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Oh, come on.

Welcome back to a new stream.

Haven't seen your new YouTube video yet.

Why not? It's my

best video ever. It's gonna get the worst

views ever as well. I don't know if

I should close this or keep it open. If I

close it, it gets really warm, but then if

I open it, it gets a bit cold.

I was going to do a stream yesterday, but

then I got so caught up making that video.

I think I spent— I spent all day making

that video. It's probably the most effort

I put into a video since 1999.

It was quite fun to make.

I had fun. Doing the,

um, the dialogue, the script. It kind

of got a bit silly though. I wasn't

planning to make it so silly. It just got

more and more silly, and then I thought it

was really funny, so I just left it all

Well, hopefully people realize that I'm

just like trolling. Or not

trolling. I don't know what you'd call it.

It's supposed to be funny and not serious.

Maybe if I was more obvious with the

trolling, then people wouldn't get so mad

at me all the time like they used to.

I thought it was a fun video to make.

Maybe it won't get many views in the

beginning, but you look back at my Chinese

massage video, that has 70K views now.

I didn't even realize. I swear that video

only had about 20K at the time of upload.

In the first few weeks, it only had about

15 to 20K. I don't know how it has 70K

now. So you never know with these dark

side dark side of insert random

Japanese subculture thing.

Sometimes they hit off, sometimes they

don't.

We'll see.

Nobita's dark side of the porn industry

always seems to get him loads of views. I

don't think the maid cafe industry is as

cared about as the porn industry though,

so I don't know.

I wish I could get actual interviews,

would make the videos more interesting.

I want interviews where I don't actually

have to do them, so I

just want the interview but I don't want

to have to actually interview people. No

one even realized where I got the audio

from the Japanese female voice.

Who can guess? You would have

to have good memory to remember which

video it's from, plus you need to know

Japanese, I guess.

Uh, last night was terrible. Bloody

neighbor had some kind of party. And he

was playing his music until about 5 AM.

It wasn't until about 5 AM that thumping

bass stopped going. So annoying.

I've got the worst luck. I end up living

right next to a bloody party person.

All these people going in and out to his

place. I got woken up at around 3 to the

sound of some stupid woman's voice going,

I'm Sonia from EastEnders, I'm Sonia,

I'm Sonia. What the fuck's she saying?

And she was making this really

dumb-sounding London accent.

I don't know if I could actually complain

about it. How come no one else complains?

Maybe they're all like me, scared to

complain. I always end up living next to

really noisy people,

partying till 5 o'clock. Jesus.

This guy, he loves his music. Even just

now earlier, for about an hour, he was

playing his bloody music system.

Got the worst luck ever.

Maybe everyone's just like that.

Aren't there any people who just don't

listen to music like me, or are we just

like freaks of nature? I tell people I

don't listen to music and they're always

like, what? How can you not listen to

music? Because I've got more interesting

things to listen to.

Maybe I could file an anonymous complaint,

sound complaint, but what are they gonna

do? Can you actually get someone kicked

out just because he's playing music?

Seems a bit extreme.

Damn, I'm really hungry today and it's

only 5 o'clock. I don't know why I'm so

hungry.

Yeah, bad news about OnlyFans. I got an

email from OnlyFans announcing what's

going to happen, and then on the new

guidelines now it says Do not upload

content that involves masturbating or

stimulated masturbation. No sexual fluids

and no excreting stuff and

no sex. So yeah,

pretty shit, but you can still do nudes

and you could still show your penis,

I think. Just no jerking off, no cumming,

and no putting stuff up your bum, which is

my favorite things to do. So I

don't know, I had a look at Pornhub, but

the problem with Pornhub is they've

disabled the fan club thing. Pornhub has

an OnlyFans kind of subscription-based

model, but Visa, Mastercard,

and PayPal also ditched Pornhub recently,

so Pornhub have had to completely disable

the fan club system because people can't

pay for it. How are they going to pay if

they can't use their Visa or Mastercards?

So you can choose— if you make money on

Pornhub, you can choose certain things as

payout options like crypto, and that's

fine and everything if you're getting paid

out. And I guess they could implement it

so People can use crypto to pay on

Pornhub, but come on, crypto is not

mainstream enough yet to the point where

everyone has a crypto wallet and knows how

to use crypto. Even I barely understand

it. I don't have a crypto wallet.

So they've completely disabled the fan

club thing because they're probably trying

to find out how can people pay without

using Visa, MasterCard, or PayPal. And

then OnlyFans didn't want to have to do

that. OnlyFans didn't want to get ditched

by all of the payment providers, so they

just decided, well, we'll just get rid of

all porn. And yeah, we're going to lose a

shit ton of money, but it's better than

getting completely rejected

by Visa and everything.

So I don't know what Pornhub's gonna do

about the fan club thing. I'm making about

$1 a month on Pornhub from ad revenue, so

that's kind of rubbish.

So at this rate, I've made $5 so far. I

need another $95 to be able to cash out,

so it's gonna take 95 months at this rate.

And then they can only pay out with

checks, but then it takes like a week to

send the check. Or you can cash out using

crypto, and it's kind of confusing. You

need to get an app called TronLink Wallet,

and then they pay you in US dollar Tether,

which then you need another app called

Polleny something to then exchange the

Tron coins into another coin like Bitcoin,

and then you can withdraw that to your

bank account. Such a pain in the backside

doing these crypto things.

And then there's other websites like

JustForFans, ManyVids,

but who knows how long it's going to take

until those websites also get ditched by

Visa and MasterCard, and then they're just

going to have to They'll end up the same,

won't they? All these copycat websites

also rely on Visa, Mastercard. Visa,

Mastercard, and PayPal, they don't want to

be associated with these porn websites

because there was like child CP scandals

that happened some time ago and they

didn't want to be seen supporting it or

associated with it.

So I don't know the future of the porn

industry. How are they going to make money

if the biggest payment providers in the

world don't want to do— do it— have

anything to do with it?

So I made a JustForFans.

Um, it seems like the same as OnlyFans. I

don't know how many people would stop

being my subscriber just because I stopped

doing jerking off stuff. I feel like a lot

of people would still stay subscribed just

for nudes and like sexy photos.

I think a lot of people actually didn't

like it because it was too hardcore.

Kind of annoying. I feel like I jinxed it

again. Just a few weeks ago I was saying

stuff like, oh, thank God I've got

OnlyFans. I'd be in real trouble if I

didn't have OnlyFans. Fuck YouTube,

OnlyFans is better. And then this happens.

I swear everything I try and do

or get excited about ends up blowing up in

It feels like I'm the unluckiest person in

the world sometimes.

Well, we'll see. I've got 140 fans right

now. It's like $1,400 a month. See how

many stop paying.

Even if I lose half of them, it's still

like $700 or $800 a month. Still pretty

I think Visa and Mastercard have ditched,

um, all of the websites that

are associated with MindGeek. MindGeek is

like the company that runs all these

different porn websites like Pornhub. So

they've ditched all of their websites, so

I don't know how they're gonna survive.

What if they all end up shutting down

because they can't make enough money

anymore? What if OnlyFans ends up shutting

down because

90% of the customers left?

Where's my phone?

Not sure what to do now.

Do I announce to my OnlyFans But surely

they know what's happening. What if I just

pretend nothing's changing?

So what if I announce that I'm not doing

the stuff they love anymore and then they

will go, oh well, I'm gonna unsubscribe

then? If that's the case, then maybe it's

better not to say anything.

I wanted to do a laptop stream, but I

still got that bloody pimple. It's been a

week now.

It's getting a bit better. All the white

stuff came out and then it scabbed over

and then the scab fell off. Still kind of

swollen. Got you.

Ban. Yeah, it's still kind of swollen and

red. It's been like a week now.

Most annoying pimple I ever had. A whole

week can't show my face because I got a

stupid massive red lump.

Maybe it's because I'm not washing my

face. I never really felt like washing my

face made a difference. I washed my face

every day and had a shower when I was in

Japan. I still got pimples. Such a

nuisance when you're trying to make videos

where you usually show your face and then

you can't because you've got a stupid

pimple. I guess I can just make non-face

videos.

Still haven't been able to test out my

laptop for streaming. I've got

these AirPod ripoffs.

Cost £15. I wonder if

they're any good. Reminds me of the ones I

got for Chihiro. I actually got the

AirPods for myself when I was in Japan,

but she was so happy with them

and so excited about them, I thought,

well, I guess she can have them then. I

don't know why I bought them in the first

place. Just because they kind of looked

cool.

She just kind of took them even though it

wasn't my intention to give it to her as a

They seem quite nice. I haven't tried them

yet. I want to use them when I stream in

case I want to play a video.

I don't know how the microphone is going

to work too. I think it should sound good.

I did some testing making videos and

it sounded fine, just a little bit quiet.

I'm not sure if it's quiet for everyone

else.

Don't know why Visa and Mastercard don't

want to support sex workers, just because

they're scared of the child you-know-what.

Well, what if the sex websites just put

more effort into moderating it so that

stuff doesn't happen?

Apparently the cost of moderating and

reviewing every single porn video that

gets uploaded was not worth it.

Apparently it would have cost OnlyFans

more money to hire like a dedicated review

team to review each and every single video

than it would be to just ban all porn

altogether.

What's the solution?

I don't know.

What does YouTube do? You can't upload

that stuff to YouTube and get away with

it. You'll get banned straight away.

Maybe they should make it more difficult

to make an account, like you need to

upload verification, but you already have

to do that.

Apparently the same thing happened to

Tumblr. I didn't realize Tumblr had so

much porn on it in the beginning, and they

also had to, um, ban all the sexual stuff

or else get blocked by Visa, MasterCard.

And then apparently Tumblr lost like 2/3

of its audience and its customers, but

they're still around. They didn't go

Imagine being paid to review porn. Sounds

like something I could do. I'm watching

porn all day anyway.

Really didn't expect this to happen.

I don't get it though, cuz OnlyFans has

been around for years doing this. Why

suddenly is Visa and Mastercard getting

all upset about it?

Not sure,

not sure at all. Well, hopefully I can

still maintain Half

the people on OnlyFans, maybe they just

want like some feet pics, some nudes,

maybe some butt cheeks, maybe wearing some

sexy outfits. Maybe not all of them

really, really want the explicit stuff.

It's just those messages

that I sell for like $40 each. They make

like $500 each time I do them, and I don't

think they're going to pay for them if

there's no hardcore stuff in it.

Plus, it was fun doing the sausage in the

bum thing. Otherwise, not really sure

what else to do.

I could try making videos on Pornhub,

but the money is just not great on

Pornhub. Even people who get like 200,000

views, they probably only make about $100,

$200 a month.

That girl, that Japanese girl, I talked to

her again yesterday. She said after about

4 months she made only $1,000, and she

gets like quarter of a million views on

her videos.

Life's so hard. All we want to do is make

porn. Why won't they let us?

Oh well, I'm sure I'll find something to,

um, make up for it. I always seem to find

new ways to make money on the internet,

don't I? The life of a

hustler. Nothing is ever permanent. You

always got to go with the trends. I don't

know if I— I think I got onto the OnlyFans

trend a bit late. But there's no way

Chihiro would have let me do it. I did it

in 2020 May. I should have started a few

months earlier. I actually had no idea

about it until I watched some Venus

Angelic videos. Well,

at least I managed to profit from it for

over a year. I made like $20,000 in total.

Pretty good.

Would have liked to make more. Imagine if

I could have made like 50K.

I don't know why I feel so dizzy. I feel

like I'm really unhealthy now. I'm eating

fruits and vegetables. Do I think

Chihiro is going to upload videos again?

I don't know why she's kind of vanished

now. Her last Instagram post

is June. Her last YouTube video is

also June. I haven't heard from her at

all. I never see her online. Either she's

completely moved on now and got a new

boyfriend, or she died.

Kind of strange, she just suddenly

disappeared from everywhere.

Even back in April, she was commenting on

my videos, wasn't she?

Kinda weird.

Casey talks about me. What'd he say?

Not really interested.

I haven't talked to her since we had that

argument about Discord. Yeah, well, I

guess I can say I told you so. Told— I

told her if you make a Discord, all you're

gonna get is all those stupid idiot

trolls. And then she kept

saying, oh, I need a fan base to build my

channel. You don't want them as your fan

base. Those are the kinds of people you

want blocked straight away and have

nothing to do with. There's, there's just

complete waste of time and space. Those

people,

nothing good comes from them. You gotta

block them straight away. You don't wanna

have a Discord full of them. That's like

the worst thing you can ever have. But no,

she never listens to me. She doesn't

understand these types of people and this

type of internet subculture of trolling.

Unfortunately, all the nice people, um,

don't watch anymore. Like, the nice people

who were kind and supportive to her,

sympathetic to her, like the hundreds of

thousands of views the wife videos used to

get. Those would have been the people she

would have wanted, but they've all fucked

off, haven't they? They don't watch my

videos anymore.

Cesium trash-talked you. I don't know why

Cesium's whining, to be honest. He's

whining because I talked about him When I

really didn't. I talked about Peter. And

why is he whining about it? If he doesn't

want me to talk about him, then why did he

bring his bloody girlfriend to my house?

Idiot. He doesn't want me to talk

about him, yet he does things to

constantly get involved in my life.

And you know what I do? I talk about

things that happen in my life.

That's what I do. So if you don't want me

to talk about you, then stop poking your

nose into my life and meddling and

interfering. It's not difficult.

Well, I guess it is for him.

I barely even said anything. I just said

Her boyfriend came to my house and dropped

her off. That's— that was it. I didn't

even go into all of the weird stuff he

started messaging Chihiro about.

He messaged me on Twitch. I ignored him.

What's that person riding? There's a

person zipping along. Maybe it's like a

Hmm, okay, what's the plan?

Don't know. Meeting a girl soon when

she comes back to Manchester. She said we

could go to a bar. Hopefully we get on

well and then she, she's up for like

making some videos together.

Hopefully she's not all like uptight and

scared about everything.

Ah, I've got to ban this person again.

That's all I want really. I mean, I don't

even care about sex at this point. I'd

just like to have a friend that I could

make videos with. That would be great.

At least we could like go to bars and I

can vlog it, and then we could go to

different places, Go to a restaurant,

maybe. It's just really hard to

make videos when you don't have anyone to

make videos with because I'm not the kind

of person to go places by myself.

I'm not sure why I didn't realize this

when I was with Chihiro, that I was able

to make so much, so many videos thanks to

her being with me. And then most of those

videos wouldn't have been made if I was

just on my own.

Went out in Manchester on Friday night. I

wouldn't have been able to, just got a

massive pimple.

I think the pimple should be gone by next

Can do it with a guy.

Hmm, maybe. I feel like even most guys

wouldn't want to be in my videos.

That Eugene guy in Korea was good. I

should have met him more.

Maybe I should go try going out on Friday

night one time. I don't know where to go.

Is there like an area where they've got

all the social places?

I think that church is like a nightclub

because every Friday night and Saturday

night all the windows start pulsing

purple. Like a disco rave.

Not sure. I kind of just want to go back

Oh, when's Japan gonna reopen? I was

reading some articles and the 4

editors, um,

they have different opinions on when

Japan's going to reopen. So one

of them thinks 45% chance it reopens in

winter, 50% chance opens in December,

70% chance it opens next year.

Do you think they'd open in December?

Still don't know if they want you to get

the vaccine to enter.

Can't believe they can keep the whole

country closed for 2 years. They're

Maybe I should look to getting the vaccine

as my next goal.

Task. I just feel a bit scared because

recently I feel kind of lightheaded. I

feel like having the virus, even if it's

in its weakened form, could actually kill

Oh, this person keeps coming back. I've

got to burn him again.

Where's my moderator?

Seisha, can I make you moderator? Kerry's

not here. This annoying troll keeps

joining. He always has 3 words in his

username. It goes food, food,

and then LMAO.

How do I make you a mod? Ban, report,

timeout, mod. Oh, there it is. Okay, I

made Say Shit a moderator. Just ban that

guy who keeps coming back. He'll have like

3 words in his username, food_food_lmao,

being annoying.

It's probably the same as that Lammy Cord

person. They just join the Twitch chat so

they can go, haha, your views are low.

Annoying idiots.

I can't believe it's been a month now

since I moved in here. A whole month and

I've done nothing. Got recognized a

few times, that was it. Apart from that—

well, I got a laptop, didn't I? That's

something.

Who's banging?

How can the vaccine not have the virus in

it? I don't understand how it works. I

thought vaccines have like a weakened or

dead version of the virus in it.

Maybe I'll try going to Wing Yip, get some

tofu. Need something to do, really.

Don't know what to do.

Wouldn't mind having ramen. Ramen and tofu

with bacon, that'd be really good. And

kimchi.

I heard Thailand's reopening in winter.

Do you need the vaccine to go to Thailand?

I just want to go somewhere where there's

Asian girls.

English girls are boring. Can't get any

matches. They're all really dull to talk

to. They're all like, oh, I want to start

family. Oh, I'm looking for serious

relationship.

Can't they just be like Japanese girls and

go to karaoke, get drunk, and fuck?

It's just— I've completely given up on

Tinder here. It's just a waste of time.

It's pointless. The only matches I get are

all fat and ugly,

or they're really boring and they're just

talking about serious relationship stuff.

It keeps making that banging sound.

Yeah, maybe English girls do like to just

get drunk and fuck, but then I have to go

out to bars and clubs, don't I? Well, the

ones on Tinder are like, I'm looking for

my husband.

You've got to go out on Friday night,

don't you? Go to a bar with your mates.

Yeah, it makes sense, doesn't it? If a

girl just wants to get drunk and fuck and

have fun, she doesn't need to go on

Tinder. She just has to go out on Friday

night. And then pick any guy that she

Too difficult.

Means I actually have to socialize. Can

you imagine me trying to pick up women?

Uh, I can't even imagine it.

The idea scares me more than never having

sex again. I don't really just want to

have sex. I want like a partner that

I can do stuff with,

who I don't have to hide my identity from.

Ah, why are there so many people I need to

ban today?

Ban this person.

Do people go to bars by themselves? I

could go to a bar by myself and like sit

there looking sad and lonely. And then

maybe someone would come up to me. When I

went to a bar in Japan, there was a

few people who just like came up to me.

People are very friendly and sociable in

bars, obviously. I went to that—

well, what kind of bar was it? It was like

a shisha bar with Sam and his DJ

friend. And then I went again because the

DJ friend said he was DJing, then he

invited me to come. I went with the Hong

Kong guy, and then

me and the Hong Kong guy were discussing

the sex doll thing at the DJ shisha bar.

Then the Hong Kong guy left at like 9:00

to go to bed. What a loser. And then I was

just left sitting there on my own because

the DJ— Sam's DJ friend was DJing.

A few people did come up to me to talk.

You just

gotta be more open-minded and

light-hearted, I guess. I just— I

get very nervous and I end up sitting

there looking serious. And I get kind of

scared of people coming up to me because I

feel nervous about it.

Manchester looks depressing. It looks okay

when it's sunny, then days when it's

really cloudy and grey, it does look a bit

miserable. It's very different to Japan.

So all the buildings made out of brick and

stone, whereas in Japan it would be all

Like shining glass,

more modern looking buildings.

Not sure what it's going to be like during

winter. Probably look even more grim.

Maybe I'll just go back home.

I have been thinking about just going

home.

If only it wasn't for my mum being so

annoying. I miss my home.

Got a nice big garden.

Don't have people playing music all night.

Why can't I find anywhere that's just nice

and quiet to live? Now I've

got to put up with this guy next to me

playing stupid sound system.

I thought coming to Manchester would open

up different opportunities,

but so far no one wants to meet apart from

this one girl. Can't find

any dates.

Now my income might drop even more because

of OnlyFans.

I just wish I could go home and not get

nagged all the time.

The whole Manchester trip just feels like

a failure. I kind of wanted to prove to

myself that I could live alone get my own

place. And now that I've done that, the

excitement is not really there anymore.

But I was really excited at first getting

this place, moving in, buying all the

stuff. And then now I'm settled, I just

feel like, well, what now?

I don't know what I'm gonna do in January.

I feel like either going home or going to

a different country like Greece or

Germany. Maybe they're gonna be open in

January.

Just don't know where to go.

I just want to go back to Japan.

Getting my own apartment was always

something I was very nervous about, so

I've never done it properly before, like

getting the bills sorted out and stuff

Why go to Japan? Because in Japan I can

actually get dates. I can't get any dates

here. And then even if I don't get dates

in Japan, I could just go like to

Tobitsushinchi and they've got cute

Japanese girls you can pay for. What have

they got here? You end up paying £150,

you get a 50-year-old English MILF who

smells like cigarettes.

My visa— I cut my visa into tiny pieces,

remember? And then it expired last year,

probably.

Ugh, I wish I stayed in Japan.

Probably just get a place next to

Tobitsushinchi, just go there.

Tobitsushinchi's good. At least if you

don't get a girlfriend, you can still have

sex, and it's not really expensive, and

the girls are really cute.

Plus, I'd probably get dates in Japan.

I've never had any troubles getting dates

Maybe I could even try going to a guest

house again.

Maybe people won't recognize me.

I kind of want to find a longer-term

solution to living in Japan. Maybe I could

just sign up to a language school for 2

years, or the calligraphy school, some

kind of cultural visa. I can

get a 2-year one,

or I could just stay 6 months, go to

Korea, then go back to Japan. That's what

I wanted to do. So when I decided to leave

the marriage,

obviously I thought I was going to go back

to Japan after a few months just as

a tourist. After the whole marriage thing

had kind of settled down,

I wanted to go to Korea a few months, go

to Thailand, maybe Europe, back home. See

if Essex Girl wants to hook up, and then

eventually go back to Japan as a tourist.

Didn't know this would happen.

I don't know what to do anymore.

Well, my plan is I want to try and get

better at trading, investing. I made

another big mistake recently. My main

portfolio, what was up like 10-15%

on everything, and I didn't sell.

And then the whole market crashed again.

Now I'm down 5-10% on everything again.

I'm just getting annoyed. I see it go up

10% and I think, oh, thank God it's going

back up again. Now I just need to hold.

And then it goes back down again and up

again, then back down. And it never goes

up and stays up. I just feel like,

what is the point of this? I might as well

sell when I get a 10% gain.

Yeah, then when I do that, everything

carries on going up and up and up.

I've just been stuck at £11,000 since

February now, minus £9,000.

It just won't go up.

Now the Chinese stocks are down even more.

Alibaba is down like 15% now for me,

when just a couple weeks ago it was

actually up 10%.

So frustrating.

So I hate the whole, oh, you just buy and

you never sell mentality. It's not

working.

I should just take the gains anytime I get

a 10% gain. Just sell it and then don't

buy anything until it crashes again. How

many times is it going to bloody crash?

Nothing I have is going up. I don't

Well, I buy here and then it does like a

U-shape and then takes months to get back

to here where it was. I've had JP

Morgan, Walgreens Boots, and Altria for

months now and it's still down like -1% or

0%.

Because I bought them all at the wrong

time.

Maybe I should just sell everything, put

the whole 11K into something.

I don't know.

I need to 2x that $11K to get my money

back. I'm never going to get my money back

Better off doing day trading. At least

with day trading, I've got a 40% gain

because I'm just selling. As soon

as I get profits, I sell. And then if

I get a tiny loss, I'll cut the losses and

just go, oh well, that trade didn't work

out, instead of holding and holding until

it goes to like minus 50%.

Finally felt like I had some financial

stability with OnlyFans, and now this is

happening. Stupid Visa.

Stupid Mastercard.

Okay, what do I have?

I've got— still got these potatoes from

when I made the soup. They should be fine.

Yeah, they're fine. And I got these

venison burgers. I got

one beer left.

Got these meatballs too. They're quite

nice.

Beef balls.

Venison burger. I wonder what it tastes

Maybe it tastes like beef.

Do you think I was in a better mood when I

was back home compared to now? Because I

feel really shit right now.

I don't know if I felt more depressed back

home.

At least back home I didn't have to pay

much money. It's just annoying. My mum

would ask for £250 a month and then I'd

give her £250 and then she'd be like, oh,

I need another £100. Because of this bill.

And then we had this big argument because

I kept saying it should all be included in

the 250. And then she was like, no, the

250 is just for rent. I need money for

bills too. Paying you rent like you're a

landlord? I'm paying you the money for the

bills, not for the bloody rent. Trying to

profit off of me, trying to

make money off of me. Just because I'm in

my bedroom makes me sick.

I miss my sister. She's the only decent

person to talk to.

It's just, it really triggered

me when she said, oh, that's rent. No,

that's for bills. Charging me

rent? Who the hell do you think you are?

Fucking annoying.

Yeah, maybe I should just stay here.

And we had a massive argument about that

too. We worked out

that the bills and the food would probably

cost about £800 a month. Divide that by 3

means I have to pay about £250 And then

she kept saying, oh, but we get the oil

bill and that's £600 all at once. Yeah,

but you divide that by 12 and then you add

that into the total cost and divide that

by 12 for each month. Why doesn't she get

it? I'm not paying bloody

£600 all at once for the oil and then

expecting me to pay £3,000 for the new

Jesus expects

me to pay so much and then I don't even

get any say in what happens

or who comes over.

Okay, banning stealth is just being a

prick. Where do all these bloody people

come from?

Just being annoying saying stuff like,

oh, your video not getting good views.

Yeah, no shit,

cuz it's not about girls and it's not

about girlfriends and it's not about

drama. Obviously I didn't expect it to get

a 1 out of 10. It's a slow burner kind of

video where it has the potential

to, um, rack up views over the months cuz

it's like about Japan.

You get some videos that get a lot of

views straight away cuz it's like

clickbait and drama, and then some videos

don't really take off straight away, but

then over time it builds up.

Don't need idiots in the chat going, oh,

your video didn't get many views. Yeah, I

fucking know it didn't get many views

because I watch analytics. Don't need you

dickheads like that person telling me as

if I don't know it didn't get many views.

Of course I know. Stupid idiots.

Fucking hate them. Fuck off.

The laptop's not a waste of money because

it keeps me sane. Otherwise, I've got

nothing to do. I need something to kill

time with.

Do I like Manchester? I don't hate it,

it's just boring. At least

if I was in Japan, there'd be interesting

places to see, and I could have sex with

Japanese women. I can

make Japan-style videos. What can I make

here? I can't make life in England, 5

amazing things about Manchester. No one

cares.

At least if I was in Japan, I could I

don't know,

I definitely felt more motivated in Japan

to go out and do stuff than I do here.

The problem is I'm not interested in

Manchester, and to make interesting

content, you have to at least be

interested in it yourself. It's probably

why my channel was much better before,

because I was actually interested in what

I was doing, you know, like moving to

Japan, getting married. I was

interested in it because it was my life,

what I wanted to do. This is not

exactly what I want to do, and it's not

really what I find interesting, but I have

no choice. I have to do this because the

stupid world shut down.

Hmm, burger smells pretty nice. It's

really hard to feel motivated and inspired

to make content when you can't actually do

what you want to do.

I quite enjoyed making the maid cafe

video. I thought it was quite funny.

Just making up a bunch of random nonsense.

I thought the whole French thing was

pretty funny. Just came to me randomly.

French Empire colonized Osaka.

Sometimes when you don't know anything

about history, you just make it up. It's

better than not saying anything.

The problem with videos is you have to say

stuff, and then in order to have things to

say, you need to know what you're saying.

So I either find out and do research, or I

just make up a load of bollocks.

Making up a load of bollocks is way easier

and more entertaining for me.

Okay, burger and potatoes in the oven.

Stop moaning, look on the bright side.

Um, bright side is

absolutely nothing. YouTube channel is

dead, OnlyFans is gonna get fucked,

stocks aren't going up.

There must be something good.

Um, getting a lot of new members on

OnlyFans, that's good, I guess.

But for how long?

Japanese people, Japanese hikikomoris

probably feel the same as me. They

probably think, oh, Japan's boring,

nothing is interesting out there, can't

find a girlfriend. They should move to

England then. Maybe they'd have better

luck. Yeah, my laptop's

good and this mouse is really good. It's

better than those kind of edgy gamer

mouses I had before. This scroll wheel

is great. It's rubber, it doesn't make any

noise when I scroll it. The other gaming

mouse I had was so clickety when

I scrolled it.

I don't like it when it's clickety. I

actually wish there was no mouse clicks

when you press the button. Why can't it

just be silent? Oh, I got Huel as well,

but again, tastes disgusting. The

strawberries and cream flavor tastes

horrible. I got vanilla, tastes fine. So

the vanilla tastes the same as a normal

Huel. All these other kind of gimmicky

flavors always taste disgusting. I think

the trick is just stick to vanilla. The

strawberries and cream tastes so

artificial and like chemical tasting,

like shampoo or something. And then the

other roast coffee and caramel tastes

disgusting. Vanilla's fine. I think you

need flavors that doesn't really have much

of a flavor. Otherwise it's horrible.

They also gave me another flask, which I

didn't really need, so now I've got— got 2

Try chocolate. I bet that tastes horrible

as well. Just stick to vanilla, I think.

Add honey or something. All the other

flavors make me feel sick. I need to pinch

my nose so I can't taste it when I

Not great. It's just the names

of the flavors taste— I mean, they sound

like they would taste nice. Strawberry and

cream. People are switching to Fansly.

I heard about Just for Fans, ManyVids.

I guess we'll find out soon which is the

favorite. But then when they get

bigger, aren't they just going to have the

same problem? Get ditched by Visa,

Mastercard? Because why would Visa,

Mastercard support these pop-up copycat

websites when they just ditch OnlyFans for

sexual stuff?

Look at this.

Strawberry and cream.

See, this is what we need crypto for.

Unfortunately, I don't think crypto is

ready. It's not— crypto isn't at a

stage yet where it's mainstream enough for

sex sites to rely on it. We need

to get to a point where the everyday Joe

has a crypto wallet and understands and

knows how to use crypto. Otherwise, right

now all you get are like the crypto geeks

and nerds who are into it.

I feel like right now it's too

complicated. There's too many coins and

exchanges. It's just, it's too much. For

like a beginner or a new person to it.

How did I find out about Huel? I think my

sister's— I heard my sister's boyfriend

talking about it and I thought, actually,

yeah, Huel does seem like a good idea

because I am struggling to eat enough

food.

So I decided to give it a go and yeah, it

tastes great. It's full of vitamins.

Nutrients. Well, vanilla tastes good, the

other ones don't. And it's pretty cheap,

it's like £1.20 per ml it works out to. I

think you can get maybe 30 ml per bag,

so that's like 60 ml right there.

Stupid PayPal as well. They don't want

to let people use PayPal to buy

sexual content either. Bloody prudes.

Why are they all trying to ban the sex

stuff? All we want is a way

that our fans can pay us money

so we can give them the sexy time goods.

Why is that such a difficult thing? Gonna

have to set up something like, oh, you're

gonna have to mail me cash in an envelope

and then I'll send you my premium content.

Let's go back to old-school ways, won't

we? Post me actual

notes in US dollars. I don't know, what

else could I say? Say buy me Amazon

voucher, or what

would be a good way to get people to— oh

wow, I've been streaming for 1:11:11. I

swear every time I look at that it's

randomly 1:11:11. How can I get people to

give me money without using PayPal or some

website that uses Visa or Mastercard,

because there's hundreds of people who

want to give me money every month, as

proved by my OnlyFans success. I've got

140 people paying me $10 a month now. I

can't believe it.

I've got to try and find a way to sustain

it.

Send crypto? Yeah, but the problem is most

people don't understand crypto and don't

use it, and then trying to get them to use

it would just be a nightmare. They'd be

like, oh, I don't understand, oh, it's too

complicated, oh, it's a scam.

I think only a small percentage would know

how to do the cryptos. Even I don't know

how to do it really. I set up a Tron

wallet, so I've got a wallet, but then you

can only— on Tron you've only got Tron

coins and USDT,

and then you got to exchange that For

Bitcoin on a different app. It's kind of

What should I do for my next video? Maybe

I'll do something like why I want to

get back with my ex-wife. That would

definitely get views, wouldn't it? But

then I'm worried she would message me

saying, don't stop talking about me.

I feel like some ex-wife videos would

definitely get some views, but then

what happens when I make videos about the

ex-wife is I get all those stupid annoying

people coming back who say stuff like,

leave women alone, you're a terrible

person, you're just gonna cheat,

you need to improve yourself. I hate those

viewers, they're fucking annoying. But

without them, my videos only get like

10k views. With them, I can get like 20k,

maybe, maybe 30k.

So 2/3 of my viewers, who are mostly gone

now, they're like those irritating people

who say stuff like,

you need to be happy on your own, you're

just gonna ruin her life, wah wah wah.

Irritating people.

But without getting them to click my

videos, my YouTube earnings drop so much.

And the only way to get those ones to

click is by making stuff about

relationships,

ex-wife stuff.

I was still making videos about the

divorce and stuff just a few months ago,

and they got like 30K views.

I don't want to end up like bloody Social

Repost. Have you seen his channel? His

channel's completely dead, and the only

way he gets views is by talking about

Jaclyn Glenn.

Didn't want to become like one of those

people.

Don't think she likes me. Making videos

about her. She said because then annoying

people start DMing her saying stuff like,

did you know Daniel said this? Daniel said

That social repose.

Screwed himself even worse than I did.

His channel completely died after he

cheated on Jaclyn Glenn.

He had the same problem as I did. He got

really popular and then he ended up

banging some of his fangirls,

and then he got exposed and had to do an

apology video. And then since then, he

lost like 80% of his fans because he

cheated on Jaclyn Glenn. It wasn't as bad

for me because Chihiro is not like another

really big channel,

and I was never a really big channel

either. And I didn't have people like

Repzion making 100 videos about me. I

didn't really have any big channels

exposing me or giving me a hard time for

the cheating stuff, did I? Even the Elvis

A videos, he didn't really talk about

But what happens is you end up with a dead

channel where you only can get views by

bringing up the cheating stuff and the

ex-relationship stuff,

which is not what I want to do.

Really making

a very balanced meal of potatoes and

burger.

Never tried venison before. I hope

it tastes good.

I just don't really know what to do with

the channel anymore. Right now I'm just

kind of like copying other people's

videos, hoping I also go viral or

at least get a couple 10K views.

Otherwise I don't really have anything

else to talk about because my life's just

boring. Got no girlfriends, got no people

to do stuff with, so my only option is

Just try and find something else. I go

onto other channels and I see what works

for them, and then I just try and copy

them. It's worked before.

Or I could go back to stuff like my

problem with the Anime Man. He stole

Akidearest from me.

Because surely that's gonna get more than

10K views.

What's Chihiro's new channel?

Do you mean her, her only channel,

or did she make another one?

I thought maybe she'd make a new one,

like a secret one, so she doesn't have all

the trolls.

I think she just lost interest.

Because she hasn't, she hasn't done

anything in like 2 months. She used to do

Instagram Lives or posting something.

I don't know, maybe she found a new guy,

that's why. She's not really interested

anymore. What's the update

on OnlyFans? Update is no more jerking

off, no more sexual fluids allowed.

So I can't do my jerking off videos

anymore. All I can

do is nudes, really.

So I need to figure out if I can get

people to come over to a different website

for that.

I just had all these ideas to get some