My problem with Ice Poseidon [6P6XZYGgsHA]

He went live and he wasn't talking. It was

just— I thought— I just thought he was a

little weird. He's a fucking weirdo. He's

the epitome of like what kind of foreigner

you don't want to be in Japan living here.

And so He's calling

me a weirdo. Whatever, right? Wasn't he

weird? I don't know. He turned

his stream on and point the camera at us

but didn't say a word. He's definitely a

weirdo. Oh yeah, that guy's staying here

for a year. 200 yen.

I'm not weird, Paul. I'm sitting hiding in

my room. I'm sorry,

but I, I mean, you're not— listen, this

shit you upload is fucking weird. You're

not weird, the shit you upload is fucking

weird. Daniel, I love you, man.

So I met this guy called Ice Poseidon a

few nights ago, and he's basically a

pretty big famous livestreamer, and I'm

actually a pretty big fan of his. And he

called me an effing weirdo because when I

met him, we went for drinks, we went to a

bar, and then I started doing a

livestream, but I didn't say a word. I'm

not a weirdo. I have severe social

anxiety, which means that talking to

strangers, interacting with people in

general, is just something that I find

extremely difficult to do. Okay, it's

true. I'm very quiet, I'm very shy, and I

was really nervous when I met Ice

Poseidon. I felt like my whole face was

trembling when I was trying to speak. I

could feel my lips shaking. And leaving my

apartment, going outside to go and meet

this famous guy, Ice Poseidon, was

something that was very uncomfortable for

me, a very scary experience for me. But I

really wanted to do it because, like I

said before, I've been a fan of Ice

Poseidon for nearly over 2 years now. And

when I found out that he was in Japan, I

just had to go and find him. I had to go

and say hi. I really wanted to get a photo

with him, and it was something that took a

lot of courage for me to do. It's not

something that I'm comfortable doing.

It's not something I usually do in my

daily life. I don't usually meet up with

guys because I'm not interested in guys,

and usually the only reason why I meet up

with people in the first place is because

I'm interested in what's between their

legs. Honestly speaking, when I heard Ice

Poseidon call me an effing weirdo in his

stream, it hurt my feelings a little bit.

I started watching Ice Poseidon about 2

years ago, and he really motivated me. He

really inspired me to try and push myself

out of my comfort zones and to try and

overcome social anxiety by going outside

and doing livestreams. And 2 years ago, I

used to do a lot of livestreams outside in

Japan, but unfortunately I had to stop

because I feel very attracted to Japanese

women, and I started to develop this bad

habit of following Japanese women around

whilst I was livestreaming, and then I

would make naughty comments about them.

And I thought this was pretty funny, but

other people didn't think it was so funny,

my wife included. Japanese schoolgirls are

so cute. Little sailor outfits with the

skirt and the white socks. Ah, it just

melts your heart. Softens your heart and

hardens your dick. Softens your heart.

Softens your heart and hardens your dick.

Japanese schoolgirls are so cute. Look,

I'm not a pedo. I would never think those

disgusting thoughts about those cute

little Japanese schoolgirls. I was just

joking around, messing around, trying to

make the stream entertaining for the

people who are watching. But no, some

people took it the wrong way, didn't think

it was a joke, thought I was actually

being serious. I can't even believe people

would accuse me of thinking those dirty,

disgusting things. But anyway, I stopped

livestreaming outside because I moved in

with my wife, and then I started streaming

inside, and it's just much more

convenient, less stressful to stream

inside compared to outside. So I'm really

not— I'm really not exaggerating when I

say that Ice Poseidon has been a huge

inspiration to me, and I could easily say

that he's in my top 5 list when it comes

to my favorite YouTubers, streamers,

online entertainers, or whatever you want

to call it. So when I found out that he,

he came to Japan and he was in Osaka, the

city that's 20 minutes away from where I

live, obviously I got a little bit excited

and I ran out the door, jumped onto the

train, and I tried to find him. And me and

my wife, we tracked them down by watching

their stream. We found them sitting in

this little bar drinking, and we

introduced ourselves to them. We had a

little conversation, and then we went for

drinks afterwards. And this is when I

started to do a livestream. And the reason

why I did a livestream wasn't so I could

talk. I didn't do the livestream so I

could start doing commentary. I did the

livestream because I wanted to document

this special moment for me, because it was

a very special moment for me, a very big

deal for me. I was finally meeting someone

who I looked up to kind of as an idol.

So if you saw the livestream you'll notice

that yes, I was very quiet. I didn't speak

much, and here's why. The reason why I

didn't talk much was because his bloody

friend Gary, the producer, was chat,

chat, chatting so much that the entire

time he was just non-stop talking. I

couldn't even get a word in. Even if I had

something to say, I wouldn't even be able

to say it because that Gary wouldn't shut

up. He was like a machine gun, a bloody

machine gun firing words 120 minutes a

second. I'm not a machine gun, I'm a

sniper rifle. I wait for my opportunity to

say something. I'm not the kind of person

who just feels comfortable screaming over

other people because I want to say

something. Where I come from, I was raised

to listen to what other people are saying,

wait until they finish talking, and then I

start speaking. Usually in a conversation—

it's called manners, it's called being

polite— usually in a conversation, one

person speaks, you wait for them to finish

speaking, and then you speak. And then

they listen. You don't just start

screaming on top of each other. Maybe if

they gave me a chance to say something,

then I would have said something. My other

problem is that my voice just isn't very

powerful. I don't have a very loud,

assertive, dominant voice, if you haven't

noticed already. My voice is very soft,

very gentle, and I think this is normal

speaking volume. Right now, my voice is at

normal speaking volume. Gary and Ice

Poseidon, they have such loud voices.

Their voices are at least 50 times louder

than my voice is. It's like they're using

megaphones to talk. I would actually need

a megaphone if I wanted to compete with

them for conversation. If I wanted to be

heard by them, and if I wanted to join in

the conversation, I would have to start

screaming and shouting. I would have to

start speaking like this. Well, I'm sorry,

but I'm just not very used to shouting

because I don't like to make a lot of

noise. And that is about as loud as I can

get, and I can't really continue that for

very long because already my voice is

starting to go. I don't think many people

know this about me, but I'm actually

fairly insecure about my voice because I

want a loud, manly, deep voice. But let's

face it, my voice just isn't very manly.

It's very soft, very gentle. It's not

assertive. I don't know how to project my

voice. I'm pretty embarrassed about my

voice, and I feel very self-conscious

about how I sound. And it's one of the

reasons why it took me such a long time to

finally start making videos. It's because

my voice used to sound so stupid. If you

look at my videos from a few years ago, I

sound like a complete twat. I should have

researched this before I bought the lens,

and I should have known better because

usually prime lenses don't have image

stabilization. I kind of already knew

this because before I had a Samsung

mirrorless camera, and I also had a

pancake lens, and I had— I think I had the

same problem deciding between the kit lens

and the pancake lens. I can't believe

that's what I used to sound like. I can't

believe my voice sounded so stupid. It's

taken me such a long time to, to get to

this point where I sound less stupid. And

I think the reason why my voice is so weak

is because I don't use it very much. And I

think your voice is kind of like a muscle,

and if you don't use muscles, they get

weaker and weaker and weaker. So as you

can imagine, it was really difficult for

me to join in with the conversations Ice

and Gary were having because their voices

were so loud. My voice is very quiet. I

was worried that I might try and say

something, but they wouldn't be able to

hear me. And they would just ignore me and

I would feel embarrassed and I'd feel

stupid. And the other problem I had was,

well, I just didn't really feel very

interested in what they were talking

about. They were going on and on for ages

about how to pronounce the word addict.

Yeah, it's pronounced addict, not a-dict.

And then they were going on and on about

watching each other having cereal with

each other's girlfriends for about 20

minutes and it was just so boring. I had

nothing to add to that conversation. I

just didn't really find the conversations

to be very intellectually stimulating,

and I didn't know what to say. So yeah, I

was very quiet. Usually when I'm in that

kind of social situation, I am very quiet,

and I'll just wait for a conversation that

I do find interesting, or I wait until

someone asks me a question. And I find it

kind of offensive when you get these loud

extroverted types and they call me weird,

or they think I'm a weirdo just because

I'm very quiet and I'm not joining in with

all the conversations, and I'm not

shouting and screaming like everyone else

is. I'm just not a very loud person. I

think it's a little bit unfair to call

someone a weirdo just because they're not

as loud as everyone else and they're a

little bit quiet. Some people are just

quiet, some people are just loud. I also

felt a little bit annoyed when Gary and

Ice Poseidon started wrestling inside of

the elevator. They started body slamming

each other into the walls of the elevator

and the whole thing was shaking like an

earthquake and I was actually scared. I

thought I was going to get crushed. I was

worried my wife would get crushed. I was

worried that the elevator was going to

break down and then we'd be stuck in

there. Me and my wife, we're just tiny

people. I'm only 5 foot 8, nearly 5 foot

9. My wife's about 5 foot 4. Ice and Gary,

they're like giants. They're 6 foot

something, and they could have easily

slammed into me or my wife, and I wouldn't

be able to stop them physically because

I'm, I'm not big enough. I guess I was a

little bit shocked and surprised that they

acted so childishly, so immaturely, in

front of a lady. I would expect that kind

of behavior from children, not, not grown

adults. Gary's in his 30s and Ice Poseidon

is, what, 25? And they were acting like a

couple of kids. And then there was this

bell at the paying counter and they

started hammering the bell until it fell

off the counter. It was so embarrassing.

I just felt really embarrassed. Yes, I

feel a little bit disappointed because I

didn't get to speak to Ice Poseidon much,

and he didn't really show much of an

interest in me. And this was a surprise

because usually when I see his other fans

approach him in streams, he shows interest

in them and he talks to them. But I just

felt like he wasn't interested in me. He

was very quiet. He just talked to Gary

most of the time. His attention was

towards Gary's stream, not me. But in

general, I think it was a good experience.

I had a good time. It was fun. It was

interesting. I don't regret meeting

him, and I don't hate him. I don't hate

Ice Poseidon now. I still consider myself

to be a fan of him and his content, and

I'm still gonna watch his streams. I just

wasn't 100% happy with it. There were a

few things that I wanted to complain

about. And if you want to see the elevator

fighting scene, I took it out of the

livestream. I cut it out because I was

worried I'd get a community strike for

violence because it was pretty violent.

I've never been in a real fight, Or

anywhere near a real fight, but I imagine

that's what it would be like. Someone else

reuploaded it. Just search for Ice

Poseidon Japan elevator fight, and it's

about 40 seconds. It's quite—it's quite

funny, actually. Yeah, it's funny to

watch, but it's not funny when it's

happening right next to you inside of a

tiny elevator.

Ice Poseidon. Hello. Ice Poseidon.

Hello. Ice Poseidon. Yeah, I know you.

Hi, how are you? Good. Do you— does he