me and my wife had a HUGE argument yesterday

Hello, it's Daniel.

It says I have a poor connection.

Is it streaming? It says poor connection,

but I don't know why. I'm not downloading

anything, am I?

I'm not sure if it's streaming or not

because it's saying poor connection.

Let me know if you can hear me.

Yes, it's streaming, it's fine. Okay, let

me explain what happened yesterday. It was

pretty funny actually. It was pretty funny

because we had this massive argument,

like a full-blown argument, swearing,

shouting, banging stuff,

and then a few hours later everything was

fine. We went for teppanyaki Lunch,

which I uploaded a video on my second

channel. So,

um, how do I begin?

We had a massive argument yesterday

because of the bloody Filipino girl. Is it

Filipino or Filipina? I don't know how to

say it. The Philippine girl.

Okay, let me, um, let me try and explain.

Just need to fix my hair first and

I'll get a drink. By the way, who saw me

donate $40 to Ice Poseidon saying,

here's all the ad revenue I made from the

video I made about you? And then he was

really surprised I'll show it to you later

after I've explained.

I think I'm in love with Ice Poseidon. I

had this dream about him last night as

well where his girlfriend dumped

him and then she tried to sleep with me

and she brought me back to her room

and in her room there were these 2 bald

Mexican gangster guys, and I ran out of

the room. They chased me and they tried to

Okay, so let me tell you.

So it all began on Sunday when we went to

Kyoto to climb a mountain and we met 2 of

her friends. And I vlogged it, and they

gave me permission to film them and put

them in the video, so I did that. And then

the next day, the Filipino girl started

complaining to my wife, saying that she

wasn't happy with how she was portrayed.

I don't know what that means. And she

wasn't happy with the comments people were

making about them, which involves

the L-word.

And she wanted to be taken out of the

video. So I edited the video, I cut off

the beginning where she's in it, I blurred

out their faces, I changed the title, I

changed the thumbnail so they weren't in

the thumbnail, and everything was fine.

And then I uploaded a second video called

My Problem with My Wife's Friends, and

then she messaged my wife again saying she

was upset about it. And she said she was

going to block my wife, which is stupid.

Why block my wife? My wife didn't do

anything wrong.

And my wife had a big go at me for

uploading the second video, which I didn't

really see a problem with. The second

video, I didn't say anything bad about

them. I didn't talk about the L-word much,

and I didn't show their faces. I was just

talking— I was just explaining the

situation, what happened, and then I was

talking about how people were stupid for

worrying about privacy so much.

That was it. And then she started

threatening my wife that she was gonna

block her. Then what happened?

Yeah, me and my wife had a massive

argument about that. That was it, really.

She said, why did you upload the second

video when I told you not to? And then I

said, because there's nothing wrong with

it. It's not really that interesting now I

think about it. And then she

sent this massive wall of text message to

my wife saying that she doesn't want to

have anything to do with me anymore and

she thinks I'm a weirdo. She called me a

weirdo as well. She said, your weirdo of

a husband, or something. And then she said

that she doesn't hate my wife, but she

doesn't like me and she would never meet

me again. It was like a really long wall

of text. I can't remember it. My wife

wouldn't let me take a picture of it.

Yeah, that was it basically. So if that's

all you came to hear, uh, you can go now.

But if you want to stay for drinks and

other stuff, then you're free— free to

welcome— you're welcome to stay.

I thought there'd be more to the story.

There isn't much to say. I guess I don't

really care about it anymore since it

happened yesterday. If I streamed straight

after it happened, I would have ranted on

and on about it, but it's been a day. I

don't really care about it anymore. It's

just a load of stupid nonsense. It was

annoying because I did everything the

Filipino girl asked me to. I took her out,

blurred her out, changed the title,

changed the thumbnail, and she kept

complaining and moaning.

Because, because people were saying that

she is an L-word. Who cares if people in

the comments say she is something? You

should just deny it. And then she's

worried about her parents finding out

about it, which is dumb because she's an

adult. Why are you— why are you afraid of

your parents when you're an adult?

That was basically it.

Not very exciting.

I wish I had the message.

What's the L word? I'm not going to say

the L word,

but she didn't want people to know that

she was an L word.

And she complained so much. I wish I

didn't take out the beginning now. Should

have just left it up there. Screw her.

I had to delete the best bit of the video.

I had to delete the bit where we fried the

ice cream on the grill.

I didn't want to take the video down

because it was one of my best videos. I

thought it was quite interesting going up

the mountain. And I did, did the editing.

I thought the editing was quite funny with

the music.

Daniel, your second channel is doing well.

Yeah, it is doing quite well actually,

getting a couple thousand views every

video. It's a different type of content.

I don't really talk much, I just use my

GoPro. I walk around, show people things,

I go into restaurants and eat food.

And it's doing pretty well actually,

getting some good money.

Why don't you say the L word? Because she

doesn't want people to know, and if I just

say it, then people will know. If I say

the L word, then it's kind of ambiguous.

The L word could be anything.

It was just so annoying because she gave

me permission. I don't, I don't feel like

I did anything wrong. I got permission to

film her, and then I did everything she

asked afterwards, and then she still acted

like a baby. My wife was really upset.

She was crying because she nearly lost a

friend because of me, basically. I felt a

bit bad that I It nearly ruined the

friendship between her and my wife, and

they've been friends for a long time,

quite a few years.

So I'm not meeting any more of her stupid

friends anymore because they just complain

when I talk about them on YouTube.

My wife tried to give me money to take

down the video. She said, I'll give you

¥4,000 to take it down. I said, no, I

don't want your money. It's not about

money. I don't care about the money. It's

the principle about,

about me not doing anything wrong. I hate

it when people tell me what I can make,

what I can and cannot make on my own

channel. I hate it when people tell me to

take down videos. It really pisses me off.

Especially after I put hard work into

making the video and then they tell me to

take it down.

In Malaysia, they're not accepting of gay

people. She's not from Malaysia, she's

from the Philippines. I don't know what

the Philippines are like for gay people.

But I didn't say she's gay. People were

just assuming it in the comments section.

Why would you care what people say in the

comments section? Just deny it. It's not

like it's solid evidence. Oh no, a YouTube

comment said I am something. Just say,

oh, this is a stupid comment, it's not

true. People call me things all the time

in the comments that aren't true.

I don't start crying about it.

I stayed up until 2 AM editing that video.

She called me a weirdo. I wish I

had better memory. I could have, could

have recited what the message said. It was

quite funny. She was insulting me,

saying that she learned something

important after meeting me, something

about privacy. I don't know.

I found it hard to care because she

irritated me, so screw her.

Am I working right now? Yes, I'm doing a

livestream, which is my work.

Anyway, that's boring. Let's talk about

other things. I bought Resident Evil 2.

I'm gonna play that later. And I bought a

curved monitor, 32 inches.

Which is coming tomorrow. So my plan is

I'm gonna do another YouTube stream

tomorrow unboxing the stuff and then

setting up my new gaming system setup,

and then I'm gonna switch over to Twitch

to livestream Resident Evil 2. I'm gonna

do gaming streams on my Twitch channel and

then, you know, just talking streams on

YouTube because I don't really think my

YouTube channel is, is suited— suitable

for gaming. It's not really a gaming

channel, is it? So I want to have the

gaming on my Twitch channel. Also, I'm a

bit worried that the violence and gore

would get me a strike. It shouldn't

because it's just a game, but knowing my

luck, I might get a strike. I got a strike

before for using ketchup as fake blood.

So I bought a widescreen— not widescreen,

I bought a curved monitor. And I got a new

gaming keyboard, and I've got a webcam for

Twitch streams. Hopefully that comes

tomorrow. I've never used a curved monitor

before, so it should be interesting.

We went to Yodobashi Camera yesterday and

I was looking at the curved screens.

They're so nice. You sit there and they're

curved and it feels like you're more in

the game. Hopefully it's good. The reviews

are quite good. Seems like a good one.

Oh, and Ice Poseidon reacted to my

donation. Do you want to see it?

About you. Love you. From Daniel.

$43 from Daniel. Here's all the revenue,

um, the ad revenue I made about you. I

made from the video about you. First of

all, the fact you made $43 from ad revenue

fucking blows my mind, Daniel.

I make $20 On like 100K views. How the

fuck did you make $43 for how many—

however many views you got? I mean, first

of all, thank you for the $43. That's very

nice of you, Daniel. I appreciate it very

much. But how the fuck did you make $43 ad

revenue when I make god— when I make

fucking dogshit ad revenue? Maybe I need

to hire your fucking editor, bro. Who

knows? But he thinks I have an editor.

It's so funny he was surprised that I made

$40 off of 28K views. That's low for me.

Usually I'd make $100 for 20k views.

28k views should have been nearly

$150, but for some reason it did really

poorly. Maybe it's because Ice Poseidon

was in the title. He said he only makes

$20 for 100,000 views. That's really bad.

Maybe it's because he keeps swearing. I

don't swear, and I use code words when I

talk about sexual things. I use code

words. I don't swear, so maybe my, my

CPM's better than his. Also, I put about 5

ads every video. That also helps. I

donated all of the ad revenue I made from

the video that I made on him to him.

Do I feel like it was a waste of money?

Not really. It made me feel happy. It made

me feel good inside. And I didn't do it to

benefit from anything. I didn't even link

my channel name I just said from Daniel.

See, I do do nice things. People say I'm

selfish and I don't do things to help

people. I just gave him $40 and I didn't

really gain anything from it apart from

him recognizing me. Okay, it did feel good

inside because I like him, but I didn't

really gain money from— I lost money.

Yeah, it does feel kind of good when you

give money to people that you like,

and I wouldn't have gotten that money

without him anyway, so I

don't mind. I was hoping I would have made

more money off it, like $100, and I could

have donated $100.

Do I miss the bisexual Japanese guy? No,

I don't. Not in the slightest.

It's not like we were friends. Well, we

were friends, but we weren't close best

Am I bisexual? I don't think so. I like

I like women and not

really into guys.

Why are people mean to you? I don't know.

It's weird, isn't it? It's not like I'm a

criminal or some kind of rapist.

Do you think you'll be making more drawing

videos? I've made one. It was, it was

about my entire life, like a draw my life

video. I haven't done the voiceover yet.

I'm not sure if I'll finish it. The

drawings are pretty good in it, I think.

Is your wife a lot less into sex from the

time you got married? No, we had, we had

sex 3 times yesterday. In the afternoon,

in the evening, and then this morning.

So I feel pretty sexually satisfied.

Do I still have cuckold fantasies? No,

I don't really have cuckold fantasies.

Will you and your wife have kids?

Probably not. She doesn't really want

kids. I don't really want kids. I don't

even know if I'm capable of having kids.

I don't make enough money to be able to

support kids, and it just seems

like a big waste of time because they grow

up and they have their own lives. They

leave you. Look at me, I'm all the way in

Japan. My mum's all by herself, no

husband. My sister's in London, I'm in

Japan. And what was the point? She ended

up all alone anyway. If you have kids,

yeah, you have a fulfilling family life

for about 20 years until they grow up and

then leave you, and then your husband or

wife dies and you're all alone again. So

you might as well just get used to being

alone, because no matter what you do,

you're going to be alone unless you die

first. It's either you die first or you

survive and then you're all alone. That's

the depressing fact of life.

Are you ever going back to England?

Maybe, I'm not sure when.

What am I drinking? Drinking some

kind of fruit juice.

I ran out of vape liquid for my vape, so I

can't smoke it. And there's a, there's a

tobacco flavor I found out. I'm quite

interested in that. I wonder what it

tastes like. I can't remember what tobacco

tastes like. Oh my

God, you're so depressed. I'm actually

feeling Not too bad today. It's really

hot today, it's over 35 degrees, but I

have the air conditioning on so I'm fine.

And there's this metal panel, I think I

can show it to you actually.

I'll try not to show the window because I

don't want to dox myself. You see this

panel outside? That's where the escape

ladder goes. And it's so hot. I tried

standing on it. I couldn't stand on it for

more than a second. My feet were burning.

I wonder if I can fry an egg on it. Well,

it's not that hot. I would have burn marks

on my feet if it was that hot. But it's so

stupid they put the, the hatch for the

ladder right in front of the door, so I

have to try and step around it if I want

to go out onto the balcony to hang the

laundry. Really bad design. They should

have put it in the corner.

It's so hot outside,

unbelievable. It's like a sauna.

Oh, thank you, Paris Hilton. Why does

Gunnar Larsson hate you? Is he jealous?

Gunnar Larsson hates me because he's

jealous and he thinks I don't deserve the

things I have, like a wife, successful

YouTube channel, my dream job. He's just a

sad loser who thinks he's doing— he thinks

he's a good guy, but he doesn't get what

he wants in life, and I'm getting what I

want in life, and he thinks I'm an

Asshole. So he's probably all pissy

because he thinks I'm a bad person, but

nothing— I don't suffer from any of the

consequences from being a bad person.

Sucks to be him.

He's like, um, that Mark Grimes guy from

The Simpsons. I'm Homer, and then he's

Mark Grimes, who just complains all the

time and then gets electrocuted.

Uh, do you read graphic novels? No, I

don't read anything. I'm not into reading.

I tried before, tried reading books. I

just can't get into it. It's so boring

reading. I'd rather just watch YouTube.

The vape thing is weird because look. I

don't have any more liquid in it, but if

you suck it,

vapor still comes out. Oh, but it tastes

disgusting. Oh, thank you, Gabrielle, for

the Super Chat. It tastes disgusting. It

tastes like smoke. It tastes like it's

burning. Vapor still

comes out a little bit. I ordered a box of

5 different flavors. Let me check. It

should be coming today. Hopefully it comes

during the livestream. I'll be

livestreaming for most of today, probably

5 hours. It's gonna be a long one.

Says it's on its way.

I've got several things coming. I've got

the vape flavors, my gaming laptop,

HDMI cable, and a new webcam. I'm making a

new streaming setup for Twitch, not

Switch. And I got these different flavors

for my vape.

That's burning the coil, stop. Okay, I

didn't think it was a good idea. It smells

like burning. I got these

flavors Menthol, blueberry.

I don't know what this is. Energy drink

flavor and cola, ice cola.

Have I ever had sex in my parents' house?

Yeah, I had sex with a Korean woman.

Oh, thank you, Oliver. I just matched with

my ex-girlfriend's cousin.

Did she know it was you?

How many do I get? I think I get 2 of

each. 5 flavors, set 1.

Vitamin formula liquid menthol.

That'd be cool if it had vitamins in it

and when you sucked in it gave you

vitamins.

I really want to get tobacco flavor.

It's nicotine-free, so it's not dangerous.

Super hard mint, menthol,

Red Bull, Red Bull flavor,

blueberry.

I got a job in Osaka. Why don't you take

an interview? Because number one, I don't

have a working visa, so I can't get a job.

And number two, I don't need one because

I'm a professional YouTuber/gamer.

I'm gonna be playing Resident Evil 2

tomorrow on super hard mode,

no damage. I'm gonna finish the game first

try. No damage. Um,

finish— I'm gonna finish the whole game in

one day, hopefully.

It's gonna

Hopefully more people come over to Twitch.

It's nicer on Twitch because you don't get

all the trolls and irritating people

because they're too lazy to come over.

And you get cool emojis that were custom

made by this girl who used to be a fan of

mine, but I don't think she likes me

Oh, thank you, Caleb, very much.

Did you give Ice Poseidon your ad revenue

earlier? You are a good person and screw

the jerks that call you a leech. Yeah, I

did. I gave him 43 $25,

which was the exact amount I made from

that video. I can show you here how

much I made from it.

Not sure if you can see, $43.45.

Should be able to see that. Didn't make

that much considering how many views. In

comparison, I have videos that only have

15K views that made the same amount. So I

was hoping to get more, maybe 100, and

then donate, donate that to him.

It felt good. I liked doing it. I don't

regret it. Didn't really get anything out

of it apart from a 40-second response,

but it made me feel nice when he said my

name. I'm such a fanboy.

You should get Fire Emblem on your Switch.

I sold my Switch. I'm thinking about

getting the Switch Lite when it comes out.

Looks interesting.

Oh, thank you, American Ajumba. YouTube is

a real job. People are jealous. I really

don't understand it when people say

YouTube is not a real job. I had this one

guy in the comments say something like,

I'm quite similar to you. I'm the same

age. I'm from England. I live in Asia,

but— he had to put the but— but I

have a real job, as if it's something to

boast about. Like he thinks he's better

than me because he has a real job and he

doesn't think YouTube is a job. So

annoying, those people. We're quite

similar, but I have a real job. Yeah,

it's probably really boring in an office,

mundane, tedious, 8 hours a day that

I would hate doing.

How is YouTube not a real job?

Anything you do that earns money is a job.

There's just no arguing against that.

It would be great if you made more drawing

videos. I might do. I don't really have

any ideas right now for videos. There's

not really much going on. I'm thinking of

making one where I buy my wife a Japanese

high school outfit and then I film it on

my GoPro. I go to the shop, I ask the

staff member if they have them. It'll be

kind of awkward, be kind of funny. And

then I buy it and I go home. I try it on

first, and then I wait for my wife to come

back home, and then she tries it. Might be

a funny video. Oh, thank you.

Resident Evil 2 is so fun. By the way,

girl is coming over for mojitos.

What if you post your highlights of

Resident Evil 2 on your YouTube channel?

Love Ollie. That's a good idea. I'll

stream the entire game on Twitch,

and then if, if there's any highlights or

funny bits where I scream like a girl, I

can make a highlights video and then put

it onto my second channel.

I've got a lot of ideas that's just not

really, you know, drama related. I want to

do more gaming stuff. I want to do more

GoPro stuff where I go out and then

interact with people because

people like the, the Japanese guy GoPro

thing I did on my second channel. Got

quite a lot of views.

Have I ever heard my sister having sex? I

have actually. When I was in England

before I came back to Japan, her boyfriend

came over to stay the night And they,

they stayed in the guest room, which is

right below my room, and I could hear the

bed squeaking all night long.

I'm a Twitch and Patreon creator. People

say I don't have a real job. I know, it's

so annoying. I don't know why they say

that though. Is it because they look down

on YouTubers or content creators?

I just don't understand why they, why they

say, why they feel the need to tell

content creators or YouTube that

YouTubers, that what they're doing isn't a

real job. It's not a traditional job. If

they said it's not a traditional job,

then yeah, that's true. It is a bit of a

weird job considering that you

just make videos or stream.

But it's still a job.

Did I masturbate to the noise? No,

didn't turn me on at all.

She wasn't making any sounds with her

voice. I could, I could only hear the bed

squeaking and hitting against the wall.

Do I play a character in my videos? No,

it's me.

Just me ranting about stuff.

What did you argue about with your wife?

Um, she was

just angry with me because I made a second

video about the Filipino girl. And then

the Filipino girl got angry as well and

started messaging my wife about the whole

thing, saying that she doesn't like me,

saying that she thinks I'm a weirdo and

stuff like that. She said that— she

said to my wife, I hope you can find

someone who doesn't just want to use you

for YouTube views and subscribers, as if

I'm only using my wife for YouTube views.

What a load of rubbish.

I think she acted very immaturely. I did

everything she asked me to— blurred her

out, cut out the beginning where she's

visible. So annoying.

She shouldn't have gave me permission to

film her in the first place. She was so

fussed. She was so secretive. She should

have known that if I put her on my YouTube

channel, people are going to say stuff

Uh, what's this yellow line?

You are a weirdo. I know I'm weird, but I

don't like it when people call me weird as

an insult.

She's the weird one, not me.

I didn't do anything wrong. Don't blame

me, it's not my fault.

She gave me permission.

Did she know the video would be put on

YouTube, that you had nearly 100K subs?

Yeah, she checked out my channel when we

were talking at lunch because actually my

wife told me not to tell them that I do

YouTube, but I couldn't help it. YouTube

is my whole life. How could you tell me

not to talk about something that's so

important to me? We were having lunch and

then she was asking me questions. Hold on,

I think that's someone else having a heat

stroke. Apparently 18,000 people

have been sent to hospital because they

had a heat stroke recently in Japan. It's

so hot. In Japan. It's crazy.

Yeah, at lunch she was— me and the

Filipino girl were talking. She was asking

me things like, how long am I staying in

Japan? What kind of job do I want to get?

And she was giving me advice on how to

find a job. And I was trying not to be

rude. I was trying to show interest. And

then I just said, oh, I'm not really

looking for a job because I do YouTube.

And then she asked me what my channel was.

I told her. She was all excited about

it at first. She was saying things like,

wow, I've never met a YouTuber. Can I take

a photo with you? You can put me in your

video. I want to be famous. She seemed

really into it, so I didn't think she'd

have a problem. I thought she would expect

that there would be a few comments saying

not very nice things because, you know,

it's just the internet. People are rude on

the internet. I deleted a

lot of the comments. Maybe I should have

disabled comments entirely. Too late now.

Does your wife defend you against her

friend? No, my wife was

angry with me as well for making the video

in the first place.

She was angry with me because I told

everyone that they were L's. But this was

ages ago. This was months ago. Well,

weeks ago.

I didn't know that it was a secret because

people are usually pretty open

about their sexuality. I didn't know they

were so secretive. I didn't know it's a

big massive secret. So who cares? It's

2019. Being gay isn't really

controversial unless you're from, I don't

know, some Muslim country.

How come you never get cases for your

phones? Because I'm really against cases

because I want to enjoy the design that

the company put hard work and effort into

designing. You put a case on it, it just

ruins, ruins it. It's like having a really

hot girlfriend and then you just make her

wear a plastic bag over her face.

What's the point of having a beautiful

phone if you just cover it up in a cheap

plastic crappy case? I want to enjoy the

phone how it was supposed to be enjoyed,

and I've never dropped my phone, I've

never scratched the screen, so I feel

quite confident not having a case.

I'm really against cases. I don't like it.

I don't like seeing people They have these

big fat ugly cases on their phones. It

looks horrible. My wife had this horrible

case and I was complaining about it for

ages, and she finally took it off and got

this thin transparent plastic case. It

looks so much better.

Is it streaming? I got disconnected.

I think I got disconnected. Let me check

quickly.

1, 2, 3.

Let me check.

I think it's back. Yeah, we're back,

back online.

Uh, how did you learn Japanese? I used a

website called yesjapan.com. It's a pretty

good website. And I used a couple books,

used YouTube a lot, watched a lot of

Japanese anime, talked to a lot of

Japanese girls. I used to talk to about 5

Japanese girls all at once at the same

time. I had about 5 chat windows open. I

was just chatting to everyone all at the

same time, multitasking.

I stopped learning Japanese about over

6 years ago. I gave up because I tried

taking the N1 test and I was so close to

passing it. I failed by about 10 points

and I just gave up. I lost motivation to

learn it anymore after failing. Just

couldn't be bothered. I thought to myself,

well, I can speak it good enough, don't

really need a level 1 certificate. It's

not really going to benefit me.

Took me a few, a few years to study

Japanese. Do I like Conan O'Brien?

Yeah, he's funny. I like watching when he

goes to Korea or Japan.

Can I refill these? What if I just put

water into it?

I don't think you can refill them.

There's no opening.

What if I just suck it?

Oh, it tastes like smoke.

Is it true you can rent a family in Japan?

Yeah, you can. You can also rent friends,

boyfriends, and you can also rent a

girlfriend, which is quite funny.

Japan's pretty famous for having a lot of

lonely people. Who spend money to

get that kind of social connection with

people. They have host clubs and cabaret

clubs where the guy would go in and then

spend about $100 just for an hour

to drink with a girl. No sex, nothing.

Maybe they'll exchange contact details and

they could arrange to have sex for money,

but they just go into these bars and

they'll spend hundreds of dollars just

have some drinks. With a girl. Or the

other way around, girls would go into a

host club and then spend hundreds of

dollars to talk and chat and drink with

some good-looking guy. It's kind of sad if

you think about it. These people are so

lonely that they're spending money

to have this kind of fake connection with

someone who's only doing it because you're

paying them. It's not like they're actual

friends of yours, they're just pretending

because they're getting paid to do it. It

just seems so fake.

It's a bit depressing.

Daniel, become a host. I couldn't become a

host because you have to be good at

talking. You have to be chatty and likable

and friendly and bubbly. I'm not any of

those things. I'm just very quiet. I'm

terrible at talking to people. Talking to

people. I'm terrible at showing interest

in people. And you have to be good at

drinking because you have to drink a lot.

And I get— I feel sick after drinking one

beer or one glass of wine. I feel like

I've had enough. Do you plan

on staying in Japan for the rest of your

life? I hope so.

I don't really want to go back to England.

There's nothing in England for me apart

from my my mum and my sister. And me and

my mum, we don't really get on very well.

We drive each other crazy living together.

My sister, she has her own life in London.

I don't like London, so I don't really

have anything in England now. I have the

remnants of my family.

I have the legacy that is my dad's house

that he built Well, my granddad built,

then my dad fixed up.

I feel a bit conflicted about the whole

house situation because the house

obviously means a lot to me because I grew

up there since the age of 10, and I lived

there for nearly 20— nearly 20 years I

lived in that house, and it has all these

memories. It's very important to me as

an emotional thing.

But then going back there is really

depressing because then it just brings

back all the sad memories. Reminds me of

my dad so much that the whole place is

just my dad. You know, you go into—

imagine going into someone's room and you

just associate that room with that person.

Well, I associate the entire house and

property with my dad because he did

everything. He built everything

and fixed everything up, so I don't know

how to feel about it. I'd feel sad if my

mum sold it and I could never go back,

but then I don't really want to go back

because it makes me feel depressed.

I don't know if I'd want to live there if

I'm older and I somehow inherited it.

Very confusing. I don't know. What do you

think would be the best thing to do with

the house? I don't think my mum would sell

I think it's tricky when you get older.

You have to try and detach yourself from

your childhood home.

I feel there's part of me that wants to

protect it as like a memorial to my dad.

And I feel angry that my mum is throwing

stuff out. She got rid of my dad's

speakers, those big Grills speakers. My

dad loved those. I felt a bit annoyed she

was getting rid of his stuff. And then she

started chopping stuff down, doing things

how she wants them to. I wouldn't make any

changes if it was me personally. I would

try and preserve it as it was. As like

some kind of museum.

That's how I feel about it. I wouldn't

want to sell it.

I don't feel homesick. I've only been

away— it hasn't even been that long,

actually. When did I come to Japan?

June, beginning of June. Now it's

beginning of August, so 2 months I've been

in Japan now.

Everyone copes differently. Yeah, me and

my mum, we have very different ways of

coping. My mum wants to get rid of

stuff and change stuff so it doesn't

remind her. I want to preserve stuff and

keep stuff Because I have sentimental

connections to the stuff. I feel like it's

my dad's stuff,

and I feel sad for getting rid of my dad's

stuff. So I felt sad when my mum put all

his clothing into a bag and got rid of

them all. I felt sad when she burnt those

chairs that he used to like. I felt sad

when she got rid of his speakers that he

liked. But I can't do anything. It's her

house, it's not mine. I don't have any say

in the matter. She doesn't care what I

want. She's very, you know, she'll just do

what she wants to because it's her right.

She doesn't care what I think. That's what

annoys me about my mum. She'll just do

what she wants to do, doesn't give a shit

about what anyone else thinks, and then

she'll just say, it's my house. You don't

like it, you go away. That's one of the

reasons why I came back to Japan and got

back with my wife. If I stayed with my

mum, I feel like I would have ended up

murdering her out of anger. She says stuff

sometimes that's so annoying.

She can be really, uh,

toxic to be around, especially when she's

in a bad mood.

There were so many times we had these big

arguments where we were just yelling at

each other, screaming and swearing. So

stressful living with her. I can't stand

That was a big factor when it came to

deciding on coming back to my wife.

I didn't want to live with my mum. I would

have gone crazy.

It's also kind of depressing at that

place. I felt so isolated and alone.

I feel isolated here as well, but I feel

more independent. I feel more

like an adult instead of living with my

Maybe she lacked money. She didn't even

get that much from the speakers. The

speakers were nice speakers. My dad bought

them in the '70s and they were some kind

of famous brand. I don't know what brand

it was. They were like these really big—

they looked like big cheese graters,

golden grills speakers. Now I

remember my dad saying that they were

really famous branded speakers. My mum

just sold them for about £200.

What would your dad want? I don't know.

He would have just said, I wouldn't care

because I'd be dead. That's what he always

said about death.

How would I feel if I died and my wife

chucked all my stuff out? I'd feel a

little bit sad.

They're my things. How could you throw my

things away?

What was the argument with your wife

about? It's about the Filipino girl and

the second video I made.

I was gonna make a whole video about it,

but my wife told me not to, and there's

not really much to say about it. I can

explain the whole thing in 5 words: the

Filipino girl, the second video. My wife

didn't want me to make it, but I made it

anyway.

Do you hate people on the subreddit more

than you hate Konaito? I don't really hate

Kaito. I don't really hate the people on

the subreddit. I think they're just kind

of stupid. The stuff they say is so

stupid. For example,

do you remember the last stream I did and

I said I recently removed all of the words

on the blacklist, so if you want to, you

can say the word— the N-word. I'm not

going to say it again because people are

going to have So people are going to start

going on about it again. I said I removed

all the blacklist words, so if you want

to, you can say the N-word. And then

they're calling me racist because I used

the N-word. That's not being racist,

that's just using the word. I wasn't

using the word to upset

anyone. I wasn't directing it at anyone.

It's such a stupid thing to call someone

racist about. You can say

the N-word without it being racist. For

example, you could say, oh, my friend John

says the N-word every day. Just because

you said the N-word describing a situation

doesn't mean you're racist.

I just use the N-word as naughty word

that you can say in the comments that

you shouldn't say. I could have picked any

other word like the C-word for Asian

people or the F-word

for homosexual people. You can't even say

words now, you have to call it the N-word

or the F-word. It's so sad that people

are so quick to jump to calling each other

racists or pedos or whatever.

I wasn't asking people to start using the

N-word. I was just saying that you can,

but if you do, I'm gonna put it on the

blacklist again.

Is PewDiePie racist because he said effing

n-word when he was playing that game?

No, he was just saying it as a

swear word, not at anyone. I feel like

people don't understand what racism is

anymore. They just call everyone a racist

for stupid reasons.

I don't hate black people. I don't know

why people think I'm a racist. Why would

you think I hate black people?

I don't feel any hatred towards people of

certain races.

So yeah, it's a bit annoying, the stuff

they, they write on there sometimes. I

don't know if they actually believe in

what they're saying, or they're just

saying it to try and make me look bad, or

if they're actually that stupid and they

actually believe what they're saying. I

can't believe people can be so stupid

though. They must be just doing it to

It's just irritating having to explain

that I'm not a racist and I'm not a pedo,

and just because I say dumb stuff doesn't

really mean anything.

Do I have any black friends? I don't have

any friends, but I've had one in the past.

Why don't you make porn? I do.

I made this foot video for this guy. He

gave me $100.

Where's my Amazon delivery? Sometimes they

come really early and then sometimes they

come really late.

How am I even supposed to prove that I'm

not a racist? There's no way. You just

have to take my word for it.

Why are people calling him a racist?

Because I used the N-word last stream.

I didn't call anyone the N-word, and I

didn't use it as an insult. I just

said you can type the word— the N-word in

my comments now because I've erased all of

the blacklisted words.

I wasn't asking people to write it. I was

saying it is possible. To write it.

The reason why I'm not a racist is because

I don't decide whether I like or dislike

someone based on their skin color. I've

liked people of all colors. I don't only

like certain people of certain colors. So

if I'm a racist, then I wouldn't like all

ethnicities.

You didn't even pronounce the N-word

correctly. There's no— Americans always go

on about the hard R. There's no hard R in

English, in British English, because

English people don't pronounce the R like

Americans do.

There's no er sound in British English,

so there wouldn't be an er. Words that end

in er, like trigger, it would just be

trigger. There's no trigger or trigger,

it's just trigger.

Why use the N-word specifically? Because

that was the, the most offensive word that

popped in my mind, and I was talking about

the blacklist which contains all the

offensive words.

I didn't think people would make such a

big fuss about it.

Liking is not the measure for being or not

being racist. Then what is? The whole

point of being a racist is that you don't

like people because of their skin color

and where they're from. That's what racist

means. Stop trying to make it

overcomplicated.

When people start saying stupid things

like, you You, you can like colored

people and still be a racist. That doesn't

make any sense. It's like saying you can

be a vegan and still eat meat.

You're either one or the other. You can't

Try and talk some about something else.

Yeah, this is just pointless. People

either really stupid or they're just

trying to troll me now.

That's not what racist means. You think I

don't know what racist means? Come on,

stop trolling.

There's nothing complicated about the

definition of being a racist. If you're

racist, it means you don't like people

because there's certain Because

if they have— because they have a certain

skin color. That's all it means. There's

nothing complicated about it.

I can be vegan but still like meat.

You can be vegan, but you can still like

meat. I can be racist, but I can still

like black people. That doesn't make

sense. If I like black people, then I'm

not racist. I can't eat people,

so no, your comparison's false.

You can like someone and not respect them.

You can like someone, feel they're

inferior to you.

You can like someone that Well,

I guess so.

You can like someone but still feel

superior.

What if— I don't know, you're confusing

me now.

I don't feel superior to, to colored

people.

Oh,

you're just making it overcomplicated,

more overcomplicated than what it needs to

be. Next topic. I'm sick of talking about

racism. It's just irritating.

Oh, thank you, Ryan.

What games are you playing at the moment?

Playing Rainbow Six and— what games are

you playing at the moment? I still

just play Rainbow Six. I haven't started

Resident Evil 2 because I'm waiting,

waiting for my monitor to come.

You feel superior to a lot of people

though.

Well, yeah, in general I like myself more

than I like other people, but it doesn't

mean I'm racist.

I, I'm allowed to feel superior to certain

people.

For example, if I walk past some

scruffy-looking guy who's swearing and

he's really rude and he's spitting on the

floor and he smells like shit, yeah, I'm

gonna feel superior to him because he's

disgusting. But I would

feel superior to him because of,

you know, what he smells like and his

actions, not not because of his skin

color.

If some guy walked past me and he was

spitting and swearing and he was like a

horrible foul person, I wouldn't care if

he was white, black, or Asian. He would

still repulse me and I'd feel better than

him. If it was like some polite-mannered

nice guy, he could be black, he could be

white, and I'd, I'd think he's a nice

looking guy, I respect him. He's

well-mannered. Oh, thank you, Apple Pie.

I hate the whole racism topic. People so

desperate to, to prove that I'm a racist

for some reason.

I don't think you're racist. I'm saying

you feel superior to people in general.

Yeah, I do. I, I won't deny that.

I do feel superior to a lot of people that

I deem to be repulsive.

I guess in that way I'm kind of a snob,

and that's probably why I was bullied so

much at school, because I kind of looked

down on everyone else as low-class and,

you know, uncivilized,

and they probably sensed that snobbery and

then bullied me for it. But they

were— they spoke like idiots, swearing all

the time, spitting all over the place,

smoking, beating each other, acting like a

bunch of animals. Obviously I'm gonna look

down on them.

Hated them. What's wrong

with that? Why can't they

act nicely? Stop spitting everywhere. I

hate it when people spit. It's disgusting.

I hate it when you walk past some old guy

and then he just hocks up a load of spit

and spits it. It's gross. I don't want

people spitting outside.

A lot of people look down on YouTube.

Yeah, well, we can all just look down on

each other. Who spits? Loads of people

spit, usually smokers. Why can't they just

swallow it? I swallow my spit. I don't

spit everywhere. I like the way it tastes.

Why did you fuck your niece? I don't have

a Well, actually, I do have a few nieces

now. I never met them.

What if he's sick and has to release cold

fluid? You swallow it, don't have to

spit it. I always swallow my spit even

when I'm sick. The stomach

acids will will get rid of it, of the

bacteria.

I like the saltiness of it.