How the hate comments have affected me

Hi, so I feel like I need to explain my

recent behavior. If you've noticed, my

last few videos have been a bit strange,

a bit crazy, a bit like I'm trolling you.

A lot of people have been saying that he's

just trolling us now, but I wasn't

trolling. Those stories were 100% true. I

did have unprotected sex with my

girlfriend, and I did have a bad case of

dick cheese when I was a teenager. I guess

the way I presented those videos was kind

of like sarcastic and a bit flippant, so

that's why a lot of people thought I was

trolling, but Those stories were 100%

true. I think that in my recent videos in

general, I've adopted this silly, don't

care about anything, not taking anything

seriously kind of attitude when I'm making

videos. And I think that's kind of like a

direct response to all the hate and the

negativity my channel, my videos have

recently been getting. Sometimes it can be

extremely hurtful and upsetting reading

these extremely negative and critical and

judgmental comments that some people enjoy

leaving for some reason. And I think that

my recent behavior is kind of like a

defense mechanism, a coping mechanism

against that. Because I make these really

personal videos and I basically broadcast

everything I'm doing in my life to the

public, I know I open myself up to all

these judgmental and critical and negative

comments and opinions from people. And

yeah, I could just stop making videos, I

could disable the comments, Or I could

just stop talking about really personal

things, but I don't want to stop what I'm

doing. I enjoy doing this. I enjoy reading

the majority of comments that people

leave, and most of the negative comments

don't really affect me. I actually find

them quite funny reading some of the

negative comments. But there are some

people, certain people, who leave these

pure negative, purely insulting

and really critical judgmental comments on

my channel. Every single video, and to be

honest, I'm getting a bit sick of it. So

I've decided to ban these people from

commenting. Up until now, I've left the

comments completely open. I've been very

lenient with it, so I haven't been banning

many people, but this negativity is just—

it's kind of getting to me, to be honest.

And if I can remove this negativity from

my life— it only takes 2 taps to ban

someone from commenting— and if I can

remove that irritation and negativity from

my life Then I'm going to make those 2

taps. And there's no point in making a new

account or logging onto your other YouTube

account and then boasting about it, how—

boasting about how your comments have

gotten to me and that I banned you,

because then I'm going to know that I've

banned you. And then I'm just gonna ban

your new account. It takes me 2 taps to

ban someone from commenting. How many— how

long does it take to make a new YouTube

account? It's your own time you're

wasting. Anyway, I want to talk about mood

swings. Sometimes I feel really shit for

absolutely no reason. And sometimes this

can last several days, and then it gets

better, then I feel completely fine. It

kind of feels like there's this dark cloud

looming over my head, and it's like

sapping all the enthusiasm and positivity

from me. When I have this dark cloud over

me, it kind of feels like everything's

going to fail. I kind of feel like I don't

want to do anything, nothing's worth doing

anymore, and I want to give up on

everything. During these times, I look

really depressed and down, and I go into

work and my coworkers ask me, Daniel, why

do you look so sad? And Honestly, I don't

know why I look so sad or why I feel so

sad. When I think about it, I have nothing

to be sad about. I have a comfortable

lifestyle, I have a loving family, I have

a nice place to live in, I have a job, I

have money, I have everything I need

really. And yet I have this sense of

impending doom, as if the whole world is

going to come to an end tomorrow. And it's

really strange because sometimes a few

hours can pass and the dark cloud just

kind of disappears and Even though nothing

has happened at all, my mood completely

changes and I feel great again. I feel

good again. I feel positive and

enthusiastic about everything. Sometimes I

wonder if I have some kind of bipolar

disorder, but I've never felt so bad that

I've wanted to take my own life. So maybe

I have some kind of mild form of bipolar,

or maybe it's just mood swings. I'm not

sure. And the thing is with the negative

comments is when I'm in a good mood, I

enjoy reading those comments. They make me

laugh and I enjoy responding to them. But

when I'm in a shit mood, those negative

comments just make me feel worse, and I

feel really irritated, and I get very

defensive, and I like argue back with

those people, and it just feels like,

what's the point in this? This is just a

huge waste of time. If you used to like

me, or if you had any kind of respect for

me in the past, I'd just like to say I'm

sorry if you feel upset or disappointed

with my recent behavior. I'm going to try

and tone it down a bit and try and become

a bit more serious like I used to be in my

previous videos before before my channel

grew, and I'd like to say thanks to the

people who still enjoy watching my videos

and the people who support me and tolerate

my behavior and those people who leave me

nice comments. I do appreciate those

people who like to leave constructive

criticism or friendly advice. It's just

that I despise people who don't know how

to offer advice without insulting or

berating that person. I feel like if you

don't know how to speak to someone in a

friendly or civil manner, then you don't

deserve to be listened to. It doesn't

matter how good your advice is. If it's

littered with insults, then I'm just going

to disregard anything you say. Anyway,

I'd like to change the topic slightly,

and I'd like to talk about this website,

this company that have contacted me

recently. They're called betterhelp.com,

and it's this website where you can find

online therapists or counselors to talk to

if you're suffering from things like

depression or anxiety or addiction. I

think that if you're going through hard

times, it can be very helpful to be able

to talk to someone about the problems and

issues you're having. One of the reasons I

enjoy making videos so much is because I

find it to be very therapeutic and helpful

to be able to talk about the problems I'm

having in life and to be able to express

my feelings. I don't think it's a good

idea to keep it all bottled up inside of

you and not express your feelings. I'm

going to leave a link for the BetterHelp

website in the description below this

video. And if you click on that link, it

will take you to the website and you'll

have to fill out this short survey

questionnaire, and then you can make an

account and you can start the 7-day free

trial. It should take under 24 hours for

them to find a counselor or therapist for

you. After the 7-day free trial has ended,

you can move to a paid membership which

can cost from $35 to $85 per week.

And if you do decide to click on the link

and give it a try, leave a comment on this

video and tell me about it. Tell me about

your experience. Tell me if it was helpful

or not. I want to be completely honest

here because I don't want to feel like I'm

taking advantage of people, but this is a

sponsored affiliate link. So if you click

on the link and you go from a free trial

to a paid membership, I will get some

money. BetterHelp contacted me and they

asked me if I'd be interested in making a

video promoting their services, and I said

yes. So just keep that in mind before you

start thinking things like, oh, he's only

doing it for the money. I do think it's

beneficial and helpful to talk to someone,

talk to a therapist or a counselor, if

you're feeling depressed or down, or if

you're having problems in life. So, um,

yeah, thanks for watching and I'll see you