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So, I'm gonna be leaving my mum's house tomorrow.

It's over.

Baby's going back on Monday.

I haven't updated these numbers in ages. IKEA loan.

Yeah, I miss the cooking. Had lasagna and shepherd's pie today.

Uh, apple crumble.

Well, I'm gonna go see my girlfriend. I booked a hotel,

and then I'm not sure if I'm gonna go back to the Devon house or come back here.

I'm thinking about coming back here.

What? Whoa, I disappeared. Whoa.

How's that?

It's been a quick week since I came back. It's been 9 days, actually.

It's been nice being home. I feel like it's been a roller coaster.

Like, being upset with my room being messy, going up in the loft, being out in the garden again.

I don't know, I just really don't feel like going back to Devon much.

Yeah, I became an uncle.

Would I move closer to my girlfriend?

Um, that would be better. Or at least somewhere in between here and my girlfriend. Devon's like all the way on the other end of everything. Somewhere in between, like Basingstoke, maybe.

But it's too early days to be thinking about that stuff. I've only met her twice.

Was it twice? Yeah, twice.

Today I had a lot of guests come over. Dave Gibson and grandparents.

What kind of advice from Dave Gibson?

I helped him free up some storage on his phone. I think just get a new phone. His phone only has 64 gigabytes of data.

I think you might as well upgrade the phone. Stupid moth. Fuck off.

Oh my— yeah, just fly right into my face, stupid idiot. Why you fly right in my face?

You could fly anywhere you want, you fly in my face. Thanks.

It's like those daddy long legs. They just love flying right into your face, don't they, with their big flappy legs.

Um, yeah, I don't know about going back to the Devon house. Just feels kind of pointless.

I feel a bit more comfortable here.

At home.

Why am I leaving? So I'm going to go see my girlfriend.

Got a hotel booked.

Oh God, the whole thing just feels like such a waste of time. The Devon house, I mean,

it's cost me at least £10,000.

And I don't even really want to live in that area. I mean, it's a nice area and everything, but it's just so far away from everyone and everything.

Yeah, I still got the house. I'm still paying rent.

Now it's just like this building costing me over £1,000 a month so I can be in a place that I don't need to be in or don't have to be in and don't even really want to be in.

I'm almost halfway across the country

and moving out is such a pain. First I've got to tell them I want to move out, so give them 2 months' notice I think, and then I've got to get a moving company.

Although I guess as soon as I let them know I can just start moving, there's no point staying there.

And then if I do get into a serious relationship again, I've got to look into renting a place again.

So I've got a big bed and I've got a big sofa, and I guess I could put them in my mum's garage

until I move out again. Then I've got to get a moving company again to move to a new place, if I get a new place ever.

Yeah, cheaper places to rent, but they're rubbish, aren't they? No driveway, no garden, horrible area. You think I want to live in a flat when I've got a big house? Why would I want to go back down to something worse?

Any car buyers? What, buying my car? I'm not selling it.

I like my car.

Why do I have to leave? I just said, because I'm gonna see my girlfriend.

The Craigslist ad? What, a new one, or is it the old one? I've got the old one taken down.

That was ages ago.

No,

I don't want to sell my car because it's not really worth much anymore now I've damaged it. And for the same amount of money, you can't really get a better car. To get a better car, you'd have to spend like 15 to 20k,

and I quite like my car.

I changed the channel name because I want to be unburdened by what has been.

Fresh start, a new Daniel.

Actually, my name's Jason now, by the way.

Oh God, my stomach is so bloated.

I'm overeating so much. And then apple crumble with double cream.

Oh

God, I wish Devon wasn't so damn far away. It's like 6-hour drive.

I mean, really it's only 4 hours 20 minutes, but you factor in charging, it's 5 hours, and then you factor in congestion, it can— it took— I, I left my house at 11, I got here at 6 PM because of stupid traffic.

There's always someone crashing on the motorway and then they block it all up. They slow it all down to like 40 or 50 and they close lanes.

Why can't they just have like a big truck with a big broom on it and then they just sweep it all off and then let everyone carry on driving?

It takes so damn long to clear it all up.

Yeah, of course my mum's making it. I'm not making shepherd's pie unless I'm you. I think I know how to make lasagna.

So how you guys been doing? Miss me?

Guess not.

Recap on the latest Arch.

Hmm, I got a new girlfriend and then I came home to see my nephew Pushkin and my family and to get out of that miserable dump Devon house.

And now I don't know, I mean, I kind of want to just stay at home.

But then I feel stupid for blowing so much money on this stupid Devon house for nothing.

I feel like just ghosting them and not paying anymore.

Yeah, the cat's named after the famous Russian poet whose wife cheated on him, and then he challenged the guy to a duel, and then he got shot in the stomach. Guy got— gets cheated on and then he dies challenging the other guy to a duel. It's kind of lame.

Imagine getting cucked and then killed by the guy who cucked you, and then he's like carrying on banging your wife, I guess, whilst you're dead.

Not a good way to go.

But apparently my sister named him Pushkin because the seller of the cat was on the road called Pushkin Road.

Have to leave because I'm gonna go see my girlfriend.

Wait, she's messaging me.

Okay, I've got to be on my top texting game.

I told my sister that,

um, I'm very scared of not— how do I explain it? I'm very scared of girls getting mad at me because my texting is not good.

I said to her, sometimes I just don't know what to say. It's not that I don't want to talk to them.

My sister said she also used to get mad if she didn't get, like, enthusiastic texts back. I don't know why girls want this so much.

Or they think if the guy doesn't text much, he doesn't like them. I don't know. I mean, I don't know what to say really. It's just been at home not doing anything.

Sorry, I'm trying to be a good texter.

Don't want to get in trouble.

Sometimes I just, uh, show AI, show Copilot, and And then I say, what should I say? And then he tells me, and then I alter it a little bit.

Is that cheating?

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Stuff in common you can talk about? Not really. I mean, unless the girl does stocks and

does YouTube. I don't really have much in common with a lot of people, or any people really. I mean, who does stocks and does streaming? No one.

And you can't even really talk about stocks anyway. She's like, oh yeah, I think this is going up. Oh, I think it's not going up.

And then you kind of don't really want to share what you're investing in with people because They might say stuff like to dissuade you from your conviction, and then you don't really want to get into a debate, do you? I can't be bothered.

I don't want to be like— I want people to be like, oh, I wouldn't be investing in that. Yeah, whatever. I don't care.

I'm happy with my investments.

It's up 5% in a month.

I'm invested in gold, mostly gold.

Oh God, my stomach.

So uncomfortable. Oh, yeah.

I say, how was your day? What you been up to?

And then kind of take it from there.

God, my stomach feels like it's going to explode.

Yeah, I put emojis all the time.

No one knows up to today how unhealthy this vaping is. More unhealthy than bacon and pot noodle every day.

Everything's unhealthy, isn't it?

Sitting down all day is unhealthy.

My dad never smoked and he still got pneumonia.

And then Victoria's mum came over yesterday. I said hi.

Uh, I didn't say anything about her husband passing because that was like a year ago.

If I just suddenly brought up like, oh, sorry for your loss, it'd be kind of weird.

Yeah, it's kind of funny going from being completely alone in Devon and now a lot of people coming in, coming and going. It's nice. I can't believe a few years ago I used to rage so much because guests came over, and then I went to Devon, lived in complete isolation, and realized actually it's nice people come in

because they won't be around forever, will they?

One day they'll be gone forever.

When you get older, you realize

how finite life is,

how short it is. Like, after 5 years, Everything changes.

Oh God, my stomach.

How long until it digests into the intestines. I need a bigger stomach bag.

Yeah, I felt like I was going a bit insane all alone at the Devon house.

Oh, I got her a gift.

Got her some mango.

I'm gonna give it to her tomorrow.

Oh, shut up about my glasses. In the last 8 years, people keep whining about my glasses.

When I had small frames, people were saying, oh, you should get bigger frames. When I got big frames, they said, oh, you should go back to small frames. And then people constantly saying, oh, you should get lenses or laser eye surgery. How about I just get what I want? Because this is what I like.

I had those little square rectangle ones for most my life. And then Chihiro got me lady glasses and I kind of like them.

And then those were not powerful enough anymore, so I got new ones in a similar style.

Caleb Hammer wears the same glasses. No one ever complains about him and his glasses.

And a lot of people have glasses like this.

People say it makes me look like a lesbian, but no one says it makes Caleb Hammer look like a lesbian. Maybe it's not the glasses that make me look like a lesbian. Maybe it's just me because I look kind of feminine. Like, you put these glasses on The Rock, it's not gonna make him look like a lesbian,

is it? Because he's a very masculine man. I'm just not a very masculine man.

Glasses don't make you look like a lesbian. The lesbian makes you look like a lesbian.

Like, if you get a girl and you shave all her hair off and then you make her take her glasses off and take all her clothes off, she's still gonna look like a girl, isn't she? Because she's a girl.

All the Toki Tom girls abandoned him. Yeah, all a waste of time, weren't they? And Cripps was biggest waste of time ever. Stole hundreds of dollars of fan money and then disappeared.

She got like $200 in donos and then disappeared. Give the money back then. She probably used it to pay her phone bill or something.

Just ghosted, just disappeared like that. Poof. Without a single word. All the talk like, oh, we're gonna meet, oh, I'm gonna have Daniel's baby. All, all the talk and no action. Thank God though. Did you read this stuff about her dad? Her dad's a serial killer. Who, who's in jail. I think he's in jail now. He's killed

like at least 4 people or something, and he's like all involved in drug gangs in Canada. Thank God I dodged that bullet.

These girls are nuts. I'm not meeting any viewer girls ever again. Delete my Instagram because I'm not, not DMing you guys anymore because you're all nuts.

And then the last thing that was like the nail in the hammer, bloody Venus Angelic messaging me. Another nutjob psychopath. Have you seen Venus Angelic recently? Complete crackhead now. She was messaging me and like phoning me up on stream saying stuff like, oh, I'm gonna meet Daniel. Shut up. No, you're not. It's talking a lot of rubbish.

Thank God. I would not want to meet— like, I used to like Venus when she was cute, like 2018, '19. She used to be such a sweet girl, and she's just gone nuts now. Absolute nuts.

Maybe she was always nuts and she just hit it, but she looks awful now as well. Like, she's got yellow teeth. She doesn't wash her hair and she just does racial, like racist slurs on Discord and Instagram. She got banned recently. Her Instagram got banned and her Discord got banned. She was doing video calls on Discord, like

showing her panties and stuff. Completely nuts.

All she does all day is get drunk and do drugs.

Absolute nutcase.

Really? She got raped recently?

How do you know? Maybe she's making it up for attention.

Such a shame. I really used to like her. She was really sweet and cute. I remember she used to stream and I'd give her a Super Chat to get her attention.

God, people just

fall off so badly.

So glad I dodged that bullet.

The best way to dodge these bullets is by just not talking to them, so I deleted my Instagram. Because I don't want to DM any of these people anymore. Little nutters.

Yeah, I fell off too, but at least I didn't become a crackhead doing drugs and being homeless in Germany, sucking off guys to make money.

I think, yeah, maybe I fell off, but I I took myself off that toxic path and I learned to drive and I tried to live a wholesome life

and I tried to stop my destructive behavior that I was hooked on to get YouTube views.

So I think compared to others, I haven't done too badly.

I mean, look at people like Vitalyz and Johnny Somali end up in jail, and the other Kick streamers end up in a coffin.

So I'm just like depressed now because my channel's dead, but at least I'm not doing drugs.

Look at Ice Poseidon.

He looks like he's gonna neck himself any moment. His girlfriend cheated on him. And apparently they broke up. He doesn't even stream anymore unless it's some event that he's contractually obliged to do.

Ice,

he either just does these really long 100-day streams in Japan where he gets really miserable and crashes out, or he does these really boring events where it's just like a bunch of guys in a house screaming at each other.

Yeah, his girlfriend Kimberly apparently cheated on him, and then he went crazy over it.

Homeless talking about you, what'd he say?

I've just lost the willpower to do this, you know, like trying to make content,

doing crazy stuff. You get to a point in life where you kind of grow out of it and you don't have the energy for it anymore. I'm 36 now.

Hand the baton over to the new generation, the young guys in their 20s.

It's their time to shine. I had my spotlight. I had my 15 minutes under the spotlight.

I just don't have it in me anymore to like go gallivanting off to Japan, marry some woman. I can't do that.

It's just, you know, I don't want to ruin another woman's life for content again.

I want to try and do better,

even if it means it's the end of my career as a creator.

It just digs myself deeper and deeper into this hole that I can't get out of.

I mean, I'm not quitting, I'm not gonna retire, I'm still gonna stream, but

I'm not like gonna do crazy stuff anymore like I used to.

I have to leave my mum's house because I'm gonna go see my girlfriend. Got a hotel booked in the Cotswolds. Might go see Jeremy Clarkson.

I saw a clip, apparently Richard Hammond made an appearance in season 4, and I thought, about bloody time! What took them so long? It's nice seeing Jeremy and Richard again. Should get James come as well. They could like do something silly on the farm.

Miss seeing the 3 of them together.

James and Richard still do stuff together about cars on YouTube. Jeremy's like, oh, I'm too good for you guys now. I've moved on with my farm.

You see that Harriet girl? She was not bad looking. She was in a few episodes before Caleb came back.

I don't like Caleb.

He's got too much of an ego. He's kind of rude, the way he speaks to Jeremy. Kind of rude.

Needs to learn some respect.

Yeah, but it's not really about what I look like. It's about what I feel inside. I don't feel 26. I feel like a 50-year-old man, actually. Like, I want to go to bed early. I don't ever want to get on a plane again. I don't want to travel.

Why on YouTube? I don't know, I just need a break from Kick. People on Kick just drive me crazy.

I miss YouTube.

People on Kick are not here. I don't see MMMO TRNG, whatever his stupid name is. I don't see Mummy. I don't see— don't even remember their names.

B Source or something is a new recent

Annoying person. Oh, thank God Moodoo's not here. That guy was so annoying.

Vishidu not here. Oh, thank God.

No, Murph, you're not annoying. I forgot why I banned you once.

I forgot what you said.

Well, thank God Chuff Weasel's not here. Most annoying person.

Uh, my Silent Hill video is doing well, nearly 5K views.

Might make $15.

I don't think you'll move out. Yeah, I don't know. I'm just really struggling to feel any desire to go back to that Devon house.

I don't really miss anything about it. I miss

my beanbag. I miss sitting on my beanbag in the conservatory. Maybe I miss my big sofa, but we got sofas here. It's just there's never any room to sit on them because there's like a baby and baby stuff everywhere.

Yeah, I don't know if I want to be there during winter. I'll just stay here for winter and I'll go back to Devon in summer. How stupid is that? I'm paying for this house and not even living in it. I don't even need to live in it because I don't even have a job over there and I

don't even have a girlfriend over there. My girlfriend lives in Somerset, which is like a 3-hour drive from Devon. What even is the point anymore?

Yeah, I don't know.

I mean, the only thing I like about Devon is driving. The driving is really nice there. You can drive really fast. There's hardly ever any traffic on the roads. Sometimes you get unlucky and you get stuck behind a granny doing 30 on the 60 road. But here in Kent, oh God, I drove. I did some deliveries here

in Kent. I did one yesterday and the day before.

It took me down to Tenterden.

Roads are really bumpy and then it gets really jammed. And then I took my mum to Peugeot dealership because she had to do servicing for her car. So I took her to— I mean, she took herself, I went with her, and then I drove her back home whilst they serviced the car. And it was so jammed, like

going through Langley and past Leeds Castle was so jammed up.

The A20 gets re-jammed. You just can't really— it's not big long stretches of road where you can get some good speed.

I'm kind of like hooked on speed now. If I'm not doing at least 60, I'm like, oh, for fuck's sake, it's so slow.

I have the need for speed.

I need toilet, actually. Need to shit more.

It

was just gas. The need for gas.

Who might be charismatic?

Oh God, my stomach.

I wish I brought my mic arm. I have to get close to the mic like this.

I think Pushkin's still outside.

How do you always seem to find a girlfriend? I don't know, you just go on a dating app and then you meet a bunch.

I'd say the success rate is like 25%, so you meet 4 people, you're likely to like at least one of them.

Unless you're really unlucky and you don't like any of them.

Now, I'm not very charismatic. If you could see the dates, I'm really— I'm really awkward. And usually it's the girl that does most of the talking or most of the question asking.

So I'm not very good at like leading the conversation or creating any conversations.

I try. I think sometimes, you know, I ask good questions if I can come up with one.

I'm not very good at asking questions. I struggle to think, what, what should I ask?

I'm not very good at keeping the conversation flowing.

Most of the time my mind's just blank, or I'm thinking something weird that I shouldn't say out loud.

I get very scared of

how things I say might come across now. Maybe I realize now that sometimes I do say weird stuff that could get misinterpreted in a weird way, but I didn't mean to say it like that. It just came out like that.

I can't really think of an example right now.

Um, I mean, this is why I like doing YouTube, is because I would just say everything out loud, but now I can't because it's gotten me in trouble. So now I'm like kind of scared or nervous or unwilling to just blurt out weird stuff because I had the police come to my house. I've gotten in trouble, I've

made people upset,

and I thought I could just say stuff without consequences, but eventually it catches up to me.

Because I think stuff I say, I feel like it's pretty harmless. Like I'm not going to actually act on anything I say.

So from my perspective, it's harmless. But then from other people's perspective, it's not.

Like something silly I say just jokingly can be taken out of context or can be perceived in a certain way where I can't really deny that. So I mean, and yeah, I did say that,

but I thought it was funny, but other people don't find it funny.

So now I'll try and be a bit more careful.

You have to realize we live in a day and age where

social media posts can— I mean, it has gotten a lot of people in trouble. There's people literally in jail right now in the UK because of social media posts.

It's not the Wild West for the early internet days where you just say whatever. It's all these stupid laws now.

And then worst case scenario, you get shot in the neck. For expressing your opinions.

So people don't even want to debate anymore. People don't care about being right.

It's either you agree with me or I wish death upon you is what a lot of people think these days. I mean, they can't even like debate and explain why they think they're right. They're like, oh, just shut up, man. And then shoot you in the neck.

It's the day and age we live in.

It's like, you don't agree with me, then fuck you, man. Sad.

Can't even— you can't even fly your country's flag without people getting mad at you either these days.

How dare you fly the Union Jack in your own home?

You're a Nazi. People got weird thoughts these days.

You can't even reason with them.

It's weird because in countries like Thailand, Japan, they fly the flag all the time. Where you see the Thai flag everywhere in Thailand and people are proud of their country.

And we're living in weird times where it's just— I don't know,

don't really want to argue about it.

What did Sabrina think of the glow-in-the-dark dummy? I think she likes it. She said it's helpful because you can see if it's fallen out

of the mouth.

Got a long drive tomorrow. Oh, I'm gonna drive 2 hours to a Supercharger and then gotta drive another hour to the hotel.

And then I might actually come back to my mum's house, unless you can give me one good reason to go back to the Devon house.

I've got rotting food in the fridge,

aloe vera probably needs some water, and my rosemary plant is probably dying.

The Devon house is my house in Devon. That I'm renting.

How long can the aloe vera last without— I gave it plenty of water before I left.

It's pretty sucked it dry.

I think I brought everything. No, I don't know. I don't really have anything at the Devon house that I really, really want.

Maybe my pillow. I like my pillow more than this one.

I've sunk probably 12 to 14k into that house.

9 months of rent, 9 months of electricity and council tax, furniture, thousands of pounds of thir— thir— and he said furniture.

Thousands of pounds of furniture.

£450 sofa, £300 bed, Hundreds on kitchen appliances,

towels, bedsheets,

all for nothing. A 9-month break away from home. It's basically just a 9-month hotel.

I can't believe it happened again. I said after Rotterdam and Manchester, I'm never going to do that again where I blow all this money to move out, and then I literally did it again.

I never learn.

I'm hot.

Wow, my God.

Naked.

My stomach looks so fat.

It's funny because I got like big fat stomach, but my ribs, you can see all my rib bones. Like, I'm really skinny, but then kind of fat at the same time. It's weird.

Skinny and fat at the same time, but in the wrong places.

No, I'm not dating Indian girl. I went on one date with an Indian girl, didn't like her.

I'm dating a British girl.

She's very tall.

I remember when I first met her, I was like, whoa, she's tall.

I thought she was smaller.

She's in her 20s.

She's like 5'8.

I'm 5'9.

Thankfully, I'm just tall enough to be able to date most British women. If I was a bit shorter, it would cut me off from a lot.

Yeah, I am 5'9. What do you mean I'm not 5'9?

Prove it. I have proved it before. I got a measuring tape in Devon and I measured myself.

Yeah, she's late 20s. I wouldn't date someone early 20s, too young for me.

I want someone a bit, bit closer to my age range.

I think late 20s, early 30s is perfect for me.

Mid-20s, early 20s, I don't know, it's bit weird, isn't it?

I have a more than 10-year age gap. It's kind of weird.

I don't know how these people like Leonardo DiCaprio, who are 50+,

date these 20-year-olds. I mean, yeah, okay, they look hot, I guess,

but it feels weird. I mean, it makes me feel old. If I hung out with a 20-year-old, I'd feel old. I don't want to feel old.

And part of dating older women made me feel good because it made me feel young. And then I felt superior because I was younger than they were,

like I had leverage.

My bicep

getting stronger. Why am I less angry today? Uh, I don't know, cuz I don't have 38 viewers. Maybe Kick's pissing me off.

I'm fed up of Kick.

Kick's like my day job, and then I do YouTube for fun, I guess.

I really hate doing kick all day long, but it's the best way to make money.

I'm not addicted, it's just fun to suck on something.

Why do I keep going back to my mum's house? Because it's a nice house. I feel— I don't know, I feel comfortable and safe.

Feels cozy and nice.

Every time I try and move out, I don't know, I just feel kind of miserable.

The Rotterdam apartment, miserable. Manchester apartment, miserable. The Thai condo was probably the best one. Still felt a bit suffocated. With how small it was. It's just nice having a big house, isn't it? You don't feel like you're stuck in a little fish tank.

My Devon house is actually a little bit small.

Oh wow, thanks David Zhang,

very generous. We should all get on a Zoom call together, LMAO. No thanks,

no thanks.

It's nice seeing the baby as well.

Baby is, I think, 3 weeks old,

maybe nearly a month.

I don't know if it can smile. It kind of makes a face where it looks a bit like it's smiling, but not really.

It's funny because my sister said, um, he cries a lot at night, so I should bring earplugs. So I bought earplugs. I didn't use them once. I haven't heard any crying at night. I just sleep right through it,

which is good, I guess.

I even have my door open to let the cat in because the cat sleeps in my bedroom now. I still don't hear anything.

It's really strange.

I'm just so deep asleep, uh, it doesn't wake me up.

I wouldn't be a very good parent, would I, if I had a kid with a woman

I'd just end up sleeping right through it and she would have to deal with it.

I'd be like, oh, I can't be bothered.

I'm not very reliable. It reminds me of the time I did the newspaper round with my friend from school when I was 16. It was a summer job, but we agreed to carry on doing it after the summer holiday, and I was supposed to go to his house after school to help him, and I just forgot. And

then he phones up saying, where am I? And I was like, nah, I can't be bothered. And then I just hung up the phone. And then my mum drove to his house and helped him out in the car. She said she arrived to his house And there were mountains of newspapers and he was crying.

And I was just sitting at home eating a bacon sandwich watching Sonic.

And she ended up taking the whole job and delivered the newspapers in her car. And my dad said, you're spending more money on petrol than you're making from the job.

It's funny because I didn't even realize that was a really shitty thing for me to do. It wasn't until like 10, 15 years later I thought, yeah, that was a really shitty thing to do.

Not much of a friend.

I just can't believe I, I didn't realize. That it was not nice, that he was relying on me and I just said I couldn't be bothered eating bacon sandwich.

But he didn't— he wasn't mad at me like the next day at school, unless he built resentment and kept it a secret.

He did actually stop hanging out with me nearing the end of school and started hanging out with other kids. And now I'm wondering, is that because I ditched him for the, uh, during the letter— I mean, the newspaper job?

How could I have been so clueless? I wonder if that had any connection.

Last time I spoke to him was like 2020.

No, it might have been earlier, like 2018. I think he, he found out about my YouTube channel. That was back— it must have been like 2018 when I felt really famous.

No, it might have been 2019, I don't know.

He said he was saving to buy a house and he was getting married. And I thought that's lame.

I thought it was such a waste of money to try and buy a house.

And now I realize I've just wasted all my money and got nothing to show for it. I made quarter of a million pounds from YouTube and I blew it all.

It's all gone. I could have bought a house.

I know, quarter of a million. Sounds impressive, but over how many years? 8 years.

Most people make that.

It's like $30K a year. It's not really that impressive,

although I made most of it in a few years, and then the rest of it was like trickled in Over the last 5 years.

I don't make 30K a year now.

I don't know what my sister did with her inheritance.

I think she did like a coding boot camp.

I make about $2.5K a month now. This month I made $2,500, mostly from Kick, and then about $400 or $500 on YouTube.

Yeah, about 500 OnlyFans, maybe $3,000 a month.

But my income's gone down a lot. In June, July, August, I made way more on Kick. I made like $5K a month.

But it's been hard to keep up the quality when you stream all day every day.

Well, YouTube is easy, you know, just do a 3 or 4 hour stream,

uh, focus on talking and being present. But to be able to do that all day long every day is just impossible.

You just run out of things to say,

and I want to do other stuff like clean my room, do some gaming, get some food, go on a drive.

You get burnt out, but you want the money, so you force yourself to do it.

I did a delivery job yesterday and delivered some whiskey down in Tenterden. Made £20. I quite enjoyed it. I popped into Tesco, I got whiskey, went to the guy's house,

put on my music, drove home. It's a nice change. I quite like driving.

I find driving strangely therapeutic. You put your music on, you're just cruising along.

The feeling of steering and going around corners, braking, accelerating is quite fun.

It's weird, I never thought I'd enjoy it. I always thought it's this really scary thing. How can people possibly enjoy it?

Yeah, I like driving.

Just don't like traffic and complicated roads. I like it when it's just nice B road, country road, empty. I just put my foot down, blast my music.

I don't really like motorway driving. I mean, it's not the worst out of all the driving, but it's a bit boring.

Town driving's the worst. I hate town driving.

My sister might start lessons again.

I'm not quitting YouTube.

Why do you think I'm quitting YouTube?

Yeah, I talk with my sister every day. She's here with the baby.

I don't really know how to teach someone to drive. You've got to teach yourself. You've just got to do it and learn and experience— get experience so you're not scared anymore.

Oh, oh, tired.

Tomorrow, wake up early,

pack the car. I think I'm gonna leave at 12, get on the motorway.

And then 30-minute charging break at Amesbury.

No, I'm not unprivating the videos.

A lot of people here start driving as soon as they hit 17 as well.

Me and my sister are very late to driving. My sister's also very scared of it.

I don't know why or how. Somehow my parents must have instilled fear of driving into both of us.

I wish I could get a Tesla. The annoying thing is the amount of money my cars cost me, I could have bought a Tesla, but the insurance would have been expensive. Which is why I got my Peugeot.

It is nice not having to rely on people to give you a lift

and not have to rely on public transport. Like, you wouldn't want to get on a train or bus if you got a baby, would you? It'd be horrible.

That's one of the reasons I wanted to learn to drive was because I thought if I'm going to date in the UK,

I don't want to have to go on public transport with my girlfriend.

I want their own private car.

I took lessons when I was 18, but I was really scared and I failed my test, and then I gave up. I think I was about— I must have been 18 or 19. I think it was before I went to Japan for the first time. I don't know why I bothered since I was so obsessed with the

idea of going to Japan.

I just— I remember not knowing how to do anything and the teacher just kept telling me how to do it. But if he didn't tell me how to do it, I wouldn't know how to do it. He'd be like, keep turning, keep turning. So I didn't feel like I was driving on my own.

I just felt like I was only able to do it because he was telling me how to do it.

The scariest thing I did was I did this really sharp turn and I didn't straighten up the wheels quickly enough, and I pressed the gas and the car was like about to launch into the footpath.

You got to be pretty quick on the wheel sometimes.

I passed my test back in 2022, but then I went off to Thailand to meet Vasta. Ended up in Thailand for 2 years. I came back last year, bought a car because

I wanted to settle down and have a British girlfriend, get a job. I was fed up just sitting around in Asia with my dead YouTube channel, barely making any money. I wanted to get a job and like have a car, have a house and a girlfriend,

live a proper life.

And I end up back in my bedroom here with even more debt than I started. I'm in even more debt than I was last year before I bought the car.

What do I do on Kick? Just do this, really, but less talking,

more doing random stuff.

But I miss doing YouTube sometimes.

I miss that feeling of being a YouTuber,

making videos and stuff, but I just don't know what to make anymore. I feel like I lost everyone.

My 2 main things I've lost, which was life in Japan And being married, I lost them. So I don't know what to make content about really.

Life in the UK.

Yeah, I do miss being married. I miss having a serious relationship and a partner who doesn't mind being with me despite my weird job,

and despite knowing about me, still wants to be with me. I miss that.

Not having to have secrets.

I don't like being single. It's boring.

Oh God, my stomach.

No,

I haven't returned the Air. I don't know if I'm gonna return it. I really like it.

Look at it, it's beautiful.

Such a nice phone.

This is the problem, I buy stuff thinking I'm gonna return it. After I make the video, and then I really like it. Like the Switch 2, I kept the Switch 2 as well.

That's how Apple gets you. Maybe they don't have the best cameras or the best hardware, but they create these really nice

products. It just looks nice and it feels nice. The corner's nice and soft and round.

Smells nice.

Ah, it just feels nice to touch.

Oh, it's so smooth as well.

Look how thin it is.

It's so thin.

No, it's mine. I'm not sending it back.

You can't make me.

Dan, I'm never putting it in a case. I don't care.

What's the point having a really nice looking phone and you put it in a case?

You won't be able to appreciate the thinness. Oh, my stomach. Come on, digest already.

Yeah, I have the Flip 7 as well. I'm streaming on it now.

So I've got 2 phones on finance plans now. The iPhone is £300 a month, 19% APR,

and the Flip 7 is on a 2-year contract— I mean, finance plan, 0% APR. So that's better.

No, I don't want a foldable iPhone.

Already got a foldable Samsung and I don't even fold it. I barely ever fold it. It's always unfolded.

It's £300 a month because it's just a 3-month plan. It's more like £347 a month.

I need all my phones. Actually, where's the iPhone 12 mini?

I've got my dad's iPhone 5.

iPhone 5, it's still got the home button.

Look how small it is.

They used to make the phones so tiny.

Oh, here it is, iPhone 12 Mini versus iPhone 5.

Look,

there's no camera bump. It's crazy. It's actually really nice not having a big camera bump. The camera bump really ruins modern phones. So ugly. I don't know why they think we care that much about having beautiful photos. I'd rather have a nice— like, this iPhone Air would be so nice if it was just flat. Imagine if it

was just flat.

Without a stupid bump

would look way better, just like a sleek slab.

I mean, look at the camera bump on the S10 Plus. The S10 Plus has nice cameras— 2x optical, wide-angle. It didn't have a massive camera bump, did it?

Why can't they just make it like that?

Look how thin they are.

Nearly half the thickness.

Will I be streaming on YouTube from now on? Um,

I think if I have an event

I'll do it on YouTube, but if I just got nothing going on, I'll just do it on Kick.

I think last night at my mom's house is pretty eventful,

and if I'm just going to stream 3 hours, there's not really much benefit of doing it on Kick over YouTube. Actually, I don't know. I reckon YouTube makes more money if it's a short stream. If it's a long stream, Kick makes more money. But if it's like a couple hours,

I mean, it's barely any difference though. It's like a couple of dollars. But I like being back on YouTube sometimes.

Something different.

Yeah, I think I probably enjoyed my life more when I did every— and then

did a YouTube stream in the evening.

But the money's better now.

It's just I don't really enjoy it.

I just— I don't know, I feel like YouTube, why can't they pay me more? Why, why are the ad rates the same as they were 8 years ago?

Why don't they pay more? Now I'm pretty sure 1,000 views now makes the same as 1,000 views 8 years ago.

Whilst all the jobs in the real world, the minimum wage has gone up to keep up with inflation,

YouTube's scamming us.

Like, $8 CPM is $8 CPM.

I got $8 CPM back in 2018, I get $8 CPM now.

Plus way less views.

How do they get away with it?

Getting paid the same amount of money for the same amount of views compared to 10 years ago.

I mean, back when I worked at the petrol station in 2016, minimum wage was £8. Now it's like £12,

gone up 50%,

whereas YouTube earnings have stayed the same

per 1,000 views, and then your channel just dies on top of that.

It sucks.

Yeah, I should have just invested in Google. That'd make you more money than trying to be a YouTuber, wouldn't it? That way you, you benefit from the profit these big YouTubers are bringing in.

I changed my channel name because I

don't like hiding in my room anymore. It's caused me a lot of trouble and headache and pain.

I wish I could just put it all behind me, but it keeps coming back to bite me in the backside.

Like, I thought if time passed People just forget about it, and then fucking idiots like Turkey Tom make a stupid video, get 2 million views, brings it all back up again.

Stuff that happened 8 years ago, and the stupid algorithm gives him 2 million views.

And in another 5 years, another wave of stupid YouTube channels gonna make videos about me, aren't they? About stuff that happened 10 years ago.

I mean, people are still making videos about Onision, about drama that happened with him 10 years ago. Grooming this and Shiloh that. God, people don't give it a rest, do they? Just bloodthirsty for views and YouTube money.

I tried to report Toki Tom's video, but stupid YouTube didn't do anything.

It says using my name or image without my permission is a violation of privacy, so I reported it as violating my privacy. And then YouTube says, please state what part of the video violates your privacy. And I said, the whole video does. And then they just said, sorry, but we could not find any violation of privacy. What?

You said using my image or my name without my permission is a violation of privacy. I just said they used my image and name without my permission, and they didn't do anything.

And then when someone reports my video, like Chihiro, I had to blur it out or else the video got— gets taken down.

If I ignore a privacy complaint, my whole video gets removed if I don't blur out faces. And then he didn't have to do anything.

At least would have been nice if he changed the thumbnail.

Or blurred my face out. He's already made his money, got the views.

Why they always got to put I got chlamydia in the stupid thumbnail as well?

As if I've just always got chlamydia and I never get it treated, like permanently got chlamydia. And the other YouTubers did it too with their thumbnail, like, he's got chlamydia, he's so fucking— what? You never got chlamydia? Why are you a virgin?

Imagine never having an STD. Must be some kind of incel then.

They just got to put in big red letters, oh, he's got chlamydia. No, I don't. I had chlamydia. Obviously I don't have it anymore.

Stupid YouTubers,

anything for clicks, huh?

Oh wow, thanks Nicholas. Is the move from Daewoong done? If that is all finished, you are free to travel again. You should go back to Asia. No, I'm still renting Devon House and I got a British girlfriend. And I don't want to go to Asia, unfortunately.

I'm done going to Asia.

I can't be bothered.

There's not really much appeal for me. Going to Asia anymore. I just get a girlfriend in the UK, can't I?

And I've got a car here, I can drive, gives me access to the whole country really. I mean, I wouldn't try and date someone who lived too far away.

Like 5-hour drive away. I don't think I would. I don't know, maybe if I was desperate enough.

I don't know why some people are like so against when I say I have a girlfriend. Like, who are you to decide if she's my girlfriend or not?

I see people saying, oh, he thinks every girl he talks to is his girlfriend. No, I don't.

I think if we are meeting up regularly, having cereal, not seeing anyone else, then that makes her my girlfriend.

That's like the definition of a girlfriend, isn't it?

Oh yeah, and well, who, who does the girl that you date think you are? Do they know all the things you do? Do they know that you watch my channel and you say stupid things in the comments?

As if you tell everything about your girlfriends about yourself and what you get up to on the internet. So don't be a hypocrite.

False equivalency. What are you, a Reddit keyboard warrior? Go back to Reddit. Next you're gonna say stuff like, oh, straw man, or ad hominem. Sharp Redditor. Go back to Reddit and type some essays, idiot.

Instead of debating me, you just did an ad hominem attack on my straw man and then gaslighted me. I hate how these stupid idiots talk.

Get a life.

I don't know why my nipples are so pointy tonight.

I'm not even cold, really.

I saw 28 Years Later. The movie. Why are there so many zombie willies waving about? What happened to that guy who always donated saying, what would you do if so-and-so's willy was waving in front of your face? I kind of miss that guy.

What would you do if you woke up and Australian guy's willy Or is it dangling in your face? Give it a sniff.

What would you do if you were dying of thirst and the only way to get hydration was by sucking on the Australian guy's moist, wet willy

for hydration?

After it had just been taken out of Chihiro's vagina.

The nipple is currently on the B of Samba. I don't know why it says Samba on my t-shirt.

Mm-hmm. I'm thirsty

after talking about that.

Hmm, the only reason to go back to Devon is to make some OnlyFans videos, make a couple hundred dollars.

Problem is I end up hurting my asshole,

rip my anus, and it takes weeks to heal.

And then I accidentally get shit everywhere, and then I gotta put stuff in the laundry.

This shit gets everywhere after you do anal,

and it leaks out as well.

One time I finished, I was just laying on the bed naked, and then it just leaked out, and there's a brown patch where my bum was, and then I had to put all my bedsheets in the washing, and then I've got a brown stain on my mattress. I had to get my steam cleaner out and nuke the

stain out.

It was not fun. And then I had painful thighs from doing reverse cowboy.

Pulled all my thigh muscles. It's not easy doing OnlyFans, you know.

What mod's leaking my Discord? I mean, what mod on Discord is leaking my OnlyFans.

Uh, people paying good money to see that stuff. Don't say disgusting.

How do you remember his profile picture but you don't remember his name?

Yeah,

I left the Discord too because they were posting gore of Charlie Kirk getting shot, and it was just gross.

Did not want to see that,

so I deleted my whole Discord account and left.

I hate gore.

Traumatized me.

Poor guy was just talking and then next second,

boom.

The mods were the ones posting it.

Yeah, I mean, I wish I could have had a Discord where it had nice normal people on it, but I realized it was just impossible. It always just devolves into degeneracy.

You just can't seem to have a nice normal Discord, can you?

So it always just gets full of weirdos, and that becomes what the whole atmosphere is like.

It just attracts the most toxic and weirdest people. And then scares off the nice people.

I think Let's just nuke the whole company.

Wasn't the shooter also in a Discord? And then I thought, I mean, I wasn't even surprised. Another Discord weirdo.

Who would have known he was a Discord and Reddit weirdo? Who shot Charlie?

They should just ban all these stupid websites. It's just breeding ground of toxicity and weirdos.

I don't know why Discord and Reddit seems to attract these people.

19% APR is like £60.

A month.

Oh wow, thanks Chung L. Welcome back. Are you done with Kick and Devon? What happened? Um, not done with Kick or Devon.

I just missed YouTube.

I guess at some point I've got to go back to stupid Devon. Money pit

sucking half my money just so I have a house to do nothing in.

And to get to the house from this house, it's like an all-day endeavor.

I say it's all day, you leave in the morning, you get here at like 5 or 6 PM. Maybe I was just unlucky and it's because of all these accidents slowed everything down.

Let's just build another motorway. I hate how there's only one way to get here, and if that one way

gets blocked up I mean, some people end up stuck in traffic jams for hours because— I mean, I got lucky because the accidents happened the previous day, but if it just happened, oh God, are you gonna be stuck for hours in jams?

Someone died on the M5, I think near Bristol. There was a multi-vehicle collision. Happened overnight and they closed off part of the M5 and then reopened it on the day that I came back home.

I saw so many people with hazards on, just, I don't know, broken down on the side of the motorway on their phone.

I keep thinking, oh God, I hope that's not me at some point.

I'd be so nervous. I never had any incidents on the motorway before.

Who the fuck is that?

Goddamn motorbike gang living opposite now. Can't escape these motorbikes, can I?

It's one nice thing about Devon, there's no motorbikes where I live.

Can you hear that?

I think the Traveler's kids have grown up and they now ride motorbikes.

Hey, those kids I used to whine about like 5, 6 years ago are now young adults, aren't they?

Next generation pikies.

Can't they get a nice quiet electric car like me?

They should make electric motorbikes, that'd be nice. Basically they're just sitting on a big engine with wheels, aren't they?

My trading— I'm still down hundreds. Because the market hasn't gone down yet.

But my main portfolio is doing really well. I'm up 5%. I put £5,500 into it. Half of it's in cash generating daily interest. The other half's in gold mostly. It's up quite nicely.

I bought loads of gold and banks. I bought XLF ETF. And Vuag, V-U-A-G.

Still my dream, become a trader, investor. 5 years, haven't given up even after failing so much.

I deserve some credit since I give up so easily. Never gave up on YouTube, never gave up on trading.

Maybe spiritually I gave up on YouTube, but I'm still doing it,

still showing up every day, mainly because I have no choice. I mean, how else am I going to make money?

I give up very easily, but then I also never give up.

I'm a contradiction.

Oh wow, thanks, Pink. Off topic as hell, what's your zodiac? LMAO.

Pisces.

Yeah, that's the zodiac, isn't it? Pisces. Piscis, as I like to call it.

And my Chinese sign is Year of the Snake,

so I have snake and a fish.

So my snake is— I'm very cunning, sneaky, slithering. And then my fish, I'm just floppy and wet.

See, I'm just a massive contradiction.

Hates people but feels lonely. Wants girlfriend. But I don't know what contradicts that.

Once girlfriend but takes it up the bum.

Once girlfriend but hates women. No, just kidding. I don't hate women.

Not all of them.

Oh God, I gotta leave tomorrow. I keep thinking tomorrow's gonna be another relaxing day at home.

But going on a little adventure and

then might actually come back here.

Oh, did you hear that on my shoulder?

I want to get a gaming computer. I chose the parts in my Amazon cart. It came to £2,700.

RTX 5080, 64GB RAM, Ryzen 9800, ROG motherboard, Wi-Fi 7, ATX case, 1000W power supply.

Then I can play Rainbow Six maxed out graphics, 60 FPS.

My bum's itchy.

My balls stuck in between my legs.

Oh.

I've been wearing this shirt for a week now.

Smells nice.

What time is it? Half 10. I might do another half hour and then go to bed. Wake up early tomorrow.

Wow, 5K views on my Silent Hill video.

Pretty good.

It made $5. Wow,

$5.

It got $1.40 RPM, so every 1,000 views it makes $1.40.

Even if it got 10,000 views, it would make $10.

Oh God, gaming CPM's so rubbish. I used to make $4 or $5 per 1,000 views with my old content.

Gaming.

Gets views sometimes, but the CPM is always really bad.

There's just too many people doing it.

The advertisers don't need to pay good money for the ads because there's so many people making the videos.

The insurance and finance ads pay more because there's less people making that kind of content,

which is why I tried making a video about car insurance ages ago. It didn't really work, to be honest.

And when I tried making stock videos, the CPM was pretty good, but then the views would be very low.

So it's like high views but low CPM, low views, high CPM.

If you can get high views and high CPM, you make loads, but then you need a finance audience, which I don't have.

I'm cold.

Yeah, I really wanted to become a stock video YouTuber back in 2021. I tried making these dividend stock videos.

They didn't really get a lot of views.

I'm jealous of those finance YouTubers because even if they don't get a lot of views, they're making loads of money. I think Traveling Trader said he makes like $5,000 a month on his YouTube channel and he only gets like 30-40K views.

I used to get 30-40K views. I never made $5K a month. I'd make like $2K a month.

I want to have a bigger size investment portfolio

so I can impress people by saying, oh yeah, I got $50K in stocks. All I got is $5K.

No, I mostly stream on Kick, but I do a YouTube stream now and then.

Yeah, that's my dream. I want to have big stock portfolio and grow it.

And have long-term investments.

But something always happens where I need to take the money out and start from zero again. I recently started from zero. I was able to, thanks to the Kick money,

I was able to restart my portfolio pretty quickly. After paying off my credit cards.

But, you know, I've got phones to buy,

hotels to book, life to live. What's the point of having life when you don't live it?

You're not gonna be in your 30s forever.

You might as well enjoy yourself.

I made a bit of money from art. Not much, though.

I thought, you know, I can game when I'm 50 plus, 60 years old.

I feel like right now I've got other things that I want to do more than gaming.

Just game when you're an old man, you can't move anymore. Can play GTA 10.

Yeah, I will pay back my mum when I've got 20K in my investment portfolio, so I need £40,000.

After I have 10K in stocks, every 1K above the 10K I make, I'll give her the 1K.

But once I got 10K, the ball starts rolling.

Like, Avalanche The snowball method.

I mean, I tried to make up with Chihiro. She reported me to the police, didn't she? Stupid idiot.

I wonder if Chihiro ever checks in on my channel or my streams and thinks, Jesus, Daniel is unrecognizable. To that sweet young boy I married in 2018. I think I've changed so much, like my whole aura

and energy and everything's so different compared to 2018. I'm so like miserable and defeated. I mean, still got the same haircut, I guess. I still kind of look the same.

Now I'm just so jaded and bitter.

Yeah, I've been doing dumbbells and push-ups every day since Mida dumped me.

Got biceps now.

I used to be such a sweet boy back in 2017

and then corrupted by YouTube and OnlyFans.

Yeah, well, imagine what Korean women from 2010 would think. 'Cause she knew me when I was 21 years old and I was completely pure and innocent. Didn't even have sex yet.

Imagine she sees me now, 15 years later. Just a completely different person.

Who said I'm a big liar?

I didn't lie about nothing.

Why did I change?

I don't even know, because all I was doing was trying to have fun making content, and then everyone came out to try and get me, to shut me down, cancel me, get me in trouble.

People just didn't leave me be.

I kept getting in trouble because of my content, and then it made me not want to do it anymore.

Why am I so itchy?

I used to enjoy doing YouTube, and then people try to shut me down and shut me up.

And then combined with also not getting any views made it not worth it anymore. Like, you're not getting any views anyway, and it's causing you a lot of trouble, it just makes you feel like, why am I doing this then?

At least if I'm getting in trouble, I should be getting millions of views

and making mad money, but I'm not. I'm making less than minimum wage and getting in trouble with the police,

and people think I'm a psycho.

Just feels like not worth it anymore.

All the de-benefits of infamy but with none of the benefits like money and girls.

I don't know when I'm going back to Devon, but I'm going to the Cotswolds tomorrow

for a hotel, and then I might come back here actually Monday.

I just can't be bothered to go back to Devon. There's nothing there apart from all my stuff.

It's not high-value stuff, it's just junk. I mean, it's not junk, it's just stuff I use on a daily basis, like my air fryer, my plates.

Oh, I can't move out.

It's too much hassle.

No, I didn't return the iPhone. It's mine.

Look,

can't make me.

I have marked my territory.

It's my beautiful iPhone.

My precious.

The battery life's really good. Lasts all day,

and then it takes like 30 minutes to charge.

Well, I need many phones because my streaming phone, and then this is my daily usage phone. And then this is my video-making phone because it's got the soft skin filter. I need this to make videos. And then you got my iPhone 12 mini, which is just my old phone which isn't worth anything anymore.

Never know when you might need it.

Look how much thinner The air is—

look at that.

Why is my head in the way?

Look at that. That's crazy.

So much thinner.

Way thinner, but not lighter. iPhone 12 Mini is still lighter, 130 grams. iPhone Air is 160, but iPhone Air's got a way bigger screen. Look at the size of the screen, massive.

Bigger than S10 Plus,

and it's got A19 Pro chip. I can play Resident Evil 2 on it, the remake. I've got Resident Evil 2 Remake playing natively, not cloud native. It's got Death Stranding on it as well. You get Death Stranding on iOS

and Resident Evil No, I don't think 3 is on it. I can't believe you can play Resident Evil 2 Remake on a phone and it runs better than my gaming laptop.

Smooth FPS, zero lag, and I got Call of Duty.

The games are better on iOS than on Switch. Resident Evil 2,

Prince of Persia, Assassin's Creed,

got Lara Croft, Delta Force. I might try that.

Serial Cleaner.

What other games are on it?

I've got Hades 2 on Switch too. I quite like Hades 2. Oh wow, Resident Evil 4.

Yeah, I've got a lot of games on it.

Total War Empire.

Hitman's on it as well. Alien: Isolation. Civilization VI. Life is Strange.

I wish I had Rainbow Six.

Well,

my God, it's beer soon. In 4 minutes.

And I won't be streaming until Monday.

I'm gonna go to bed now. Thanks for watching.