[2021-11-18] Alone Again -( [9MbVQHofzpI]

Testing.

Hello,

I'm back, back from my

short 2 weeks of not being

alone. Now we're back alone again.

It's always one thing after another,

isn't it?

When was the last time I streamed? 4 days

ago. Jesus, within the last

4 days so many things happened

that I cannot talk about,

but some things did happen that

were not good,

which is why the Discord is back now. So

join the Discord if you like to chat.

Trying to keep the trolls and the toxic

people out of it because they always ruin

the Discord and end up getting fed up with

it because it just gets full of annoying

people. So far they haven't joined,

which is good. Maybe they finally lost

interest. So yesterday I made a Discord

and then I got a temporary ban for 3 days

because I posted a picture of my

you-know-what, and I didn't enable not

safe for work, so I got banned for sending

unsolicited pictures to people.

So I had to make a new Discord server,

otherwise I wouldn't be able to moderate

the other one. They banned the only mod.

Great.

Bit annoying. I never had that problem

before. It would

be nice. It's just kind of silly because

all you have to do is enable NS— NS, not

safe FW— and then you

won't get a ban. Why don't they

automatically flick it on instead of

banning me? Stupid.

Well, I'll see how it goes. Maybe it'll be

nicer this time. I feel like a lot of the

toxic people don't, don't watch anymore

anyway. Hopefully they're gone.

Just kind of Sad recently.

Disappointed with how things ended.

Disappointed with how things turned out.

At least I had like 2 weeks of— yeah,

I was pretty happy the last 2 weeks.

Probably the happiest I've been the whole

year. It's just,

just goes to show, doesn't it? That's all

you need to have like a spark of light

back in your life again.

And then I went on a date yesterday and it

was so boring. Oh my God. It was

probably one of the first dates where as

soon as I met her, I just wanted to go

home. I don't know why, because she's not

bad looking and she's not fat,

but there was just something about her I

just didn't like.

We, we walked, we sat on a bench

for about half an hour drinking coffee,

then we walked around a bit, then we went

to the art museum. And then we just walked

round and round in circles around Arndale

for like an hour. I didn't know where to

go. I just wanted to go home.

I deleted the app. She probably unmatched

me. I just deleted the app as soon as

I got home because I couldn't be bothered.

That stupid Bumble app has given me

nothing but just depression. Now I've had

3 dates on Bumble. 2 of them unmatched me.

The 3rd one probably unmatched me as well.

Was she Japanese? No, she was like— she

looked white, but in her pictures she

looked a bit Hispanic, but then in real

life she looks white.

I don't know if it's because I just

recently Because I quite

liked that viewer that I met, and then

things didn't work out with her, so I felt

a bit bummed out. And then maybe it's just

because it's been too soon since that,

I'm not really in the mood. It's like

eating nice food and then you have to go

back to eating dog food, if that's a good

way of describing it.

Dating is just such— I don't know why.

Well, I do, but it's like, it's not

the date in itself that's boring because

I— we did do the same things. I did do

the same things with the other girls. We

just walked round and round in circles,

and that was fun. But then with this other

girl I met yesterday, we did that and it

just was not fun.

It's kind of like it depends on the person

you're with, things become fun or not

After, it was so awkward, I didn't know

how to like end the date. I asked her,

how are you getting back home? Are you

taking the bus? I think she got the hint

because then we headed towards the bus

station. And then I said I have to go to

Aldi. As soon as we said goodbye, I was

like, oh, thank God. I went to Aldi, did a

shop, did some shopping.

What work are you considering doing?

Not considering any work.

I'm considering becoming a professional

games journalist.

It was so relaxing just being alone again

and going to Aldi, not, not having to make

conversation. Having to make conversation

is such a pain in the backside. The

conversation was so boring. It's just like

she asked me these questions like, do you

have brothers and sisters? Yes, what about

you? I have a dog. I live with my

mum. Oh really? It was the most flat

conversation I've ever had.

You can't force it. Even if I put 100%

effort into trying to have a good

conversation, it's just not fun.

It's really difficult to tell why you

enjoy or don't enjoy a conversation with

someone.

Well, hopefully she doesn't find out about

this because I did tell her I do YouTube,

but I just said I made video game reviews.

She didn't ask what the channel was.

Which means she doesn't really care,

because if she was like really interested

in— or if she really found it interesting,

she would have been like, oh, what's your

channel? Oh yeah,

one thing she said was, how do you make

money doing that? How do people not know

how you make money off YouTube? You click

place ad and then you press save.

I can't believe people don't know that you

can make money off YouTube. It's just

crazy.

The things people don't know sometimes

really shocks me. Like, they don't know

that you can buy stocks for only £10 or

£100.

I wish I could find someone who's into

YouTube, like someone who wants to make

content And then is not scared of being

in, in videos. Everyone's so scared.

And people who think they're not scared in

the beginning end up changing their mind

later because they got scared.

What's so scary about it? I've been doing

it for like 5 years now.

What's the worst that's happened to me?

When am I streaming with Venus? Oh yeah,

Venus Angelic wants to do a podcast with

me. We've been chatting about it.

Maybe— I think we're doing it next week.

She said she has a podcast channel which

I've never seen. She said she just started

it. So am I going to be the first guest on

her podcast channel? So nice of her to

remember me. I thought she hated me

because last time I went on her stream and

some, some of us, you lot, came with me,

we all got banned on her live chat. I

didn't. I gave her a Super Chat and she

looked kind of annoyed, so I thought she

didn't like me, but it's nice she still

messaged me. After all this time,

maybe we can do— we can talk about

difficulties of being on OnlyFans because

I've had a lot of— well, not a lot, but

like a few upsetting things happen because

of OnlyFans. I don't know about Venus,

maybe she has too. Do you think a

girl would have difficulties dating if she

had an OnlyFans? I don't think Venus is

dating though. She, she seems like she has

someone. I feel like guys don't really

care, do they? Guys wouldn't care as much

as girls care if their partner does

OnlyFans. I feel like guys are more

tolerable. Guys care,

really?

Maybe. Well, if the guy just wants casual

sex, then I don't think he would care.

But then if you're looking for like a wife

and she does OnlyFans, yeah, maybe most

guys wouldn't be okay with it.

If they had genuine feelings for the girl.

Yeah, if like Mila did OnlyFans, I'd

probably find it very weird.

And yeah, I guess it would be weird.

Maybe it is pretty weird because

then all my weird viewers would be like

jerking off to my girlfriend. And I'm

not sure if I would enjoy that.

Why don't I move to London? Because it's

really expensive to

get a place like this in London. It would

be like £1,000 over. Might go to Scotland.

There's a girl in Scotland who said She

would show me around, and I kind of wanted

to go on that sleeper train back to

Do you think Scotland's interesting? I

might just stay for like a week or 2

weeks, get a hotel,

take the sleeper train back to London. If

Japan's open by then, I could just go

straight from London to Japan, but if it's

still not open, I guess I'll just go back

home. And wait at home until Japan

reopens. I don't

really see much point staying in

Manchester anymore. I can't get a

girlfriend, I can't get many dates. The

dates I do get, they're all just rubbish.

I also think I don't find the Manchester

accent attractive. There's something about

the Manchester accent, it's very

granny-like. Maybe it's the accent that's

turning me off. I just

don't really see much reason to stay here.

I'm definitely not going to renew the

contract. £5,000 to stay here until July?

No thanks. Maybe I'll just go home for

Otherwise, I'm just going to be sitting

here all day on Christmas all by myself.

I think we've, we've peaked Manchester. I

think the Manchester arc has peaked in the

last few weeks. I don't think I'm gonna

beat that. I don't think I'm gonna top

That, that was great, even though it

didn't end well. Didn't end how I would

have liked it to have. It was really nice

in the beginning. I'd walk all

the way to the tram stop, like 15 minutes

away, excited to go and pick her up at the

tram. I felt so alive, like full

of energy. Like, yes, I'm gonna get

dressed and showered. Clean the place,

because before that I was so depressed. I

didn't have anything to do.

It was nice.

Remember, I got all this stuff. I got the

cups, got the chopping board,

the oven tray,

all these. These hers.

Don't remember having purple elastic

What happened? Um,

basically we're just looking for different

things,

pretty much.

So what do we do now? I have to try and

find out how to get back to Japan. I don't

know if they're letting people back in as

language students because then I could

sign up to a language school. Maybe they

could get me a visa.

Oh, I just can't wait to get back to

Japan. I feel like there's way more

opportunities in Japan for content,

for meeting people, for dates.

Yeah, I could sign up for beginner course

in Japan Japanese. Pretend I don't know.

Konnichiwa, Daniel desu.

Genki desu ka?

Daniel always gets dumped right before

Christmas. No, last time I got dumped

after Christmas. I was

hoping I could have like a girlfriend for

Christmas at least. That would have been

nice.

Do I actually have to go to the school

though? Can't I just apply, get the visa,

and then not go? It's such a funny thing.

Just give me the damn visa, I'll give you

the money. I don't give a shit about

actually learning Japanese. I'm already

peda peda fluent.

If you take a beginner's class, you can

meet a weeb girl. Yeah, if you do the the

upper classes and the higher level

classes, it's full of Chinese people and

Taiwanese people. There was no European

people in the class I was in back in 2010

because I was in advanced. Level.

I reckon the weebs and the Europeans would

be in the beginner class.

I think they would only give you a 1-year

visa, and then in order to get the 2nd

year visa, you would have to have a good

attendance rate. If you stop going, they

won't— they won't renew your visa. I think

that's how it would work.

Possibly.

So my plans are we have to

start planning our departure from boring

Chester.

I just want to go there as a tourist.

When are they going to open? I don't get

it. Why do they open up for students and

business travelers but not tourists?

Japan never makes any sense.

As if business travelers are going to have

less chances of Spreading the virus, I

reckon business travelers would have a

higher chance of spreading it because

they're doing business all the time.

They're going to different meetings,

meeting different business partners.

They would be in contact with more people

than like your regular person, wouldn't

they? And then the business travelers can

only stay for less than three months.

David Bond is building a harem. He should,

he should let us sad incel guys,

um, utilize his harem for,

for a price. He could rent out his harem

for like £100 an hour.

Why did I change it to The Gaming Gamer?

So if people ask me what my channel is, I

can say it's The Gaming Gamer because I

think if you type in Chef Daniel, Hiding

My Room also comes up because they're kind

of linked. But if I say it's Gaming Gamer,

you look that up, I don't think Hiding My

Room is going to come up along with it.

Not sure, it's just a theory.

Plus, I think I need to keep changing the

branding of the channel so people don't

remember. Because the problem with the

gaming channel is people only click it

once, they never come back because I piss

them off. That's the problem with

clickbait. You can maybe trick them once

or twice into clicking. After they realize

what the channel's about, they won't come

back. So I need to trick them by changing

the way the channel looks so they don't

remember what it is. So I just changed

the, the banner art and the profile

picture and the name so they think, oh,

I've never seen this channel before.

I'm not sure how long

this tactic's gonna work. This is working

quite well actually. I got 23,000 views on

my Jurassic Park video, I've got 10,000

views on my Forza video. I got— I think my

Halo Infinite video is starting to get

some views. It's over 1,000 views now.

They'll remember your voice. Yeah, that is

a problem. I'm surprised not many people

were saying stuff like, aren't you the

Hide in My Room guy? I got a couple, but

not recently. I guess I'm not that well

known in the gaming community. How about

stop manipulating people? How about watch

my Through fucking videos so

I don't have to get a bloody job.

Jesus, people on YouTube just eating fried

chicken, don't even say a word, they get

billions of views. I'm struggling here to

even crack 10K views.

This person keep coming back.

Where are my moderators?

Oh, Vlog Phil, can, can we ban Happa

Beauty? They keep making new accounts and

coming back. Most annoying person.

I don't even think my video about Jory was

that bad.

What did I even say? I was saying— oh

yeah, I was saying he should stop

complaining about not making enough money

when he's got like half a million subs

back then. And then I was saying, I,

I'm doing YouTube full-time, I only make

$600 a month, so why are you moaning,

Joey? Because Joey was like freaking

out when the adpocalypse happened.

Because Joey is like the kind of person

who spends $20,000 every month on stupid

hentai figurines and all this anime manga

bullshit. He's got like a whole bookcase

full of bloody manga. All these figures

are like thousands of dollars each. So

obviously he started whining when he

started making less money.

These anime nerds, they just waste so much

money on the most pointless crap. Even

PewDiePie's got all these Gundam things in

his background. What's the point?

You don't even touch them, you just look

at them. Why don't you just get a picture

of it and hang it there? Collecting

figurines and paraphernalia is like

the stupidest hobby ever. You just fill

your house up with all this crap that you

never use. It has no functional purpose

apart from looking at it. I hate all that

rubbish. Whole bookshelf full of manga.

Look at me, I love manga. It's just lame.

I hate all that stupid figurines.

What is the point of figurine? At least

with a sex doll you can fuck it. What can

you do with a figurine unless it's

life-size? Life-size Sailor Moon figurine

with asshole and vagina.

Did I get rid of the hacksaw? No, I got to

start carving it up soon.

I don't use it anymore. It's going to be

such a pain. How am I going to do it?

Maybe the hacksaw would be good. I don't

know if hacksaw would work well on rubber.

Maybe just the knife would be good.

This time I don't have Chihiro to help me

cut my sex doll up, put it down the

rubbish chute. Hot knife. Yeah, it melts

through it like butter.

Maybe I can get like acid, put it in the

bathtub and dissolve it.

Ow, I just cramped my foot. I hate when

that happens. The toe goes at an awkward

angle and then it cramps.

Throw it out the window. I can't. There's

like metal grating. I want to

put it in the canal. Imagine like floating

torso with a massive cock floating down

the canal. I wonder if it would float.

Would it sink?

You're not in Salford? No, I'm in

Deansgate. Oh, thanks. Just in Torridge.

Refuses to understand people's interest is

why you're alone. It's not that I don't

understand it, I just think it's stupid.

People like collecting rubbish, don't

I don't really collect anything. I don't

like having a load of junk, so I need to

be able to fit everything into my

backpack. I have a dildo collection,

maybe.

So yeah, what do I do? I don't know about

Greece. I haven't talked to the Greek girl

in ages now. Maybe she's lost interest.

And then she's, she's not like 100%

guaranteed.

I mean, I asked her if she would stay with

me and she said We would have to meet

first to see if I like you or not.

Probably won't like me. People don't

usually like me.

It just seems like such a big gamble, go

all the way to Greece just,

just for that possibility, because then if

it doesn't work out, what am I going to do

in Greece?

Sit around in the hotel playing games.

I don't really want to go anywhere apart

from Japan. I don't like Europe.

And now there's all this stuff going on in

Poland, the Belarus border.

They're like bum-rushing Poland to try

and get into Europe, aren't they? It just

seems so unstable. And then isn't Russia

going to invade Ukraine or something?

Can't people just stop invading, stay

where they are, fix their own problems?

They were just running away. Oh wait,

isn't that what I'm doing?

Yeah, such a hypocrite.

How do I meet people in Japan? I go on

Tinder.

I just want to find somewhere that I want

to be in at That

is comfy and stable,

not on the verge of war.

I shouldn't have left Japan. If only the

stupid COVID thing happened one month— no,

not even one month. Even if COVID happened

one week earlier, I might have thought,

hmm, maybe I should just stay in Japan.

How was I to know that Japan would end up

shutting for 2 years plus? I thought I'd

get divorced, go to Korea, have a bit of

fun, go home for a few months, and then

once it's cooled down between me and

Chihiro, head back to Japan again and go

on Tinder. I didn't think the bloody

country would shut for 2 years plus.

I can't believe that— how bad the timing

was. Why is everything in my life just

such terrible timing? I find success

on Tinder, then I get married. I get

married, and then I blow up on YouTube and

become like a sex god that women

love. And then I lose my marriage,

and then my sex god status and YouTube

fame goes down the toilet. Everything's

just bad timing.

When I was leaving Japan, yeah, it just

started. People were freaking out buying

all the masks. I remember I was looking

for a mask around the airport and all I

could find were those heated face mask

things for sleeping.

And I didn't really think it was a big

deal. I thought, oh, it's just a bit of

flu, it'll be fine.

I went to Korea and things were pretty

normal there as well. It didn't really

start spreading yet. Then one month

into Korea, it started getting really bad.

What a boring 2 years. I could have done

so much.

There's hardly any corona in Japan. Maybe

because they shut the borders.

Maybe there'd be hardly any virus anywhere

if everywhere shut their borders like

Japan did.

Then maybe this thing wouldn't have lasted

I think they should just start letting

people back in because people can take a

test to prove they don't have it. So if

they don't have it, then why not let them

in? If they do have it, then put them in

like a center, a hotel, to keep them

isolated. I feel like they're just

I can't wait to go back. What would be the

first thing I do? Oh wow,

111! Look at that!

If that is not a good omen. I literally

turned around on 1111. What does that

mean? Is Mila coming back into my life,

or does it mean I'm gonna get rich soon?

You would never guess what happened on

11/11 either. Oh my God,

recently it was 11/11, wasn't it? The 11th

of November. You will never guess what

freaking happened. I'll never say because

I am a changed person now.

It's just creepy,

the coincidence of 1111,

and strangely good things seem to happen

on 1111. Really weird.

No, it's not about Chihiro, something

else.

And then I was playing Halo Infinite and

there was a player with a username or

something like Slayer1111. Maybe this is a

good sign.

My good, my good deeds will pay off.

I will be rewarded by the universe.

So what should I do when I get back to

Japan? First, I want to eat my favorite

foods,

like, uh,

Maybe the beef bowl thing, sukiya.

I quite like that. Or yakiniku would be

nice. I just want to eat everything.

Shabu-shabu.

I miss Japanese food a bit.

The way you say those Japanese words sound

terrible. Yeah, because I'm speaking in

English. When I'm speaking in English, I

pronounce foreign words in the English

way. Don't make me have to explain this

again.

It's like when you say Paris or baguette,

you don't say it in like the French way,

do you? You say in the way that English

speakers say it.

If you are speaking in one language and

all of a sudden you break out like

native-sounding pronunciation just for one

or two words, you sound like a fucking

twat, to be honest. Sounds so dumb.

And when I'm speaking in Japanese, I don't

just whip out the British accent for

certain words.

Imagine you speaking in Japanese and then

all of a sudden you say— I don't know,

what is like an English word they commonly

use? Like smartphone.

You say the words in the way that everyone

else is saying it in. So annoying when

people say that. I'm not speaking in

Japanese now, so obviously I'm not going

to put any effort into saying things the

Japanese way. I'm going to say Tokyo,

not how the Japanese people say Tokyo.

But when I'm speaking in Japanese,

obviously I'll say Tokyo the proper way.

God, to explain that every time.

That's why I hate having to say Japanese

words now.

If I went to Japan without knowing much

Japanese, would that be okay? Yeah, I

don't think you even need Japanese, to be

honest. I don't, I don't even talk to

anyone when I go to Japan. You can

do daily shopping and get around

really easily without speaking to anyone.

There's Wi-Fi everywhere, free Wi-Fi.

You can get a pocket Wi-Fi,

you just Google anything. There's maps

everywhere. There's— everything is in

English as well. The only reason you would

talk to anyone is if you're really lazy.

I remember when I met David Bond, he was

really annoying. Because he would keep

asking people stuff. I'd be like trying to

find out which train we've got to go on,

and then he would just like pull over some

random Japanese guy and then make me ask

him in Japanese. I hate when people do

that. People who have no problems talking

to strangers and are lazy, they'll just

ask someone who's nearby and bother them

when you could just whip out your phone

and Google it. Yeah, it might take a

couple seconds longer.

I really don't like disturbing people by

asking them stuff. I find it really

annoying when they ask me stuff. I mean,

you can't just Google it on your phone.

Why are you asking me? Walking down the

street and something— excuse me, do you

know where the library is? I don't know,

Google it, for fuck's sake.

I'm not a bloody tour guide.

I just don't like talking to strangers at

all. I like all that sugar.

My Tinder date got me a coffee,

then I needed to pee really badly.

It's embarrassing when When a girl asks

you to ask someone, and then you kind of

have to because you can't say no because

she's like testing your social skills,

isn't she?

Oh, just ask. I remember I was on a date

in Korea and we were looking for a phone

shop, so I just thought, why don't I just

bring up the conversation of the new

Samsung folding phones? And then I said,

I wonder if they have a shop around here.

And then she kept trying to push me into

asking Some— she said, oh look, there's a

phone accessory shop, let's ask there.

And then she kept trying to get me to ask

the shop assistant. I kept saying, oh no,

it's okay, I'm not really bothered. And

she kept going, go on, just ask. I refused

to ask. She ended up asking. She unmatched

me after the date just because I didn't

want to ask a stranger where a stupid

phone shop is.

I don't want to go up to like a random

Korean person and then have to try and ask

where the Samsung phone shop is in Korean.

Why do they make me do this rubbish?

Yeah, it's just a failure, failure to show

them that you are confident if you can't

even ask. Someone for directions, they

sense you don't have confidence, they

unmatch you straight away. It's like

instant turn-off. It's why they hate

sweaty hands. You know how much girls hate

sweaty hands? Because they— it's like

connected to being nervous and anxious.

Or maybe it's just because I'm a bit hot

and I've got my fists clenched and it's a

bit clammy.

Have you— as guys, do you

guys care if the girl's hands are clammy?

I've never been bothered if a girl's hands

were clammy or sweaty.

I never saw like sweaty girl's hands with—

oh, disgusting. I don't

know. Look, my hand's getting sweaty now.

Look, because I'm gripping the tripod

thing. I'm not nervous. What are you

nervous about? Look at that, it's

drenched. Lick it.

Look at that glistening

sweat because

I've been gripping this rod for nearly an

hour now. Okay, what food do I need to

make? Um, look at all the food I have.

Oh, it's so much.

If her hand's a bit sweaty, I just wipe

them for her. It's not really a big

problem, is it?

Uh, what am I doing? Oh yeah, I was gonna

make soup, so I need to transfer the

rice. Out of

the pot.

I think— where should I put it? Put it on

the plate.

Can you tell us something interesting?

Let me think.

Um.

I think the Venus thing's quite

interesting, don't you?

Venus Angelic

is like the only YouTuber who,

who would be willing to collab with me.

I wonder why. Is it because she relates to

me? Is it because she actually likes

me? Because I'm not really going to be

able to help her grow much because my

channel is dead now.

So it's not like I can really provide

anything of value for her if she's looking

for views.

We do have some things in common.

It's weird, I never imagined I'd end up

chatting to Venus Angelic.

Kind of funny if you think about it.

It's not like I used to watch her content

because I'm not a girl, but I knew of her

about the whole like living doll stuff.

I never really followed it closely though.

I never really followed the drama.

I just watched a couple videos about it

here and there.

Would I contact my ex-Japanese wife? We

talked in October. You know, I made that

clickbait video called My Ex-Wife Doesn't

Want Me Anymore. She messaged me after

that video. We talked a bit, but not

since.

She said she thought it was just

clickbait. I mean, it was clickbait, but

isn't it also true? Unless it's not true

and she doesn't not want me back. Yeah,

maybe she messaged me because she thought

it was genuine. She thinks I want to get

back with her. Maybe, maybe I would.

I'm not ruling it out.

Maybe after I've exhausted all my other

options, which would not

take very long.

Because I'm getting old, I'm losing my

looks, and being like a 35,

40-year-old who does YouTube and OnlyFans

is— it's not very appealing if you want to

get a girlfriend.

I'm gonna be 40 and then still on a dead

stupid YouTube channel. Barely making

more than minimum wage.

I feel like by the time I'm 40,

I hope I'm making a bit more money.

Somehow. I don't even know if YouTube is

still going to be around.

It could be still around. Oh, oh, I hate

that sound. Oh, metal scratching metal is

horrible. Oh, oh, I need a wooden spoon.

I just

need to find a thing that's easy to

replicate, replicate,

easy to pump out, low effort content I

can just pump out onto YouTube. Video

games are quite good because there's

always new video games coming out, and my,

my popularity doesn't matter.

The popularity of the game is what

matters, and how well I can clickbait

people into clicking it and do tags and

search engine optimization. That's where

the views come from.

Video games are expensive. I can refund

it. I just buy it on Steam, refund it

within 2 hours.

How much rice you eating? I'm not gonna

eat the whole plate, just have a bit.

Brown waifu.

Want your channel to grow? Stop ignoring

your fans. The channel is not going to

grow anymore with what I've been doing.

It's just not. I need something fresh,

like a new angle, a new topic.

Chef Daniel is growing. It's gained like

250 subs in the past month. Hiding My Room

has lost like 170.

Some people do find my, my reviews funny,

and then they sub to the channel. The

people who get that it's, it's like not

serious and it's satire. I mean, it's not

actually satire because I really don't

like those video games and I think they're

actually boring, but I get that

what I'm saying sounds really stupid.

It's kind of the whole point though.

If you're being really negative about

something, you've got to come up with

points about why you don't like it, don't

you? What kind of soup?

So chicken.

What are those bottles? That's my gut

bacteria yogurt. It's got L.

casei live cultures and vitamin B12 and

D. I think my skin is getting

a bit better.

Smells good still. Got chicken thighs,

and I better check the Discord.

Hopefully there's not spamming.

Yeah, it looks fine.

I've only had to ban one person so far,

so pretty good.

Okay, I got this tomato in a can.

I got taco beans.

What else? A celery would be quite good,

wouldn't it? I don't think

mushrooms would be good. Mushrooms would

be a bit weird. If I

was extremely rich, would I be happier?

Probably not. If I was really

rich, I guess I could quit OnlyFans and

then that would stop. Stop reducing my

chances of getting dates.

I don't

know, I feel like the OnlyFans is the

biggest problem because I could kind of

explain the channel. I could say, oh,

that was a long time ago, I said some dumb

stuff, I was just trolling. But with

OnlyFans, I guess I could say, oh,

there's not really anything bad on it.

I could say, oh, I just have some

shirtless pictures, but people instantly

jump to the conclusion that I'm doing

hardcore porn on it.

Like, the other girl I was gonna go on a

date with who I really liked, she just

unmatched me straight away after she found

out I did OnlyFans. She didn't even ask

me, like, what kind of OnlyFans content am

I making? Just straight

away she's like, oh, you do OnlyFans? I'm

not into that.

Bye. Dairy can

make you break out. Oh yeah, I forgot

yogurt has dairy. This yogurt is made out

of soy. I don't know if this yogurt is

plant-based. I think it was. I forgot

what the brand was.

What else should I put in my soup? I think

that's enough really.

I just, I can't quit the OnlyFans. I need

the money. The money's too

good. I need money for my stocks.

Because it's either quit OnlyFans or get a

job because my YouTube channel doesn't

make enough money anymore on its own.

Forced into pornography because of

YouTube. How YouTube forced

me into pornography. And ruin my life.

The smell of onions reminds me of that

girl. She always put raw onions in salad.

Made me gassy.

Gassy.

Get a job then? No, I'd rather just be

lonely and sexless than have to get a job.

What do you think's worse, having to get a

job but then you might get a girlfriend,

or refusing to get a job and then it's

very difficult to get a girlfriend?

I guess I've made my choice already,

decided not to get a job.

Because imagine you get a job, you get a

girlfriend, and she's just really

annoying. I don't think I'd be happy.

You got to choose. Do what you— I mean,

live how you want to live and be happy but

be alone, or do what you don't want to do

In order to not be alone, and then you

become unhappy anyway. I don't think I'd

be happy if I had to get like a job. I'd

be miserable. It's not what I want

to do in life.

Keeps coming out here on the backside.

For some reason, Japanese women don't care

what you do because I've

had Japanese girlfriends date me

when I didn't have a job, and they were

completely okay with it. Like, when I met

Chihiro, I didn't have a job. I didn't

have like an online business. I had a tiny

YouTube channel that made $400 a month,

and she was happy to marry me. And then I

had that other Japanese girlfriend who was

happy to date me and nearly marry me even

though I had no job and I had no skills.

Single mother girlfriend She was happy to

date me and happy to be impregnated by me,

and I didn't have a job at the time.

Oh, my eyes are stinging. Ouch.

Do I regret divorcing? To be honest,

yeah, I do. My life was so much better in

Japan being married. I was much happier,

even though it sounded like I was moaning

and unhappy all the time. I'm way more

unhappy now than I was back then, easily.

I'm so miserable and lonely now.

Nothing worked out how I planned.

Life was good in Japan, wasn't it? Had my

fish tank,

had a A cheap place to live in, had the

company.

My monthly expenses in Japan were like

$500. That's all I had to make.

All I had to make was $500 a month to, to

make Chihiro happy. She didn't ask me to

go and get a job. She didn't make me pay

So much better.

And the only reason I was unhappy was

because I kept— I couldn't stop thinking

about sex with other women and all

these young girls that would message me

from the channel, just too tempting.

Now I realize they're all

bloody weird.

They're all mentally ill,

every single one of them.

None of it was worth it. Maybe Milo was

worth it, but then that didn't last

either.

I don't know if the Milo thing was worth

all of this trouble.

It was pretty magical, but then it,

it didn't last, did it?

Nothing lasts forever.

The only thing I still have are my loyal

viewers. At least you guys

are still here. You guys have stuck around

longer than any of my bloody exes.

The only constant. See,

that's why it's better instead of like.

Relying on one person.

I'm relying on hundreds, thousands of

people. I'm diversified. It's like being

in the S&P 500.

You've got the S&P 500, you've got 500

companies. If a couple of them go down,

it's not really a big deal. It doesn't

really make any difference.

Maybe I should prioritize my community

over girls. Prioritizing girls over the

community is like picking one stock and

putting all your money into it, then

crying when it crashes. I knew

I should have invested in an ETF,

and now I'm invested in bloody Activision

Blizzard. The stupid CEO is like some

pervert sex offender. And then the,

the staff of Activision Blizzard, they're

like striking, going on strike, trying to

get him removed, and the stock's just

tanking. I didn't know the bloody CEO was

like this sex creep. I should have looked

it up. What's his

name? Bobby Kotick.

Apparently he was like sexually assaulting

staff and like touching them and doing

weird stuff.

Instead of investing into index fund, you

shorted it. Yeah, I'm now minus £850

on my NASDAQ short. NASDAQ's ripping again

today. Apple and Amazon are going up.

Yeah, well, when the market does

eventually crash, I'll make my money back.

Don't worry, the market's gonna

crash again. We'll have a correction.

Just gotta

be patient.

But I still have these carrots from the

last stream. Remember I was chopping

carrots and I

was freaking out because she was messaging

me because she

got upset about something I said? Because

I said something about burning bridges,

didn't I?

Okay, what else do we have?

Oh, celery.

Very healthy vegetable chicken soup. I

shall make for my lovely viewers.

Judo chop, Gordon Ramsay style.

It feels so satisfying.

I'm gonna chop my fingers off next.

Imagine I chop my finger off on the stream

and then I fainted.

Pro chef.

Learn jiu-jitsu.

I don't want to learn martial arts, so

lame.

I wish I could skateboard. If I could do

one sport really well, skateboarding seems

so cool, grinding down rails, but it just

seems like such— what's the word? A

nuisance to society, grinding down

pavements. They fall off and the

skateboard goes flying into the road, or

they break a bench doing their tricks.

I used to be able to do a heelflip and

land it, and I could do an ollie.

My skating days, listening to Linkin Park.

My baggy jeans and my hoodie.

Me and my friends were such skaters,

skater boys. We used to go

to the skate shop and buy stuff like WD-40

and bearings, ball bearings.

Had a nice skateboard.

I wonder if Tony

Hawk still skates.

Tony Hawk's Pro Skater, that game was so

good. I remember getting it on PlayStation

2. Everyone was playing it.

Pro Skater 1, Pro Skater 2,

and then you could design your own

skatepark. That was amazing. And then you

could design your own skater and choose

his outfit. I think you could even make

your own tricks eventually.

Good times.

Good times.

Are you sad? Um, a little bit.

So I got, I got way too excited and

hopeful for that new girl. I thought, oh,

maybe she likes me, she's interested in

me, that's why she reached out to me.

I got way ahead of myself, got way too

excited.

Now we're back to square one, boys.

Back to square one.

Bit excited to find out what happens next

because I feel like the Manchester arc is

coming to an end. Maybe you guys think it

was uneventful, but it wasn't. It was

quite eventful. It's just I'm not really

allowed to say what happened yet.

I mean, ever.

That is the problem.

I just don't know how I can do what I used

to do, which was have wacky experiences

and then talk about it. Make videos about

it because no one ever lets me talk about

it now. They always make me promise not to

say, make me sign a contract like that

German girl did.

Now that I look back at the Chihiro stuff,

it's crazy that I even made those videos

in the first place. Like the Australian

guy stuff, made a video about every single

little detail. Personal stories that she

told me. And maybe it was also

crazy of her to even give me permission,

because I always asked for permission

after she told me. I was like, can I make

a video about this, please? And then she

would just say, sure, I guess, why not?

It was thanks to Chihiro that I was able

to tell all these interesting stories like

Australian guy. The marriage stuff,

intricate details of the relationship.

No other girl will let me do that.

They just— they don't want me to do it.

Why is my lens blurry?

I mean, I got a lot of views because of

the wacky stories and adventures I was

able to turn into video content. Without

Chihiro's permission, I wouldn't have been

able to do it. It would have just been

like what it's like now. You guys think

it's all boring because I'm not able to

talk. Some pretty interesting stuff did

happen. It's just I

don't want to ruin things. I don't want to

like burn bridges like I used to

anymore because it's just not worth it.

Let's say I did And I was like, screw that

person, I'm gonna spill all the beans.

And then it makes 20K views. It's not

worth it. I made a video about the pier

thing, which I was kind of against doing

in the first place. Guess how much money

the pier video made? It only made $55,

and it only got 19K views. It's rubbish.

I'm not gonna burn bridges just for $50.

If you got like a million views, I'd

consider it.

I can make $50 just by talking shit about

a video game, like, oh, Jurassic Park's

rubbish, the graphics are so bad. I make

$100. I made $100 off my Jurassic World

And I didn't have to like upset someone

or ruin my— I guess I did ruin my

reputation in the gaming community. I

couldn't care less about my reputation in

the gaming community.

Chicken, chicken in a pot.

Why don't you make good reviews? I don't

know how to make a good review. How, how

do you make a good review? You've got to

play the game for hundreds of hours so you

actually know what you're talking about.

I've played Rainbow Six for 6,000 hours

and I still don't know what I'm talking

It's too much effort to do a good review

that is fair and

based off of common sense and logic.

I just want to say this game's rubbish

because the gameplay is boring compared to

Mario Kart, and this feature is really

annoying. Can't be bothered to play a game

for thousands of hours and then learn all

about it so I know what I'm talking about.

Too much effort.

Oh no, how am I gonna heat the rice up?

I didn't think about that.

Chicken in a pot.

Chicken stock.

As an avid fan of the Jurassic Park

series, I just had to play this video

game. Unfortunately, it was a massive

disappointment.

Massive,