New New YouTube Livestreams/my life is ruined... [54Dk-RdDG9g] 480p

Testing. When did I change the channel name? I think it was a couple months ago now.

No, I'm not putting back the old videos unless

I become single again, then maybe.

Why is your life ruined?

Um, I'm broke. Kick paid me $6 an hour.

My YouTube makes $200 a month.

I don't know why people think the old videos matter so much. No one was even watching them. I have the analytics. My analytics tells me what people are watching. No one was watching the old stuff.

It would get like 10 views over since, I don't know, whenever it was posted.

Yeah, but no one was watching them.

The only ones that were still getting views was that— the slum video in Japan, and maybe some of the capsule hotel videos.

I don't know why you guys think it makes such a big difference having a bunch of old videos up that no one watches. It makes no difference.

Mm,

soothing.

Turkey Tom viewers, they're all gone.

Not a single Turkey Tom person left.

And yeah, when the Turkey Tom thing happened, some of the older videos did get a bump in views

as tens of thousands of new people descended upon my channel.

Then they left. They're like a swarm of locusts, a big swarm of locusts. They will come in They ravage the crops and then they piss off. That's what they were, fucking swarm of fucking locusts.

Nothing more, nothing less.

No, I don't miss Hong Kong, right?

There's not really much left to salvage.

Who says she wants to have a family?

Yeah, it's a money drain, but what is the point of having money?

I mean, what— like, what's the point of having the money?

Like, what would I use the money for?

Yeah, I'd save a lot of money, but what would I do with it?

I've been giving my viewers what they want for 6 years. I'm tired.

I'm tired of putting in maximum effort for minimum outcome.

How am I doing today? My throat hurts.

Throat hurts, a lot of coughing,

and I was eating chocolate and then the chocolate kind of got stuck in my teeth and built up like a dense lump of chocolate, and then the dense lump of chocolate stabbed me in the cheek, and then I bit my cheek.

Oh, now it hurts.

The state of this channel is just so sad. All that's left is just trolls and weirdos.

All the nice people, the fans, all gone. Just a bunch of loser trolls, like a bunch of hyenas.

This guy banned. This guy banned.

Ah, where's all my nice audience? They're all gone. Maybe it's time to just put this channel out of its misery.

What's left is rotten, horrid bunch of scumbag people.

Why are you still here? Why can't you fuck off with the rest of the people that fucked off?

The only way to get rid of this scumbag group of people is to delete everything. I don't know why they've all accumulated around me like a bunch of flies on a shit.

So when I go live, all I have to deal with is all these annoying trolls and idiots and weirdos and freaks.

Had such a nice group of people back then.

It's all gone.

YouTube streams are as dead as the Kick streams.

I don't know what I'm gonna do for money moving forwards.

I feel scared to not have streaming as a backup.

You refuse to engage in the style of content you used to make because I'm not the same person. The person who made that content is dead.

I'm not that guy anymore. He doesn't exist anymore.

I moved on.

My interests changed.

Now a bunch of weirdos left in the chat.

Switched to— I sold it.

I banned like 5 people already.

Yeah, I miss the old days. I used to have some funny people, nice people, and now it's just mostly hateful weirdos, incels, Discord freaks, Reddit freaks.

It's just a cesspit.

They come and watch every stream though. It's like they got no lives and they're just sitting around waiting for me to go live so they can come hate in the comments. They don't do anything else with their lives.

Biggest bunch of saddest losers I've ever known.

And then they have the nerve to insult me as if they think they're better than me. Oh God, they're the Fucking pathetic losers, not me.

I complain because the nice normal people don't watch, and now all I got left are a bunch of weirdo freaks.

Where'd all the nice people go?

I'm not saying anything weird. I've barely said anything since I went live. All the stuff I've been saying In like the past year or two, it's been about debts, money, stocks.

Yeah, okay, maybe at one point I was pretty weird, but I grew up and I moved on. You guys didn't. You're still— you people haven't changed at all. You people are still the fucking weirdo loser troll freaks that you've always been. Over 7 or 8 years that I've known you guys, you haven't fucking changed at all.

Connor Larson, exactly the same as since 2017. People like that Mario guy, exactly the same. Hateful, bitter, disgusting. You people don't change at all. I changed. I've like made a massive change compared— compare me to like 5 years ago to now. I've changed so much. You people don't change.

Like this Hui Huang guy, you haven't changed at all.

I see you in the comments all the time. You're exactly the same as you were like 7 years ago.

Insulting us isn't going to make it better. Yeah, it's going to make me feel fucking better though. The only satisfaction I have out doing this more is fucking insulting you fucking people, cuz I fucking hate you all. You ruined my life and now you made me broke. Fuck you all.

Eat my shit. Fucking useless fucking viewers.

I hope you all do fuck off, then I'll delete the whole fucking thing and move on. Go fuck yourselves, how about that?

Bunch of fucking losers.

So it's all a bunch of horrid, toxic, miserable people.

I hate all of you. I really hate all of you. I hate YouTube. I hate streaming.

You suck.

I mean, I was fine enduring it back when it was making money. Now I got to endure it for $200 a month.

Got nothing to lose.

Probably the best thing to do is if I just quit streaming. And I only made videos.

At least that way I just post a video and I just go to bed. I don't have to deal with stupid comments.

There's nothing wrong with my life.

The only thing that's wrong with it is you people are in it,

like the cancer that needs to be cut out.

This whole streaming stuff and YouTube is the worst part of my life, and I hate it,

and I'd be so much happier if I just got rid of it.

I don't really have fans anymore. I just got a bunch of trolls and weirdos.

Why did my phone not charge?

I don't know what I'm planning to do with my life.

My streaming doesn't even make good money anymore. I don't even know why I'm doing it.

It doesn't even make barely any money anymore. Each of these YouTube streams I've done this week have made about $15 each, not even $20.

Look, I can tell all these people trolls.

This guy's a troll.

This guy's

a troll. This

guy's a troll.

Yeah, I just banned like 4 people.

So basically anyone who's saying weedy or 26 years old, they're a troll,

cuz the troll losers are like obsessed with my girlfriend, like bunch of fucking incel losers.

They don't know her age. They think that I've told her that I'm 26 for some reason. I did not tell her I'm 26, but they're running with it.

Yeah, I said it as a joke.

You people are so stupidly autistic, you can't tell when I'm joking, even if I finish the sentence with just kidding. You still don't believe that I'm joking because you want it to be true because you think it's funny.

You want it to be true so badly that you ignore me when I say I'm joking.

Yeah, and then I said I'm just kidding.

Why are you all so obsessed with her? You guys are a bunch of fucking weirdos. None of your business. I'm not talking about my girlfriend.

Give it

a rest.

Oh God, you people are so annoying.

You lie so much. Yeah. So why do you think that that thing that I said as a joke is true? If I lie so much, then why do you believe that that's true? Don't you see how stupid that is?

Why are you so convinced that that thing I said was true then, if I lie so much? Maybe that was a lie too.

How are there so many trolls in the chat? I don't get it. I've banned like 10 people.

You know, at some point I think you're all just trolls.

Is this what it's come to? I, I don't recognize any of these usernames. I don't recognize a single— all I recognize is Elliot and Blake. And

who the fuck are you people? I recognize Turning Tree.

Where the fuck did all my viewers go? And who the fuck are you people? I don't recognize a single one of you.

I recognize you, Sergio.

I don't thank you for watching this crap. If you'll stop watching, then I'd have an easy decision to make and just nuke the whole thing. The only reason I'm not nuking the whole thing is because it still makes a bit of money. Get a free car.

Yeah, I remember you, Jonah.

Yeah, I am tempted to just turn off the stream. You people are being really annoying tonight.

I don't know what's wrong with you.

Only thing you've done since my joining is insult chat. Yeah, because they're fucking annoying.

Day's going bad.

Every time I go live, all I got is a bunch of weirdo trolls in the chat.

I'm gonna ban this James Hudson guy.

People obsessed with paying my mum back, my iPhone, and my girlfriend.

Oh, thanks, Ji Hyun.

Uh, not really.

Yeah, I'm at my mom's house.

Well, maybe your username changed. I don't remember.

How can I possibly pay my mum back? When I make less than $2K a month.

Oh, thanks, Amelia. Hey man, hope you get better soon. Sad face.

Yeah, this is tough doing this with little trolls constantly not giving it a rest.

Yeah, well, I banned all the trolls, so that's why you don't see them.

Kick doesn't pay more anymore. I only pay $6 an hour.

And when I was— when I borrowed the money, I was living in Thailand,

so I had a lot more leftover money.

But then I moved to Devon, things got very expensive.

I've been sick since Tuesday.

Hi Dan, what happened to your iPhone X? Just curious. I'm not talking about the iPhone X.

When I'm ready to talk about it, I'll talk about it. But you're not going to make me talk about it by asking over and over again.

Oh wow, thanks, Tatooine. Would you like— I want to be a day trader.

That's my dream job.

I want to be trading thousands

and be like the stock guy.

Don't laugh at me.

Laugh at my dream. Rude.

Why am I still vaping? Because it's nice.

OMG, now I know the police are still holding your phone because of Sunny.

Why are you using this word ops now? I heard GoHerping use it.

They're trolls, not ops. What the hell is an ops?

No, no one buys groceries anymore.

Ah ha ha ha ha! Look at him.

I'm not LARPing as someone important.

What have I done all day? I made a YouTube video that I'm posting tonight, did a Kick stream, cleaned the house a bit, did some sweeping.

This week I'm not doing anything because I'm probably still gonna be sick.

I was hoping to do some delivery work, but I've just been so sick I can't really go out. Otherwise I can't recover.

Yeah, a lot of trolls today. I banned like 15 people.

They're probably the same trolls are on Kick.

It's always the same, like 5 users all start trolling at the same time.

Why would I ban trolls? Because they're annoying and the whole chat just becomes dominated by their stupid questions.

The whole, whole chat just gets filled up with their stupid spam. And it's hard to answer actual interesting questions because they'll just keep spamming the same questions about things I don't want to talk about.

Yeah, most of the chat is trolls on Kick. It's slightly better on YouTube.

What do I want to talk about? Anything that's not about the things I don't want to talk about.

Unfortunately, all the things that they find interesting are things I'm not willing to talk about.

And they're like a bunch of little stupid kids. They're like a bunch of stupid children

mad because they can't get what they want.

I hate this time of the day, the cough gets really Bad.

Oh God, tearing my throat up coughing like that. But if I don't cough like that, I don't get any relief. From the itchiness.

I just— I hate the trolls so much.

I just hate them so much. They're not even funny.

Who is funny? No one. You guys aren't very funny. It's just annoying.

I don't hate all of you, I just hate the trolls, which seems to be nearly everyone.

No, I'm not moving to Japan. I was just joking.

If you think I'm a knob, then go away. Why are you here?

I mean, who's the knob? The knob or the knob watching the knob? Sounds like you're the knob.

No, I don't draw anymore.

Oh God.

None of this medicine's helping. The cough mixture, the straps, or— she's making my tongue feel weird. Every time I breathe in, it makes me want to cough.

How come you never see cats get sick like this?

You never see Pushkin just coughing all the time.

I've never seen a cat get a cold. I've had 5 cats before.

Is he trying to— is he proving me wrong?

Oh, the timing was so funny.

Oh God, that was so funny.

I just said cats never cough and he just starts coughing.

Oh, that was good.

Apart from that, cats never cough. Do they, Pushkin?

The timing was so good.

I mean, I've never seen them just endlessly coughing for days and days like I've been.

They

also don't really seem to, like, interact with a lot of other cats. Compared to humans, where there's so many humans around.

Just going to Tesco, you're surrounded by hundreds of people.

Cats maybe might have like one or two other neighborhood cats that they interact with, and that's it.

I don't know, I just— you see animals and they just seem fine all the time, and humans get sick all the time. I've never seen an animal get a fever or flu or have to stay in bed all day.

Or, I don't know, have a lung and chest infection.

Feels a bit better now.

No, I haven't been watching Asmongold recently. All he does is go on and on about the stupid Mizkif thing. So boring.

I've got all this fluid in my lungs.

Must be annoying being Mizkif, because if he goes live, the whole chat is going to be asking him about this situation,

and he probably can't talk about it. His lawyers probably told him not to talk about it, so he can't really go live and like business as usual, can he?

At least I never beat anyone.

Damn, if the genders were reversed and I did to Chihiro what she did to me, people would be going wild about it if it was back in those days.

I don't know, it's like women, it's like it's okay for them to hit you because they're smaller.

It still kind of hurts though, like a small child hitting you.

Oh, I got a headache from all the coughing.

Oh God.

Probably gonna go to bed.

You feel ignored. Try having 113,000 subs and only getting a couple thousand views.

You know what it feels like to be ignored by over 100,000 people.

I think that was the last cough.

After what happened to me in Japan last year, I never want to stream in Japan ever again.

Nearly got attacked by a group of kids, and then I got screamed at by another group of kids, and then I got stalked by some weirdo viewer following me about.

And then the year before had stupid old men being rude to me.

Can you blame me for hating Japan now?

And it was so boring as well. Walking all the way from Nara back to Osaka, walking from Osaka to Kyoto. I just had nothing else to do. It was just to milk the donos.

And I couldn't sit in the guesthouse all day.

So I don't know what else I could have done.

They were not minor incidents. I was very shaken up by the whole thing.

I'm not good with confrontation.

No, I would not want to stream in Vietnam or Malaysia.

I don't want to stream anywhere. I don't want to go anywhere.

I'd rather get a job.

And aimlessly walk the streets of some random Asian country.

I'm not surprised everyone left. I'm just disappointed. Stop putting words in my mouth.

I never said I'm surprised.

I'm just sad about it.

Used to do more things. Like what?

I don't want to go to Thailand.

I don't want to deal with visa and immigration and all that rubbish.

I just bought a new car. I'm not going anywhere. Why would I buy a new car and then leave the country? Makes no sense. I think me buying a new car is kind of a sign of what I intend to do.

Yeah. When I was younger, I used to think it's so cool to be able to live abroad and make money online, hop around from country to country.

I don't think that's cool anymore. I think it's kind of sad.

So this is kind of sad and pointless.

When you're in your early 20s, yeah, it's kind of cool.

When you get older, you want comfort and routine.

Not flying off to a different country every few months.

How

much these streams make you? About $15.

The most one made was $17.

I don't live in an apartment either. I'm living in a proper house made out of brick and stone and wood, not like a cardboard box apartment.

It is pretty much the same as Kick.

Might as well not bother.

I might as well just sit there playing chivalry, barely saying anything.

Uh, 5 hours.

Uh, I don't know about this YouTube streams in the evening thing anymore.

Maybe let's just focus on Kick.

Oh God, everything's just a mess.

Everything's just a mess and there's like no way out.

I can't believe Kick are paying me so little now.

I streamed 5 hours today, I only made $30.

Even streaming 15 hours wouldn't make $100.

When I drop down to 50 below 50 viewers on Kick,

I think my earnings dropped to like $8 an hour,

but then it dropped again down to $6.

Am I— any chances? Making videos again and hope something gets views.

I'm just bleeding viewers streaming all the time.

I don't know how I'm going to make enough this month.

November.

I didn't update my spreadsheet.

Got paid $197 and then $78 for OnlyFans so far.

$197.

What's the potential? Oh wow, thanks. I'm not gonna live in a city. I'm only gonna live in a village or a very small town.

So far I've only made £430 this month.

Where's the drama? We have financial drama.

Oh God.

No, I'll tell you what happened when it's over. I'm not gonna tell you now.

Just gotta be patient.

No, nothing happened apart from little things.

I mean, something kind of funny happened, but I'm not gonna say it.

Do I like West England? Or like Wales?

Dunno, I've never been before.

I thought Devon's southwest.

I thought west is like Midwest, like, um,

Bristol.

Well, I don't want to share stuff because I'm fed up of things I say

having a negative impact on me.

No, I never went to Chiang Mai.

Yeah, it is a bit boring, isn't it? But what can you do?

Well, if I get some donos, I make more on YouTube than Kick. I make $6 an hour on Kick.

Yeah, well, if I overshare, it ruins the thing that I'm talking about, and then I lose it. If I don't share, then it's like the thing never existed.

But at least I didn't— don't lose it. So if I don't talk about it, at least I don't risk losing it. If I talk about it, I risk losing it for not much gain.

Like, I talked about Amazon Flex and I made videos about it. What did I gain?

A tiny bit of money from those videos. None of them even got 10K views.

What did I lose? I got banned. So was it worth it?

No.

So why would I risk losing something that I don't want to lose for barely any gain?

It's not like I'm getting a million views, am I?

The thing I'm keeping secret is worth more

than a I don't know, $30 or $40,

which is more than most I've made off it.

£100? I'm not making £100 if I talked about her. It wouldn't make any difference.

It's like if I go, oh, she's actually the daughter of Elon Musk, it's not like, oh, my stream viewership's gonna bust up to 1,000 viewers, is it?

Well, I'm going to bed.