My Girlfriend hasn't Messaged me in 4 weeks...

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penguin!

Did you get one? Yeah.

So cute!

I've been feeling a bit down lately

because I think the girl that I've been

dating recently has dumped me. As some of

you may know, I've been seeing this

British girl since about May, and we've

been on quite a few dates, maybe 6 or 7

dates, and we also went to a hotel and

spent the night together. And we did it a

few times in the hotel. It was okay, but

it wasn't that amazing. I don't even know

if I can say that we were in a

relationship because we never even talked

talked about if we were together or not,

but I felt like she liked me quite a lot

and I thought she was okay. But she hasn't

messaged me for about 4 weeks now. Ever

since the last time we met, which was

nearly 4 weeks ago, she hasn't sent me a

single message. So I'm pretty sure it's

safe to say that she has ghosted me. I

don't really know exactly why, but I have

a feeling that I might know why. I still

remember the first time I met her very

clearly. We met in London, we went to the

National Museum, of history, and we walked

around there for a few hours. And the

first time I saw her, I was quite pleased

with her physical appearance. She was

wearing a bright red dress with these

white polka dots on it, and the skirt of

the dress was quite high up, so you could

see quite a lot of her leg. And I thought

she looked quite nice, quite feminine. In

this day and age where a lot of girls

don't really put much effort into their

outfits, they just wear a pair of jeans

and maybe a hoodie, and they don't really

look that nice visually, I quite

appreciated the amount of effort she put

into her clothing choice. Every time we

went on a date, she had a different kind

of dress on, and you can see she put real

time and effort into picking this dress

for my viewing pleasure. And her hair was

quite nice as well. It was very long and

very red, bright red in fact, because she

dyed it bright red. I'm not really sure

what her natural color was. I think she

said it was light brown, but it was always

bright red every time I met her. She had a

nice figure as well. She definitely was

not fat, and she was very tall I was kind

of surprised at how tall she was when we

first met, and I thought she might be a

bit taller than I was. It made me feel a

little bit insecure, but then I saw our

reflection in a piece of glass, and I

could see that I was a tiny bit taller

than she was. So we went to the National

Museum of History, walked around, looked

at the dinosaurs, and then after that we

went to Hyde Park in London, and we sat

around in the grass for about an hour or 2

just chatting, mainly about video games

and some other stuff. And these little

squirrels were coming up to us, and it was

really cute. And then after that, we went

for dinner. I took her to this Korean

barbecue place. She'd never been to Korean

barbecue before, so it was quite

interesting taking her to a Korean

barbecue for her first time ever and

seeing her reaction to how it's done. It

was also my very first time taking the

lead in a Korean barbecue place because

before I always went with someone who

usually knew what to do, and then they

would do all the cooking for me and do all

the ordering for me. But because it was

her first time, I had to do everything,

and that was kind of interesting too. So

we had a nice meal and I paid for

everything because I'm such a gentleman.

And I had a drink, I had a beer, and I was

feeling pretty drunk. We left the Korean

barbecue place and as we were walking back

towards the train station, I started to

get a little bit touchy and I touched her

in several places and held her hand.

Thankfully, she didn't complain and she

held my hand back, and that was really

nice. So I thought to myself, I might have

a shot here, I might have a chance. And I

decided to ask her if she wanted to stay

the night in London. I was really nervous,

but unfortunately she said no, she

couldn't stay the night, and I thought,

damn, I've just blown everything. But then

she said we could meet up again another

time, and then I thought, okay, maybe I

still have a chance. I just need to take

things a little bit more slowly. And then

we met up again, this time in Maidstone in

the park, and we walked around the park

for a bit. We had a picnic and we played

this card game, and then I started to feel

a little bit confident again, and whilst

we were on the grass, I decided to kiss

her. And she kissed me back and we were

just kissing on the grass for about 10

minutes until we realized that people were

walking up and down not too far away from

where we were lying on the grass. So it

was a little bit embarrassing that people

probably saw us making out on the grass,

but I didn't really care. So at this point

I thought, yep, she definitely likes me.

There's no doubt about it. And I decided

to ask her again to meet up. This time I

asked her if she wanted to stay at a hotel

in Maidstone. And she said yes. So I

booked the hotel and I went to the hotel

before she arrived so I could check in

without her finding out my real name. And

I was waiting in the bedroom of the hotel

for her to arrive. And I think you can

imagine what happened that night in the

hotel room. Don't really need to go into

detail. But for some reason, I wasn't

really that amazed by what happened in the

hotel room that night because after that

night, I never asked her again to come to

a hotel because I just didn't really feel

that into it. It just felt a little bit

awkward I didn't really feel completely

comfortable with her, and the idea of

spending an entire night again in a hotel

with her just didn't really excite me

much. So I never asked her again to a

hotel, but we did meet up again for a few

more dates, maybe about 4 or 5 more times.

We went to quite a few places. We went to

Hever Castle, we went to this animal

conservatory place, and we went to a zoo,

and we also went to some kind of nature

wildlife park. And every time we met, I

would ride my electric bicycle to

Maidstone, which is about 12 miles away.

It took me almost an hour to ride there.

I'd ride to the train station, lock my

bike up, and then she'd be waiting there

in her car because it took her about an

hour to get to Maidstone by car. And then

she would take us in her car to the place

that we planned to go to. And it was at

this point that I thought to myself,

actually, yeah, it's pretty nice to have a

car. And this really inspired me to start

driving lessons. And I guess it's thanks

to her that I managed to feel motivated to

start driving lessons. Lessons and pass my

driving test and finally get my driving

license after such a long time. I finally

realized and understood how great it is

having a car because it really expanded

the amount of options we had when it came

to choosing places to go on dates.

Without the car, it would have really

limited the number of places we could have

gone to together. Some of these places

like the zoo or Hever Castle would have

been very difficult to reach using only

public transport. The problem was, after

we've been to almost every major tourist

attraction in Kent, or nearby to London.

We kind of ran out of places that we could

go to for dates, and I couldn't really

think of anywhere else we could go to.

And it was really hot during the heatwave

times, during the heat of summer, and it

was very tiring going on these dates. We

would get very hot, we'd do a lot of

walking, maybe 5 hours of walking, and not

really get much chance to just sit down

and relax, which is, I think, what she

wanted to do. She used to message me

almost every day, and as the weekend got

nearer, she would ask me, so where are we

going this weekend? And I don't know

because I kind of ran out of ideas. If I

asked her, where would you like to go?

She would just say, I don't know, and then

not even come up with any suggestions. So

I had to quickly go onto Google Maps and

quickly look around, see if there's

anything interesting nearby, and just say,

let's go to this place. But then she said

to me that she would prefer to just come

over to my house and we could just relax

and chill out together instead of going to

someplace because it was getting very

tiring. And I thought to myself, Although

that would be a nice thing, it would be a

good idea if she could just come to my

bedroom, then we wouldn't have to pay for

a hotel. I don't really know if I think it

would be a great idea if she started

coming over to my house and getting to

know my mum, because to be honest, I

didn't really feel very attracted to her,

and I didn't really feel like we had much

in common either. When we went on dates,

we didn't really talk a lot, and during

the car trips to the places we were going

to, it was almost complete silence. She

wouldn't say a word unless I asked her

something, and I was thinking maybe she's

really quiet because she's concentrating

on driving. I know that when I was doing

my driving lessons, I couldn't really talk

very well or very much because I had to

focus on driving. But she's been driving

for years, so I didn't really think it

would be much of a problem for her to talk

and drive at the same time. But if I

didn't say anything, then during the

entire car trip, it would just be complete

silence, and it was very awkward. I also

didn't really feel amazingly attracted to

her, so I knew that it wouldn't really

last very long with us, and I was worried

that if she started to come over to my

house and I had to end things with her

because I found someone else or I decided

to go traveling again, she might get

really upset and then she might just

suddenly turn up at my house demanding an

explanation. She's probably not crazy like

that, but you never know. You can never be

too safe, and I don't really like bringing

girls over to my house unless I really,

really, really like them. And she kept

asking over and over if she could come

over to my house. I think she asked a

total of maybe 5 or 6 times, even though I

kept coming up with some kind of excuse

why she couldn't come. Usually say

something like, oh, my mum's gonna be here

and it would be awkward, or my mum

wouldn't really be happy if I brought

people around to the house. But still she

would keep asking, so when am I coming

around to yours? And I kept having to use

the same excuse. And I think she started

to get a bit upset with that. She started

to say that she doesn't really want to

carry on doing things like this, just only

meeting up for dates. She wanted to come

around my house and hang out together,

not really doing anything, but just

enjoying each other's company, which I

completely understand. And To be honest,

I would have liked that as well if I had

my own place, but it would have just been

too risky if she came up to my bedroom. I

would have to hide all of my YouTube gear,

like my cameras, my tripods, my mics and

all that stuff. I have to put it somewhere

safe and secret. Otherwise she might get

suspicious and ask me, how come you've got

so much filming stuff and recording stuff?

Do you do YouTube or streaming? And then

my cat will be out of my bag and I have to

tell her that I do YouTube, which I

haven't told her. So before our last date,

she kind of gave me an ultimatum. She

said, yeah, Yes, we can do a few more

dates, but she doesn't want to keep doing

things like this. And I don't really know

what the solution is. Either I just let

her win and I bring her back to my house,

and then I risk things being found out,

and I risk her just showing up at my house

if I upset her by saying something that I

shouldn't say. Or I get my own place,

which would be really expensive and I

don't really want to do, and then she

could come over there and see me. But

apart from that, I don't know what else I

could do because staying at hotels isn't

really that fun or relaxing because it's

just a hotel room. There's nothing in

there. And our last date was kind of

weird. I took her to this deer park. It

was just a big park and it had a bunch of

wild deers roaming around. And we just

walked around like we usually do, didn't

really talk a lot, but something felt kind

of off this time. Usually on every other

date we went to, as soon as we got out of

the car, she would come to me and hold my

hand. She'd always kind of grab my hand

quite not aggressively, but like

assertively. I wouldn't usually take her

by the hand. She would always take me by

the hand, and then we would walk around

holding hands quite tightly and quite

closely, and it was nice. I enjoyed that.

But our last date, she didn't do that.

She didn't even make any kind of physical

contact with me. At one point during the

date, I did try to put my hand around her,

put my arm around her waist, and kind of

squeezed her a little bit, but she didn't

really react to it. She didn't put her arm

back around me, and after that, she didn't

really come very close. Close to me

either, and it was like she was avoiding

me. I don't know, everything just felt

really off with that date. And then on the

way back to the train station in the car,

we didn't really say a single word during

that car trip. I was really tired, it was

really hot. I think she was really tired

as well, and it's just a very strange

experience. After we got to the train

station, I said, thanks for driving me

back here, and then she made this weird

face. It was kind of like a, are you

serious, kind of scrunched up, confused

face, but she didn't say anything. And

then I just said, see you next time. And

then she said, see you. Another weird

thing I noticed on that date was she was

wearing the exact same red dress with the

polka dots, the white polka dots on it.

And up until then, every single date she

wore something new, a different outfit.

But it was like that last date, she didn't

really care about visually impressing me

anymore, and she was just lazy and wore

the same outfit she wore on our first

date. There were a few things she did that

I thought were really cute. For example,

on our 3rd or 4th date, she brought these

handmade cupcakes. Thought that was very

sweet, and she also bought her own

chopsticks because when we went to the

Korean barbecue, she said she never used

chopsticks before and had to teach her how

to use them. And I thought it was really

sweet how she bought her own chopsticks.

I felt like I made some kind of impression

on her, although those chopsticks might be

in the bin at this point. I just sent her

a message, and it seems like she hasn't

blocked me because I think when people

block you on WhatsApp, it doesn't show you

when they last log in, but it's still

showing me when she last logged in, and

when When I sent her a message just now,

there's 2 gray ticks, which means that the

message has been delivered and sent to

her. It's just she hasn't read them yet.

I sent her a message saying, do you not

want to meet me anymore? So I guess we'll

find out what she says, if she replies to

me or if she ghosts me. Maybe we'll find

out some kind of explanation. I feel like

now I've got the stress of having to pass

my driving test over and done with, I feel

like I wouldn't mind seeing her again and

I wouldn't mind going on some dates before

I go off to Thailand. Because even though

I didn't feel amazingly attracted to her,

I thought she was nice and she didn't

really do anything that I found annoying

apart from maybe being a bit too quiet.

Even I was more talkative than she was,

which is kind of an amazing achievement

because I'm not exactly known as the most

talkative person in the world. It also

feels like she doesn't really care that

much that I started taking driving

lessons. Every time I tried to talk to her

about my driving lessons, she wouldn't

really have much of a response to what I

said. I thought she'd be really happy

knowing that I started taking driving

lessons because of her, and I wanted to be

able to take her to some nicer places. It

would have been nice if I got to tell her

that I passed my driving test, but maybe

it's too late now. Anyway, I'll let you

know if she replies to my message, and

I'll tell you what she said. Thanks for

listening and goodbye.