The saddest day of my life [x5cbVPlRgic]

Hey, so today is the day of the funeral, and I just wanted to show you what I'm wearing today. I've just got this black cardigan— not really a cardigan, more of a jumper. Has a nice little pattern here. And I'll be wearing my black jeans and this gray hoodie. It's kind of the same That's what I usually

wear. I don't really have any fancy, smart-looking clothing,

so I just wear that, I guess. As you can see, the weather isn't very good today. It's supposed to be very windy, possibly rain— rainy as well. Not a great day for a funeral, so I'm just gonna go and have a quick shower. Freshen myself up a bit, and then I'll see you later. Bye.

Okay, so I've just gotten out of the shower. I'm all dressed up. Uh, it's only 10 AM and the funeral people are coming at 2, so we have a lot of time to wait around for. So they're going to bring my dad's body back first, and then we'll all meet up and then head down to the crematorium

together. It's a bit weird because, well, it's been 4 weeks since, since it happened, and I feel like I've gotten used to the whole situation. And now the funeral's here today, um, it, it feels like it's just bringing back all the sadness. It's kind of like putting salt back into the wound. It's about 1 PM now, and

Starting to— people are starting to arrive.

A lot of cars out there,

and I guess we're just waiting for the— I think it's called a hearse, you know, a special car that carries, carries the coffin. That's gonna be coming here, then we'll follow behind, causing a massive traffic jam probably.

This is the director, Daniel Bissinger. Remember him?

Well, you guys are going in first, right? So do you want me to check everywhere before we— you got keys and stuff?

Please

do come all the way to the front.

God

was not religious, but he always liked to hear people stand and sing at an occasion like this. So I would ask you all to stand and join your voices together with Simon and Garfunkel singing Bridge Over Troubled Water. The words are in your service sheets. Please stand.

It's over.

Finished.

Too many people in there, and, um, a certain person. Whose name begins with a V is also in there.

If you know who that is, then you know, but if you don't, then it doesn't really matter. I think I'll just stand here in the rain for a bit.

Coffee. Cami, huh? Would you like a drink? I need a drink. Toilet.

Stupid wake. Don't even know who half those people are.

I don't think anyone noticed me slipping out. It was just pointless. I was just sitting there in the corner eating chips, didn't even know who anyone was. My sister abandoned me, don't— didn't know where my mum went.

And, and then bloody Victoria, she was there as well. Oh, oh, oh, it was horrible. It's horrible. I sat opposite this girl, didn't even know who she was. This other girl sat 2 seats next to me, away from me. Didn't even know who she was.

Oh, it's horrible. I should have just went straight home.

Thank God I brought these. I can get back into the house.

And then, then we have to cross this busy road. Which is always a pain because there's so much traffic.

Oh, there's a car coming.

I'm scared. Wait.

I made it, I made it! And then I would ride my bicycle down this lane. That's my school over there.

Good old Swadlins. Don't send your kids there because it's a shit school. I'm sorry, maybe it's better now, but 16 years ago when I went there, it was a pretty bad school.

Anyway, I'm very cold. And I think, I think I'm gonna do a little jog home.

Oh look, there's your car. Oh Jesus Christ, I can't believe I just went to my dad's funeral. That's so weird. Anyway, I'm back now. Uh, let's go upstairs, see if I can get this video to 10 minutes.

Hey, so I'm back from the funeral. And I kept putting my stupid finger over the microphone, so it was like this. And then it sounded like this, and you couldn't hear what I was saying. Look at this, the stupid idiots at GoPro decided to put the microphone hole right next to the shutter button. So you've pressed the

shutter button and you, you'll probably have your finger resting here, and then you accidentally block the microphone hole, and then the audio sounds rubbish. Terrible design, GoPro. Really, really bad. Anyway, I'm back from the funeral and I came back by myself because, well, there was just so many people at the wake. What does wake even mean? It

was just like a party in a pub, an after-party for the funeral, but they call it a wake. So we were at the wake at some pub and I sat next to my sister and I knew it was gonna be horrible. I knew I should have just gone home, but I decided to stay just to see what

it was like. And I thought it'd be okay if I sat next to my sister, but no, she got up and she started mingling with people, and then I was just left there sitting in the corner all by myself, surrounded by a bunch of people I didn't even know, and they didn't even talk to me. And I

was so scared because I was worried they might try and talk to me, which would have been very awkward. I don't really want to talk to people. You know, I don't really want to make small talk or have chitchats after going to my dad's funeral, thank you very much. And then to make matters worse, to make matters

10 times worse, guess who was at the funeral? Bloody Victoria. Yeah, if you don't know who Victoria is, then, well, basically she was a girl I used to have a big crush on. I made a video about her last year, and somehow people found her social media and they started sending her lots of messages, and she got

creeped out and she blocked me, and her sister complained about me to my mum. It's not my fault. It's not my fault that a couple hundred weirdos sent her messages on Instagram. And why block me? You should block them, not me. And it's just the internet. Yeah, the internet's full of weirdos. You're gonna get some weird messages

from weird— I get weird messages from weirdos all the time. I don't start crying about it. Anyway, she blocked me, and I didn't think she would come to the funeral because, I mean, think about it, why would you come to the funeral? I've never even seen you speak to my dad ever. You've probably not said more than

2 words to my dad. I don't understand why, why she would come to the funeral knowing that I would be there when we have this bad history between us. I wouldn't go to her dad's funeral. I've never even said a single word to her dad, even though his dad— her dad and my dad were best friends. I

saw her dad at the funeral. I just walked past him. Even say hello. And I caught a little glimpse of Victoria. I just— I don't know if our eyes caught, but I looked to my left and I saw her in the distance, and I quickly, quickly looked away. And everyone, everyone was chatting in the chatting area after

the service had finished, and I just stood outside in the rain. Oh, it was horrible. Thank God it's over. I'm back home. It's nice and safe here. Um, I didn't cry at the funeral. I nearly did. Uh, I tried really hard to hold it together and not break down. My mum, my mum cried a lot and my

sister cried a little bit, but I tried my best not to because I didn't really want to cry in front of everyone. But yeah, it was tough, especially when they started playing music and especially at the end when My mum went up to the coffin, put her hand onto it. It was very— it was a very emotional,

sad thing to see. Uh, yeah, it was just so strange that my dad was in that wooden box. It's weird, isn't it? One minute you're walking around, talking, eating, laughing, enjoying life, and then 4 weeks later you're in a box.

Life sucks. And guess what? To make things even worse, they couldn't even cremate him at that chapel because that chapel's cremating machine broke down and they couldn't do it, so they had to put him back into the coffin car and take him to Canterbury where they have a different chapel to cremate him there. I feel so sorry

for him. Even his own funeral doesn't go to plan and something goes wrong. It's kind of silly, isn't it? You'd think that they would, I don't know, check to see if the machinery is working before the service begins, but no, they wait until the service begins and the service ends And then they check to see if it

works, and it doesn't work. And then they have to take him back out of the chapel, back into the car, and drive him off somewhere else. So he was supposed to be cremated by now, but he's, he's, um, still in a box.