Law of Attraction is REAL

Hello! So I'm a little bit stressed out

today because, well, it's kind of good

news but also not great news. It's good

news because I'm going to get paid quite a

lot of money for this little task. The bad

news is it's taking a lot of time to

complete the task. So what is this task,

you might be wondering? Well, you won't

believe it, but I actually got contacted

by another company and they want me to do

a sponsored video. I won't tell you which

company it is because I don't want to get

in trouble or, you know, jeopardize

anything. Let's just say it starts

with an L and ends in an E, and they

want me to make a 10-minute-long video

about the website. So I've got to find

out how the website works, find out what

kind of service it is, and then explain to

my audience, my lovely loyal, devoted

audience who don't even watch my bloody

videos anymore. I have to explain to them

about what this website does, and I have

to do the whole registration process, the

tutorial process. And I'm really

struggling actually to get to 10 minutes.

I'm currently at about 7 minutes 20

seconds, and I have no idea what else to

say. Uh, it's really tricky. I'm trying to

stretch it out as much as I can. I'm

speaking really slowly. I'm kind of

repeating myself here and there. And still

I've only managed to get to 7 bloody

minutes. I don't know how I'm going to get

to 10 minutes. I have to really think of a

way. Maybe I'll just end the video with

like a conclusion, my thoughts on the

website and talk about how good it is,

how great it is, even though I've never

used it. So I was thinking about the law

of attraction. Let me try and explain why

I was thinking about it. So if you don't

know what the law of attraction is,

basically it's this concept that if you

let go of wanting something, then it will

just come to you naturally. Kind of like

if you lose your keys and you're

desperately trying to find your keys, but

you just can't find them and then you kind

of give up. And then a few hours later,

when you're not even trying to look for

them, they just turn up magically.

That's— I guess that is in a nutshell,

the law of attraction. Well, I think it

kind of happened again. With this whole

sponsorship thing. So I have to backtrack

a bit here. I'm going to assume most of

you know what happened with Nordgreen and

how I got into trouble with Nordgreen.

Basically, it was a watch company. They

wanted me to do a sponsored video and I

didn't make what they wanted me to make

and I just uploaded it anyway onto my

channel without asking for their approval

and The person who was dealing with me

wasn't very professional and they

threatened me with legal action. And I was

thinking, what should I do with this?

Should I just keep quiet, do what they

say, take down the videos, or should I

just make a massive ranting video,

clickbait title, get loads of views, make

some extra ad revenue off of the whole

situation? So I went for the second

option. I made a massive rant video,

which was pretty fun to make actually. It

had had a good old time having a little

rant. And you'll never guess what

happened. I'm not sure if I'm supposed—

allowed to say, but I ended up

taking down all of the Nordgreen videos

because they gave me, let's just say,

hundreds of very good reasons to take it

down. I won't say any more than that. And

I was thinking to myself when I was trying

to decide if I wanted to make the rant

video or not, I was thinking, if I make

this rant video, It's going to make my

channel look really unappealing to

potential future sponsored videos. I'm

probably never going to get a sponsored

video ever again because of this. If other

sponsors, if other companies see what

happened with me and Nordgreen, they're

going to think, no way are we going to

sponsor this guy. Look what happened with

him and Nordgreen. So I thought

to myself, well, it's been 2 years since I

last had a sponsor. It's not as if I'm

getting a lot of sponsor offers anyway,

and it's not as if I'm relying on

sponsorship deals because I barely get

them anyway. I think the last one I got

before Nordgreen was years ago. Maybe it

was HiNative, some kind of language

learning application. Since then, I didn't

really get any other offers. I'm not sure

why. Maybe my channel's bad reputation has

something to do with that. I don't know if

these companies actually check out the

channels that they offer sponsorships to.

I don't think they do.

Anyway, let me try and— what was I saying?

Um, give me a second. See, this is what

happens when you try and make a video

without any editing.

Completely lost my focus. Oh yeah,

I was saying that I gave up on the idea

of ever getting a sponsorship again

anyway. So I decided to upload the rant

video. And then just as I gave up, I let

go of the idea of ever getting another

sponsorship. Guess what kind of email I

get about a week later? Another

sponsorship offer. Can you believe that?

And it actually turns out it worked out

pretty well that I had to take down the

Nordgreen videos because I don't really

want that video to be up on my channel

because it is true what people were

saying. They were saying if you had that

video up on your channel, other sponsors

might see it and they won't want to

sponsor you. So I guess it was a good

thing that I had to take it down. So I

think it all worked out pretty smoothly in

the end and I still got another

sponsorship and this one is so much

better. Well, the pay is so much better,

but the task is much more difficult

because I have to make a 10-minute-long

video talking about something I don't

really care about. Really know much about,

and I'm just kind of blabbing my way

through it. What I'm trying to say is

maybe this law of attraction thing is

real. I'm starting to notice this little

trend when I let go of really wanting

something and then it just kind of

magically reappears in my life. It's kind

of like Rainbow Six as well. Whenever I

tried really hard to win a match, for

example, someone on the other side, on the

other team, really pissed me off and I

want to get back at them and beat them,

and I try really hard to win the game.

Usually I don't win, even though I'm

trying really hard and I'm playing

properly and I'm using the gadgets and I'm

using my drone and I'm sneaking around,

peeking around corners, playing the game

how you're supposed to play it. And I

still lose most of the time. But when I

play the game without caring about the

outcome, when I just rush into the enemy

base, into the enemy room, don't even

bother using my gadgets, don't even bother

sneaking or peeking or crouching or

proning, I just sprint into the room and

you won't even believe how many times I

aced the enemy team or I got a triple

knife kill or a quadruple knife kill.

Sometimes one time I even aced the enemy

team using only my knife. Didn't even use

my guns, didn't fire a single shot. And I

think that is kind of like law of

attraction when you stop caring and you

just do things for the hell of it. Um,

sometimes you win and then sometimes you

get a new sponsorship deal in the email.

It's such a lifesaver though, these bloody

sponsorships. You won't believe how much

money I'm going to get for this new one

just for making a 10-minute video. It's

like 6 times the amount I usually make

from one video. Anyway, it's really good

news. Uh, I don't really know what else to

say apart from, well, I'm in a new Airbnb

that I would love to show to you. It's

amazing. It's got a really great

view. I'm like on the 20th floor in this

massive city. Oh, I can't even tell you

which city it's in, but I'm by a river and

I can see the entire city. I've got this

huge living room, huge kitchen. I've got a

massive bedroom, big sofa. The TV is not

very big. It looks like it's about

No, maybe— no, 40 inches. But this kind of

living room really needs a 60-inch massive

screen. Don't know why the guy didn't get

a proper TV. I met the guy who was here to

hand over the keys. He seemed a bit

awkward, a bit weird, and he was telling

me about Bitcoin and he started telling me

about how much he loves technology and he

has 6 MacBooks or something. I don't know

why he just told me that randomly, but he

doesn't have a good TV, so that's kind of

strange. Bad news is this place is so

expensive. It is nearly— well,

actually it's over $3,000 for the whole

month. I booked the whole month because

I'm gonna be here for a bit. So expensive,

Europe, isn't it, compared to Japan and

Asia? It's funny, people always say

Japan's so expensive. Really, it's not. I

could find a place like this in Osaka or

Tokyo for about half the price. I don't

know why Europe is so expensive. Anyway,

I like the city and I wanted to stay

longer, so I decided it was worth

splashing out because, you know, I was, I

was at home at my mum's place since March

until July. That's about how many months?

4 months I was at home saving all my

money. And not even spending a penny on

rent or food. Thanks, Mum. Didn't have to

spend any money. So I spent— I saved up

for 4 months straight, plus I got some

help from the you-know-who because of the

you-know-what, and also get more help

later, I think. So I have managed to

save up a sickening amount of money thanks

to my zero expenditure lifestyle,

I thought, well, I might as well splash

out a little bit, get a nice place,

reward myself, pat myself on the back,

because I did have to endure a lot of

shitholes like that cheap Korean Airbnb

and those rubbish tiny hotels. Plus,

pretty much all of my early 20s I spent in

these trashy guesthouses in Japan. I'm 31

now. I think I deserve to be able to spend

some quality time in a nice place. I've

saved up the money and I'm only here for a

month. I don't know if I'll be here for

longer than a month. I'm going to go back

to my mum's place eventually and then I'll

be, you know, back to saving money.

And I don't think it really will make a

difference. So I thought, you know, it's

worth spending the amount of money that

I'm spending. I'm thinking about doing a

livestream in here because the internet's

really good as well. But I'm not sure.

I'm just kind of worried that I might show

something in the Airbnb that will give it

away. There's one bedroom that I could do

it in because he hasn't taken a photo of

it on Airbnb. Maybe I could do it in

there. But then I'm also kind of worried

that I might start getting angry because

I'm starting to get kind of angry with

people on YouTube very easily. I'm very

easily triggered these days. And every

time I do a livestream, there's always

idiots in the comments saying things that

irritate me and I start ranting about it

and it's not good really. If I'm trying to

not sabotage the channel, going off on

these rants really doesn't help. Also,

there's just so many things I can't talk

about, so I feel like it's a lot of stress

trying not to talk about things, being

careful not to let things slip out. And

then what, what am I supposed to talk

about if I can't talk about so many

things? And then most people don't even

donate. I mean, the last 2 streams I did,

I made— I think I made $20 on one stream

and then $25 on the other one. I mean,

it's a waste of time, isn't it? If you

think about how much— how many hours I'm

streaming and then how little money I'm

making. I mean, if it was like back in the

day when I was making hundreds in

donations, then yeah, it'd be worth it.

But for $20, I'm not going to stress

myself out with these hate comments and

stuff when I could just make an OnlyFans

video and sell that for like $25

each and then 20 people would buy it.

Yeah. So I don't know about livestreaming.

I just, I don't enjoy it, to be honest.

I don't think I've ever really enjoyed it.

It's just so time consuming. You run out

of things to say. It's really depressing

when no one donates. Maybe I have to apply

the law of attraction to donating. Maybe

if I let go of the idea of getting

donations, maybe I'll get a bunch of

donations. Anyway, I just find it really

demotivating and depressing when you're

sitting there for hours and hours and

hours and it feels like you're doing it

for nothing. I started thinking about

making a completely fresh new YouTube

channel, new Gmail Google account, and I

won't tell anyone about it so none of the

idiots who like to have a go at me or

troll me will know about it and Hopefully

I'd be able to make a new audience, build

a new audience, and maybe I'll be able to

enjoy making videos again because I

wouldn't have such an irritating bunch of

people watching. Sometimes, sometimes I do

feel kind of sad that I don't really enjoy

making videos anymore because I used to

love it. What happened to Daniel who loved

making videos? I don't know what happened

to him. 2016,

'17. And I'd say the beginning half of

2018, I absolutely loved making videos.

I was so into it. I had all these ideas.

I was really creative, tried my best to be

creative and make good videos. Then I

guess after the last half of 2018,

I just started to get more and more

irritated with the comments and what

people were saying about me, and I just

felt really misunderstood. Like no one

understood that you're not supposed to

take my videos so seriously. And I am just

joking a lot of the time, but it's like

people didn't get it and I just wasn't

good at— I wasn't good at conveying

what I wanted to convey. People thought I

was just being serious and they thought

that was what I was actually like all the

time. It's just so not true because if

you met me in real life, you know, I'm

nothing like that. But I guess it's my

fault because that's how I portrayed

myself. I don't know if I had a more

supportive audience, would I, would I

enjoy making videos more? Is it really the

audience's fault that I lost my enjoyment

of making videos? Who knows? I don't know.

Well, anyway, I'm gonna go back to making

my 10-minute sponsored video. I don't know

how many views it's gonna get. I'm pretty

sure it's gonna get no views. It's going

to get like 5K views because it's about a

website that I'm pretty sure my audience

don't really care about. Because let's

face it, the only thing my audience cares

about are either girls or stupid drama,

relationship drama. They're not going to

care about anything else. I mean, I could

make a video about anything else, and even

if it was a really good video, it still

would get terrible views because no one

cares. All they care about is, oh my God,

I had an argument with my ex-wife or my

girlfriend, or, oh my God, I got dumped

again. It's like, that's all they care

about when it comes to my channel, and

that's really sad and demotivating.

Anyway, yeah, I better get back to work on

my sponsored video. Uh, it was nice

having this little chat. I think I'm just

going to change this second channel to

chatting. About random things because I'm

kind of bored of cooking now. I just cook

the same things every time— pasta and rice

and meat— and I don't really want to show

the kitchen because that might, might dox

my location as well. I mean, it's kind of

obvious if you look at the kitchen

facilities. You can tell from the hob— I

mean, the stove and the counter— you could

match that up to pictures on Airbnb. So I

don't really feel like it's worth it, and

it's not like the cooking videos are

blowing up. I mean, I get more views just

making shitpost videos like My Problem

with the Anime Man. That has 4,500 views,

which I'm pretty pleased with. Usually

videos on this channel only get about 2K

views, so I don't really feel like

it's worth sticking to cooking. I might as

well just choose random topics and some

clickbait here and there. Yeah.

Second channel is still doing okay,

I guess. It hasn't completely sunk like

the first main channel. I guess it's

easier since it's a lot smaller. It's not

really hard to maintain the earnings on

the second channel because they were never

really high in the first place. Actually,

I do feel like I enjoy making videos more

on the second channel. I feel like there's

a lot less pressure. When it comes to

making videos. I don't know why, but I

just feel less pressure on things like

what I have to say or what I shouldn't

say, what I should say. I feel like I can

just say whatever and it doesn't really

matter, whereas it has more of an impact

on the main channel. So, um,

yeah, second channel is a lot more

fun than the main channel, I guess. So

that is all I had to say. Talk to you Next

time, I guess I could easily pump out

daily videos on this channel, maybe boost

the income on the second channel a bit to

help support the main channel since it's

kind of starting to flop, isn't it? Oh,

what should I do? I don't know if people

just really aren't interested in anything

I have to make or do anymore. I'll just go

full clickbait mode and just put

other YouTubers in the title. My problem

with Sharla could be next. My problem with

Akidearest. Who else is there? I mean,

there's loads of other big YouTubers I

could just make fun of. If my audience

don't want to watch anymore, I have to get

someone else's audience to watch, don't I?

I mean, desperate times call for desperate