[2025-03-01] life updates 2025 [PUzAD7bJPmY]

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Live again on YouTube.

Oh wait, I gotta fix my debts. Hold on.

IKEA loan, 445.

Um, yeah, that looks

accurate.

I'm kind of scared Sunny's going to show

up. I don't think she would.

The last thing she said was, I'll drop

your laundry off later in the week.

Friday is pretty late.

And before we had the fight, Friday was

the day she was supposed to come over.

She's supposed to come over Friday evening

and then stay Saturday and leave Sunday.

So I don't know. I'm pretty sure she would

say if she's going to come over to drop

off the laundry. I thought maybe she— if

she was going to drop it off, she would do

it whilst I'm at work and then I'd come

home and then just see like a bag of

laundry outside my door. So there's

only Saturday and Sunday left, and I'm not

working on Saturday or Sunday unless I go

out and do Uber Eats, which I might. I

might go out and do Uber Eats. What else

am I gonna do? Sit here being bored?

If only she didn't have that fight with

her mum, none of this would have happened.

And then she could have come over tonight

and then we could be watching Handmaiden

and eating ribeye. But no, she can't even

go one week without fighting with her

stupid mum.

And then I get punished for it. That's the

ridiculous thing is that something happens

that wasn't even my fault or had nothing

to do with me. And then somehow I end up

being the one that gets the negative

effects of it. How does that even make any

sense? I literally didn't do anything.

And then now I have to suffer.

So unfair.

How are you almost 30k in debt? Is it

already 30k? Uh,

445, 2139.

1,742, 8,742,

13,626, uh,

26K. We're getting there, we're getting

there. Get that number down.

Do I wash my hair every day? Well, yeah,

it doesn't stay this fluffy and luscious

on its own, you know.

Yeah, I returned the phone today. I took

the, uh, Doogee phone to the post office,

and I didn't buy the iPhone 16e. Got bored

of it before even buying it, which is

good. I got this instead,

a wireless portable bank, 5,000 milliamps.

Should be all I need really.

£30. That's all you need if you're running

out of battery. You don't need to buy a

whole new phone.

So I got charged £100 for the IKEA loan

today, so that was just taken out of

my bank account. So I guess that's £100

off the IKEA loan.

Today was a bit disappointing. I only got

42 parcels, so I probably

only made about £45,

£40 maybe.

Bit annoying because I was— my

calculations were expecting me to make £75

a day. So today I probably made about £40.

I guess not every day I'm gonna get 70 to

80 parcels. And then I think he did say

Friday is a day where you don't get that

many parcels, and then there'll be more on

Monday.

Bit disappointing. I was hoping to make

like £80 today again, like yesterday.

Hopefully next— from next week I get to do

double shifts. I guess I'll

go do Uber Eats tomorrow.

Any funny updates? Hmm,

funny updates?

Not really.

Not really, to be honest.

You have to work double for the money that

Amazon would pay you for half the time.

Are you sure?

I don't think so, because I think to

make £120 on Amazon Flex, you'd have to do

2 4-hour blocks, which usually would

take about 3 hours. So that's like 6

hours. And you would probably deliver

about 70 parcels. So you deliver less

parcels, but it takes the same time

compared to my job now where, yeah, you

deliver more parcels than you do for

Amazon, but for some reason it takes the

same amount of time, I think because it's

all bunched up closely.

So if I did a double shift with my new

job, I should make— he said £120. So it's

like same as Amazon really. But you'd be

delivering over 100 parcels.

But it's just because it's like some

places you deliver 3 or 2 parcels to the

same household.

So it's not just because you've got 100

parcels doesn't mean it's 100 different

houses you go to.

Yeah, I'm just, I'm wondering if I can

make more than what I'm on Amazon Flex. I

was making about £1,400 a month.

I'm hoping I can make more than that.

Yeah, I just, I don't really know how to

feel about things. Sometimes I feel like

maybe staying here forever sounds

a bit depressing,

but then what else am I gonna do?

Because it's like now I'm in a position

where to make money, or good money, I've

got to stay in the UK. Because I'm not

making enough off YouTube anymore.

So it's not really like I could live

abroad anyway, you know, unless,

unless I move in with a girlfriend, split

costs, and it's really cheap there.

Yeah, I can't do the digital nomad

lifestyle anymore unless I had some crazy

content and my viewership went up.

But then I need to keep maintaining the

crazy content, don't I?

Hmm, don't know.

So I could make YouTube

videos on the weekend, or I could go out

and do Uber Eats. Last time I tried

Uber Eats, I made £15. In 3 hours.

Probably I could do better than that

making a YouTube video.

Have I broken up with Sunny? I don't

know.

She just says the trust is gone, you're

not a safe person I could rely on. What's

the point then? I'm so upset with you.

And then I apologized, and she said, the

damage is done, but thanks for the

apology, I suppose. I'll drop your laundry

off at the end of the week. So, are we

broken up or what?

Don't know. Maybe. Do you think she made

up with her mum and they're okay now? Or

did she move out? Maybe she moved into her

sister's place. I don't know.

Very vague. She blots my

I think if we Did break up.

Maybe I go home at

the end of my tenancy agreement.

I don't know what to do.

Get an HGV license. Are they

automatic? I've heard they've got like 18

gears or something.

I've really got to try harder with

tonight's cooking. I don't know why I keep

messing up the meals. I think I've got to

cook the rice and leave it in the rice

cooker for at least 15 minutes because the

cook light goes off and it goes warm,

warm light. I think if I take it out

straight away, it's still not fully

cooked. So I'm gonna leave the rice in the

warm part for like 10 minutes.

I keep messing up the rice, it's really

annoying. And then for the steak, should

be easy. I need the

right amount of water. I put a whole cup

of water to half a cup of rice. Are you

saying that's still not enough? Usually to

cook Japanese rice, it's 1 to 1 ratio in a

proper rice cooker. You're saying it's

like 1:3 ratio in a weird cheap rice

cooker? Just don't

understand it.

I've always made Japanese rice 1:1 ratio.

That's how you do it. 1:2 ratio is

long grain rice, basmati.

It's cuz I always used a proper rice

cooker, not these— this weird pot thing.

I don't know,

maybe I just chuck in 2 cups of water.

It's half a cup of rice. Maybe I'll just

put like 1 cup and a bit.

Nice haircut today. I haven't cut my hair

I just, you know, fluffed it up here a bit

and then I got my fringe.

What's the latest on Sunny? Nothing

really. No news.

Radio silence.

I wonder if she went to work.

I wonder if she got— I wonder if she

apologized to her mum and then they made

up and she drove her mum's car. Or did

she— are they still fighting?

And then she took the bus or something.

If I do 1 to 1 with my rice cooker, it

will finish cooking and then the rice is

all hard.

Pour water into the first knuckle. That's

what I did. I put a cup of water which

goes up to like there.

It's really annoying how random it seems.

I had such a headache today. It's because

I, I have my coffee and then I keep

needing to pee during work. So today I

drank half the coffee I usually drink and

that fixed the peeing problem. I didn't

really need to pee that much, but then I

had such a headache and I felt so low on

energy. I came home and then I had a

coffee because I had such a headache and

it only went away when I had a coffee. I

think I've got caffeine addiction.

It's really annoying. Either I've got a

headache and I feel like a zombie or I'm

bursting for the toilet.

No, the headache is caffeine withdrawal.

It happened in Thailand because we ran out

of coffee once in Thailand. I couldn't be

bothered to go and get more, so I went

without coffee for the day and I had

splitting headache until I had some

coffee.

I only have like a tiny bit.

I put it into the cup until the— until it

covers the bottom of the cup, but only

like this thickness.

Caffeine pills? Well, won't that make me

still need to pee? It's the caffeine

that's making me need to pee. But without

the caffeine, I get a headache.

So now I'm thinking of buying a coffee

flask so I could make the coffee and drink

it during my shift in little sips,

and then I can piss in it too.

Really annoying, all these problems.

Needing to pee whilst you work is so

uncomfortable.

How many packages delivered today? I only

did 40. It was an easy day, I guess,

but if you want to make money, this is not

good. Took about

2 hours and a bit.

I couldn't find this one house, so I

didn't deliver it, and then I found it on

Google Maps. So now I'm gonna deliver it

on Monday. Now I know where it is. It's

annoying, some of these houses, they're

not numbered, they've got names. So even

when you look it up on Google Maps, it

won't show you where the house is.

Is it not cold anymore in the house? It's

still a bit cold, although outside it was

very warm and sunny.

It's like all these weird names my

girlfriends have recently are

words you use a lot, and now they're gonna

be tainted. It's like the word faster is

already tainted for me. Now Sunny is gonna

be tainted. Why can't these people just

have real names?

What is tainted is when the name or the

word reminds me of the person.

Is Victoria tainted? Uh, maybe if you see

that shop Victoria's Secret, or the word

victory or victorious, it's kind of like

Day 20 of 590

of working to pay back my debt. It's been

21 days since I moved into my house.

Rent day is coming soon. 7 more days until

I have to pay rent and I've only got minus

£80 in my bank account.

I might be able to get some of my earnings

from my job next week, but it would only

be about probably

£200.

So I'm going to have to go into overdraft

until the 15th, which is when I should get

all of my pay that I've earned so far.

So I'm going to go overdraft like -700, I

guess.

Why so little? I don't know. I've only

worked 7 days. And 3 of them were

basically half shifts, not a full shift.

Monday and Tuesday were just like 35, 40

parcels starting because I was just

starting. And then today was only 40.

So 3 out of the 7— no, 9 days.

3 out of the 9 days were only half shifts,

and then the other 6 were Around

80 parcels. 1,

2, 3, 4, 5, 6. So maybe I only

made about £500 so far.

It's okay.

I'm going to overdraft a bit. Overdraft is

what, 40% interest daily?

So it would be like 90p per day in

interest as long as I stay in the

overdraft. If I went like £800

into overdraft.

So basically I pay the rent using my

overdraft and then the next few weeks will

be paying off the overdraft. And then I

get my YouTube money, which should be like

£700. And then that will go towards,

I don't know, after food and stuff,

probably £400 left. And then that can go

into some credit card.

Yeah, I feel like when you start a new

job, it takes ages to get the ball

rolling.

No, I asked Copilot. He said if I'm £800

in overdraft and I got 30% APR, it's like

90p per day. Get into

debt to pay off the old debts. Yeah, I

used my overdraft to pay off my credit

card. What happened with you and

Sunny? She had an argument with her mum,

and then she was expecting me to rush over

and pick her up, but I didn't offer,

and then she got mad because I didn't

offer to rush over and pick her up. And

then I kind of ignored her whilst I was

streaming because I just don't really want

to talk to her when she's mad because

it's almost impossible to reason with her.

So when she's mad, anything you say to

her just makes her mad more.

And there's like no logical way to talk to

her. You can't get through to her. She's

like completely emotional.

So I thought I'll just put my phone down,

flip it over, and then continue with my

stream. And that made her more mad.

It really is kind of intrusive when you

do streaming as a job, because if it was

any other job, I could have just said,

oh, I'm at work, I can't, sorry. But then

because I'm streaming, she can watch

the stream and see what I'm doing. And

then when you look at my stream, it just

looks like I'm doing nothing, basically,

because that's— I mean, I don't really do

anything when I stream, do I? I just talk.

Technically, I could end it. I'm not— no

one's forcing me to stream. I don't have a

boss saying, you must stream now.

But if I had any other job, I could just

say, so I'm at work. I can't just leave my

job to come pick you up. And then

anyone would understand that, wouldn't

they? But because I'm streaming, she's

like, oh, he's just lying on the floor

burping. He'd rather do that than pick

up his girlfriend. It's just I have very

disciplined work ethic.

It's a bit annoying, to be honest, not

having— I kind of like it when I got a

girlfriend who doesn't know about my

YouTube channel. It's just much easier.

Every time the girlfriend finds out or

knows about the YouTube channel, it just

makes everything so much more difficult.

I have very good work ethic. I stream

every day, no breaks.

I'm dedicated to my craft.

Where's my laundry? I don't know, maybe

she chucked it in a ditch. I had such an

exciting day today. I took my rubbish to

the dump and then I went to work.

And the boss said something, but I kind of

forgot what he said.

What did he say? He basically

said the same thing last time, that he'll

try and get me double shifts starting next

week. And, um,

I'm pretty sure he just said the same

thing again.

And then I took my parcel to the post

office and I came home and I watched

YouTube. I had sausage roll that had no

sausage in it, just cheese.

Such a great day.

I feel like my life now is more boring

than it was when I was in Japan, but at

least it's quiet. No American guy,

and it's more comfortable.

It definitely is depressing. At least when

I was in Japan, I was meeting people,

like going over Blood Bucket's house.

I don't know if I would say it was more

fun. I guess it was more varied.

And then I'll just walk from one end of

Osaka to the other for 10 hours. I felt

pretty bored doing that, to be honest.

You were very stiff around Blood Bucket.

When have I never not been stiff around

anyone? Apart from when I was with

Chihiro, and then I just kind of acted

like a man-child around her, and I teased

her.

Like when I called Chihiro Mama, and she

was like, Mama, ja nee!

I think we had funny banter.

I thought you'd relax with her more. I was

relaxed. Just because I'm not talking

doesn't mean I'm not relaxed. Actually, a

sign that I'm relaxed is that I would not

talk much.

I just don't really know what to say, to

I'm running out of things to say now,

actually. Doing these streams every day

with nothing happening. I don't really

know what to talk about apart from money

and then Thailand and Japan and my car.

You're not enthused unless you want to be

in her.

Would you say I was enthused around Mila?

Because I watched some videos with Mila

and I looked really bored as well. Like,

my responses were very monotone and dull,

and I looked like I was annoyed all the

time at her. I think that's just what I'm

like,

unfortunately. I kind

of have old man energy.

Which do I prefer, Thailand or Japan?

I actually prefer Thailand. It's got way

nicer atmosphere, way nicer people. I

actually think the weather in Thailand is

nicer because it's just warm. Okay, you

could say it's hot, but in Japan it's just

windy all the time and raining. And then

when it's bright, you get horrible

sunburn. I never got sunburn in Thailand.

And actually going out 5 PM, 6 PM in

Thailand when it was dark and it was a bit

cooler, but it was nice and warm and

comfortable. You never get cold in

Thailand. It was actually quite nice.

Public transport was really good as well

because you can just get a taxi really

easily and cheaply. I would

never get a taxi in Japan because it was

like you drive 10 minutes, costs thousands

Quite like the Skytrain system as well.

It's very nice.

Weird you didn't get suborned in Thailand.

What? What does that mean? Oh,

sunburned. Yeah, I think it's because in

Thailand the sun is lower,

less intense. In Japan, they got very

intense sunlight. You get sunburned so

easily. I had a massive red patch all over

my nose and cheeks.

I thought you meant like burned or

something. Oh, I thought you meant like I

was born in Thailand. Yeah,

maybe if my dad got with a Thai woman. He

Well, if the sun is very high and directly

above you, you're more prone to getting

sunburned. Yeah, maybe it's all the

pollution in Bangkok.

I saw Ice's stream today. He's in Okinawa.

He said Japanese people in Okinawa are

much friendlier and relaxed than mainland

Japan. It's got kind of like Thailand

vibes. Maybe I should try Okinawa.

Maybe it's like a combination of Thailand

and Japan. I've always kind of scoffed at

it thinking it's not real Japan.

Yeah, I never put sun cream on when I went

outside in Thailand and I never got

sunburnt. In Japan, you had to put sun

cream on.

Isn't Okinawa closer to Taiwan than it is

to Japan?

I thought they had like a special race of

people on it that were kind of different

to the Japanese, the Okinawan. They had

their own culture and language, didn't

they? And then they got annexed,

same as Hokkaido. They had the Ainu and

then they got annexed.

I don't know why anyone would want to live

in Hokkaido. It looks so cold when you

could literally just move down into Tokyo

or Osaka.

I took faster to this Okinawan restaurant.

In Tokyo. I don't know why. I think we

were just desperately looking around for a

restaurant and we walked round and round

this shopping area and the best

one looked like this Okinawan place

because it had a nice view and she didn't

like any of the food. I got— I can't

remember, like deep fried

pork.

And something else and like a side dish of

vegetables. And she tried a bit and she

didn't like any of it. And I was just

sitting there eating my own with my beer.

Sometimes it was so boring going out to

eat with Vasta because she would never

want to eat the food I'm eating. And then

I would never want to eat the food she's

eating. She would take me to these

waterside restaurants where they've got

like decking on the river and they always

sell horrible seafood. Shrimp, crab,

I would just sit there sulking, not eating

anything.

And then I'd be like, hold up,

McDonald's, drop me off, give me a

Big Mac. It was really sad how we just— we

couldn't enjoy food together. We always

had separate dishes, different dishes,

apart from ramen. If we go to ramen or

yakiniku, we'd eat the same thing. But

then she'd get like the massive prawn and

it looked disgusting. It's like massive

crawfish or something, crayfish, and it's

all blue and then it turns orange when you

cook it. Why is it blue? And it's got

little skinny arms like that on the front,

and then you crack it, crack the head off.

It's disgusting. I don't know how they eat

that stuff. I don't care how good it

tastes if it looks like a massive

cockroach with little spindly

legs.

Copper blood. Yeah, I remember reading

that now. They got funny blood. Blue

blood. Yeah, imagine we had copper blood

too. We'd look blue. Blue people.

Maybe they can genetically engineer—

combine the genetics of a shrimp with a

human. Shrimp man.

He's got blue blood and he has a shell.

Yeah, I remember I got a Big Mac in

McDonald's and I was— I got my food and

then I thought we were gonna sit together

and she just walks off to go get her Thai

food and I'm just sitting in McDonald's

alone eating my Big Mac and then she's

like walked off to some market thing.

It was so annoying. I'm like, what the

fuck? What even is the point of this?

And then I finished my Big Mac and I'm

trying to find her and she's got like a

bag of slop in a plastic bag.

Literally just like brown water with bits

floating in it in a plastic bag. God, I

hate the food in Thailand. It's so shit.

The food markets stink as well. Make me

gag. She always loved going to food

markets, and I would just gag at the

disgusting fish, like fish guts on a tray.

Oh, the smell was horrid. The smell of

like grilled squid was

overwhelming, and there were so many

people, and it was hot, and the traffic

noise was insane. I just wanted to die.

I was so bored. I never want to buy

anything at these markets. And then she

would look at everything very slowly.

I'm just thinking, why do they live like

this? This is so shit.

Freaking food market on the side of a

massive road.

I hate street food. My sister said when

she saw the street food, she saw like a

mountain of bugs and then she

nearly wanted to puke.

I swear I got a whiff of the mountain of

bugs grilling and it nearly made me puke

as well. Oh, have you seen— oh

my God, the jumping squid salad? Oh, it's

disgusting. It's like salad. They put live

shrimp on it and then they put in a load

of chili sauce and then they put a lid on

the container and they like shake it up

and you're supposed to eat it with the

shrimp jumping around. It's disgusting.

Ugh.

You know, you can just get a Big Mac. You

don't have to eat this. Weird stuff.

I think Thailand, they don't know what

they're doing with food.

Worst food I've ever seen, probably out of

all the places I've been. Maybe Vietnam is

Now I remember we, we went to the uncle's

funeral. We picked up the uncle's son.

He was like this very shy, skinny young

guy. I don't know if he's a teenager or

something. And then we stopped at Burger

King and I got a big Whopper and chips and

everything, and both of them just sat

there. Not eating anything, maybe pinching

a few chips. And I'm like, what the hell,

you don't want a Big Whopper?

Rather have a bag of bugs in brown liquid,

I guess.

I love me a Burger King. The only problem

is they put the raw onion in, it makes

your breath stink afterwards.

I remember one time we went to see one of

her— don't know if cousins or something—

married couple with a kid. And then for

some reason the kid came into our car,

like very young, a toddler, and he was

like standing on my lap,

and I was just sitting in the passenger

seat of her car with this toddler on me,

and I was like,

what is this?

And then she left and went to the toilet

when we were at the cafe, and I was just

left there with her cousins, and I was

just sitting there not saying anything.

It was so awkward.

I really hated it when I had to meet her

family or friends. It was so awkward.

None of them spoke English. The only one

that spoke English was her sister. So

every time we went to go see her family or

friends, I would just be standing there

Trying not to look at my phone.

I just feel like this is so pointless.

Couldn't I just stay at home?

Yeah, maybe I tried a couple Thai words

that I learned from my school.

I remember this one time we had this

argument. We went to a waterfall in Kang

Peng Phet. And then, you know how when you

go to sites of beauty in Thailand, you got

to pay for a ticket and then the foreigner

always has to pay 10 times more for the

ticket? She would usually try and lie to

them and tell them, I'm Thai, to get the

cheaper ticket. But this time the security

guard stopped us and then he looked at me

and spoke Thai and I was like, hello.

And then we got busted and he was like,

turn around, go back, get the ticket, get

the gaijin ticket. And then she was mad at

me because I didn't make an effort to say

sawadee krap.

And I was like, there's no way I could say

sawadee krap in a native way to convince

him I'm Thai. And then I was like,

look, I'm not Thai, I can't speak Thai,

okay? Who cares? It's like $1.

200 baht, it's like not even a dollar.

And then we just gave each other silent

treatment the whole time at the waterfall.

It was so depressing. She just walked off

ahead of me, so I was like, ah, fuck's

sake, not again. So I just let her be.

And I followed behind her slowly. And then

we just stayed at the waterfall for like

half an hour and then walked back to the

car. And then we had a 5-hour drive back

to the condo in complete silence. And then

we got back to the condo and she stormed

off to the bed and started crying. I was

like, oh, for fuck's sake.

It was so shit.

On the way home, we stopped at this

restaurant and they only served Thai food,

and I just got— I was already hungry and

mad, so I just got even more mad and

started sulking. And then we just

drove home in complete silence.

So horrible, that relationship.

It's so annoying being in a relationship.

So it's not my fault I don't speak fluent

Thai. Stop trying to lie to them that I'm

Thai then. Okay, maybe I look a little bit

Thai, but it

was annoying.

I remember on the plane back from Vietnam,

we were waiting for the plane to start

boarding. We're at the gate and we're just

sitting there, and then I don't know why,

why, but for some reason she started

going, oh my God, you don't

love me? You don't care about me?

Oh my God. And then I was like, oh my God,

not again. Not in the airport.

I just ignored her and I stared at the

ground. It was so

I was like, no, I care about you.

No. Yeah, I love you.

She just kept going, oh my God, you don't

care about me. And I was like, no,

can we just get on the plane without

having a fight? That would be nice.

Why are women so difficult?

Why do they never think you care about

them? So they always seem to assume you

don't care about them for

some weird reason. It's like being

cared for. They want to be cared for so

badly that they get insecure about whether

you care about them or not. And then if

you give them any sign that you don't care

about them, they're like, oh my God, he

doesn't care about me. My whole world's

falling apart. Oh my God.

Why is it so important that someone cares

about you?

I bought you food and I paid for the plane

ticket. Isn't that enough?

Because when I'm in a relationship, I

don't need the girl to keep doing little

signs of affection to prove that they care

about me. I don't really care if they care

or don't care about me. Just as long as

they don't sleep with other men and they

come home at night and they don't nag at

me, that's good enough.

What is care? I don't— I'm not a freaking

disabled old woman. I don't need someone

to care for me. Like I'm a

sick patient. Maybe if I get sick, like,

it'll be nice if you got me some medicine

and put some soup on the stove.

Why is it always the same problem about

caring?

Every single time I get accused of

not caring.

Fucking annoying.

One time we were at the airport and then

this family was sitting in front of us,

sounded German, and they get up and then

the dad drops his wallet and they don't

notice they've dropped the wallet. And I'm

watching, I'm like, huh, he dropped his

wallet. And then Faster was like, quick,

tell them they dropped the wallet. And I

was like, uh, no, don't want to. And then

Pharsa was not happy, so she got up and

was like, excuse me, excuse me, dropped

your wallet. It's not my fucking problem.

They should be paying more attention. Why

is it my fault that he just drops his

stupid wallet? I don't care. I'm not

going out my way chasing them down. My

wallet now.

Women like to see that you are kind, and

they want to see you do acts of kindness

towards other people because then they can

say, oh, he's so kind. No,

bitch, it's my wallet. Don't give it back

If this happened to you, complain until

you're 80. Yeah, well, I wouldn't be

stupid enough to drop my wallet. I always

know where my wallet is.

That's over there. See?

Yeah, their ancestors bombed my ancestors.

I'm not gonna give his wallet back. His

great-grandfather probably works for

Hitler. He's the enemy.

He's the spawn of the enemy.

I have so many micro stories that I'm now

remembering.

I get triggered now when I get accused of

not caring.

Do you remember when Chihiro dropped her

phone onto the train tracks and I just

slowly backed away? That was funny.

I can't believe Chihiro didn't get more

Chihiro was very tolerant, wasn't she?

Any other girl, they would have been so

mad. If that was Sunny, I think she would

have dumped me again.

It was just embarrassing because she

dropped her phone and it bounced off the

platform onto the tracks. Everyone looked

at us and they were like, oh, and I went,

she's not with me.

What am I supposed to do?

I'm not jumping down onto the tracks.

Yeah, Homer Simpson in the bushes, that

Yeah, a staff train staff guy came running

with this pole to pick it up. So it's

not a problem, is it? I'm not supposed to

do anything. I'm just supposed to pretend

that I am worried or something.

大丈夫。 It's

her fault she dropped her phone, isn't it?

Maybe you shouldn't get such a

ridiculously big phone. All these women,

tiny women with tiny hands, and they all

got, I don't know, the iPhone Pro Max,

which is massive in their hand. Let's just

get a little iPhone Mini like me.

Look, can you do this with your iPhone Pro

Giga Max whatever Ultra? But you can't do

this. But you can't do this.

That's why the iPhone Mini is superior.

I got this for my new iPhone— I mean, my

iPhone Mini. 5,000 milliamp MagSafe

battery. Can't do this with the iPhone

16e, can you?

It is funny that my iPhone 12 mini has

more features than the iPhone 16e. It's

got wide angle, it's got MagSafe,

although the wireless charging is only 7.5

watts, which is pretty slow. I think the

new iPhone 16s can do 15W wireless

charging, um,

but slower charging is better for the

battery, innit? Yeah,

I returned the big brick phone today, a

waste of money,

and I cancelled my iPhone 16e order.

Because, well, the extra battery life in

it would have been nice. For everything

else, maybe the A18 chip would have been a

lot quicker than my one. I got the A14

chip.

All he cares is the skin filter. There's

no skin filter, it's just I'm using a

1-megapixel camera right now. I gotta get

real close.

See, happy now? They're not blackheads

because they're not black, they're brown.

Blackheads are black, these are brown.

They're just freckles. Shut up.

Don't ew my skin.

I'd love to see what your skin looks like.

Blocked pores. Yeah, maybe I have very

open pores and they get clogged and I

don't really wash my face apart from this

in the shower for 2 seconds. I have tried

those blackhead strips. They don't do

anything. Nothing comes out. And when I

squeeze my nose Little white things come

out, like little squiggly white things.

So nothing black comes out. White stuff

comes out. I don't care about the white

Yeah, it's just dead skin.

It's not that bad, is it?

Like these,

it's just like a little brown thing.

For example, look, I've got

one on my finger. It's like a little mole.

See, look, it's basically that.

It's like a mole, but not like a big

black lumpy mole.

Everyone's got them. It's just I've got a

lot on my face for some reason.

No one said anything about my skin in real

life. It's just on the internet.

It doesn't look that bad in real life

because with natural lighting and then the

color of my skin, it's just my skin color

looks more pale on camera and then it

makes the, the blemishes darker looking.

But in real life, there's less of a

contrast, so they— it kind of blends into

my face.

I got bullied a lot at school, but I never

got bullied about my face freckles. It was

always either my long fingers or my skinny

wrists or my big feet with long

toes.

I never got bullied about my skin face.

I'm getting hungry. Start making that

ribeye.

I've only got pork belly and ribeye left.

God, yesterday's salmon was horrible. I

really got to make sure today's dinner

goes well. Taking too many L's in the

Hmm,

I had to pay my first council tax payment.

I am now financially contributing to the

council— the councils of Devon.

It was only £100. I thought it was going

to be like £150. I got the, um, being

single discount of 25%. So yeah,

only £100 for the council tax.

And then next

one, I want to see how expensive the

electricity is. It'll be better after

winter.

So many turn off the stream when cooking.

I don't know, it went up to 140 yesterday

when I started cooking. I have to eat.

I'm not going to turn off the stream

because I got to go have dinner and then

turn it on again.

So here's my plan. I heat up the pan very,

very hot, and then I put vegetable oil

because we want to get a good sear. And I

think— what is it, 2 minutes on each side?

Yeah, the bed building stream was pretty

good, wasn't it? I got so many donos.

Yeah, I've got butter and I've got

broccoli. I might use the asparagus.

I kind of want to get chips, put it in the

air fryer. I'm getting sick of rice now.

Sick of pasta, sick of rice. Now we need

The meeting between Zelensky and Trump.

What happened? Am I not sad about

losing Sunny? I mean, it would be nice if

we didn't have that stupid fight and she

was coming over tonight and then we could

hang out. And now I gotta sit here

streaming Uh,

Zelensky and Trump meeting is

the first thing that pops up. Why does

Zelensky look so small?

He broke this ceasefire. He killed our

people, and he didn't exchange prisoners.

We signed the exchange. Trump looks so

bored. What kind of diplomacy,

JD, you are speaking about? What what do

you what do you mean? I'm talking about

the kind of diplomacy that's going to end

the destruction of your country. Mr.

President, Mr. President, with respect, I

think it's disrespectful for you to come.

Come to the Oval Office and try to

litigate this in front of the American

media. Right now, you guys are going

around and forcing conscripts to the front

lines because you have manpower problems.

You should be thanking the president for

trying to bring it into this conflict.

It's kind of awkward, isn't it?

Trump. I've actually, I've actually

watched and seen the story. He looks like

he's folding his sleeve. Bring people,

you bring them on a propaganda tour. Mr.

President, do you disagree that you've had

problems bringing people into your

military? And do you think that it's

respectful to come to the Oval Office of

the United States of America and attack

the administration that is trying to

prevent the destruction of your country?

A lot of questions. Let's start from the

beginning. First of all, during the war—

the chair looks massive even compared to

Zelensky. And don't feel now, but you will

feel it in the future. God bless. You

don't know that. God bless. God bless.

You don't know how it works. Don't tell us

what we're going to feel. We're trying to

solve a problem. Don't tell us what we're

going to feel. I'm not telling you because

you're in no position to dictate that.

Remember this, you're in no position to

dictate what we're going to feel. We're

going to feel very good. We're going to

feel very good and very strong. You will

feel influence. You're right now not in a

very good position. You've allowed

yourself to be in a very bad position.

Why are they turning him off? From the

very beginning of the war, you're not in a

good position. You don't have the cards

right now. With us, you start having

cards. Right now, you don't have your

playing cards. You're gambling with the

lives of millions of people. You're

gambling with World War III. You're

gambling with World War III. And what

you're doing is very disrespectful to the

country, this country that's backed you

far more than a lot of people said they

should have. Have you said thank you once?

Sounds like Sonny.

Did you say thank you, Daniel? Where's the

thank you, for fuck's sake? Aren't you

gonna say thank you? Went to Pennsylvania

and campaigned for the opposition. In

October, offer some words of appreciation

for the United States of America and the

president who's trying to save your

country. Please, you think that?

I'd be so pissed if I was Zelensky. I'd be

like, "Oh, fuck you then! Don't need your

stupid money." Very loudly about the war.

He's not speaking loudly. He's not

speaking loudly. Your country's in big

trouble. Wait a minute. No, no. You've

done a lot of talking. Your country is in

big trouble. I know. You're not winning.

You're not winning this. You have a damn

good chance of coming out okay because of

us. Mr. President, we are staying in our

country, staying strong. From the very

beginning of the war, we've been alone and

we are thankful. What are you saying?

She's asking what if Russia breaks the

ceasefire? What if they— what if anything?

What if a bomb drops on your head right

now? Okay. What have they broken? I don't

know. They broke it with Biden because

Biden, they didn't respect him. They

didn't respect Obama. They respect me.

Let me tell you, Putin went through a hell

of a lot with me. He went through a phony

witch hunt where they used him and— hmm,

awkward.

Then I kind of got bored of the whole

Ukraine thing. It's been 3 years. Can't

they just hurry up and deal with it?

Yeah, I've seen the, uh, Coach Red Pill

Gonzalo video. He didn't

like Zelensky much either. That's why they

were saying he was pro-Putin.

Oh, I miss that guy. He was funny. I used

to watch him a lot back in 2018.

Loved his cinematic, weird sex

story videos.

About how he used to bang supermodels and

he had the Hollywood movie contracts or

something. Copy his camera stuff? Oh, I

could not be bothered. He would have like

5 DSLRs set up. How did he even do it?

Hit record on all of them at the same

time, sit down, record the video.

And then take all the SD cards out, and

then you've got, I don't know, hours of

footage from 6 cameras to edit into a

video. It must be so annoying.

I would not be bothered.

I would just have one camera and then move

it around, but he would have different

cameras in one location.

It was funny how he just— he filmed

himself as if he was on TV with the

different camera angles when he was just

sitting in his room.

I lost a lot of viewers playing that Trump

stuff. Okay, let's make food.

Cooking with Daniel.

Take the

most convenient path, and convenience is

the most— is the new loyalty. And I think

if you look— and that is why I don't do

reaction content.

Okay, change mics.

A mic change. I want to— I'm

going to do— I want to do rare. I kind of

miss the taste of rare. I don't want to

overcook it. I want that metallic

taste, but not too rare.

Stupid ads. Okay.

Oh no, is it lagging? I think it's fine.

Got my Uber Eats bag. I don't know if I'm

going to do Uber Eats tomorrow. I might

just get lazy and make a video, but I

really don't know what video to make.

Is it lagging?

What does it do though?

How about now?

How about now?

Oh well, better get the rice cooking.

I don't

know why

it lags like that.

Oh yeah, I haven't really noticed, but my

skin rash has basically cleared up

completely. It's just the scars left.

I didn't even notice.

Okay, this time 1.5

cups.

There's no way that's not enough water

now. Gonna drown this thing.

Use the measuring on the side. I can't

even bother.

What's the background noise? Oh, there's,

there's a river next to the house,

so you always have this sound of the river

flowing, which is kind

of nice if you like white noise. Look at

my ribeye.

30 days matured.

I don't know what that means. And I've got

broccoli.

Maybe I'll use all the broccoli. I don't

know. I think I'll just pan fry

No, we don't cook it yet because you gotta

wait for the rice. The rice could take 20

minutes. Cooking the steak should only

take a couple minutes. Do it in a minute.

Yeah.

If I

start cooking it now, it'll go cold by the

time the rice is finished.

Devon arc is on thin ice.

Yeah, it didn't really pan out, did it?

I thought— I didn't think Sunny would

change so much. Sunny was great in Japan,

didn't whine, was happy to be on stream.

I miss that Sunny. Now she never

wants to stream. She won't even let me

film her. I gotta edit out any time she

appears in the shot. And now she

doesn't even want to meet me anymore.

In the beginning, I thought Sunny was

great, you know. We could stream together,

got loads of donos. How'd it go so

bad?

No, it's just boring me on my own again.

No women.

Why are they always happy to be on the

channel in the beginning and then they

change their mind? Same as Mila.

Mila loved being on the channel in the

beginning and then she was like, oh,

don't talk about me. Don't tell people

we're back together. Don't do this, don't

Did you see how Trump sent Zelensky out of

the White House? Yeah, he got told off