I just had my first Therapy Session

Hello and welcome back to my video. So if

you remember last week, I made a video

talking about how I was interested in

getting some therapy. Now personally,

I've always been kind of skeptical about

therapy. I never really imagined that it

would be very helpful. I thought it'd just

be a waste of time, a waste of money. But

recently I've kind of realized that the

way I think is usually wrong, and maybe I

should be trying things that I've been

against. And yesterday I had my first ever

therapy session, and I thought I'd make a

video talking about how it went, if I

liked it, if I'm gonna go again. Um,

yeah, I thought it went pretty well. I

didn't really have any problems with the

guy I was talking to. Dr. Glenys was very

professional and friendly. I felt very

comfortable talking to him and opening up

to him. To be honest, not much happened in

the first session. The first session was

mainly just getting to know me So he asked

me a lot of questions about my background

and stuff like what I hope to achieve with

therapy. And actually, it was kind of nice

to be able to talk about my problems

without being judged. I guess that's what

a therapist is for, to listen to what you

have to say and to listen to your problems

and to offer you solutions without being a

judgmental dick. Because that's what

you're supposed to do, you know, when

someone opens up to you and talks about

their problems, it's nice if you just

listen or try and provide some kind of

advice or solutions without being rude or

mean to them, which seems to be something

people in the YouTube comment section

don't understand. I think the phrase, if

you don't have anything nice to say, then

don't say anything at all, has kind of

been lost in this day and age. But I guess

when you have total anonymity, then all

human decency flies out the window,

doesn't it? Maybe you'll find this hard to

believe, but I actually started doing

YouTube because I guess it, it was kind

of like a self-therapy session for myself.

I didn't really have any close friends to

talk to. I didn't really feel that close

to my family, so I didn't really have

anyone that I could talk to about personal

experiences and my opinions on things.

And making videos and just sharing myself

and my life on the internet felt great,

and it was a lot of fun in the beginning.

These days I find it difficult to enjoy

sharing my thoughts and opinions on my

channel because there's just so much

negativity in the comments section. It

feels like people just hate me for no good

reason, and it doesn't matter what I say,

or even if I'm right, they'll just be

against me and they'll try their best to

disagree with everything I say or try and

twist what I say, or they don't even care

what I'm talking about. They just want to

take a big dump on me because for some

reason they dislike me. And to be honest,

I think these people need therapy more

than I do. I mean, what kind of people

spend all day long watching videos of

someone they don't even like, and they

don't even enjoy the videos he's making,

but they carry on watching for years just

so they can make fun of him and write mean

comments to try and upset him? In a

way, I guess you can call it kind of

sadistic behavior. If you derive enjoyment

and pleasure out of the suffering of

someone else. That's not normal.

So as you can imagine, I talk to Dr.

Glenys a lot about my YouTube career and

the negative comments I get. They really

affect my mental health in a bad way, and

maybe you'll be surprised to hear that

because I do give off this impression that

it doesn't bother me and I've got a very

thick skin and it's just like water

bouncing off of oil. But sometimes I have

bad days, and the hate comments do get to

me. They bring my mood down. They make me

feel upset and angry. I think a lot of

these people don't realize that when they

write these comments, the things they say

have an effect on the person who they're

directed at. Maybe they don't think I'm a

normal human being who has feelings and

emotions, but I do have feelings and

emotions, and And words do hurt my

feelings sometimes. Anyway, I think the

therapy sessions could be a good idea,

could help me find out more about myself

and my problems. And who knows, maybe even

sometime in the future I'll be able to

come up with solutions to fix these

problems. But for the time being, I'm

gonna make some pasta. Hello and welcome

back to my fridge. So we have some

Rice. But today I don't want rice, I want

some carbonara.

Creamy sanig with specks.

So I need my bacon and carbonara sauce.

What else do we need? Oh, mushrooms. So

I've already prepared the pasta to save

some time. I would never waste your

precious time. So I guess same as before,

we just need to prepare the mushrooms a

little bit. It's quite a lot of mushrooms

you get. Oh, why is there this weird

stringy thing in there? Looks like hair.

Prepare your mushrooms.

We need to Mushrooms

are weird-looking things, aren't they?

Are they vegetables? I guess they're kind

of like vegetables, aren't they? And then

we need some spring onions, which I put in

this— ow! Stupid candle.

Put my spring onions in this glass of

water, so maybe they'll grow and

I'll have infinite onions. Won't have to

buy anymore. So cut some onions

off.

Do you think it hurts the onion when I'm

cutting it? No, Daniel, don't cut me

in half.

I think

we need

smaller mushrooms.

Because it has to go into the pasta.

It's so painful using these left-handed

scissors, digging into my thumb.

So annoying.

I think that's small enough for the

mushrooms. Yep, yep,

yep. And then add some bacon.

Looking good.

This mushroom's a bit big.

Next, we're going to add the pasta,

um, to the frying pan and

turn off the Turn the heat down to

low heat and then get your carbonara sauce

and then pour it straight on like

that. Oh, I forgot my peas!

And then mix that around.

Mix it about. We might need more

carbonara sauce. Smells pretty good.

Yeah, I'm going to add a tiny bit more

sauce.

Oh look, there's enough for another

serving. Pretty good. It's kind of strange

to have sauce in a cardboard box.

You think of a cardboard box, you think of

cereal, not pasta sauce.

Wow, that actually looks quite good.

If I do say so myself. Hopefully it's

not too salty.

Okay, I think that's pretty well mixed.

Ta-da! Looks pretty good.

Mm-hmm. Wow, that's pretty good. I don't

want to sound like I'm boasting, but this

is really good. The bacon and the peas go

really well with the creaminess.

Hmm, I actually

made a good meal without messing it up.

It's a Christmas miracle.