[2025-03-04] Sunny PLEASE UNBLOCK ME IM SORRY -( [_JnxNMu2NyY]

Testing,

testing.

If this doesn't work, then I don't know

what will.

Getting Sunny back arc, day 1.

Not eating until Sunny takes me back, day

1.

Why did mum debt increase?

Because she paid off my car debt.

I now own my car.

No more car payments.

Pretty good.

How was work?

Oh my God, it was so long.

I delivered 108 parcels.

I came home about an hour and a half ago.

First I did about 85.

I couldn't fit the rest, so I delivered

those in about 4 hours, 20 parcels per

hour.

And then I went to Tesco to do some

shopping, and then I went back to the

depot to pick up the rest and then deliver

the rest within an hour.

It was such a long day.

I got there at 8, got home at 4 something.

I don't think it was worth it because I

could have just done it tomorrow, but I

don't think there's that many tomorrow.

Wouldn't have made a difference.

Am I aching from all the delivering?

Actually, my knees ache a little bit.

Don't know why.

I used Sunny's Tesco Clubcard today.

Got £5 discount.

You think it's over,

do you?

I mean, I said— I think I said worse

stuff.

On streams the last time we broke up and

she still came back

because I was calling her horrid and

horrible beat.

I didn't say those things this time,

so I think I've been much kinder with my

words since the last breakup.

If she blocks you this long, it's probably

serious this time.

Yeah,

I don't remember how long I was blocked

last time.

Actually, I wasn't blocked last time.

I blocked her, didn't I?

Yeah, because she picked up the phone when

I answered— when I phoned it.

She didn't block me last time.

I'm still blocked.

Messages aren't going through.

Not looking good.

I'm not really sure.

I wasn't, to be honest, I wasn't expecting

to get blocked.

If I knew that

making that decision on Sunday would lead

to getting blocked and dumped, then I

wouldn't have done it, probably.

She's— I guess I took a calculated gamble

thinking that she wouldn't get this upset

over it, and then I just carried on

streaming.

I didn't decide to do what I did Knowing

that it was going to end up in breaking

up.

Who would have known?

I thought she'd just be like a bit angry

and then get over it.

And then I'll say sorry and then it'll be

okay.

And then she'll say, that's okay.

It was all too sudden.

Did I stock up on Kit Kats?

Yeah, but I couldn't find orange ones.

I found white chocolate ones.

Uh, I got a steak, pork belly, uh, 2

frozen cod fish and chip cods.

I can't remember the rest.

Oh, I forgot to get pancetta.

I'm gonna make carbonara.

And I got my huel, so I might take some

huel to work,

get some extra energy.

Women do not like it when you obsess over

them.

Yeah, but when I ignored her, it led to

her dumping me.

Remember how she begged him to call her

when he was ready to break up last time?

Yeah.

So she did want me to obsess over her.

Actually, no, wait.

Yeah.

Last time it was like, I'm done with her.

I blocked her.

And then she,

she still wanted to message me.

She messaged me at 4 a.m.

and I ignored that.

And then she wrote the long breakup

message.

But then I phoned her at night and then

she picked up.

But now she won't pick up because she's

blocked me.

I feel like the last fight, it was more me

that was doing the blocking and saying,

I'm done with her.

And now it's like reversed.

Have I fixed my life since?

Nope, just got into a whole load of new

problems.

I got a car,

but now I need to pay my mum back because

she basically paid for most of it.

And I've got a house, but I'm renting it

for like £900 a month.

And I had a girlfriend, but now she

blocked me.

Probably it's over.

Does this guy still talk about his

Japanese wife?

No, not really.

It doesn't get views anymore.

My, um, It's been 5 years since we got

divorced video flopped.

Got 4K views and no one cares.

It's too long ago.

No, I'm not showing up to surprise her.

That's just weird.

But remember what happened in Japan when I

did that?

Ended up in the police station.

Not a good idea.

You made a video about her as you were

fighting with Sunny?

No, actually, I made that video before in

anticipation to post it on that day.

Was it Monday I posted?

I forgot now.

I didn't make it after the fight.

I made it before the fight because I was

so tired.

I thought I wouldn't be able to stream

anymore after work.

But you kind of get used to it, don't you?

I just did

8,

8 to half 4.

I did like 9 hours and I'm still

able to stream now.

I remember when I was doing Amazon Flex, I

was like, oh, I can't do YouTube anymore

because I did 3 hours work.

What a baby.

I think I just need more food to repair my

body,

more calories.

9 hours sitting down driving sounds tough.

Yeah, my back just constantly hurts and

aches,

but it is nice when you can just park up

in some little residential area and smash

out like 20 parcels.

In an hour.

You just grab them all, you go, phew,

phew, phew, get back in the car, phew,

phew, phew, get the next bunch.

And when the parcels start clearing, it

feels really good.

My castle— I mean, my pa— my castle— my

car was stuffed with parcels today.

It was so— I managed to fit about 86 into

the car somehow.

I'm getting so good at it.

I know exactly where all the streets are.

Also, there were a few houses on it where

it just wouldn't show the address, but I

knew where they were because I've seen

them before.

So that was good.

Otherwise, I would have had no idea where

that house was.

It just kept saying address cannot find

address, even though I knew it in my head.

Do you think it was sensible of Trump to

withdraw all aid to Ukraine?

Um, I don't think Ukraine is worth risking

World War III over.

Just let them have Ukraine, whatever,

who cares.

They're not going to take all of Ukraine,

they're just going to take a little bit.

Russia needs more land, don't they?

Don't think she'll watch this stream.

I don't know.

Do you think she?

I don't know how much she's been watching.

Who knows?

Nobody knows.

Maybe there was a chance earlier last

week, like Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday,

where I could have followed up and said.

So when you coming over?

Are you still coming on Friday?

But I just completely ignored her since

Monday.

Do you think it was not what I said but

more what I did?

Like, the action of not going to pick her

up was the deal breaker, and the stuff I

said on stream didn't really make a huge

difference.

You have a burn everything temper.

Yeah, I'm surprised she came back after

the last

content nuke that I dropped.

Over multiple days, and I said some really

horrible stuff,

but she came back.

I thought it was done for sure when I said

those stuff.

Girls need to feel prioritized.

Uh, I can prioritize her on the weekend,

but it's just kind of hard when I've got

work.

What's my plan now?

I'm just gonna keep doing my job.

Keep trying to pay off debts.

See where we are in 6 months' time.

Recalculate.

Reassess.

God, my electricity bill's gonna be

insane.

It says I've used 600 kilowatts.

My March statement says £170.

And that's not for a whole month.

That's for like 3 weeks.

So my electric bill could be over £200.

Yeah, but she wants to be number one

priority, but I didn't feel like I was

number one priority.

Oh,

I feel so dizzy from all the work.

That was a long shift.

I hope I get paid good for it.

It's 108 parcels plus the little bonus.

I should make like 125 for doing that.

120.

I might be working 6 days a week.

I don't know if we're doing Saturday

again.

The boss hasn't replied to me.

I don't know why.

It's like he's just disappeared.

He didn't reply to my message from

yesterday.

I didn't message him again because I don't

really need his help.

Anymore.

Maybe he blocks me too.

Everyone's blocking me.

Oh yeah, it's pancake day.

Sunny loves pancakes.

She would always make them when she come

over— came over to my house,

but she always put Nutella on them, which

is weird.

My mum used to put lemon and sugar.

That's how we had pancakes.

Tell us why you want Sunny back.

I don't know, it's sad

after everything we went through.

Just feel sad that it's over.

We didn't even make it to spring

in Devon.

Not much I can do, I guess.

If you're blocked, you're blocked.

I just get the one tick on WhatsApp.

Yeah, I don't really feel angry anymore

about it.

I just feel like it's probably not worth

getting angry and then losing her over

that.

It's just not fair because it's like she's

allowed to get angry at me But then when I

get angry at her, she blocks me

and threatens to dump me.

Because

now I feel like I'm used to my work

and it doesn't really feel stressful

anymore.

It just feels like, okay, I know what I'm

doing now.

I feel like I can stop worrying about it

so much and reallocate brain resources

towards social things.

But a week ago or a couple of weeks ago, I

was just completely worrying about work,

trying to optimize it, get the best phone,

best battery life, best way to organize

parcels.

Now I know how to do it.

I just do it on autopilot.

And I don't really have an issue with my

phones or the way the route is organized.

I'm pretty happy with how it's, um,

organizing it.

It basically— I basically choose where it

starts and then where it ends, and I just

choose the furthest away postcode, and

then I start furthest away and I work my

way back home.

So now I feel pretty confident with what

I'm doing.

Then it's made me feel like, okay, I got

the work thing sorted.

Now what else do I need to get sorted?

Relationship stuff.

But it's too late now.

You didn't pick her up when she needed

you.

She didn't ask me to pick her up.

There's literally no text that says, can

you pick me up?

She never asked me.

She just did that weird

I was expecting a, it's okay, Sunny, I'll

come pick you up.

But it's like the weird way of asking it

in a passive-aggressive way.

That's not asking.

That's just being annoyed that I didn't

offer.

Although I did offer.

That's the silly thing about it.

I did.

I literally offered that she could come

stay at my place, but she didn't say,

okay, can I come over now?

So I don't even know what the problem is

because

I ignored her when I was doing my stream.

Seemed to have really upset her.

And then she phoned me to talk, and then I

couldn't even say 2 words, and then she

hung up the phone.

Hold on, I need to pee.

I will get back with you if you bark for

10 seconds.

What

was that?

Oh wow, thanks.

Bark for 10 seconds.

Uh, no thanks.

God, it's actually cold.

It's weird, the weather's really weird.

In the morning it's freezing and frosty,

and then around midday it gets Really hot.

Had to take my my jacket off, and then you

get home.

It gets dark, and it's freezing again.

So strange.

Oh yeah, oh yeah.

Oh my shower was so disgustingly dirty.

I had to take the metal drain thing out,

and just I poured boiling water on it

because there's like all this black green

gunk stuck to it because I hadn't washed

it since I got here.

So I just poured boiled water on it, and

then I put toilet duck on it, and then I

put soap, like washing-up liquid, and then

I just scrubbed it under the sink.

But there's still like black stuff stuck

to it.

I couldn't get to it.

It's disgusting.

Yeah, you gotta wash your shower floor and

the drain bit.

Yeah, I fixed my peeing problem.

So every time I— before I go to do my

first delivery, I drop by the Tesco and I

use the toilet.

It's great.

It's on the way anyway.

So now I can drink as much coffee as I

want.

So I drink my coffee at 7, I get there at

8.

By the time it's about 9, half 9, I'm

ready to pee and I'm ready to go.

Do my first delivery around 10.

Do 20 parcels an hour.

I saw one of the other delivery drivers.

He had a van and then in the On the side

by the door, I saw one of those little pee

cups, like a plastic jug with a pipe, and

I thought, Jesus, does he piss in there?

He's— the delivery driver's all prepared.

I'm not doing that.

Imagine you get your parcels and the

delivery driver's like touched his dick

and got some wee on it.

And then he, he didn't wash his hands,

obviously.

Where's he going to wash his hands?

And then he zips up and like starts

touching your parcels.

Just remember that next time you get your

Amazon parcel.

He's probably pissed and touched your

parcels.

Not me though, I use the Tesco sink.

Also, when I finish work, my fingers are

all black from touching all the parcels.

I have to wash my hands, so I am now an

official hand washer.

My knuckles are getting dry, it's weird.

I need hand moisturizer.

My body's getting destroyed.

Why couldn't you talk when you rang Sunny?

She rang me and then she hung up before I

could even say 2 words.

I think tomorrow should be easier.

It says I've only got 45 parcels to

deliver.

But then less money.

Did rent get paid?

There's still 3 days.

I've got minus £40 because the Amazon

installments went out.

And then, um, some other payment went out.

And then, uh, no more car payments.

That's good.

Next payment would probably be—

I don't know, I don't think there's going

to be any more payments until the end of

the month.

I'm just gonna go into overdraft until I

get my pay from the delivery job.

It's okay, I'll go into overdraft for

about a week.

Maybe I go into overdraft and I pay off

the IKEA loan.

No, overdraft is like 40%

a day.

I don't really know how it works out.

I think it's like If you are in overdraft

of £1,000, you get charged 90p interest a

day.

Or maybe it's 40% for the month that you

are in the overdraft charged daily.

I don't really remember.

Oh wow, I will kill you, destroy you.

Crush you.

You are nothing but trash.

I used you for my needs and now I'll no

longer need you.

Not that I'll no longer need you.

Your channel will be absolutely destroyed.

It's over, Daniel.

You will reunite with Cami shortly.

Mhm.

What did Sunny even get out of me?

She got a free Nintendo Switch,

£120 Polaroid camera.

Some food.

She didn't really get much.

I mean, I got way more.

I got all these views and donos and

cereal.

I think I got way more out of it than she

did.

Yeah, I got the, uh, £50 electric blanket,

and I got her Nutella, lemon juice,

Robinson's juice.

What

else?

Got a hair straightener.

Is this my life forever?

I don't know.

If I don't have a good reason to stay in

Devon, then I got total control over you

because you are fucking pathetic.

Stop thinking in terms of material goods.

Mentally, I had and still have absolute

power.

You know you would take me back if I said

so.

I could literally stab you and you'd still

take me back.

No.

Well, yeah, I mean, I didn't want to break

up, so I would take her back.

That wasn't my decision.

Is this my life forever?

Mm, I don't know.

The job is really easy.

It's easy money, isn't it?

But what is the end goal?

Apart from paying debt,

I don't really know what the end goal is,

to be honest.

Get a girlfriend.

I don't know,

maybe, maybe I end up staying here for

like 5 months and nothing happens.

Sunny never comes back.

I never meet a new girl.

At that point, I feel like, yeah, there's

no point staying here.

Move on.

Don't know how I'd get a new girl here, to

be honest.

Go to the pub

in the village.

Get a local girlfriend.

Farmer's daughter.

Inherit the farm.

No, I wouldn't stay here forever unless I

had a very good reason.

So if nothing happens in the next few

months, I'd

I'd start planning my exit strategy.

Because the only reason I came here was to

be with Sunny, and now— well, what's the

point?

Just see how much money I make from this

job, and then I can start making more

accurate calculations

and see if it's worth staying

or just going home, focusing on YouTube.

I can't believe it's been a month since I

moved in here now.

She was only here 3 times.

She was here when we first moved in for a

few days, and then she came over for

Valentine's, and then last week with the

cat—

when we went to get the cat was the last

time now.

I thought she would come over more often,

not dump me.

Imagine I leave and I move out and go back

home, and then she messages me, I changed

my mind and you'll come back.

And then go back and then I've got to find

a place to rent again.

No, if I leave this place, it's over.

I'm never gonna try and rent a place

again.

It was so much work.

Stop being a little bitch for once.

It was so much work trying to get a place

to rent and it cost so much money because

you had to book places to stay whilst you

looked.

You need at least 2 to 4 weeks, really.

There's just no way.

This is probably the last time I ever rent

a place.

It was just so much money.

It's too big of an investment.

It's too big of a commitment to move into

a place because you never— you're only

going to move into a place if you got a

girl.

You don't know if things are going to work

out with the girl.

And then you're stuck with all the

furniture

unless you move to somewhere that's not

too far from my mum's house, so I could do

viewings whilst at my mum's house.

I worked so hard to make this work.

Don't I enjoy the freedom from my mum?

I don't really care, to be honest.

I never felt like my mum was taking away

my freedom.

Yeah, okay, she can be a bit annoying

sometimes.

Uh, but it wasn't that bad.

It's just that at the time of the fight, I

had Sunny to run away with, so it felt

like it made sense.

I would only run away if I had a girl to

run away to, like, uh, Thailand.

Or if Sunny called you now and said she

wants to get back together, but first you

need to have a threesome with her and the

guy she went on a date with, would you

agree to

do it?

No.

What freedom?

You're doing exactly the same things here

as you were back home.

Yeah, so I didn't not have freedom at my

mom's house.

And then when I have complete freedom, I

don't really do anything with it.

It's not like I'm making a garden or I

don't know, what do you even do with the

freedom?

All I need is a room, internet, privacy,

and not to be nagged at so I can focus on

making money.

You moved hours away for me.

I successfully destroyed your relationship

with Cami, and you still don't listen to

your viewer when it's so obvious I have

BPD and want to destroy relationships.

I absolutely own you.

You aren't free at all.

I win.

Would I give up my YouTube channel for

Sunny?

No,

I wouldn't.

'Cause it would just mean they're a

terrible person if they would want you to

do that.

Although if I went on dates, it would be

easier now to just tell them I'm a

delivery driver.

I don't need to lie about YouTube or

anything, and they don't have to get

suspicious about how I make money.

I can just say I'm a delivery driver.

They wouldn't, they wouldn't even care

about it.

They'd be like, oh, what company?

The most awkward thing about 2022 dating

was

I didn't know what to tell them what I did

for a job.

So something positive that have happened

to you this year, Daniel?

Yeah, got a nice job.

I managed to rent this place.

Uh, well,

you are ignoring me because you know I'm

telling the truth.

You so badly want to deny it, and that's

exactly what I'll take advantage of until

the end of time.

Don't worry, I will reach back out to you,

but it'll be on my terms, and you will

come back.

Well, I might as well.

It's not like I'm going anywhere.

I'm stuck here.

They would ghost you the minute you said

you're a delivery driver.

Yeah, it's not exactly a cool job, is it?

Double bed and no more cereal.

Ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha!

Yeah, should have just kept my foot on.

When you think of delivery driver, you

either think of like fat 40-year-old,

50-year-old white man

with a beard, or you think of like

immigrants.

Yelling in some foreign language,

delivering your parcels to the wrong

place.

You don't really picture a cool person, do

you?

Exactly, and you can't even see that I

created this situation on purpose for you.

That's how attached you are to me.

I created your addiction to me, and I'm

going to make it worse and worse.

Prepare to be completely destroyed.

All you'll have left is me.

Being a YouTuber is much cooler, isn't it?

But then I tell them about my YouTube

channel, then they block me as well.

Imagine I tell— I don't know what girl

would see my YouTube channel and not block

me.

If they're normal,

anyone would run a mile seeing the video

titles.

And then you watch any of my streams, I

just sound like I'm crazy.

God, I need to pee again.

What the hell?

If Sunny's been watching my streams, then

the algorithm should be recommending her

new my new stuff to her, this might pop up

on her notifications.

And I used her Tesco Clubcard today, so

she might have gotten a pop-up saying she

got some Tesco points.

My Tesco shopping was only £31.

I couldn't believe it.

Got loads of stuff too.

I delivered to this one house and then

someone answered the door and he was the

most Asian-looking guy I've ever seen.

I was so shocked.

I was like, whoa, am I looking in a

mirror?

But he looks way more Asian than me.

He had like the jet black hair, completely

hairless face, really smooth skin.

He looked more Kind of Korean, maybe.

I don't know.

It's just so unusual because everyone here

is white.

You hardly ever see any other Asian

people.

I saw an Asian girl at Tesco.

I was worried I was going to bump into

Sunny at the Tesco.

You cheated on your ex-wife, cheated on

Faster.

Now your maid Sunny left you.

Karma hurts.

All you think about is yourself and

cereal.

You don't deserve love.

You abandon people when they need you.

You deserve to be alone.

Next time, don't ruin others' lives.

Yeah, it's weird how I seem to end up

cheating on the women that I meet on

dating apps.

But then anytime I get with a girl from

the channel, it ends with no cheating, but

they dump me anyway.

And then I'm all butthurt.

About it.

Like, I was still mad Mila dumped me

because I thought things were going so

well,

but I think she just got bored with me, to

be honest, because I do become very

boring.

Like, you guys know, you see my views drop

when I settle into a place and I become

depressed.

It's just not exciting anymore.

And people are only interested in my life

when I'm on the move.

Making changes.

But then once you've settled in, you got a

job, what changes can you make anymore?

Get a promotion, get a new car.

There's just not really much you can do

once you've settled into normal life.

You get kind of stuck in a pattern, and

then you got to try and break free from

the pattern and like, I don't know, book a

ticket to Bangkok.

Because right now I don't know what I can

do anymore.

Really?

Buy stuff?

Apart from buying stuff,

What else can you really do?

That's interesting.

That's why people work so hard, I guess,

because they'd be so bored without having

money to be able to buy stuff.

It's just when we got back together the

last time, it felt so good.

Like, it felt

as if that was supposed to happen.

This is how it's supposed to be.

It was just like so special feeling.

It was a little bit awkward seeing each

other again after we both said horrible

things to each other, but it still felt

Right.

And then we went to IKEA together and got

the stuff, moved into this place.

But moving into this place just felt a bit

stressful because it was so cold.

And we didn't have any furniture, and then

we had to try our best to make it cozy.

It kind of reminded me when me and Chihiro

went to Nitori and got the sofa.

And then broke up 2 weeks later.

Me and Shahira got the sofa and then got

divorced

only a couple months later.

Well, nearly a year later, I guess, after

my dad died.

Well, if I do go home to my mum, it would

be completely over with me and Sunny

because there's just no way it would work

anymore.

I'm not— if I leave Devon, I'm not coming

back to Devon to rent a place again.

And she wouldn't want to come move to

Kent, would she?

So if I left Devon, it would be— even if

we wanted to get back together, it would

be so difficult.

She would have to keep coming to my place.

There's no way I would even think about

coming back to Devon if I leave Devon

and have to do that all over again,

viewing houses, getting rejected.

So stressful.

God, why can't they make it easier to get

a place to rent?

Why do you even have to do the viewing?

Why can't you just say, yeah, I don't need

the viewing, just sign me up?

I can see the pictures online.

Thought you were loving your job and new

life without Sunny.

Yeah, when we broke up last time, I was

thinking, yeah, I'm gonna move into the

house anyway and then see how it goes.

And then she just so happened to come

back.

But I think my whole life here is just

going to be work, work, work, come home,

stream, make some crappy meal.

Cry about Sunny.

I just— I can't believe she can be so cold

to just block someone like that.

It's ruthless.

I wonder if she— I bet she's talked to her

sister about it.

And then the sister was like, yeah, it's

probably best to block him.

He doesn't sound nice.

Because it was kind of like the sister who

convinced Sunny to come back to me after

Christmas.

But if Sunny is telling her family

everything that I've done, then they would

not side with me, would they?

Because she probably tells her side of the

story

to make her look good and then to make me

look bad.

So if she's close to her sister and talks

about this stuff, which I think they do,

the sister's probably gonna say, just dump

him then.

And she seems to be influenced a lot by

what her sister says.

Reddit saying you're gonna get fired

because you missed work on Saturday, but

he literally said don't come in on

Saturday.

Maybe I should message the boss again.

It's kind of weird he didn't reply.

Um, not sure if my last message went

through.

Send.

Kind of weird.

Maybe he's sick or something.

If he was on holiday, surely he would say

he's on holiday.

Because my earnings haven't been updating.

I want to know how much I got paid.

Yeah, imagine they fire me and I don't

know and I still keep going in to deliver

parcels.

Yeah, I worked today.

I delivered 108 parcels.

I went back to get more.

If he doesn't reply, I don't know, it'd be

kind of concerning because he's always

replied.

I don't know what to do.

If I lost this job, I think I would

probably go home because I, I don't think

I have the willpower to get another job.

I don't think I'd have the willpower to

get a normal job because,

um, I was— before I was motivated by

Sunny, That's what kept me going, and now

I feel like, what's the point?

If I lose this job too, I'd probably go

home

because I can't do anything else.

Uber Eats doesn't make any money here.

I don't know what I'd do for money.

I'd probably give it a few weeks to apply

for some other jobs,

but I wouldn't really be hopeful.

I just— I don't know what else I could do.

How do they let you pick up parcels if

you're fired?

Well, I still know the password to get

into the place.

Yeah, no reply.

What's, what's going on?

The fuck?

Oh, it says read yesterday.

What?

What?

Because yesterday something weird happened

where I was missing 20 parcels, so I said

to him Good morning, I'm missing 20

parcels.

Should I wait for the lorry to come?

And it says read yesterday.

But why didn't he reply if he read it

yesterday?

God, I'm so confused.

What is going on?

First Sunny, now my boss.

No, not Sunny's message was read

yesterday.

The bosses— the boss read my message

yesterday.

I'm still getting single ticks on WhatsApp

to Sunny.

Read yesterday.

What?

I really, I really hate it.

You try and message someone and then you

don't get anything back.

And it just leaves you wondering.

Maybe I should try phoning tomorrow

morning.

There's not really anything I really need

to know.

It's just a bit weird.

Got a bad feeling about this.

If I lose my job, I could sell my car for

£10,000 and then I'd have enough rent for

10 months.

And then I don't need to go to work

because I've got £10,000.

Yeah, but then I've got to give it to my

mum, don't I?

God, I really gotta like think, what if I

do lose this job?

What else can I do?

What about that sofa delivery job?

He might be having dinner now.

I mean, it is 7 PM.

He might be ill.

Yeah, he's either on holiday or he's ill.

But why wouldn't he say he's on holiday

then?

Your life is more of a mess now than it

was in Thailand.

Yeah, I guess I had a cheap place to live.

I didn't need a job.

Didn't have to get furniture.

Didn't need a car.

Everything just seems worse now.

No girlfriend now either.

And also my monitor, it's on like a 25%

sale on Amazon, so it's only £800.

I bought it for £1,000, but actually in

total it's £1,400 because I bought it on

finance.

So I'm paying nearly double for this

monitor than it is on sale right now.

Longest time I've been without a

girlfriend?

20—

2014 until 2017.

But I was seeing the Korean woman 2015 and

'16, but I never really counted her as a

girlfriend.

I never really thought of her as a

girlfriend.

Weird.

I wonder if he's mad because on, on

Saturday I said,

I said I wasn't sure if I'm coming into

work today.

He said, no work today, everyone is off.

And I didn't reply to it.

I didn't say, okay, thanks or anything.

I just left it on read.

Maybe he thought that was rude.

What is the reason for taking Sunny back?

Because without Sunny, this whole thing is

pointless.

What was the point of doing all this

without Sunny?

The only thing keeping me going is the

job.

If I lose Sunny and I lose the job, oh my

God, what am I supposed to do?

I'm only making about— I'm only making

about £1,300 a month on YouTube.

£1,200-ish.

I need

1,500 really.

Electricity is probably gonna be like 200.

Car insurance, food.

Yeah, probably like $1,500 I need now

without the car payments.

It is weird that the earnings page isn't

updating because usually what would happen

is I'd finish my shift and then a couple

hours later it would update.

It hasn't updated since last week.

I don't know if it automatically updates

or if that's the, the boss updating it

manually.

So I've heard nothing from him and my

earnings aren't updating,

but I don't have any emails about it or

anything.

I got like an automated email saying, well

done for 10 days of work.

The reason for him taking Sunny back is

because he has no game and knows he

couldn't get a normal girl that doesn't

know about his YT channel.

No other girl would remotely even find you

attractive, so you were clinging on to

your last hope, which is Sunny.

Sad.

You failed to deliver 20 parcels?

They weren't there, and the other person

there,

they said you should just mark them as

missing and then do deliver what you have.

I think the missing ones showed up

yesterday and I picked them up today.

That's why I have so many today.

Send me pictures of your willy on

WhatsApp.

Only then I will unblock you.

How can I send them if you blocked me?

Oh my God, it's driving me crazy.

I hate not knowing.

I hate lack of information.

God, now I have a really bad feeling.

Honestly, what would I do if I lose this

job?

They will call you or inform you if you're

in trouble.

Yeah, and I would be banned from the app,

wouldn't they?

This is really weird.

Usually they respond straight away.

I'm just like worrying about everything

now because usually when things start

going well,

it means it's about to come to an end

soon.

When I feel like things are going well,

that's usually a sign it's gonna end.

So I felt like last time I saw Sunny with

the cat, I felt like—

I felt really confident that the

relationship was stable and solid.

That's why

I got cocky and I thought I could pull

something off like ignoring her.

I did not expect her to block me and want

to break up over that.

I got too cocky and then

pushed it too far, I guess.

I just felt like, yeah, we're good now.

We've got the cat, she's over, she's

happy.

How can it possibly go wrong?

Also, I thought the boss was supposed to

be talking to his boss about giving me the

other route that was supposed to be

easier.

Wasn't that supposed to be like 2 weeks

ago?

How come they still haven't discussed it?

Why am I still doing this other route,

which is supposed to be temporary?

But I've now gotten used to it.

I might as well just keep doing it.

But now I can't really expect him to reply

because it's 7 PM.

Saturday the 22nd.

He

said he was going to speak to his boss

about giving me the other route.

That was 8, 12 days ago.

Oh God, everything's gone wrong.

I find my route really easy now because I

know all the street names and I know how

to get everywhere without hardly using the

map.

If I sell my car, how are you gonna go

traveling anywhere?

Well, I wouldn't travel, would I?

Get a bicycle.

Where would I travel to if I wasn't

working?

I'd just stay here the whole day.

I'd get an Uber back home.

Book a taxi, it would cost like £200,

probably.

Yeah, getting anxious now.

I haven't heard anything about the car

either since I sent the money.

So I'm probably gonna try phone him

tomorrow morning if I can't get a hold of

him.

Maybe I'll go ask someone at the depot if

they can get a hold of him.

Tomorrow's Wednesday, isn't it?

God, I feel like— it's like being in a

zombie apocalypse and the entire outside

world has just died, and then you're just

getting no communication from anything.

It's like everything's just frozen.

What I really need to do is just put the

phone down, go to sleep, wake up tomorrow,

and then all the replies I want will have

arrived.

That'd be great.

I need to pee again because I came home

and I drank a lot of water.

And a hot pot noodle.

Okay, let's go make some steak.

Hopefully things will brighten up.

Maybe you're wording your questions