im gay

Oh my

God.

Mm-hmm.

Tessa.

Hello.

Oh my God, stupid mic

ran out of battery.

Hello? Stupid mic ran out of battery.

Okay, I think my internet's working now.

Oh, now my stupid controller switched

itself off. Okay,

goddamn technology,

so annoying.

Stupid SIM cards. I think the SIM card

company throttled me even though I paid

$30 for unlimited 1-month internet.

I think because I downloaded Street

Fighter, 60 gigabytes in like 12

hours, they throttled my speed. Now I can

barely use that one, so I had to use one

of my old SIMs from before Japan.

Top it up with a 1-day double speedo

for— it says between 4 and 8 megabits per

second. I don't even know what that means.

When I minimize the game, it looks really

choppy on the stream.

Okay.

Um, so it was only 32 baht for 24 hours.

Better be good speed. 32 baht is like

80 cents.

So stupid, it says unlimited data and

then they fucking throttle you. Unlimited

my asshole. So you have to keep

buying limited data packages that

actually don't throttle you,

but then it's limited. I use like 150 gigs

in a month. 10 gigs, 20 gigs, even 50

or 60, it's not gonna last me more than a

few weeks.

What do you think about that? Where am I

Yeah,

God, why is being a streamer so difficult?

I swear,

why can't you just refund one

points instead of all of them.

Yeah, I don't know either.

I need more points in the bleeding stuff.

My damage output's low.

Even the game was really lagging. I

couldn't even play the game on the other

SIM card. They definitely throttled

me. Stupid internet SIM card

companies. I don't get it. Why just give

me fucking unlimited, unlimited speed? No

throttling. I'll give you whatever money

you want, but no Why

is it so hard to get more internet or

something? We can send a man to Mars and

the moon and we can't even get unlimited

high-speed internet. So stupid.

I'm gonna make my Diablo build videos.

Come on.

What happened to my Discord? I made a new

one last Friday. I don't know if you

joined it. Check out my new YouTube video,

it's linked.

Volko Dalk, that was that— what's that

kind of name? Well, I guess people didn't

watch my new video then, otherwise you

Wow, I'm getting destroyed by what, open

world mobs? What is going on?

I'll defend the little cart thing.

I'm gonna die.

Oh my God, I'm gonna fail this. Oh, I

failed it. What a stupid—

why are they so hard?

Oh my God, I'm going to die in the open

world. What? Help me,

stupid horse. Oh my God, this game

is bollocks.

Apple Vision Pro. I actually

heard one person mention it on Discord.

What is that? Apple's version of Oh

my God, I'm getting raped. I mean, RAP'd.

I need more defensive abilities.

Too squishy.

I'm so bored of this VR/AR rubbish. It's

So uninteresting. It's not going to

be the future. Give it up, Mark

Zuckerberg. It's like a stupid gimmick

that no one cares about. Yeah, okay, the

tech is pretty fancy and impressive and

everything, but no one wants to walk

around wearing a stupid pair of goggles on

their face. I don't.

I had the Oculus Quest 2 and it was such a

pain having to put it on and take it off.

You get all sweaty, you take it off, and

after playing hours of Beat Saber, you

have these red marks and lines on your

face. So dumb looking.

So stressed out about internet. My

girlfriend doesn't care. I've had normal

tech-savvy girlfriends. She would get me

wired internet, unlimited fiber optic.

We can't get fiber optic. Spend all this

money on stupid SIM cards, then throttle

my speed. She gave me a 70 gigabyte max

speed SIM card yesterday, and I used all

of the 70 gigs in one day downloading this

game, and now it's throttled. I woke up

this morning, 5 AM, at like 6 AM to go to

toilet, check my computer, and the

download— it was at 96% downloaded, but

the download speed was like 10 kilobits

per second because I used up all the data.

So then I, I bought a new package,

30 days unlimited, 300 megabits,

and then they, they throttled my speed and

now it's barely usable.

Paying all this damn money for stupid

internet, so annoying. Internet should not

cost this much money. Should be

like £40 a month unlimited fiber optic.

That's what I had in Manchester.

Trying to be a streamer and do YouTube and

being an online gaming addict when all you

have is Stupid SIM cards that are meant

for travelers. It's not great.

How can we get wired internet? Surely

there must be wired internet available

here. I'm in Bangkok, for fuck's sake.

Thailand's supposed to have some of the

best internet in the world. She said

our building doesn't have— we can't get

fiber optic in this building.

Building. So dumb.

This building is not that old, it's not a

new building, but I think it was made in

like 2005 kind of

time zone.

What was this?

I think I should be fine with the internet

today. 24 hours, what am I gonna do?

They've got a 90-day, 180-day, 365-day

package. Says unlimited, but they're gonna

throttle me again.

What do I do, buy the 70 gigabyte package?

As long as I don't download another

massive game, should be fine,

because I wanna do a YouTube stream

tomorrow, so I need to get my YouTube

views back up. I cannot have disconnects

because people are gonna get fed up and

leave.

If this package lasts 24 hours, I bought

it like 30 minutes ago, that means it will

last until tomorrow 2 PM. So if I stream

from like 8 AM until 2 PM, that's, it's

nearly a 6-hour stream.

Don't have to buy another one.

When does this game get good?

Come on. So it's like hand-holding

and baby steps.

The intros of games are the worst bit.

When you get into the meat of the game,

it's actually fun, but you have to slog

through like 20 hours until you actually

get there.

Can't they just plunge me into the depths

of the game from the beginning?

I had my lunch. You should have seen me.

I was just shoveling the spaghetti into my

face. Pure degenerate eating. You ever

just— you really need to eat,

but there's other things you really want

to do. And you just shovel the food into

your face as quickly as you can. I just

had my face right above the plate and I

was just shoveling it in.

Eating is so annoying.

It's so boring. You're just putting stuff

into a hole and then you chew. I've got

important things to do.

There's no sprint button, it's so weird.

I think I've lost my way. I think— I

don't care.

Well, if you're lost, I'm lost. I don't

know where to go. Where do I go?

Oh,

red ghosts.

I don't understand how you can run out of

internet, as if it's some kind of finite

resource they have to dig up from the

ground. It's just like electric

particles? Just make more of them.

How can you not have enough internet to go

around for everyone?

Where'd you even get internets from?

And how does a ghost bleed? I'm doing

bleed damage on ghosts.

Next stream on YouTube, I'm hoping

tomorrow.

May was pretty good actually, I had a good

May. Zelda really helps boost my earnings

way above my, my goal. But June,

come on, I need some big views from Diablo

Without gaming getting me big views, I

need to rely on live streaming because I

know that stupid video is not going to get

views anymore. I made a really good

Thailand parody video about Phuket, got 3K

views. I'm so done, I can't be fucked

anymore. I thought I could try making a

good, well-edited video.

Made like $10.

It's just so dead. It's over.

There's no point even trying to make good

content. It won't get views.

It's wasting my time. The Phuket

vlog got like 4K views.

I think it's over, guys, doing vlogs.

They made like $25 total. They're not

going viral. The old viewers, old audience

don't care anymore. It's just a waste of

time. Just gotta

let it go, I guess. Focus on gaming.

Updates about going to England for

Christmas? Not really.

I still want to go. I'm starting to miss

England a little bit, actually. I just

miss the green, peaceful, cool countryside

and my garden.

Just can't find that stuff in Thailand.

It's too hot. There's nice parks,

I guess, but you don't want to be in them

because it's so damn hot and humid.

Mosquitoes everywhere. Being outside in

Thailand is just horrible. Horrible

experience. I truly feel like I'm hiding

in my room now. I just don't want to go

out because it's so unbearable.

The traffic noise is so loud as well.

You want to go for a nice walk? Good luck.

Where are you gonna go for a walk? It's

either scorching hot or it's not too bad

because you go at night, but then the

traffic— the traffic. It's not because

there's so much traffic, it's because the

types of cars and motorbikes they drive

here are so damn old and loud. These

idiots on mopeds, got these big diesel

chugging black fumes coming out the

exhaust pipe pickup trucks. The traffic is

loud because the cars they use are just

old and rubbish. In Japan, it's quiet

because everyone's got like a hybrid or an

electric car.

Here, everyone's got really loud cars and

motorbikes. The noise pollution is

terrible.

Who knows what the actual air pollution is

even like.

Going outside is just a horrible

experience here.

You're either stuck in your house or you

just get a car trip to the shopping malls,

which takes you straight into the car park

and then up into the air-conditioned mall.

So you can only really stay at home and go

to a shopping mall. That's life in

Thailand. It's like 98% of

the area is just not somewhere you want to

be.

No, this game is stupid because to do

damage and kill stuff, I have to just take

hits in the face, there's nothing I can do

about it, and then I die.

There's no parry, or I mean, there's this

weird jump dodge which is not very useful,

so I just constantly take damage.

If I want to kill stuff,

there's no way to avoid the attacks.

See?

And the thing about the UK is I say that

my garden's great and everything, and it

is, but everywhere in England sucks as

well. The only place that's good is my

garden. And my house. But I don't want to

go anywhere in England either. I mean, do

you think I want to go to Maidstone? Chav

land? The only nice place, maybe the

country lanes, but then I always get

scared I'll come across like a gang of

chavs or something.

It's not really anywhere nice in the UK

that I like going to, just my garden.

If I had my garden here in Thailand,

that'd be great.

Basically everywhere sucks.

England sucks because I can't get a

girlfriend. Japan sucks because

I can't get an apartment. Thailand sucks

Why does everywhere just suck?

Having a girlfriend's much better for my

mental health though. I feel more

productive and positive.

What's this?

Herald of Lilith, a boss.

To Chort. Is that a boss or what? Whoa,

it is a boss, I think.

Can you do co-op on this game? Maybe

someone can help me. Would I

do a livestream Q&A with her? I did think

about it because I got 2 mics. I could mic

her up, but then people are gonna say

weird stuff.

Like, um, I don't know what I'm worried

about, but I just— I don't have a good

feeling about it.

And I don't know what we were talking

about. People are gonna ask her like, oh,

weren't you upset Daniel cheated? And then

she's gonna ignore it or go into it, and

then she's gonna get all upset, and then

she'll probably storm off and say, oh, I

don't like livestreaming, makes me feel

bad. People are only gonna ask her things

that are gonna make her feel bad, and then

she's not gonna want to do it.

People just ask her messed up stuff like,

do you like it up the bumhole?

Do you like Daniel's dick? I know exactly

what they're gonna ask.

I don't know how I can do this boss. I've

got no potions now. I took down 50% of his

health.

It randomly dropped potions, but I don't

know why. Is she happy to be in your

videos? Yeah, she actually wants to make

videos with me. I keep saying no. I'm the

one saying no, funnily. Usually it's me

begging to make videos and the girl saying

no. Now it's like her wanting to make

videos and me saying no, because I don't

think the views are going to go up that

much for— I don't feel like the trouble is

worth what it's I

could just let her make videos and then

say, oh, fuck it, you make videos saying

something. Fed up, been doing this shit

for 6 years. And honestly

finding it hard to care anymore. But she

seems into making videos and stuff,

so maybe it'd be like a fresh new burst

of life. And she hasn't experienced

YouTube burnout, so to her, making videos

would be like this fun new thing. For me,

I've been doing it for like 6, 7 years. I

would like to retire,

but I didn't blow up and make it big and

make like a sweet million. In a dream

world, I would have blown up, got like 500

million views, enough to retire. But I

never got that far, so I'm stuck in this

rat race for the rest of my life,

I guess.

Now where do we go?

Where was the boss? Why is the game like—

oh, the boss is here.

She wants to do stuff like teaching my

viewers about Thailand, and I keep saying

that's not gonna get views. Trust me, I

tried. My viewers only care

about one thing: weird sex stories and

drama.

They don't care about anything else.

You might as well just start a new channel

if you want to do Thailand videos,

because my viewers are not going to watch

it. They want,

like, I don't know, they want weird videos

about my mental health. Like the

autism one did okay.

It's funny because they complain about how

my videos are boring, how I don't put any

effort into editing or don't go out and do

stuff, but then they don't watch anything

that isn't me just sitting on my bedroom

floor whining.

So it's like really frustrating. Because

they keep telling me to do one thing and

then they don't watch it. Like the ones

who keep saying, oh, you should have stuck

with the illustrating videos. You would

have blown up and got an illustrating

audience by now. Bullshit.

I've been making illustrative videos for

like 5 years now. Not a single one blew up

or got me an illustrating audience. It's

not how it works.

If a type of video is gonna do well, it

doesn't take posting 1,000 videos of

that style for it to do well. If it's

gonna do well, just do well straight off

the bat or after the first few uploads.

Like my Do Not Buy series.

Is a proven formula that does well.

And it does well all the time. Not because

I uploaded thousands of them or because I

was consistent. It's because the title and

the theme works. What doesn't work are

my illustrated storytimes. I don't know

why, but they don't work.

Now, I could post 1,000 of them and they

would all flop. A flop is a flop no

matter how many times you post it. I think

this boss is impossible.

I don't do enough damage. I'm also

lagging.

My stuns don't work on it.

I don't know why it randomly drops potions

like that.

It dropped them again. Weird.

Am I supposed to kill these fire things?

I'm actually doing well this time. I don't

know what I'm doing differently.

Oh my God, I'm gonna die.

Come on, drop the potions.

Oh my God, I've nearly killed it.

No!

Oh my God, I'm gonna die, I'm gonna die!

Oh no, no, no, no, no, no!

Haha, what? Oh, come on,

it's got no health. How did that

not kill it? Oh my god,

did you see that? Why is the stupid game

lagging so much?

So close.

Try again.

It's lagging so much.

It's hard to dodge stuff when it lags.

It also only seems to lag when it does the

AoE thing, not when it's not doing it.

I can't dodge that damn thing.

Come on, lady, kill him!

I think I've done it.

Oh my god, oh my god,

I'm gonna jinx it.

Come on, die, die, die, die. Oh, oh yeah,

that's what you get.

Are you still trying to improve social

anxiety? No, not really,

kind of gave up.

I feel like it's easier just to find ways

to avoid social interaction rather than

trying to overcome it.

Oh, I've got Charge. When did I get that?

It's annoying this game's not offline.

I might as well be offline because I'm not

gonna play with people. Why is it lagging

when it's like an offline game?

Okay, where next? Core Valor.

Go there next.

Level 15, nice.

Does your girlfriend ever mention Chihiro?

Sometimes. She'll ask me a question

like, which country,

which country has the best countryside?

And then I'd say Japan, and then she gets

upset because I didn't say Thailand.

And then she keeps saying that she thinks

I miss Chihiro when I really don't.

And maybe she thinks that because I made

so many videos about Chihiro. It's not

because I miss her, it's because that's

what got views. I said I only talk about

her a lot because that's what my viewers

want to hear about, because it was like a

big part of the channel. I don't miss

Chihiro.

Maybe in 2021 I missed her a lot after

Mita dumped me, but not really now.

I probably miss Mita more than Chihiro.

So, you know the gay video that had that

guy's face on it? He filed a privacy

complaint and I changed the thumbnail and

the video is fine now. But I was wondering

what would happen if I now changed the

thumbnail back to his face again?

Wouldn't he have to report it again?

I might do a stream tomorrow and the

thumbnail will just be like super close-up

zoom of his face.

Stupid idiot thinks he can tell me what to

do. Fuck off.

He doesn't message me for 10 years, 12

years. Thinks he can just hit me up asking

for favors. It's not how it works,

buddy.

I would guess Mila probably

has a new boyfriend. Who's just like a

normal guy who also smokes weed and does

drugs and stuff.

And maybe he's artistic, like into music

or something wholesome.

I bet he has tattoos and pretty like those

earlobe hoops. That's what I picture.

I don't know, I reckon she's still in the

Netherlands with her grandmother.

What's this event? Joined. Raise the

effigies.

I can't believe a guy like me got a girl

like Mila. That's insane when you

think about it. Naturally, a guy like me

would never get a girl like Mila.

Because I would never— I would never have

a friendship circle that would involve or

include people like her. So naturally, I

would never have known someone like that

because I would never—

even if I had a friendship circle, I would

never have friends like hers or like her.

So it was really weird why she liked me so

much from my channel.

I can't move.

I don't know why she liked me so much in

the first place. Why did she think we

would have anything in common? I think she

just liked my face or something, and the

fact I was kind of internet famous, but

not too famous. I'm famous a little bit,

but not too famous to feel like there's

no point in messaging me. Just a tiny bit

If you message like a massive YouTuber

like PewDiePie, there's no way you're

getting a response.

But someone like me, only 100K subs,

more accessible.

Well, no girls message me anymore.

Actually, that German girl I slept with

back in 2020 messages me now and then.

She has a baby now. I don't know why she

messages me. She just messages me randomly

like, hey, what's up, Daniel? And then

I'll ask her about her baby, and then

she'll talk about her baby. It's kind of

weird. I never really stayed in touch with

girls I had sex with before like that.

Everyone who I had sex with all blocked me

and moved on. Actually, there's Pia,

I guess. Still talk to her.

But like Turkish girl, Essex girl, I don't

know. Hong Kong woman. All these girls are

long gone.

Don't know why she messages me.

She asked me why I didn't like her when we

met, because I kind of ditched her

in Germany. Told her I didn't want to meet

again. I just said because I was still

really into Mila.

Oh,

that nearly killed me.

This guy's tough. Oh, he's an elite.

Lucas Gore Taint.

To be honest, having a baby looks kind of

shit. I already feel like I don't have

enough time to do all the stuff I want to

do. Imagine on top of that having a baby

as well, crying all the time, waking you

up in the night. Ugh.

Really glad my sperm doesn't work.

Can you imagine how pissed off all the

time I'd be? I'd be like, oh my god, I

want to stream, make videos, your stupid

baby keeps crying.

They look so annoying. I think cats are

cuter. They don't cry all the time.

I think having kids is only worth it once

they're adults and you're old and you feel

like, oh yeah, I have this kid, we're like

friends. But do I really want— I never

really wanted friends anyway.

Do I really care about being all alone

when I'm old? Pretty happy being alone.

Well, I can claim stuff. What? Why? Okay,

I'll claim that.

Oh, I got a skill point.

My bleed build. How am I gonna make this

YouTube build videos. How the fuck does

that Fextralife guy pump out so many?

He's pumped out like 30 different build

videos already. I've been playing for

what, since this

morning, and I got to level 15.

Speak with Mother Prava.

Didn't pick necromancer. I don't like

magic classes. I like melee with a big

sword or something. Hate magic

because you have to keep running away,

kiting them around.

I want to be like a big muscular weapon

of mass destruction. I want

to do Druid next.

Now what?

Oh, what? I magically became level 6.

16. Okay, talent point. Thank you very

much. Ultimate bleed build. My Elden

Ring build videos did so well, like

150,000 views, 180,000. My Shadow

Rogue stealth build.

No, I don't want to try weed. I already

tried it with Mila. The edibles made

me really horny and then made me feel

weird. I tried smoking it, but I

couldn't inhale it. It's too hard to

I don't like things getting in my lungs.

It feels bad. It feels wrong.

Things should not be going into your lungs

apart from oxygen. It's not what it's for.

Just feels weird.

I bought Street Fighter 6 as well. I might

keep it, I don't know. It seems like a fun

game. I had a lot of fun with Mortal

Kombat 11. I booted up Mortal Kombat 11 a

few days ago go. Couldn't find a match,

but the music is so nostalgic.

I played a lot of Mortal Kombat 11 back in

2020 when I was in Germany moping about

waiting for Mila to message me.

So that, that music always

reminds me of sitting around in Berlin

Airbnbs being depressed. Do you remember I

made those videos about Eating 2 whole

chickens in a day. You know that Airbnb?

I played a lot of Mortal Kombat in there,

crying over Mila. Good times.

So weird how the music brings back the

memories so well.

But I don't know what character to main on

Street Fighter. They all look stupid. I

usually like playing Hot Girl girls, but

the women in it look dumb. Like Chun-Li's

got massive bum, looks ridiculous.

Her thighs look so stupid, but all

the other girls weird. There's one

character called Cammy, which is my mum's

name, so I don't really want to play sexy

half-naked woman called Cammy. It's just a

The art style of Street Fighter is so kind

of interesting, I guess you could say.

It's got like a very vibrant, colorful,

cartoony look.

My tongue hurts.

Are there Ashes of War in this game?

Because the fun thing about making build

videos in Elden Ring was not only had the—

there weren't really talents in Elden

Ring, were there? I can't remember now. I

haven't played Elden Ring in ages. It's

mostly— oh

yeah, there were. There's like attributes.

Points, and then you can reset them at the

Site of Grace. I completely forgot how to

play Elden Ring. And then you, you assign

the attributes like strength, faith, and

then you get Ashes of War that has an

ability that goes with it. I don't know

if this game has stuff like that. I'm just

not far enough into it to know anything

about it. I never played any of the other

Diablo games before.

Copy info on guide videos? Yeah,

I could do that. Fextralife.

He just shows gameplay and he says— he's

like, hey, so in this video we're going to

talk about my ultimate bleed video guide.

In this video you need the bleed abilities

on the talent tree, you need to get all

the bleed abilities, then you can do

amazing bleed damage on all the enemies

around you. He speaks like such a fucking

idiot. I hate that guy. It's so

monotone, it's so like void of life.

I thought I'm monotone, but Jesus Christ,

you check that guy out, Fextralife,

spamming out 20 Diablo videos in a day.

Pisses me off. His voice

is so boring. Hey guys,

I'm playing Diablo 4 today, so amazing,

it's the best game I've ever played. I'm

playing Bleed Warrior, so great, it's how

you make your own Bleed Warrior build. He

just speaks like that in a flat tone the

entire time.

I don't know, I'd say,

uh, hello, we're gonna make build bleed

build today. You're gonna need these

talents, you're gonna need Flay because it

does this, and then you need that because

it does this, and then you need this one's

also good, blah blah blah.

What else can you say? Weapons.

That do well in a bleed build, if there

is such a thing.

I need to get further into the game first.