hello

Hello.

Hello.

Testing.

Testing.

Hello. Hello.

Hopefully this one lasts longer than 30

seconds. No idea what happened.

Fingers crossed. I think it's looking

good.

I guess I could clip the mic to my shirt.

Hold on, I need to Okay,

I think it's working.

Audio is quiet.

Um, it's up, turned up to max.

Maybe I need to talk like this.

I don't know how to boost it. My other mic

broke, the mic I usually use.

Because I guess I put the cable in and out

kind of rough, it broke the USB-C port

off of the circuit board.

So I unscrewed it to try and glue it back.

Turns out you can't use super glue to put

components back onto a circuit board.

My girlfriend took it to a shop to repair

it, but they couldn't repair it. They said

the connector has snapped off or

something.

So yeah, stupid Rode mic can't even have

a sturdy USB port. Maybe it's my fault.

I keep like shoving it in there thinking

Oh, thanks, Dirt McGirt. Very generous.

So your Thai GF knows about your YouTube

now? Yeah, she knows everything.

She knows my name, my YouTube stuff, the

stuff I said on streams.

I'm curious how she found out your

channel. She said she only found it like

10 days ago when I stopped replying

to her much because I was at the

you-know-who's house. She got worried and

then she searched for me on YouTube and

then she found it. She said all she did

was search Daniel in Japan. Apparently,

if all you search for is Daniel in Japan,

my channel comes up. It's like I'm the

only Daniel in Japan who does YouTube,

apparently. Can you think of any

other Daniel YouTuber in Japan? I can't.

I can't believe it's that easy.

Just 2 words.

I've got so much explaining to do. I

haven't streamed since— since I was

in that park, remember? Talking about how

she ghosted me. It's been over a week. So

much has happened. I don't even know where

I just want to make sure the stream is

stable before I get into it.

The sound's okay, isn't it? I just need to

hold the mic really close to my mouth.

Maybe I just want to make sure the stream

is stable.

How are you feeling? I'm feeling great. I

feel so relaxed. Flushing Japan

out of my system has made me feel so much

better about being in Thailand. I feel

like going to Japan, realizing that

it's not going to bring back the great,

the good times, really helped me

rethink things and view things in a

different way. I really had to just flush

that out of my system, the whole getting

back to Japan thing.

Must feel great. Good not having to lie to

your girlfriend anymore. Yeah, it feels

great. I feel so relaxed now. You have no

idea how much stress I was under the last

6 months trying to keep all this a secret.

And now there's nothing to hide. So nice.

I can just let her book plane tickets and

check into hotels. And we went to the

hospital and didn't have to hide my name.

It was great.

Hmm, hmm, hmm, hmm. Okay, I think this

is the best I can do. I've cranked up the

mic to maximum volume. Maybe I can turn up

the gain on the receiver.

The gain is already at max, +12 decibels.

There's not really much else I can do

What about now? What about now?

What about now? No, that doesn't do

I'm trying to use this Rode mic software

to boost the sound, but it doesn't seem to

do anything because this is not a Rode

mic, it's a DJI.

Okay, so last stream I was in that park

complaining that she hadn't replied.

So what, when was that? She stopped

replying on Saturday and I did that stream

on Tuesday or something, so it had been 3

days and I managed to contact her because

I knew her phone number and I phoned her

phone number using Skype. Skype. She

didn't know it was me. She picked up the

phone, she was answering in Thai, and I

was like, it's me, why aren't you

replying? And then she tells me she found

the channel and she found out what I'd

been up to and I was with the Korean

woman.

So I had to explain to her everything and

she said, you have to leave right now.

I couldn't leave right now because How am

I supposed to just leave the Korean woman

when she's there? So I spent one

more night, which was excruciating.

It was probably the most unbearable night

I've ever had because I was just lying in

bed next to you know who whilst I wanted

to check my messages. And basically I just

really wanted to leave to save the

relationship. So I was just lying there

in bed pretending to sleep, trying to fall

asleep with my, my eyes were like

constantly opening wide open because I had

so many things in my mind.

So I was like lying in bed trying to hatch

a plan what to do the next day. My 2

options were either I sneak out while

she's in the shower or I tell her I'm

going to go to the gym. And then sneak out

whilst I'm at the gym. But if I say that,

I wouldn't be able to bring the laptop

because it would be suspicious if I packed

everything. She'd be like, why are you

packing everything? So I had to keep in

mind I might have to sacrifice the laptop.

So I factory reset the laptop thinking I

might have to lose the laptop. Luckily, I

didn't lose it. I have it with me here.

So what I did was I just, I started to

prepare my bag in the morning. I just

secretly stuck my iPad and my Switch OLED

and a few things into the backpack. And

then when she was in the shower, I quickly

grabbed the laptop, shoved it in the bag,

unplugged all the cables, shoved that into

a plastic bag, and I tiptoed to the door,

put my shoes on, and I just ran down

the stairs. Well, I didn't run down the

stairs because she would hear the steps.

I went down the stairs quickly as

possible, got on my bike and I just

pedaled and pedaled, pedaled as hard as I

could until I was really far away from the

apartment. I was shaking my whole legs and

my fingers. My hands were shaking so much.

It was so scary. If she caught me sneaking

out, I don't know what I would have said.

It was probably the most exciting and

scariest thing I've ever done.

Can you read this on Twitch? Yeah, I can

see both the chats.

So then I cycled for like 20 minutes until

I was pretty far from the apartment, and

then I sent off a quick message saying, I

have an emergency in Thailand. I have to

go now. I can't explain. I'm really sorry.

That was it. I didn't

check her reply or anything, so I don't

know what she said.

And then I booked a flight to Thailand.

The fastest flight I could find was 12:00

midnight, arriving at 4 a.m. in the

morning. It was either that or the next

day flight, 9 a.m., arrive— I

think it was like 9 a.m. and arrive at 2

p.m. or something. So I decided to get the

midnight flight because I didn't want to

book a hotel and it was stupid Golden

Week. So all of the hotels were fully

booked apart from the really expensive

ones. It would have cost me like £200 to

book a night. So I decided to just get the

midnight flight and then I rode my bicycle

all the way to the airport. It took me

nearly 6 hours. It was like 45 kilometers.

My knees are still in pain because I

cycled so hard.

And it was the toughest bike ride I've

ever had. Had to have a break in the

middle to get McDonald's,

but it was a pretty nice bike ride. I put

some Bullet for My Valentine on, just

pedaled and pedaled.

Got to the airport around, I think around

8 PM, and I just waited for

check-in time to start. Walked around

a bit, got some food,

and then the plane flight was horrible. I

was in the middle of the row, had this

stupid big wide Thai man sitting on my

left, and he was like dressed up in this

gangster kind of outfit, like really baggy

jeans, this kind of flashy looking button

shirt, Big dangly gold watch on his wrist,

baseball cap. He looked like a stupid

idiot and he was manspreading, stupid

elbows poking me on the armrest. He just

put his arms on the armrest the whole

time, nudging me. Every time he moved, he

was like, like that. It was so irritating.

But on my right side, there was a smaller

Thai woman, which was nice. So I had to

sit like this with my elbows tucked in the

whole time because I didn't want to touch

him. I don't know why he's okay with

touching me. So isn't he bothered with

people? I mean, aren't people bothered

with their elbows touching me? I don't

like to touch strangers with my elbows or

any body part, but it's like other people

don't care. So I was constantly getting

nudged on the elbow and the knee the whole

I kept falling asleep like this. And then

waking up because my neck was really

painful. I didn't get to choose my seat

because it was like a last-minute booking

and it was pretty booked up, fully booked

up. It's so hard to fall

asleep. I mean, it's easy to fall asleep,

but then you wake up again because it's so

uncomfortable on the plane.

I tried sleeping like this with my, my

elbow on the right armrest like that and

resting my head. But then my shoulder

joint was really painful. And then I tried

putting the tray down and resting my head

like that. But my head couldn't bend low

enough to reach the, the table thing. So

the best way I could do it was like this.

But then I'd get this really bad pain in

the back of my neck. It was so

uncomfortable.

Worst flight ever.

And then I arrived at— the plane arrived

early, half past 3 AM, and I

texted her saying I'm here, but she didn't

reply. She was probably asleep. So I just

sat there waiting and waiting, got myself

a SIM card. Went up to the restaurant

area, got myself some breakfast.

Surprised the restaurants are open at like

5 a.m. in the morning. I got myself an

egg. It was egg, bread, some bacon.

Really greasy. Made me feel sick. I wasn't

sure if I should get a taxi and just go

back to the apartment, so I wasn't sure if

she was okay with me coming straight back.

I thought maybe we need to talk a bit.

Maybe I should book a hotel. But then she

replied to me and said, How come you

haven't come back yet? And I said, I was

waiting for you to give me permission. So

then I just booked myself a taxi, went

straight back to the apartment, let myself

in. And yeah, everything was fine. We

talked, talked it out, talked it over. I

explained everything.

And it's kind of like things went back to

normal. I think

things are fine. I think things are fine.

Maybe. Maybe they're

So similar to Chihiro. Yeah, kind of.

Kind of have a problem with her family

though, because she told her family what

happened, but she didn't tell them I came

back. So now they think I

don't know if they hate me or they think

I'm like this terrible guy that broke her

So I'm a bit scared about talking too much

because I don't think she wants me to talk

about her too much.

Did you cry? No.

I nearly cried when I thought I lost her

because I was really sad at the idea that

I might lose her.

I had to think like, do I want to stay in

Japan or do I want to lose her?

And I don't know why staying in Japan just

didn't really seem appealing to me

anymore. You know what would have happened

if I stayed in Japan? Day after day after

day of endless, pointless cycling,

stressing about hotels, going from one

hotel to another hotel, sitting around

outside on my bike. I think it

would have been really boring. I know

people are going to say, oh, you messed

up. You should have stayed in Japan. Now

your content's going to be boring in

Thailand. No, it would have been boring in

Japan. I would have just done nothing. I

would have cycled around in circles all

day long complaining about Not having a

place to live. Maybe I would have lived in

a guesthouse. I was exhausted.

I had no plans. I was just fed up

at that point. There was nothing. I didn't

feel anything special about being in Japan

anymore.

So I decided to come back to Thailand. I

think being in Thailand is actually going

to be better because now I can focus on

making videos and not have to— the problem

with being in Japan, I can't focus on

making proper videos because I'm just

outside all the time and being in like a

stupid crappy hotel.

I need a stable living situation to be

able to focus on making good videos. And

to be able to focus on being creative.

And I need to be in a good mental state as

well. And I just didn't see myself being

in a good mental state in Japan.

I was just been whining about being alone

and miserable and stuff like that the

whole time. I'm not going to make videos

about Thailand because I don't know what

to make about Thailand.

So don't think, oh, I'm not interested in

Thailand, I'm not going to watch Daniel

anymore. I don't think I'm going to make

Thailand videos. Maybe I'll do a few

travel vlogs here and there when we go to

but I'm not going to make like travel,

you know, like 10 things to do in

Thailand, that kind of stuff.

I don't really know what I'm going to do.

Maybe more like personal— my personal

thoughts on life and stuff like that kind

of vlogs.

But I feel much more refreshed now I got

Japan out of my system. The last 3 years

have been torture. Oh my God. Jesus

Christ, that scared me. The last few

years have been torture with wanting to

get back in Japan and Japan being closed

off to foreigners. And in the back of my

mind, I kept thinking that I really messed

up getting divorced and I need to get back

to Japan to be happy again and

to get my YouTube channel back on track

again. So I went to Japan, spent a month

there, realized, no,

Things are over. 2018 and '19 are gone.

Even if I go back to Japan and pretend,

oh look, I'm here again, it's not the same

anymore. I can't just pick up where I left

off. Too much time has passed.

People moved on. It's just not the same as

how it used to be. And I need to move on

too, I guess.

There's nothing left in Japan for me to

pick up from.

So that's what I realized being in Japan.

I can't— sometimes I still can't believe I

was in Japan and nothing happened,

you know, in relation to back though,

back in those times, back in those days.

Always something crazy used to happen,

but now it's just nothing.

I think it was a pretty dramatic ending to

the Japan stuff. I just didn't film it

because it would have been boring. It

would have been me on a bike for like 7

hours just panting,

and I had too much stuff to sort out,

like booking the tickets, I had to post

back the pocket Wi-Fi, had to sort out my

bicycle. I didn't

really feel like it was a good time to

Oh yeah. So I arrived in Thailand on— in

the airport last Thursday. And guess what

happened? I got, I got pulled over by, by

immigration because, because I didn't have

a return ticket and it's only been a month

since I last left Thailand. This was

something I was scared of happening. So I

go up to— I queue up for immigration, go

up to the passport thing,

and I think, okay, everything is going

well. And then she asked me, where's your

return ticket? And then I start thinking,

uh-oh. Oh crap. I say, I don't have

one yet. And then she says, wait a second,

please. And then I'm like, oh my God, I'm

getting denied entry. So another woman

comes over and says, can you follow me,

please? They take my passport and they

lead me over to the detention area. It's

like a detention center with a bunch of

private rooms. And they sit me down,

question me a lot. They said, where's your

return ticket? Why are you in Thailand

again? What do you do here?

She said, you just came to Thailand a

month ago and you were here for nearly 3

months, and then you were here again for 3

months last year. Why are you here again?

And then I had to explain, saying I'm here

to travel. And then she said, you're not

traveling, what are you doing here? So

then I just say, oh, I'm living with my

girlfriend and we travel around. And then

she says, you're not traveling, you're

just living with your girlfriend. And I'm

like, yeah, I live with my girlfriend and

we travel. So I didn't know what to say.

She just kept saying, no, you're not

traveling. So I was like, okay then.

And then she said, you need to have a

visa. And I said, okay, can I get a visa

now? She said no.

And then she said— she told me to buy a

ticket, a return ticket. But there's no

internet. Bangkok Airport doesn't have

internet. There's no Wi-Fi. Even when they

let me in and I was at the entrance of the

airport, there's no Wi-Fi to connect to.

So I couldn't buy a ticket. I said to her,

I don't have internet. And then she was

like, oh, okay, well then next time you

better have a visa. And then I said,

okay, thanks. And then they let me in.

So it's kind of silly.

I still don't have a return ticket.

Yeah, it's silly. They don't have Wi-Fi in

the airport. I was really

scared. I was shaking like my lips were

trembling when they were questioning me.

I had to fill out this form saying my

address, my phone number, my occupation.

You were lucky. Yeah, I feel like I was

pretty lucky, but One of the reasons I—

one of the reasons why I wanted to stay in

Japan for at least a few months was

because I was worried that this was going

to happen. I knew I was pushing it already

by leaving, going to Vietnam, coming back

after 10 days, staying for another 3

So I don't know what to do because they

definitely won't let me back in if I just

leave and come back again. So I'm screwed.

I need to get a visa. So I went to

immigration yesterday to extend my stamp

by 30 days, which I did. Took freaking 7

hours. I arrived at 9 a.m. in the morning.

Guess what time I got back home? I got

back home at like 5:40 p.m. There were so

many people at the immigration center.

The place was packed. The first 2 times I

went to immigration, it was nearly empty.

I just walked in. There was no queue.

Just signed the papers, walked in, got my

stamp. It took like an hour at most. So I

thought it'd be like that this time. It

was completely packed. The queue to queue

up to the immigration thing was like

snaking all the way around to the

elevators. And yeah,

it took like 2 hours to queue up in the

first queue. And then I didn't fill out

the forms properly because I thought you

only need TM7 form, which is what you

needed the first 2 times. But this time

was different. They say I need form 2 and

3. So I had to go back and fill out those

forms and then come back. I didn't have to

queue up again because she said I could

just come straight to the counter.

And then they— there's like

3 forms. You got to fill out your address,

port of arrival, phone number,

passport stuff. And you got to print off—

you got to take a photo and then glue it.

And you also need a photocopy of your

visa. I mean, of your passport. And you

have to put your phone number and sign it.

So I did all that and they stamped it,

gave me a little laminated number queue

for the second queue. And the queue number

was like 180 and my number was 299.

I queued for like 2 hours and then it was

12 o'clock and they stopped for lunch.

And then they said on the microphone to

everyone, come back at 1 PM because we're

going for lunch. So the number was like

260 at that point. So I go down,

I got myself some lunch, got myself

tonkatsu, Japanese lunch.

Waited until 1 PM, go back up, waited for

my number to be called, 299. They call it.

They stamp it. They give me another number

to queue in the third queue, which is to

go into the immigration office. Took me

like another 2 hours sitting there on the

floor waiting for them to call my, my

third, my second number, I think. They

finally call it. I go into the little

office room and they're only letting 10

people at a time go in there. I wait in

there. Hand over my passport and

my, my papers. They just check it.

Took like 5 minutes to check it. They

asked me to put my Thai phone number,

signed this, paid the 1,900 baht.

Then they sent me back out and I had to

wait like another 40 minutes. And then

they call you back again. And then finally

I picked up my passport and they gave me

an extra month. So I can stay in Thailand

until July beginning of July now.

This Chinese girl was next to me. She was

kind of annoying. I was waiting for them

to call my number out on the— they have

like a little machine with your number and

it calls out on the speaker. And then the

Chinese girl kept pointing, saying, go,

you can go now. And I was like, but they

haven't called out my number. And she was

like, but you can go. Shut up. I go when

the stupid number's called. Why are you

trying to Help me? I don't need your

stupid help. She kept telling me to go

when it hadn't even called my number yet.

There were so many British guys there,

all tattooed up. They all looked the same,

like copy and paste clone chavvy looking

British guys. Beard, shaved head,

shorts full of tattoos, and they all had a

Thai girlfriend. It's like stereotype

British chav mate in it with a Thai

girlfriend, none of whom were attractive.

There was one really attractive— I don't

know if she was Thai, but she was like, I

think Thai girl, but she had like blonde

hair, kind of K-pop style. She was pretty

attractive. And the guy she was with was

like this big-nosed Turkish guy with a

beard. I kept looking at the Turkish guy

thinking, how the hell did he get a

girlfriend like that? I think I could tell

why, because he was kind

of talkative and I guess charismatic, I

guess you could say, from a girl's point

of view. But I think

I could see why he landed her. So everyone

was standing up. He goes off and finds

chairs, brings them back to where the girl

is and just slams them down on the floor.

Made me jump. So I could tell he's,

he's assertive and takes the initiative

and just brings over chairs whilst

everyone else was just standing there and

I was sitting on the floor. And then he

sees a mother holding a baby and he gets

up and says, do you want to sit down? So I

could tell he's like very confident and

caring about people around him, which

women really like that. Women really like

it when the guy is kind and looks around

and cares for other people. And he's like,

oh, would you like to take my seat?

Pregnant woman. Women get turned on by

that big time. So I guess I could see why

or how he got her.

I couldn't care less about helping

strangers. People drop stuff and they walk

away. And women like it

if the guy suddenly goes, excuse me, you

dropped your thingamajig. I couldn't care

less. Oh, thanks, Cesium.

Yeah, I'm never getting tattoos ever.

They look so trashy. Sorry if

that offends you. There's probably a lot

of people here who have tattoos,

but I just hate tattoos. I think they look

terrible, especially when they're

big and colorful.

It's going to be tiring holding this mic

for 5 or 6 hours like this. What am I

going to do?

Oh, thanks, Jenkins. Mostly just the

money, then they get dumped. Who, the

British guys? I don't know. I saw some

pretty old-looking British guys. I saw

some guys my age because I had a sneaky

peek at the, the application form,

and I saw one guy next to me, 1989, same

age as me, but he looked like 40.

Like typical football fan, British innit

mate kind of guy. That's the kind of

British guy Thailand attracts for some

reason. It's that and the old British guys

with like white hair who have not, not bad

looking Thai women. I guess they've done

pretty well because what they'd get in

England is like Probably like fat feminist

looking UK British woman.

Clip it to your shirt, but then people are

going to say it's too quiet.

Okay, how does it sound now? It's probably

quiet. I need to talk loudly.

Do I feel disgusted by most people? Yeah.

My initial reaction to most people is

repulsion and annoyance. Unless they're

really attractive, then I feel fine.

Volume is fine. Okay, maybe this is fine

then. I just don't want to stress my voice

too much.

Okay,

so what else happened? Yeah, 7 hours

torture in immigration yesterday. To get

my stay in Thailand extended by a month.

Um, I took the train back. I feel kind of

worried that it's too quiet. I took the

train back and it was like a 40-minute

ride. It cost 26 baht.

The train ticket was only 26 baht, which

is like 60 pence, 60p. And then I took a

Grab from the train station back to my

apartment and my iPhone died. It was like

1%. I had 1% battery, just enough to book

the taxi, but then it died before they

came. So I was standing there looking out

for the taxi. I remember, I remembered the

license plate number. Who did Fuzz take as

a date to the wedding? She didn't take

anyone because She didn't tell her family

that I came back. I don't really care

because I don't want to go.

Yeah, the iPhone's annoying because I

barely used it. I just checked messages

now and then, but 7 hours— it

couldn't even last 7 hours before dying.

But I managed to get home fine.

So I think in total I spent about 3,000

baht for the Thai immigration extension,

taxi fares, train ticket, and lunch.

So that's, that's like ¥12,000,

isn't it?

Oh my God, that's nearly $100. $90.

And then I had, I had to go to the health

clinic because, you know, after certain

things happened, a certain person was

worried about my situation down there.

I had to do a full checkup. Guess how much

that cost me?

$177 to do an HIV test,

a full package STD test. I got everything

tested, came out negative. Cost me $177.

Oh my God, I'm going broke.

I've had to spend so much money.

So thanks to the Korean girl, cost me $177

to get blood tests and a urine test. It

said I'm negative for herpes, so that's

surprising. I thought I got herpes because

Chihiro has herpes and I thought I got it

from her. Sometimes I get like a pimple on

my lip, not on my lip, but on the edge of

the lip. And people say that's like a

symptom of herpes. But I got my test

results and it said herpes simplex

something A and B negative. So I don't

have HIV, don't have anything.

Very expensive so far. Plane ticket

to Thailand was like £200. I think I

spent nearly $600 this past week.

Hmm, and then this week I'm gonna meet my

sister. She's coming to Thailand, but she

said don't film anything. First thing she

says to me is— I said, do you want to meet

up when you come to Thailand? And then the

first thing she says is, okay, but don't

film us. Why is that the first thing

people say to me? Oh, don't film anything.

I wasn't going to film anything anyway,

but it's kind of annoying.

Why are people so scared of me filming?

So I'll bring my girlfriend and then we'll

meet up with my sister and take— maybe

take her to a temple and then some market

stuff. I think it'll be fun.

I don't know why my sister is so against

the filming now. She didn't mind years

ago. Like last time we came to Malaysia

when my dad was alive, she was completely

okay with filming. And now she's

like really anti-filming because

of what? Like one weird thing happened

where some guys recognized her in a bar.

It doesn't— logically, it makes no sense

because I've only got like 5K

viewers now. You guys know what she looks

like already. So by not filming,

I'm just preventing people who know what

she looks like already from seeing her

again. It's not, it's not preventing

anything from happening. My videos are

never going to go viral again. I'm not

going to post a video with my sister in it

and get like 100K views. Another 100K

weirdos. My time of, you know, blowing up

and being super popular on YouTube is

over. My, my peak popularity is well and

truly done. So like a vlog with my sister

is only going to get 5K views probably.

But she's worried. I don't know what she's

worried about.

I wouldn't vlog it anyway because it won't

get views. Oh, meet my sister in Bangkok.

4K views. I wouldn't even bother.

But it's just annoying being told what to

do. And don't do this, don't do that,

don't talk about that, don't talk about

this. Oh no,

Daniel's 5K viewership is gonna find out.

5K views is nothing.

I don't know, I, um, I blocked her.

I don't know what she says.

Don't want to know.

Uh-oh, my sister's online. Why is she

online when I'm talking about her?

I didn't film her in Malaysia last year,

did I? I just filmed like the bottom of

her legs, her shoes.

No one's showing up anymore. I'm not

famous anymore. No one cares.

So I, I did IRL streaming for over

2 weeks in Japan. No one showed up.

Actually, I got recognized in Japan. I

didn't want to talk about it at the time

because I didn't want people saying stuff

like, Oh, you scared you're going to get

recognized when your girlfriend comes? I,

at, you know, when I came back to the slum

hotel on the last day

of the stream, this guy was standing

outside of the slum hotel smoking. And

then he goes, hey, I know you. And I was

like, really? Who am I? And he said,

you're that guy on YouTube staying in my

room. I said, hiding in my room. And then

we chatted for like a few minutes. He said

he remembers me from the whole cheating

and marriage stuff. That really freaked me

out because I thought, oh crap, people

still recognize me in Japan. What if

someone recognizes me when my girlfriend

comes? So I kept quiet about

it because I didn't want to jinx it.

No one recognized me when my girlfriend

was in Japan. I wore the mask nearly the

whole time. I think that might have

helped, but I

was shocked people still recognize me even

to this day. I went to some pretty

touristy places like USJ, the aquarium,

bamboo forest in Kyoto, full of white

people. And no one recognized me, which

Do I still make enough from YouTube?

Yeah, I made loads when I was doing the

subathon. I made like $2K including

everything, like $2.5K I made that month.

And then the next month I made like $1.6K.

But this month I'm on track to making

$600. I really need

to ramp up the video production. I took

such a long break, so I barely did

anything after my girlfriend left, apart

from a few streams. And then I came back

to Thailand. I haven't been able to do

anything because my girlfriend's been here

every day. So I really need to start

pumping out videos. Why didn't you finish

the subathon? I wanted to, but I couldn't.

I really wanted to see the timer get down

to zero or something, but I

put the minutes too high and the timer got

up to like 170 hours and

I had to rush back to Thailand. And yeah,

it was just not possible to do.

The bar crawl. Yeah, I said I was going to

do get drunk at the bar, but I couldn't do

that. Maybe next

I really wanted to do a subathon and see

the timer get to zero and then be like,

oh, bye guys.

Does Thai girlfriend approve of the videos

now? She said she's fine with it, but she

told me to take down a few videos,

which is why all the streams are gone now,

because I don't know which stream it was

in. It was probably in all of them because

I say the same stuff over and over every

stream, don't I? So I decided

to take down every stream in Japan because

I don't know which stream it was where I

said the sensitive things. And I say some

pretty bad stuff in basically every stream

because I was thinking she wasn't going to

know. And I'm not going to sit

there watching, what, 24 hours of

streaming to check which streams I say

Yep. Thai girlfriend knows my channel in

case you're not caught up to current

affairs yet. And she's okay with it. She

actually wants to livestream with me and

stuff, but I don't want to. She kept

asking, when are you going to livestream?

And I said, when you're not here. I know

you guys want to see her and you want to

talk to her on stream, but I've had too

many bad memories and experiences with

like the Mila thing, and it's just

too much headache.

And I know what's going to happen.

I don't want her involved in the channel.

I want her in the videos, like when we go

traveling, but I don't want her to be a

character or like part of

the channel like Chihiro or Mila was,

because I know what's going to happen.

People are going to troll her. And try and

trigger her and say stuff like,

how does it feel knowing you're dating

Daniel? Who? Blah, blah, blah. Did you

know Daniel did this? I know what's going

to happen. Exactly what's going to happen.

So I'd rather just not. I'd rather just

avoid that happening.

Yeah, back in the day I would have made

her make a video saying stuff like why I

took Daniel back, why I decided to date

The trolls are all gone. Yeah, and good

riddance. I don't want to make content

that's going to possibly bring them back.

Now I have to explain to her things like

clickbait, doxxing, toxic audiences.

So I had to explain to her clickbait

titles because some of my titles were last

video with my girlfriend before I dump

her. And I had to keep saying, no, I

wasn't going to dump you. It's just a

title to get people to click it. And then

she's like, oh, what's clickbait? So I had

to say, you know fishing, when you put a

worm on a hook and then you bait the fish?

So I had to try and explain clickbait and

all internet terms. It's so hard trying

to explain this stuff to people who don't—

who are not familiar with it.

But I think she'll understand.

You could get lots of views from her. I

don't really think I would. I think

maybe I'd get 10K views again. If I really

push hard with getting her to help me make

videos,

I don't think it's worth it.

The difference between the amount of money

you make from a video that gets 6K views

compared to a video that gets 10K views,

there's barely any difference. You're

talking about making $25 versus making

$37. It's nothing. It's really

not worth it. I would rather just take the

loss in views and accept it in return

for a bit of, you know, mental peace,

peace of mind.

I got some video ideas like how I got

banned on every single dating app. And,

um, what else can I do?

Just trying to think of some, uh,

personal topics.

People don't like the travel vlogs. They

get really low watch time, like 2 minutes.

You guys are only watching 2 minutes of

the whole video when I do travel stuff.

But then when I do a sit-down and talk

video, it'll get like 5 minutes watch

time. So people

are watching more of the talking videos.

So I want to focus on talking and personal

topics with a bit of cooking

at the end. Maybe some travel footage at

the end of it. But making videos all about

like travel vlogs, they're not working.

And the, the silly thing is I knew this

and I had this figured out back in 2018.

I never did travel vlogs back in 2018. I

focused primarily on the sit-down and talk

and then a few minutes of travel footage

slapped onto the end, or maybe some

cooking. That's how I should have That's

what I should have stuck to.

But at some point along the way, I got

influenced by people like Harold Boulder

and these travel vloggers, and I thought,

I want to do that too. And it just didn't

work.

So I'm still going to film some travel

stuff, but I'm going to slap it onto the

end of talking videos.

Have you come to a decision about the

student visa? Yeah, we've been phoning up

some schools. The problem is a lot of them

are already fully booked. The, the

interesting thing is I don't have to learn

Thai. I could learn Japanese and Chinese.

So I found some schools that teach

Japanese, but I don't know if they teach

it in Thai or in English. My Japanese

is good enough to the point where I can be

taught Japanese in Japanese and it'll be

fine. When I went to Japanese school in

Japan, they teach it in Japanese.

So I would rather learn Japanese again

instead of having to learn Thai because

I'm old. My brain just doesn't pick up new

things as easily as it did when I learned

Japanese. When I learned Japanese, I was

young. You know how old I was when I first

learned Japanese? I was like 18,

18 or 17, learning the basics of Japanese

grammar. I'm 34. My brain has turned

into stone. I can't be bothered to learn

syntax and grammar and learn how to read

and write Thai.

I'd rather just do a Japanese course,

but a lot of these schools are fully

booked, so I might have to learn Thai.

You can also learn Muay Thai, kickboxing,

cooking, some other random stuff like

scuba diving. There's like other random

courses you can do to get the education

visa.

So the options are marriage visa,

which she seems open to the idea of

getting a marriage visa. So marriage visa,

Thai Elite Visa, which is a £14,000

or $18,000,

5-year luxury visa.

Which if I had the money, I would just get

that because it's the easiest. I don't

have to go to school or anything. Just pay

the money and you get the visa. But it's

so freaking expensive. I don't know if I

can justify it. I can afford it, but then

it's like 70% of my savings wiped out.

Over 5 years, it's nothing. It's like

$2,800 a year over 5 years.

But having to pay that all at once in one

lump sum is a scary amount of money to

have to pay. So there's

Thai Elite's visa, student visa, which is

financially the most affordable. Just

£1,000 for a Thai language school

for a year course seems like the most

reasonable one. But then I have to go to

class every day. Or maybe just a few days

a week. I have to get on the train. Most

of these schools are in the same area

around the Sukhumvit,

central Bangkok area. And that's like an

hour train ride away from me.

What's luxury about it? It's a luxury visa

because you get VIP access to, you get VIP

lounge access, I think, in the airport and

like a private taxi chauffeur who picks

you up and takes you to the airport. And

so when you land, arrive at the airport,

some guy is going to be standing there

waiting for you with your name on a board

and you get, get a private taxi back to

your place, which is nice. Also, they

handle all of the immigration stuff for

you. You give them your passport and then

they'll just do all the paperwork and the

waiting around in immigration for you.

But the downside is it takes like

a month to apply for it. They have to do

background checks and you've got to fill

out forms and do all this stuff, payments

and stuff. So I'd probably have to leave

Thailand to get that.

Processed. Yeah, there's a 20-year Thai

Elite version too, but it's like $50,000.

I don't have $50,000.

Maybe if I can get a bank loan. New

donation goal, $50,000 Thai Elite.

So those are my options. Thailand

marriage, student visa. I think student

visa is the most logical.

That's if I can get into one. They all

seem to be pretty fully booked up now.

Loads of people are coming to Thailand

now. Immigration was packed. I'd never

seen it so packed.

And maybe if I didn't lose, what, 15K on

stocks, I would be able to buy the Thai

Elite and not worry about it.

So yeah, and then the week after next week

we're going to Phuket. Might do a

vlog there. Phuket is a very nice

paradise-looking tropical island.

Gonna go swimming, nice blue seas.

I'll make a vlog, I guess.

Probably get like 4K views.

What stock did I lose on? I lost 60% of

my money on meme stocks,

BNGO and MVIZ,

Microvision.

So I wanted to go to Phuket before, but

the reason why I was avoiding it is

because we have to fly there and I was

scared my name will get Leaks if we

keep flying. But now she knows my name,

don't have anything to hide. We can just

fly anywhere. 1 hour on plane, by plane.

So much rage with the views. Yeah, well,

I'm pissed. I got 112k subs,

but they don't freaking watch. All they do

is complain that, oh, too much drama, or,

oh, you don't do anything, just sit in

your room. And then I get out of the room

and do some vlogs and they still don't

care. How the hell do I have 112,000

people subscribed to me and I can't even

get 10K views? Yeah, I'm salty and I'm

gonna be forever pissed about it.

But that is YouTube. Channel's old, it's

like 6 years old. If the channel blows up

5 years ago, it's probably gonna be dead

by now. But I'm still pissed off about it.

I guess I'll tell you my fake name.

My fake name was Reed. Daniel Reed.

And I accidentally leaked it. I don't know

if any of you guys noticed it. It seems

like no one noticed it because they didn't

screenshot it and put it on the subreddit.

When I passed my driving test, I

photoshopped the, the pass certificate

with my fake name so I could show it.

I accidentally posted that screenshot

of the photoshopped certificate to my

Instagram and the Instagram post got like

250 likes before I noticed, oh shit, I

posted my fake name on the Instagram post.

And I quickly took it down and reposted

the real one. But it seems like no one

noticed it, which I'm pretty shocked.

Come on, haters. Yeah, you're being lazy.

You could have found out my fake name all

the way back then.

I chose Reid because it's slightly similar

to my real name.

Yeah, my first name is still Daniel,

which I guess was a mistake because you

don't need my last name to find my

channel. You need my first name plus

Japan. Well, in the future, I guess I'll

do a fake first name like John. Do I

look like a John?

The first name is actually the big

problem.

I should have put road because road in

Japanese is rodo, same as lord.

Load, lord, and road is all the same in

Japanese katakana.

I don't know. I didn't really put much

thought into it at the time. I didn't even

think there was going to be a relationship

when I first messaged her.

I only got one SIM card at the airport

this time. Stream seems to be fine. I

don't know why I wasted my money. Paying

for 4 SIM cards. How dumb is that?

I don't even need Speedify, I guess. I

don't know if I need the IRL server

because that's costing me $100 a month.

The connection seems to be pretty stable,

but if you're constantly disconnecting,

the server does help a lot.

I might just cancel the IRL server. I

don't see myself doing IRL in Thailand.

What am I going to do? You know how hot it

is? It's like 40 degrees. So freaking hot.

No way am I going to even walk or bike

around. There's no one bikes here. I think

I've seen 2 bikes, cyclists. It's pretty

dangerous. The traffic here is insane.

One funny thing happened on Sunday, I

think. When we were going to the clinic,

we were stuck in a traffic jam and I

nearly shit myself in her car. I was

crossing my legs, I was squeezing, I was

clenching. My nails were digging into my

palms. I was so much— I was in so much

pain and agony trying to stop myself

having explosive diarrhea in the car. I

don't know what I ate, but I needed the

toilet so badly. I got out of the car in

the middle of the traffic jam and I ran.

I couldn't stand it. I was gonna shit

myself. I kid you not. I said to her, I

need to go to the toilet now. Can I get

out? So I just get out of the car in the

middle of the traffic jam. 8 lanes of

traffic. I run across 5

lanes of, of traffic jam.

And I just run to the 7-Eleven. They don't

have toilets in the 7-Eleven here. So they

pointed me somewhere and then she, she

drove into— when the traffic got moving,

she drove into one of these apartment

condos and we had to park. And I was like

following her on foot. When I started

walking, it wasn't too bad. It's just when

I sit down, I really needed to shit. And

they let us use the toilet and I was

sitting on the toilet for like 20 minutes

just squeezing something out. I don't know

what it was. It was like brown and flaky.