difference?

Well, I barely speak in real life.

You saw me with Blood Bucket.

I barely say anything.

I don't bring up any topics in real life.

I'm just like, oh, what should we watch?

Oh, what should we eat?

I already struggle to start conversations

in real life.

Yeah, so this new job, I don't know.

I mean, it's, it's barely more than just

doing Kick plus YouTube.

Um, it's cuz I live so far away.

Might have to move somewhere closer to

civilization.

That's the main problem.

I think if I was just nearer, then it

would, it would be good.

But I live in the literally middle of

nowhere.

I actually live in the middle of nowhere.

I live exactly bang in the middle of 3

major towns.

4 if you include Plymouth, but that's a

city.

Yeah, I live right in the middle.

It's like it takes an hour drive to get

anywhere.

By the time I get there, I've used like

25% of my battery.

I've got to save 25% of the battery to get

home as well.

Otherwise I've got to use a public charger

and then that just

further destroys my net profit.

Yeah, basically it's Uber Eats.

So I've been scouting out towns to do Uber

Eats.

I found 2 that are really good.

I made £77 today.

And then I made £50 last week, but I did—

I only did half the time.

The problem is

I spent £7 at a public charger, and then

I'm gonna spend another £10 fully charging

it overnight.

So that's £17 charging minus the £77.

I only netted

Like 60.

And then I tried Tiverton.

It was pretty good, actually.

It was like back-to-back Morrisons.

It was great.

But by the time I did like 2 hours work, I

either had to go home or charge my car up.

If I lived near the town, it would be so

good.

I got £10 tips as well,

so I don't know, I want to head out

tomorrow as well.

I, I don't know if public charging so I

can deliver more is worth it.

Probably is.

It cost me like £7 or £8 to top up like

20%.

It takes like an hour to get there, an

hour to get home.

I quite enjoy it though.

It's very easy.

You just like walk into the place, pick up

the bags,

follow sat nav.

It's just, uh, the battery, stupid car

battery,

means you— also the sunlight.

It gets dark at like 4 o'clock.

I head home about 4.

I don't want to be delivering in the dark.

So I did 2 days.

I made about £120,

but then I spent like £30 charging, so I

only netted like £90.

It's not worse than Kick.

It's way better than— if I had to make

that on Kick, I'd have to stream like 14

hours a day.

How many hours?

On the app it says I did 2 hours driving,

but it's more like 5 hours because of

driving there and driving back.

And then today I did 4 hours of driving,

but it was more like 7 hours 'Cause of

driving there and driving back.

If I could move near to one of these

towns, um, this would be pretty good,

'cause I could deliver longer

before having to go home.

Streaming 14 hours a day worth it?

Not if you make £4 an hour.

When I was making £12 an hour, yeah, it

was worth it, but I hated it.

Do you know how boring it is to sit here

for 14 hours yapping?

It's so hard to find anything to talk

about for 14 hours.

I think like 1 hour and a half, 2 hours is

the sweet spot.

Over 5 hours, it just becomes so boring.

Yeah, I want to just sleep in my car at

the charging station.

I thought if I drive all the way to Exeter

and then top up at the Tesla Supercharger,

which is like 40p per kilowatt, it's way

cheaper than Instavolt,

and then continue there, then I could

probably last longer.

If I last longer, I could deliver more.

And make more than what I spent from

public charging.

How do you get debt on Amazon?

You finance items.

You buy things on finance and then it adds

like a finance plan.

And I bought 2 brand new phones recently,

so

that was kind of dumb.

Bigo.

What's that?

Bigo

streaming.

Oh, I hate streaming.

I think I was doing dropshipping.

You know when I bought those, um, knife

sharpeners on Amazon and sold them on

eBay?

Isn't that dropshipping?

And then I got banned.

What phones?

I got the Flip 7, which is this one.

I got iPhone Air, which is, uh, still in

the repair shop.

Um,

hair looking good.

Surely I can do better doing day trading.

It's just, it's the weekend, so I can't

really do any day trading.

So if I did like 6 hours Kick streaming,

I'd make 6 times 4, I'd make £24.

I just need to make £50 a day day trading.

It can't be that hard, can it?

Well, I'll, I'll go out tomorrow, do more

delivery work, but Monday I'm staying in

to trade markets.

It's just, um, yeah, I really got to try

and like conquer the psychology of it,

cuz

surely it can't be that hard to make a

Surely it can't be that hard to make what

I'm making from doing Uber Eats, because

when I— my net profit Uber Eats is like

£50 or £60.

I can already make £20 or £25 from Kick

streaming,

so I'd only need to make another £30.

I could probably make like £10 or £15 from

a YouTube stream.

So I could already make £30 to £40 a day

from Kick plus YouTube.

So then I'd only have to make like £15 or

£20 from day trading to make what I'm

making from delivering.

Try Relay.

Yeah, I've heard about that, but I don't

think it was available here.

I signed up to another one called GoPuff,

but it says you gotta go to a depot in

Bristol.

Yeah, that's the problem with trading, you

can lose money.

So I don't know, I mean, like

One day you just lose money,

which then eats into your average that

you've made for the whole month, if you

make anything at all, that is.

But hopefully, maybe I've learned

to control myself.

Who knows?

On Friday, I didn't do anything.

I didn't do any trades.

I just looked at it go up and thought,

yep, I'm not taking any trades.

Silver ripped,

so my silver share is doing well.

I don't know, it's like you need to have

the control not to desperately jump into a

trade because you want to trade.

You got to like sit on your hands

and be patient

and cautious.

It's so hard to like get your brain around

it.

Trading is like the thing where the more

you do it,

the more you lose, which is weird because

any other job, the more you do it, the

more money you make.

Like the more you do Uber Eats, the more

money you make.

The more you stream, the more money you

make.

But if you just keep trading, trading,

trading, you're more likely to lose money.

It's really hard to master the psychology

of it.

But you know, I thought I'd do, um,

delivery on the weekends, and then

weekdays I do trading

whilst doing Kick, and then evenings I do

a little short YouTube stream.

Giving my life some variety, not doing

only one thing.

I end up doing— I end up getting obsessed

with one thing and doing that until I hate

it.

Like last year, I only did Amazon Flex

nonstop every day.

I didn't even stream for ages.

And then recently I've just been nonstop

streaming on Kick every day until I got

fed up of it.

7 days delivery, but then it's hard to

trade

unless I just set a trade with a stop loss

and then just let it do its thing whilst I

drive.

If I lived nearer to a major, like, an

active area,

yeah, I wouldn't mind, like, taking a

30-minute drive down to Morrison's, do a

couple hours delivery, come back for lunch

and start trading.

But it takes me over an hour to get to the

nearest Morrison's.

Well, actually, there's a Morrison's in

Tavistock, but they don't— not all

Morrison's do Uber Eats.

Only the really big ones do.

Asda's pretty good.

I did Asda today.

You drive around the back of it and they

bring the stuff out.

There's Asda in St Austell and Bitterford,

but they're really far.

But they got a big Morrison in Tiverton,

so I might go there tomorrow.

I think, I don't know, like they really

got to pay more for Uber Eats,

cuz after you deduct fuel and expenses,

you know, you don't even get minimum wage.

I think I averaged like

I made £77, and it says on the app I did 4

hours of driving.

So you think, oh wow, you made £19 an

hour.

Yeah, but it takes me like 3 hours to get

there and get home,

and then my charging's £10, so I only

really made

£67.

So I mean, like, they would say, oh, you

made £16 an hour.

I mean, it's true, I guess.

77,

57.

But I feel like I've been— I went— I think

I headed out

at 9 AM

and I got home at half 5.

So it feels like I did 8 hours of driving

because I did 8 hours of driving.

I wasn't just sitting there.

My car is fuel efficient, it's just the

battery

is not good.

I mean, it's not that it's not fuel

efficient, It is fuel efficient.

It's way cheaper for me to do 100 miles

than it is for you to do 100 miles in your

petrol car.

It's just that my car can't do 300 to 400

miles in one go.

My car can only do about 180.

Petrol would be way more expensive.

100 miles in petrol is like £15.

100 miles in EV is like £5.

So if I probably did like 200 miles today,

if I did 200 miles in petrol, that's like

£30.

The problem is I've got a, uh, like a

cheap EV.

I got a 12K EV.

That's like the low end.

The EVs with the big batteries, they're

like 20, 30K plus, you know, like Tesla

Model Y Long Range,

BYD

Uh, what else?

Yeah, there's, there's EVs with like 60-70

kilowatt batteries, but they're expensive.

I can only afford like an older 12K EV.

The only option would be to move out, move

closer to somewhere where they've got a

big Morrison's or a big Asda,

not a tiny one.

I tried a bunch of towns nearby—

Launceston, Oakhampton— nothing.

Sat there for like an hour, not a single

thing.

And then I walked into the store and

realized, wait, they don't even have the

cage thing for Uber Eats, which means they

don't do it.

If they did it, they'd have the cage

that has a label saying deliveries.

I only made £1,200 this month, but I spent

£2,600

because I spent £700 on council tax.

And then I spent £500 on Amazon payments.

So if it wasn't for Amazon payments or

council tax, I would have only spent

£1,600.

Claim back expenses.

Yeah, I'm adding it to my spreadsheet.

For my business expenses.

Electricity.

Why don't I just put down the whole car as

a business expense?

£100 a month business expense.

It's a delivery vehicle.

What do you mean, why did I spend £700 on

council tax?

Because you have to.

You've got to stop clickbaiting.

No, you people have got to start clicking

on my stuff.

Otherwise, I have no choice but to

clickbait.

Don't blame me.

It's your fault.

If I just put in the title, hey guys,

chatting with me in the evening.

There'd only be about 50 of you here.

The reason why there's over 100 here is

because I clickbaited.

Last stream I did, I had

60 viewers because I didn't clickbait.

So don't blame me if I don't clickbait.

The stream doesn't even appear in your

feeds.

The algorithm just ignores it.

Action Kid fell off too.

Yeah, time to get a real job.

That's the problem with these streamers,

they think they're all hot shit until

their numbers start dropping, then they

start panicking.

He admits it's clickbait.

Well, Duh, every single thing I post is

clickbait.

Not a single thing I post is not

clickbait.

Everything is clickbait.

It's designed to get you to click it.

That's the whole point.

No, I'm not unprivating my videos.

They serve no purpose.

Maybe when I'm like 50 years old, I'll put

them back when I don't care anymore.

Why am I cutting my hair like this?

Like what?

I'm finding the parts that are longer than

the rest and balancing it.

Yeah, it takes a long time to cut hair.

And I haven't been to the hairdresser

since

2006.

Now I can cut the back just by feeling it.

I can feel

which bits are too long.

You go like this with your 2 fingers like

that,

and then you just pull it, and then the

ones that stay in between the fingers are

there because they're too long.

Would I move to Kent but not back home?

No, Kent is too expensive and driving in

Kent is a nightmare.

It's horrible.

All the towns are too built up.

I'd move

East Devon or Somerset.

Or Wiltshire,

although I'm more thinking like, uh,

like east side of Exeter, because east and

north Exeter, um, has pretty good links to

the main roads and pretty good access to

mid-sized towns like Tiverton and also

Taunton, which are great places to do Uber

Eats because they're active enough to give

you enough work, but they're not like

really congested cities like Exeter or

Plymouth.

You would not want to do Exeter or

Plymouth in a car.

On a bicycle or motorbike, sure.

But if you got a car,

you can really take advantage of having a

car by doing the supermarket runs like

Morrison's and stuff give you a lot of

bags.

You would not be able to do that on a

motorbike, which means it— what it means

is

people riding a motorbike, they are not

your competition anymore because they

cannot accept those because they don't

have a car.

How are you going to carry like 70 items

of shopping on a motorbike?

So it means as someone who's in a car,

I get to grab all those up.

There's not many people doing it.

A lot of people on motorbikes doing like

KFC and McDonald's.

Let them do that.

I'll do, I'll do, I'll stick to

Morrison's, Asda.

So if I could move somewhere near where

there's a Morrison's or an Asda,

would be pretty good.

Yeah, but the motorbike people get soaked

in the rain, so no thanks.

It's raining today.

Live in your car at the parking lot.

Yeah,

or I buy a bicycle, put it in the car,

park the car at the shopping center, and

then take the bicycle out.

That way I don't have to use my car for

electricity, and then I'll just like pay

the parking fee, whatever it is.

Drake Circus.

Keep the car parked for like 5 hours,

and then I'll take the bicycle out the

boot.

Genius.

Well, next week is my first official week

as a day trader.

Fresh account, £1,000, not holding

anything overnight,

carrying out my strict trading strategy

that I have thought over many nights

about.

Monday, day 1 on Kick.

My new career as an official day trader.

Be there or be square.

It's either that or my life is doomed to

doing Uber Eats

unless I can master the art of trading.

I'm only trading

obvious sweeps of liquidity, strictly

trading

kill zones.

London kill zone,

Asia kill zone.

Also, I'm going to cut losses quick.

So if a trade didn't work out, setup

didn't work out, I'm just cutting it, not

holding overnight.

Holding it overnight is basically just

gambling.

You're just like hoping that by holding

overnight the market is going to rip.

And but there's like a 50/50 chance of

that happening.

It could rip or tank the next morning

whilst you were sleeping.

So yeah, cut losses quick, no holding

overnight,

only trading setups.

Or if it's like one of those catastrophic

days where the market is just tanking or

ripping, then just trade the momentum.

Don't need it set up.

Yeah, I closed everything.

My losses were £1,000 since March.

I don't know how I lost £1,000.

It's because,

well, number one, I went short when that

Trump tariff thing happened, when the

market crashed, and I kept the shorts

opened for that entire rip,

and I ended up giving up holding them.

Closing them out at £400 loss.

I closed out a bunch of shorts at like

£500 loss because I just

couldn't hold them anymore.

The market kept ripping.

And then when I closed them, the market

tanked.

And then I went long at the all-time highs

and then the market crashed.

And then I had to keep adding money to

stop myself getting margin called.

And as soon as I added money, it would all

get eaten up again.

Because the market crashed some more.

So yeah, I mean, that wasn't day trading

though.

That's the thing.

That wasn't day trading.

That was swing trading where you hold

positions for months.

This is swing trading.

Now I'm going to do proper day trading

without holding things for months.

Whilst they suffer hundreds of losses.

If I cut those losses short quickly, that

wouldn't have happened.

And if I didn't hold things overnight,

that wouldn't have happened.

And I have this really bad habit of when

the market's crashing, I want to go mega

short.

And when the market's ripping to all-time

highs, I want to go all in long.

You got to stop that.

I keep shorting into support and longing

into all-time highs.

Really got to stop that.

So if I can stop that, maybe I have a

chance.

Also, I checked my OnlyFans.

It made,

it made nearly $400 this month.

And I haven't posted anything on it since

July.

Someone, like loads of people been buying

the special videos.

Even though those were ages ago.

But there's like new people joining it and

buying up the special videos.

So one guy joined and then spent like $100

on special videos.

I withdrew like $400 out my OnlyFans for

November.

OnlyFans is probably the easiest, best way

to make money still.

Just got to get my anus out.

The special video.

It's just like a, like a long video of me

performing where you got to pay $30 to

unlock it.

I give you like a free little 30-second

clip, like a preview, and then if you like

it, you buy the full version.

So yeah, OnlyFans still

saving my backside,

bringing in a couple hundred, couple

hundred there, couple hundred here, couple

hundred YouTube, couple hundred Delivery

work, hopefully at some point I can say a

couple hundred trading since I have still

not been able to be profitable trading.

It's just so difficult.

I made a couple thousand investing,

but only after losing like 15,000.

So I still haven't made any profit since

2020.

I haven't made a single penny of profit.

I mean, I've made profits But the losses

have far outweighed the profits.

Like, I could do a good trade over 6

months and get like, I don't know, 30%

gains, and then I'll take that money and

put it into a new trade and then lose it

all.

Like, I did pretty good with gold,

and then I sold all my gold at profit and

I put it into Bitmine And then I've lost

like $400 on Bitmine

so far.

So it's like you never really truly lock

in any profits because you take profit on

one trade and then you put it into another

trade and then that other trade goes

wrong.

Markets have doubled last 5 years.

Well, yeah, easy

to say that now.

Where's it going to be in 5 years' time?

Everyone keeps saying AI bubble, AI

bubble.

What if you buy now and it like tanks?

40% and then doesn't recover until 4 years

later.

So now my, my portfolio is silver,

Bitmain, Tesla, S&P 500.

My silver is up 40%.

Now, do I sell all the silver

and then what?

Put it where?

Yeah, well, all the YouTubers are like

very confident now we're gonna get a

rally, all-time new highs by end of the

year.

Kind of makes me not want to do day

trading and I stick the whole CFD account

on SPY longs and just wait for a month or

two.

That would probably make more money than

trying to day trade.

But that's only if you feel confident that

we're going to start hitting new all-time

highs now.

They say, oh, the hedge fund managers are

way behind, and for them to catch up and

get their bonuses for end of year, they're

going to have to

go long or something.

So they probably manufactured that crash

so they could buy in.

They've already bought in by now during

that big crash.

Like, they probably panicked all the

retail so they could get in.

Now I watch this other guy called Shadow

Trader and FX Evolution and Trade Brigade.

I think Traveling Trader is good if you

want to learn about like day trading and

setups.

But I don't really like him for his

long-term analysis stuff.

And he'll always say,

um,

like he's doing a swing trade or

something.

And then like, but when you watch the

video and you go, okay, I'm going in too,

and then it ends up tanking, and then

he'll go, oh, that's cuz you took a trade

based off a video

that was old and you should have been in

the Discord to be in on the trade when I

was first talking.

It's like he's just always, always

shilling his fucking Discord.

It's always like, oh, you, you got to be

in the Discord

cuz my videos are like delayed.

And always, he's always announcing his

wins in the videos after he's already done

the trade.

He'll be like, in the Discord we did this

trade and now it's up 50%,

so what's the point saying in the video

then?

Cuz it's not useful now.

It's just to make you go, oh shit, I need

to get on the Discord then.

He— it's just so obvious his number one

priority is to get people onto the

Discord.

And I was on his Discord for a few months.

He hardly ever trades.

It's his mods and his like business

partners who are doing most of the

trading.

And most of like the trade alerts and

stuff are not from him, they're from his

business partners.

And then he'll do a live stream every day

at market open.

He hardly ever took a trade, or he'll take

a trade and then he'll just close it at

break-even because he changed his mind.

So I only did 2 months and then I canceled

it.

It was $100 a month.

The only fun bit was— the best bit was

him, the drama on the Discord, him

fighting with people.

It was the funniest bit.

Why did I leave my Discord?

Uh, people sharing videos of Charlie Kirk

getting shot was the last straw for me.

That's just disgusting.

I just— I don't want to see that stuff.

People just sharing the clips of him

getting shot.

It's gross.

I, I hate gore.

It's horrible.

Poor guy.

I mean, you don't have to agree with the

things he says.

And I don't agree with a lot of stuff he

said.

Like, I'm not anti-abortion and I'm not

pro-life, and I don't give a damn about

Israel.

But he seemed like a nice guy and he's got

family and he's got kids and

You know, he, he debates people whilst

being polite.

And, you know, it really upset me seeing

that.

It's just sick.

I really don't get the pro-life thing

though.

Why would you want to force someone into

having a baby when they don't want it?

Because then you have a kid brought into

the world where they're not even loved by

their own parents.

That's going to mess you up.

Just let them have the abortion.

I don't get it.

Just make another baby later

when they want it.

They're like, oh, you're killing a life.

We kill lives all the time.

Animal lives,