It’s time to leave [BkqFIIIMoKQ]

I just checked out of the guest house. I

got my deposit money back, $200 or

¥20,000. I don't like the manager.

He just seems very unfriendly, very rude

the way he talks to me. Maybe he doesn't

like me, maybe he saw something that I

said about him on one of my videos, but he

seems very blunt and rude. When he speaks

to me. Maybe, maybe it's just my

imagination. He, um,

he checked my room to see if it was

cleaned properly. He asked me if I washed

my bedsheets. I said no, and then he made

me pay ¥500, which is about $5. It's just

stupid. Why do I have to wash the

bedsheets? Why doesn't— why don't they

wash the bedsheets themselves? Why do I

have to pay ¥500 So that they can wash the

bedsheets. Doesn't make any sense. I

should have just lied and said, yeah, I

did wash them. How would he even know if I

washed them or not? Is he gonna go and

smell it? See if it smells like me still?

See if it still has my cum stains on it?

I'm just so glad to be out of that place.

It was so depressing. I don't think I ever

want to go to a guest house ever again.

That's it. I'm giving up on guest houses.

It's just every time I go to a guest

house, it's worse than the last time. The

first and second time were just so much

fun for me. I have so many good memories

from the first and second time, but every

single time I go back to a guest house,

it's just a terrible experience. You know

that feeling when you play World of

Warcraft and you have, you have all your

friends on World of Warcraft and that's

what makes it fun, and then you get bored

of playing it, and then maybe you log back

into the game a few years later and all

your friends are gone. All the people you

used to play with aren't there anymore,

and the game's still there. You can still

play the game, but it's not the same, is

it? That's what I felt like the guest

house was. Coming back to the guest house,

everything looks the same. It's just how

it used to be 7 years ago, but the people

that made it such a great time back then

aren't there anymore. And now it just

feels like this hollow, empty shell of a

place where I had so many great memories.

Anyway, I just wanted to take one last

walk around this neighborhood where I made

so many videos. I'll revisit some of the

spots where I used to come to make my

videos just to say goodbye.

So this is the park I always used to walk

around here at midnight. Because there was

no one around most of the time.

This is the toilet that I urinated in so

many times. I even urinated in the ladies'

toilets, which felt pretty exciting.

I remember walking up and down this lane

talking about Tomoko, talking about my

Tinder adventures, worrying about my

girlfriend if she was still using Tinder

or not. Had some good times there,

good memories.

I think these were the apartments that I

snuck into during that livestream. It was

midnight and I was feeling kind of bored,

so during a livestream I decided to sneak

into these apartment blocks and I climbed

up the staircase, went up to the highest

floor, showed everyone the amazing views.

Does anyone remember that? Was anyone

there for that? It's pretty exciting.

And here's the river I used to come to. I

used to make videos sitting underneath

that bridge when it was raining. I even

did a few livestreams here, just walking

up and down. I just felt so depressed and

lonely at the guesthouse all the time,

not having any friends. No one to eat

with, no one to go out with. Returning to

my room by myself every night, sleeping

alone. It was, it was horrible. I hated

it. Right now I'm living with my

girlfriend and it's so much nicer to

be able to live with someone, to share,

share time with someone, to eat your meals

with someone. I don't like being alone.

A lot of people might think I'm

introverted. But I don't think I'm that

introverted. I don't like being alone. I

like spending time with people that I

like. Yeah, I'd rather be alone than

having to spend time with people I don't

like. That's pretty obvious.

But I don't want to be alone all the time.

I like having alone time and spending a

few hours by myself so I can do things

that I want to do, but that doesn't mean

that I want to spend the rest of my life

by myself. That would just be Depressing.

The manager was so unfriendly. He just

handed back my ¥20,000. I gave him the

key, and then he said, "Thanks. Take

care." He said, "ありがとう。気をつけてね." That was

it. And then I said, "Thanks," as well.

Then I said, "Bye." Then he said, "Bye."

It's not like I'm expecting him to do some

kind of song and dance to say goodbye to

me. But it was just like he didn't give a

shit. I said goodbye to a few people.

I said bye to the Italian guy. I saw Rina,

the Japanese girl. You might, you might

remember her, but she didn't even

say anything to me. She just said hello.

I bet she didn't even remember that I'm

leaving today.

And I said bye to the Taiwanese guy. He

kept saying that he was really jealous of

me. He said that he wished he had a

girlfriend he could live with. And I said

goodbye to the pilot guy. He said, hey,

how's it going? I said, I'm leaving today.

And then I said that I'm gonna go and move

in with my girlfriend. Then he said, good

luck, and then bye. That was it. I was

actually hoping that I wouldn't run into

anyone because I didn't want to talk to

anyone. I didn't want to say bye to anyone

because it just feels cheap. It feels like

they don't really care. They probably

don't. They'll just forget about me in a

few weeks' time anyway. It was just a

complete waste of time meeting them,

talking to them. Apart from the Canadian

guy, there was no one at the guesthouse

that I cared about. No significant people.

No people that made my, my stay enjoyable.

They were just really boring and

uninteresting, and I'll forget about them

as well pretty soon. But honestly

speaking, I do feel like I'm going to miss

living here because even though it was

depressing and lonely at times, there were

some positive things about living here.

I'm going to miss walking around this

neighborhood during the night. I really

like doing that. I'm going to miss the

complete freedom that I had. I'm going to

miss being able to just meet up with

random girls on Tinder without having to

worry about getting caught. I had to

cancel 2 Tinder dates this week because

there was just no way I could have met up

with those girls on Tinder without my

girlfriend starting to get suspicious.

Also, I'm going to miss the midnight

streams walking to the park, walking

around, going to McDonald's, messing

around in the supermarkets, in the

shopping malls, livestreaming. I don't

feel like I can do that anymore, and I

don't really feel like I want to do it

anymore. I prefer livestreaming inside

now. I'll miss hanging out with the

Canadian guy. I really enjoyed spending

time with him. I liked going shopping with

him. I liked going out eating with him.

I liked streaming with him. It was fun. I

haven't heard from him in weeks. I don't

know what he's doing. He's always busy.

Busy with school, busy studying, busy

hanging out with his classmates.

I really don't think I'm going to see him

again. It was

just so disappointing. Apart from the

Canadian guy, there were no interesting

experiences at the guesthouse this time.

I didn't make any girlfriends. I didn't

have sex with any of the girls at the

guesthouse. I didn't meet any interesting

people, didn't go anywhere interesting

with anyone from the guesthouse.

It was just such a huge disappointment,

and I'm 100% sure that if I come to Japan

again and I'm single, I'll just stay in an

Airbnb.

I'd rather just live by myself than live

in this gigantic house surrounded by loads

of people that I don't care about or that

they don't care about me. I think it's

just time to put everything behind me.

The guest house, the memories. I need to

move on. I need to stop coming back to

these stupid guest houses and expecting

that it's going to be fun like it used to

be because it never is. I'm a different

person to what I used to be 7 years ago.

I'm not the same person. My personality

changed. It got worse, you could say.

And it's just— I

don't feel like I want to live in guest

houses anymore. There was this time in my

life when I was 20, 21, or 22, and I

just wanted to live in the guest house for

the rest of my life because it was so much

fun. I didn't want to leave. I didn't want

to live by myself. I honestly felt

like I wanted to live in the guest house

forever, and I was really jealous of

Japanese people who could live in the

guest house for the rest of their lives.

But now I don't, I don't feel like that

anymore. I want to live my— I want to live

with my girlfriend, or I want to live by

myself. It gets so tiring having to live

with loads of people. It's like you don't

have any privacy.

I have a few more weeks left in Japan

until I have to leave, so I think I'm just

gonna spend the rest of the time with my

girlfriend, staying at her place,

enjoying her company. And I

need to think about which country I'm

going to next. Thinking about going to

South Korea for a few weeks and then

coming back to Japan, and then Living

with her again.

So yeah, this is my last time in this part

of Japan ever. I'm never coming back to

this area, to this guest house. If you

want to know what guest house it was, it

was JF Plaza Osaka.

If you're interested in coming to Osaka,

I think it's a, it's a nice place to stay.

The rooms are nice, they're clean,

they're not too small. You can make

friends at the guesthouse if you have the

right, the right attitude, which I don't.

And maybe you'd be interested in living in

the same guesthouse that I used to live

in, where some of my stories originated

from. But for me, I'm never coming back

here again. I don't have any reason or

desire to live in the guesthouse again.

So yeah, I'm gonna go back to my

girlfriend's place now, get something to

eat, Do some livestreaming, do some

cleaning, and I'll see you later.