everything is F--CKED

Someone leads Marifred.

Oh,

oh my God.

Is it streaming?

My mum kicked me out the house, but she

would not be happy if I stopped.

Yeah, I think lowering the bitrate down to

750 really helped.

Back in the green.

It's very bumpy though. The bitrate line.

How's the quality? I lowered the bitrate

by like 50%.

Yeah, my internet sucks. I know,

still looks good. Interesting.

Yeah, it's interesting, the quality looks

way better on Twitch compared to my

YouTube streams. Look at my YouTube

streams, they're like all blurry and fuzzy

looking. I think it's because I put ultra

low latency on YouTube. Maybe I should put

it back to normal. Wow, Bitcoin really

took a drop. Look at that drop.

I'm down $3 now.

Testing, testing,

testing. Yeah, you can hear audio.

Yeah, you can hear audio. Can you hear?

Yes, you can. Okay, I think we're back.

Technical difficulties. Who saw that video

Sarah Peachy— Sarah Dietschy made showing

Meet Kevin's setup? He has like a $200,000

professional broadcasting station. His,

his gear is crazy, the stuff he has.

He's got like teleprompters, he's got like

5 cameras pointed at him, he's got like

all these professional mixer

things with all the buttons and sliders

and stuff. So over the top.

You don't need all that nonsense. Just do

it like me. You got cheap $20 webcam. Got

Streamlabs. I can do everything Meet

Kevin does. He spent like £200K

on his studio. He's got

these, um, teleprompter things with like a

mirror, so the, the tablet screen is on

the bottom and then its image is reflected

in front of him, and then the camera lens

is behind the mirror. This is something I

always wondered how he did. How does he

stare right into the camera lens whilst

also looking at the person he's talking

to? Because the camera lens is behind this

one-way mirror— two-way mirror— and then

the mirror is reflecting a screen that's

showing the person's face. So he's looking

right into the lens, but he's also looking

at the screen. Very weird.

You could get the stream deck. Yeah, but I

don't switch anything. I made a few

scenes. I made this one.

Oh, it's the same. It just gets rid of my

overlays. I was gonna make like a YouTube

reaction scene where it brings up

a window for YouTube and then my face is

in the corner. I couldn't be bothered.

I feel like it's just so over the top.

You don't need that much.

He's just way overthinking everything.

He's got like 5 iPads or something.

Well, he's got the money. Didn't he also

say he leaves the lights running on all

day long? So all night as well. So he

wakes up in the morning, goes straight in,

and everything's already turned on. How

much electricity he uses.

Okay, get back to my scheming.

Okay, so we're gonna make a 5-part series

in London. This is an investment,

so we gotta think how much money we want

to spend on this series,

maybe we spend like £600 and then

we get £400 out of it.

Do some livestreams too.

Yeah, this is kind of like an investment,

isn't it? You gotta spend money to get the

I think the bitrate stabilized.

I hate it when I lag and I have to

restart. I lose like half the people and

then they don't come back straight away.

I'd probably make more money if I just

used this money than put it on stocks.

So how many days are we gonna go? I think

we need to go a week. I need to be there

over the weekend because that's when

Japanese Girl said we could make some

content. So I think maybe Thursday or

That's if she's not a flaker.

So first, why moving to London?

Maybe you need a more exciting title.

Um, why I hate living in London. Meeting a

cute girl in London. Oh, I just love it so

much if I can get a girl and then she

moves in with me and I can do the whole we

moved in together clickbait stuff.

Check the prices for hotel.

Why my new girlfriend is annoying and not

up to my standards.

Oh look, it's the hotel I went to with

Mila, isn't it? DoubleTree.

The Cleveland, £400. Royal Eagle Hotel,

£200. Wow,

there's like some really cheap hotels for

just £200. Look at that,

that looks okay, that's fine for some

content. It's not like I'm gonna live

there.

£200, I could go a bit more, I think.

Central Park Hotel,

£250 standard.

Maybe £400 would be reasonable,

would be doable.

I could also get Uber Eats in London and

like do food reviews. That's something I

wanted to do. I could do like trying

Indian food. I could do like Asian guy

tries out Indian food for the first time,

and then Indian people would click it.

And then I could do trying Japanese sushi

in London. Just get a load of Uber Eats.

No, I'm talking about for the whole week,

£400, which is

$560.

And then for food, I probably spent $200

for food, so that's about $760.

And then transport would probably be like

$50. I'd probably spend $800, and then if

I get a call girl, I might get— might

spend about $1,000. $1,000 for the week.

That means I have to make— if I'm gonna

get 15K views, and 15K views is usually

I'd have to make like 15 videos.

Maybe I'd make a couple hundred if I

livestreamed. I just feel like I won't

make the money back, and then I go all the

way there and just sit in a tiny horrible

hotel room. I really need a good reason to

go. Maybe I'll reduce it from 7 days to

just 4 days. I mainly want

to go— mainly want to go to do that

Japanese girl and make OnlyFans stuff with

her. Otherwise, I don't think I'd go.

If older content didn't work— what do you

mean it didn't work? It works every time

when I go to a new place. I get like

20-30K views, and then I do a why I hate

living in the place I was just not really

living in. That always gets loads of

Yeah, maybe I'll just book 4 days, try not

to spend more than $300 on the hotel, and

then maybe $200 on food. So that's $500,

$600 transport. I reckon I could do this

for $600. $600 investment.

And then we'll make like 5 videos plus 2

livestreams plus 5 Chef

Daniel food videos too.

300 won't get you a decent place. I can

also get a really cheap place and do the

whole Philip Soto TV. Staying at the

cheapest place in London. Yeah, let's rip

off that bloody guy. Oh, that'd be so

funny. I do staying at the cheapest place

in London and the next video why I hate

living in London, and then people can say,

would you expect? You stayed in the

cheapest place, idiot.

Rip off Philip Soto. Staying in the

cheapest Motel.

Cheapest motel in London.

That guy went viral doing that.

Why do I want to go to London, sit in a

hotel? I'm going there to make content,

but it won't actually be the cheapest

place. I mean, people aren't going to

Google it and find out if it's really the

cheapest, apart from the losers on Reddit.

They're going to go, I I just Googled

Dan's hotel and it's not actually the

cheapest place. I'm not actually going to

get the cheapest place. Why I hated

living in London.

What else can we do? We could also do like

eating at the cheapest restaurant in

I don't know about this cute girl one.

It's very— it's not really 100%

guaranteed.

I need a new number 2.

Surviving on one day in London.

Yeah, people like those money topics.

I'll just livestream every Uber Eats meal

and then I'll probably livestream that on

Twitch and then edit that down for like

a 10-minute video on the second channel.

Get a cool girl and then secretly film it.

Yeah, baby. No, I would never do that.

That's illegal.

What else can I do?

Living in London.

Cost of living in London. Those videos do

well. Where do I even start with London?

It's one of those places that completely

capital, or you're just curious.

Pros and cons of living in London. Hello,

welcome back to my YouTube channel. Did

you guys know I live in London? London?

Is that crazy? It's like it's part of

working in London.

Bridge, totally scary, totally eerie, but

this is the last stretch and I know things

will be back to normal very, very soon.

Follow me around over the next few days

for Fall

and cook at the same time. Watch.

My life in London could

be like day in the life video. My life in

London. What if these videos all bombed?

I'd be so pissed off.

I still feel like it's a bit risky because

I feel like people don't actually care

about London. Need to make it less focused

on the London bit and more focused on the,

hey, look guys, I'm moving out and living

on my own.

They will bomb. Yeah, I'm worried it's

gonna do badly like the Bird Inn series.

The Bird Inn stuff only got like 20k.

I need to make it more focused around a

girl. Less of these

like wannabe vlogger type videos. My

audience don't care about that.

I can do— I can

do why I'm moving to London, get the

picture of that OnlyFans girl, put it in

the thumbnail, and then put like a

question mark next to her face.

Who would you say your audience

demographic is? Weird creepy guys who are

obsessed with sex and girls. So basically

a good reflection of me. You are— you get

what you are. You get the audience that

you reflect on, that reflects you.

Why I'm moving to London. And then

I can just say, oh, I'm messaging a girl,

she lives in London, she said we could do

OnlyFans. I'm so excited and hyped up.

And then, I don't know, she ghosted

me. So if she does ghost

me, I can do like a big clickbait rant

about how angry I am, and then if she

doesn't ghost me, then I get to have sex.

So it's like win-win.

How do I do this?

Why, why I moved back in with my mum. The

finale.

At age 32 as a

divorcee. Why I moved back in with my mum

as a failed divorcee. No, at age 32.

How's that? That's looking pretty good.

The London series.

I'm gonna message her now.

I hope she doesn't block me or ghost me

until I'm actually there. That— I need the

anger to be real.

I'm going— I think I'm

going to book the hotel in London

next week.

Okay, see if she replies.

I need to fart.

Maybe I'll mute it. Oh no, it's going back

up.

I'm getting excited. Oh no, Bitcoin's

dropping. Oh my God,

I need to poop.

Yeah.

Doo doo

doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo doo.

Wow, I made $598 from all this Twitch

streaming. Look at my donation goal.

Maybe I'll just use that as my budget. I

mean, that's what the donations were

supposed to be for anyway.

Okay, what's happening?

Hmm,

I need to really hype up the OnlyFans

Japanese girl in the beginning, and then I

need to do like

a massive angry rant if she cancels.

Hmm, how do I incorporate that into the

title? I like Why I'm Moving to London,

it's nice and simple.

I could put brackets, meeting Meeting

a girl. I could say, I met a girl, she

also does OnlyFans, and she said we could

do OnlyFans content, and then I could

shout out her OnlyFans to prove that

she's real.

Any ideas? What can I put in brackets?

Meeting Japanese car.

Do do do do do do do do do

do. I noticed the chat's not on the

screen. Why is that?

Wow, it's looking very crowded now.

Do do do do do do do

do do do do.

Okay, what can I put in these brackets?

Why I'm moving to London. Gotta think of

the thumbnail as well. Maybe just me

standing at the train station wearing my

mask like I'm waiting for the train.

What worked before? Usually just why I'm

moving to XXX place used to work. It

should still work.

Why I'm moving to Germany, 31K views.

Why I'm moving to South Korea,

38k views. I never

did a why I'm moving to Rotterdam video.

I couldn't do that. Why I'm moving to...

Did I use hand sanitizer? No, I just

sprinkled some water on my fingertip.

It was a pretty dry poo anyway. It's not

really necessary.

Why I'm moving to London?

She ghosted me.

So the setup is number 1,

you explain the reason, and then the

punchline would be number 2, her ghosting

me. But what if she doesn't ghost me?

Then what do I do?

Then I'll change this number 2 to meeting

the Japanese girl.

Emphasize she's not a catfish. I can

explain that in the video.

But when do I— how do I make the video?

I guess I could make it in the hotel room

and then just film myself in the train and

stuff going there, opening the door,

entering the hotel room, doing my usual,

oh look, it's a fridge. I think I'm a

And then I sit down on the bed or

something, do like an explanation.

Or I start the video off black screen,

some white text, and I can put,

um, I decided to go to London to meet a

girl to make some OnlyFans content.

Put some music.

Go to her place. She did say I could come

to her place. I could film inside and be

like, I'm in her place, I'm in her house

now. She's in the shower getting ready.

We're gonna make our OnlyFans content.

I'd love to date someone who does

OnlyFans. We could make so much money. We

just have to film every time we f— Do

you have anyone who can volunteer to do

editing? Why do I need someone to do it?

I can do it myself. It's easy.

I just— I'm not sure if I can do the whole

incel rage thing like I did before because

now I'm less stupid. I'm not gonna

let myself get all hyped up over it like I

did with the German girl. But then that

makes the incel rage less funny,

because I'd be like, oh, whatever, I guess

I kind of knew it was fake.

I would have to fake the outrage. I can't

believe she ghosted me. Women keep wasting

my time. And then maybe another girl would

come and meet me like Turkish girl did.

Yeah, it's kind of difficult. We have to

see what happens.

Staying in the cheapest— when do I do the

staying in the cheapest motel room bit?

Do I do that before or after she ghosted

me?

I think after is fine.

No, I don't want to put catfish in the

title. I feel like it might screw the

algorithm because it's like a sexual term.

Oh no, Bitcoin's dropping again.

Why? What if I wake up tomorrow and it's

like 40k? Or what if I wake up and it's

50k and I regret not buying more?

Hello, coffee boy. We are planning my trip

to London. Look, we've got 18 hours to go.

I managed to, um, accumulate $598.

Not bad, not bad. I made that in a month

on Twitch thanks to mostly trolls

donating.

They're gonna help me get laid.

Do I have a lot of spare cash? No, I have

like $500 left. Everything else is tied up

in stocks.

I could use my overdraft and go like minus

$800. I could put like $1,000 on Bitcoin

now.

But when it drops below 44K, it's a bit

scary because

look, it hasn't dropped that low since

May.

Where's that? What the hell is that?

Yeah, it's dropped even lower than it did

back in May, so it's broken support,

I think. Look at that, last time

it's this low it was 28th of February.

Wow, I think that's like one of the

support lines. So if it drops beyond

that, the next one, it could drop all the

way down to like— what's that say?

I can't see it. $38K. That's $38K there.

It could drop all the way down to $38K.

Yeah, I don't think I want to buy anymore.

I'd buy more if it drops below $40K.

Yeah.

I think that's a good idea.

If it drops anything below 40K, I'd

probably try and buy a bit.

1 minute— that is the 1-minute chart.

Maybe 5 minutes.

Yeah, that's better. Okay, keep an eye on

it.

Hmm,

I might go to sleep soon.

I need to get some face masks too.

Wow, I think my Resident Evil review video

is going to get 20K views. Isn't that

amazing?

You forgot to work out? I did some pumping

earlier. When are

you going to London? Well, my face masks

arrive tomorrow. I mean Tuesday.

I'm not sure, maybe end of the week.

Maybe before weekend.

She said on the weekend we could meet,

so I want to be there a couple days before

the weekend so I can get some of these

vlogs filmed and edited and up there. I

need to get the hype going.

And we could do like staying in cheapest

motel room. I've seen other channels get

views doing that, but I don't feel like my

channel would. I don't feel like it's

worth doing. Well, I could just do it on

the second channel because I'm only— I'd

only make this title because I've seen it

go viral on different channels. I don't

feel like my viewers would care. So I'll

probably get rid of number 3 and move that

over to like a number 2 kind of title.

We need to focus on Hiding in My Room

audience titles, and then viral type

titles could go on second channel where I

don't really care.

So I like 1 and 2,

3. Your Goshiwon video got good views.

Yeah, it did, but it took ages. In the

beginning, only got about 20K views.

It took like a year to get that,

but I don't feel like people care about

London in the same way. Did you message

Candice? Who's Candice? I keep

seeing that name.

Candice Owens. Is that like

a Mike Oxlong name?

Candice Owens?

Candice Owens.

Candice Owens. What does it mean?

I know Mike Oxlong and— no,

I don't know what Candice Owens sounds

like. She's a news person.

I don't know what this reference is. I

thought it was like a funny name that

sounds funny when you say it out loud.

Cost of living is

too expensive. What else can I do?

Sad and lonely in London would be a

livestream title. I can't think.

It depends what happens on number 2.

It's hard

to plan number 3. If she ghosted me, then

what would number 3 be?

She's not replying.

She also won't accept my follow request.

A bit fishy.

Such a pain in the ass. So the whole The

whole video revolves around the bloody

title. You got a bad title, people don't

click. I mean, the video could be utter

nonsense and rubbish, but people would

still click as long as the title's funny

or interesting.

So the whole main important thing is

trying to think of a good series and

The topic is— the theme is going to London

to meet a girl to do OnlyFans,

and then the possibility of getting

catfished or ghosted, and then

whining about how much London sucks,

ultimately ending in returning

back to my mum's place.

Thumbnail matters too. Yeah, it does.

For number 2, I'd probably do like a

really sad face, like,

she ghosted me.

Life in London, so amazing.

People are so rude when you try and get

off the train. They get— they don't get

out of the way. They just stand there like

idiots. In Japan,

people stand by the side to let people on

and off. I can just use the same argument

I did 2 years ago.

She's real and she wants to meet me in

London. It's way too long. It's not very

catchy either.

Or I could put going to London to meet

OnlyFans, to meet a girl for OnlyFans,

but then I've just explained everything in

the title.

If I put why I'm moving to London, they

might be like, oh, why is he moving to

London? And then click on it. But then if

I just write why I'm moving there in the

title, they might just look at it, laugh,

and not click on it. But then

they might click on it to write a comment

to say, lol, what an idiot.

Moving to London to meet a Japanese

girl. Meeting a Japanese girl in London,

something like that. Ah, so tricky.

The wording of the title can make or break

Might go to bed now and think about this

seriously. I think this is a good idea. I

definitely want to try maybe

4 days in London,

and I want to try doing it all just using

this money that I made on Twitch, $598.

And then as I'm using the money,

I'll, I'll subtract it from the donation

goal. So I'll be like, I just spent $200

on a hotel. Minus $200 and then it will

say like $398.

That'd be cool.

Living on $500 in London. Yeah,

I want to somehow incorporate this

donation amount. Kind of like Ice Poseidon

does. He does living off of donations for

24 hours.

Oh, I could just stream the whole thing on

Twitch. I wish— how?

I guess I could, couldn't I? I can just

click on the donation goal. Oh, but I need

my computer then.

Ah, there's so many options. If this was

Ice, he'd probably do it on YouTube as a

stream and then it'd put living in London

off, off of donations,

and then no one donates because they want

to see me suffer. That's what would

happen. They'd be like, oh, we can make

Daniel starve if we don't give him any

money. But I don't really want

to stream outside. I don't want to dox the

hotel straight away.

I got kicked out my hotel room.

I want to wait until his pimple's gone as

well. I reckon it should be gone end of

next week. It's still red, but there's a

tiny lump. Definitely don't want to meet a

girl when I've got a big red patch. I

don't know why this bit's red too. Oh,

there is a pimple here. Fucking pimples.

Why do they always appear at the worst

timing?

Well, we failed to make any money on

Bitcoin. Minus $250.

Looks like it might be going back up.

It looks like a bullish reversal. Look at

that, it's gonna go like this. I reckon

it'll go up. Oh, it's raining. I love it

when it's— when it's raining. The sound

soothes me.

Squeeze the pimple. The problem is the

pimple's so deep down, there's nothing to

squeeze out, or it would require

so much pressure to squeeze, it would

probably just burst and bleed and then

leave an even bigger scar.

Oh, that sounds good. The rain is so

Clipbloodyanimeman tweeted, just purchased

a 3rd manga bookshelf. Why do these manga

anime nerds do that? They build a

bookshelf so they can store all their

manga so they can show off how much of a

manga nerd they are. It's just stupid.

As if they actually read all of it. After

they've read it, just throw it away.

Why do you have to build like a library?

It's like a stupid collection thing,

isn't it? Like video game nerds collect

all the video games, put it in a case. I

just don't get that mentality. Manga nerds

are the worst for hoarding and collecting.

They have a whole wall of manga that they

probably never touch. And then they've got

the stupid figurines as well.

So cringe. This is my

$500 hentai figurine.

You can take off the panties.

And people think I waste a lot of money.

I don't collect anything. Collect my

ex-girlfriend's dirty underwear.

No, not really.

I don't like collecting or hoarding stuff.

I like to have less stuff, really. If I

don't use it, I end up trying to throw it

away, and then I'll end up wanting

to use it again, then I buy it back.

I'm going to bed.

It's easier to think of this stuff when

Do I have sentimental possessions?

Uh, recently I'm keeping Mila's

toothbrush. Do you want to see it?

I got this vase that

I painted with her. We went to a pottery

painting class in Germany. We did

that together, so I'm keeping this.

It's quite a nice little memento. And then

I got this toothbrush that she used. It's

got her name on it. She wrote it, but it's

fading away.

You can't really see it, but it says Mila.

I wonder if I can focus it. Oh, that's

sad. The smile faded away.

Can you see it? Look,

you can see the 2 dots here. That's the

eyes. The smile was here. It's gone now.

Well, it used to say Mira.

Yeah, those are the only things I have

I used to have other things. I had the

train ticket I bought to go and meet her

in London. I also had that weird stick

feather thing. I think my mum chucked it

away because I can't find it now. Maybe

she thought it was just rubbish.

Remember she brought back that stick with

feathers attached to it when I was

streaming before she slapped me? And I was

all annoyed. I was like, oh my God, what

did she bring now? Like a cat bringing a

dead mouse into the house. That's why I'm

so disappointed with myself. Stuff like

that, at the time, I don't know why I got

so annoyed about it. It was cute now I

think back on it. It was like a cute sweet

thing she did and I was all annoyed.

I don't know why I keep getting annoyed at

such stupid things. And then it kept

happening when we were together in

Rotterdam. I kept getting annoyed at

little things.

And then after she left, I, I looked for

it and I put it on my window and I was

looking at it, kind of cherishing it.

I really gotta stop that, getting annoyed

at really tiny things. It's just gonna

push people away. Why is the 3rd video

idea missing? Because I can't think what

It's just in the moment I

end up getting annoyed and not being

able to realize that I'm being stupid for

being annoyed. At this, and then only

later after it's all over, then I start

realizing, ah, why was I such a dick?

I just really got annoyed when she was

rough with me, like when she put her

finger in my mouth when I was yawning. It

was just annoying. She would poke me in

the face. That was annoying. I hated it

when she licked my eye.

I don't miss those things, but I feel like

I got a bit too annoyed, more than I

But I kept saying, don't do that, and she

kept doing it.

If I say I don't like it, then why can't

they stop doing it?

She also kept hitting me in the stomach.

I got her to stop doing that too. And then

she kept— when we walked, I, I want

to just hold hands, but she kept putting

her arm over my shoulder, which made me

feel like the woman. Usually it's the guy

who puts his arm around the girl's

shoulder, but she kept doing it to me.

And it was really hard to walk like that

because you're like right next to each

other and she's got her arm over me and

it's kind of difficult to move.

So I had to keep taking her arm off and

then, you know, holding her hand to walk

like a normal couple. And then when she

laughed, she would like backhand slap me

in the stomach, which was annoying.

I had to tell her to stop doing it.

She also would jump on me, so when I

hugged her, she would like jump on me,

and then I had to carry her, and it hurt

my back. 'Cause I was

so unfit in Rotterdam. I didn't go out

ever, I didn't exercise. I was just

sitting on that bed. The sofa bed made my

neck ache every time I fell asleep on it

and woke up the next day.

Ugh, I'm bleeding. I think I scratched

something. Yeah, she was just like a

really playful, energetic dog, always

jumping up and whacking me and stuff. It

just got kind of annoying, so I felt like

I was always being attacked. I had to

watch out for the next backhanded slap or

poke in the face.

I just want to be treated gently. I know

it was like her way of showing affection,

but I didn't really like it.

I wanted to hug, I didn't want to carry

her.

Well, that's probably why I lost her,

because I didn't like anything she did or

said, and then she probably noticed and

then didn't like me anymore.

I just hope next time I get a girlfriend I

don't get so annoyed. I probably will

though. I just can't stop it from

happening. I get annoyed with everyone.

Why can't people just not be annoying?

I'm getting old.

Don't have the energy for this really

playfulness.

Why can't you stop thinking everybody's

annoying? Because they are annoying.

How would you not find it annoying if I

kept poking you in the face? You saying

you wouldn't be annoyed? Like every day,

multiple times. Don't lie, you'd find

that annoying as well. It's not funny.

Um, why am I

bleeding? I just scratched my foot because

it was itchy, so I scratched it and now

Would you ever tell them what annoys you?

Yeah, I think I did. I, I said stop doing

it,

but they don't listen.

Or maybe I'm just moody, like I get into

bad moods easily and then everything

annoys me. And then when I'm in a good

mood, it doesn't really annoy me much.

So right now I feel really lonely and sad,

and I think,

yeah, I don't mind getting poked in the

face if it means she's back again. Seems

like such a stupid little thing to moan

about.

Yeah, well, it's hard not to be moody

sometimes when your whole life is going to

shit. Maybe I've had some good news.

Even this stupid Bitcoin is now dropping

again.

Oh my God. Look at that.

Now I'm down $4.

And there's one thing that annoys her

about you. Now she's wondering if she

would put up with it again. Probably she

wouldn't.

Yeah, she did tell me what I did that

annoyed her. She said, um, one thing was

when she messaged me, I would just leave

her on read and then I wouldn't reply or

do any kind of reaction. She said it made

her feel lonely. I guess that was kind of

stupid of me. I don't know, she would say

something and then I didn't really know

what to say, so I just left it on read.

And then she also said that I don't ask

her any questions. Which is true.

I was scared she would start going on and

on about something, but I've never been

good at asking questions to people. I suck

at asking questions. I don't even know

what questions to ask.

Like, would you rather be a bird or

a snail? And then she would come up with

some reason why she'd rather be a snail,

and then I go, oh, That's a really

interesting way to look at it. I just

can't imagine myself being like that.

Oh, that's an interesting perspective. I

never thought of it like that. Would you

rather be able to fly or be invisible?

That seems like the dumb stuff girls like

asking,

you know, stuff that probes their

personality. So it seems like you want to

know about their personality by asking

these questions.

Is that what they want when they say you

don't ask questions?

Uh, one girl used to be like that. She

kept asking stuff like, if you had 3

wishes, what would you wish for? Like

she's trying to shit test you to see what

kind of personality you have. Like, are

you gonna say, I would want to help people

all over the world, I want infinite

money so I can help the poor people?

I don't have the patience for this.

I don't have the patience to play these

games that girls want to play, and then

they dump you if you fail. Like, I failed

all the shit tests Mila gave me, and then

she dumped me.

Like the connecting shit test and the

showing an interest test. I failed it all

miserably.

Also, I didn't do very well at socializing

with her family, which is pretty— a very

important aspect. Girls want their

boyfriend to be liked by their family,

don't they? That's a really important

thing, I think. And I barely put in any

effort to make her family like me.

Like, I just sat there at the dinner table

Like a mute idiot.

I didn't even make any effort to make

conversation. I just sat there staring at

the table like this.

I didn't make any effort at all.

I just waited until they asked me

questions. That was probably

pretty bad.

And she kept trying to get me to talk to

the grandmother. Like, she kept saying,

go downstairs and talk to her. And I

was like, do I have to? She can barely

hear a word I'm saying.

Oh, I can't do it. That's why I said

Chihiro was great because she didn't make

me meet her family.

It's so difficult, all this stuff.

You think getting the girl attracted to

you in the first place is the difficult

part? It's not. That's probably one of the

easiest parts. The difficult part is

making her want to be with you by passing

all this stuff. I failed the family

thing so badly. Probably the friend thing

I didn't do very well, but I did try a bit

to make conversation with her friends. It

wasn't as awkward.

I think for the girl, even if she likes

you, For her, having her friends and

family also like you is also really

important because women are like social

creatures way more than men. Social

standing for women is really important,

like what their friends think, what their

family thinks. If their family and friends

all hate their boyfriend,

they're probably gonna be leaning towards

dumping the boyfriend. Unless she's

like madly in love.

But I feel like if the friends and family

hate the boyfriend, then the boyfriend has

a high chance of getting dumped. Wouldn't

Because it just makes everything awkward

and you can't do stuff together.

The social circle gets— the social chain

gets broken, or it's like a weakness in

the social chain. It's probably why

a lot of girls don't want to meet me or

get involved, because my reputation is so

bad and everyone hates me. So by being

associated with me as my girlfriend,

they're also gonna get hated.

See how important social standing is? If

you're a really respected guy and everyone

loves you, like Chris Broad,

and you're Chris Broad's girlfriend, it's

like your own social standing gets a bump

up just by being his girlfriend. But if

you're with me, your social standing is

going to get dragged down with mine.

It really sucks how society works.

It's like, I could really like a girl,

but if she's like a racist Nazi,

and then people say, why are you with her?

She's a racist Nazi.

And then I say I don't care, and then

they'll think I'm also a racist Nazi.

I'm so fucked.

I can't pass these tests. They're too

I did try in the beginning, you know,

when her dad came home and I met him for

the first time. I stood up and I was like,

hello, nice to meet you, I'm Daniel, and I

shook his hand. I was like, wow, that was

pretty smooth of me. At first I didn't

even know who he was. I thought he was

like a neighbor. Mila joked and said he

was a neighbor, and I believed her. And

then only later she said, yeah, that was

my dad, I was joking. I didn't know you

were joking.

In the beginning it's easy because you can

say, nice to meet you, I'm Daniel. Yeah,

Rotterdam's nice, and there's things to

talk about. But as time goes on, you don't

have anything else to say, and I can't

talk about certain things like YouTube

because I'm keeping it a secret.

Damn, Bitcoin's really dropping.

$44K? Jebus.

Now I've lost $30.

That's why you don't live at your

girlfriend's parents' house. I know, I'm

so stupid. I did it again.

Didn't learn my lesson from the Taiwanese

girl because Mida was like, yeah,

sure, come and stay at my grandmother's

house. And I thought, oh,

that's great. That'll help save me some

money. I should have just stayed in

I stayed at the grandmother's house for

like 10 days. That's way too long.

And then I moved into the capsule hotel.

The first month was perfect though, when I

was living in that really nice Airbnb. I

felt so happy at that Airbnb.

You see, money does buy happiness. All

these people say money doesn't buy

happiness, a lot of rubbish. If I was a

rich person, I could just live at that

Airbnb and I would have been so

comfortable. I went— I would just visit

Mida's place for the evening, have dinner,

and then I'd leave, get on the tram, go

back to that island, go up to the 18th

floor of my Airbnb and just relax. Have a

bath, but it was just so expensive I

couldn't afford it. It was $2,700 for 1

month.

That first month was so good. She would

come over, and then the guy had like a

massive TV and a big sofa, and we just

Watched movies, got food,

went for a walk around the rivers.

That was great. And then after I had

to leave that Airbnb, it all just went

downhill.

I kept worrying, how long is too long to

be staying in Rotterdam? When's she gonna

get sick of me? Does she expect me to go

back to England now? Am I hanging around

too long? And then I felt happy because—

because when I was talking about

going back to England before Brexit

happens, I was saying, oh, I'm planning on

staying in England for a few months. And

then she was shocked. She said, a few

months? I thought you're just going for a

week and then you're coming straight back.

And I felt so nice inside, like she wants

me to come back. She doesn't want me to be

gone for too long. I felt so happy.

And then like 4 weeks later she dumps me

and I was like, what the fuck? Just a few

weeks ago you were telling me you didn't

want me to be gone for more than a few

weeks and you wanted me to come straight

back. And she was even saying, why don't

you extend the contract here in this

apartment, and then I'll stay here whilst

you're gone, and then you can come back.

I felt so wanted and welcomed. It was so

Oh, I felt so Exhausted.

One moment I felt wanted and loved, and

then next I felt like, am I here too long?

Then next I'm getting dumped.

It's just a roller coaster.

But it was very stressful.

I feel like even if she didn't dump me and

I went back to England for Brexit, She

probably would have dumped me whilst I was

in England because I would have said

something on a livestream, she would have

heard it, and then she— it would have made

her feel uneasy and unsure.

She never feels sure about anything. She

can never make her mind up. She can't even

sort out like basic objects when she

leaves the house, like making sure she has

everything. There's no stability.

It's probably the most stressful

relationship I ever had. At least with

Chihiro, I always felt like she wanted me

around and she wanted to be with me. I

never felt unsure about that.

With Miida, I was always like

second-guessing that every week she would

change her mind.

Yeah, I'm gonna go to bed. It's really

late. Nothing's happening.

Oh, stupid Bitcoin.

Yeah, I feel traumatized. Exactly.

I feel scared now to fall in love again.

I never felt so vulnerable before.

But if I met another girl and I fell for

her, I don't think I'd be able to stop

myself from the same thing happening.

When I fall for a girl, I just lose

control of my emotions.

I can't think logically. I never think

logically that logically usually anyway.

Yeah, I guess girls are pretty unreliable.

For your happiness, because anything could

happen. They could also die. They could

get cancer and then they could die in a

few years, and then what? So many things

could go wrong.

I feel like that they can be the ultimate

source of happiness, but then they can

also be the ultimate source of misery and

depression. It's like

a stock. You put 20x leverage, you could

go 20x up, but you can also go 20x down.

What you want is a nice safe dividend

stock that goes up slowly without

too much volatility.

Maybe that's what Chihiro was, because I

never felt insanely emotionally in love

with Chihiro, which meant that when we

broke up, I didn't feel insanely depressed

and heartbroken. It was just like a

stable line whilst Mido was like zigzag up

You're down $459? Well, actually I'm down

like $30, so I panic sold earlier with

a loss of about $25, and now I just lost

another $5. 'Cause I thought it was going

back up and then it dropped again.

It was going back up, 46K, and now it's

back down to 44.

Did Mila like you as much as you liked

her? I think she did.

She introduced me to her family, her

friends. She brought me back to her family

home.

Uh, she also cried a lot for me,

over me. She came all the way to London,

then all the way to Germany to meet me,

to see me.

But who knows how she feels now. Maybe

she's like over me already. Maybe she

hates me now because of all the stuff I

A house, a job, hobbies. Yeah, well, I

have all those things. I've got a house,

I've got a job, I've got hobbies, I've got

skills. I feel like I have everything

apart from the one thing I want most.

It's your mum and late father's house.

Yeah, but they're not gonna kick me out.

Can you imagine my mum kicking me out?

I can live here whenever and however long

I want to. So yeah, it's my house too.

Okay, I'm gonna go to bed.

Ah, I'll think of bloody videos now.

Such a pain,

the YouTube game.

I've got such an annoying audience to

cater to. You know, it always has to be

about a girl, always has to have like

dramatic drama. It can't just be simple

boring stuff. Always gotta try and put

clickbait and shockbait into the titles or

else they don't click.

And it's so fragmented, like half hate me,

half pity me, and half like me,

and half want like trainwreck stuff, and

then half want girl stuff.

Ugh. Don't cater to them. Look what

Ice says. Yeah, but then look what

happened to Ice's channel. It died.

You have to cater to them, otherwise

they'll just stop watching.

You have to cater to them to some extent,

maybe not to the level Ice used to.

You want your easy job to be even easier?

Well, yeah, and it's getting harder and

harder. I feel like now is the hardest

it's ever been because I've got nothing

going on to make content about.

It was so easy when I got married. It's

just like topic after topic just flying

out of nowhere. Australian guy, marriage,

her family hating me, her friends hating

me, life in Japan. It's like endless

amount of topics just coming out of

nowhere.

Okay, I'm gonna go to bed. I feel sleepy.

Good night, goodbye, so long.